I will repeat it again and again.
For thirty-two, then thirty-three
time stopped. But, when does it end?
With empty rooms and unfilled beds,
and desperation; the last moments
and too many words left unsaid.
I am copying each name with bold black ink onto plain white card, filling the empty space with the only tangible evidence I have. One at a time I place a card face down before me while I consider each as if it were my own. Then, on the back of each card I write my name.
I can, but they cannot.
So, I will.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 1401 – 1600 of 3839 Newer› Newest»ergoproxy said...
gotta love that attorney!
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He's a wise one, Ergo! If you ever need an attorney, I'll send you his number ;)
J said...
"Man, is she ever gonna smack me...maybe it'll feel good, though...naaaaaaah. More than likely not."
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A spanking IS due, methinks! ;)
I would love to read more from that anon too! His story was ...
well...
enticing, exciting, enthralling...
I LIKED IT! :D
congrats BC
Dang it BC! You said I COULD BE ON TOP tonight!!!!
*pouts*
Well, that's it.....
I'm sleeping on the sofa tonight!
;)
Thanks Ergo. Ha ha, Wendy, not this time >:)
Did somebody say spanking?
Can I pick who gives it? Yais?
Yeah, Wendy, our Mr Anon does have a way with words, the turn of a phrase, the vivid imagery...I could get used to reading him...hint hint, Mr Anon...
J
angel said...
It keeps our relationship exciting. He is very real, I assure you. *smiles*
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Hehe! Yes, playing on a blog can be exciting ;)
I'm still waiting for Carrie to ask to play 'in my butt'!
;p
Yeah, but then why Mayo's blog?
See, I just don't be believing that "spice" excuse. I mean, really, now? C'mon, really?
But then I think you are someone else and is calling out that one guy who is on tour right now.
Yes he does J!
Perhaps we can lure him with strawberries and chocolate dipping sauce.....
Isn't it wonderful how drops of chocolate drip - so deliciously - of those strawberries onto...
*wiggles eyebrows*
J I hadn't read the anon story but very true, very vividly written
My ladies, I fear I must leave you for now. Apologies for my brief visit; my wings are drooping from the late hour! The sweetest of dreams to you all: Wendy, J, Bleeding Chaos, Ergoproxy, Carrie, Entropy, Elena, Toujours.
To my Shadow-Star, I am smiling upon you always, my darling.
Until next time, rest well.
wendy - ice cubes .....just sayin'
Entropy: I like SPICE! ;)
How do you feel about Tabasco Sauce? I put it on everything I eat.....
well, almost everything!
I mean, It's not very good on cereal. :p
goodnight angel sweet dreams
Goodnight and sweet dreams Angel.
Goodnight Angel and very sweet dreams to you and your Shadow Star!
Try to be a good Angel tonight ;)
Ergo: Icecubes ARE a personal favorite of mine....hehehe!
BC what did you do with your other ticket? Did you end up giving it away?
Nope. I still have it actually, but I know I won't be able to make it to tomorrow's show.
Goodnight, Angel! See you around some time.
Entropy, I'm curious to know: who do you think Angel is, and who do you think she's writing to?
Ergo, yeah, Mr Anon's story is reallllllllly well-written.
And yes, Wendy, chocolate drips so...enticingly...
J
Entrophy, are you suggesting a particular bassist?
Night guys, I'm up way past my bedtime, I will be zombie mommie tomorrow. And on that note:
Stick a zombie in your butt
Stick some Fitch and Abercrombie in your butt
Carrie,
*groan*
Goodnight anyway! Thanks for enlightening us with the "in your butt" game.
J
Wendy, I do, too! I like tapatio so much better, though. But, yeah, everything. Minus the stuff like cereal or anything else that just know wouldn't go with it.
Night, Carrie. Zombie lady.
night carrie
stick a kangaroo in your butt
stick some glue in your butt
stick a cockerpoo in your butt
haha
sweet dreams
Lol Carrie. Goodnight and sweet dreams.
entropy maybe you should just mind your own business. You seem to make a habit of sticking your nose in where it doesn't belong.
Goodnight Carrie and fun, sweet dreams to you!
Stick a wick in your butt
Stick a brick in your butt
Stick a tick in your butt
Stick a .... (ya'll KNOW what goes there)in your butt
*to send Carrie off to bed with a giggle*
;)
My own business? Dude, public blog.
Entropy: I'm a Lousiana gal! My loyalty is laid along the shores of Avery Island ;)
WE-EN-DY!! You went there!
Well, SOMEBODY went there, I guess. Probably not you. ;D
Stick some dynamite in your butt
Stick some vegemite in your butt
(nod to Ergo on that one!)
Oh, no, I don't want to get drawn back into this...but it's so easy!
J
anon entropy can have an opinion, and angel didn't appear bothered.
Ergo: I just saw the pictures of the new chicks!!! They're adorable!!!!!
BC: How's the headache, sweetcheeks?
Okay, guys, I gotta go to bed, too.
Talk to you tomorrow.
Have a good night and sleep well and have all those pleasant dreams!
It's actually good sugarplum, but I have no time to worry about it. I'm trying to add some pretty photos on my Ipod
:)
Goodnight Entropy! Hey, email me about what you're thinking, yeah? I'm curious. Sweet dreams!
J
gotta go get ready for my bachelorette (hens) night
cowgirl theme - yeee ha!
oh and Gerard said at the concert teh next album will hvae a cowboy theme. lol can't wait to see that!
take care everyone, J BC entropy wendy TJ elena etc etc
see you tomorrow
Mayo and SS no goodnight tonight
sending you heaps of good wishes and love!!
EP xx
Goodnight and sweet dreams Entropy.
Original Punks said...
WE-EN-DY!! You went there!
Oh, no, I don't want to get drawn back into this...but it's so easy!
J
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It is easy....and fun too!
Stick a truck in your butt
Stick a duck in your butt
*passes stick back to Ergo*
;)
Public Blog yes but does that mean you have the right to be rude? The right to try to stir up shit? Yes, I guess it does but that doesn't make it right.
Have a great time Ergo. Cowboy theme? Yeah, I think that's what he was talking about at tonight's show. I was having trouble hearing him talk on the microphone.
Goodnight Entropy and wonderful dreams to you!
Ergo: Have fun with the other HENS tonight!!! Don't do anything I wouldn't do ;)
Goodnight Ergo! Try not to have too much fun...:D
Ergo said:
oh and Gerard said at the concert teh next album will hvae a cowboy theme. lol can't wait to see that!
TEXAS! RODEO! COWBOYS!
ELENA! Did you see this? Holy fuck!
Somebody strap me to the electronic bull!
J
Bleeding Chaos said...
Have a great time Ergo. Cowboy theme?
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O_O
A cowboy theme? Well, why not!
As long as it ROCKS.
I say "Ride 'em cowgirl"
(and cowboy)
:p
Hot Dang, J!
Are we going BULL RIDING again???
*runs up to her room to get her chaps*
:D
Yee-haw!
This calls for more bull riding music, BC!
What speed would you like tonight?
;)
How about... we go with a 8?
Original Punks said...
Goodnight Ergo! Try not to have too much fun...:D
Ergo said:
oh and Gerard said at the concert teh next album will hvae a cowboy theme. lol can't wait to see that!
TEXAS! RODEO! COWBOYS!
ELENA! Did you see this? Holy fuck!
Somebody strap me to the electronic bull!
__________________
Let's just say someone is good at the rodeo!!!!!!!!!!!!
Elena!!!! The bull riding talk drew you out, eh?
Did you bring the donuts? ;)
Elena! HAHAHAHAHA!! I wish L were here to share this with you. :D
Good at the rodeo, indeed! Big Texas! "Hang 'Em High"!
So, Wendy, what IS good bullriding music?
Oh, and set me on 10, you lightweights. :P
J
Well I was playing Rock Band and getting in touch with my Inner Bob but something told me "There's a disturbance in the Force.....talk of donuts and rodeos." I had to come to this place.
Hi Elena. J, nah, too tired to go at a 10 speed.
Okay BC, 8 it is!
AC DC with Bon Scott TNT
:D
Use the Donuts, Elena. Do you often feel a disturbance in the Rodeo?
"Elena...I am your Texas."
J
Hey BC
Still grooving on the MCR feeling?
TJ says "Hello" too.
Ha ha. I like Hells Bells betta!! :D
Grooving was replaced with an intense feeling of tiredness I'm afraid *stifles a yawn* I'm gonna go lay down and switch.
Hi squeak squeak, in case you're lurking *waves*
Original AC/DC? Oh man, yeah! It's funny, Logan LOVES AC/DC. I think he's only heard Brian Johnson, though, not Bon Scott.
His favorite is "Thunderstruck".
He also likes Elvis Costello and the English Beat, and classical, of course.
Dumplin seems to like Evanescence, BC. :)
J
"The donute force is strong in this one..."
Or ON this one.....
"Do or do not. There is no try."
Well, perhaps practicing is okay.
What is good bull riding music, you ask?
Well, there's:
The Bullet Boys "Smooth Up In Ya"
Motley Crue "Wild Side"
Wilson Pickett "Mustang Sally"
AC/DC "Thunderstruck", "TNT" and "All Night Long"
Ohhh...and The CULT works well with bull riding ;)
Elena: The FORCE was too powerful wasn' it? We knew you could not resist! *big wink*
Or "covering this one"!
How about:
"Come to the glazed side."
And of course:
"May the Cream be with you."
J
J: your bunnies have GREAT musical taste!
Original Punks said...
Or "covering this one"!
How about:
"Come to the glazed side."
And of course:
"May the Cream be with you."
J
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LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!
"May the Cream be with you."
Oh Lord, TJ is already sheliding her eyes because of the remark she knows I'm gonna make.........
No, may the cream be with You.....(or on you)
J, aww he does? What an awesome cat ^_^
oh holy hell. don't you guys have a porn blog???????????????????
D:
(i'm not laughing. this is not funny. no no no. innocent, me, always!!!! must. resist. corruption!))
*pouts*
I missed out on the cream tonight
:(
Dang!
Logan is very picky about his music. He does NOT like Mariah Carey--then again, who does? Pinkle likes more alternative tunes, as does Dumplin. He's Mr Rock 'n' Roll Katt. ;) Raindrop prefers classical or just plain instrumentals. Oh yeah, Logan also likes the standards channel: Dean Martin (who I love too), Connie Francis, people like that.
Dumplin and Pinkle like music with lyrics. Raindrop and Logan don't, as much.
And Dumplin almost threw up the first time he heard "Teenagers"! (That was my fault, though: he'd just had his pill, and I was dancing around the LR holding him.)
J
J:
LOL
tj, traumatized said...
(i'm not laughing. this is not funny. no no no. innocent, me, always!!!! must. resist. corruption!))
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Innocent, huh?
I BELIEVE you, TJ! Really, I DO!
.
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.
.
*falls off chair in fit of laughter*
:))
*looking over at TJ and laughing*
Oh come on, Pollyanna, lighten up.
She's asking if I'm calling her a prude?
Uh, yeah. Shit, TJ you know I've been corrupting you since day one.
She just said "It tickles."
Glad I could help out.....
He IS awesome, BC, truly and totally!
Elena said...
No, may the cream be with You.....(or on you)
Or...
...wait for it...
...IN YOU.
Yes, I went there.
TJ, quit covering your eyes! YES we have a porn blog for this, but Hell, who's gonna complain at 3 (or 2) in the morning? GET WITH THE PROGRAM, WOMAN! Hell, you've been married, you know what to do!
J
My cats and Bingles Bunny only seem to like MY VOICE!
LOL!!! They have NO musical taste!
Tone-deaf, Wendy, obviously. :)
J
GET WITH THE PROGRAM, WOMAN! Hell, you've been married, you know what to do!
J
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Wait....
I HAVEN'T been MARRIED. Does that mean I SHOULDN'T KNOW what to do?
I mean.....I DON'T know what to do. Really, I have no clue....
I is as pure as the driven snow!
.
.
.
.
.
*fall off chair in fit of laughter again*
oh gosh, j!
maybe i was married, but now that i'm single again it's all madonna's "like a virgin", y'know?
lol
(btw, elena just took me over to your blog...yowza!)
No, Wendy, I would HOPE you know what to do! And after reading your story, I'm pretty sure you can't pull that "pure/driven snow" shit on us.
See, by telling TJ that she should know what to do since she was married, I was meaning that she HAS NO EXCUSE for acting coy and innocent. That is, WE KNOW BETTER.
Now, back to the good stuff.
J
Hahaha!
you tell her J!
TJ: Did you read (and enjoy) Mr. Anon's story?
*wiggles eyebrows*
Hey, great, TJ! Now you can submit YOUR story! We're trying to get The Queen of Porn to write something, and she says she's going to, but so far...nothing.
So. Did it, like, burn your eyes or anything?
J
Original Punks said...
No, Wendy, I would HOPE you know what to do! And after reading your story, I'm pretty sure you can't pull that "pure/driven snow" shit on us.
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OH POOP! I thought I could FOOL YOU ALL (at this oh so very late date)!
;)
BC: When do we get to read Part 2 from you, sweetcheeks?
Yeah, J and anon....
Both of you tell my little Pollyanna sister here to lighten up and go with the flow...(or donuts)
I can't post what she just said cause she'd kill me in my sleep but trust me it was funny.........
Absolutely, Anon! Maybe you should help us out a little, cause, you know, TJ seems a tad...repressed. Divorced TOO long, I'll bet. ;)
Ok, who's up for un-repressing TJ?
J
Elena: I keep forgetting to ask;
How did your daughter enjoy her prom?
So. Did it, like, burn your eyes or anything?
um...well...yes...
but, y'know...
not my eyes.
TJ: Did you read (and enjoy) Mr. Anon's story?
*wiggles eyebrows*
actually, i did. i like the ones with intense emotions.
like, whoa.
Original Punks said...
Absolutely, Anon! Maybe you should help us out a little, cause, you know, TJ seems a tad...repressed. Divorced TOO long, I'll bet. ;)
Ok, who's up for un-repressing TJ?
J
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Whipped REESES bars required!!
TJ, there's hope for you yet! heeheehee
It says very plainly, right there in white and orange, that the contents are of a controversial nature. Once you click that "I understand and I wish to continue", it ain't nobody's fault but yer own, kid. ;)
Somehow, I think "It burned me" would be great publicity for it!
J
Well sugarplum, the answer to your question would be..................
TJ seems a tad...repressed. Divorced TOO long, I'll bet. ;)
more like not divorced long enough!!
i haven't had a chance to broaden my horizons!
Wendy, no prom yet. Remember prom is the night I'm spending with a certain group of guys.
"Once you click that "I understand and I wish to continue", it ain't nobody's fault but yer own, kid. ;)"
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Very true, J! Very true!
If you CLICK it, you must WANT it...
or, at least want to read it ;)
BC: Does that mean it's already written? :D
Remember prom is the night I'm spending with a certain group of guys.
wow.
"off like a prom dress" seems to apply more to mom than the kids!
"off like a prom dress" seems to apply more to mom than the kids!
One can only hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Whipped" being the operative word, right, Wendy?
TJ, since you're going to all these concerts, you've got a perfect opportunity. Just pick out some cute young guy--not TOO young, check for ID--and say, "Hey baby, you wanna learn somethin' from this hot older chickie?" And then, you know, go hide somewhere with him.
Ok people, I can hear what you're thinking:
"J seems to know an awful lot about this..."
I have NEVER picked up a guy at a concert. EVER.
*shushes Frank and pushes him back under the covers*
*is joking*
J
Elena said...
Wendy, no prom yet. Remember prom is the night I'm spending with a certain group of guys.
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Ooops! Sorry Elena!
I thought prom night was this week's 'night spent with a certain group of guys'.
*blushes*
"off like a prom dress" seems to apply more to mom than the kids!
One can only hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fingers crossed and other parts uncrossed! (I got that quote from TJ) REALLY!
Um..................
Nope ^_^
TJ, since you're going to all these concerts, you've got a perfect opportunity. Just pick out some cute young guy--not TOO young, check for ID--and say, "Hey baby, you wanna learn somethin' from this hot older chickie?" And then, you know, go hide somewhere with him.
*taking notes*
*covers eyes so she can't see all the 'off like a prom dress' talk*
My niece's prom was 2 weeks ago!
LOL.....
and she WAS grinning from ear to ear the next day.
OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;)
Original Punks said...
"Whipped" being the operative word, right, Wendy?
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Of course, J!
*wicked laugh*
Do you know, Elena, how badly I want to comment on your "prom night spent with a certain group of guys"?
DO YOU KNOW?!
But, I'm going to restrain myself and be quiet.
*whistles*
*taps fingers*
*takes deep breath*
Ok, I can't do it.
Boy, that sounds like Madonna's prom night!
Which leads me to remember this joke:
What does Madonna wear behind her ears?
Her feet.
HA!
J
"Fingers crossed and other parts uncrossed! (I got that quote from TJ) REALLY!"
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O_O
I'm shocked! ;)
^^ ha!
J !!!
That joke reminds me of that 'performance' I recently witnessed at The Dungeon!
LOL!!!!!!!!
I'll have to give that 'performance':
an 7 for artistic vision
a 9 for confidence
and a TEN for endurance !!!!
Wendy, FTW! Too funny. Did you see any pointy breast cones?
J
Lol
*snickers*
Boy, it's like somebody pulled all our plugs at once, innit?
J
elena and i have a new catch phrase.
"no way sister!"
*two women rolling on the floor with laughter*
*is scarred for life*
;)
And, on that note, I must be off for awile!
Have a great rest of the night/day
J, BC, Elena, TJ, Mayo, SS, anons, lurkers, cowboys and cowgirls!
Ohhhh.....
Concert Going Anon: How were the BOUNCING SOULS last night?
*supposes she was too tired to give us a review tonight*
Well, I hope you had a great time!
Possum: *big hug* It's difficult not to wonder WHY sometimes, isn't it.....
I suppose one day we'll have all the answers to all the WHYS. Well, I hope (and believe) we shall. Even if those answers don't make much sense to us ....
I think acceptance is often the key.
Okay, I'm off now before I get too philosophical :)
Goodnight (for now) and sweet dreams to one and all!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
*two women rolling on the floor with laughter*
get your mind out of the gutter.
*two women rolling on the floor with laughter*
Hey, if the visual makes you smile....
Go for it
but wait...
isn't that incest?
Goodnight Wendy, have beautiful dreams. *hugs and kisses*
Sparkle sends special lambkin nuzzles and snuggles. "Baa BAAA, baaa baaba!" ("Night NIGHT, Aunt Wendy!")
Talk to you tomorrow, or later today, whichever.
J
tj said...
but wait...
isn't that incest?
You know, she does have really pretty eyes
Goodnight and sweet dreams sugarplum. And on that note, I'm gonna go to sleep right now. I'll be dreaming of ways to take over the world and to dream about that drummer *winks at wendy*
Goodnight J, Elena, TJ. Sweet dreams guys.
*runs back in to answer J*
NOPE! The only pointy thing that girl was wearing were 5 inch stilettos .....
they were over her head most of the time!
*YIKES - the visual is back in my head*
See what you've done, J!!!!
;p
Goodnite (again) all!
Pollyanna Toujours is dead.....
Sorry Mayo, I know I promise to keep an eye on her....
Oh my cow, it's getting bad, even by my standards.
Goodnight Elena, TJ, BC, and Anon/s, hope you all get some sleep and have a great Friday!
I...shall return. But much, much later.
Ergo, hope you made it back alive.
love, peace, hope, faith, happiness, and brownies
J
*runs back in ONCE more*
Baaaaa Baaaa Baaa ABAAAAAAAA BAAA
BaaBaaBa AbaaABAA
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Sparkle will that J!
(part of the translation: I LOVE YOU TOO, Sparkle)
The rest is a little toooo naughty!
;)
Mayo,
Whoops, gotta watch that Typo Fairy, she made me type "Mayoo" at first. Hell, that just goes along with the rodeo theme, though. Kinda sounds like a cow with a Southern accent: MAY-OO!
Great galloping grandmas (as Weasel would say), it's been hellatious in here tonight. It's bad enough that Wendy, Elena and I are *ahem* "dirty old bitches" (direct anon quote from the SP blog, long since deleted), but now we've corrupted TJ as well.
DO YOU SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU LEAVE US UNATTENDED.
Yeah, I know you like it, but hey...this is a Family blog...
Anyway, I'm outta here for now. Sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy. Take care of yourself, Mr. Naise. I love ya.
J
elena.
we have the blog to ourselves now.
*looks at the corner speculatively*
SS baby,
Yeah, I know, I'm shameless. But you like me that way, admit it. Wouldn't know how to deal with me otherwise, would you? Didn't think so.
It's possible I've been up too long. Or, I might be keeping questionable company.
Naaah. Neither one of those sounds plausible.
Alright, so, I guess my only excuse is, I'm under the influence. Of what, you may ask. And I answer, you're a clever boy, paint your own picture. ;D
AAAAAAAAnd on that note, I'm off to my bed. Goodnight, precious, I love you.
J
P.S. to SS:
Uh, should say "been inspired". Not so much "under the influence". But that works too.
J
morning mayo!
morning SS!
morning guys!
i have not caught up really at all!!
no time! just popping in to say hope everyone has lovely weekends. i'm off to a wedding so will catch some of you around on sunday!!
sorry so brief but i have to fly!!
love to you all!
Mayo
So how was your day? Mine was fucking fantastic, thank you for asking. (I know you asked me). TJ and my friend A went on a book treasure hunt. Yep, I’m always rattling on about doing these and today TJ got to see first hand what it’s like. Good times, good times. It’s so wonderful to have another book lover along for the adventure. Not only did we go to bookstores we hit garage sales and thrift stores all on the quest for books. A mighty quest it was indeed.
You know I still find it so unbelievable that one of my friends from the blog has become a part of my “real” life. Never did I think when I’d write about going on book hunts did I think someone from the castle would accompany me. Well other than you, Mayo. You’re always with me. Shit, that sounded too weird. Okay I almost erased that line but I’ll tell you why I didn’t. Do you know why? Cause it’s true. Side note – should I learn to lie? I mean really, this honestly thing is so annoying sometimes. Okay way off track, here’s the thing. You are always in my thoughts. Not like all the time. I mean really I don’t eat and breathe Mayo. Holy shit, I’m so restraining myself at this moment. Let’s just walk right on by that whole line. Look what I’m trying to say is this – You and this blog family are always with me. Just the feeling that I’m not alone. In the back of my mind I know there are people who care about me. I see things that remind me of the people here. I see things that remind me of you. (Don’t ask) and today I had a very real reminder of the castle. I had TJ beside me. (Okay not always beside me. I swear the more it rained the slower she would walk. Something about loving the rain.)
So to wrap this up….It was a day I will always remember and treasure. Hell I even bought all of us our very own TJ favorite “Reese’s Whipped “candy bars. I hadn’t eaten a candy bar in a year and a half but I did today. Now I’ve got to get her a “Cherry Mash”. She’s never heard of them and they used to be my favorite. Ever have one, Mayo? Oh crap, now I’m gonna start to sound like her. I’m suggesting candy bars to you. (mine’s better than hers). Sorry couldn’t help it.
Well TJ’s in the other room getting in touch with her “Inner Bob” right now so I better go see how she’s doing. Man, I’ve got someone to play Rock Band with, this is so cool. Hope you have someone to play with. Shit, I meant to play Rock Band with. Oh and really Cherry Mash, try it. Would I steer you wrong? Well, would I? Come on Mayo, a little trust here. I trust you, you gotta know that.
Night Mayo
Elena (my turn to get in touch with my Inner Bob)
mayo.
mayoooooo.
are you asleep? i hope so. a brain like yours needs rest, my friend.
elena and i have been sitting here talking the late-night talk, the talks where you tell your life story, and all the scars are revealed, and you're seen for who you are.
and now, we're thinking about you, beautiful man.
we wouldn't be here, sitting together, tired but still awake, if it weren't for you, you know. i suppose i tell you that a lot, too, but gods, it's the truth, mayo.
you are the reason we are sisters now.
that isn't meant to bind you, or make you feel a responsibility to us. we're grown women (evidence to the contrary notwithstanding), we can take responsibility for ourselves. but oh my, the gratitude i want to heap upon you.
there will never be enough space on this blog to express it.
things are changing so fast, and every day is a revelation to me, mayo. but there's a constant, there is actually something that is keeping me grounded.
yes, i have my gods, but what i'm referring to is...well, you know. i write about it a lot.
see, here? about my wrist?
a silver spider's thread wrapped round and about, and tied tight, and the end of it...?
well, i know it's anchored somewhere secure. somewhere safe. somewhere i can trust.
so i may be homeless in the real world, but i know in my heart i'm not truly homeless.
and i have friends now, a heart's family.
tonight i was answering the perplexed questions of elena's 15-year-old daughter. she couldn't fathom how someone could live such an unstructured life, a life so dependant on the fates. it truly boggled her mind.
from the outside, it looks like i'm the will o' the wisp, it looks like i have nothing.
but i do have a home.
and that's gift enough.
this has been too much fun, mayo, my man. some weird magic sprang up between elena and i and brought you right out of that corner, like a genie out of a bottle, and i feel like the three of us have been playing all week long.
how glorious. how surprising. how utterly fantastically welcome.
and now...
the clock chimes (no,it really does. she has a clock that chimes.) and that means, hie away to my couch!
i have poetry to organize on the morrow.
i really do hope you're sleeping right now. you need your dreams to restore your spirit, every night.
a most good night to you, mayo-sama, and a day in which your heart is brimming full.
Shalom Mayo, SS, TJ, Elena, J, FASC, (the probably soon to arrive) KASS, Possum and RW; watchers, lurkers; magicians, wizards, witches and warlocks of blogbelieve!
How is everyone today? Well, happy and feeling the magic (as are Elena & TJ), I hope!
Miranth!!!!! It's so good to 'see' you. We have missed you, love. I hope your internet connection issues are worked out SOON. We need to do some more sliding and swingin' again!
*big hugs for Miranth*
Mayo and SS: I hope you are both taking good care of yourselves; enjoying life and spreading (and receiving - as appropriate) some love and sunshine wherever you go!
To ponder today:
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"The moment when you first wake up in the morning is the most wonderful of the twenty-four hours. No matter how weary or dreary you may feel, you possess the certainty that, during the day that lies before you, absolutely anything may happen. And the fact that it practically always doesn't, matters not a jot. The possibility is always there."
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Wishing you all a day filled with recognition of all the wonderful possibilities!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
One more thing:
bikey said...
Hi K, RW, Anima, S&V!
Someone chained me up in the dungeon and kept me as her slave.
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O_O
You PROMISED you wouldn’t tell! See IF I chain you to the wall again! ;)
PS: Sorry about forgetting to feed you for a few days *blushes*
PSS: A shower is currently being installed in the dungeon!
PSSS: How the HECK did you escape????
;)
WELCOME BACK BIKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Morning Mayo!
Morning BlogPeeps!
I see we're up for molesting young gentlemen now. Funnily enough, the last male to try and chat me up was all of 16 - which is UK legal, but yikes I could almost have been his mother!
For anyone who cares, MSI's new album got a 4K (ie. good) review in Kerrang, although they did refer to them as "that band with the bassist wot married that guy out of MCR". I'm beginning to feel sorry for the girl's total lack of her own identity...
Have a great day!
Kass xx
YIKES!
Quote credit to: MONICA BALDWIN
*apologies to Ms. Baldwin for forgetting that up ^^ there*
O_O
16 is legal in the UK ????
I'm with you Kass. It might be legal; but that don't make it right!
I just fail to see what one THAT YOUNG would have to offer (besides the ICK and SICK factor).....
I have no problem with older women/younger men -- trust me on that ;)
But, being (at least 21 years) out of diapers is required!
I've always preferred MATURED ROSES
:)
^*just my own opinion there*^
Hi 616,
"I just fail to see what one THAT YOUNG would have to offer (besides the ICK and SICK factor)....."
Unless, of course, they know how to complete Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time or TR4, because I've owned those games for 5/10 years and I still can't finish them!
It would appear that there's a lot you can't do before you're 21 in the US - I once won 10 dollars on a slot machine in an Indian Reservation casino and they wouldn't let me cash in my voucher without ID; when I took it back a full 4 years later they said it was out of date, grrr...
Kass xx
Mayo,
Hey, how are you? Are you glad it's Friday or are you like me and the days just get to running together? One into the next and the next and the next and they're all the same anyways, so. No, I guess I'm sorta glad it's Friday. I feel somewhat better than last night, but I slept like, well, like a person who can't sleep. That's always an adventure in its self. But I can make up for that tomorrow. Saturdays are good for sleeping late I suppose.
What am I babbling about this morning? I don't know. No, seriously. I don't know. Where the hell does this shit come from? You know I got to thinking I've wrote you a ton of notes. Like how many days times two???? Do I still have anything useful to say? If I do, I'm struggling to find it today. So what can we take from that? Maybe some days it's not about digging deep and finding it. Maybe some days it's about trusting yourself enough to know that it's in there.
Feel me? Yeah, I know. This is a tough one.
Mayo, hope your Friday finds you feeling good, believing in yourself, and finding just the right words to say.
Love to YOU Always,
S
P.S. Because there is always someone out there who needs to hear them.
Being woken up by an earthquake is pretty awesome.
the beauty of these words
reminds me of you
-and our dreams at night-
my love
my heart
my tomorrows
my always
be well
THE SADNESS OF THE MOON
Charles Baudelaire
THE Moon more indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her couch at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
Hey earthquake anon, I wondered how many BB's got shook up when I saw that on the news this morning.
Dudes, I saw it on the news, too.
They said that thing was felt for 450 miles. O_O
I hope everyone's okay!
Hi Anon, TLA & Carrie!
*quickly checks out Google*
So you're in Illinois, then, Anon?
Kass xx
8:17, those words are stunning.
WEST SALEM, Ill. - A 5.4-magnitude earthquake that appeared to rival the strongest recorded in the region rocked people up to 450 miles away early Friday, surprising residents unaccustomed to such a powerful Midwest temblor.
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The quake just before 4:37 a.m. was centered six miles from West Salem, Ill., and 66 miles from Evansville, Ind. It was felt in such distant cities as Chicago, Cincinnati, Milwaukee, and Des Moines, Iowa, 450 miles northwest of the epicenter, but there were no early reports of injuries or significant damage
The quake shook skyscrapers in Chicago's Loop, 240 miles north of the epicenter, and in downtown Indianapolis, about 160 miles northeast of it.
Morning everyone!
FASC said,
SS obviously in england pants are underwear so when i read your location in my pants....
Ergo confessed,
for me pants = underpants, so perhaps I've had a different take on this game heehee ;)
Haha! Yay for the British Commonwealth. Pants means underwear here, too!
Ooh, my sides may be about to burst!! Some of us have apparently been having a way more inappropriate layer of fun with the 'in my pants' game!!
And we're going to stick with our meaning =)
Hey Mayo,
?_?
What?
^_^
Hi SS,
Lesson for today. The English language can get you arrested for exposure.
Please don't feel the need to adjust your language. We find we are coping with it in our own special *cough dirty cough* way =)
Hi PJ!
'Night All.
Wow, pretty powerful. Mother Nature must have eaten something unsettling last night. :/
Have a great day, guys!
See you all around!
That sounds a big shake for built up areas.
Does anyone know how deep it was?
Hi everyone.
Just a quickie from work.
My computer got picked up yesterday to go off to PC world to get checked. I think it's OK but I need a new power pack cos my other one exploded on Monday.
It went pop and bang and then the flames came. It fused the electrics but they are OK.
Luckily the flames burnt themselves out.
I'm not joking when I use the word exploded.
I did the typical female thing of flapping my arms around and going "oh no, oh no" Which of course rectified the situation straight away ha ha ha!
I hope I won't be without the laptop more than a week.
I love you all and miss you all.
I hope to see you all soon.
Hi PP!
Bye MIB!
"Mother Nature must have eaten something unsettling last night."
I like the way that you put that.
The office has been overtaken by the CD-ROM I got with my Happy Meal yesterday - it's a fairy which you download onto your desktop, then you can prod it with your pointer and make it giggle/choak on a cherry/do yoga. Honestly, I've never seen so many grown women completely transfixed by their screens! Well, it is nearly the weekend...
Kass xx
I did the typical female thing of flapping my arms around and going "oh no, oh no" Which of course rectified the situation straight away ha ha ha!
Works a charm everytime ^_^
8:11am anon, glad you enjoyed the early wakeup =)
Hope everyone else is okay as well.
'Night all.
*pops back for a mo*
Hi/Bye Mustard!
Hi Kass!
Do yoga? Geez, the job description for being a fairy just became a whole lot more flexible.
Right. Must.Go.
Bye!
*pops back out again*
Good morning everyone.
I am so sick this morning. I woke up in the middle of the night with a terrible sore throat. :(
Oh and guess what? We had an earthquake early this morning. My bed was shaking - 'effing freaky I tell ya. I almost thought I imagined it, but I just checked it out and apparently it was a 5.2 with the center being in Southern Illinois.
Well, my lovely friends, I must get to workin'...
wishing all of you an awesome day.
♥
Oh damn, sorry 'news at nine,' I did not even read your report. I'm really out of it today.
I really should read all the comments before I post. ^_^
there's work to be done, or so i'm told, but an earthquake in chicago,eh?
damn, boys! you don't have to play so hard!!
yeah TJ there is work to be done!
*glares at her lazy ass friend*
As for the quake TJ and I didn't feel it probably cause we were rockin' out so hard playing Rock Band!!
just got home it's 1:23 am hen's night was ok, good bit of fun and dancing, fun watching others get drunk , only had penis straws, so all good! (mine is purple :/)
wow earthquake in chicago - damn even the earth rumbles with satisfaction after MCR play!
take care, I'm sleeping in tomorrow
sneaking a glance back blog-ward to read a poem i did not get a chance to earlier...
my taskmaster distracted in the other room...
speechless.
*eep*
back to work!
she returns!
We just had another tremor. Freaky shit man.
geez anima! be careful,ok? you feel another one, duck under a sturdy desk or stand in a doorway -- i'd like to see you again!
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New Alicia Way photo
Thanks anon
That's a great photo of Alicia.
:O
just 'cause i got to the computer first this morning...
sha.
TJ, I will totally do that - I want to see you again too! I have a feeling we are going to get a few more aftershocks. It's the craziest feeling.
Beautiful photo of Alicia. I am so jealous of her tattoos. I've been dying to get my arm done, but I will have to wait just a little longer. Gotta get out of this job first!
*waves to Elena. Don't let TJ be a computer piggy. I thought she was supposed to be earning her keep. TJ, get back to work woman! :)
*heehee*
it's ok anima! she's out getting more stock at the moment -- and she was just showing off google earth to me. it's amazing! (we were peeking at chicago...might go get in line at the show -- virtually, natch -- later! lol)
oops! she's back!
*grin*
talk to you later -- be careful!
"off like a prom dress" seems to apply more to mom than the kids!One can only hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!Fingers crossed and other parts uncrossed! (I got that quote from TJ) REALLY"
It sounds like Elena is saying that if she's lucky she'll get to take her clothes off and uncross her legs when she meets MCR. That is why some people get angry when a certain kind of fan disses young fangirls. Old fangirls are just as bad if not worse. This place was supposed to be an escape from the fangirls who want G or Frank's body but it really is no different from INO and Buzznet after all. We expect the creepy stalkerish fangirling of Frank from the OPs with their 'disapproval' of his marriage and all the nasty things they say about him. But coming from Elena, it let's you know how much this place has changed and is now just like any other fangirl site. Where the guys can do no wrong and are considered fangirl bait and pieces of meat.
I'm disappointed.
I'm disappointed too anon. IN YOU
Twisting the words of others who were just having fun with friends.
Don't you have something better to do with your time?
It sounds like Elena is saying that if she's lucky she'll get to take her clothes off and uncross her legs when she meets MCR.
you need to re-read that conversation, anon @ 12:40. you'll find that that particular joke was mine.
i said that.
do you want to be disappponted in me, too? do you want to call me a fangirl, who sees the men of mcr as "bait"?
or perhaps you might keep your rash judgements about people and events you have clearly misunderstood to yourself in the future.
i know my honor is intact. i know the respect and admiration i hold for my chemical romance is untarnished by the ribaldry we were indulging in last night.
But coming from Elena, it let's you know how much this place has changed and is now just like any other fangirl site.
But coming from Elena? Excuse me but how on earth did I ever come across as Snow White in a nun's habit? Good Lord, I'm the one who wrote Mayo porn as a gift. I'm an adult who kids about things. TJ and I were goofing around. Get over it. Loook I'm older but I'm not dead. They are good looking guys. I'm gonna make comments like that sometimes.
And I'm sure that those guys, being adults themselves would understand the difference between being objectified and included in girl's night out humor.
(sorry the delete was me. I was still signed in under TJ's name)
Anonymous spewed...
We expect the creepy stalkerish fangirling of Frank from the OPs with their 'disapproval' of his marriage and all the nasty things they say about him.
Yeah, and you knew I'd be here eventually. Hey Anon, got some questions for you.
1) Where, I ask WHERE, did I EVER "disapprove" of Frank's marriage? POST IT HERE, NOW.
2) Where, I ask WHERE AGAIN, have I EVER said anything "nasty" about Frank? POST IT HERE, NOW.
Either put up, or shut up.
Everything Elena and TJ said is correct. There were, what, about half a dozen women in here last night, tired, blowing off steam, and yeah, talk of attractive men DOES come up. That's happened everywhere I ever worked, too. Unless you've a) never hung around groups of normal, red-blooded women, or b) don't talk about guys, then you would know this.
And who the Hell is this "we" you keep talking about? You and the rat in your pocket? Do "we" know you're "our" spokesperson?
And best of all, if you don't like it...
GO AWAY.
Hi Elena and TJ!
J
Hey J
How are you today? I have TJ working already and we're not even at the store yet. She now knows how to help me with the mailing. I like having an assistant.
Well, Elena, at least she's "good for something" besides talking smut! heeheehee
I'm ok today, already cleaned the catbox and am getting ready to start on my neighbor's "thank you" dinner. I promised him baked spaghetti and garlic bread in exchange for replacing my battery. Told him I'd fix it and bring it over so he and his girlfriend could enjoy it together.
Then he says, "Hey, I can tell her I made it!"
Guys. :D
J
How is it any different from the fangirls at INO and BN. It's not. OPS it's obvious how much you both dislike Jamia you were the only ones who never said a thing about the marriage. Besides, your thoughts on Jamia are out to most people, they just never talk about them. And you are always saying nasty sexual things about Frank, always.
I just saw the most incongruous sight in the grocery store--a big burly tattooed Harley Guy in full leather regalia delicately sniffing the fennel bulbs in the produce section. I wish I would have had a camera with me, and I'm not even an artsy fartsy type.
Hello Everyone,
I have been away much too long and I have missed everyone.
Wanted to say Hi. It is absolutely beautiful outside so I am going to take my daughter on a long walk.
I will be on later to catch up on how everyone is doing.
TJ, you have a email coming, but not until after the walk.
Have you considered the possibility of Cleveland? If you want to, I know we could make it work!
Have a glorious day!!!!!
-VM
time to go to work! (like playing with books is actually "work" for me. lol)
maybe elena will be nice and let me peek in on the doings here on the blog from the store -- if there's anything going on, that is. it's so quiet today.
anyway, i just wanted to say this before we go:
it occurred to me that my journey is at a crossroads today. i can choose to back off and make the safe choice, and keep to my original plan and head to my folks' this weekend -- or i can strike off on the harder path, the one the fates have shown me with vm's invite to the cleveland show.
how much dedication do i have to transformation, to my ultimate goal?
how much do i want to be my true self?
how much strength do i have in my heart?
gotta go. my mistress calls. *grin*
back later!
vm! how funny that you should comment while i was musing over the implications of your offer!
i look forward to your email!
:)
That bag I mantioned last night is almosr completely eaten!! GrrrB my friend who was supposed to work all day ended up bailibg early leaving me with asscrack who hs done little other than wal around doing that snapsnapclap thing with his handa rhat he ALWAYS does which drives me crazy.
Yet I have finished the main afternoon rounds already, alone.
THIS IS WHY I AM TEAM AWESOME!
That bag I mantioned last night is almosr completely eaten!! GrrrB my friend who was supposed to work all day ended up bailibg early leaving me with asscrack who hs done little other than wal around doing that snapsnapclap thing with his handa rhat he ALWAYS does which drives me crazy.
Yet I have finished the main afternoon rounds already, alone.
THIS IS WHY I AM TEAM AWESOME!
Anon's words:
"OPS it's obvious how much you both dislike Jamia you were the only ones who never said a thing about the marriage."
Never said anything about Gerard's marriage either, yet we're never accused of disliking Lyn-Z.
Anon's words:
"Besides, your thoughts on Jamia are out to most people, they just never talk about them."
Neither of us ever talk about Jamia, to anyone. And, may I ask again, you have proof of this how?
Anon's words:
"And you are always saying nasty sexual things about Frank, always."
Like what, specifically? I don't seem to recall anything "nasty". Sexual, yes. Nasty, no. There IS a difference.
You seem REALLY uptight about sex, my girl. What's happened to you to cause you to feel this way?
I'll be around off and on, whenever you decide to speak to me while I'm actually here. Under your real name.
J
J,
what's your age, just wondering.
If you've been around, Anon, you know my age. What's yours?
J
i'm 31 and i'm not the anon you are fighting with.
Ok, that's good. I'm 42. Is that important?
J
No disrespect intended, but, it seems a sort of random question.
J
i was just wondering, because the other anon is making it sound like your old enough to be Frank's grandmother.
Hmm, yeah, that happens a lot, unfortunately. Not sure what the big deal is. They're also trying to make me sound perverted and disgusting. I would never be disrespectful to Frank, or ANYONE, for that matter. People who really know me understand that.
J
Some of these anons consider anyone over 30 to have one foot in the grave. Correction, they consider any woman over 30 ready to be put out to pasture. It's a little more telling of their very young age really.
At least of their mental/emotional age, Anon. There are so many adults out there that act more immaturely than the very teenagers they scorn.
"Out to pasture" made me laugh. Reminds me of the "you're all a bunch of old horses/cows/hogs/etc" days of old...
I take it your opinion of older women is different, then?
J
And no, that wasn't a come-on, don't worry. Just taking a poll. :)
J
Well, yes, mental age/maturity level is what I meant. And my opinion of older women is different than their's considering that they would consider me 'ready for the glue factory' as well.
And you only 31, too...wait 'til you hit my age, then you'll be an antique. But the thing is, I feel younger than I did 10 years ago. I certainly don't look 42. My KNEES would disagree with the feeling-younger line, though...:)
J
Haha, it wasn't a come on? And I here I thought these anons said you were a 'nasty, perverted old woman'? Just kidding xD
Sorry for the delay in answering, I was off looking at Frank pictures ;)
Well, good for you, it's always smart to have a hobby! haha
And normally, yeah, I am a nasty, perverted old woman, but sometimes even I have to take a break. ;)
J
I'm a different anon, I guess I should stop being lazy and add a name. I'm actually 35. And boy this fandom can sure make you feel even older sometimes.
anon35
Wow, it's Old Chick Day at Mayo's. Where did the two of you emerge from, btw?
J
Now why is it that when I ask a question, people always clam up? I know I brushed my teeth...
Interesting, that.
J
J, quick question, if you don't mind answering.
i had a peak at your "risque" blog. i like some of the stories there, in particular the one submitted by another anon. it wasn't the description of the deed, which i found breathtaking, but the emotional vulnerability expressed.
Was this story posted to you recently?
Um, no disrespect back at you, Anon No. 3, but, what does the date of posting have to do with it? Technically, they've ALL been posted recently as we just put up the blog.
J
No. 3, also:
Was that a "peek" you had at SP, or a "peak"? Two totally different things...just sayin'.
J
haha J
Freudian slip...only a peek.
Hey everyone
Hey BC
Hello everyone. TJ and I are at the store now. I'm making her work again. LOL
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