I smile when I am nervous. It is an uncontrollable reflex. The fight-or-flight response or my somatic nervous system responding to what I deem invasive. I try to cover up this tic, but by looking away that smirk rats me out. My reply discredited. I can be sold out in a twitch.
A friend suggested that the reason I am often misunderstood could be found in my aloof manner. The way I seem to pay closer attention to a hangnail or dry cuticles than expeditious lips or explicative eyes. It could be presumed that I am not listening. I explained to my friend that this distraction is the reason I can hear.
The corrective measures we employ to keep the world at bay often betray us. We all have our quirks or sharp edges. Our mechanical walls shield us from intrusion, but we are still left feeling the stick, hopeful that the slip remains undetected. And you are right; there is always more to it than the bright lights and poor judgment...set the dial to allow just enough to filter past to maintain focus. Does this mean we are blind? No, but sometimes we are caught off guard. And I do not presume this of anyone…other than myself, of course.
Ghost, thank you.
p.s. the wrong falsehood has been assumed although either way it was a good start.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2086 of 2086Hey, Mya!
Elena had left a comment the other night that she felt was too long and so she deleted it, telling mayo that she could have just condensed it into a few words. She told him she took up valuable space with her words.
I think he was letting her know her words ARE important, and not to take them out.
L.
Gerard was the art director, I guess?
Yeah, kinda sucks.
Hello Mya!
Only Gerard was nominated, not My Chemical Romance (I know, right? Dub teff.) I don't think he was there in person, but he along with a few other people were nominated for the best boxed set, or something?
Ah. So he wasn't actually there?
Gerard was the art director, I guess?
Yeah, kinda sucks.
Oh. Well. Okay. I guess :/
Miss T, Amy, are you still there?
L.
CTV how far into the ceremony was it announced?
Yeah, we gotta stick together Amy.
L, I spoke to her yesterday. She is still at her mums and will stay there till friday at least.
Hi mya.
Thanks for clearing that up for me, L.
I haven't been here much... obviously...
Has anyone heard from DG? How is she doing?
My Dad went back in the hospital last night.
Hi K.
RW, go check your blog.
Ergo, I have no idea, love. I haven't been watching. But Smoke just announced it on DM, so I'm taking her word for it.
Miss T, tell DG we are still thinking of her and give her our love.
How have you been lately?
L.
Mayo, come out from behind the shadows and join us ^_^
You too, SS!
Hi Mya
I'm ok Amyranth - hubby just did something without asking me and I was really pissed off. It was rather important and I would have liked to have known, but it's ok
Miss T!!!! You're back!!!!! Hooray!!!!!!
Sorry to hear that about your Dad, Mya. How is he doing?
Love,
L.
Category 89
Best Boxed Or Special Limited Edition Package
The Black Parade - Special Edition
Matt Taylor, Ellen Wakayama & Gerard Way, art directors (My Chemical Romance)
[Reprise Records]
RW, go check your blog.
CTV, go check yours!
OPL, yup. I just had to grab my supper out of the oven.
Has MCR ever won a Grammy before?
-A
Has MCR ever won a Grammy before?
I don't think they've ever been nominated, have they?
Hello Anon!
Thanks, Anon.
By the way, does anyone know what a guy named Maddy (Maddie?) does or did with the band? He was really sweet to J. and me.
L.
Hi Mya, how are you?
So sorry to hear about your dad. You have me thoughts and well wishes sweetie.
L, I will tell DG you send your love.
I am OK. Apart from what I mentioned, I'm OK.
Today just isn't my day. A skunk just let one go by my bedroom window. I will be smelling that shit for days.
Holy crap! MJ, are you serious? That sucks!
Damn you, skunk.
Good to have you here, love.
RW, I replied! Stay on as long as possible!
Well, hello, Martha. Not the usual greeting...
Sorry to hear that!
L.
Today just isn't my day. A skunk just let one go by my bedroom window. I will be smelling that shit for days.
I get that sometimes too, MJ. The smell has actually been so strong that it's occasionally woken me up.
hello all.
Mya I'm sorry about your dad and Miss t what happened to you?
hello all.
Mya I'm sorry about your dad and Miss t what happened to you?
a skunk!
ew I am really glad we don't have them here
I still have to take a shower.
But dammit, I stayed on too long for me to just get off now. I need a new post!
>.>
Stupid Doublepost.
Mya, sorry to hear about your dad. I've been on pins and needles over mine too, he's got high cholesterol and other heart issues creeping up.
MJ, YUCK! This is why you have a room in Blogbelieve, so you can pretend your house doesn't smell like piss.
-A
So sorry to hear that MJ, but you did just make me LOL. You made my day sweetie, thank you for sharing.
But dammit, I stayed on too long for me to just get off now
0_0
I really have to head to bed now.
Have a great night, everyone! Chat again tomorrow :)
I'm too lazy to fix my double post right now.
Yeah a skunk. At least it's not as bad as in my sisters room. After a while it states to smell like weed in here room.
Hello
mya
l
ctv
Amy
miss t/froggy
Rw
anon
and anyone else who is here.
resurrected wreck said...
But dammit, I stayed on too long for me to just get off now
0_0
BOLDED FOR EMPHASIS.
-A
Hello all
Just popping in to see if our host has showed up.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Goodnight,RW!
Love ya,
L.
Hey... Why does it say that it's Friday?
ELENA!
I just sent you an e-mail. Did you get it?
L.
really going this time RW??
night
Friday? Where? I want one!
-A
Goodnight RW.
MJ, I got a bit upset but I'm back now.
Yes, really!
I mean it!
Here I go!...
*trying*
mya what says it's friday?
Nevermind!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dang!!!!!
It doesn't say Friday, it says February!
It's been a rough week!!!!!
NO RW,
DON'T GET OFF NOW!!
^_~
L.
Hello Elena and Ep.
Well we all get up set sometimes Miss t.
No worries.
DON'T GET OFF NOW!!
^ ^
0_0
I want to punch this bitch. Thanks for telling me how I feel, you stupid twat. And that if I don't feel that way, I'm obviously lying. And check this out:
My advice is this: Settle! That’s right. Don’t worry about passion or intense connection. Don’t nix a guy based on his annoying habit of yelling “Bravo!” in movie theaters. Overlook his halitosis or abysmal sense of aesthetics. Because if you want to have the infrastructure in place to have a family, settling is the way to go. Based on my observations, in fact, settling will probably make you happier in the long run, since many of those who marry with great expectations become more disillusioned with each passing year.
Uhh, right. "Overlook his halitosis." O_O
Gotta love how she bases these observations on Mary Tyler Moore and Friends.
Way to be progressive!
Anyway, here's a really cool reply to it. ^_^
Oh gawd, it's 110pm! I have so got to go!
Take care, all! :)
Hey L
I've not had time to check my e-mail yet but I will.
So how are you tonight?
Why is it that older single women have to "settle"?
Why should ANYONE have to settle?
Bitch, please.
-A
At their core, they pose one of the most complicated, painful, and pervasive dilemmas many single women are forced to grapple with nowadays: Is it better to be alone, or to settle?
My advice is this: Settle!
Holy fuck!! Is this woman for real??
Hey Martha How are you doing? I'm watching Josh Groben so I'm very happy right now
Oh they just played a bit of Birdland - that is my favourite Jazz piece of all time, my brother , for my birthday gave me a CD of heaps of versions of Birdland old and new. I loved it!!!
little bit of random info for you all
Doing better, Elena. Not so sinusy today. How are you doing?
I cannot believe that article.
Settle? HELL NO!
I haven't yet, and have no intention of doing so.
L.
She is absolutely for real. I take it back , I don't want to punch her. She's too pathetic.
Thank goodness for the only great vocal performance on the Grammy's tonight! I can turn it off now.
Okay, really going to go now. Must... sleep...
Will pity misguided "journalists" tomorrow.
'Night! :)
'Night, RW!
Settling is bullshit.
Besides, why does everyone need a man? I was happy being single until this sonofabitch wormed his way into my heart.
Fucking cat. ;)
-A
kapunua she probably has no goals and no personality. I know girls who just grew up wanting to be a mum and housewife and took the first guy who came along. They seem happy that way, some leave after a few years but some just live that way and don't want anything else.
Those of us who see ourselves as individuals with promise and worth don't think that way.
mya who was that?
You know, that article there is a very good example of why the women's movement hasn't gone as far in its cause as the civil rights movement has. Can you imagine an African American writing an article extolling the virtues of slavery because, hey, you may be stuck doing menial work for someone who disrespects and abuses you, but at least you've got food in your belly and a roof over your head?
As long as there are women like her undermining equality & the right of all women to live their lives as they see fit, regardless of age, race, orientation or personal choices, we're never going to taken seriously as a group.
*is fuming over this article, but needs her sleep*
So for the hundredth time tonight, goodnight all :)
I really mean it this time! 0_0
RW great analogy!
weren't you off to bed?
Hey kids, we've switched out again, how's everyone?
So...this cow is saying that not only am I old, I'm also unattractive, unmarriable, destined to be stuck with some loser bozo, and lucky to get HIM? And, I should be GRATEFUL for this?
...oh HELL no. I want a cute younger guy who can keep up with me!
Settle. Fuck.
J
Ergo, that was Josh and Andrea
weren't you off to bed?
Um... yes.
Going now!...
Settling slowly corrodes your inner self. What joy is there living with someone you cannot really connect with emotionally, just to avoid loneliness? That is far more lonely.
Loneliness is really a state of the mind.
EP, RW and J., you all make really great points. RW, I agree with you so hard that the women's movement hasn't progressed as much as people like to pretend it has. ANd that really burns me. I'm sorry I posted something so negative and got everyone pissed.
But it is a righteous pissed, you know? ^_^
Mya I agree Josh is amazing!He has an incredible voice, why can't he be played as much as James Blunt, or instead of James Blunt!
But at least Amy sounded good, I was worried she'd be awful, though I really hate that rehab song.
Hopefully winning will help her get herself out of the hole she's in
Goodnight RW, go to bed already. :)
Ergo, I liked your comment at 11.16. I know lots of women in that very situation. The "career housewives" I call them. They only want to be married for the sake of being married, not because they love the guy.
J
Anon, loneliness is a state of mind. Most of the married people I know are desperately lonely at home and look forward to coming to work just so that they can connect with someone. I can't imagine how anyone would find that ideal, or even acceptable.
I don't get why it's hard for some people to believe that some of us are pretty happy with our own company. ^_^
Anon,you're right.
There's no way I could ever settle. I would be miserable.
It would be not only unfair to me, but to the other person.
Ergo, I wanna be a mom and a housewife, but not to some slobbery bum.
He's gonna deserve it when I cook his ass supper.
-A
Ergo, yes, Josh Groban is wonderful! My daughter even appreciates him (thank goodness!)
K, the woman who wrote that book...how old is she? And is she married?
You didn't piss me off. That's how I feel about this subject ALL the time! :)
L just made a great point. They're not telling the MEN to settle, you notice that?
Anonymous, absolutely. There is a huge difference between "lonely" and "alone". You can be lonely with 50 people next to you, very easily.
I want to find the man that makes me forget we're two people. If I settle for just anybody, I'm always going to be lonely.
J
I don't know if I should comment at all about Amy... Except to say that I about choked when that song won! Pretty sad, if you ask me...
Settling slowly corrodes your inner self. What joy is there living with someone you cannot really connect with emotionally, just to avoid loneliness?
Thank You!
Really, why get married just to have a warm body on the couch next to you during TGIF? God, you want unconditional love and companionship, adopt a dog and save a life.
-A
Amen, Amy.
Besides, sometimes your pets are more company than your significant other. ;)
I love my cats...
J
mya I thought she may have been embarassing and pathetic, so I was pleased she sounded ok.
I couldn't believe she won so much though, mustv'e been a lean year for music
Amy I know just what you mean. I mean I am a mum and housewife but I certainly waited for someone who considers me an equal and appreciated that I had a career and had goals and intelligence of my own, there is no need to just "settle" for whoever comes along.
anyway I'm off now and shall be back in a couple of hours, though I'll probably check back, I can't help it!
well I still have a career just a bit less time wise
Later Ergo!
L and I were just saying, When you "settle", what are you "settling" for? I mean, what do you get? Is it a prize? Second place? I just don't get it.
J
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