pants around my ankles
twisted in the sheets
legs pulled
up high
I am reaching for a moment
and I can barely remember why
then soft skin
legs twisted in the sheets
“Yes”
that is why
you’re back, Your back
warm against my chest
and we haven’t moved
not since death.
p.s. I have to watch my timing a day or two later and well, you know.
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«Oldest ‹Older 601 – 800 of 1415 Newer› Newest»Yeah i know you guys are here for me Sdock, im sorry if i make you think that i dont realise that.
Being here and talking crap, or talking serious stuff and/ or everything inbetween really does help me. If i cant face the world i can face a part of it here. Im thankful for that and all of my freinds here.
I just never would have been able to say all that if it was addressed to one of you. im sorry i dont know why.
None of you look like an inanimate jar of mayonaise? Haha
Im hopeful amongst all my misery.
It will all be ok. Just need time.
SIM said.......
"I mean hell, better of feeling alone because you are actually alone rather than feeling alone whilst your with someone huh?"
==========================
SIM: I think you are a very wise woman for realizing that! So many people stay in relationships just so they won't be "alone". Truth be told, I think you can feel more alone when you are with the WRONG ONE than when you are actually alone......
I hope you're not tired of all of us telling you that things will get better; because, they will....
just give yourself some time to heal.
*big hug*
Hi Elena sweetie, how are you?
SIM, I am so sorry you feel that way. If there was anything I could do to make you feel better, I would do it.
I want to apologise to everyone.
I have depression and at times I get upset. It keeps happening and it always will. There's nothing I can do about that fact.
Every know and then things get on top of me and I have episodes. I know some of you are losing patience with me. I'm so so sorry.
If only you could see the tears splashing on my keyboard, you'd know how much I hate myself for being this way.
There are some of you here who have probably unknowingly saved my life.
There are some of you who come to my aid time and time again. You can't begin to imagine how grateful I am. It's not your job to save me but you always do.
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry,
Please don't hate me as much as I hate myself.
Hello Martha and goodnight Bella!
*hugs and kisses*
Hey everyone! :)
Elena, Sdock, SIM, 616, BC, MissT, hello!
Goodnight Bella, and sweet dreams.
SIM:
That was beautifully put. I envy people that can let their emotions out in words like that. Again, you know we're here if you need us.
Quoting your jeebus.
Why, hullo, Captain Obvious! And no, not "Jeebus," but a person with compassion for fellow humans with hearts and feelings, kinda like everyone else here.
I don't know if you were the one saying mean things, but in case you were, maybe you should take heed of those words and commit them to memory.
misstottenham said....
Please don't hate me as much as I hate myself.
=============================
MissT: We could never hate you.
Please, don't hate yourself and please don't feel the need to apologize to us for expressing yourself and sharing your emotions with us - ever!
We LOVE you!!!!
Anonymous, who's Jeebus? I recall hearing about him in one of the Simpsons episodes. Miss T, you don't have to apologize for anything.
I love you just the way you are, and if you ever need help, you know we always come to your aid and help out. You are a great and wonderful friend, as you are too Shame in me.
Goodnight Bella sweetie.
Hi Mj, how are you?
Hey there mustard
MissT
Well crap woman, we all hate ourselves sometimes. That is why we are safe here among others who love us. They hold us up until we can look in the mirror and not hate what we see.
MissT:
You know how I feel about everything you just said.
You do not have to apologize for anything. Nothing. That's why we're here. We're here to listen and offer support and try to give the best advice we can.
There should be a sign on Mayo's door that says, "No Apologies Accepted Here."
:)
Miss T no-one will be losing patience with you we all love you. I know how you feel though, you think people will get sick and tired of hearing the same stuff from you and you desperatly try and bring yourself out of it but you cant find a way. All the time it just brings you further and further into it. I understand. Please dont hate yourself love. We love you. You bring so much to us whether you are depressed or not. We love you no matter what. Im always here for you. i dont know what use i would be as im sad too but i have a little hope i'll share it with you. Talk to me honey whenever you need to or feel that you can. I wish i could help you love, i cant even help myslef at the moment. I wish i could help you so much
Im being kicked off my computer for a bit. I will be back though. miss T be strong hang in there love.
Obviously, that's sorta not what I meant, 'cause that sounds like we, uh, won't accept apologies.
Let's go with "No Apologies Necessary, here, in this place."
:)
Hey MJ good to see you. Hope you get to stay around.
sdcok I am NOT the mistress of porn. I am but it's humble servant.
I wasn't but I still wouldn't since I don't hold on to words said by some weird anonymous person.
I'm not insane.
Good evening Mayo.
Good evening all.
First off - glad to see someones getting some. Nice one dude :)
Secondly - your comment; cracked me up.
Redrum said:
Maybe he was waiting for Valentine's Day.
THANKYOU! You got there before me :)
I actually don't hate myself. I just hate those who try to control me. I enjoy independence. Hello GS, how are you dear? Take care my lovely shame in me.
Well then anon, according to you, we are all insane.
Okay,I was about to leave but after your comment, MissT, I just can't.
Now, I want you to listen to me carefully.
STOP HATING YOURSELF!
You're such a beautiful soul and I can't even imagine how you can say you're not!
Yeah, maybe sometimes depression gets on top of you, but never -NEVER- dare to say again we are going to hate you because of that.
I would wipe away those tears of yours right now if I could.
We're your friends and we'll try to help you anytime you need us to,okay?
There's nothing you can do to stop us loving you, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
BC: I think you are correct! I don't think we should need a corporation telling us when or how to express our love.
I mean, how much thought/love does it really take to go out and buy a card (and sign it) and a box of chocolates?
I think we should all just say screw the corporations this Valentine's day and make homemade cards and cookies for our loved ones. Like we did when we were kids!
Words from our own hearts always mean so much more, don't ya'll think?
And, real home made cookies. You know, from scratch - involving actual flour and milk (and a big mess)! :)
Hello all My Internet went out and came back up.
Runs over to Miss t and hugs her.
I don't hate you. I love you.
Grabs pointy stick and pokes nasty anon.
Did you not see the severed anon's head on a pole outside.
We sacrifice nasty like you to our jeebus.
Now run back along to Bn.
Hey GS
good to see you
Elena,
GOOD GAWHD WOMAN! You have a gift. You are good at what you do.
I'm good at writing about being fucked up and you're good at writing about being fucked.
We make an excellent team.
Fuck is the best word ever!
Hi ALL THAT I HAVE MISSED!
*waves*
YIKES! I keep forgetting to say:
HI MUSTARD/MIB!!!!
How are you tonight?
Hi Mustard, thank you for letting me bend your ear but more importantly thank you for asking me to.
SIM, thank you thank you thank you. I do believe you know how I feel. Your words there just made me nod my head.
Thank you people for letting me vent. I can only try to explain how I feel.
I feel that people must be saying "here we go again", I know that I feel that way about myself.
I have tried to keep this off mayos in order not to drag people down but I am still upset.
I know you say don't apologise but I feel that I need to. I take up too much of your time with my downers.
It's so hard when you have a downer on yourself.
I try so hard to be cheerful, to be friendly, but every now and then I get too sad.
I already hate myself and it is hard when I find myself in a group of people trying to be a friend to them all but knowing that they all like each other more. I always feel like I'm just tagging along and making up the numbers. Just tolerated.
It is easy for others to say that you are imagining it but it's hard not to feel that way.
I'm sorry, I will stop now.
I think I shall find that corner that sdock sits in and be quiet.
sdock said
Elena,
I'm good at writing about being fucked up and you're good at writing about being fucked.
We make an excellent team.
Wait maybe that's a book in the making. We could dedicate it to Mayo.
Bella, hear hear! Wendy, fuck the corporations indeed! I may go search for some Anti-Valentine's Day stuff to post on my blog. I always hated that holiday. I hate the sappiness and fake ness of it.
If people are going to allow some holiday to get them to express their love for someone for only one day of the year, then what the hell do you do for the rest of it? You're only going to say "I love you" once throughout the year? I don't fucking think so.
MissT,
Can I sit with you?
Bella, thank you so so much sweetie.
I do try, I would hope that I have more cheerful days than down days here. You all make me smile (when I'm not crying).
* a big hug back for MJ*
Elena,
My fortune cookie did say that I was a lover of words and that I was going to write a book.
So.........
The day starts off with waking up and going off to classes, if you can call nearly falling asleep listening to music whilst the teacher is rambling on, a class. I do not want to be there, does not interest me one bit. Once the time hit’s the finish mark I grab my useless books and go to the house. I do not rush to go to my house because when I arrive I set to cleaning and ironing and cleaning some more. In the evenings, I retreat into my room whilst my parents are in the house. Unfortunately I do not spend time with them because I get verbally abused by them for my lack of being. Complaining that I do nothing and that they are working hard to support me, I stand there and just want to cry.
I never call my house home, like if I was in a shop and I was to say I am just going home to get something, well I find myself having trouble saying it like that because it is not my home. It is my house but certainly not may home. My home is where I am used to, where I feel safe and comfortable, a place I find myself dreaming of quite a lot.
About 2 weeks ago my nana died of old age, it was coming she was old but it upset me. In that same week my granddad was diagnosed with dementia and a lack of blood cells leading to his brain. We do not know how long he has yet but the results are due this week and the house is like walking on egg shells. And to top that, we cant go home to attend my nanas funeral or even to see my grandfather.
At the moment I just want to pack my things, leave here and my parents behind. I want to understand what I want and what I need but I am stuck in the shadow of my family. This is all my fault yet I still find myself not doing anything about it. Maybe I am scared but this is what is hurting at the moment. I am sorry for this and will retreat back to my house blog and sit in my chair watching the world go by. I hope you are all happy and peaceful. Sorry for this randomness
xx
Miss T, may I remind you that you are NOT a tag along? You are a great, caring and warm-hearted friend, and I love you dearly. We all do. You are more than worthy to be here. You are considerate, caring, and a great friend who listens to others' vent their problems or frustrations. I love you. We all do.
Guys, I'll be back in a bit. I have to go to the store.
Well ladies (and gentlemen, if any are around), I think I have taken up enough space - and too much of your time tonight.
I shall be off for awhile to leave you all in peace ;-)
Maybe I'll go make a mess trying to make home made cookies!
Have a great night BC, MissT, MIB, Elena, SIM, Fimble, Sdock, Martha, GS, Bella, not insane anonymous.
Love and hugs to all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hiya BC.
SIM - sometimes we need to get things out and if you can't do it here, where we ALL understand and identify, then where can you do it? Here for you when you need us :)
Miss T - * licks up face * One day, when you least expect it, I am going to do that for real!!
Hi Bella, Elena, MJ, Muthtard and Six.
* waves to Socky *
HEY ERRBODY!!!
Mayo,
I just baked some cookies. Yes, Princess has her apron on. ^_^
Can you believe it? You want a cookie? You like cookies? Well, you're not getting any.
Cookies that is. ^_~
MissT, you really believe you’re just tolerated?
I can’t even begin to explain how much I owe you.
You was the first person who actually talked to me when I showed up here the first time.
You helped me when I was upset because of my brother.
You’ve always been here for me.
Please, believe me when I say I love you and that you’re an amazing person.
Fimble honey, just hold on. I know you've heard it before but it will get better. One day you will shine all on your own. You just have to get through the dark times. Please don't think that any of us are bothered to read your thoughts. Listening to others and their problems helps you cope with your own. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I'm really good at listening.
Of course you can sdock.
Fim, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know you ache so badly to be back in Manchester.
All I can do sweetie is offer you my love and to let you know that if things get too bad, pack your bags and come and live with me. I'm not kidding.
616:
I'm doing okay, thank you :)
Fimble:
I'm so sorry you're feeling those feelings. Parents are a touchy subject and I can't help you there. I've been in that boat many times and it always hurts so much worse coming from people that are supposed to love you. I could tell you to block the hurtful things out, but it won't do any good. You can't be deaf to those, and no matter what you do, you can't drown them out.
I wish we could all pitch in and get you a plane ticket home for you to see your family and grampa. We'll be thinking about him.
Don't stay at your blog too long, okay? Come back out when you feel like making dirty jokes ;)
We care a lot about you, Fim, so don't forget that.
Goodbye 616 and BC! Have a good night!
Hello Bella-Doesn't-Look-Like-She-Can-Sleep! And Elena, and Smoke, and MissT, and GS!!!
So nobody wants cookies?
:(
They are good Valentine's Day cookies. I promise.
Bye Wendy See ya
S&V can I have a cookie? I've been very, very good today.
BC, thank you once again for your kind words. I love you sweetie.
Fimble,
I just visited your blog.
Princess,
What the fuck are you doing baking cookies and why didn't you call me?
G'nite,
Wendy!
Hiya GS! How are you?
*TACKLES SMOKE FOR TWO COOKIES*
What?
I'm hungry!
Fimble,I really wish I could say something to make you feel better.
Again, we're here if you need us.
Never forget it.
Hello again mustard! :P
Bella, I will always be here for you sweetie. I love you so much.
Thank you beyond words for reminding me why I keep coming back here.
Goodnight wendy, thank you.
GS, it will be a pleasure to be licked by you.
I'm having vodka and some of that nasty v8 fusion I bought yesterday. I figured WTF...right? It won't matter if it's nasty if I drink it with vodka.
Niiiiiiiiice!
Fimble, I love you. We love you.
You sure can, Elena.
SollyWolly, you were with me when I bought them. They are pretty and red and heart-shaped. They have stuff like "Kiss Me" and "XOXO" on them. They are soooo good. Although, I can't decide if they are better baked or just as cookie dough. Cuz da cookie dough is da bomb diggity!
Fimble,
I am sorry you are feeling this way. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better.
You can come stay with me. I know you want to go see your Grandpa but I'd make you laugh. I promise.
MissT! I love you!
Oh and I almost forgot my music note-less friend, MUSTARD!!!!!!
Jeezuhs, I feel like such a stuck up bitch.
Like I haven't really spoken to anyone.
Hi ALL! I love you ALL! I swear it's my slow ass connection. I keep missing folks and comments and stuff.
Oh, yeah..I remember when you bought those cookies. I was watching you. You were like waaaaaaaay over there by the cookie cooler and I was like waaaaaaaay over there by the other cookies.
Yeah, I remember now. Crazy how I had forgotten.
Musta been that nasty v8 juice that made me forget.
Stop making fun of those who have a stupid ALT button.
Damn, can't I catch a break?!
;)
You were like waaaayyyyyyy over there and I was like "Oh, she's playin' over there now"
^_^
MissT and Fimble (and anyone else who can take comfort in these words of mine) I gotta go now, but remember everything will be alright, because you deserve it.
I'll think about you all.
Love you.
*HUGS & KISSES*
BLOGGER! YOU ARE A PIECE OF SHIT!!!
Fim,
I just wrote a huge missive to you and blogger ate it. Basically it said take some time for yourself and breathe. I'm so sorry you feel so sad poppet :(
*Princess is speaking Gerardian
Mustard,
NOPE. ^_~
Musta been that nasty v8 juice that made me forget.
sdock how much vodka is in that drink?
Bye Bella!
GS, Blogger sucks big fucking ass shit. Didn't you know that? Blogger is a big huge puss filled oozing blister on the ass of life.
Smoke,
When you picked out those cookies, I was like what does that even mean?
Is she really going to cook those?
Yeah, and tonight I was telling LHM,
You watching this shit?
Keep watching.
Keep watching.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
Elena,
I am taking vodka shots and chasing it with this nasty v8 drink that taste like sweaty socks.
Otherwise, it's a pleasant experience.
Are you guys still watching me?
This is going to get really bad and then really good later.
Bye Bella take care
Miss T said:
GS, it will be a pleasure to be licked by you.
You better believe it. The things I can do with my tongue...
Can I ask a question? You know when I sign in and always say good evening etc, does that sound really stuck up and snooty? ' Cos I ain't, I'm as common as muck!!
Just if , you know, anyone thinks that, er, um, I'm sorry.
Then I was like, "Don't tape me baking my cookies!"
And he was like "Why?"
And I was like "CUZ I DON'T WANT YOU TO!!"
I always thought you was a little high falootin'
Not sure if that's spelled correctly and I'm totally full of shit.
^_^
Totally?
Totally.
GS, Blogger sucks big fucking ass shit. Didn't you know that? Blogger is a big huge puss filled oozing blister on the ass of life.
Ahh Socky, you have such a way with words :)
Night Bella.
Shameless LOTMS references win for eternity!
NOPE, my ass. I have SHOVE IT written on my neck ;)
S&V is channeling Mikey now
I always thought you was a little high falootin'
God you're going to be so disappointed if you ever meet me!
Hey!
You guys remember that night in DM where we thought up all of the LOTMS shit we could and we reached, like, 500 bazillion comments. We reached so many we had to make another post!
That's how well we prepare ;)
GS, it's okay. I'm not really a princess. Well, at least not in real life.
I love Mikey Way. I love him. He is hilarious and what-not.
I love when Mikey says what-not.
Just talking about books and what-not.
Well, yeah, it's not my fault there was only one goddamn beer left.
Blogger ate my motherfucking comment! Cocksucking bastard!
MissT, are you listening?
I love you!
Goodnight Bella sweetie, and thank you again.
Thank you Elena for you kind words.
I love you too S&V sweetie.
Mikey says "what-not" sooooo many times in there. And it's so funny because he uses it all the wrong places which I totally ♥ him for :)
And when he's talking about Gerard and his love of theatah, he's all, "Gerard, at a young age, blahblahblah."
That gets me every time!
GS, it's okay. I'm not really a princess.
What?! WHAT!!
Whaddya mean you're not a princess!!! But, but ....
... the mirrors! And the purdy hair and clothes! Tell me it ain't so!!!
"who the fuck is gerard way?"
lmao that was my favorite
Well let me quote Mikey right now cause I agree with him.
I'm cold as fuck (know when he said that?)
Solly! You know what?
Fuck! I forgot to get hand sanitizer!!!
FUCK YOU!
Firstly thankyou everyone for your support.
BC - i see you as a great friend too and i have missed you a lot, I know you have been feeling down too. Reach out, we will catch you. im always here for you. Better all the bad shit out than in huh?
Come on AIM sometime im always here for you no matter what crap i have in my life. Hope you know that.
Wendy- thanks for all your hugs and kind words. How could i ever get sick of your kind words? You help me greatly.
Miss T- I do undertsand what you are going through. Although i am not all together sure of your circumstances surrounding your depression, if there are any.
What i mean is, i have battled with depression for as long as i can remember in one way or another. This time round its for a reason, well a few reasons. But a lot of times i have been depressed and i have had no idea why. its absolutly debilitating. To feel dead inside but no real reason why. Trying to find the reason only makes it worse as you know deep down there is no reason. You feel like a fuck up, you dont even feel human. You are grasping at everything around you all the time only to be pulled deeper in.
When it over takes you, you speak and act with an urgency that made sense in your head until it escapes into the real world and then you cant remember why it made sense, and you fall deeperdeeper in. Does any of this sound familiar?
Ive been through it so many times, and each time it seems to be worse, it seems to take longer to get out of it too.
Hold onto the fact sweetie that when you do reappear in the beautiful world with your head held high, absorbing all the beautiful colours that have been lost from you, that it will taste sweeter. You will see the world how others miss. being in the dark for so long kinda makes you appreciate all thats wonderous that everyone else could never appreciate like we do when things start getting a little better.
I hope some of this made sense Caroline. If it didnt im sorry for talking crap. Im alway always here for you. i promise you.
MissT,
I'm the one who loves you. Don't give love to the Princess.
My favorite is....
Smells like the shit in here.
But not us!!
Or
It was a Subaru XT and it was silver and you never had to wash it.
Or...
Because there are millions of people in New Jersey and ummmmm...
a lot of em make music.
OR
MikeY Way...
I think my mom bought 10,999 copies.
I LOVE YOU TOO SDOCK.
I LOVE YOU FIM IN THE CORNER.
SIM, once again are you in my head. It makes me feel so much better just knowing that someone here totally recognises my feelings.
I can't begin to describe how much i nod along to your comments. It's almost like you are me.
I love you sweetie.
Hey again SIM!
Elena,
When did he say that???
I'm going to rip scumcast arm off and beat them senseless with it.
Well Hello all I'm sitting at a computer that is picking up internet. I don't know who's internet.
New Years Eve when they played Times Square..the video that was taken by I think Alicia. It's on YouTube. I also like Bob wanting one of the hats the people in the crowd are wearing and they tell him to offer someone 20 bucks and he says he doesn't have 20 bucks.
Love BOB!!
You guys know what?
You know what this blog needs?
It needs more love.
More fun.
More fucks.
More kickball.
We need kickball!
Bring back the NUTBUSTERS!
I'm heading off ladies.
Have fun sugars.
Miss T - * hugs * You know where I am :)
Good night all.
Good night Mayo.
TTFN
NUTBUSTERS! Yes!!!!
Hey MJ!
Oh, Elena. I love Bob. Bob is just cool just because he's Bob.
Plus, my husband thinks he's the shiznit.
Sdock, I'm trying to stop saying fuck. I'm trying to stop swearing but it's too fucking difficult.
Goodnight GS
We do need kickball, 'cause my ass has been in left fucking field for months!
When?! Where?! and What are we bringing?!
Hello S&V
Goodnight, GS!
See you tomorrow!
MJ, you make me laugh so much.
I'm so sorry that your computer is still playing up. Been there, got the t-shirt. totally sympathise.
We need fucking kickball
Fimble
Im really really sorry that you are feeling this way about things. Having your grandma pass away is a terrible thing to have deal with but i cant comprehend being thousands of miles away. And it breaks my heart that you cant attend the funeral. thats just heart wrenching it really is.
I knew you were hiding something from me and everyone else and i hope that even though it doesnt change anything for you really, that you feel a little better in writing it all down and getting some of the strain that you have been under off your chest.
You are such a sweet lovely caring bird haha and you are always there to help others but you rarely ask for help yourself. You are so brave, you have helped me so much Jen, and i want to help you. I wish i could say something that would ease your pain. I want you to know, and i 100% mean this; if you have the money to come over here at any time then you are more than welcome to, no no, id be honoured if you came and stayed with me. I want you to be able to come back to where you lived if only for a holiday. I know it would make you happy and i know how much you wanna see the burnley scallies. I will have a shopping trolley ready for you ;) and some cider :) We will have the best time. please please always remember that the offer is there. I love you fimble your a mint lass :) (((hugs)))
Miss T i love you too ♥
You're a beautiful soul
Bye GS!
I don't know! Solly brought it up and now she's gone to bathe or so she claims. I'm not so sure.
You've been in left field? We'll I've been standing here for God knows how long waiting on Mayo to come back from the bathroom with my mirror!
MAYO!!!!!
Hello Miss t.
I got a t shit as well for the old computer.
It's funny my coworker who got me this computer asked if it was working.
I told him what happened and he was like
"what the hell did you, punch a nun cause you been have some really bad lucky."
Night GS
Sorry I'm behind I had to go put wood in the furnace. Stupid wood burning furnace. I have to go to the dungeon to feed it
Hello ladies!
Between working hard, writing my novel, and remembering I have a social life, I haven't been around much lately. Then I peek in and see this:
I already hate myself and it is hard when I find myself in a group of people trying to be a friend to them all but knowing that they all like each other more. I always feel like I'm just tagging along and making up the numbers. Just tolerated.
It is easy for others to say that you are imagining it but it's hard not to feel that way.
My English Rose is feeling low.
I won't sit here and tell you not to feel that way cause I know that sucks. I will point out though that us humans, especially those here are alot more alike than we think. So the question is have you ever felt like that about any of the nice people here? Have you ever thought you were just tolerating them or they were just tagging along while you talk to your real friends? Course you haven't! See, so chances are no one has ever thought that way about you either. I know I certainly haven't.
If all else fails, I'm sure another test drive will cheer you up!
Oh Mayo, dude that method of birth control never works by the way. That's why Catholics have so many children.
Bikey!!! You are so bad!
In case you missed it, Solly and I left you a prezzie for Anti-Valentine's Day over at Kapunua's.
I just couldn't pass it up. It had your name written all over it.
hello bikey
Does anyone here watch Prison Break? Cuz Wentworth Miller is haaawwwttt!
Just sayin'.
Hey everyone. Hello Bikey. We sure need kickball, because I need to bring some cupcakes, considering that I just ate a couple of them a few minutes ago. Yum.
BC
Bikey?
Is that you?
Nooooooooo, it must be the vodka playing tricks wit me.
Kickball is on...this Friday.
NutBusters GAME ON!
We need cupcakes and footballs.
AND SOME FUCKING BOOTS!
Where is MIDNITE?
Paging Sister Midnite!
Just no funny bizzness with the cupcakes, BC. The last ones you brought made me talk funnny.
And I was seeing stuff like this:
@_@
Hey Martha! Hey BC!
S&V and Sdock,
Wow! A shirt for me! You shouldn't have! I shall wear it with pride.
Thank you ladies.
Okay, back for a millisecond.
Just seen MSI video on Kerrang for the first time ever!
Sorry, not interesting, it just kind of threw me for a minute!!
I'm going again. Bye.
Hi and bye to Bikey, Elena and Martha.
Hello bc and SD
I know! It just won't be the same without her and her ass-kicking boots. :(
Okay, you guys....I have a little bitty situation here.
I only have like a little bit of vodka in the bottle. Like not enough for next time.
Should I finish the bottle or stop now?
I don't feel like I'm drunk. AM I DRUNK?? Nahhhhh...
So what do I do?
Mayo,
I needsssssss some advisice on this promvoblem. QWhat wyioudod Mayo do ina adsitutauoitn liekt thoits?
You're welcome, Bikey! I thought it was perfect for you!
KICKBALL!
KICKBALL!
HELL YEAH!
MAYO YOU SUCK!
Ergo is gonna have to come up with some kickass new cheers.
YAY! Bikey, you liked your prezzie!
I'm so tickled! I love it when we can make folks smile.
That's what us Southerners like to do...southern hospitality and charm and all.
Glad to have you back for with us for a bit!
BC - i see you as a great friend too and i have missed you a lot, I know you have been feeling down too. Reach out, we will catch you. im always here for you. Better all the bad shit out than in huh?
Come on AIM sometime im always here for you no matter what crap i have in my life. Hope you know that.
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Shame in me, I simply love and adore you! As soon as I get my fat ass to sign on AIM soon, then we will have another conversation there. I promise. Don't you worry. Love to you!
BC, thank you once again for your kind words. I love you sweetie.
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Your very very very welcome Miss T. You have been a great friend through all of this. The least I can do is return the favor. I love you too!
Gerard Way said...
Who the fuck is Mayonaise?
February 11, 2008 10:23 AM
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This made me laugh too.
I feel so sorry for you GS. The pain your eyes and ears must have felt.
Goodnight and try to have sweet dreams.
What a deceptive little bottle of vodka I have....it keeps looking like one more swallow...and one more turns into one more and one more and one maore andn ornoe mroe...and so on.
Damnit man! I fucked up.
I havent even ate supper yet.
SISTER MIDNITE! I NEED FOOTBALLS! I NEED YOUR BOOTS! I NEED YOUR LOVE! I NEED YOUR HOTNESS! I NEED YOOOOOOOOOU!
Hello everyone GS MissT Bikey BC S&V Sdock Elena SIM
My power has been off since 6 am and just come back on (it's 11:20 am) and we have no water or anything without it!!
Huge storms last night lots of flooding an dhomes damaged, not us fortunately but a bit further north. I tell you we could do with a break in the weather!
(a coal ship even broke moorings and hit the loading warf, 10m gash apparently - not good and a boat with 37 people ran aground and they had to be winched off, check your news- if you see stuff that's where I am!!!)
Is fimble ok? I am going to read back a bit
Goodnight and sweet dreams GS. Hello MJ. Is Scumcast being a pain in the ass again?
Smokie, you know I never meant to hurt you with those cupcakes. All that it was created with was sprinkles, chocolate, and love.
But Maybe the love ingredient made you talk funny @_@
hello ep
Hi there Ergo. More storms again? Glad to see you didn't get hurt. Please be careful.
Ergo,
Hey, that is pretty damn fucked up. The power thing and all and the weather you guys have been having.
Yes they are BC
Coulda been, BC. You know I'm not used to that. @_@
Solly, you're starting to lose your apostrophe's. Stop now while you can.
Ep you power my Internet.
hey ergo, sorry to hear of the weather conditions. are they normal for this time of year?
Or is it yet more freak weather?
BC i ♥ you
Why does this new post make me grumpy? :/
What makes you grumpy about it?
That it's another soft pore corn post (I hate them; I know it's Valentine's Day week and all & maybe Mayo's feeling a little friskier than usual but seriously, I do not need to know the gory details), that it was posted several minutes after I signed off after staying up much later in blogland than I'd intended to, that I'm still far from convinced that we're not all being played here and I resent that immeasurably. And to top it all off, my co-worker was sick today so I was stuck in my workroom all day with no one to talk to!
However, I did manage to find the shirt MCR designed for Fashion Against AIDS, as well as a nifty new pair of leggings, so things are looking up somewhat.
Gerard doesn't give a damn what you have to say, Anonymous ;).
And Mayo doesn't give a damn what you have to say, Gerard! ;P
Fimble I found your post I feel for you honey it's so hard but you do have a lot of people all over the world who love you and care about how you're feeling.
Family situations are always difficult and unfortunately any stress is often focussed on kids even though they may not be the reason, they are often the little thing that causes it all to pour out.
I am really sorry about your grandfather, mine was diagnosed 7 years ago and he went into a home and I only really saw him twice after that (it's a distance from us) and he didn't know me. It is so sad but I remember him as the man he was, he passed away nearly 4 years ago now.
Spend some time remembering the people your grandparents were, write a letter or make a special gift and say some prayers for your nana, my brother missed both my grandparents funerals, but he had a quiet time himself in their memory
You are a lovely bright funny girl Fimble and I really enjoy talking with you. if you need anything let me know, i'm far away in reality but a only few mouse clicks vitually
Ergo xx
Smoke,
I just poured it down the drain. don't worry. I;m cool.
now, what's for supper?
my head is pounding like a fucking little big ass motherfucker.
Love is a dangerous ingredient for cupcakes then. Consider it to be banned from the cupboard next time I bake cupcakes.
SIM it's not completely out of ordinary but it's a severe season, way more than usual and last night the wind was incredible.
There is still a weather warning but at the moment it's a bit of blue sky.
RW that sucks about the coworker and how you feel about the post, I'm still not sure about the whole reason behind this either, but the shirt and leggings is a nice plus to your day
Goodnight GS and thank you sweetie.
Hi Ergo, how are you sweetie?
Bikey, So nice to have you back sweetie. I have missed you so much. Your words made me feel much better......... especially the offer of another test drive.
Hello sim and rw
MJ your internet must somehow be connected to my weather....perhaps we could try prayer?
RW! Where did you find that shirt? I've been trying to find it!
Shame in me, I &heart; you too, honey buns.
Hey RW, how are you?
Hi EP and MJ :)
Also hi to Miss T, BC, Sdock, Bikey, S&V, SIM, and any non-venemous anons & lurkers!
Guys I don't think this has anything to do with the post.
But I asked Mayo to do another dirty post in honor of Miss t coming back.
Than Sd and a few others joined in in asking.
Hi BC :) I'm coming down from a bit of a grumpy day. How are you?
S&V, I found the shirt at H&M at a mall in downtown Toronto.
S&m I found the shit as well. It's at a store called H&m I think.
I was at a shopping center that had the store.
So the porn is YOUR fault is it, MJ??
0_0
Mj did you?
well we cannot delve into the Mind Of Mayo so anything is possible.
could the ps be about people getting kicked out by blogger? The seeming alternative is info I don't want.
I tried to find it online but I couldn't. We don't have an H&M anywhere near Georgia.
These folks wouldn't even know what an H&M is. O_O
They have lots at the H&M here I could always pick one up for you.
The H&M I went into only had them in medium & large, but I can have alook at the other store locations for a small.
Hey RW and MJ how are you both?
Ergo the weather is freaking out of control. I wont get started on my usually rant about global warming and carbon foot prints but its true.
I hope you are out of danger Ergo
So MJ, this was your fault? ;)
RW, are you feeling down my friend? Don't be. I'm happy to see you here.
I'm doing pretty good, just eating some fish.
Yeah MJ!!
We sure did!
And we asked Mayo to get NAKIE in the blog and he did!
YESSSSSSSSS!
Shame in me, I don't either, but people have to be aware of it happening. I am trying to have my room become more environmentally friendly as a matter of fact. I think it's a subject that I am slowly becoming passionate about.
if anyone is interested in some news stories from here
Qld news
Hi RW sweetie, how are you?
Ha MJ, I didn't know you had asked mayo that. Cool, thanks.
Sdock, stop weaving around, I am still tied to you.
Dude I'm slow. The P.S. went over my head.
I thought it had to do with posting blogs.
Well I don't think me asking is what got this posted.
Bikey, So nice to have you back sweetie. I have missed you so much. Your words made me feel much better......... especially the offer of another test drive.
Okay, just wrap your legs around my rims and hold on tight!
Sim we have been fortunate so far and are unlikey to get flooded but they are predicting more tonight, we just batten down and have gas cooker, torches etc ready. Hopefully we won't get wore winds (our portable chicken pen (which was empty) ended up about 60 feet away over a fence last night)
I won't be driving anywhere far away for a while :)
Hi RW sweetie, how are you?
Having an internal thaw, Miss T, hopefully.
How are you?
Sd he didn't tell us boxers or briefs.
Ep I think you wee there when it started. Kapu came in at the tale end of it.
Ok, so now is everyone back home again?
BIKEY! Where the fuck have you been, dude?
And BC, I knew you were back but didn't get a chance to talk to you last night! I got your email, will probably answer tomorrow.
Hey to everyone else, Elena, Ergo, Smoke, Socky, MJ, Miss T, SIM, RW and to anyone I might have missed!
Wow...and SS and Mayo showed up this week, too. We're all crawling back out of the woodwork.
J
Hi J :D
Hey there OP J. How is your evening? I shall be waiting for your response then.
Bikey....O_O
RW! That is so sweet! I just might get you to do that.
I think it's a pretty cool shirt and it's for a good cause.
Hello J&L
hello J!
ugh I just located a mouse nest - so much for one of my straw hats but my cat had a nice snack though 2 got away :/
RW! That is so sweet! I just might get you to do that.
I think it's a pretty cool shirt and it's for a good cause.
The shirt kicked ass!! It's the nicest Fasion Against AIDS design I've seen so far. If you'd like me to get you one, just say the word :)
ugh I just located a mouse nest - so much for one of my straw hats but my cat had a nice snack though 2 got away :/
0_0
How much are they?
Hey J!
Yes!!! BC i fucking love you!!
Go to this website!!
Even if you dont care much for 30seconds to mars, acknowledge what they are trying to do, what the message is, and ways you can help.
Did you know that in the 2 years since the last 30stm album was released a fourth of the artic ice shelf has dissapeared!! A fourth!! Thats the equivalent of Texas and california together or 5 Britains!!! 5 fucking britains.
Its incomprehendible.
A Beautiful Lie
I hope you go to the website BC. Sorry if im preaching.
Might aswell preach the music too. Watch the video whilst you are there BC its a fucking good song. Gah I love them stupidly hehe
thank you everyone for all your lovely words, they all sunk in and you all made me happier than what i was.
my parents just arrived home and just asked me if i wanted to stay in america without school or go home. i told them to go home so hopefully within the next month i am going home. i may be in the north east but i wil be in england. fingers crossed it will work but i can sleep a bit easier tonight.
thank you again to everyone for their kind words
Ergo,
A mouse nest?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
oh my GAWWWWWWHD! I would die like 2 times over.
Fimble your coming home?
ZOMG!!!!!!
On your own or with your parents?
Im so happy for you. We are going out on the lash missy!!!
Fimble,
I hope you get to go home. I hope you get exactly what you need.
I love you.
But I still want to beat your arse.
Love,
S
on my own sim, it may be in the north east but i will have to see. it is still talking stages but yes it is out now.
I love you too my lovely shame in me. I said it before but I will say it again: I love you!! Don't worry, you're not preaching; I understand what you are trying to do. The ice caps are melting that fast? That's pretty scary to say the least.
The other day I went to buzznet and saw an article about what 30 seconds to mars were trying to do involving that beautiful lie thing. I'll check it out. Thank you my lovely shame in me.
i hope so to sd10, i hope i do. and i also hope i get a bloody good spanking.
Oooooooo bikey, you have made an English rose blush.
But I will take you up on the offer. Just let me know if I squeeze you too tight.
Hi J sweetie. how are you today?
Hello FS
I'm soy to hear about the things going on in your life.
but I hope you are happy to be going home.
OPJ thanks for the email, i havent had time to reply what with being lazy haha but thanks for thinking of me.
Hows L? Hope your feeling better sweetie :) (((hugs)))
Hope your good too J ♥
So fimble, you're going back home? That's awesome. At least it will help ease your homesickness.
Fim, I'm so glad to hear that sweetie.
hey martha, thank you. i am glad its like a big weight off me shoulders. i will just see how it goes.
i am sorry to hear about your internet still. bloody internet nobs. can you change?
How much are they?
$24.90
my parents just arrived home and just asked me if i wanted to stay in america without school or go home. i told them to go home so hopefully within the next month i am going home. i may be in the north east but i wil be in england. fingers crossed it will work but i can sleep a bit easier tonight.
That's good news, FS :) I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you!
People are being naughty. Again.
Gah i just love you for taking the time to go see the website and noticing what they are trying to do. That means a lot too me, im not sure why but it does. Its a fucking important cause. We will kill the earth if we dont act now, it may already be too late.
Plus i live in Britain if they melt much more i will be under water :/
Im coming to live with you mother BC when that happens
Fimble North east is that like newcastle? Why I Man? geordie Fimble Mayte ♥
Fimble,
You just let me know how you want it.
I am always ready to beat your arse.
*takes a few practice swings*
Oh Fimble, that's great! I'm so happy for you! I know you've wanted to go home for so long.
Will you be attending school there? I know you'll still be here, though...we won't let you leave Mayo's!
J
FS, I think you might have told me this before, but how did you come to be living in the USA?
I don't think the other people in the house want to change. So we will just have to scream and bitch at Scumcast.
hi fimble , well it's a good thing that the possibility is there now. Would you stay with family?
I hope you can work smomething out for you, you have been so homesick.
*big hug to offset spanking*
Bikey are you still up for escorting 40 women dancing?
sdock now I have to clean the mess...and my cat is looking at me expectantly!
Hi entropy. Shame in me, thank you for the lovely words. Global warming scares the shit out of me, more than terrorists do, to be honest.
In case Britain floods, I am going to file papers to adopt you and bring you here to live with me. I think you'll like it. There's a lot of deers, coyotes, rabbits, foxes roaming about in my area.
I hope it's not too late because I am not ready to leave this wonderful, yet cruel world of ours.
sim, it is sunderland that i may be.
sd10, take your best shot
J, i will be getting a job so that i can find a place to rent. i will be going out on my own. i just hope it all works out.
rw, go home for a quick look hun. and i moved over cos parents moved here. i fancied an adventure but it wasnt as i was expecting and i am english at heart. i miss it to much and the people.
cheers ergo and thanks for your comment earlier.
SIM, you're welcome! L is doing much better, actually. AND, she's lost almost 40 pounds since October! Mostly from just eating better, less greasy food, etc. She's very pleased. :)
Bikey, so, being the only male about at this point: will YOU do the grocery run for the Mansion this week? The list is up the page, in last night's comments. And, I found a song for you, I left the lyrics on the last post. It's "Bike Boy" by Blondie. :D
Ergo, we had mice last summer. The cats didn't know what to do with them. Rain played with one until it, um, expired, possibly from heart failure at being a plaything for this "huge" gray thing!
J
Hey Exodus. Hello everyone! Everyone doing okay?
That's cool news, Fim. Hope it all works out.
E, do you wanna get naughty too?
You are the pimpmaster dude.
rw, go home for a quick look hun.
Been there, seen you, and popped over to your place!
and i moved over cos parents moved here. i fancied an adventure but it wasnt as i was expecting and i am english at heart. i miss it to much and the people.
It'll be good for you to go home, then. :)
hey entropy, cheers. how are you. its been a few what you been up to
Shower time, back in a bit...
J my old cat Kermie (properly Kermit - HI SS!) was a farm cat and lived in a shed she is an awesome mouser and at nearly 16 is still bloody fast!
These were little and she ate them like snacks,now she is just waiting, if the other 2 show their furry faces they are cat food!
I once found a nest in a cupboard under the laundry tubs and the mice couldn't get out so I kept thowing her in and shaking them out of her mouth into a bucket and thowing her back in!
BIKEY! Where the fuck have you been, dude?
Oh Hi J! I have just been giving Miss T a ride! Otherwise, I've kinda been here and there, catching up with work and friends.
Bikey are you still up for escorting 40 women dancing?
Hey Ergo,
Of course! Sorry your choice of words has made me feel naughty again.
Hello entropy
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