Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Scratch the surface.

Walking by your side
My head down, shoulders rounded, heavy
It occurred to me that I should stop,
Check the time, and commit
An endless unraveling of pulled wool thread
Weaved into promises of expository resemblance.
The comparisons are never ending and seldom unfit.
“You wear it for a while.”
I will begin again tomorrow with the same start, at the same seat
With the same saucer, spoon,
And without sacrifice
“I will wear it.”
Then again, I could be
Somewhere else completely.








p.s. it is more than an itch, it is a rhythm, a pattern that forms in my head, then through my fingers…tap, tap, tap. Did you hear it? There is no mistaking the origin, is there?



He is aware of the seepage
Bleeding under the bandage
Yet he can’t quite fight the flow
And who the hell will know
About broken bones
And your superimposed overtones
They will all inspect the damage
Because the charts report more to me
Than you will ever see
But oh, how well you see








(Who rearranged the furniture?)

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lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Well, that's a little confusing.

Anonymous said...

Mayonaise, this is rather odd of you to be posting in less than four days, and not to mention that most of the Family have gone to bed.

What caused you to post so late? I just arrived home a few minutes ago, and I am so fucking tired and exhausted.

This post does seem a bit confusing, but your second passage hints that you may have "spies" lurking here. Perhaps I am wrong. Who knows?

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Hiya, I wish I knew how to do the linky thing. I would link the Mission Impossible theme at ya... ;p

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

The begining bit kinda indicates a stale (possibly false) identity. The desire for change or exsposure, but also the lack of drive or fear of it too. Maybe. Or is that just me??

Anonymous said...

Lewis, it's me, BC. How are you?

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I'm good Bc! Was just dickin around. Have lots to do- but no drive to do it! How bout yourself?? You good?

Anonymous said...

Anything is possible Lewis, but you know Mayonaise; we can interpret it in so many ways.

It is so weird having him post a new blog while we are the only ones here. It is kinda isolating and creepy, but I kinda like it!

And second, I am still trying to catch my breath putting everything away and just coming back home.

Anonymous said...

That's good Lewis. I just got back home, so my legs are feeling like jelly and I feel exhausted. This is how I'm feeling at the moment:

X_x

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I know huh. Kinda seems to like it that way (open-ended).

Very creepy. I almost felt like I shouldn't type anything! Felt inappropriate with the others!

Welcome home then. Breathe, breathe, breathe. :)

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I'm so bad at those damn little faces! I can only do like three of them...

;p

:( :)

XD

Sad huh?

You think Mayo's o.k. tonight? Seems kinda conflicted and down. No more make-up happy legs up.

Anonymous said...

Ha ha, thank you Lewis. And what the fuck did that motherfucker Blogger do? It divided the fucking comments into pages, and added extra features, that evil motherfucker!!!

Anonymous said...

Lewis, I reread his new post, and it seems to me that he is conflicted; something about wanting to change, as you have mentioned before.

I also think that this new post is about being someone that you're not. The first passage sounds like that to me.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I noticed that too! We have new little things to click! Or rather, new little things to fuck me up. I do like the gray inbetween, but with some things -let's just stick to black and white eh? I fear those little extras are gonna complicate some of the others getting 'in.' Annoying. Everything was just starting to work again.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

I agree with you on the post Bc. I hope he's alright. We all seem to be going up and down lately, but staying down longer than up. What the hell man. And it's spreading. Oh help.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Hey Bc, I wish I could stay and chat but I do have so much to get done (and I didn't do it this weekend like I was supposed to, so I'm in a heap of trouble!). I feel a punishment lurking... ;p

So I'm gonna call it a night! I hope some more fam comes out so you can chat! Enjoy ya groceries Bc! And if Mayo comes out of his dark cave of thoughts -tell him I said hi, would ya?? ;) I hope everyone is doing good tonight -even if they are not sure who they are! <33-l

Original Punk J said...

Hey Mayo honey, how're you doing? As per usual, it's going to take me several read-throughs to understand this one. Maybe we're not supposed to understand, who knows.

But, we're here if you need us. Always.

Is your life going well right now?

J

Anonymous said...

Hey Mayo. Love you man. Say hi, call me ava and you'll make my day man. How are you doin?

Anonymous said...

Lewis, I am still seething at the thought that the comments have been divided into pages. Blogger is simply fucking evil!! Arggghhh!!!

I sure will tell him that Lewis. It was nice chatting with you. Take care, goodnight, and sweet dreams.

Hey OPJ

Original Punk J said...

Ok, Mayo, let's see. That last comment in parentheses, my thought is that it's referencing being off-balance in a normally familiar situation.

Or it could be that the couch was moved without your knowledge.

Honey, you flip between talking straight and talking cryptically so often that I always feel I'm overanalyzing when I shouldn't.

Gotta think some more.

Hey BC, kinda quiet tonight.

J

Anonymous said...

OP J, yeah it is. Mayo just posted this blog as soon as I returned home, and that was over twenty minutes ago.

I got your email and is currently writing one right now.

soulconnector said...

Hey mayonaise and everyone

Damn it, I am lost in here, in more ways than just one.

I was already having trouble keeping up, now the furniture has been updated to contemporary.

Where is my light? and the cozy chair is gone, where I read all your comments.

love is never-ending for some, despite distance.
`sc

Original Punk J said...

Okee dokee, Smokee. :)

I wonder where Elena got to? She was at the other post a while ago.

Elena, are you still here?

Mayo, are you, for that matter?

J

Anonymous said...

Hello SC. Are you feeling any better?
Yes, the furniture arranging is quite a bitch.

I was ranting about it earlier. I am not one happy camper >:(

BC

Anonymous said...

OP J, I think this is just a hit and run post.

Original Punk J said...

Hiya SC, nice to see you.

Oh yeah, the "furniture"...Blogger. Duh.

You'll have to excuse me, Mayo. It's late, and I don't have L to translate (she's asleep).

J

soulconnector said...

I am lost among the noise.
mayonaise...mayo?

soulconnector said...

Hi BC and J

I am doing better. I quit the medication and healing thyself.
Thank you for your concern, and hope you both are well.
`sc

Original Punk J said...

Pretty well, SC. Still getting over some kind of sinusy thing. Glad to hear you're improving.

BC, I'll have to get to your email tomorrow, k? I'm heading for bed in a few.

J

Anonymous said...

That's great SC. Yep, I'm doing great, just a bit exhausted. Thanks for asking. I just got home as soon as this post was made.

Yes, we do call mayonaise mayo. It's more easier.

Anonymous said...

That's fine with me OP J. I'm tired as well, but I am going to stay up for a bit.

elena said...

I'm here J

I was writing on the Gothic and came back to see what was going on. Holy Hell Mayo was here.

Who rearranged the furniture indeed. That's what I'd like to know.

Mayo glad to see you back so soon!

elena said...

Mayo we hear it. I take pride in knowing you are drawn to this place just we too are pulled here. It's not just a gathering place, it is home. We stop in, gather strength through words then leave to face the world again. It is a safe place, warm and comforting. Take care, Mayo. It's a jungle out there.

Original Punk J said...

Elena, I just read this a minute ago:

"Oh and the bedside table.” Jenn whispered. “With the forbidden drawer.”

Amy snorted in a very un-ladylike manner, “He probably just keeps undergarments in there.”

OPJ opened her mouth to make a comment about Lord Mayo’s undergarments. OPL’s hand shot out and covered her mouth. “Hush, not a word.”

The women all giggled.



I laughed so hard at this...BECAUSE IT'S TRUE! I would have done exactly that!

Oh darlin', you know me so well. ;D

J

Anonymous said...

Hi Elena

soulconnector said...

elena

Thank you for sharing your talent. You and toujours have written a interesting and fun story. Later, I hope you ladies allow us to keep a personal copy.

I am glad mayonaise requested or kinda of demanded, you leave your words on here.

Your words touch the heart.
`sc

elena said...

Hello BC

Yes J I do know you so well..

Soulconnector thank you for your kind words about the story. Of course anyone can keep a copy. I'm just tickled people are enjoying it. As for Mayo I too am glad he "yelled" at me. Well, at least I think he did. It touched my heart to know he cares about my rambling.

soulconnector said...

Speaking of hearts

I just got home from watching the movie, Atonement.

Some leading man can cry and still remain incredibly sexy.

John McAvoy and Harrison Ford

`sc

Anonymous said...

SC, is atonement any good? I hear it won a few academy awards already. Elena, don't ever forget that your words are as much as important as ours and that you are a integral part of this wonderful family. We love you.

And you and TJ are doing such an excellent job on the story. I simply love it. I may have to read the latest chapter tomorrow. I'm feeling a bit exhausted.

Original Punk J said...

Yay! I'm caught up on the Gothic! And now eagerly awaiting chapter 17. Who is the mysterious "he"? Can the Lovelies withstand another attack from the Nameless Ones? Will the Ghost reappear, and where?

Ah well, we shall discover the secrets of Castle Mayo soon enough, I reckon.

For now, ladies, I bid you "buona notte", and will see you all tomorrow.

love and hope and faith

J

elena said...

Night J

Happy dreaming to you!!!

Original Punk J said...

Dear Mayo,

My elusive friend, you stole away without a word tonight. Sometimes a body just can't bear to talk to ANYone, I know how that feels, so it's alright.

In moments of sadness, take comfort from the knowledge that your Lovelies are here for you. We love you, honey, and we will be here whenever you need us. There's always at least one of us around the Castle.

At the risk of sounding repetitive, I'd like to mention that I wrote a memorial post for my father yesterday. He's been gone 20 years now. And I know that you don't visit other people's homes, but if you get a chance, I'd really like you to come read it. Don't feel obligated to do so; I'm just offering an invitation. Thanks just in case.

Take care of yourself. Goodnight, my brother.

love, peace, strength, hope

J

Original Punk J said...

SS baby,

It's been a long day, and I'm so tired, but as always I'll write you my goodnights.

With your busy life and many obligations, it must be difficult to get through a day without at least a little loss of sanity. When you feel those moments coming on, stop what you're doing, close your eyes, take a deep breath...

And scream at the top of your lungs like a motherfuckin' banshee. ;)

Seriously, if you can't, then do this instead. Think about what you told me, then imagine me saying it to you.

Then feel my arms holding you close for the hug that goes along with it.

I would also like to extend the invitation to you to read my memorial to my father. He was a very special man, and I would like my Family to know a little bit of him. Thank you, too, just in case.

Time for bed, it's after 3 am. Be safe, be well, be happy.

Love you, darlin'.

J

Anonymous said...

Goodnight and sweet dreams J.

Anonymous said...

Evening/Morning all,

I'm not an evil Anon, I promise you. I just need time to make an account on one of these.

I guess you could call me a lurker. But forgive, you seem to have assembled a family here.. so I'm reluctant to intrude..

Anonymous said...

Good evening/morning anonymous. How are you doing? If you come here with good intentions, then you are more than welcome to join us.

soulconnector said...

mayonaise

Yes!

"The future belongs to those
who show up for it."

Stand tall, and dont show
everyone the weight you feel
on your shoulders, my friend.

goodnight all
`sc

Anonymous said...

Excellent and inspiring post SC. Goodnight and sweet dreams to you.

elena said...

Mayo

I am saying this goodnight while twirling around your castle in my long, velvet gown. Swaying to music that only I can hear. The notes are soulful and as I dance I dream.

Okay yeah, I’ve been writing way too much on the Gothic story tonight. Sorry. I reread your post and the first part sounds so familiar to me. Life, it is an endless cycle of days, one fades into the next. So many are undistinguishable from its processor. We go through the motions that are expected of us. We sleepwalk through the day while dreaming of tomorrow.

I meant it when I said we hear you. Yes, sometimes your words are a bit hard to comprehend. That’s when the trusty “Mayo For Dummies” really comes in handy. You know, now that I think about it we hear your words but I believe we always feel them.

Mayo, sleepwalk through the days that are unbearable but always dream. Never stop dreaming.

I still sound strange even for me. There was not one crap, shit of fuck in that comment. Wow, I am off tonight. I did mean every word though even if they sounded too nice. Oh and about the furniture? Could we call the movers back? I fear change and damn it man this new blogger is weird. Oh, I said “damn” I’m feeling better now.

Night Mayo.

Elena (this night I dance and dream)

Anonymous said...

Goodnight elena

Anonymous said...

Goodnight and sweet dreams to you my little jar of Mayonaise. It's time for my ass to go to bed. Goodnight SS, Family, Blog Believe, lurkers, anon.

Xoxo

Anonymous said...

P.S. Mayonaise, you should stop. It can be good for you every once in a while.

toujours said...

mayo,

here i am, to make my good-nights to you -- and you beat me here!

i don't know what to think anymore mayo. i've lost my purpose everywhere, here and in my own life. i read your words, but do i hear your voice anymore?

something's been lost.



i had calm words planned for tonight -- i had some ponderings i was going to share.

but you surprised me, you've shaken me, pulled me off my carefully balanced willful ignorance.

it's all just imaginary, isn't it? i want to believe in something -- oh you have no idea how much -- i easily believe in impossible things -- but what i've been avoiding looking directly at is the little fact that there might be nothing to believe in.

anywhere.

and what an awful mirror this place is, that i can look in it and see nothing.

it is altogether too easy to disappear.

and i'm ashamed that i don't have the strength to just quit.

and if i give you everything it will still not be enough, because it's just words, just words tapped out on this screen, by your fingers, by my fingers, all of us sitting alone in rooms talking to ourselves. if you and i were on the same street we would not recognize each other at all.

but we all want something to belong to, don't we? i do, anyway. when i was younger, i had this grand idea that i would grow up to be some auntie mame character, eternally and gloriously the cat who walked by herself.

i know that for a lie, now. i know myself to be weak and needy. i will cling. i am strong only for others. i have no core for myself.

and so here i am, a vine winding around nothing. i believe in this place because i must, i believe in you because i need to, i will give you anything, because no one else is asking for it, and i must give, i must be a part of something.





oh gods, look what you've made me do.

why do your words hook my pain and draw it out? that's such an ugly gift, and one i am tired of sharing.

if i had half-a-brain, i would delete this mess, but now that i've opened a vein i'll let the blood lay where it's fallen.

tomorrow, i'll be calm again, i hope. tomorrow, i'll go back to pretending nothing is wrong, and i will smile and joke and be the cheerful friendly person everyone knows, no matter what world i'm walking in.

it's easy.

see? :)

guntotingmaniac said...

You probably should, Mayonaise.

gnothi seauton said...

(Who rearranged the furniture?)


You mean that wasn't you? But, but, you're Blogger!! Who was it then?
* cue The Twilight Zone music *




So, your post. This reads as if it is a penance, your metaphorical wool shirt. You don't have to martyr yourself for us you know. Without sacrifice? I'm not so sure.

Well then, mon petit renard, which place setting are you sitting at today? Which name are you typing under? Maybe your title is stuck to your head on one of those little adhesive notes, and you don't actually know who you are;
am I male?
am I younger than 40?
etcetera, etcetera, etcetera

* cue King and I music *

I'm waffling, I shall return later when I can form constructive comments.

TTFN



P.S. Weaved into promises? WEAVED?! Good grief!
Perhaps you intended it to be that way, if that is the case then can I just say it reads terribly. Woven, dear boy, woven.

Fimble Star said...

goodmorning blogbelieve,

so a new post and only 20 minutes after i go to sleep. nice hahahaha. glad actually because if i was up then i wouldnt have been able to go to sleep just for sheer nosy ness.

mayo - you never fail to amaze me and thats not in a good way. bravo but in the end, you will never win. the winners wil be the people here that come day in, day out to give you and other people kind words, laughter, emotion and just plain dirtiness. those people will win because thay have found friends where they may never have done without the aid of this place. in that, i thank you for letting me find my friends here but seriously dude, i bet you are wondering what we really think. well you wont get if you dont ask.

i have just woke up so i am babbling once again but i just felt the urge to say it. and now this

p.s. it is more than an itch, it is a rhythm, a pattern that forms in my head, then through my fingers…tap, tap, tap. Did you hear it? There is no mistaking the origin, is there?

did someone hit you with their rhythm stick? seriouls if they hiyou ard enought then maybe your fingers get going. just a thought ;)

anyhoot, family have a gloroius day. i have to go class then work so i wont be on all day. have fun ok. just gtting ready now so i will be in lurky mode.

bye family

bye kermit - miss you dude. hope your cezy bizzy life is fun, fun, fun

Pickled Possum said...

Hello there Mayo.

It is a pleasure to meet YOU.

*gives a hug*

See it wasn't that difficult to do was it?

Fimble Star said...

Corections
seriouls = serious

hiyou = hit you

ard = hard

enought = enougth

maybe = just shouldnt even be in that god damn sentence

Pickled Possum said...

lol with Fimble!

I've given up correcting for a while.

I like to imagine the 'what the heck did she mean' faces when confronted with extra words, omitted words, and interestingly awful spelling.

Fimble Star said...

seriously pp, i did my corrections and even ballsed that one up. bloody corrections was misspelled, i one placed one R in there and i was not going to crrect my corrections. that would just be the icing on the cake wouldnt it. hahahaha

how are you hun, i hope i gave you a few of those faces. that would make my day indeed. so what did you do with your wednesday then?

Fimble Star said...

right kiddies, i have to disappear and make for the day.

have fun ok and do not get naughty, that goes to you as well splash. dirty bird.

have fun and see you all later

gnothi seauton said...

Hi guys and gels.

A very speedy comment.

I think it's BH13's birthday today.
If that's the case:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BH13!!!!

If not, many apologies :S

Cheerio chuckie eggs.



Oh,Fim:

She's coming home
She's coming home
She's coming
Fimble's coming home

* cue Three Lions music *

TTFN

Pickled Possum said...

FS,
Corrections with one 'r' made me ^_^ much.

Sometimes I read back what I've written myself and I'm all @_@?, so goodness knows what others get.

I'm great, thanks. My Wednesday was super good, naughty-bad. How was your Tuesday?

*wishes FS to have a super good, naughty bad Wednesday today, too*

Speaking of reading back - urgh at catching up on comments now. Blogger needs numbered pages at the bottom, rather than just 'old, older,oldest'.

Pickled Possum said...

Should we be worried chuckie lays eggs O_O

Hi GS.
Bye FS.

I think it is CTV's birthday today too, GS.

Jappy birthday BH13!
Jappy Birthday CTV!

Right.
I'm gone as well.

Mayo, that rocked what you posted.

SS, If you feel any nibbles on your legs, don't worry. It's probably just Elena out of her pickled pigs feet.

Night all.

Shame in me said...

I really love this post mayo.
Was a suprise to find it here this morning. But i really Love it.
can i pretend that you are walking with me?
I dont wanna walk alone.


And what the hell has blogger been doing?

Im undecided wether i like the 200comment per page but it could be a good thing. Now if they only got a spell checker i would be happy.

Im off out to buy Kerrang and go doctors.
Bye for now

Pixie said...

again a new post? thanks for that mayo, hope you´re doing fine :)

just stoped by to wish you all a great wednesday :)
we had sunshine (can´t remember the last day we had some sun) and outside it feels at if spring arrives. but well only an illusion, if the forecast is right. maybe we finally get some snow? I´m just not sure, if I still want it now....

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

Hey, Good Morning, how are you?

I'm in a fucking hurry about to be late. I should have checked my time and committed way earlier, but I had shit to do. Life and all. Sorry.

I will have more later. Just let me roll and kick this around in my head, heart, soul, tongue, body. I'll come back with something.

Now, I must get my ass to work.

Gotta go take money from the hard working people of America. Niiiiice!

Hope your day brings you something unexpected, but welcomed.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. You don't like what blogger did with the place?

sdock10 said...

Or should that have read...I should have been committed way earlier.

Yeah, probably.

See, I made you smile unexpectedly. What a fortune teller I am!

Anonymous said...

Mayo:

Okay, like, the next time my brain tells me you're going to post, my ass will not go to bed. I said last night you would probably post, but that I wasn't "feeling it," and look what you did.

Secondly, I had this preconceived notion of you. Completly uptight, withdrawn, dry, and in a way, completely unfriendly. That was some time ago, and those notions have changed and done a 180. You pretty much rank up there with the rest of them in the Wit Department. Like, you probably don't intend it to be funny, but even so, it makes me cackle.

Or that could be because I'm a little weeeeeeeiiiiirrrd. ;)

And I say all of that before I say this, because this next part isn't as lighthearted.

Are you stuck in something you don't want? A minute-by-minute relationship, I guess, that begins and ends the same way everyday? Maybe you should stop, you know? Do something for you that makes you happy?

Do you want to be there?

Okay, anyway. I hope that works out for you. Have a good day, Mayo. See you around sometime.

Smoke said...

Hello! Hello Everyone!

It's friggin' Wednesday.

So.


Mayo-Mayo-Mayo.

What the?

Talk about rearranging the place. This is just weird. Blogger....today you suck. >_<

About the post, yeah it is tooooo early for me to even attempt it. I may not even try. It seems I rarely know what you're talking about anyway. So, best of life to you today!

^_~

XOXO,
S&V20

Anonymous said...

"He is aware of the seepage
Bleeding under the bandage
Yet he can’t quite fight the flow
And who the hell will know
About broken bones
And your superimposed overtones
They will all inspect the damage
Because the charts report more to me
Than you will ever see
But oh, how well you see"


Mayo seems to be channeling Morrissey here. Any Smiths fans here will know what I mean.

JocelynHolly said...

Fucking weird if you asked me Mayonaise! I came on today, not expecting anything, and POOF! New post? I've learned to expect the unexpected from you, my dear. It's way too early for my fragile mind to comprehend what you're trying to say. So forgive me, please. :D

Have an amazing day!
<3

elena said...

Good Morning All

Hello again Mayo

Well here we go again. Another day. Got my fingers crossed it will be good. Sort of expecting the opposite and I don't even know why. I hate ominous feelings. Well then I hope everyone else has a good day/night whatever the case may be for you.

Hey Mayo I'm totally gonna sleepwalk through this one. Hope you don't have to do the same.

Anonymous said...

I've taken four showers in the past two days. I'll be taking another in a few hours.

That's five showers in a 48 hour period.

What am I trying to wash off?

Maybe I need to be cleansed inside from all of this stuff.

Anyway! Have a great day everyone!

PH:
Great to see you! I hope you're not as overwhelmed and things are looking brighter :)

Elena:
Don't sleepwalk. You may bump intos something, or you may accidentally hurt that lady that only looked at the covers of your books. ;)

See you all later!

Anonymous said...

Resigned is the word that comes to mind when I read this post.

elena said...

Very clean Mustard. Clear your mind of shit. Take a deep breath and listen to the voice inside. Here let me yell it for you. You are a beautiful person. As for bumping into that woman while I'm sleepwalking? Fuck, I'd like to knock her down. Oh I sound kinda violent today, don't I?

ANON - Resigned perhaps. Aren't we all?

gnothi seauton said...

Hello again Mayo.

What are you doing?

Me, I'm trying to fill my day. Kicking my heels, twiddling my thumbs. I'm on my own. Oh, don't get me wrong, I'm not lonely, I don't get lonely ( although the simple fact that I'm conversing with a faceless presence might indicate the opposite ) I'm just at a loss what to do.

48hrs to please myself and I can't think of a blessed thing to do.Is that not the saddest thing?

Too late in the day to go anywhere, perhaps tomorrow. I might go on a book hunt in the morning.

Know any good book-shops?
Wanna come with?

Anonymous said...

THe furniture part is about Blogger. That's all I got.

Anonymous said...

Hello everyone,

I just wanted to apologize for being so fixated on our host lately. I know I usually come here to talk to all of you, but I promise you will shortly know why. And it's a good thing, really.

And yes, this is also a warning for about three enormous posts I'm about to type.

Yep, I deserve to be slapped upside the head. But you'll see why, I think.

Anonymous said...

GV, I answered you in the last post. Did you see it? Probably not, with the mess that Blogger has made.

Anonymous said...

Hmm. Before I start typing my frickin' novel. Not that he deserves it. :)

No, I didn't love. Could you recap?

anima said...

Good morning everyone!

I can't stay, but just wanted to pop in for a second.

Mayo, I keep missing you. And I miss you. I miss this place. Do you miss me? ;)

I hope to check in later...

Love you guys.

anima said...

Just noticed the re-arrangement. What the heck?

elena said...

I miss you Anima!!

anima said...

Awww Elena, I miss you so much!!!!

Anonymous said...

Dear You,
I can't say why, but I tire of calling you by false names. I don't want to talk to Mayo or pseudo-MCR member. Only You.

It's fun for a while, isn't it, using the internet for anonymity, cloaked yet having hundreds of friends. Then, slowly, the companionship only serves to accentuate how truly alone You are. If You're blessed, you are comfortable with this, for you've realized being alone isn't all that scary and You as You are is company enough for Yourself.

If You haven't reached that point, though, the waves of loneliness it invokes are terrible, wretched. And even pretending online becomes a draining chore.

I have decided to reveal more details of humiliating delight. And after You read this next bit, another personal question.

Why do You think Gerard Way wouldn't leave me alone? Why do You think the universe picked him to stir up change in my life?

Anon616 said...

Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Possum, GS, Elena, MIB, Paperheartxx, anonymous(es), the still absent Kass and Dalai Lama, friends, family, pets, kindred spirits of blog believe!

How are you all today? Still believing in your dreams, I hope!

Mayo: This new post makes me so sad. *big hug* I'm sorry you're feeling this way.....
(If you are, it really is difficult to know sometimes.)

Once again, I would like to say:
WELCOME BACK SIOBHAN!!!!

Since blogger rearranged the furniture, I don't know if she'll see the last welcome back I left for her.....

Dalai Lama: PLEASE COME BACK!

CTV and BH13: HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY Birthday!!!!!!

PIXIE: Hei! kaveri! Hyvää Ystävänpäivä
*hopes I typed that correctly*

For the birthday girls

Don't forget to make a wish and:

BLOW

*big wink*

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To ponder, etc... today:

If life is a path, we are barefoot and we each scatter before us the contents of two bags hanging from our shoulders. From the first bag -- sharp nails of worry, fear, regret and doubt, or from the second bag -- rose petals of hope, joy, friendship and confidence. If life is a path...we are the masters of that path.
Laura Teresa Marquez
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*passes out shoes for all to wear when walking on the sharp path of nails*

I hope everyone has a great today and a better tomorrow!

Hugs and love to all!!!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy

gnothi seauton said...

Hello Anima!

Of course we miss you.

Elena?

Have you ever seen a book called ' The Bee on the Comb ' by Kit Williams?

Shame in me said...

Hey Mayo,
Thought id write to you again.

WAIT!! Before you say to yourself, "ohno not again" LOL

Today i woke up, and i prayed to myself that those few moments of perfectness that arise before you remember everything in the world would stay with me for a little longer...
They didnt, but there and then, i decided that id make today different.

I got up, instead of wallowing in my self pity.
The sun shone through my window and instead of cowering and adjusting my blinds, i let it shine on my unwashed face.

I went to the doctors to pick up my prescription.
The fresh air felt good on my face, the light wind in my hair and it was so warm that i had to carry my coat!!
It shouldnt be this warm in February i admit, and the reasons behind this warmth i will not rant about in this letter as today this is a letter of hope.

Walking through town, clear skies and sunshine i realised that although things are shit, i have to find reasons to smile. I cant just bum around waiting for happiness to come to me, i have to make my own happiness.

The walk to the doctors made me happy, allowed me peaceful time to think, to evaluate.
I bought Kerrang Magazine and 30stm were on the cover and it was an amazing article about them, brought back memories of the concert i attended so that was another reason to smile.
Ive just eaten my first proper meal in days too, granted it was only a bowl of Honey Nut Loops, but they tasted nice.
Little things like this are a start.

I know that tomorrow may come and i may not have the enthusiasm and hope of today, but i will remember today and keep striving for days like this one.

I write this letter to you mayo, well for the same reasons i wrote the other one, but also to serve as a reminder to myself that there is hope.

I have two mantras at the moment.
The first being:

"I am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone"

and the second:

"I wont suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted, surrender to nothing, i gave up what i started and stopped it, from end to beginning, a new day is coming and I am finally free!"

Both these songs have helped me gather hope.

So Thankyou Mr Way & Thankyou Mr Leto.

Thankyou Mr Mayonaise for listening/allowing me this space once again :)

Anonymous said...

It's funny I'm now using 'You' to address You, because the first time I used that for someone was after the dreams started. Gerard or references to him had become incessant. I'll admit, I have an obsessive personality, I had obsessed over people before but this had never occurred.

Simultaneously, I was beginning to truly llearn who I was and how the situation, the people I was with were not what I needed. What was extremely confusing was that I found that the Gerard thing, the awkward dreams were giving me hope. I couldn't even say why, so I wrote a sort of poem about it. And one line of it went something like, "it's not you or you or you but You." The first 3 you's referring to different people I knew, the last one was Gerard. How he had somehow invaded the bleak landscape and without permission set up a little cottage with a garden, how flabbergasting it was.

(I never chainsmoke, but I am now writing this)

Another Fun story in a moment.

gnothi seauton said...

* takes shoes *

Thanks Six :) How are you?

Shame in me said...

hey everyone :)

Kat how are you love? havent spoke to you in ages. (((hugs)))

Hey Gnothi, anima and wendy :)

Anon616 said...

Good morning SIM, GV, Anima!

SIM: thank you for posting the Beautiful Lie/global warming link!

Global warming really is scary, isn't it? Have you heard of the Leonard DiCaprio (narrarated) film "The Eleventh Hour"?

The Eleventh Hour dot com


^a must see for anyone concerned with global warming!

*hugs and love*

Anon616 said...

gnothi seauton said...
* takes shoes *

Thanks Six :) How are you?
============
HI GS!!!!!!!

*pounce, tackle, hug*
I haven't 'caught up' to you in so long!

I'm good, thanks for asking! How are you, love?

I hope the shoes help. I think I currently have am upholstety tack stuck in mine ;-)

gnothi seauton said...

Hi SIM, GV et al.

Anonymous said...

In July 2007, I thought perhaps the solution to ending the curse was to go to Newark, New Jersey. In searching, I found there was a church there with a shrine to St. Gerard. So, Friday the 13th, I made a day trip. In an odd superstitious moment I donned the same outfit I had on for the London ON concert.

The drive was gorgeous. Fog. The sunrise. Woods. The five hours flew past.

When I got to the church, a funeral was just ending. I thought, the sign it's ending finally???

Sat in the garden amongst the statues. Smoked. Prayed. Sat in the vestibule with the exposed sacrament. When everyone had cleared, I wander in. Lusciously decadent. I payed my respects to Our Lady of Sorrows. Ventured into St. Gerard's Shrine. Lit a candle. Pinned a note to his robe as the natives had done. Absorbed every tiny detail. Implored the saint to intercede for me, though I knew what I was asking for was not his usual business.

A man walked in and asked if I would like a blessing. I said I didn't want to be a bother, but he insisted so I followed him into the back. He was kind, gave me several medallions and a handkerchief of the saint. The priest asked if I was trying to conceive (the saint's specialty). I tried to explain without sounding crazy and without mentioning Mr. Way.

Befuddled, he blessed me with a tiny nugget of bone of the saint in a lovely glass case. I thanked him and left.

Went to the Basilica of the Sacred Heart. Sat in a park. Deliberately got lost, ended up in Belleville. Went home.

And the damn curse didn't stop.

However, I've noticed that ever since I made this public here, the past week and a half has been Gerard free. So, I must thank you for that. If only I'd known earlier this was the ticket out.
Still, though, why do You think I was plagued by him?
And, now of particular fascination to me, why do you think it's stopped now that I've told You and all of these amazing souls?

Anonymous said...

GV, I can do better: I can repost. ^_^


GV said:

I know you rarely respond to anything any of us writes, yet I am still compelled to write you. And I must ask - why? Why do you think I continue to write to you? Why do I invest time and thought to someone I know will never reciprocate the favor?

GV, if I may? Sometimes it feels like a voluntary Stockholm Syndrome, right? A voluntary Stockholm Syndrome of the mind.

P.P.S. I'm sure this was horribly obvious to everyone else from the very beginning, but has anyone brought up to you the obvious fact that you were the one that planted the URL for this blog at Loveman's in the first place? Sept. 3, 5:02 PM.

I did. ^_^ 'Cause like I've always said, you gotta play the game, folks. And Mayo plays an entire orchestra. And what a song it is. ^_^

GV, something else. A few days ago you mentioned me on DM. You said "where is that gorgeous woman" or something like that. Want you to know, that was a sucky day and I took those words of yours with me throughout and it always made me smile. Thank you for that.

Third, for anyone who hasn't been yet (SS, this includes you!) we have made ANTI VALENTINES FOR EVERYONE! ^___^ There are anti-valentines there for the whole family and some of them are pretty cute and clever, so if you haven't gone yet, go check it out. It's fuuuuun.

Shame in me said...

Wendy i read about it just this weekend but had not checked it out, so thank you for your link :)

Im glad i have managed to get two mayos customers to have a look. Yay.

That makes me smile.

How are you?

elena said...

SIM It is wonderful to hear you are feeling better. Baby steps until you can run.

GS I think I have a copy of that book at the store. Does it have a pic in the center of the cover with a honeycomb around it?

Hey Wendy and GV

OK am I the only one who doesn't find Mayo's post cryptic? I mean yeah, kinda but not really. Wow that sentence sounded cryptic. I speak Mayo!! I knew it.

Shame in me said...

Hey Jules, How are you love?

Shame in me said...

Elena i thought mayos post was blatantly obvious, not cryptic in the slightest :) Glad you did too.

I grad you A+ on your mayo language written exam hehe

Anonymous said...

Okay, sheesh. Now that the compulsion has been fed.

Thank you, Jules. I think you are definitely on the right track with the Stockholm Syndrome. And, more importantly, I'm so glad I could brighten up your day a little. You deserve it. I have loved discussing and talking and arguing with you over these past few months. As mentioned before, it has come to overshadow the real reason I first began ghosting about here.

SIM! You're alive! Thank you, God. I was so, SO worried about you. And I changed my AIM name. Here, I'll send it to you now.

Anonymous said...

Hello Elena,

How are you feeling today? Oh yes, you're sleepwalking. In a happy daze, a confused daze or a depressing daze? I hope not the latter.

Wendy, how anyone can be so genuinely friggin' cheerful. Love it!

Gnothi, I think we met a little while ago. Hi!

Anon616 said...

SIM: How could I not look? ;-)
Thanks again for posting it!

Elena: I finally get to say HELLO to you again in real time! YAH!

K: I still can't do the Anti Valentines; but, I did take a look and I think you all did a wonderful job on the Antis!

Just one question: Why do no one post the song "Love Stinks"?
;p

gnothi seauton said...

Elena,

Yes it does, but it's okay, I've found some on Amazon. Thanks anyway sugar :)

I've got Masquerade, I was thinking about getting this one as well. I believe he only did the two books, so it would be nice to have them both.


And no, I don't find his post cryptic, just a little sad. I never really try to give advice anymore, I'm not qualified :\ I just ramble at him.

Anon616 said...

kathering gv sparkle said....

Wendy, how anyone can be so genuinely friggin' cheerful. Love it!
====================
hehe! I've asked myself that question many times. I think it all comes down to a sense of inner peace :)

How do you get there? I don't know. I just know I got there after clawing and climbing my way out of hell. It was so worth it, though!

gnothi seauton said...

A pleasure to meet you again Gentle Vengeance :)

Shame in me said...

awww kat no need to worry about me love, thanks for your concern though. Haha that explains why i had never seen you aim anymore. Sneaky girl (((hugs)))

Anon616 said...

Well, since I can't seem to TYPE this morning; I think I shall be off. It seems to be a good day for scrubbing bathroom tiles! Oh what fun!!! ;-)

Have fun ladies (and gents)!
I'll see you all later!!

Hugs and love for all!
6/Wendy

Shame in me said...

bye wendy thanks for the link. next time your on expect a Sim rant in your face haha :)

gnothi seauton said...

Bye Six :)

elena said...

GV just sleepwalking. Gettin' through you know?

Oh and looking up fucking books. No I don't hate the books just that I have to re-list them.

elena said...

Bye Wendy you cheerful woman!

gnothi seauton said...

I'll see you all later.

Take care people.

TTFN

Shame in me said...

Is it just me here now?
*Spins around in manic motion*

I have this weird notion about the new blogger thing. If its 200 comments per page, it will feel like we arent in the same room. Does that make sense to anyone?

I guess blogger listened to the pleas of everyone who got locked out of Mayos when that E-bug was around. So im thankful that Sdock and the others will never have to worry about gettin locked out even if the count was 10,000 :)

Im gonna have to start writing the number i left off at down so then i can catch up ok without getting lost in the pages.

Maybe blogger have done this so they can print this shit out straight to paper for the Mayo annual 2009 :) LOL

Anonymous said...

Haha!

The Mayo Annual, complete with everyone's goofy picture and weird smile.

(I hated picture day!)

And Mayo will be head of the class. And we'll all cower in his mightiness.

Only not really, 'cause I'm not afraid of you, Mayo. Your big words will not make me feel stupid!

;)

So, it's quiet around here today.

Shame in me said...

hey mustard :)

hahaha yeah it would either be like a year book or an almanac :)

Hehehe it would be the weirdest most random obscure annual in the world haha. It would definitly need an 18 rating at times :P

Toujours could do the artwork for it :)

words would be a joint effort of Elena and Kapunua :) LOL

If mayo had a Po Box or mailing address i would make him a scrap book :)

elena said...

Oh not sure I'm qualified to write the words for the Mayo year book. I'm too random.

Anonymous said...

This post seems like two crammed into one. I think sometimes Mayo keeps these things in a file, the way I write stuff, and then posts them when he knows it's time to make a new post. I halfway wonder if Mayo copied too much into this one.

Anonymous said...

"Qualified" to write? Yes, I believe in that. I believe in the gatekeepers known as "slushpile." I believe in aptitude and how some people have it and others do not. Writers can be made, but more than that I believe they are born.

And if you've got it, shout it out.

*shouts it out daily*

Shame in me said...

Hows your day Kapunua?

elena said...

Hey Kapunua. How's it going? Not working today?

Anonymous said...

No, not working today. It's a nice day, rainy which I love. Though I'm kind of down? Tired? I dunno. I got a lot out that I wrote to Mayo last night. It sucks when that kind of stuff gets lost in the mix, emeralds and opals in Times Square on New Years Eve.

Hey check it out though. That anti-valentine that I made for Mayo? The horror music video? I just sent it to the band who made the song. You guys know, one of my favorite bands, the Lo Fidelity Allstars.

Do you think they'll like it? Man, I hope they do. I'm nervous. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Jules,

I did something naughty.

Though it wasn't meant for me, I watched your video.

*Bows down and offers a bouquet of magnolias and tiger lilies*

If I say anything else, I'll begin to sound creepy.

But OH MY GOD.

Anonymous said...

GV, thank you so much. Of course anyone can watch it if they want to; that's why it's there. I'm so glad you didn't think it sucked. ^_^ My friends and I, we worked really hard on that sucker. It means a lot to me that you watched it. :D Can't thank you enough.

Anonymous said...

Oh, and I LOVE tiger lilies, by the way. I grow them and I wear them all summer. You don't sound creepy at all, just THANK YOU. :D

Anonymous said...

I went to school for film. It takes alot to impress me.

The rhythm, the colors, the composition of each shot.

It was entrancing, mystical, melancholy, contemplative...

I'll be honest. I was utterly astounded.

Anonymous said...

Yeah. Like, I'm in love with you.

Okay. Breathe. I let the creepiness out.

I saw Shame in Me is still hanging about. Hello! Hello, Elena.

I kinda wanna go watch it again, but I'm going to save it for the evening.

ANYWAY....

Shame in me said...

yeah im still around. thought you had gone dear but your back.
Im just bumming around will be going soon. :)

Anonymous said...

Seriously GV, seriously, you went to school for film and you think it doesn't suck? I'm floored and I can't thank you enough. It means a lot that you like it. I mean, if anyone likes it it means a lot, truly. But wow, I'm just floored. And I don't find you creepy int he least. I just can't thank you enough. ^_^

Plus, filming it was just fun. Those scenes were originally for the movie we were doing for "3 Cheers" that Frank told us was all right to film. The blood was corn syrup and red dye, sometimes it was chocolate syrup, too. We were all drinking it and going on a sugar high then pretending to kill each other and ourselves. Good times, good times. :D

Well, I am off to shop, launder (clothes, that is,) clean, clean, clean etc and kill some zombies.

But wow, thank you. :D

Anonymous said...

Oh, thank you for making that viewable to the general public.

Seriously.

Have fun killing zombies! YAY!

Man, your movie for 3 cheers would have been awesome.

Shame in Me, if I don't catch you, I hope you have a good evening.

Pixie said...

@wendy:

"PIXIE: Hei! kaveri! Hyvää Ystävänpäivä
*hopes I typed that correctly*"

awwww how cute, thanks so much *hugs* hyvää ystävänpäivää for you too tomorrow :)

Pixie said...

hi, how´s everyone?

Anonymous said...

Where can I see this video that Kapu made?

Anonymous said...

If you go to her anti-valentine day's blog, via her gifts of the blog magi blog (if you can decipher this sentence at all), it's in one of the comments.

Bellatrix said...

Hey Mayo.

Well, it was a pleasant surprise to find out you posted this early...a bit unusual, but pleasant.

So, as always I had to read your words different times before I could express my opinion about this one.

There’s just one question that occurred to me while reading it: are you happy, Mayo?
I mean, really happy?

“I will begin again tomorrow with the same start, at the same seat”

You know, this part in particular makes me think you have to do certain things, behave in a certain way because that’s what everybody expect you to do, even if that’s not what you want.

Probably I’m totally wrong and not in the right condition at the moment to understand what you’re really trying to say, so sorry if I misunderstood your intentions.
But if there’s even only a small possibility I’m on the right track, well then please remember you can still change what you don’t like about your life. It’s never to late.

Take care of yourself Mayo- man.
Love to you.







Hey SS, my favourite frog, just hope you’re great.
Remember we miss you.
Take care.
Love to you






Hello family!
So, how’ve you guys been?

Pixie said...

bella? how are you? how is italy? long time no see *hugs*

elena said...

Well damn I missed Jules..

Just have to say about your video...I love it. Wow, I'm impressed. I too am gonna watch it again.

Sorry I seemed to get lost I was making a listing on Amazon for a book. I think they should pay me for that!

Hey Pixie. How are you?

Bellatrix said...

Hey Pixie!
*HUG*

I MISSED YOU!

I'm fine, just a bit tired.
And you? Everything alright?

Hi Elena!

elena said...

Side note. I'm listing a book about frogs...

Yeah I thought about my favorite Blog Frog

Hey SS (if you hop by)

Anonymous said...

Okay, really going, really, honestly! For real, have to get moving.

But first! SIM, something for you, too. And any 30STM fans around. A few years ago I made some humorous 30STM videos that ended up being kind of popular in the fandom. Wanna watch them?

The first was Dynamite, which took me about a day and not a hell of a lot of work. yet it became viral in the fandom and has gotten a lot of reviews.

Then I thought I'd top it and I did the 30 Seconds To Mars Squaredance using the old Bugs Bunny squaredance song. I thought this was so clever it would totally outrank Dynamite within the first day. It kinda didn't.

Anyway, you might enjoy them. :D

Anon, a bunch of us made anti-valentines for everyone here. THe post is here. If you are a nice anon, the gifts are for you, too. :) They're for everyone here who is not, you know, rude to us. The link to the video is in there too, if you'd like to see it.

Okay! Really going now. For realz yo.

Anonymous said...

You didn't miss me Elena. Thank you so much! I'm glad you also didn't think it sucked. Thank you for watching it and for commenting. ^_^ That means a great deal to me.

Bellatrix said...

Hi and bye Kapu!

Pixie said...

hi elena how are you?

I´m ok just tired, the last weeks were busy ^^

Anonymous said...

FORM A SQUARE! I love it!!!!

elena said...

Jules you are a damn talented woman.

Hey Bella

Pixie I'm tired too.

Anonymous said...

I am a friendly anonymous.

OK Kapu great video, I really liked it. Thank you. I see what is going on. If Mayo doesn't watch it his loss, LOL. You made something great and you should be proud. Your friend, SS will probably watch it too. Can I ask you some questions about it? First, IS THAT JARED LETO IN YOUR VIDEO? And what are the words written on the arm? And lst but not least, what are the words you, I think its you, say at the end of it? OK enough questions from me. Great video, cool song too.

Bellatrix said...

Ladies, I have to go and get ready.
Today is my best friend’s birthday (she’s 21 now) and we’re going to celebrate.
So Wendy if you’re lurking just know that maybe I’ll have my absinthe tonight… ;P

Take care everyone. Probably I’ll see you tomorrow.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*


PS: CTV,if today is your birthday, well then...HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEETIE! ;)

PSS: MissT, we all make mistakes. It’s the human nature. Remember what I told you last night: we love you, no matter what. Please, come back.

Pixie said...

ok bella have fun and take care :)

Pixie said...

well no one here anymore? I´m still not in the mood to talk to myself ^^ ;)

Shame in me said...

Jules!!! Thankyou so much :) you have made an already ok day even better :)

The dynamite vid is so funny it actually brought a tear to my eye especially cause of the music.
I never cry when i laugh!!!

And ive just watched the square dance one, thats even better!!!

My god!! was that Jared back flipping off something?
Wow that man is talented in all dimensions!!
Something i didnt expect to be doing today is laughing like that :)

You are my sunshine ♥

My god!!! I have just watched your video!! I was blown away!! I dont know much of films and the art of making a piece like that but it was phenomanal! I loved what i saw. Every bit of it. I have just watched it 3 times and each time i see something new.
Wow!! Forget about Jared being a talented mofo, what about you?
Im in awe Kapunua, and i love the dark undertones and the imagery. Thats as far as my technical speak goes but i hope you get what i mean.
And i loved seeing your wedding to Jared on the silver screen :)

Hehe only joking. But Wow!!! You should send that to 30 aswell as the Low Fidelity Allstars.
Jared would love it!!
Mayo will love it. I cant see anyone not loving it.

I'll shut up now.
But you're amazing Kapunua and Thanks for making me smile,laugh and generally feel.

Shame in me said...

Hold up a second, has Miss T left? I never read the back end of the last post? Someone help?

Shame in me said...

damn my lifts here gotta go but ill see you all in a few hours. take care

Anonymous said...

Good morning/afternoon/evening everyone. Happy bithday BH13, CTV. BH13, I really really really miss you. You need to come back soon.

Pixie said...

hi sim and bc how are you?

bc: I left you a comment ;)

Anonymous said...

Hello my dear pixie. How are you? I'm doing pretty good, just setting up my camera, thank you for asking. I shall go read your comment.

Pixie said...

hi :) I´m tired and well... I had better days ;)

Anonymous said...

Aw my dear pixie, sorry to hear that.
I'm feeling somewhat giddy today. Is there anyone else here besides us?

Pixie said...

nope just you and me I guess....

so still a lot of snow for you? we´ll maybe get snow on friday and we had some sun today *lol* no rain, no grey sky...

Anonymous said...

FUCK YOU Mayo. All you do is take. I hate how you treat these woman here! What the fuck is wrong with you. All you know how to do is take. You actually do remind me of Gerard. In a really bad way.

I'm sorry to lash out like this people! I think you guys are all AWESOME and I know you love Mayo. But I think he is a user and selfish. I'm sorry it's just my opinion. You give so much and he just takes it and never says anything back to you. At least that's what it looks like to me.

I'm sorry REALLY, for making a scene. But it makes me SICK the way he acts so selfish.

Fiona

Pixie said...

hi fiona and welcome :) well no reason to apologize, everyone has her/his own opinion :)

PJ's in blue said...

Anonymous said...
FUCK YOU Mayo.


Boy if i had a dime for every time i said that, i would be rich.


Anon, get over it!!!


Hi everyone!!!

I'm Back!!!

Miss me.....blows kiss!!!

Pixie said...

hi pj´s... how are you?

PJ's in blue said...

I'm fine pixie, work has had me going from place to place, but I'm on vacation next week.....yea!!!

So how are you today?

Pixie said...

vacation sounds good :)

I´m ok, the last weeks were busy, bad start into 2008, but well it´s getting better :)

PJ's in blue said...

I'm so sorry it got off to a bad start.

Eight is my lucky number, so i am hoping this year is a good one, last year was sooooo bad.

Anonymous said...

Fiona, you're entitled to your own opinion. Hello my dear PJ, how are you? Where have you been?

BC

PJ's in blue said...

What do you think of Mayo's new post?

I'm clueless!

Pixie said...

it´s better now, but I had so much bad luck in january, one of my good friends said I should start playing lottery because now I´ll have sooo much luck after the bad start.... :)

8 is your lucky number? so good luck for 2008 :)

live is like a roller coaster ;)

bc are you still here?

PJ's in blue said...

Hi BC, I have been all over, but i am home now, just enjoying setting and doing nothing at the moment.

What about you, everything ok?

Pixie said...

ah there is bc again ;)

oh well, I have no clue, but that´s normal for me pj ;)

Anonymous said...

I'm still here Pixie. PJ, to answer your question, I'm not sure myself.

Pixie said...

damn I meant life ^^

Anonymous said...

PJ, I'm guessing you been bouncing all over the place like a kangaroo ;p

I'm okay, just enjoying some grapes at the moment.

PJ's in blue said...

Damn! you made me want grapes, i have not had grapes in so long, strange, i can not remember when i even ate fruit, no wonder i feel so run down.

Mischevious said...

Where is my beloved cotton sheet of lust?

Anonymous said...

I'm right here "Mayonaise"

PJ, you haven't had grapes for a while? Should I ship some to you? You're right about one thing though. If you don't eat anything healthy, your body starts to feel run down.

Pixie said...
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Pixie said...

bc is right, fruits are important ;)

Anonymous said...

Pixie, indeed they are. Also, whole grains and vegetables too.

Mischevious said...

My blog isn't a place for boring dissertation
About fruits, the weather or menstruation
Be more inventive with your daily talk
Or off my plank, you'll take a long walk

Mischevious said...

And by plank, I don't mean schlong, BC. Calm down!!

Anonymous said...

Very funny "Mayonaise" We can talk about anything we fucking want. You got a problem with that?

*BC is snorting with laughter*

Mischevious said...

BC, tell me again how you want to be the dangled sheets I weave.

Anonymous said...

"Mayonaise" are you aware that I didn't mean anything by it?

Mischevious said...

You were trying to flirt with me and be a dirty trollop. You thought maybe it would get my attn.

Well, it did.

I got my eyes on you, BC, and now youre mine!

Anonymous said...

What's going on?

Pixie said...

hiya mustard, how are you? :)

Anonymous said...

Well, I didn't think my comment would cause this much of a stir, to be honest. But it did anyways.

Oh, the agony of having my words being constantly picked apart. Woe is me.

Anonymous said...

Hey Mustard. Flirting with "Mayonaise" here is what's happening ;)

Anonymous said...

Hey Pixie!

Hey BC!


Um, BC? If you stop acknowledging those people, they'll in all likelihood stop harassing you :)

Anonymous said...

Hey guys. Splash! Hello! ^____^

Wow, okay, a few things.

Anonymous said...

FORM A SQUARE! I love it!!!!


You got that! I slay myself, honestly. ^_^

Elena said...

Jules you are a damn talented woman.


Elena, thank you so much. You are, too. ^_^

Anonymous said...

First, IS THAT JARED LETO IN YOUR VIDEO?


Yeah, Jared and Shannon. It was Halloween and there was an after-show costume party. Jared saw my costume and told me to go to it, then they held a costume contest. I didn't win it by a LONG shot, but it was fun going up there on their makeshift stage (a loading dock in an alley) and playing along. Shannon was so nice to me, especially. ^_^

And what are the words written on the arm?

"Deadlier than the male." ^_^

And lst but not least, what are the words you, I think its you, say at the end of it? OK enough questions from me. Great video, cool song too.

Thank you so much. :D The ending words are "So don't fall in love."

Shame in me said...
The dynamite vid is so funny it actually brought a tear to my eye especially cause of the music.
I never cry when i laugh!!!

And ive just watched the square dance one, thats even better!!!


I'm so glad! That band, they really are "the funnest band" aren't they? God, they're such a blast. ^_^

My god!! was that Jared back flipping off something?

I'm never quite sure. I think it is, though. And lemme tell you: that's hot. O_o

My god!!! I have just watched your video!! I was blown away!! I dont know much of films and the art of making a piece like that but it was phenomanal! I loved what i saw. Every bit of it. I have just watched it 3 times and each time i see something new.
Wow!! Forget about Jared being a talented mofo, what about you?
Im in awe Kapunua, and i love the dark undertones and the imagery. Thats as far as my technical speak goes but i hope you get what i mean.


Thank you! That means the whole world to me. I put it up there kind of biting my nails, knowing that I masked so many mistakes (like props left in the background!) with filters and I overused the cross-fade and all I could think of was, "people are going to think this is so dumb." So I'm not only relieved but really honored that you liked it. :D

Hehe only joking. But Wow!!! You should send that to 30 aswell as the Low Fidelity Allstars.
Jared would love it!!
Mayo will love it. I cant see anyone not loving it.


Oh dude, I have absolutely no contact at all with Jared Leto. Besides, I'd feel a little silly. He intimidates me a bit, to be honest. ^_^

Hi, Fiona!

All you do is take.

I just have to say, this reminds me so much of Rocky Horror Picture Show. Isn't that what Columbia said to FrankNFurter right before he zapped her? O_O

And what did it get me? I'll tell you: a big nothing! You're like a sponge. You take, take,
take, and drain others of their love and emotion.


Can I be Magenta? She was my favorite. I ask for nothing! ^_~

Seriously though, Mayo did a really nice thing for me after I lost my dog. It was the nicest thing anyone (outside of real life) did, even my friend I've known on the internet for eight or nine years didn't do such a thing. I can't forget that. ^_^ Thank you though, Fiona. ^_^

Well, gotta go feed my dogs, feed myself, then go to KF. Tonight I think I will post the last chapter to the Blog story. I'm sorry it took me so long. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Don't worry Mustard. I think "Mayonaise" is actually funny.I have like, five or six anons now, and now I have my own "Mayonaise"

Cool! Lol

Anonymous said...

Hi K

Pixie said...

hi kapunua how are you?

Anonymous said...

My two cents:


Mayo doesn't take anything from me that I don't give him willingly.

I like it here, and I wouldn't trade "Mayonaise" and all that goes with it for the entire world.


Fiona:
I don't know if you'll be back, but I wish you could see what a lot of the rest of us see. I really do. :)

Anonymous said...

Hey Jules! Lemme do the wide-eyed computer grin.


^___________________^

Anonymous said...

RE: The BlogBelieve Story.


YHUS!!! I wonder what's going to happen?


I'm sorry it took me so long. ^_^

I'm assuming this is intentional ;)

Anonymous said...

lol@ ^___________________^

Anonymous said...

Hey!

What are you lauging at?!


;)

Anonymous said...

"Mayonaise" are you still here? If not, then take care.

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