or, my life…spent.
That last revolution left me dazed. The same scenery flashed and repeated in an orbital rhythm. My environment moved too quickly for me to identify solid form and everything around me slurred into a meander. Each day turned from brief respite into swift departure. I felt my gut at my feet and my head in a fog.
Towards the end, I heeled my words into the ground in a desperate attempt to persuade the fucking thing to stop. I hung on. My knees were raw from fighting the spin and the tops of my shoes were caked with the filth that surrounded my craft. Finally, I let go.
I was spun out, stopped; a playground massacre.
What a sight, covered in dust and dirt, sweat and blood. But, I was not alone. I managed to attract quite a malignant clutch. And while I lay there, words were unwound and lifted from their purpose by nasty little hands and then, repeatedly passed along, shoved into pockets, and spent on cheap ice cream concessions.
Now, after a few months in circulation, it is impossible to determine that they are counterfeit. They all spend the same, right?
I wrote that a while ago. It feels different to me now. Different, but still...relevant. Well, I am off.
p.s. I am at a distance; you are in proximity…but here, we maintain satellite and If you sspirit through here, “Thank you.”
Thursday, March 27, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 1401 – 1600 of 4189 Newer› Newest»BUMP! HELLO POETRY!!!!!!!
NOW, GO TO BED YOUNG ONE!!!!!!!!
Yeah, ok, so no seeing of the big picture then.
Caaaaaaaake!
Wendy, it just occured to me that I don't know WHERE Lear is.
....
Where's that Big Yellow Bastard at?
-A
Goodnight Mustard!
BC: I shall see what I can do :)
(rest in peace Dimebag)
:(
amyranth said....
Where's that Big Yellow Bastard at?
-A
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OH NO! Don't tell me I have to check his teeth for lion stuffing!
I told him to keep those paws (I mean hands) of off Lear.
Dang Golden Gods NEVER listen!!
No Amyranth, you need to get your head straightened out. I am entitled to like the people I like. When I see this going on what happened tonight and the other night, I am entitled to say it's wrong and you have no say in it! I like whoever I damn well please and defend whoever I damn well please and will not "bugger off" speaking out against things I think are wrong because YOU said to.
And now you know how I feel, and how I got to the point I'M at.
Keep asking questions, and you'll get the whole story.
-A
Wendy!
That Big Yellow Bastard wouldn't EAT Lear would he?
Really?
Aw man!
*starts scouting the house*
-A
I want more cake!!! NOM NOM NOM. Come on anons, can you bury the hatchet and just party? It's fucking Friday dudes :)
angel said...
Anonymous said...
I must go...can you feel my finger gently outlining your lips?
Now, feel my tongue outline them, and my lips meeting yours.
I will look at the stars tonight...
March 29, 2008 1:21 AM
My love...I can feel you against me. Tonight, I will have my hand pressed against the glass, waiting for your touch. It is heavenly to hear your voice. I love you.
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I knew that was for Angel!!!
Awww......I love, LOVE (and passion and lust)! It's ALL there, isn't it Angel?
You are one very lucky heavenly being!
*smiles*
Amyranth said...
Wendy!
That Big Yellow Bastard wouldn't EAT Lear would he?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well Amy......
I suppose it's my fault.
I REALLY should remember to FEED him!
*blushes*
*says silent prayer for Lear*
Wendy, Angel is, isn't he?
Romance is not easy to come by, however it's easy to fake.
Did that make sense?
-A
AHA!
*pulls Lear from behind the potted plant at the bottom of the stairs*
I knew he hadn't gone far!
*glances around again and skitters off to the chair in front of the fireplace*
-A
By the way, where is Angel?
Amy: THAT makes PERFECT sense, love (at least it does to me).
*whips forehead*
WHEW!
*says prayer of thanks for Amy finding Lear*
BC: I working on the presents!
Where the heck did Ergo go? And Elena? I KNOW I saw Elena round here, somewhere.
Hmmmm.....wonders if our resident vampire will show up to twirl BC around the dance floor for her birthday?????
Amyranth, my deepest apologies for not explaining earlier. I have been rather close-mouthed regarding my love and myself. You see, my love is the "he", and I am the "she". Anon616, yes, you discovered him too! Bleeding Chaos, my sincerest wishes for a wonderful birthday! I shall have to bring you a present later.
*glances at what remains of the cake*
BC: It would appear as though we already ate all the best pieces!
;)
BC: I working on the presents!
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Yay! Thank you sugarplum! I posted some of your presents on my blog. I love them :)
Hmmmm.....wonders if our resident vampire will show up to twirl BC around the dance floor for her birthday?????
-----------------------------------
I would love that *swoons*
Oh angel how lovely
goodnight mustard sweet dreams
Ah Angel! Who is whom doesn't matter, at least you're brave enough to tell the whole world how you feel.
-A
Angel, thank you. I was wondering where you were ^_^
Where the heck did Ergo go?
I was outside letting my chickens out and feeding my guinea pigs their vege treats
And the cake was absolutely delicious. You should become a chef Wendy ;)
WHO LET THE BIRDS OUT?
-A
Angel: Thank you for clearing up the pronoun mystery; but, as others have said, it does not really matter.
You will always be 'our Angel' and your love will always be 'your love'.
You are BOTH very lucky/truly blessed!!!
BC: I'm so HAPPY you're feeling better!!!!
Amyranth, I felt the matter needed a bit of explanation. I did not want to present false information. Carrie, my condolences to you and your family. I understand it was a relative who passed?
Aww thanks Wendy. Your presents and the cake made me feel really happy. Thank you a million times sugarplum *smothers with special birthday kisses*
BUC BUC BUC BRUCWARK!!!
Gifts for BC!
Phillip in studio
Phillip Unscarred
Anselmo
NOM NOM NOM
Hi Angel, yes, it was my MIL's cousin, who also happened to be my husband's godfather. He was quite a character, and we were all very close. I know he's better off, but my selfish heart is not happy today. And Ergo, my husband's latest obsession is getting chickens. Do you enjoy yours?
I cannot find where my budgie cage liners are!
Carrie I love having chickens I have a mum on 9 eggs at the moment , another 17 days until chicks!
we gat 3 or so eggs a day but some are just coming up to point of lay so we should get more soon
Amyranth said...
WHO LET THE BIRDS OUT?
-A
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O_O
Ergo: We still need to see pictures of the latest batch of chicks!
BC: I'm quite skilled at baking.
I'm especially skilled at decorating with frosting and whipped cream!!!! :D
Wendy, I love love love the presents! Thank you love!! *hugs*
Carrie: It's okay to be selfish now and then, love....
especially when it comes to missing people we love.
Well, I think it's okay! Others may have a differing opinions....
Frosting and icing. Yummy!! As soon as I get up early in the morning before I go out and celebrate, I'm gonna hit the store and buy my cake and ice cream. I can't wait!
my hens are like this
Angel, it's all good!
Although now I feel bad for calling your love, your "maiden" last night.
My apologies!
-A
Carrie, when it comes to that kind of loss, feel free to be selfish as fuck.
I don't mind at all. Like you said, big picture.
-A
that is so cool ergo, my sis in law lives on a farm and they have chickens and cows. They get quite a lot of eggs, their daughter has a burgeoning egg business. We live in more of a township situation though, so I keep telling him I'm not thinking the neighbors are going to dig on us suddenly getting chickens.
Amyranth, *laughs*, believe me, he would turn that into a joke! He is no "maiden", though. *winks* For now, ladies, I will leave you to converse, celebrate, and gaze at the stars. That is where I shall be.
Happy birthday again, Bleeding Chaos, may it be a most delightful one for you. Pleasant dreams to you, Ergoproxy, Amyranth, Anon616, Carrie, Jayce, and of course, my love. Rest well.
More for BC:
Dimebag
Dimebag toasting
Dimebag outside tour bus
BC: You have heard Zakk's song for Dimebag, right???
Thank you Angel. Goodnight and pleasant dreams to you. Rest well.
these are my littlest chicks
Goodnight Angel and the sweetest of dreams to you and your love!
I was off getting more presents for BC, sorry......
Wendy, I only heard about it, but never listened to it. I read he plays the piano in it. Is that true?
And thank you for the pictures. Even more presents I can add on my blog. Woo! :D
goodnight angel thanks and enjoy your rest
carrie just don't get a rooster!
that pic was just taken now
No need to apologize sugarplum. I think I'm getting overexcited obviously lol.
I think the party for tomorrow is still on, but when I get back because I am going out to celebrate ^__^
Ergo, awwww!
Ergo, they're beautiful!!!!!
*note to self: keep the golden one away from Ergo's hens and chicks*
Thank you so much for taking those pictures for us!!!!
Oh yeah, no roosters. Your pics are kinda making me want chickens now, dayum!
T'is a beautiful remembrance/tribute to Dimebag, BC.
:(
Black Label Society - In This River
:(
Goodnight Angel!
Ergo, those chicks are cute! How old do they have to be to be called Chickens though?
-A
the little white one can only see out of one eye, something happened really early and it got all weepy, we thought she was pecked but it's sort of got a membrane over the eyeball, don't know if we should touch it though.
There are 2 roosters 3 hens and an I'm not sure yet
usually about 6 months or so, or when they start to lay.
I just go by when they look big enough!
ergoproxy said...
usually about 6 months or so, or when they start to lay.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
O_O
Not saying a word! Nope, not a PEEP out of me!
:))
Thanks for that Ergo. I was getting a little misty eyed listening to/watching "In This River"
hahahahahahahaha
Wendy, the last dimebag picture didn't work :(
But I shall check out the video link for in this river.
:p
*must get her mind out of the gutter*
I agree with Wendy. Not gonna touch that one!
Alright girls, I have a nice long day of housecleaning ahead of me, so I'll see you Lovelies later!
BC! Have a great day, and we'll party tomorrow night, right?
Right!
See you girls!
Goodnight Mayonaise! Bye SS!
-A
Oh man, no triston tonight? I saw Dimebag's wife on La Ink, that was a really sad story. People can be just evil.
Night Amy!
goodnight amy sweet dreams
Sorry BC! I'll try sending it to you on ms!
For those people wondering WHY bands/musicians need so much SECURITY, well.....look at what happened to Dimebag. :(
You never know how many nuts out there are packing guns and vendettas.....
real or imaginary!
Amy's going to bed?
Goodnight Amy!!! Don't forget Lear!
Sweet dreams to the both of you
:)
I'm off too, guys, thanks for hanging with me tonight, and making a totally sucky day a little bit better.
That's okay sugarplum. I think my computer might have messed up the link. It's a old model. I just seen the in this river video, and I almost cried :( I think I'll post it though.
Goodnight and sweet dreams Amy. Yep, the party is on for tomorrow. You better believe it :)
Carrie, it is.
Goodnight and the most sweetest dreams to you Carrie.
Goodnight Carrie and sweet dreams to you as well!
*HUGE hug this time*
I'm glad we could help make your day a little less sucky! :)
goodnight carrie sweet dreams
that is why they screen and search these days, but if someone was determined, it's a scary side of fame
Speaky of sucky.....
TRISTON: Come out, come out wherever you are!
It's BC's birthday and she requires a dance partner!
:D
Hmmm......perhaps he knocked himself out last night (flying into Ergo's window too many times)
;)
I'm off too to do some house stuff, gotta clean up teh bathroom counter - it's a mess!!
back later, but i'll lurk for sure!
wendy it was a strange night.....misty even...for REAL!!
I didn't find him in the yard though.
:)
ergoproxy said...
that is why they screen and search these days, but if someone was determined, it's a scary side of fame
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That's true, Ergo! It's such a shame it they didn't think to screen and search before such a great musician - and more importantly, a great person - was lost....
The really sad/scary thing is, those who are really determined to do evil seem have no trouble getting it done!
Mayo
I’m sorry I can’t write a proper goodnight to you tonight. Actually me being here at all is almost impossible but I just had to let you know that even though I’m not here for long I am always here in spirit. I’m sure tomorrow will be better, I’m sure tomorrow I’ll be able to talk to my friends, things will be okay. I’m also sure I should really question what color the sky is in my world. Okay, I heading into “my life sucks” territory and I can’t even begin to go there right now.
Mayo, take care of yourself. Make sure you live your life on your terms and no one else’s. And make sure the sky in your world is a beautiful shade of blue.
Oh and I talked to Toujours and she wanted me to tell you that she is busy packing tonight. She wants you to know that she is here too in spirit. I guess TJ and I are your Spirit Lovelies. We are with you always.
Night Mayo
Elena (the spirit is strong but)
ergoproxy said...
wendy it was a strange night.....misty even...for REAL!!
I didn't find him in the yard though.
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Ummm.......did those chicks, hens and roosters EAT today? Or, were they not hungry????
*starts worrying about Triston*
Goodnight Elena, sweet dreams. Take care Ergo.
I would think Triston would be here, considering we threw a small party tonight, and that there will be another tomorrow.
Too drunk on blood I suppose ;)
Elena!!!!!
Goodnight and the sweetest (donut) dreams to you - and TJ too!
Ergo and BC: I must go for now as well. Sweet dreams to the both of you!
I hope you enjoyed your pre-party PARTY, BC!!!
HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY birthday to you, sweetcheeks!
Have PHILtastic dreams tonight ;)
Goodnight Mayo,SS and all residents of blogbelieve!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Thank you sugarplum!! Aww, am I gonna be alone here for a while? Oh well, goodnight and sweet dreams to you and thank you so much for the presents!!!
Love and hugs to you Wendy!! Xoxo
Mayonaise,
No long post tonight, other than to be safe, happy, and well. Enjoy your weekend. I shall be out celebrating my special day later on and to pick up a cake in the morning so I must say my goodnight to you. Goodnight and the most pleasant dreams to you. &heart; to you.
Goodnight SS, lurkers, bloggers, Ergo, anyone else about.
Sweet dreams.
http://www.azstarnet.com/allheadlines/231299.php
Fuck you people apologizing to Mayo for anons spamming when it was you in the first place.
anon at 4:36 love the article what a classic!
especially the predictions, I aways wondered about the resemblance...though Ray and Bob must've matured young!
You never know I suppose, those Jersey and Chicago boys!
Well as long as the reunion tour takes in Oz I'll make sure they wheel me out of the old age home to watch, lol
Just a question to anyone who's in or been to New York. Anyone ever been to Birdland Club aka the Jazz Corner of the Nation?
I would LOVE to get there one day.
I have been listening to their take on "Birdland" today again (it's been my favourite for lord knows how many years) and to be there would be such a thrill.If any one has, what's it like?
Mayo hope you had a great day. I did, funny huh, not doing anything and I braved McDonalds but it was still good, especially grooving to my fave jazz standard, have to dig out "Take the A Train" and a few others too.
Oh if only I could scat! To have that voice and skill - wow.
Anyhoo, hoping this finds you well and happy. Wishing love success happiness and contentment to you and yours
much love EP xx
SS hey you! Hope you're feeling good, happy trails to you and those you love.
lotsa love EP xx
Goodnight blogbelieve,
hello to PP fasc and kass adn goodnight to BC Wendy and elena,
elena hope tomorrow dawns brighter for you.
if it's sunny/not raining and nice I'm going fishing tomorrow!Yay!
have to go and close my chickens up now, or the roster decides to walk down to the house to crow at 6 am! isn't that sweet of him!
Hope you all have a brilliant Saturday. i'm heading into Sunday with bacon, eggs and croissants on the menu for a scrummy breakfast.
goodnight everyone! Sweet dreams and good times!
*rooster
actually 2 of them
Good *whatever it is, wherever you are* Mayo, SS, birthday girl BC, lurking Ergo, the usual suspects for this time of day: Kass, FASC, Possum, Miranth and Safe *both truly missed - and Martha too*, spamming anon, LOL anon, lovers (and those who wish to be lovers) of blog believe....
How are you all today/tonight? Not feeling the pain of missing and longing for another - due to distance, I HOPE! That can really suck, can't it? Oh well....
we learn to deal with it, I suppose. *le sigh*
In case anyone did not know, today is BC's BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Please leave her lots of Pantera, The 69 Eyes, Nightwish, Evanesence and HIM goodies *big grin*
(BC has EXCELLENT musical taste)
(the HIM is for ME!)
From anon @ 4:36 am:
"We've completely f--- ourselves," said Bob Bryar from Australia. "We've kind of backed ourselves into a corner right now. So, we're not even going to think about that. Whatever happens, happens."
`````````````````````
That's okay Bob! We all f--k ourselves from time to time!
The fun thing about that (well, ONE of the fun things about that) is we get to claw and BITE our way out of that corner! T'is great exercise for one's claws and fangs!!!! ;)
GREAT attitude by the way!
"Que Sera Sera"!!!!!
Thank you for that one anon!
To ponder today (wonder where this idea came from):
Doris Day Que Sera Sera (Whatever Will be, WILL BE)
Have a great day everyone!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
hold the phone!!
Bob Bryar from Australia????
ok he didn't tour last Nov,(and he wasn't seen at the hotel or airport in Brisbane) so last time he was officially here was last Jan (07)
so does that mean there has been a Bob-u-san under my nose at some stage recently?
if so - excellent taste in holiday destination!!!
But why no visit?
Hmmmmm???? I said you could camp in the back yard!
if not, that's a really really old phone call!
curious!
Happy Bday BC my lovely blog mum :) I love you ♥
hello everyone else :) Hope you are all looking after each other
Im just passing through. My bed awaits. Night/morning/good day :)
Mayo,
How are you today? I hope you are happy and well. Me? I'm okay.
I'll just leave you with one of my big hot messes of rambling goodness.
just a girl
lost
searching for something
or someone
stretching out her arms
holding out her hand
offering comfort
and security
friendship
silly girl
not realizing
she needs this more than they do
she stumbles through life
banging her head
and running
into all the sharp corners
it's the only way
she knows she's still alive
her heart hurts
but it still beats
she can hear it
and feel it
with every breath
she hardly ever looks up
head hangs down
she knows the view of the bottom
all to well
been there too many times
kissed it
licked it
wallowed around in it
familiar
still she searches
for something to fill the emptiness
the void
it echoes in her mind
she can't hear herself anymore
she's still lost
and desperate
walking with her arms out
hands open
silly girl
someone shouts
"Stupid Girl!"
"You're looking in the wrong places."
her head drops
defeated
she continues
never realizing
she won't find herself
until she stops looking
for everyone else
Feel me, Mayo?
Hope your Saturday is spectacular and the sun shines all day long! Get outside and soak it up.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Why is she not worth it?
Good morning everybody. And how has this fine weekend morning greeting everyone today?
Breakfast in bed maybe?
An early morning run?
Some early afternoon daylight?
Or feeling the warmth of an early spring morn on your face and through your spirit?
Mustard,
I've been reading you O_O
Don't you dare give up young lady.
BC,
Happy Happy Birthday to you !!!
Mayo,
Well, I am off.
Well, heck, yes! That's what happens when you sit yourself in the sun too long!
SS,
*testing*
*testing*
*testing theory*
You always seem to uncannily appear on these pages when my supply of cokezero is depleted.
So...
is it depleted today or not o_O
*will be scrutinising next 24 hours carefully*
*thanks the stars above that you have given up on being subtle*
*hides national daily consumption statistics so as not to reveal slump or rise*
Happy weekend days to you all ^_^
Hi PP, hi Solly! ^__^
she won't find herself
until she stops looking
for everyone else
Wise words Solly, for certain.
Nice anons last night: Thank you, that's so kind. You really didn't have to repost it; it's on my blog too, but I appreciate the thought. All the thoughts actually. Thank you.
Well, I am off to Hula rehearsal this morning, and now we'd better start really cracking down. (This is tough because the studio has been closed and we've been forced to rehearse in one of the dancer's basement, with her bratty kids running around and screaming at us, purposely interrupting songs and putting toys in the way. They are badly behaved children.) But not only is Hula season right around the corner, we have to work on something really big for the fundraiser for Danny. Like, huge, probably the biggest show we've ever put together. I'm a little intimidated.
Mayo, I hope Saturday finds you content and rested, and treats you well.
S(S)S, keep smiling your sincere smile. We'll feel it all the way over here. ^_^
Be back later everyone, have a good Saturday morning! (Too bad the cartoons aren't what they used to be. Who remembers Dungeons and Dragons? With Uni! O_O )
He's a sneaky one for sure. ^_^
Good morning to all!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BC!!!
Alright, must go get coffee before I choke someone. >_<
morning,
quickie this morning,
Happy birthday BC, have a nice day.
right, i will catch you all later.
i enjoyed the songs and the poems last night.
bye bye
xxx
Before I go, hello Princess and Fim! Also, thank you Fim. You partly inspired the one I wrote, so. ^_^
Okay, later you guys!
Hey Fim!
Hey Jules!
I loved the stuff you wrote last night. All of you. Really. It was awesome. Don't ever stop.
I'd do it if I could but I'm just not good at it. One thing the princess is not fabulous at! ^_~
Love you all!
TOODLES!
Right, I love FIMBLE VENOMS SOCK STAR!
Jules, I sure do remember D n D with the uni!
Good times!
BC,
Wanted to send you Happy Birthday wishes!
Hope you have the best B-day evah!
Love,
Solly
Right. ^_^
Okay, so like, I swear that I must have known Frank in a past life or something.
"OH! MY! GAWWWWD!" ^_^
Anyhoo....
This was my dream from last night. I think all the talk of Muse and the dancing stuff and concerts is what prompted this shit.
Sdock and I were the first at the door to get in. O_o We were at like this old abandoned auditorium and it kind of looked like a school gym. So, when we got in, we went straight to the front of the stage where Frank plays. ^_^
I had to pee like really bad so I went to the restroom. It was creepy as hell. Like horror flick creepy. Okay, so anyway, when I got back, there were all these chairs set up. Sdock was like, "They moved us back. The fuckers moved us back!" O_O
About that time, these little kids came walking down to front. Like, 9 year olds. WTF? Well, when MCR came out onstage, they were awesome! Rockin' out and shit. Okay, so the little 9 year olds start dancing. Like, for real, dancing. Ballet dancing. WTMF? So, Frank starts looking at them and then he looked straight at me and goes, "Who the hell are these people?"
And then I woke up!
Smok!!!
That's like the best dream ever!!
You don't dream often, but when you do, they are always waaay better than mine.
Make yourself a mental note to pee before we get in our spot!!
Right!
Mayo,
Morning. Did you like the ghetto-fabulousness last night? ^_^ Hope you are okay, dude. Have a great Saturday. Bust out with some Nelly if you feel like it. Country Grammar. ^_^
SS!
Having fun yet? Awesomeness? Yes? I hope so. Wherever you may be. Just take care of yourself, okay? AND SMIIIIIILLLLLEEEEEE!!! Like this...^______^. Right.
Have a great day, BlogBelieve!
Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BC!
Make yourself a mental note to pee before we get in our spot!!
Words to live by, Solly!
Mayo:
Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave, without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe, believe!
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we're different.
Tonight, tonight, tonight
So bright
Tonight, tonight
And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade, in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
SS:
Have a great day, dude. Go sniff some flowers or something, but don't get stung. :) See ya!
BC:
Have a great day. Happy Birthday to you!
So tired and poorly. Two cities in one day is no joke. And I hate flying too.
Oh well.
Love to all,
M X
Since the "endangered" status was lifted from the grey wolves, hunts are already being planned.
Idaho hunters will be allowed to kill between 100-300 of the animals this fall under a plan approved by the Idaho Fish and Game Commission.
Earthjustice.org
But Princess, your dream was hilarious! I'm surprised you were able to pee in your dream. I know how weird that sounds, but when I have to pee in my dreams something always stops me. Like the bathroom is dirty or someone is watching or something. O_O
Morning Mayo,
Well not morning anymore, its actually afternoon I guess. Drama still runs amuck in my life but hey, I’m sorta getting used to it.
Hope everyone has a great day, drama free and happy. I always aim high for the day knowing it's probably gonna get shot down but you know you gotta try.
The time has come for colds and overcoats,
We're quiet on the ride we're all just waiting to get home.
Another week away, my greatest fear.
I need the smell of summer, I need it's noises in my ear.
If looks could really kill, then my profession would be staring.
Know we do this 'cause we care and not for the thrill.
Collect calls to home, to tell 'em that I realize that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone.
And we won't let you in.
Though we're down and out.
We won't let you in.
Wrote more postcards than hooks.
I read more maps than books.
Feel like every chance to leave is another chance I should have took.
Every minute is a mile, I've never felt so hollow.
I'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles.
My secrets for a buck.
Watch me as I cut myself wide open on this stage.
Yes, I am paid to spill my guts.
I won't see home 'till spring.
Oh, I would kill for the Atlantic,but I am paid to make girls panic while I sing.
[...]
The harpoon's loaded. The cage is lowered. The water is red... like you.
And this is what I want?
Yes, this is what I want.
Oh, hey guys!
Um, what's the logic in lifting the "endangered animal" ban? Kill some more of them so you can implement the ban in a few years? That's cool. /sarcasm
That seems to be the plan, Splash. They're talking about it already. Kill enough so that they are endangered again, and then ban hunts for a few years. I mean, come on, it's so ridiculous.
Elena, why not do something cool for yourself today? Splurge a little, hit a beach, OMG, get a massage, nothing nicer! Take a little pleasure, you know? :) And you never know, something hugely good could happen.
SOLLY, I know you can't load songs or videos on your 'puter, so I'm just going to put the lyrics for you. This is our song now, 'kay?? ;D
You're Not Alone - Saosin
It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know..
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(There is more to know)
We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell.
(So tell me)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.
Dude, that song was in constant rotation for a year. O_o
Hey, that is the song reference in the poem you gave me, right?
Hello to anyone who is here. I hope you guys are well. And a big super ultra thank you for the birthday wishes to mustard, smokie, solly, pickled possom, fimmy fim, wendy (thank you for the awesome presents last night sugarplum!!!) my lovely shame in me, aww I love you too! ♥
I hope you guys have a great saturday
Wendy, regarding my musical tastes, please also add some lacuna coil, within temptation, some metallica, arch enemy, and some slayer and some drowning pool and motorhead. Thank you. And oh yeah, some AC/DC :D
Be back later. ♥ to you guys.
I love that song. It always picks me up when I need it.
Your poem, the one I made for you? No that was MBH. :D Best song ever.
Hey Mustard, Elena, Jules, BC!
Smoke and I are getting ready to make our weekly trip to Wally World. What should we buy? Anyone got any ideas?
Jules, thank you for the song. I love the lyrics. Does Wally World carry Saosin?
No! I know that!
The song that says You're Not Alone...
Is that the reference?
Hey BC!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BC
You say it's your birthday
It's my birthday too--yeah
They say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good time
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party.
I would like you to dance--Birthday
Take a cha-cha-cha-chance-Birthday
I would like you to dance--Birthday
Dance
You say it's your birthday
Well it's my birthday too--yeah
You say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good time
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.
To whichever anon was around last night who was being nice, and especially 11:36, quia amore langueo, thank you. 11:36, I don’t know of you were Calaf or not, or Spooky anon, or whoever, but that poem is beautiful and harsh, isn’t it? If ever I, or anyone, has upon you a bloody shirt set, or if love has shod you wonder strait, well I’m sorry for that.
As far as last night, sicut Lilium inter spinas, sic amica mea inter filias, you know?
Yeah, yeah I did say that! Cool! :D I get stuck on that song.
I think Walmart carries Saosin, I don't see why not. They've got some really cool songs. That's another band that I heard for the first time live and I thought they were great. They were opening for 30STM a few times.
I was supposed to go to Tar-zhay and pick up Muse today, as well as some nice springtime lights, but the traffic was really bad when I was coming home today and my house is so messy, so here I am. ^_^ I will go out tomorrow.
I HATE WAITING!
But the bathroom was really creepy! And why is it that Solly always has this filthy ass mouth in my dreams? I wonder. ^_^
Wal-Mart sucks. Punk ass bitches always carry the 'clean' versions of everything.
EWWW.
BE BACK LATER! ^____^
Pretty sure Walmart carries Saosin. They don't have a Parental Advisory sticker, plus they're in good demand. There's a big ass beetle on the front, so it won't be hard to miss O_o.
Yeah, yeah I did say that!
Yeah! On first read, I thought that was the song you were talking about, but I wasn't sure if there was a different song by the same title I should be listening to or what.
(And for what it's worth, I often repeat "...The rejects, the losers, the waifs--Here you're safe child, you are safe." It flowed so well that it gets stuck in my head a lot. That was my favorite part.)
Hello Smoke and Sdock if you're both still around!
I can't even tell you how honored I am Splash. ^_^
You have to tell people the things you need them to know.
Or else, one day, it will be too late.
I've gotta go, but I hope to see you all when I get back. Have fun, stay safe, and get dirty. ;)
Elena, thank you for the song lyrics ^_^
You know what else ruled last night? The Kerouac anon. ^_^
Apologies for the long comment. i am not a writer so this will be crap. i just wanted to, thats all.
For you, SS
and anybody who wishes to take anything from it.
Sidney's Words.
Kicked to the floor with nasty hurtful words thrown here, there and everywhere, Phillip curled in a ball and cried. Wishful thoughts ran through his head, praying that someone would stop this continuous inhuman behaviour which inflicted on him on a daily basis. With his teary eyes closed tight and his bruised arms clutched around his small frail body, Phillip realised that the torture had ceased and he was left in the middle of the dark and cold room. Slowly, Phillip opened his eyes one by one but remained still in case his tormenters were waiting to pounce again. Phillip slowly stood to his natural stance and brushed himself down from the dust and dirt which had covered his clothes. Once again, he was betrayed and attacked for reasons unknown.
Phillip was a normal boy, some may say he was shy and set back but not many people knew him. He went by his own business and didn’t want to bother or cause attention to himself. After countless attacks by both his family and his peers, Phillip began to withdraw into a shell like form and failed to show anybody his true identity. This was a shame because his inner beauty and his vibrant thoughts and ideas were overshadowed by his pain and self doubt. Phillip had so many passions and so much joy for other people, but unfortunately the world would never witness the purity of Phillip.
He dreamt often, whether he was sleeping or in a day dream, that he was somebody else. Somebody who had the confidence and the respect that he desired from the people he met. Lately, Phillip had been dreaming of a bear which confused him and normally made him snap out of his trance. Phillip wasn’t scared of bears but he saw them as big scary hostile creatures so he was resistant to dream of them at all. One dream made him change his mind, one dream made Phillip think about his own views and his own attitude.
In the land of dream, Phillip was sat on a bench which was situated on the edge of the woods. He was eating his sandwich and watching the birds in the sky when he noticed that a bear came and sat beside him on the bench. Around this time, Phillip would normally try and snap himself out of the dream but for some reason, he continued to sit there very quietly and lifeless. A part of Phillip was scared but apart of him was intrigued by this magnificent creature who dared to be close and peaceful around a human. Sitting there for a while, Phillip looked down at his sandwich and decided to offer the bear his second half. Well, the bear looked amazed and took the sandwich and out of no where, he spoke words. The bear thanked phillip for the food and stared at phillip whos face was in shock at the idea of a talking bear. The bear thought that he should explain himself before this boy has a heart attack through shock.
The bear’s name was Sidney and he wasn’t like the other bears. Sidney was a special bear who portrayed human qualities. Sidney was in a way, in Phillips dream to help Phillip and to show him what is so special about himself. Sidney spoke in a deep voice but his words and how he expressed himself was so soft and peaceful that Phillip just sat there and listened. Words began to escape Sidney’s mouth but in a calm and respectful manner. He knew all about Phillip and who the real Phillip was, but what Sidney couldn’t understand was why Phillip was so withdrawn. Sidney used his words to bring peace and harmony to Phillips mind and soul. Sidney told phillip that life was all about love faith and hope, and that you should respect other in a way that you would like to be respected. Just by listening and believing in Sidney, Phillip had one of those ‘light bulb’ moments and then turned to Sidney and spoke. ‘Thank you Sidney for being gracious and kind to me. Thank you for showing me that you should never judge a book by its cover and for accepting people who are not the same as you. Thank you for helping me to understand myself that little bit more. Thank you for being there for me.’
With those words given to him, Sidney stood up and slowly walked back into the woods. Before Sidney reached the woods, he turned around and spoke for the last time. He said ‘Never forget who you are inside, that is your true identity and never doubt yourself. Remember that you are special in your own individual way’ then he proceeded to walk into the woods. Phillip sat there and watched him leave until he could no longer see Sidney in view. All of a sudden, he snapped out of his dream and was back in real life. Steadying himself as he got up, Phillip walked over to the mirror and repeated ‘love, faith and hope’ to himself and decided that he was bigger than the bullies that tortured hi through out his life. He was better than the hurtful words and the physical abuse he encountered by both his family and his peers. He decided that Sidney was correct and that this was the first day in Phillips life. He was going to stand tall and look straight ahead, never bowing his shoulders and never looking at the floor. This was the day that Phillip understood himself that little but more and wanted to show the world and the people what he was all about.
He never forgot Sidney’s words, throughout his life, he still thinks about Sidney and what Sidney did for him. Sidney showed what words can really do and what friends can do to help out their friends. Phillip will always be thankful for having Sidney’s words and presence.
Oh Fim, did you write that? It's lovely and the message is so true!
yeh, i did. thats why i said my top bit. beats the cheese anyday tho ;)
its 81*F here, i may go sit outside for a wee bit. how was your rehersal?
You are a treasure, Fimble Star. ^_^ Just a total treasure.
Shut up about the weather though, just stfu. It's still cold here. ;)
Rehearsal was not as productive as I had hoped but we put together a tentative set list. It's very ambitious. O_O
cool, sounds interesting. you will have to make a vid of it for shizzle ma nizzle.
anyhoot, i will stfu about the weather cos i am off out to get some rays.
have a lovely afternoon and i may send you some sun,fed ex style.
bye
*waves*
Have fun out there FimbleJazz, and if you get some rays, send them to Splash too. She loves her some rays. ;D
*knock knock*
...
......
..........
Candygram.
Candygram my foot! You're that clever shark, aren't you! Get out of here before I call the police.
Your maggot body should never write words down. They suck and are you ever going to stop trying to get attention from SS?
Fimble Venoms Smok Star,
You are an amazing friend. Do you you know how many times Smok and I mentioned you today? Just guess...
Nope, it was waaaaaay more than that.
Love you!
Your story is so thoughtful and beautiful just like you.
Umm. I'm only a dolphin, Ma'am.
What is happening among this blog now is the porchies are getting what they deserve. They started in with the OPS. They are the ones who made them have to leave. Now it's ocming back on them and they're feelng sorry for themselves. Yes it sounds cruel but they brought this on themselves. Also the annoying way they treat Mayo all the time. What goes around comes around.
Oh, really? Care to elaborate further?
The porchies should stay on the porch.
Just sayin'.
For one thing the email thing that never happened. The OPS aren't capable of doing that thing you all said. Yes SAID. And I can guess who started it, PPU. Fimble Star promoted it. Then to add insult to injury the way you all acted about the party for the OPS return, not celebrating along. No one defended them. Not a single one of you defended them when they were getting forced out of the blog and your welcome to their return was less then warm.
Anon at 5:13
Can't you understand that by bring this shit up over and over again the only thing happening is that all of us are getting hurt. This place is like a home to me. I have enough fucking drama in my real home I don't need anymore here.
For the Love Of God people - Let it go. Stop pointing fingers at each other, stop blaming shit on people. Get in your fucking cars and drive on. Damn, this gets so upsetting mostly because it doesn't have to be this way. Just let it go and move on.
Life is way too short. Enjoy it. Stop bringing up the past.
The anon before me has a good idea. There are two groups here now. You guys have the other blog. Ever notice how tense it is when you guys are posting late at night? Well if you can't stay on the "porch" maybe you could time it so we can all share the blog but be on at different times. Or you could stay on the porch.
Hi all.
Princessssss!!!
Frank Tempe photo for you ^_^
Or we could all try to work through this and get past it.
I agree with Elena...can't we just drop it and move on?
I will be glad to try and work through this with anyone here.
For all of blogbelieve:
We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Mikey F*#$%# Way
But Mayo isn't reading the "porch" so they wont be going there. They wont leave Mayo's attention.
Gerard Bare Arms Way at Tempe
Hey sdock good to see you. How's your day been?
Anon at 5:28 that is just beautiful.
Dear anonymous posters who insist on beating a dead dog,
Some of you are on constant repeat.
Go outside and live a little, change the subject, and consider your own ridiculous behavior.
Everyone who reads this blog understands that you are children.
No one really cares anymore.
Why do you?
I can only speculate that it is because you have the emotional capacity of a fly and have nothing better to than read this blog and attempt to make trouble.
Sadly, this is most likely because your own lives lack substance. So again, I am begging you...
go outside
read a book
write a story, a poem, a letter to a friend.
listen to music.
consider an alternative.
do something else.
be productive.
Hey guys.
You know what would be nice? A day without this.
Aww man, that pic of Frankles is at BN right? Is it anywhere else?
White Armed Way
Thanks, 5:35 and 5:28. Writing poems and just writing in general is very freeing. ^_^
Okay okay, I clickied the Frank pic and my computer didn't explode. ^_^ Niiiiice!
Boo hoo! It won't let me pull up the pics...fuck.
Hey Elena,
It's going pretty good so far. How's yours?
Jules,
I bought Saosin! Niiiiice. Also bought the latest Duran Duran...I am addicted to music. What can I say?
Hey PP!
Hey Posssum
Don't worry I'm at the store and not anywhere near a grill...So how are you?
It's nice to see Gerard looking so good. Hope he's gotten some much needed rest.
Hey K - How's it going?
Kapunua
Again, you do see beauty in what others miss
Forever
I am forever walking upon these shores,
Betwixt the sand and the foam,
The high tide will erase my foot-prints,
And the wind will blow away the foam.
But the sea and the shore will remain
Forever.
Khalil Gibran
hint:
Lyn-z is usually sleeveless.
For Sdock and Mustard
"All the darkness in the world could not put out the light of one small candle."
lyn-z is a horse tooth jackass.
PP! I ♥ you!
Fimble Venom,
Let me just say that I will ♥ you from now until like eternity.
Just sayin'...
Anons who want to start shit,
Isn't it tiring to keep reliving this shit over and over and over? Don't you get tired of typing the same things over and over and over?
Jesus.
Oh, and PPU is the coolest meffin' unicorn and I ♥ them, too.
Just sayin'....
For the OP's
Try to keep smiling. Get a little rock and roll on the radio, and go toward all the life there is with all the belief you can find and all the truth you can muster. Be true. Be brave. Stand. All the rest is darkness.
Hey Elena, how is your day going?
Solly, that's a wonderful addiction though. ^_^
5:43, we've talked before; thank you. :) Wonderful quote. I'll be honest, before college I thought Khalil Gibran was cereal.
5:53, disagree as always. She's beautiful. Worthy of respect, well, different story.
Anon,
Thank you so much for the quote. It's so nice to hear something positive today.
I appreciate it.
Smoke,
Agreed...PPU is the coolest meffin' unicorn in the whole world. They stole my ♥ a long time ago.
Okay okay, I clickied the Frank pic and my computer didn't explode. ^_^ Niiiiice!
Too hard to resist huh ^_^
Hi socky
Hi Kapunua
Hi Elena
Hi anon(s)
Lyn-z is usually sleeveless.
She wears mini skirts too o_O
Socky, will this one work for you if it isn't at BN?
Solly,
I have your box of little white chocolate truffle thingies.
^_^
Now how the fuck did that happen?
I swear!!!
PP,
That worked niiiiiiiice! Thank you!
Cool socky ^_^
I can transfer a few more over if you would like?
That's the coolest dude in the world. He doesn't even have to try, does he?
I love Mikey's shirt.
Yes, please! Please!
Hello
*waves*
how are you all?
Eho!
i love Milky Ways not Mikey Way.
*rolls out the red carpert and holds open door*
Hello Fimble Venoms Sock Star!
I'm doing okay K
Khalil Gibran cereal. Sounds healthy. LOL
Hey Smoke
Hey Elena!
Anon,
Awww, come on. Mikey is hilarious.
hey there fuck10, nice red carpet. how was your saturday, how was wally world?
Tell them how I was Super Princess Smok Star.
Tell them!
I saved the day.
Ladies, you rock my world.
For the princess
"Sometimes you say the smallest thing, or smile, and it makes my entire day better."
Okay, so I guess I will.
This little boy had lost his family. He couldn't have been about three years old. In Wal-Mart. When there's a thousand people walking around. He was crying for his mama. I walked him around until he spotted her and when he ran up to her, she just looked at him like, "What the hell do you want?"
I wanted to beat her ass.
anon, you just made me think of 'waynes world'
*does the electric guitar*
For Mayo:
The Layers
by Stanley Kunitz
I have walked through many lives,
some of them my own,
and I am not who I was,
though some principle of being
abides, from which I struggle
not to stray.
When I look behind,
as I am compelled to look
before I can gather strength
to proceed on my journey,
I see the milestones dwindling
toward the horizon
and the slow fires trailing
from the abandoned camp-sites,
over which scavenger angels
wheel on heavy wings.
Oh, I have made myself a tribe
out of my true affections,
and my tribe is scattered!
How shall the heart be reconciled
to its feast of losses?
In a rising wind
the manic dust of my friends,
those who fell along the way,
bitterly stings my face.
Yet I turn, I turn,
exulting somewhat,
with my will intact to go
wherever I need to go,
and every stone on the road
precious to me.
In my darkest night,
when the moon was covered
and I roamed through wreckage,
a nimbus-clouded voice
directed me:
"Live in the layers,
not on the litter."
Though I lack the art
to decipher it,
no doubt the next chapter
in my book of transformations
is already written.
I am not done with my changes.
I liked it a lot and thought you might too.
Smok reunited a lost child with it's sorry ass mommy.
Anon,
That is so sweet!
♥♥♥ for you! And I don't give those out to just anyone. ^_~
ohhhhh princess, i am so proud of you. that was a very nice thing to do, you should be so happy that you helped a lost little boy.
i bet she looked like that cos she wanted your shiney tiara ;)
You're probably right, Fim. That's exactly what it was! That and she was skeeered of me. ^_~
well you are from georgia ;)
Thanks anon! :D
Smoke, damn, you do what you can do, right? Some people.
Solly, lovely choice for Mayo today. :)
Though I lack the art
to decipher it,
no doubt the next chapter
in my book of transformations
is already written.
I am not done with my changes.
That about sums it up, right? NIIICE!
Fim, did you catch any rays?
^_^
For
For Fimblestar
"Even a rose goes through a lot of dirt before it blossoms."
Solly...
Smok gave her the evil stare down and that woman knew she was about to get the beat down.
Is it that hard to watch your children folks? I mean come on...
DAMN YOU!
good morning!
I haven't looked at pics yet but I will
lovely words fim
sdock ! You like Saosin? I have that album but you should now check out Circa Survive
They have the old lead singer of Saosin and they supported MCR over here and were fab, I love his voice.
no jules, they were to damn fast and me maggots didnt want to be cooked so i promised them that i wouldnt stay out in the sun for too long.
:D
Sorry, Solly. I didn't know it was being reserved for you.
*is ashamed - well, a litle bit anyway*
What pissed me off is there was an attempted kidnapping just a couple of weeks ago. This drunk guy ran this little girl into the bathroom and kept chasing her but she managed to get away. I mean, damn. If you ain't gonna watch your rugrats, stay your ass home!
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