I am so sleep deprived these days
that I am beginning to hallucinate in real time.
Did you see that? (I didn’t think so)
Everyone in the fucking room can hear me
talking to myself, out loud, to you. I am beginning
to think that they hear you also.
Or wait, was that me? It was
me...(don’t be too sure) could have been
all the words are running one into the other.
The whisper soothes, the other screams, and yet
another tells a tale in 250 words or less.
I am privileged to speak in more than one tongue,
last count...Three, “oh lucky me.”
Each purpose served with validity
and temperance, but how fucking loud
must I scream before you down it all?
And that ringing, what is ringing in your ears
when a friend, of a friend, of a girl
who trades innuendo for immortality
to the devil mentions me?
Truth (not even close). It’s not cheap.
And there’s not enough to go around these days.
And I keep all of those trades
in my pocket (thought I was the devil, did ya?).
p.s. and to this day it clings to the words both to and from and the memories.
Monday, February 18, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 1001 – 1200 of 1841 Newer› Newest»Anon, I'm getting the feeling I've said these exact words to you before, but you can take a name and still remain anonymous. Y'know? Just be like "I'm Zaha Torte" or something.
WHOOP WHOOP! Check me out, bitches!
/Fimble Star ripoff
So MJ is Death and Ergo is Tea and I'm Walnuts.
Goodnight Kapu and SD
Anon no worries you weren't rude.
if not tea I would be coffee!
ah loved by millions!!
I must stay clear of Gerard than!
anon with no name,nice to see you anyway - did you call me feral cat bait or are there 2?
Night anon!
Goodnight anon
Man, K, don't forget my curry!
so how would it go curry then tea dessert of walnuts then death?
whata meal !! (and Death is the Family Guy one, he is great)
there were 2
cool
ok anon night keep safe!
Well now those nasty anons should really watch out.
I taste like sugar or chocolate.
That's good enough for me.
I've lurked a bit and now I'm off to bed.
[gropes Kapunua's ass because she likes it and I miss her]
Mmm, I am Lemon Flavoured.
I am bitter and twisted. Expect from me acerbic humour and sharp commentary. While I may seem nasty at first, I'm actually quite good company if I like you, so long as you don't mind a bit of cutting to the chase.
-"An Old Friend" with nothing better to do.
I totally read that as "cutting of the cheese"
Yeah the family guy anon is cool.
I'm even wearing my Stewie t shirt
hey Jen - you'd be popular then!
anon- lemon, nothing quite like a biting wit! and you go nicely with tea!
( I was going to put "in" then read it and decided not to)
Hello and goodnight Jen.
Alright so in mu last comment I meant to say that death on family guys is cool.
sorry i have anon on the brain
Oh Jennicula, thank you for remembering my ass!
That's funny anon. I know someone who's having "an old friend" for dinner. ;)
Here's another one, you guys. Hey Mayo, if you're lurking, you'll get a kick out of this one.
WHich subatomic particle are you?
Check it out, I'm a quark:
Quark -- You are subtle and mysterious and people know very little about you. You like hanging out with small groups of friends (usually 3) who you are very close to. You are usually friends with other quarks like yourself.
Carrie, you were curry? Nice!
Okay guys, it's Anansi Boys and bed for me. Night!
A stewie shirt!!
he is the best character! It 's a great show and we are getting the new episodes at the moment!
ok must be off to tutor, have a great night and I'll catch up tomorrow!
love y'all!
♥
I'm totally a neutron, why am I not surprised?
Neutron -- You don't take sides, you just sort of hang out and blend into the crowd. If someone lets you loose though, you can cause some serious damage. If you are arround too many other neutrons you get bored and start to decay.
- "An Old Friend"
Does anyone know about I think it's called the death fortune teller.
You give it your name and Birthday I think and it tells you how you will die.
I will be pushed int a boil hot pot of soup by and upset family member.
I remembered because given my family that could really happen to me.
Neutron -- You don't take sides, you just sort of hang out and blend into the crowd. If someone lets you loose though, you can cause some serious damage. If you are arround too many other neutrons you get bored and start to decay.
seems there are a few of us!
Later EP
Hello Ergo, Martha, old friend anonymous, K, whoever else is around tonight!
I taste like Bread.
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I am a staple in almost everyone's diet. Friends like me are a complement to any other friends I get on with almost everyone, remaining mostly in the background, but providing substance when it would otherwise be lacking.
(If you were not Bread you would be Vanilla.)
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WOW! How exciting? BREAD! Couldn't I at least be pumpkin or spice bread???
Has anyone seen me Fim today? I miss me little digestive biscuit!
Anon we are the same a neutron.
Hello 6 we are both Vanilla but I'm death
Put it together and it's not so bad. Vanilla Death, i want me one of those, like dying quietly in bed or some such.
hey, de-lurking on a flyby, but i couldn't resist -- i took that subatomic particle test, and my result was pretty lolwtf, so i had to share:
Higgs Boson -- You are crazy and wacky and nobody really understands you. Theoretically your humor gives the universe mass and existence, but the explanation as to how this all works is still in the works.
good to know. good to know.
thanks kapunua.
;D
And, the results of the particle quiz (I know you're all waiting with baited breath for this *wink*)
Photon -- You have a truly radient personality. You tend to be happy most of the time and you make decisions quite quickly. You get along well with everybody.
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Hi CARRIE!!!
I was around earlier but I didn't see Fimble :(
Martha: "I taste DEATH in every kiss we share...." and I like it!
;-)
Ergo: how's the injury look today? Any better?
TJ that's cool!
Heya Wendy!
toujours said...
Higgs Boson -- You are crazy and wacky and nobody really understands you. Theoretically your humor gives the universe mass and existence, but the explanation as to how this all works is still in the works.
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Hi TJ! Can I borrow your particle?
I think it would mix well with my photon.
I'm glad you like it 6.
Here let me give you a kiss right now.
Hello Tj wow your's was cool.
YUMMY Martha! Nothing like the taste of Vanilla Death to compliment the taste of bread!
:D
Carrie: I haven't 'caught up' to you in awhile. What have you been up to? How's life treating you?
Fine, just tired of shoveling, global warming my ass. Al Gore is welcome to send all my extra snow to the Polar ice caps. How are things with you?
Martha Jones said...
Does anyone know about I think it's called the death fortune teller.
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I remember that Martha! Apparently, I will be run over by a train.
Yep, my mamma always told me to STAY OFF THOSE TRACKS!
Does anyone know where BC disappeared to this afternoon?
hi carrie, hi martha -- it certainly surprised me that's for sure! lol
Hi TJ! Can I borrow your particle?
I think it would mix well with my photon.
why certainly, you may -- in fact, i think we'd go well together too, since my flavor was peanut butter.
yes. another lolwtf. i hope i'm just bad at taking these tests!
I don't have to worry about shoveling snow, Carrie. I guess that's a good thing! Of course, you probably don't have mosquitos eating you alive in February ;-)
Other than my sniffles and crust crator nostrils, I'm good!
Hey Toujours
Got my chapter done. Gonna proof it one more time. Of course I'll miss something! Then I'll post.
See like I said it is thing that could happen.
yes. another lolwtf. i hope i'm just bad at taking these tests!
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LOL! I think "they" SET US UP TJ!!!
That's it! ;-)
Hi Elena!
*waits patiently for the next chapter*
I would definitely trade all this damn snow for a skeeter bite or two, no contest!
oh cool, elena! can't wait to read it!
LOL! I think "they" SET US UP TJ!!!
That's it! ;-)
it's a conspiracy i tells ya, a conspiracy! D:
Carrie said...
I would definitely trade all this damn snow for a skeeter bite or two, no contest!
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It's a deal, Carrie!
Skeeters like me a little TOO much. I figure a little snow shoveling would be good exercise for the old ticker ;-)
Well I'm off to bed.
Goodnight guys.
I use shoveling to sub for my cardio all the time, especially lately, nothing like heaving stuff over a foot and a half high snowbank! I sympathize on the skeeters, I have that problem too, I think my blood must be sweet or something, I get eaten alive when others don't even get a nibble!
it's a conspiracy i tells ya, a conspiracy! D:
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Yeah, and 'they' THINK we don't know about it. Umm hmmm......
*whispers to TJ: how's that trap coming along*
We shall bait it with our sugar and spice and everything nice...
(except cheese - we don't want Fimble to get stuck!)
:D
Sdock10, I'm sure everyone here is fucking sick of hearing about you can't sleep and you're taking so many pills and O Mayo Look at me, I'm taking pills. Why doesn't anybody try to stop me??? Give me attention I can't sleep so I take lot's of pills! And I hate my boyfriend but I am such a fucking victim alls I can do is whine and take pills and drink!!! So pay attention to me! But really you're just like any other stupid woman who does nothing but complain and try to get attention but never really change. What's sad is how you keep begging Mayo for attention like another WELL KNOWN female around this blog who constantly post pictures. I'm going to laugh my fucking ass off when the big reveal comes and you both find out it was a woman all the time.
Goodnight Martha!!!!!
*hugs and kisses for you and the doctor*
I'll try to stay off those tracks if you promise not to make soup ANYTIME soon! :P
good night martha. :)
*whispers to TJ: how's that trap coming along*
well, apparently, i have plenty of peanut butter...
Oh, poopyhead judgey anon, you have made me tired. So I must away to bed. I'm sorry you were bored by mosquito and snow talk and thus are trying to get a little somethin' somethin' started. Try again closer to the weekend and maybe I can engage. Night guys!
I'm just saying what everyone WANT's to say but has to pretend to be all nice to eachother. Sdock is an attention whore and a drama queen, how many girls do you know who do nothing but talk about how fucked up their boyfriend treats them and they have to take pills and they are so sad. But all they do is whine about it. Go on Dr. Phil and shut the fuck up already.
good night carrie, and sweet dreams. :)
well, apparently, i have plenty of peanut butter...
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and I have the bread! PERFECT!!!
Ohhh nooooo, not again
:(
Goodnight Carrie!
We will have to continue our skeeter bites vs. snow shoveling talk another night.
I think I shall be going now too.
I'll sneak back in later to read Elena's new chapter :)
Love and hugs to all,
6/Wendy
sorry, one more. I don't WANT to say it, because I don't WANT to hurt anyone. Plus, I don't know anyone's whole story, because I don't live with them. If someone wants to vent here, fine.
Anon, shut up.
Hey Anon,
You know what? Your complete disregard for others is shocking. I'm not sure you've noticed but this blog is where we come to share our feelings. We want to know how are friends are feeling. We want to share our happiness and our sorrow. If you really can't understand this then I feel truly sorry for you. If you do understand this and still have the same opinion of us well then, you’re just a shithead.
good night wendy, catch ya on the flip side! ;)
Anon you don't speak for me
The whole reason SD and Kapu share their lives with us is because we our friends.
So maybe that is why you can't understand what we have here. Who mayo is or isn't is not important. What is important is what we share with each other here.
So if you don't like what kapu or Sd have to say or show to us please just skip over it.
Alright I'm off to bed for real now.
One last thing. To our frog Friend.
Here is a story about a new prehistoric frog they found.
http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/02/080218172307.htm
m
It's called Beelzebufo devil frog
night
Night Martha
Sweet dreams
does that translate to meanie anon eating frog?
Mayonaise, SS, Blog Family, see you guys later. I can't do this anymore.
I am done.
BC if you are done...they win.
Fuck that shit.
Can I say, yay? Yay!
Can you say yay yay? WHAT?
Yay that someone is hurt? Is that what you mean?
oh, bc! :(
just take a break -- get away from the blog and go outside and do things for yourself that are fun and that you like, and when you feel refreshed, you can come back again, ok?
don't give up. be strong like i know you are. ♥
The Mayo Gothic continues
The Direful Secret of Castle Mayo
by
Elena and Toujours
chapter 19
- "oh, i wasn't suggesting that!" bikey hastened to reassure her. "no, in fact, my thought was that i have just encountered lord mayo's captor, face to face." –
"I do not understand." Arabella said turning to look at the book the Lovelies had found in the library. "This is the only one?"
"Yes" Ergo said nodding her head, "It is the only book we could find in the library that pertains to the castle."
"But it was published over a hundred years ago. How can that ancient history help us now?" Sister Midnite asked sounding a bit disgusted.
Arabella picked up the book and began to pursue the pages. "I'm not sure but I have a feeling inside we will find our answers. I shall take it to my room as the hour is growing late and begin reading."
The Lovelies who had stayed for the evening nodded. Most had spent the day searching through the castle looking for any clue to help them in their quest to free Lord Mayo. The book had only recently been found high on a shelf hidden by other volumes. Arabella bid her sisters goodnight and took her leave.
"I'm still unable to believe Bikey's story." Kass said sitting down in a comfortable chair by the fire. "It sounds too unbelievable to be true."
MissT glared at her, "Tell me you are not implying that Bikey would lie to us." There was disbelief with a hint of anger in her voice.
Kass shook her head, "I'm not implying anything of the kind. I just think perhaps Bikey was wrong about who he believes he saw in the woods."
"But maybe it was truly Lord Mayo" Amy said knowing full well her comment would be met with opposition.
"Lord Mayo would never act in that manner." Paperheart said softly. "He treasures each and every one of us."
Amy tried to soften her words, "He seems to feel that way, it is true. However we cannot forget the words he hurtled at us when we first arrived."
Sdock had been sitting quietly in the corner. Now she stood and joined the group of women. "What if the first words had not truly belonged to Lord Mayo? What if this imposter that Bikey saw was who we heard?"
They all sat quietly giving thought to her words. "But why is it that this imposter does not speak to us now?"
"Perhaps Lord Mayo grows stronger. Perhaps our words, our thoughts help him to control the “other".
"But who is this other?" Jenn asked. "Bikey said he speaks with the same voice as our Lord Mayo."
"That I do not understand." sdock said turning to stare into the fire. "However my heart tells me the being Bikey encountered it not Lord Mayo."
Arabella readied herself then crawled into her bed. The night chill forced her to pull up the covers. For some unknown reason her room seemed much colder then normal. She looked down at the book lying in her lap. Inside she hoped to find the answers the Lovelies needed. She ran her hand over the leather cover then opened the book. A sudden cold blast of air snapped the book shut. Arabella gasped in fright, her heart racing. She nervously glanced towards the windows yet they were closed tight.
Then she heard it. A whisper so soft she strained her ears trying to catch the words.
"Arabella I need you. Come to me."
"Lord Mayo" she whispered. Now all was silent once more.
She slipped out of her bed and donned her robe and slippers. Her only thought was to go to him. Reaching the bottom of the stairs she silently crossed the hall moving quickly towards the cellar. By the time she reached the bottom of the stairs she was breathless. Moving in the almost complete darkness she reached the wall where the portal to the passageway should be but was shocked to find only solid stone.
"Arabella, come."
Despair filled her heart. How could she reach him? She laid her palms against the cold stone and lowered her head in defeat. Suddenly she felt a vibration in her fingertips. Pulling her hands away in fear she raised her head to see the stone literally shift. The passageway was once again open.
Arabella did not spend a moment to marvel at the event she simply ran into the passageway. She ran into the total darkness blindly moving forward. A moment later a howling so piercing began that she halted and covered her ears. Still the sound could not be silenced. The sheer brutality of its force caused her to fall to her knees. The damp soft earth beneath her knees seemed to vibrate. "NO" she screamed but could not hear her own voice over the roar.
Suddenly something touched her arm sending a shock wave through her body. She saw a hand was on her arm helping to pull her to her feet. Arabella raised her eyes to see him standing before her. Through the darkness she could see little more than a silhouette yet she knew in her heart who stood before her.
The roar, which before was nothing more than howling, became words. The Faceless Ones tore at her soul with words so vicious she felt physical pain. He moved closer, to whisper in her ear.
"I did not call to you. The voice was his. You've heard it before. Beware of false words."
Arabella could barely hear his voice over the onslaught of verbal abuse. She tried to tell him what had happened but realized he somehow knew.
"Go now Arabella. You are in danger. He means to stop you. Please tell the lovelies to beware. Words can be deadly." He removed his hand and took a step away. "Go" he commanded.
Arabella nodded and fled the passageway. She had just cleared the opening when the wall once more became solid. She fell to her knees trying desperately to catch her breath. It was moments later when she felt the tingling in her arm. She slid the sleeve of her robe up and was shocked. There on her arm where Lord Mayo had placed his hand to help her to her feet was a mark. Her skin had darkened and the imprint of his fingers was clearly visible.
Once more back in the tower Lord Mayo stood before the windows trying desperately to contain his excitement. He warned himself not to let what had happened gladden his heart. It was impossible however not to feel a sense of hope. He had stood in physical form in front of another and touched her. He could still feel the warmth from her body. Her scent still lingered in his mind. The sound of her blood coursing through her veins still echoed in his ears.
"No" he ground out. "No."
Oh don't worry, BC will be back. She always comes back. She would never be able to stay away forever.
Oh, Elena, this is my favorite chapter yet. ♥
As long as I continue to be insulted on a daily basis, that is not going to happen. I'm sick of it.
elena! how do you do that? i think i actually gasped out loud when he put his hand on her arm!
this is a fantastic chapter!
i'm glad i'm going up to seattle tomorrow to get tua -- the long bus ride will give me time to figure out what the heck to do with my chapter!
:D
Thank you kind ANON and Toujours.
BC please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
BC, you said earlier today that you wouldn't back down, isn't that what you are doing now? Don't let the faceless, attention hungry cowards win. Just ignore them, because the more attention you give the more they will pick at you in hopes that they will receive even more attention. It's a vicious cycle.
I am not entirely sure what to say here. I feel a bit frustrated and angry for a lot of things, mostly because I feel as if I cannot have the freedom to express my opinion without the slight chance of getting pounced on.
If I am not the one who is stirring up the fire, it is either one of the anonymous.
I was never the type of person who would sit on her ass and take the shit that was being thrown at her.
I have always been a fighter. Not some meek little woman who folds her fucking hands.
As much as most of the insults and character attacks don't bother me, sometimes it does. Why?
Because as I have said a few times before, no one here knows me personally, and none of the anons know me personally so how are you going to be able to tell if I am a stupid person? How? This is the internet.
I read the same word over and over and over and over again, and yet, no one gives me a reason as to why they think I'm stupid. A coward's way out.
and it frustrates me, to some degree, that none of the anons address their concerns to me; instead they lash out, in order to intimidate.
I just get sick of it. Maybe none of this shit would have happened if I have never came to this place in the beginning.
Yes, I can be arrogant, narcissistic, or any of the other things, but I don't try to hide my "bad" traits. I show both the good and the bad because that's how I am.
I try my best to give advice to others and to listen to their problems, but it seems to some, it's never good enough.
What the fuck am I suppose to do here? I am trying my best to help Mayonaise and the others as much as possible, but I am just one person.
I can't constantly defend myself and look out for him and the Family at the same time.
And second, I have my doubts whether my advice to him is being heard. I try my damnest to help, but sometimes I feel as if I'm wasting my time doing that.
I worry about him more than I worry about myself. How silly is that?
I am trying my best to just be my own self, but I guess some anons don't like that strength.
While I KNOW that Gerard or someone close to him has a habit of interacting with fans on the internet - I agree with Martha Jones - that it doesn't matter who Mayo is - what matters is the positive community environment and support of one another. All of my comments in mayo's blogspot have stressed this concept, which should be self-evident. Exodus (BC?)I left a comment in your blog which should be helpful.
Not-Nice Anon - I hear jealousy in every statement you post. Find the confidence within yourself to refrain from stooping to sniping at others. I know you are capable. That is - if you possess the intelligence of which you speak.
-ConfusedAnon
Confused anon, when was that posted?
Jealousy? I don't know what for. I'm a fucking nobody.
An outspoken, thorn-in-your-fucking- bloody-side nobody, but still.
Sorry about that. I read your comment , confused anon. And I like to say, thank you.
You're welcome. I do hope Mayo doesn't cease posting after the drama of "Not Nice Anon" :o) -as the community is of benefit to many.
Mayo
This probably isn’t a good time to write your goodnight but hey, sometimes the shit just gets too much and unfortunately I can’t contain it. I just called an ANON a shithead. Yep, totally lost my fucking cool on that one. You know I always try to be nice, I really do. But sometimes it just ain’t an option. How could anyone make fun of others who are obviously troubled? Does it give them some warped sense of accomplishment? Does it make them feel better about their own lives? Okay, skip those questions. I don’t care how it makes them feel. I only care about my friends who are hurt by their nasty words.
Now for the really sad part. There isn’t a fucking thing I can do about it. Yeah, I can call them a shithead but other than venting a bit of my anger that doesn’t accomplish anything. Well okay venting does help a bit. But it only helps me. I don’t care about helping me. I care about my friends here. Even though they are just make-believe. Shit, sorry. You have no idea where that comment just came from. That’s just me venting again. Fuck, if I ever did let go of all the shit I keep inside pretty sure those five horsemen would have nothing on me. Okay that was a bit strange. Somehow I bet you got the reference though.
Well crap Mayo. I’m sorry to have dumped this shit on your goodnight. I just had no one else to share it with. I am sorry.
Elena (sick and tired of ugliness)
P.S. You know what? One ignorant, uncaring person just ruined my whole (well actually your whole) goodnight. No, that’s really not right either. Let’s face it these goodnights although they are address to you are really for me. My chance to speak. I was in such a good mood. Planned on delving into the whole three tongue thing. Wow, did that sound wrong. Fuck it I don’t care how that sounded. I got a whole load of ‘don’t care’ right now. Know what I’m saying? I think you do. I’m tired of people who deliberately hurt others and I’m tired of trying to take the high road. Screw that high road. Only thing it gets you is a better look at the shit below. So now my ps is way too long. Once again I am sorry. Sorry to vent at you but not sorry for my anger. It’s been a long time coming.
Okay, I am getting way too fucking tired, and I haven't decided whether I will come here tomorrow or not.
All I want is some sleep. Mayonaise, I am not sure what to say to you; I bet you don't even give a shit.
My problem is that I give too much of a rat's ass about you. Perhaps I should stop. It's not like my advice and support is going anywhere, right?
I'm fucking tired of caring about you, because I bet you really don't give a damn. And when you sound like you're giving up on yourself, it actually pisses me off.
Because I know you're not trying hard enough. You're not trying at all.
You just wallow in your stupid misery and continue to bitch that no one hears you, when I bet deep down, someone did, you just don't want to admit it.
I hate seeing you give up. You have no idea how much you mean...
And if no one will reach you, I will bust my ass trying.
Goodnight.
Confused anon, I don't think he will. Goodnight and sweet dreams to you.
Goodnight Elena, TJ, Ergo.
first, this:
With all that chilling mystery of mien,
And seeming gladness to remain unseen:
He had (if 'twere not nature's boon) an art
Of fixing memory on another's heart:
It was not love perchance -- nor hate -- nor aught
That words can image to express the thought;
But they who saw him did not see in vain,
And once beheld, would ask of him again:
And those to whom he spake remembered well,
And on the words, however light, would dwell:
None knew, nor how, nor why, but he entwined
Himself perforce around the hearer's mind;
There he was stamp'd, in liking, or in hate,
If greeted once; however brief the date
That friendship, pity, or aversion knew,
Still there within the inmost thought he grew.
You could not penetrate his soul, but found,
Despite your wonder, to your own he wound;
His presence haunted still; and from the breast
He forced an all unwilling interest;
Vain was the struggle in that mental net,
His spirit seemed to dare you to forget!
it seems byron has met our blogmaster at some point! i hope you were nice to albe, mayo. :)
and next, my night-time comment.
One last thing: Yes Mayonaise, I did enjoy yelling at you with my previous comment. It helped me feel better >:)
mayo,
the funny thing is that i realized my default preconception for each of your posts is to immediately read it as if it is written directly to us. how very egotistical, don't you think?
so i will try very, very hard to remember that you have a whole life beyond this blog you might be writing about, on occasion. at least once, or twice.
*grin*
but tonight, my head is filled not with nancy drew musings on the meaning of your post, but wrapped round and through with "desert song", which i have been listening to on repeat for an admittedly ridiculously long time.
some songs just need to be o.d.'d on every once in awhile.
and so while i'm boneless and fluid from it i'm going to slip into dreams and see if i can't carry it with me, and let it color my wanderings.
it's alright, mayo.
everything will be fine.
i close my eyes and i can sense it, sure as the song in my ears.
as sure as your words on the screen.
good night from me, mayo, and a good day to you. close your eyes once in awhile.
Morning Mayo & Mayonettes,
Stupid blogger now allows me 1 or 2 comments, then won't let me back in, so I better make this a good one!
Ummm...
Kass xx
morning all!!!!
have i caught up??
have i fuck!!
no time no time no time no time no time no time no time!!!!!!!!
have great days all if it is hunanly possible.
BC i hope you are ok??
elena top update on the gothic you clever girl!! are you resisting the urge to write sex scenes!! damn you though the ground out bit always gets me!!
hello kass!
work hard!
I Did It!!! I created a BLOG...I can't believe it.
I have always both loved and hated writing. I love that words can convey thoughts and ideas that heretofore exist only internally, giving them greater purpose and meaning and history, yet the exposure's a bitch!!! Thank god the internet is fairly anonymous - baby steps.......
- formerly ConfusedAnon
exodus - now you know where to reach should you need to :)
Mayo,
I hope you did get some rest. The world is a scarier place than it should be when you can't trust the evidence of your senses.
BTW - did you burn your jacket? :o)
Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Kass, FASC, Possum (if she decides to drop in today), all sweet and sensitive spirits floating around blog believe!
WOW! Was yesterday a bit rough, or what? I think I'm feeling a little battle fatigue! That battle fatigue, along with my early case of spring fever and the sniffles can be quite serious (especially for those I come in close contact with *wink*)
Well, hopefully today will be better - for all of us!
This morning I have a little story for you all - based on ACTUAL events. I shall entitle the story "The Old Brown Bear".
It has pictures too!
ENJOY!!!!
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One bright and beautiful September afternoon; a big, brave, old, brown bear decided to take a stroll along old Donner Pass Highway. The bear had heard of the spectacular view of Donner Lake and Donner Pass he would gaze upon from Rainbow Bridge (Old Hwy 40 at Donner Summit, Truckee).
While walking across Rainbow Bridge, two cars also crossing the bridge scared
the bear into jumping over the edge of the bridge. Somehow the big, brave, old, brown bear caught the ledge and was able to pull itself to safety.
Old brown bear picture 1
Authorities decided that nothing could be done to help Saturday night so they returned Sunday morning to find the bear sound asleep on the ledge.
Old brown bear picture 2
After securing a net under the bridge
Old brown bear picture 3
the bear was tranquilized, fell into the net, lowered......
Old brown bear picture 4
Old brown bear picture 5
..... then woke up and walked out of the net.
Old brown bear picture 6
There is a moral to this story you know; this old bear made a wrong move and found he was hanging by his nails. Somehow he was able to pull himself up onto the ledge where he saw he was in a very bad, impossible situation and what did he do? Yep, he took a nap and sure enough the situation took care of itself while he was asleep.
*The moral is that when confronted with a bad situation sometimes the best solution is to take a nap…….
:D
Have a great day everyone!!!!
Hugs and Love to all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
All those feeling battle fatigue: come back after your nap!
;-)
Hello miranth and welcome! It's nice to see you as an OFFICIAL blogger!!!
GREAT chapter Elena! "The Direful Secret of Castle Mayo"
by
Elena and Toujours
is getting so exciting!!!
I can't wait to see what TJ comes up with for the next chapter :)
Okay, I am off to take that nap now.....
*pounce, tackle, hugs* for Kass, FASC, miranth and anyone lurking this a.m.
Hi FASC, 616, Miranth (I thought you were Amyranth for a second)!
You've confused me hugely now Wendy - SS tells us to keep kicking and jumping, now you're telling us to do nothing and grab some Zs. Curse this life advice and it's inability to cover all situations...
Nice bear BTW - did you hear about the first ever Grizzly/Polar Bear hybrid, that was only discovered after a hunter shot it? Bummer!
Kass xx
Anon who is sick of me,
Guess what? I'm going to write directly to you. What's the matter? Why are you so angry? Do you need a friend? You could find many here if you'd just look.
You speak a lot of truth, but you know that already. When I take pills and drink, it is stupid. I can behave recklessly. And you're also right about another thing, I sound like a broken record on here. I repeat and repeat and repeat myself. But my life is what it is, I am who I am. If you don't enjoy reading me, then don't. And that goes for anyone here including Mayo.
You're calling me an attention whore and a drama queen and you compare me to Kapunua.
Kapunua, I think I'm in pretty awesome company. I can't think of anyone else I would rather share this title with.
Anon, how about this? I did sleep last night. I finally slept and I dreamed. And I am not feeling so hopeless this morning.
Did I just help validate you?
Niiiiiiice.
Mayo could be a woman. What's your point?
Damn, see. You made me look at myself this morning and now I'm all sad and hopeless again. It was just a fleeting moment of hope.
I thought today would be different. Guess I was wrong.
Again.
hey mayo
It' s really late but I wanted to say goodnight
much love
EP xx
see everyone in 8 or so more hours
Mayo,
How are you? I hope you are well and happy. Me? I'm okay.
Yeah, how's that for pleasantries this morning?
Somehow I think you can smell the bullshit a mile away.
In keeping with our theme of gravity, I am going to leave you with a song this morning. Sums everything up everything that I am feeling.
Gravity
Caught in the shadows
My head is spinning
Everything's moving around and around
And the people were betting
And the loser that's winning
Is the one who has dibs on my face in the ground
And I know, "Hey, Suck it up girl"
And I know, "It's perspective you lack"
But my list is red starfish and blue lizards' tails
And I mark one thing off and five more come right back
Well I like the concept of tight vacuum packed
Let's shove fifty pounds of shit into a fifty pound bag
So that keeps me chasing my tail all around
And most of the time it's just me being wagged
And I know I'm at the brow of my being
And I know it's hard to look down
And I'm probably as free as I ever will be
Still I choose to live like I'm gagging and bound
Well I wonder what it's like to walk around weightless
To jump for your heart and never come down
To know the potential of true human will
Without all of this gravity just dragging us down
And I know, one day we will wake up
And I know, and start to live as ourselves
And not let the cowards of history claim us
And stop pointing our fingers at everyone else
Enjoy.
Mayo, may you feel weightless today.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. I'll be singing it all day long.
Mayo:
Sorry, dude, but suppression is not so great. Mostly it's funny to sit back and watch. And mostly it still doesn't make any sense. And mostly I don't care anymore.
I don't need to go on, but I felt like I did some good here. I did, maybe others didn't, but I guess in the end, that doesn't really matter. But, sometimes you can keep giving and giving and people don't see what you see.
Same way in real life.
I only do it because I care. Not for any other reason. It's who I am, and believe me, I would change it in a heartbeat because you won't get anywhere being genuine and soft-hearted.
You get stepped on, pushed around, used, and thrown away. And all because you're trying to be a good person. So what do you do? Do you continue to sacrifice your feelings for the feelings of others, knowing in the end it won't really matter anyway? Knowing that maybe it's overkill? But, you don't know what to do? Kind of a weird position to be in.
I'm not sure if this matters anymore.
SS:
Thanks for the three-day Beatles binge. I don't guess that's all bad. See you around, and keep safe.
Morning Mayo and friends
Here's to hoping today will be a good day for all of us.
Thanks Wendy and FASC for your comments on the story. FASC "ground out" is perfectly clean. You have a dirty mind girl.
Sorry again, Mayo. Last night things just caught up with me. I care so much for the people here that when they hurt it hurts me. And to be honest being angry feels good sometimes. I need to learn to let that anger out. I'll just try not to do it while talking with you. Take care.
Hey errbody.
I hope you all have a wonderful day. ^_^
Mayo,
Yeah, I still got nothing. Sorry. Told you I have ADD and I can't focus on something for very long and when you said read it and re-read it and read it again well, I got all @_@.
SS,
Man, we miss you so much. You know that. I just hope that wherever you are, you are happy, healthy and getting everything you deserve. What do you deserve? Just the best of everything. I know you are super duper crazy bizzy and you may not get a chance to come back anytime soon so in case I miss you when you do, just know that you are loved and missed every single day. Take care of yourself and don't get into any trouble! ^_~
Alright....
BACK TO EFFIN' WORK! >_<
See you guys later!
XOXO,
S&V20
Anon @ 12:33 is clearly someone who is ignored under their sign-in name, probably due to a lack of personality or because she is just plain dull.
Good morning Blogbelieve.
Elena, I'm totally excited! No worries - I know it is going to be a blast. And I'm thrilled to pieces to finally see them live.
Mayo, not much to say today, just hoping you have a good one. As I wish for all the lovelies here. [Including Bert - who is officially one of the lovelies ;)]
SS, I miss you man. Hoping the air is still sweet where you are...and hope you can swing by soon.
...
I have tons of work to do today, especially since I will be out on leave for a few days. Not exactly my choice of things to be doing today, but hey - gotta make a living. It's not so bad.
I hope to be by soon. Love you guys!
P.S. Anons who are mean, I just feel sorry for all of you. You must have a miserable existence. All that hate and yuckiness you display is disgusting.
PPU, I can't believe that Anon is a regular. Actually, I do not want to believe it. It would really break my heart.
Hi Anima & whoever else!
Just playing Devil's Advocate:
Anon @ 12.33pm was probably just frustrated and needed to vent - I have friends who constantly moan about their boyfriends and however sympathetic you are at the start, eventually your patience wears thin and you just want to slap 'em and say, "Either dump him or shut up about it; moaning at me ain't going to solve your relationship issues!". They could have tried to be a teensy bit less venomous in their attitude though.
Or they are, actually, just a bit nasty...
Kass xx
Hey Kass!
There is definitely a right and a wrong way to let someone know how you feel. Judging from how all of us help each other around here, I just can't imagine it is a regular - only because they would have had more compassion in their voice instead of being so, as you said, 'nasty.' That is no way to treat anyone. And it is all the anons like that, that just have no idea how much their words can hurt (or they do and they still proceed with their comments). They are not helping anyone with they way they approach this place and the people in it. It makes me really upset, especially since I feel like there is nothing I can do about it.
That's just it though, Kass. If it's your friend, then you feel like you have somewhat of a right to say shut the hell up. You know?
I don't know if we even know who this person is or if they have ever even commented before.
Honestly, it's just plain wrong to attack someone. Sdock, Kapunua, the OP's, BC, or anyone.
Just wrong. If you don't care about what someone has to say then skip over their comment entirely. It's not that hard to do.
Yes, what Princess Pookie Bear said.
hello!! anyone around??
mayo??
SS??
you lurking?
hi anima, kass, princess, PPU and anyone else!
just popping in.
I know there's been so much speculation these days. So much tension which has been terribly unnecessary and it breaks my heart to see those I love tear each other apart for no good reason.
I will put the anons and their speculation to rest. I hope they can now feel at ease with themselves, for I am Mayo.
I have posted a little explanation on my other blog for those who wish to read it.
If not, please remember that cruelty not only harms the victim, but hurts you as well.
Hi FASC, PPU & S&V20,
Well I'm glad you didn't take my comment as being bitchy about Sdock10 because no offense intended! I suppose I try and view every anon with more rose-tinted glasses, but actually going back and re-reading their comments (I'm normally more of a skimmer), they were deliberately pretty harsh so I shall step back and let the slagging off continue...
I hope I find you all well this Wednesday, if a little agitated.
Kass xx
Man, did someone seriously jus tgo after Sdock? Who had never been anything but helpful and nice to everyone here? WTF?
Sdock, I can't believe you'd let that anon get to you. Don't. It doesn't know what it's talking about.
Splash, your post almost reads like a "later, folks," and I seriously hope not.
Come on! Are we really going to let this kind of stuff get to us? Seriously!
Miranth / Confused anon, were you the one we've been talking to about telling your mystery person how you feel?
If there are any anons (or anyone else for that matter) who wishes to post, please do so at my other blog, not this one.
Have a joyful afternoon.
gv, you are a lying psycho fucking bitch
kaston, go check your email, lovely woman you.
But I'm soooo lazy....
*toddles off to wrangle with hotmail*
Kass xx
sorry was having a wander!
whats going on???
Hey FASC, Kapunua, Katherine, PPU, and Princess.
FASC, I have no idea. Except we finally know who Mayo is!!! This is exciting stuff.
Fuck, I really need to be working.
Sorry guys, I love you tons....I really gotta get some stuff done.
:(
hi/bye anima!
are you SS too, you fucking cunt
Anon @ 11:16, yet another bitter regular.
don't stir PPU.
fuck you ppu
I am just stating facts, FASC. These anons do not pop out of nowhere.
well they might do PPU?? we don't know who/what/why/if/but/whom any anon is?? and there lies the beauty of being anon. or ugliness as the case may be??
I'll believe this when it gets posted on Mayo's blog and not GVs. Until then she is just trying to get attention from everyone here including Mayo.
LOL You are all a bunch of sad fucking losers after all! 'Lovelies' right, LOL, not even CLOSE. just sad middle age nobodies who thought for a second that Gerard Way might like you. GV had you all from the beginning.
Get a goddamn sense of humor. Please.
^_^
Tell'em PPU.
anon @ 11.35 GV has said many times she isn't mayo. she is just mucking around or for all we know may be she isn't. thats the thing we don't know so there's no point worrying. but she does write very well.
i gotta go anyway!
bye for now.
Just heard through the grapevine. I'm a long time lurker who knows a few of what you all gall "regulars".
I agree that it is sad. And it was wrong of this person to string along a bunch of women who thought they were reaching some one they cared about. You were all lied to. I don't think you're stupid I think you were optimistic. What is sad is that some one had to trick you all to get attention.
You girls should be proud of yourself for your beautiful hearts and hope. Stand by what you believe. It might be "just a band" but they meant something to you. You don't have to be a teenager to feel like it means something.
I hope your message still gets through and I hope that this lying person hasn't ruined what you ladies all built together.
We really don't need this kind of wank here.
Anyway guys, check this out, Obama got Hawai'i! No huge surprise I guess, because he's from there, but still. Hootah!
I mean no matter who you really want to win, you have to agree that this is the most interesting election ever, right?
gv wont post if you try and egg her on anon. obviously. funny how pathetic she made everyone seem. not very nice. but your not bein nice either
This fucking sucks. I hate being lied to.
Anonymous said...
"LOL You are all a bunch of sad fucking losers after all! 'Lovelies' right, LOL, not even CLOSE. just sad middle age nobodies who thought for a second that Gerard Way might like you. GV had you all from the beginning."
I know, and it hurts; just not as much as the accusation of being "middle-aged". But I guess you're a "winner" so you wouldn't understand crippling emotional pain...
Toodles everybody!
Kass xx
I agree GV is trying to make you all look stupid. Don't let her succeed. She's playing a shitty game on you all wheather she is Mayo or not.
This is going t change 'BlogBelieve'. FOr the worse.
Kapunua:
Almost, but not quite. ;) Just fed up for the moment.
PPU:
Why, I've never! Hope you're doing okay, oh horned one.
Anima:
I need to be doing what you're doing right now.
FASC:
Hello! Hope you're doing well!
SMOOOOOOOOOOKE:
Hey!
Anons:
Suck it.
This Anon:
just sad middle age nobodies who thought for a second that Gerard Way might like you.
Uh, no.
MIB, the children like yourself I can understand thinking Mayo was GW. You have an excuse. But the older ones it just seems sad and makes them look that much more stupid.
You girls should be proud of yourself for your beautiful hearts and hope. Stand by what you believe. It might be "just a band" but they meant something to you. You don't have to be a teenager to feel like it means something.
Yeah, exactly. But, do realize that Mayo had nothing to do with this EXCEPT that he allowed us to stay here and bitch about events circling the band. And for him, I will be eternally grateful.
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We weren't led on. I still don't think we are. If anything, I think Mayo's screaming "I'm not Gerard Way!!!" about as loud as he can. But, it seems Anons can't be bothered with that, and will firmly remind us no less than one million times that we're in love with Mayo because we think he's Gerard Way.
Leave me out of that because I don't.
MUUUUUSSSSSSTTTAAARRRDDDD!!!!!
Hey. ^_^
Hey Kapunua, Anima, FASC, and GV!
Bye Kass!
I agree, being called 'middle-aged' just hit me where it hurts. O_o
Mustard,
I had the same reaction you did. Gerard? Ummmm, I think we could doodle together and that's about it. And by doodling, I really mean doodling. Like drawing and stuff.
Uhh, whatever.
If GV is Mayo she is a lying bitch who has been playing with your emotions all along. She knows how much this means to you all. If she is joking now she's still being a bitch because she knows the kind of drama she is going to cause. The real attention whore. Sad because no one cares? Well now you got what you wanted, you are the centre of attention now. But you're still playing a lying game.
Lying game or The Crying Game???? YOu decide!!!
OBSERVATION:
Seems to me that the anons, be they regulars or not, have the sole responsiblity of shit stirring. For the past 5 months.
I'm just sayin'.
This is a smokescreen. She's pretending to lie. You can tell by her deep feelings for Kapu and Sdock that coincide with Mayo's. She's fucked in the head and I think she really is Mayo.
No MIB. I'm a regular who is too scared to sign in and say how much this hurts me.
No MIB. I'm a regular who is too scared to sign in and say how much this hurts me.
Why are you scared to sign in?
Because I "DO" care who Mayo is and we're all supposed to pretend like we don't.
Then say it and say it proudly.
Nothing good can come from hiding what you really feel.
if nothing else maybe this will make mayo come out, tho i think it is gv.
I think its GV too and knowing that hope is lost fucking sucks.
Mayo's probably not going to do anything. He'll keep on truckin' just like he's been doing all along.
Mayo's Mayo.
Your wrong MIB.
So, you think your time here was wasted?
I'm just trying to make sense of this, and I'll stop if you want me to.
It would help if you'd elaborate on what I'm wrong about, or else I have no idea.
I mean wrong about not hiding what you feel. People get chewed up and spit out for saying what they feel on here.
Bitches got PLAYED!!! This should go in fandom wank. YES!!! Going to post this in fandom wank, this is awesome.
No one will chew you out Anon. And if you are a regular, email one of us if you are scared to post.
Mustard, I love you. Just thought you should know. :)
first of all, all the signed in regulars stop trying to act like you don't care. your full of shit. if gv is telling the truth, how can you not be pissed at her for pretending like she was part of the "family" and deceiving you at the same time.
I mean wrong about not hiding what you feel. People get chewed up and spit out for saying what they feel on here.
I don't deny this.
But, I mean it isn't good for you.
I hope that you find somewhere to display your feelings. I've been in that boat. Still am in it.
Don't harbor them, whatever they are.
I agree with the 12.08 anon. Now you're all going to act like it doens't bother you so that you can still look like you're cool and you never cared. Like you never cared if your thoughts got to GW or...... even if you didnt think it was him, it was some beautiful mystery man who cared about you. I think ya'll cared and ya'll still care, but you know you'll get shot down in flames if you say your angry or upset.
bet gv is too chickenshit to even post here anymore. have to wait and see when shell actualy post on her again.
I don't care. I love this place. I love Mayo. And no one got played. We all came here on our own. And Mayo has never claimed to be anyone...just good 'ole Mayo-naise.
Well, lemme just say this then I'm out of here until you all decide to play nice again.
1. I don't believe Mayo is Gerard Way, first and foremost.
2. I don't really happen to care who Mayo is.
3. Where the accusations are coming from against GV, I don't know.
4. So Anon, I s'pose that makes me full o' fucking shit :)
You guys have a good day. Do a good deed or something.
GV, post as Mayo. Then you will prove that you're not just doing this for attention. But you won't do that because then you can't still PRETEND that you're pretending and the game will be up.
I think you are sitting back, reading all of this and laughing at all these woman. Because if you are Mayo or not you are playing every one here.
Power trip much?
"never cared if your thoughts got to GW or...... even if you didnt think it was him"
Actually, I will never deny that I wanted to share my concern for GW and the band. Hoping that something would reach them. It's no mystery that a lot of us care very deeply about this band. I do believe that our words have gotten to GW regardless. So it's all good.
MIB if you took a second to fucking read, you would see that GV said she is Mayo in her post and tell everyone to go to her blog where she explaines her reasons for lying to everyone here.
mustard, go read gv blog and then you will see where the accusations are coming from.
Ditto to what Anima just said.
I hope to hell it got back to him, 'cause there's no way he'd listen to me if I met him face to face.
I'd try to make him, but it'd never happen.
[Kapunua, you can say "I told ya so!" ;)]
Yeah, I read all of that.
And I still don't see your point.
I think some of us assume too much. That I do see.
You guys have a good one!
mib, there is no nice way to say this but, are you retarded, how do you still not see our point.
Anons,
Whatever.
To everyone else,
Have a great afternoon.
XOXO,
S&V20
EITHER WAY gv is playing you. And yo uare all too fucking retarded to see it or you are all too scared to admit it. I see it but I am scared, I admit it!!!!
There is only one way that I will believe GV is mayo and that would if she changed mayo's profile right now, but I know that she won't do that. She won't because she can't because she is playing a silly game this morning.
She is playing a silly game, trying to get you to think she's not Mayo by saying that she is.
Evn with the drama I can still see the same bullshit fakers doing the same bullshit they always do. Kapu acting like she's smarter then everyone else by talking about politics like ANYONE CARES WHO SHE IS VOTING FOR!! GET THE FUCK OVER IT!! MIB pretending she is oh so nice and sweet. S&V20 pretending like she is SO above all of this. Sdock10 hiding away because she's soooo sensitive this could just hurt her poor little mind. OPS not even posting because Frank Iero's dick isn't lurking. BC not posting because she's sulking because we all know she's stupid and she's waiting for a bunch of morons to come and go to her "please come back, we miss you!!!"
shes not gonna chg anything, she luvs how much it annoys u. who do u think is meaner? u or her?
The Used Fans:
Go and get it if you haven't already!
Stop trying to change your usual writing with bad slepping.
Anon, when did you ever think this was NOT a game?
As I said in the beginning and I'll say it now, I don't give a shit who Mayo is. I've met some really great people here. I hope to keep in contact with them when this all ends.
Was I led astray? Forced to log in? No. I walked willingly down an unlit path. Willing to accept the outcome of it all.
In the end, game or no game, I'm still the winner because of what I've gained from being here.
I sign in under my own name because I have nothing to hide.
I meant spelling.
Hey Jen! Great to see you! :)
Hi Mustard. How are you?
Doing well, thank you.
How are you doing? Life treating you any better?
Say yes, say yes, say yes, say yes.
If nothing good comes of this, it still might be worth it for "bad slepping."
Anon who was talking about F_W: I'll ask you nicely, please don't. I've seen the kind of onslaught that happens to websites after they get posted there, and we really don't need that. You'd have to really hate us, like, hard, to post this there. And I don't think we've done anything exactly wrong, you know?
Also you bitches need to quit talking down to Splash. No, I can't make you, but goddamn does that make you look crappy.
Water the houseplants, put on some musika, sweep the floor.
Yes, life adjusting things. Changing schedules. Giving and taking, you know. Blah, blah, blah.
I'll post something at your place later tonight after I get home. You say you speak in metaphores and live within your head? You and I are very similar I think. I want to show you what has kept me away so much. I think you'll understand.
Hey Kapunua!
I need some plants. They're good for you because of the oxygen and whatnot.
But, I can't keep them alive. I killed a cactus once, and I'd like for someone to tell me just how the hell that happens.
Jen:
You know how awesome it feels to have someone else out there that's like you?
I'll be awaiting the arrival.
Well, work expects me to actually work today. So, later gators!
Jennicula, it does me a world of good to see your words 'round these parts. Was glad to talk in chat with you the other night, too.
Splash, houseplants are the greatest. Cacti aren't as easy to grow as some people think, they need lots of sun and just the right amount of water. You can overwater them and rot the roots, or you could under-water them as well.
I highly recommend houseplants. They make the air feel calm.
Mayo, do you have houseplants? I'd love to give you an orange tree.
I'm going to go count my houseplants. That's how exciting my life is today.
(whispers)
Before I get busted not working, I'll try to AIM tonight.
See you later, Jen. Have a good day!
Kapunua:
So I could have killed the thing by watering it too much.
And not only do they make the air feel calm, cool, and collected, they provide great color.
So, that settles it. Houseplants will be in here next week. And that record will be on my computer within the next 2 days.
Okee doke. Man, take a nap and the world blows up. I never thought the blog was Mr. Way, but that is why I started reading it. I was the anon the other night that pretty much accused GV of being Mayo, but I thought I was maybe semi-polite about it. (The reg. AIMers know that) I didn't mean to start such a shit storm. Still, frankly, can't figure out if GV is telling the truth or not, either way. She is a clever minx like that. If she is? Well, yeah, I'm impressed. And if she's not? Well, yeah, I'm impressed. She can write her ass off. As in, she's way literate and shit. Um, where the hell am I going with this, for I am not literate? I feel bad if people really invested in the idea that they were talking to Gerard, but I honestly don't think that is the case for most here. This place just turned into a gathering of kindred spirits who happen to get a lot of things here that maybe they don't get so much of in real life, and I don't see why that has to be so strange and made fun of. Yeah, ok, in conclusion, I like geese, and frogs, and all of you.
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