I am filthy and filled with an untenable relapse in reason. I reek of the ruinous stench of revolt. I am vile. There is a guard posted at my bedside who never allows me to rest. He keeps a silent watch with his fist in my gut. My screams he silences with his lips pressed full against my mouth. He eats my words before they have a chance to live. And, he knows that once I am free I will disappear.
I throw my shadow against the wall. I hope that the guard will find the illusion a distraction and he does. Now, with the guard so easily bemused, I quickly slip out from under the sheets. Feet hit the floor first, then knees and hands, then once I am steady I crawl my way out the door. I only have a little time before the guard notices my shadow’s foolery. He could beat me to a pulp. Fucking prick.
And of course, I always return to the same place. They will eventually find me and post a new sentry. Perhaps the next will be somewhat entertaining.
p.s. present tense and terse with (only) myself.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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Jackson
Simon Le Bon
I put Eurythmics On
Poppin' and Lockin' in the U.S.A
Day Glo sweater tied around my neck Studded Denim
Big Hair
Acid Wash
Rubik's Cube
My Boom Box
[PRE-CHORUS]
You know it's alright
I promise you tonight
All you gotta do is Choose Life
[CHORUS]
Got a little crush
I just can't get enough of that stuff
It's such a rush (1980 Me)
Got a little crush
I just can't get enough of that stuff
It's such a rush (1980 Me)
Frosted Lipstick
Parachute Pants
Doc Martins
Dead Can Dance
Culture Club
The Go Go's
Pretty In Pink
PacMan Asteroids
Miami Vice
Too early for Vanilla Ice
Crimpin'
The Poodle Perm And Blond Highlights
You know it's alright
I promise you tonight
All you gotta say is
Have a nice day
Got a little crush
I just can't get enough of that stuff
It's such a rush (1980 Me)
Got a little crush
I just can't get enough of that stuff
It's such a rush (1980 Me)
Dance baby
You know you’re gonna have such a good time
Welcome to 1980 Me
Dance baby
You know it’s gonna be alright Welcome to 1980 Me
I wish that I could be eleven again
That E.T was my friend
You know that life was so simple then
Times have changed
Never be the same
The memory remains
And the melody's inside my heart
You know it's alright
No matter how it goes
All you gotta do is just say no
Got a little crush
I just can't get enough of that stuff
It's such a rush (1980 Me)
Got a little crush
I just can't get enough of that stuff
It's such a rush (1980 Me)
Dance baby
You know you’re gonna have such a good time
Welcome to 1980 Me
Dance baby
You know it’s gonna be alright
Welcome to 1980 Me
Her man,
A wild dark love song
Borne deep within her gypsy soul
He’s gone to live in jagged mountains
Where salmon jump and sing
In tarns
High above
The cloud lines
Beyond the silver moon
In the shadow of the Cader Idris
In misty mountains
Where meadowlarks are known to wing
And wild geese fly
Across the winter sky
He’s gone to live in snow capped mountains
Where frozen voices echo
Across the frosty fields
Across the icy meadow
Languidly, across the frigid lea
Then back again
He’s gone from her forever
This wild dark love song,
Her man
Amyranth, are those song lyrics?
When the shy star goes forth in heaven
All maidenly, disconsolate,
Hear you amid the drowsy even
One who is singing by your gate.
His song is softer than the dew
And he is come to visit you.
O bend no more in revery
When he at eventide is calling,
Nor muse: Who may this singer be
Whose song about my heart is falling?
Know you by this, the lover's chant,
'Tis I that am your visitant.
-James Joyce
Carrie, of course!
The only kind of poetry I can easily memorize.
Darren Hayes.
-A
You come from far away
With pictures in your eyes
Of coffeeshops and morning streets
In the blue and silent sunrise
But night is the cathedral
Where we recognized the sign
We strangers know each other now
As part of the whole design
Oh, hold me like a baby
That will not fall asleep
Curl me up inside you
And let me hear you through the heat
You are the jester of this courtyard
With a smile like a girl's
Distracted by the women
With the dimples and the curls
By the pretty and the mischievous
By the timid and the blessed
By the blowing skirts of ladies
Who promise to gather you to their breast
Oh, hold me like a baby...
You have hands of raining water
And that earring in your ear
The wisdom on your face
Denies the number of your years
With the fingers of the potter
And the laughing tale of the fool
The arranger of disorder
With your strange and simple rules
Yes now I've met me another spinner
Of strange and gauzy threads
With a long and slender body
And a bump upon the head
Oh, hold me like a baby...
With a long and slender body
And the sweetest softest hands
And we'll blow away forever soon
And go on to different lands
And please do not ever look for me
But with me you will stay
And you will hear yourself in song
Blowing by one day
Oh, hold me like a baby...
Cool, Amy!
I like the James Joyce one, Amyranth. :)
In Liverpool
On Sunday
No traffic
On the avenue
The light is pale and thin
Like you
No sound, down
In this part of town
Except for the boy in the belfry
He's crazy, he's throwing himself
Down from the top of the tower
Like a hunchback in heaven
He's ringing the bells in the church
For the last half an hour
He sounds like he's missing something
Or someone that he knows he can't
Have now and if he isn't
I certainly am
Homesick for a clock
That told the same time
sometimes you made no sense to me
if you lie on the ground
in somebody's arms
you'll probably swallow some of their history
And the boy in the belfry
He's crazy, he's throwing himself
Down from the top of the tower
Like a hunchback in heaven
He's ringing the bells in the church
For the last half an hour
He sounds like he's missing something
Or someone that he knows he can't
Have now and if he isn't
I certainly am
I'll be the girl who sings for my supper
You'll be the monk whose forehead is high
He'll be the man who's already working
Spreading a memory all through the sky
In Liverpool
On Sunday
No reason to even remember you now
Except for the boy in the belfry
He's crazy, he's throwing himself
Down from the top of the tower
Like a hunchback in heaven
He's ringing the bells in the church
For the last half an hour
He sounds like he's missing something
Or someone that he knows he can't
Have now and if he isn't
I certainly am
In Liverpool
In Liverpool
"She Hates Me"
Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued
in a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
She fucking hates me
trust
she fucking hates me
la la la love
I tried too hard
and she tore my feelings like I had none
and ripped them away
She was queen for about an hour
after that shit got sour
she took all I ever had
no sign of guilt
no feeling of bad, no
In a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought i'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
[Chorus]
that's my story, as you see
learned my lesson and so did she
now it's over and i'm glad
'cause i'm a fool for all i've said
[Chorus]
la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
and she tore my feelings like I had none
she fucking hates me
I remember that "She hates me" song. I forgot which band sings it.
James Joyce was a pretty good poet.
Some of the best Irish poems I've read were written in Gaelic. Once they're translated, they're quite beautiful.
-A
entropy
I love Puddle of Mudd
BC, yeah, what Elena said, Puddle of Mudd.
Yeah, Elena, pretty cool band with a cool song like that.
Cool
Seems like most of our poets have slipped off to bed!
I'm about ready for bed myself actually..
-A
Amy, it does, and yeah, it's getting late. If you're heading off to bed, goodnight and sweet dreams to you.
If you're already out, Amy, night!
Across the screen so cold and bright
No names to hold us back
One poet to another writes
No fear of an attack.
Yet others needn't see the light
More fun in shades of black
Our names are
Unimportant, quite
Straightforward is the lack.
I had to watch the Kitty Dance again.
Stupid thing gets stuck in my head.
-A
The Kitty Dance sounds cute.
Goodnight
oh spinner
of words in the
dark cover of
night while i sleep
if you speak or in
glow of dawn with the
honey of your musick'd vows
to the throng as we wait.
My dear i must
away and hope to hear
your voice another day
on waters all unclear.
Entropy, check it out on Youtube.
-A
Youtube is being a ho right now. I can hear it, but can't see anything, just the title. On any video.
Gotta check back later, for sure.
*BIG YAWN*
Okay, I think I'm going to head to bed now.
I'll see you girls in the morning. You too, Mayo~
-A
Goodnight K, Amy. Sweet dreams
Mayo
So I noticed earlier an anon called me whiney. Well, okay maybe sometimes but I’m not all the time, am I? Well, am I? Okay, to be fair I probably do whine a bit more than most but that’s just because I’m letting my true emotions out. This is the only place I feel free to do that. So, just to prove that I can write a totally whine-free goodnight here it is…
Yep, I sitting here trying to think of something happy. Ponder, ponder..Oh, got it. I’ll tell you what I did today. Not exciting but hey, it made me happy. I spent most of the day writing. I love to write and when I get a day that I can just sit at the computer, without interruptions, it’s a good day. Maybe it’s because I like to get caught up in other people’s lives that I’ve created. I can create the most fucked up situations for the characters and then I can fix it for them. Kinda nice, really. And yeah, there is that feeling of power that goes along with it. I mean these characters are at my mercy. With a few strokes on the keyboard I can really mess with them. So yeah, my day probably sounds kinda lame but I enjoyed it. You know I’ve come to the conclusion that you need days like today. A day where you just take time to do what makes you happy. Even if it’s not all that exciting it still refreshes your soul.
Mayo, I hope you had that kind of a day. A day where you did what you wanted to do. Free from interruption, a day that refreshed your soul.
Night Mayo
Elena (planning new plot twists)
Goodnight Elena
Goodnight everyone. Goodnight SS, family, lurkers, anyone else about.
Goodnight my little squeezy jar of Mayonaise.
You are never alone.
BC
I just wanted to say one final thing to you. I think you are one of the nicest people I've ever known. You never, ever let anyone come into this house without saying hello to them. You make every person feel welcome. I notice things like that. Goodnight BC, sweet dreams.
Okay one more thing. Yeah, it almost 4 in the morning and I'm still awake but...
SS - I wish you every happiness in the world. My life has been made so much brighter because of you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Yeah someone needs to tell me to go to sleep....
For Wendy to find... This is for you, my friend.
Evening Star
by: Edgar Allen Poe
'Twas noontide of summer,
And mid-time of night;
And stars, in their orbits,
Shone pale, thro' the light
Of the brighter, cold moon,
'Mid planets her slaves,
Herself in the Heavens,
Her beam on the waves.
I gazed awhile
On her cold smile;
Too cold- too cold for me-
There pass'd, as a shroud,
A fleecy cloud,
And I turned away to thee,
Proud Evening Star,
In thy glory afar,
And dearer thy beam shall be;
For joy to my heart
Is the proud part
Thou bearest in Heaven at night,
And more I admire
Thy distant fire,
Than that colder, lowly light.
Good night/morning/everything else to Mayo, SS, BC, Ergo, the soon to arrive (more likely than not) Miranth, FASC, Possum & Kass; Watchers, lurkers and all the beautiful people of blog believe!
I hope everyone is having/did have a restful night's sleep, filled with wonderful dreams.....
I hope you all have/had pleasant awakenings too!
I think I shall dream of bats tonight....hmmmm......
;-)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
To think about today:
“I want to feel passion, I want to feel pain. I want to weep at the sound of your name. Come make me laugh, come make me cry... just make me feel alive.”
Joey Lauren Adams
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hoping everyone feels alive today!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hey Mayo
One more thing...
Love yourself, accept everything about you that makes you, well, you. Never try to conform to what others think you should be. Never settle for what the world tells you is right. Listen to your heart, follow what it says.
Remember the sun will shine, the moon will glow. No matter what you do these things will happen. You can't change everything. You are only master of your own little world. Make it how you want. Make it your own.
And with that, Elena will try to sleep.
Goodnight all
Aww thank you Elena. I try my best to be friendly with everyone who deserves to be welcomed here. Goodnight and sweet dreams to you :)
I already said my good night, but it's obvious I'm still up (I was listening to some oldies and it's uh, past four in the morning right now)
*smiles sheepishly*
Goodnight everyone.
Wendy!!! Why did you have to come right when I was about to go to sleep? ;D
*Smothers Wendy with even more sloppy kisses and hugs*
Okay, I just HAVE to share this too:
I've Learned....
Author Unknown
I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
I've learned- that some members of your family may not always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't always biological.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon.
Hugs and Love again,
6/Wendy
BC!!!!!!
*smoothers my sweetchecks with sloppy kisses and hugs back*
I'm off for the night as well, BC. I shall catch you (later) in the bat cages too! ;-)
Morning Mayo & 616!
Goodnight Darth E & BC!
Wednesday. It's almost half way through the working week, and for that may we be truly thankful.
Thought for the day: You can bet someone once told Jeffrey Dahmer just to "be himself".
Kass xx
Ooops! HI also to Elena and Kass!
*hugs and kisses*
Sweet dreams (of Poe and bats) Elena and thank you for those beautiful words!
kasiopeia said...
Thought for the day: You can bet someone once told Jeffrey Dahmer just to "be himself".
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Figures HE would listen, lol!!
I think perhaps Jeffrey Dahmer (and those like him) are the reasons for the whole "EXCEPTION TO THE RULE" thing!
(along with the 'sometimes Y' vowel thing, i before e except after c....and a few other things) ;-)
Have fun today Kass - as much fun as possible - without getting fired - at work, that is :)
Okay.....REALLY, REALLY must go now
:p
Wendy, ha ha, you said sweet checks, lol!!
Goodnight and sweet dreams to you sugarplum :)
Good morning Kass. Take care! :)
Its 30 minutes until 5am. Must go sleep now.
Goodnight
good morning mayonaise!!hope you are feeling good today.
hi there SS! good morning wishes to you too!
hey family hope you are all great!!
bye BC!
hi wendy and kass!
wendy i loved those "i've learned" quotes.
so very true.
well i've tried to catch up ish ish!
RW i couldn't see either of your black parade costume pics! and i really wanted to! i can't believe you went on the tube dressed in a black parade costume. you are one brave lady!! mind you no one talks on the tube (other than the odd drunk) but i am imagining the stares you got!! ha ha!
ergo what beautiful wedding photos!! beautiful setting and gorgeous flowers. you looked lovely too!
anon @ 7.41pm
"When Blogbelieve and Dreamland collide."
you made me smile!!
kapunua your dream was crazy intense! i would wake up tired from that one!
and its freaky Kapunua cos i dreamt about you last night! nothing sexual i promise!!!
i will briefly share.
(its a little freaky that its a water themed dream as i hadn't read kapunua's dream til this morning??!!)
so i was back living where i grew up, down the road from my mum's house. we lived right by the sea. i am pushing kapunua in my 2 yr old's buggy!! (i know its ridiculous! and you fitted in it too??) anyway we get to a bit where there is like a large natural rock pool which gets filled at high tide and then stays. anyway suddenly the buggy tips over and we are being drawn towards the pool. its one of those things where you just can't stop yourself even though we weren't on a slope or anything. so i said to kapunua you better get out of the buggy or you will sink straight away. so K gets herself out and in doing so slips into the water. at that point i can see something swimming underneath the water. as it surfaces out of the water i see its a polar bear. and then i see a bigger polar bear. i'm thinking oh god thats probably the mother. so kapunua is shouting at me to distract the polar bears. so i'm running aroung on the road beside the rock pool. and they both get out of the water. first the smaller one runs at me and i dodge it and then the mother starts to run at me and i'm panicing. then i turn to look at kapunua and she's got herself out of the water and she's videoing the whole thing!!! i'm like WTF!! and then i woke up!
so there you go K hope you got some good footage!
after the initaial wake up in a panic i did lie there giggling to myself. how very crazy!!
hi to anyone arriving/arrived while i've been typing that.
the usual gang, miranth, PP, ergo etc etc!
bye for now guys!
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initial
Mayo,
Howdy, how are ya? I hope your life is all that you want and need it to be. Me? I'm okay. I've been too busy lately to stop and dwell on anything too fucked up. Is that a good thing? I don't think so. Creates this illusion that things are better than they really are and I find myself falling for it. Being so tired, you'd think I would sleep like a baby. Uhhhhh, no. No, I am not. But no tylenol PM's in 3 nights. I've come too far to turn back now.
Well, that's dramatic and extreme for a Wednesday. I make myself sound like a hardcore addict. Am I? I must be because I am having a hard time admitting it.
One day at a time, Mayo. One. And in my case, I guess it's one night at a time.
Wishing you a day that is laid back but productive. Aren't those the greatest?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Worrying about something that might not even happen.
Ha, I take this first in honor of the beeyoutiful Fimble, and I say,check it, botches!
Nice one, Carrie! :D
Cello everybody.
*waves rhythmically at Mayo, SS and all the morning crew - known and unknown*
sdock said
Pickled Possum is still waiting on an email from me.
That email is the technological version of the postcard that takes 53 years to arrive =)
Fimble,
You're making me go like this >_< looking for your lovely self around here. I couldn't see you anywhere. Don't let them think that you are something you are not.
BTW you know that Mustard will probably take advantage of your absence and blogstreak without restraint and denial?
Ergo,
Loved your wedding photos and your happy smile. Beautiful.
Rock The Casbah!! ^_^
Sorry, just flying through today.
Have a great day everyone. Catch you tomorrow.
hello people!
Mayo
well it's 9:11 pm and I've been home half an hour had my pineapple ham olive and cheese pizza and 2 1/2 glasses of red lambrusco and everyone else has gone to bed!
But of course I need to wind down first. or I'll never fall asleep.
I had a lovely night with 3 very nice teenagers, admittedly helping them with mathematics but they are great kids, keen to learn adn also very well brought up. I tell you things like that stamnd a child in good stead for adulthood.
It's a shame all parents don't make the same effort.
But I was going to skip calling in tonight but seeing as I'm the only one not gone to bed (yep we are not a big late night family!) I thought I may as well.
So hoping once again you had a good day, have yo had a new guard appointed yet? if so I hope they are amusing, at least the time would pass quicker!
Tonight I listened to 2 songs a few times each while driving, one was "Alive in the glory of love" by Say Anything which I love , plus I think they are a great band, and "Light up the sky" by Yellowcard, both songs I love for the emotion in them, Alive for the kind of fun,lusty perhaps sexiness, Yellowcard for the emotion but both for the fact they really speak to me of someone deeply loving another, albeit probably less eloquently than some of the poets quoted earlier.
the bits I love, apart from "When I watch you, want to do you, right where your standing, yeah"- which probably says more about me than I should, are
from Say Analysis
"no I won't let them take you won't let them break you, hell no no no no I won't let them take you won't let them break you hell no no"
from Yellowcard
"let me light up the sky,light it up for you,let me tell you why, I would die for you....let me make this mine, I'll ignite for you"
just thought I'd share that, don't know if it will mean anything to you, or why I feel I should tell you this tonight but maybe you have someone you feel that way about and who feels the same way about you, I hope you do.
Well best be off, I just had a call froma friend who lost everything in the flood a while ago, they are still not back home, perhaps won't be until the end of the year. I cannot imagine losing nearly everything like that, hearing her describe passing her kids out the window and swimming away from the house!She has only just now felt able to talk about it all.You really need to appreciate what you have, family friends and belongings, cause you never know what could happen.
Wishing love, comfort, friendship and companionship to you and yours
much love
EP xx
SS
hoping you are well and happy.Still Bizzy? I hope your life is treating you and those you love well. My sentiments for Mayo are for you too. Treasure everyone and everything, and love and be loved asmuch as you can
lotsa love
EPxx
fasc thank you for the compliment,I felt gorgeous and had a brilliantly fun day too!
hello PP CTV kass miranth and any other late nighters or morningers
catch up with you all tomorrow, (it's 10:17 now! My bedtime!)
goodnight
hi and thanks PP :)
*waving to the south east!*
Morning errbody!!!
Not particularly fond of Humpday but oh well....
Let's make the best of it!
Oh.My.GAAAAAAWWWDD!!!
I just remembered. Only three days until I can order new stuff from Skeleton Crew. HOT DAMN! I swear if they make me wait another week I'm gonna........wait another week. O_o I wouldn't like it though.
LEATHERMOUTH!!!! I am soooo ready to own a Leathermouth tshirt. Whoop! Whoop! (FS, I miss you.)
Okay, Mayo. Time for you to come talk to us. You hear me? Stop it with the silent treatment. 'Kay? Come play hangman with us or something. ^_~
SS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I yelled at you. Why? I don't know. Cuz I can! Have a great one and just laugh all day if it's possible. Laugh so much that people stop and look at you funny. Make'em wonder just what in the hell is wrong with you. ^_~
If you need something to make you laugh, just think about the crazy blog ladies and their crazy ass dreams. O_o (Hello Kapunua? FASC?)
Hugs, hugs and more hugs.
Alright peeps.
I shall return.......
XOXO,
S&V20
LEATHERMOUTH!!!! I am soooo ready to own a Leathermouth tshirt.
me too princess!
Thought for the day: You can bet someone once told Jeffrey Dahmer just to "be himself".
Kass, you always bring the perspective. ^_^
and its freaky Kapunua cos i dreamt about you last night! nothing sexual i promise!!!
Aww! And I try to hard to be a porn star. ;)
i am pushing kapunua in my 2 yr old's buggy!! (i know its ridiculous! and you fitted in it too??)
It must have been huge, that's all I have to say. huge. :D
then i turn to look at kapunua and she's got herself out of the water and she's videoing the whole thing!!!
Oh my god, you must know me in real life. I absolutely would do that. I always have my stupid camera and people are always like, "PUT THAT THNG AWAY" and I"m like, "but I'm making a movie. This is art!" ;) No seriously, I neurotically document everything. I have this weird fear that someday either I will forget and only have documention to remind me, or, more disturbing, reality is so subjective that without proof, none of it is real. S'up, Shcroedinger's Cat to a whole new level. O_O
Sdock
p.s. Worrying about something that might not even happen.
I wondered actually if the "guard" in this post was worry instead of something closer to loathing. Worry seems to be a theme these last few days, huh? I always ask myself, Why torment yourself with fantasies of disaster? Yet we do it anyway, you know?
Hello Princess also!
Well, I'm off to babysit Boychild. Be back later. :D
Hope everyone is having a great day.
Or, more disturbing, reality is so subjective that without proof, none of it is real.
Do you know how much of a relief this is? I seriously thought that I was the only one I knew that thought with that frame of mind.
Sometimes I think life is just some big conspiracy.
*Twilight Zone music*
talking of the twilight zone.
at eurodisney there was this new ride called "the tower of terror" and its based on the twilight zone. we all went on it even the 2 yr old. it is not suitable AT ALL for 2 yr olds but as my lad is so ridiculously tall he could go on!! horrible parents we are! neither of us wanted to dip out!!anyway it scared the shit outa me!! the 2yr old was shaking and the 5 yr old was crying!!(nothing new there though!) basically you all go into an elevator and strap up (i was gonna say strap on then and got unpleasant imagery!! don't let elena see!)and then with all the creepy music etc going on they take you up to the top and you're inside this hotel type building (obviously!) and then they drop you!! you part company with your stomach biggy time. fucking brilliant!!
the tower of terror!
i know there is one in florida but i don't know if any of you have been on it??
hey Kapunua the dream was freaky indeed! even more freaky that you would have done that in real life!!
and the buggy was normal size. and you were normal size but amazingly you fitted in there fine! the beauty of dreams ey!
FASC,
The funniest thing. My husband and I went to DisneyWorld for our first anniversary (twelve years ago O_O) and I tricked him into going on it. His mother and I told him that if he got to the top on the elevator and decided he didn't want to ride he could take the stairs down. Totally not true. He was stuck when he got to the top.
He cussed us out for the next two hours. It was funny as hell. ^_^
"Strap On" Really FASC, tell me more! LOL
princess thats cruel!!
and i just have to say how sad that europe appears to be atleast 12yrs behind the USA!! oh well better late than never!
elena i'm giggling!!!!!
Why did you get married so young, Princess?
Told you he had a reason to be scared before he married me. ^_^
I laughed at him so hard that day. He was always scared of roller coasters and stuff. After that though, he thought that shit was eazy peazy.
You can't keep him off of a roller coaster now. So in all reality, I helped him overcome his fear!
YAY for princess! I'm a good wife, I am!
gotta disappear!
food preparation time!
my life rocks!!
catch you later!
i think i use exclamation marks too bloody much!!! but i tend to also speak in a kind of hyper excited way! so they are necessary!!
Anon,
I guess because at the time I knew exactly what I wanted and I went for it. When you're seventeen you think things will always be the way they are right then. Would I change it now if I could?
Probably not. I would still marry him again.
Splash, I am really neurotic about reality and subjectivity. Like, it's almost OCD. O_O
I've been on Tower of Terror many times FASC! ^_^
I've just been minding Boychild, and Mummy K came by to take over for a while. I stopped by to see if I coudln't download the POTC song Pirate's Life For Me to play for the Boychild, because I am taking him on Pirates when we go to Disneyworld in September. :D
Hey S(S)S I am sure you are so totally not lurking, but if you are, then a big ALOHA to you and yours! :D
Mayo, same. Oh, I hope I'm on when you post the next time. Also hope you're having a great day. You're in the Northeast somewhere, right? Nice day, huh? Not too chilly, you can almost feel the warmth of the sun. Right? :)
YAY for princess! I'm a good wife, I am!
i know you are princess! and it isn't an easy job!! (just speaking from personal experience)
bye!
I looooove DisneyWorld.
Love it. Love it. Love it. I want to take LHM to Universal this year to the Islands of Adventure. He's loves the X-Men and Spiderman and all that so that would be WAY cool for him.
I think he would love Epcot, too. I know that not alot of kids get into Epcot but he really would. He loves seeing how things work and grow and all that educational stuff.
He would be so impressed by that.
GW pretending to be someone pretending to be GW.
That's interesting and rather clever in't it?
And cryptic makes you sooo horny.
It bores the shit out of me, frankly.
But, maybe that's because I have a gift of seeing through it...?
It isn't a challenge.
Oh well.
I wonder what games you have in-store next....will it be you, or your little friend (the one who helps you, if they're inclined?)
Love to all.
M X
GW pretending to be someone pretending to be GW.
That's interesting and rather clever in't it?
And cryptic makes you sooo horny.
It bores the shit out of me, frankly.
But, maybe that's because I have a gift of seeing through it...?
It isn't a challenge.
Oh well.
I wonder what games you have in-store next....will it be you, or your little friend (the one who helps you, if they're inclined?)
Love to all.
M X
Am I alone again?
K?
Elena?
Anon?
Anyone?
Damn.
O_o
Say, what?
No, nevermind.
I don't really care.
HEY SMOKE!!!
I'm in and out (LOL, I know) today! See you all later.
Hey Smoke and Mustard. I'm here but at work so that's why I drift in and out.
How are you both today?
I'm a-lurkin', just trying to find some cool songs to put on iPod that I can show Boychild. I think it's a good age for music. I'm thinking, Sean Paul, yeah! :D
My family have taken all manner of kids to Disneyworld for the last, like, 25 years. O_O Now every year or so everyone meets up down there, cousins, aunts, uncles, and Gran. It's always fun, but the best part is getting to hang out with everyone all at once, you know? :D
Hey Elena!
Hey K,
Maybe some Leathermouth? Huh? Maybe? ^_~
Mayo, I have a song I want you to have, but I will post it later, after I upload it. It's a little odd, but it sums up what I was babbling to you yesterday and I want you to have it. Hope you will like it.
Later!
Yeah, Leathermouth for the Boychild! ^_^ I'm sure he'll love it. Someday. ;D
OMG! Totally!
Hey, my mother used to play Alice Cooper for me when I was itty bitty! ^_^
Smoke I love Alice Cooper. My kids know all his songs. I should play some in the store. Yeah, "Sick Things" would be good. LOL
It's funny, too, because I can remember being really little and looking at one of his albums and thinking, 'that is the coolest dude'. ^_^
Ever see him in concert, Smoke?
He puts on a hell of a show.
MAGICWORDS!!!
Hi honey. xoxox. It's me Faerie. I'm glad you finally started posting here.
Anyway.....
How is everyone tonight?
Hello Safe
How are you?
Good Evening Faeire,
How the hell are you?
And I've been here....I've just kept my gob shut until now.
Do we have to stick to the rules on this one...?
M X
Nope, I haven't, Elena. I bet he does.
Hi Safe!
Hi Elena, Magic and S&V!
Magic, I knew you lurkered but I'm glad you finally opened your mouth.
I'm okay. A little wind blown but I can't really complain. How's everyone else?
Sticking to the rules.....only be respectful of other bloggers, unless you're apiece of shit Anon who's man purpose is to insult people for no reason. All the other rules are out the window.
EDIT:
apiece = a piece
man = main
Magic words, you made it sound as if you knew something about Mayo. Keep in mind what Safe said. When she said to be nice to fellow bloggers, .Mayo is inclided.
If you find him, or us, deceitful or boring, why are you here?
K, I know your protective over Mayo and the family (and why not) but I don't think Magic means any harm.
Not to speak for her, but, she's a Brit so it's doubtful she knows Mayo.
Hello to all!
Hello Safe, and welcome to the family, Magic!
We've got a Magic Pie and a MagicWords. Cool.
Let's hope it doesn't get too confusing, eh?
Hi CTV!
How's it going, Honey?
Safe! Your name is all blue and pretty. Make a new entry so I can comment!
*glomp*
I just came from the mall. How've you been, love?
A new entry?!
I'm okay. I've been at work (a had a terrible time there, I might add) and now I'm chillin'.
What did you get at the mall?
Yeah, I'm sure it's pretty stressful right?
If you don't mind me asking love, what do you do for a living? What happened?
Anddddd I got a nifty yellow t-shirt for Spring (better be coming soon, or else...) and a pair of jeans. Nothing too special.
BUTBUT. I went to H&M and saw the exact black and white striped sweater that Frank has, and totally giggled. It made my day, srsly.
Well ya see, it's not so much protective as curious. Why would you post at a place you find boring? If we're that dull, and if Mayo is that deceitful, then why are you here?
And it does sound from the comment as if she knows something no one else does. Ooooh yeah, the "cryptic" stuff.
Flails around because of the (obviously posed) picture. Stares in awe that he's the one doing an interview.
CTV - i would have brought it but I'm weird like that! As for employment, it's kind of hard (and long) to discribe (I work in an adult learning centre and provide information, advice and guidance to students as well as other things) but I was stress because they are moving my desk as they wantn me to have more students nad I can't cope with the ones I have.
What about you?
K - my bad!
MIB - thanks. I love Ray!
Ohh, back. This blog went down for a few minuntes. O_O
Splash, I know it's Ray but the pic doesn't show up. >_< Rrrr. WOuld love to read what he has to say.
Oh, it posted.
It didn't even go through, on my end.
Blogger, you are a meffin' piece o'shit.
Mayo, I said I had a song for you, and I finally uploaded it.
It's one that's old to me, or relatively old I guess. I heard it first in around '01. It summed up an entire summer for me. You know how it is with songs, sometimes they fit into your life perfectly, other times not so much, even if you still love them? Well, remember how I was rambling yesterday about randomly happy times, just good feelings without any reason or portent and stuff? And how I wished that for you?
Well this song has kind of been a soundtrack to times like that. This song is that vibe, that mysterious, hard to explain good feeling.
Delicious, by Evangaline Blue. (I'm not sure if that's her real name; it's the name of the character who sang it in the show--an anime--and I've only ever seen it credited to her.) It's hard to find anymore.
If you're like me, you're careful about what you put into your head, and you don't have patience for things you immediately dislike, and you're wary when people tell you, "Okay, listen to this!" Because if a song isn't cool, it kind of wastes five minutes of your life, right? I get that.
But this is your song now. That means you can't give it to anyone else, that would be bad luck. ;D
Oh, of course anyone else may listen to it too. ^_^ But today, this is a song for Mayo. It just kind of works.
Hi Kapunua, Mustard!
Safe, it sounds like you have a pretty important job. I have a lot of respect for what you do, but I can also see why that would be stressful. I'm here if you ever need to rant about, well, anything really!
I just saw your new entry, by the way! I'm all blushy ^_^ Go read your comment!
Katherine GV Sparkle made a new post. I actually think she is really Mayo. Read it and figure out if you agree.
hi guys!!
hello to all here.
MIB what a lovely interview with ray. he is just down to earth normal but crazily talented guy!!
Kapunua i've just listened to that song and its lovely and a real summery drift away and dream feel to it.
welcome magicwords. nice to see you here.
Hey CTV, FASC, Jules, and Safe!
Hello, FASC :)
Thank you CTV. Have yoiu seen my new entry?
*runs to check*
dunno her url so can't look anon
anon you are so obvious!!
anon you are so obvious!!
Word.
hi MIB,CTV,K,safe and anyone else.
CTV is that quote about jimmy piss true?? where did you find that?
and i love frankie's jumper. i bought mr bloke one very similar for christmas. he wore it christmas day and cos it was party time my sis in law even snuck a bit of guyliner on him! he looked hot!
FASC, yeah the song is very atmospheric, right? The story was about a mermaid, you can almost hear that in the music. It's from the anime "Petshop Of Horros" and I'm pretty sure I'm the only person in the entire world who has heard of it. No, not really, but it wasn't a very famous one or anything. It was based on the (much better) manga of the same name, in which a mysterious pet shop owner sold not pets, but dreams. Well, in the form of "pets," and each buyer had to learn a lesson from whichever pet they chose. The pets were never really animals though; they only looked like them. They were spirits who chose to teach the lessons. And some of them were very brutal, and often end in violence, blood, gore, death, extreme mental trauma etc. But some of them were pretty nice. It is my favorite manga, along with Blade Of The Immortal.
Anon, as much as we can be sure of anything her, I'm sure that GV is not Mayo. She has told me straight up that she wasn't, and I believe her.
I believe in Katherine's honesty and in Mayo's, too. He would have said something by now.
CTV, what quote? I miss something?
I am sweet and fair, and do not intend harm at all.
I'm not a scumbag anon who daren't have a page or post their name or come here to shout at others. Not at all.
I don't find anyone deceitful, mearly playful.
Not my style to insult people I don't know.
M X
Hi FASC.
K thanks for the info. clever idea and yeh you def get an underwater dreamy feel to it. whats all the stuff with underwater dreams lately!!
the jimmy piss quote was posted on safe's blog.
Cool. So what were you saying about it being boring, and about someone being Gerard or something? And the "little friend" and your "gift of seeing through it?"
I'm still kinda curious what you think is going on. And why you're here if it's boring? Seems like it would waste your time?
Merely curious.
Kapunua, it's over at Safe's house. You've seen it though.
S'all true.
About Jimmy Urine being a huge poseur dick? Who is the originator of that quote?
I agree, obviously. If there's anything worse than being a dick, it's being a poseur dick.
Safe wrote it herself, love. I just quoted her on it because it was made of win.
Hey, does anyone here like Aphex Twin?
C'mon guys. Fess up.
Hey, does anyone here like Aphex Twin?
to be honest i've not listened that much to them CTV.
Hey guys I thought of you when I was looking at mcrsecrets for the first time in a looong time. The VERY FIRST SECRET is about Gerard making girls moan for him and how it is hypocritical. All of the comments are like OH VERITAVENOM strikes again and you must be one of her FOLLOWERS!! I stuck up for her because I agree with her. I HATE what Gerard is doing and who he is now, it makes me sad.
But I really wanted to just tell you all that VV is kind've famous in the fandom now. She made it all the way to mcrsecrets so alot of people are reading her blogs and getting very upset.
I wanted you all to know. I miss some of you guys a lot!!!
One thing I want to know, I know you guys don't think this is Gerard's blog anymore BUT do you think that he knows what people are saying abotu him at least? I mean do you think he knows that he has hurt so many of his fans who used to love him. because if he did know, do you think he would care or not care??
Hi Fiona
Hello, Fiona! Good to see you again, love.
I actually saw that just a few days back. It's great to see word's gotten out about her and her blog.
FASC, dammit girl, you should! They're pretty damn amazing, IMO.
hi Save on The Waves hi Capture thhis Void. I am also very glad the word is out there..... but do you think it ever made it as far as the band themselves??
What I am really trying to say is that I tried to keep on liking MCR but I can't anymore because Gerard dragged them down. And I feel like that toward all of them because no one is standing up to him. Why doesnt' anyone else put their foot down???
I feel like the entire band doesn't care anymore. There is no other safe place to say that but here without getting killed by fangirls. Even at VV's place you can't speak without Gerard Defenders coming out of the woodworks and saying things about you.
I feel like the entire band is turning their back on the people who made them what they are and it is a giant FUCK YOU from ALL of them, yes ALL of them to all of us.
Does anyone else still feel that way?
FASC, dammit girl, you should! They're pretty damn amazing, IMO.
sorry!! ok i will alright!
just kidding, but i really will have a little you tube jaunt. more like lose 3 hrs in the vacuum that is you tube!
hi fiona!! i still have faith in frank, bob, mikey and ray. hell sometimes even gerard. i'm not giving up yet but i do feel you.
I know how you feel Fiona. I just keep on hoping that someone will step up, save the band and make them the amazing thing they once were.
Honestly, I don't think it'll be long til they give it all and MCR no longer exists.
Hello People!
How are you all?
Thanks I guess I just don't udnerstand, if the other guys don't SUPPORT what Gerard is like why don't they say something. To him OR to us. I feel like Gerard is using his fans and treating them like shit while the other guys just watch. It's not going to get better. It makes me mad, and sad. I don't even like them anymoe and they were my favorite band, oh well I guess it happens! But I believed in them.
Guten Tag Siobhan!
Hi there, Fiona!
I think the other four are just as guilty of what has become of this band as Gerard.
They really must be some cowards, if they don't have the balls to step up to Gerard and tell him what an asshole he is.
Guten Tag, Safe! ;-)
Nice to see two old Buzznet friends here. I just saw that Magic finally joined us. Yay!!!
hi siobhan!
fiona i don't think all is lost. i guess we will have to wait and see.
Hello Kapuna,
Hope you are well.
Sorry if I didn't word that right, I said cryptic bores the shit out of me.
And, I have a lot of time to waste at the moment...trust me!
But I don't see this as a waste of time. More like a challenge.
Now I guess I'm being cryptic...so that must mean I bore myself!
To Fiona, that's a really good question. I don't know if he cares. Maybe he did at first.....maybe being what he is now wasn't what he thought it was going to be?
Perhaps the pot of gold was in fact, a bucket of worms.
Mmm. Will think more on that.
Faraway....hello darling, how are you?
Good, I hope!
Love to all,
M X
What's you BN name?
Don't tell me if you don't want it public. Or tell me then delete it really quick.
Magicwords - did you get my message?
Hello family!
Maybe they did step up to him,we will never know, but I believe Gerard he's not the kind of person who says "you know what guys? You're right, I've been acting like an asshole", or at least he's not anymore. He can be pretty stubborn.
I think the other guys are as disappointed as us, and you can see it during live shows. It's like they only play because they don't want to upset their fans, but it's quite obvious something is just not right between them anymore. They used to have fun on stage, and now I can't see it anymore.
Hey again, dudes and dudesses.
The best way to describe where I stand with Gerard and the band is disappointed.
I feel like the entire band is turning their back on the people who made them what they are and it is a giant FUCK YOU from ALL of them, yes ALL of them to all of us.
I wouldn't say that. I understand where you're coming from, but I have the strongest feeling not all of the guys are cool with it.
I mean do you think he knows that he has hurt so many of his fans who used to love him. because if he did know, do you think he would care or not care??
Does he know? Probably. I can only hope he does.
This band has served three purposes for me.
1. It made me listen. Not only to the music, but to the world around me. It made me see the viewpoints of other people more clearly. It showed me that I have it in me to go from nothing to something.
2. It made me realize that not everything is what it seems. I fought for this band. I fought for Gerard when he was acting like an ass and people were accusing him of drinking again, being drunk onstage, all of it. I fought for their reputation. I've done the same thing that other people have done in previous generations when their band became something totally different, when they fought for them and stuck up for them. I can't do that anymore. I have faith that they could turn it around, but I can't waste anymore energy trying to save something that the founder of the band is not ready to save.
3. Lastly, it's shown me that, sometimes, it should just be about the music and not the values or morals or message.
Bella, I don't think they're disappointed in the true fans, just the thousands of FANGIRLS they have to play to everynight. They must feel like a boyband.
I've been thinking that very thing for some months now, love. I really don't know.
A tiny part of me hopes he doesn't know, because if he did, that would mean he doesn't give a fuck how much his words have offended and hurt his fans, seeing as how he continues to go on with the antics on stage. I wouldn't know how to handle that 'cause this guy used to mean a lot to me. But in the end I want to know the truth, even if it hurts.
But a larger part of me really does want him to know what we all think about these new changes. I still believe there's some good in that man. I don't know what's happened lately, but that good soul has been shoved aside, and has been replaced with something completely foreign.
Maybe he's just scared. Maybe this is all a cry for help?
Is this temporary (a phase, an early midlife crisis?), or will this be the only Gerard we'll be seeing from now on?
I don't think it's fair to drag the band down with Gerard. I have a lot of faith in those four. I truly hope one of them, or at least someone who knows the band has brought up this issue. I have a feeling some are just as disappointed as us. Frankly, a lot of the fans are starting to wake up and see this too.
I don't want to see this all blow up in his face. I just want him and the band to be OK.
Christ, look at me babbling. Am I making sense? Do you get where I'm coming from?
I hope I answered your question Fiona, but this is just me talking.
They really must be some cowards, if they don't have the balls to step up to Gerard and tell him what an asshole he is.
Again, we don't know that they haven't.
Gerard may choosing not to listen.
Maybe they did step up to him,we will never know, but I believe Gerard he's not the kind of person who says "you know what guys? You're right, I've been acting like an asshole", or at least he's not anymore. He can be pretty stubborn.
I think the other guys are as disappointed as us, and you can see it during live shows. It's like they only play because they don't want to upset their fans, but it's quite obvious something is just not right between them anymore. They used to have fun on stage, and now I can't see it anymore.
Yes to everything you said.
Hmm, I think I'd rather not tell it here, Safe.
It might attract more of those spiteful buzznet fansheep here.
Hello, Siobhan!
Mustard, I loved your comment.
Safe, you're probably right. I don't think "screaming fangirls" is what they used to dream of when they imagined their fan base.
Thank you, CTV!
great points all of you. really great points.
you know what? all i can do at the moment is see what this last brief tour of the USA brings. alot of our blogbelieve family are going to those gigs. i want to hear what everbody sees and i want to see some more interviews from G Way and then have a think on it all. i really am not ready to give up. i just don't want to. so that's what i'm waiting for!!
gotta go now guys. off to watch torchwood.
take care all of you and have a fun evening!
bye for now mayo. i hope to wake to new words from you and i look forward to it!!
SS take care you!
love to all!
Take care, FASC. Thanks for the chat.
Understood Siobhan. I THINK I know who you are anyway...... A non German living in Germany is ring the tiny bells in my head. I don't blame you for not posting it.
Bye FASC
"Is this temporary "
I really hope so, CTV.
"Frankly, a lot of the fans are starting to wake up and see this too."
I'm not sure about that though. As I said,nowadays most of their fans are teenager girls who can only scream at the top of their lungs "I LOVE YOU! I WANT TO HAVE YOUR BABIES!", and I am sure they would do anything to please him. What's happening on VV's blog is the proof.
Bella, I don't think they're disappointed in the true fans, just the thousands of FANGIRLS they have to play to everynight. They must feel like a boyband.
I know what you mean, Safe. I think it must be very hard to be in your late 20's or 30 years old and having all those teenies lusting for you.
But still, this is the fan base they also chose to address with their music.
Gerard and his constant talking about his high school trauma...
It is no wonder that he has become the spokesperson for all those teenagers, who don't fit it and feel like outsiders in school or anywhere else.
mustardisbetter said...
The best way to describe where I stand with Gerard and the band is disappointed.
Hmmmm...I wonder if any other members of the band feel disappointed? We have no way of knowing if they have tried to talk to him but I do feel bad for them, surely they can see the change in him too. Sometimes they must cringe with embarassment. I hate seeing him act like that. Or is he being his true self and the other Gerard persona was the act?He isn't punk he is being obnoxious. He's learned a lot from JU. Only the fansheep are impressed as he can do nothing wrong in there eyes.
*after*
*in*
Gah!
Edit Button!
Now!
Hello Fasc!
Hello CTV!
Hello Mustard!
How are you lovely ladies?
You're right, Bella. We are in the minority on this, but you have to agree that with the word about Verita's blog and the discussions we have here, there are a number of people that are starting to take off their rose-coloured glasses and see the picture for what it really is.
As a Bullets and early Revenge fan, I'm sure they are quite disappointed. Media allows only first impression interpretation.
Those quite observant are able to witness transparent layering. It's hard to understand the limit and the understatements.
Hello Bella!!
How are you?
Hmmmm...I wonder if any other members of the band feel disappointed?
Well, my first guess would be probably.
But, the fans who feel disappointed possibly have other alternate feelings for their disappointment.
Does that make sense? The reasons I'm disappointed aren't on a personal level with Gerard. There's, however, may be. That is if they're disappointed at all.
God, this makes my brain hurt.
Siobhan, can you do me a favour? Check out your BN account to see if I messaged the right person? I feel I've just made an ass of myself to a complete stranger in a case of mistaken identity.
Hi everyone
Hello BC!
*glomp*
Hi BC!!
Thanks, Safe ;-)
*Their's
Why the hell does the English language have to be so freaking homophonic?
Siobhan - was I right?
MIB - how is the English lang homophobic? I'm interested in the origins of things.
Hey siobhan and BC!
*HUGS*
I'm fine, thanks.
That's true CTV, but again we're talking about thousands of fans who still believe we are haters because we can't accept what's going on with Gerard, and I don't think this would change anytime soon.
The proof is that if you go and have a look to Buzznet archives you'll see that those girls who were disappointed in September about his marriage because it was rushed, are the same who now claim to be MSI fans.
They've changed their opinion just because Gerard told them MSI is a great band.
Alright guys, I need to get off now.
Take care, everyone.
"i want to hear what everbody sees and i want to see some more interviews from G Way and then have a think on it all. i really am not ready to give up. i just don't want to. so that's what i'm waiting for!!"
FASC, I am going to my first show and I want so badly for these smaller shows to bring out the best in them. I'm waiting to see what I witness with my own eyes and ears. I'm not ready to give up just yet either. And I totally understand everyone's point of view about all of this. It is disappointing. It makes me sad for the band, sad for Gerard. I really want this to work out for them. I want them to go down in history as an influencial band with their intregrity intact.
Safe:
Not homophobic. Homophonic.
There, their, and they're.
Its and it's.
Sound the same, but spelled different.
Yes, you are, Safe ;-)
Check your messages on buzznet.
Hey there Bella. Hi Safe, how are you? I know you're hiding somewhere Pancake-Zilla ;)
Hey CTV *glomp* Hi mustard.
Bye CTV and hi anima!
Fimble and MissT, we are you?
Sorry MIB. I need to learn to read one day.
Siobhan - nothings come through yet. I just so pleased I have a memory! Especially since it's been ages since you commented.
BC - I'm great, thanks for asking.
Bye CTV. Hello Anima *squeeze*
You're going to see your first show soon?
Mine is coming up next month, and at every concert I go to, I always make sure to write a review, so expect at least two of them posted on my blog after april 18th.
I hope the shows won't be like the ones at PR, but even without Gerard's erratic behavior, I thought PR sucked, at least for me it did.
Hi Bella, CTV, BC, Mustard, Safe, Siobhan!
*squeezes BC* (BC, what Elena wrote about you is true.) :)
Yup, my first show....how ridiculous is that? I'm going to the KC show and of course the one in St. Louis. I'm trying to talk my husband into going...and I think he is seriously considering it, which would be way cool.
Aww thank you Anima. If you're husband is going, then that's great. I hope you guys have a great time.
Usually I see a lot of adults go to shows just to get drunk.
They really must be some cowards, if they don't have the balls to step up to Gerard and tell him what an asshole he is.
Again, we don't know that they haven't.
Gerard may choosing not to listen.
I think if they really got to the point where they think that Gerard's behaviour could endanger the band's future there would find other options to make him stop. For example talk to their management.
After all, it is all about money and if they come to the conclusion that Gerard destroys the band with his megalomaniac outbursts they would have the means to shut him up.
I'm sure you'll have a great time, anima.
Well guys I'm off to bed.
Fimble and MissT, if you happen to lurk know I MISS YOU BOTH, okay?
Goodnight Mayo,SS and Family.
Take care.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Hello Anima!
Hello, my lovely BC!
How are you two?
Bye Fasc!
Bye CTV!
Take care!
Bye Bella!
Gaah, everyone's leaving!
Welp, I gotta scoot out of here.
All of you have a lovely evening, (day, whatever time it is where you are).
Mayo, you can't post tonight. I won't be around and it seems like I keep missing you everytime. ^_^ Post tomorrow, but you really need to hang out with us. We're friends, right? I hope you feel that way because I consider you my friend, but I never get to hang with you. It's kind of makes me sad. Nah, it's okay, I'm just givin' you trouble. Hope to see you around soon!
SS, I miss you buddy.
♥ you guys!
Goodnight and sweet dreams Bella *hugs*
Do not get me started about Gerard's behavior. I'll get a fucking headache if I do. I'll save the speech if or when I meet him again.
After all, what's the point of constantly complaining about him where there are ways to address his behavior directly to the man himself by telling it to his face when the opportunity presents itself? (in a upmost respectful manner of course)
Yeah, it's been ages since I commented.
You know what? Their showing 'The Wave' in theaters here in Germany.
Those people at buzznet always reminded me of that book.
Hello my lovely Pancake-Zilla. I am doing great, tired though, but thank you for asking.
Have you eaten already? ^_^
The Wave? What's that about? Sounds ominous.
BC, I'm not a mean anon, but do you seriously think you have the right to tell him?
You don't know him personally, and would he need to listen to you, if he doesn't have a personal connection with you?
Bye the way, I know you mean well.
Safe on the Waves said...
MIB - how is the English lang homophobic?
Quote of the day, right there.
Do you really think he would listen to you, BC?
He's not interested in criticism.
He said that several times in interviews.
Blah!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!
BOW DOWN!!
BOW DOWN!!!
QUEEN OF THE 666TH POST!
MISTRESS OF THE FIRSTIES!!!
Again, I'd like to clarify that I said the English language was homophonic, not homophobic.
Just so everyone knows.
I'm glad I maked you smile, Anon. I've always wanted a quote of the day! xoxo
Siobhan-san, if I have to, I'll bust his fucking balls and say it. I don't give a shit if he doesn't listen to criticism. I'll say it anyways.
And also,
Gaaaaaaahhhh!!!
I WILL NEVER BOW DOWN TO YOU!!!!!
Hello laughing anon
Hello everybody.
Alright I have some friends who are MIA. FS and Bikey where the hell are you? At least let us know you are alright.
Miss t I will give you one more day and than I'm calling you out as well.
Hello MJ. How was your day? Last time I talked to Miss T, she said that she's been busy
First, I think BC would have all the right to ask him, anon!
After all, she is one of the countless people, who supports his band and also his lifestyle with her hard-earned money.
But still, I think he would not listen.
BC, yes I have eaten. You're safe for tonight, hehe.
The wave is a book by Morton Rhue.
It's about a teaching experiment that took place somewhere in the USA.
Read more here
My day was alright. I just awoke from a nap. BC how was your day?
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