I am expended. I have given my soul to you and, without question, you deserve it. I am rewarded by my investment and I know I get more out of it than you. Regardless, at the end of the day, I know its worth.
I am reminded that not so long ago I was so afraid of death that I taunted it, begged it to take me on. For a little while, I allowed its insidious grip to hold my soul. I was seduced by chance and by choice.
Temptation will always tug at my better judgment. I have been successful at averting my attention from ruinous behaviors toward the seemingly benign. Still, I question whether I have just shifted gears rather than changed lanes.
Perhaps I will again fall prey to deaths seductive whisper and allow myself to be captured by the romance of self destruction. It is wise to consider that I tempt fate. The alternative is blind supposition.
For now I am anchored to the rocky bottom. I will drift, but I will not be carried out to sea.
p.s. it takes hours to come down and the fall may lead to my imperfection.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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How are we all on this wondrous Wednesday? Wonderful (and well), I hope!
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Possum said......
Scratches head at how this apparently significant gene escaped the PP pool*
*eww! sounds like chlorine is needed*
+++++++++++++
Kassonova said......
Them Herpes viruses don't stand on no ceremony, even for the latex prophylactic!
Ewww!!
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LOL!!!! I have started my day off with Herpes in the PP pool!
I never thought I would say those words with such glee!!
Thanks for a.m. laughs ladies....ewwws and all ;-)
Remember Kiddies, the BEST argument in the WORLD (besides the LITTLE things called LOVE & LOYALTY) for a mutualy monogamous relationship ---- HERPES!
*now thirds the ewwws*
OP J (and L): I'm fine, me loves! The song "Permission" always gets me a little misty eyed and that video was just so, so sad. It made me a bit heartsick......that's all.
*love,hugs and kisses to you too*
TJ and Elena: the recent chapters of "The Direful Secret of Castle Mayo" are great. YEP, still lovin' it!
*is determined to find a human sized jar of Mayonnaise on Tuesday (Mardi Gras day) to act out her scene*
PH: GOOD LUCK on the exam!
Elena: I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter's friend. It's so tragic to loose one so young and so unexpectedly - WHY???
*sending a big hug to your daughter*
I'm sure I'm forgetting to address something and someone here, but I have taken up enough space at Casa De Mayo this a.m.
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To ponder today:
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
Mother Teresa
Catholic Nun, Missionary
Nobel Peace Prize Recipient
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Fight the good fight today everyone. I shall be cheering us all on!
Love and Hugs to all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Because I like them and they're PRETTY (hint to shallow Kass to check them out *big wink*):
Malice In Wonderland - Lucifer's Town Video
I wish one of you could remember who made that astrological observation regarding Gerard Way and his sign.
I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
And the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart,
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart?
To my heart.
If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the colors of my heart;
Blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart,
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart?
To my heart.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke this heart,
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart?
To my heart.
My heart.
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Good Morning, Family. Just a quick word to tell you hello and that I will be out for most of the day, since I can now drive, I have several errands to run. I hope you all have a wonderful day, and hopefully I will catch you later on tonight.
SS, Hope you are doing well, and have a great day. Take care of yourself.
Mayo, Have a good day. I am glad to see you are doing better.
Love,
L.
Hi kat how are you? What exactly are you going to reveal?
ahahahah kass i find that hilarious you arent going for the music!!! I should have your ticket haha *wrestles for ticket*
Whilst i couldnt sleep[ last night i got to thinking i might go to the gig tonight in Leeds after some sleep ive realised its not a good idea and its too late now too :/ oh well
I believe it was in late 2005, maybe early 2006, that on the official MCR myspace site, Mikey Way posted a blog announcing he would have a personal myspace to communicate with fans. It's been erased now and I am almost certain Mikey has erased his myspace because of how huge they've become.
In August of 2006, I became a fan and found this on their Myspace. I thought it would be funny to start writing them letters that had nothing at all to do with their celebrity. I wanted to give them something light and silly. I assumed they didn't even get them, that a publicist was handling Mikey's page. To be honest, it amused me even more to think a poor publicist was reading through these letters of insanity.
Then, in October of 2006, all of that changed with a single word in an inane interview.
"Bengay."
Two days prior to that, I had made a silly comment in one of my letters referring to rubbing bengay into open wounds. Coincidence! I screamed in my head.
I wrote them how Heaven Help Us is my favorite song of all time. They immediately put it on their playlist.
On my Myspace profile, I had a blog with a joke about Finland. He makes a joke about Finland in The Umbrella Academy.
I blogged about this song called "Stay" by Shakespears Sister. A couple weeks later, he has a song where he sings Stay over and over. By then, I had erased my Myspace for various reasons.
Despite the sheer number of these, it could still be coincidence.
But. If this was Gerard Way, I guess I'm somewhat surprised... It's also so very possible I am severely delusional and those things were pure chance.
I only started coming because of freaky coincidences with the first few blogs of Mayo's. I'm losing my hearing and wrote about how I want to hear HHU live one last time in case it goes completely. I complained about how Gerard Way doesn't have a backstage pass to my life and needs to tell the universe to stop. I wrote a story of being connected to Heaven by strings like a puppet. But I am now certain that this was sheer coincidence and has actually given me comfort that the rest is probably nothing, also.
I know the bashing and arguing that may be coming my way. Trust me, I understand completely.
Sorry, Mayo. The jig is up.
Boom.
i gotta go for a bit. GV i wanna talk to you if you are around later. Hope your ok hun :)
Hi Anonymous,
I was the one that gave an overly long and detailed description of Gerard Way and his sign. Why do you ask?
Gv i wont let anyone bash you. What you did was brave i dont think i could have done it. If anyone gives you crap they will have me to deal with ok? Hope to chat with you soon, i miss you
Hi, Shame in Me,
I miss you too. I hope you have a great day. Sleep? Don't know what time it is in England....
Thank you for the support. It means so much to me right now.
Is everything ok? And where have you been for the past few week?
Il support you chick dont you worry.
Its 3.30pm here in the UK i have been sleeping cause i have been ill but i gotta go now. Gotta go bank and check ive been payed. Hope when i come back Mayos hasnt exploxeded
I hope you feel better soon. Go get your check!
GV,
I'm sorry, I haven't had enough coffee apparently, but I don't understand your comment. It sounds more like an argument FOR it being GW than against.
But you are right that it doesn't really matter anymore who it is. People here come to talk to each other, SS and Mayo because they want to and enjoy it.
L.
Hi Original Punks,
I guess I wasn't clear enough because I was trying not to sound like a total freak.
But hell! I just revealed how much of a freak I am!
I have assumed it was not Gerard Way because if it was, the insane, self-obsessed part of me believes that "he" would have shown me some sort of recognition. There. I've said it people, I am certifiably nuts!
Please laugh at me and shake your head in pity. It will actually make me feel better.
Well, EXCUSE ME, SIM; but I must give Gentle Vengeance some crap.
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Gentle Vengeance said...
On my Myspace profile, I had a blog with a joke about Finland. He makes a joke about Finland in The Umbrella Academy.
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How dare you GV (and apparently GW) make a joke about the most beautiful (albeit wintry)country in the entire world, which also happens to be the home of some of the most incredible, beautiful, genuinely decent and amazingly talented people in the world????
grrrrrr......
I'm going to sic Pixie on you two!
;-)
Ooops, I forgot my manners for a few seconds there.
Hello OP L, SIM, GV, Anonymous...
and goodbye (for now too)
Love and Hugs (again)
6/Wendy
GV, I thought it might have been you, but I did not want to come off as an idiot, if it was not you. Thanks for clarifying.
Why are you losing your hearing at 24?
Thank you, GV. And no, I would not laugh at you. It's actually very brave to let us know how you feel, and I applaud that.
I actually like NOT knowing who it is we are talking to, that it could be anyone. I have been calling him Harold Beansnapper from Iowa lately.
I wonder if there really IS a Harold Beansnapper in Iowa...
I'm leaving to run errands, but I hope you have a good day. No worries, mate.
L.
Hi GV, 616 & SIM,
I thought you we're about to say - "This is not Gerard, for I am Kat, of the roses and rice grains and the invisibility cloak".
Way to rack up the tension between posts, though; Brava!!
And just because I love Indiana Jones:
"GET BACK! You can't save [Mayo] now. The healing power of the Grail is the only thing that can save him. It's time to ask yourself what you believe..."
Kass xx
Hello again Most Curious Anonymous,
I am not sure yet why I have lost such an enormous amount of my hearing in the past couple years.
This month I have health insurance for the first time in several years and after I go to the NY comicon this April I will be making an appointment to see what is causing it.
Bye, Wendy! Hope to talk to you later tonight. Do you know if and when you might be on?
Love,
L.
dxf i just wanted to checkup on you...you havnt said anything in a while...why
are you O.K.????
Have I told you I love you lately, Kassanova?
Because it's a very bright and swishy kind of love.
Thank you, OP. I am so embarrassed right now. I love that name! Harold Beansnapper. I was calling him Oscar Templeton for a bit but I loved the name too much and use it as my latest pen name.
You are an utterly enthralling human being, GV.
Yeah, Oscar the grocery bagger, right? And I thought you were totally gonna say you were Kat. :) Just poking my head in to say hi before I head off to do my chores for the day. It's an exciting life, but somebody's gotta live it.
*runs back in to answer OP L*
I shall try to be on at a decent hour tonight L - I'm shooting for around 9 p.m :)
*smooches*
*also wanted to toss some anti virals to Kass -- to pass along*
;-)
Good morning BlogBelieve! How's it going with everyone? It's nice and rainy here. ^_^
Thank you, Anonymous.
It's funny. You are anonymous, but you remind of an anonymous that spoke to me very briefly months ago. I can't explain it.
I have just revealed my real name and the fact I suffer from celebrity worship syndrome in the worst of ways. Don't you think it's a little unfair of you to remain anonymous, Anonymous?
Hi, Carrie! Bye, Carrie!
Wow, I haven't talked to any of you in so long.
Well, my lovely Anonymous (I'm pretending you are similar to the one I loved a few months ago), our chance at blogging communion is lost for I must leave. I may actually allow myself to come back later this afternoon. We shall see.
The rest of you, farewell and love to all.
I'm feeling the squishy GV, but maybe that's the cafetiere talking! Just for the record, the reason I don't think G-Way is Mayo is this:
“Married life is fuckin’ amazing. Especially being in a relationship that I only thought could be a fictional thing.
“It’s like knowing that there’s always somebody out there, and that’s something I’ve never known.”
Mayo is someone's comeback for the Loveman blog. Loveman had been posting for a full month by the 3rd of September. Why, having achieved the very zenith of emotional fulfilment (for him anyway) that very day would the real Gerard Way suddenly decide he gives a sh*t?
I love Mayo. I love that he's so good at playing the game. But I'd bet my car, if not my grandmother, that he's never wanked a microphone in front of 10,000 people...
Kass xx
Some people are not as comfortable with themselves or with revealing who they are, as you are, GV.
I admire you for that.
I go by pretty purple unicorn on here though.
You haven't heard from me for awhile...
The drawer has been sealed.
But now I'm famous in a story that has been revealed...
Intentions seem to be skewed, as no harm to "the sisters" was meant.
The drawer must now ask for forgiveness and do a dance of repent.
Changing out the contents, to keep the secret fresh.
It has nothing to do with mags, lotion or even Shelby's flesh.
Just to keep you guessing, I'll offer you a clue...
Seio.
Bye GV & Hi PPU,
In the spirit of solidarity, and because most of us know each other's real names anyway I give you this gem from back in 1993.
No, it's not "Shaggy" before you ask!
Love,
Kass xx
Elena: That's so awful, and I've very sorry for your daughters and for you. The durnk driver never gets hurt, right? Seems like that's the way of things.
My friend came in to where I work yesterday, on her way to a wake. Her cousin's 18 year old son got up in the middle of the night last week to get a glass of water. He fell down the stairs. This is the kind of random thing no one expects, right? I guess the best thing you can take away from it is to make the most of everything. For me, though? All it does is make me paranoid that it can happen to anyone at anytime and then I'm miserable for weeks, fixating on disasters that might happen.
Isn't that stupid?
TJ And Elena, thank you for the story. Thank you for including me. ^_^
Hi Lewis! I'm so glad you liked the story too, and your role in it. And POOKY LEE JONES. That's the coolest name. ^_^
bikey--lazy as hell said...
Jules, I honestly wish I could believe it like I did when I was young. I'm so glad you still do.
I think I always will? I don't know. Time will tell. ^_^
I certainly wouldn't expect you to kiss anyone's ass. Can we at least agree that we both once saw a good man? I may be somewhat jaded, but even I don't think that can change practically overnight. I'm sure it's just a temporary thing.
I did used to see a good man. I expect I wouldn't feel so hurt now if I hadn't. I really hope you're right about it being temporary. But I really just wonder sometimes. I guess that in my experience, people who change so drastically for the worse never change back. I saw it happen with my cousin, who I loved like a twin sister. I still see her every so often and we're as polite and friendly as family ties dictate, but who she was and what we had is never going to return.
Maybe I am jaded, in that way. But as far as the world goes and fighting for it--for human rights, for feminism, for equality across the board--that's where I'll probably never quit.
Re: Jared: Man, I don't care who ha bangs. (Aside from the "OMG EWW!" factor.) He's not banging me, therefore whoever else is in line, well, meh. But 30 is an awesome band and what makes them all so appealing to me is that they are so filled with conviction and promise. They know they're making a difference. And even if they weren't, I suspect they would still try.
I find activism hot, did I ever mention? ^_^
GV: Man, I've been in your situation. It can drive you batty. Here's the thing: just go with it, huh? I think the best thing you can do is just go with the flow. It's not hurting anyone and as long as it's not hurting you or holding you back, then just be like, "Yeah, okay." ^_^
Regarding your hearing, GV. Okay, this is crazy and a long shot and you'll probably think I'm one of these holistic nuts. Well, I am one of these holistic nuts. Anyway, would you mind emailing me one of these days? Kapunua at yahoo dot com. It's a long shot, but I want to tell it to you anyway.
Oh, and I also agree that Mayo is not Gerard. In my mind, there's no effing way the two could be the same.
Hi, drawer. Thank you for clearing that up. yeah, I got a little defensive over the use of Sdock's name. I get a little defensive over Sdock in general. I figured you were having a go at her in an off color way.
I can change the story if you want?
Not necessary, but thank you for offering.
Not a problem. THank you for looking at my story, too. ^_^
Elena, I am so sorry to hear about your daughter's friend. I am sure this is going to be a difficult time for her, but she is so lucky to have a mother like you to be by her side.
TJ and Elena, I'm loving the stories. I need to go back and catch up on all of the chapters. I am really behind!
GV, thank you for sharing your story and for being so open with all of us. And it's nice to see you around. I hope you can visit us more often.
PP and Kass, every morning I come here, I just crack up over your comments. Thank you for bringing a smile to my face everyday!
Kapunua, I apologize again for the AIM issues last night. I'm dying to hang out with you guys. I'm going to try again tomorrow (tonight I won't be around). I think I need to release some of the protection settings.
And thank you again to everyone here for the birthday wishes. I feel so lucky, you have no idea. HUGS and LOVE to all of you!
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Mayo, I miss you!
SS, I miss you!
MissT, I miss you!
You know how when you're, like, four and you ask your mom or dad where babies come from and they look at you all O_O?
And then, in a split second, they rummage through all that crap in their brain trying to figure out a way to say it without confusing the child or giving away too much information?
And then the child just looks at you with glassy eyes, gives you an affirmative nod, then just walks away like any other child would do?
And then you're standing there laughing over what you just said to a four year old, inquisitive, little bundle of terror?
I SO feel like that kid.
I have no idea what's going on, but GV, it's great to see you again!
Hello everyone, Mayo, SS!
Hey Errbody!!!!
Mr. Top Drawer.....
Wassup?
PPU,
Solly left you a message over at DM, did you see it?
SPLASH AND ANIMA! Hootah. ^_^ Hey guys.
That's cool about AIM, I probably won't be on tonight because I am going to TRAIN MY FACE OFF. ^____^
Right now I'm listening to the wind screaming through the trees outside, and my crow hitting on a plastic bag that has gotten stuck in a tree outside of his window. It's kind of hilarious.
Right, well if anyone's around, I've got One Of My Questions that I'd like to throw to the general populace.
This question is for everyone who wants to answer and expound: What is beautiful to you? This is not to ask how you define beauty; I'm not interested in definitions. Not "what is beauty" but rather, what do you, specifically, find beautiful in other people? I'm not talking about roaring fires or the beach at night or a fine summer day. Just in people. you can answer this in terms of physical attraction or in terms of true beauty, the things that really get you hooked. Either way is fine. Or both.
I think that for me, what is really beautiful in other people is sincerity. It took me a long time to narrow that down. I used to think it was conviction, honest conviction in one's beliefs. GW Bush made me realize that hardcore conviction can be ruinous.
So for me it's sincerty. It's people who walk the walk. And I guess my biggest turn off is people who talk the talk but then don't walk the walk.
That's what it is. A sincere smile, a sincere comment, sincere words. That's so, so freaking rare. Man, I'm not even just talking about honesty: any schmuck can say what's on their mind, even if polite society dictates that you really shouldn't tell that person that their momma is ugly or that you hte their dress or whatever. (See: House. ;D ) Not honesty, but sincerity. You don't say everything you mean, but you mean everything you say.
That, and a sharp mind. Sorry, but sincere people can be dull and witless, too.
That's what I find beautiful in other people: A mix of activism, compassion, brains and sincerity.
And, so how about the rest of you? That's the question on the table: What do you find beautiful on other people?
Maybe more of you will answer this one than did the "what are your worst flaws" one. In which maybe three of us answered and I ended up feeling a little exposed. ;D
Bambinos!
Just wanted to drop in and say hello and goodbye to everyone!
It's 3:30am here, and my what a day it has been.
I hope you're all doing well, I'd just like to give a special shout out to elena and toujours, You touched my heart guys.
Brought tears of happiness to my eyes! (yes I'm a big sap!)
Thank you so much. Great story :)
I love you guys very much! and as soon as life gets less ridiculous and this computer gets less broken, I'll be back on here, annoying the crap out of you all, left and right, I promise.
xoxo cupcake (is very sleepy for once!)
Okay, well this must be one of those times where I am completely invisible so......
K, I'll get to that question later on today. ^_^
Toodles.
XOXO,
S&V20
what i find beautiful is a sense of humour. i love laughter and smiles. i wish i saw it more. i also like kindness, and thoughtfulness. Thats me though.
hello bloggies, how are you. me, well i am babysitting again when i should be studying. i will be keeping the phone by the side of me all day today, do not want a repeat of monday thank you very much.
A wide smile with a short upper lip. A twisted sense of humour. Girls hands. A boner like a prize marrow.
Sorry t'other K, I'm not very good at this!
Kass xx
What is beauty to Mustard?
Honesty: Why? Well, why not?
A pure soul. An old soul,: Because that's the way I feel. I feel like an old lady stuck in a twenty-something year old body. I can remember back a long time ago, my family and I were pretty good friends with this older gentleman. To make a long story short, the man was crippled and was having trouble getting himself seated with his plate of food. I sat at the table watching this, too young to really help the way I wanted to. And I watched as his plate of food fell from his hands and onto the floor, and the look on his face has stuck with me forever. It was a look of shame and of helplessness. The only thing I could do was pick the man's spoiled food up and throw it away. So, to see that same thing in someone else, it's beautiful.
Passion and drive: Being a bum is not beautiful. Being someone who just doesn't care about anything, at all, nothing. They lack a certain spark. They lack conviction. But, someone who has it, they will fight you and fight with you to get themself there, and to get you there. That's beautiful.
Intelligence: It's beautiful when you can meet another person, a friend or mate, and they are "on the same page." I don't want to feel like I'm having to be prepared to meet you, like, read all the magazines and news articles because I'm about to get tested, but just knowing things about everything is so cool.
Interests: Music. You guys know me, and you all know that I'd give life and limb for something I love. To find another human being that would do that, too, especially in a field that I love, that's beautiful.
Hands: NO RAY TORO JOKES ALLOWED! Seriously. You hear about all these ladies men who are "ass" types, and "boob" types, and fifteen million different other types, but Mustard ;) Ah, yes Mustard is a hand-gal. And I think it's more to do with the psychology behind the human hand. It's not like they're attractive or anything. It's a freakin' hand. But, paired with the brain? Yes.
I think that's all I can think of right now :)
Hi Cupcake, Fimble, Kass!
Kass, seriously. You crack me up.
hey guys how are you all
Cupcake good to see you.
I have to try to say all I can because it was a miracle I pulled up this page.
Cupcake I tried to e-mail you but it came back!!!
GV - thank you for sharing your story. Stick with us here. We all have different stories and different beliefs. That is what makes us so unique.
Kapunua thanks for the story comment. TJ and I are having such fun. When will your next chapter be done?
S&V I always see you.
Crap there is so much more I want to say but I just know Blogger is gonna kick my ass out of the castle.
Mayo hello -
SS hello -
*hopes you can see little Elena waving*
Fim, yeah, that too. I agree and I'm compelled to add that to my list. A person can be sincere, passionate, and compassionate, and as dull as a stick. Without humor, it's nothing.
Princess, whaddup? Are you ghosty today? Looking forward to your reply. :)
Kass: you crack my crap up, have to tell you. ^_^
Splash: That story you told about that old guy made me want to cry. There's something about people dropping their food that upsets me. Like, across the board, doesn't matter who it is or why. Random story: A few years ago in a catalog they had a statue of a rat who had dropped his scoops of ice cream on the ground and was crying. Even as an adult I couldn't look at that page in the catalog and still just thinking about it upsets me. WTF? Your story made me really sad. I like your list, though. ^_^
bye
Hi Princess, Mustard, Cupcake, K, and FS!
Mustard, I find hands very beautiful too. I was just admiring the hubby's the other day. If he did not have beautiful (sexy is more like it) hands, I would not have married him. Just 'saying. ;)
Hey guys, Edwards is quitting the race. That kinda bums me out even though I knew he didn't stand a chance. My heart is still with Obama but I did like Edwards, too.
I wonder who his votes will go to, Clinton or Obama? Guess we'll have to wait and see. O_O *bites nails*
I missed Elena....*waves*
Hi Cuppy, Fimble & Mustard!
*Kass must not be permitted to answer serious questions*
Although it's good to know I'm not alone in my hand-fetish, M.
And now I'm off, so "Arrivederci"!
Kass xx
Fim, where ya headed?
Elena, thank you! i want to do some more this weekend when I'll hve more time. This afternoon I'm going to my cousin's, and to see Boychild, then later I have Kung Fu then tomorrow is a long work day. This weekend I have aaaallll to myself. ^_^
Oh man another comment box. It's a sign! Okay not really. I'm just shocked I'm only hooked up at 26.4
Anyway...
Mustard said...
Hands: NO RAY TORO JOKES ALLOWED!
Who would joke about that Mustard?
Me! totally me but I won't.
Beauty to me comes from the heart and soul. It shows through actions. Simple, unimportant acts that make someone else feel good. Oh course if they make someone else happy then they aren't unimportant anymore. They become beautiful acts.
RE: Hands
They are the first things I look at on a person, mainly dudes, but people in general. Maybe it's an inherent maternal instinct sorta thing, or maybe it's because you can sense lots of things with your hands. I don't really know what it is.
But, Anima! So good to know you married because of good hands! ;)
RE: Food
What do you think that is, Kapunua? I thought it was just me. I guess maybe it's a lifeline, the food I mean. Then someone drops it and it isn't there anymore. Or maybe the work that went into making it, and when it got dropped, the work suddenly vanished? It's really weird. I'm sorry it made you sad, though! I didn't mean for it to.
Elena:
Exactly. An act is just an act until it means something to someone. That's so true.
Bye Kass! Fimble, I left you something at DM!
I hope you're all doing well!
Hi Anima, Kass and Mustard.
Kapunua give Boychild a hug for me.
Bye Fimble
A sense of humor is one of the most beautiful attributes anyone can possess.
True, if you can't make someone laugh or if you can't laugh at yourself, this world is hard.
See you around, guys!
PH: I hope your exam went well!
Jade: Thinking about you today. I hope everything's going well.
popped back in, changed her nappy. thats where is went to jules. did you want to change her nappy. it wasnt very nice and it smelt ewwww.
now i have to wait for the lecky guy to go and i am going to take her to starbucks. she already loves it there with her juice and cake.
splash i saw it and i am fine cheers hun.
anon a sense of homour is one of the most beautiful and something that is far more amazing is if you find that someone who shares the same homour. whether it is someone you love or a friend there will never be a dull moment. just my thoughts.
have a nice day everyone, fimble is going to get a latte.
bye
xx
Agreed, anon. If people don't make me laugh, or if I can't get them to laugh, there usually isn't much interest.
and of course
homour = humour.
silly fimble, she will be running from the cheese again for that blunder
I totally agree Anon - A sense of humor is one of the most beautiful attributes a person can have.
It makes life so much easier when you can laugh instead of crying.
Nah, I'm just about to go visit Boychild, Fim. That's plenty of baby for me. :D But, you have fun with that! ^_^
You're too right about having the same sense of humor. When you and another person have the same humor and it gets rolling, it's, well, a never-ending LOLlercoaster. ^_^
Okay, here goes. I can't get into too much detail because I'm at work and well, I'm gonna get my ass fired. Mayo, I'm still counting on you to support me should that happen. ^_^
Beauty –
My son
His innocence. His knack for saying the funniest thing just for no reason. His passion for things like animals. He will be ready to fight you to the death if he thinks you are mistreating an animal. The boy wanted to be an Animal Cop like on Animal Planet when he was in Pre-K. That’s how serious it is to him. The way he handles things that he has no way of even comprehending. Like death and addiction. Sometimes, I think he handles it better than I do.
Okay to be honest, he simply amazes me.
Laughter –
To hear someone laugh is just the best thing, isn’t it? Even if you don’t know what’s funny.
Passion –
I totally agree with this. To watch someone who truly loves what they do is just unbelievable.
Okay, and you guys know just how vain I am so yeah I had to go there –
Hair and eyes.
Hair -
I love pretty hair. Boy or girl, it doesn’t matter. I admire pretty hair. Just one of my things. You’d have thought that I’d have grown up to be a hair stylist but I think it was the fear of yucky hair that kept me away from it. O_o
Eyes -
Eyes tell everything. Lies, sincerity, anger, sadness. I love to look in someone’s eyes and know exactly what they’re thinking.
Sexist.Frank.Pic.Ever, Yoda says.
yoda how the hell are you ? I missed you i did :)
Good afternoon/evening/morning everyone
Missed you too SIM McGee, I did. :)
I love Mayo. I love that he's so good at playing the game. But I'd bet my car, if not my grandmother, that he's never wanked a microphone in front of 10,000 people...
kass you make me laugh so much!!
hello everyone!
mayo my kids are still in the bath just hang on a bit ok!!
sorry only joking you are your own man and can do whatever you please of course!!
Hello Faraway! How are you?
What is beautiful to me
By Shame In me
Compassion, Empathy, and an awareness of humanity
I find nothing more beautiful than someone that can feel the world around them, that can emotionally identify with many different faces, gender, races, species.
And one that sees that no matter what differences we all bear, we all have a soul and a heart and that should be nurtured and cared for.
I find beautiful the people who are against any type of crime against human nature because it just seems unnatural to them, alien to them, not within their nature to inflict pain onto others knowingly.
People that have deep seated morals regarding human nature and nurture.
People who carry the weight of injustice on their own shoulders when crimes against human nature occur.
These types of people are rare nowadays which is why they are all the more beautiful too me.
Passion and Conviction
I find anyone whose heart burns and nearly explodes at the inability to comprehend not sharing their message beautiful.
I admire conviction, the inability to give up what they started, to stand by what is in their heart and make it heard to others.
To truly believe in themselves as a messenger of their message.
To give every fibre of their entity to what they believe in, that is true passion and conviction too me.
And it is out of this world beautiful.
Soul
Someone that can lay bare all that they are, all that they see in and around their lives, study it and think deeply about it on many different levels.
Someone that can express the bad and the terminally ugly aspects of the world in a heart breaking beautiful way.
Eyes that tell a thousand stories
Eyes that can say everything without a single word passing the lips.
Eyes that show true happiness, joy, excitement, wonder, amazement, despair, compassion, hurt etc.
Eyes that are so intense that the whole world dissapears on looking into them.
Eyes like these really are windows to the soul.
A voice filled with passion
I find incredibly beautiful a voice, whether it be singing or speaking, that is filled with emotion, with passion.
A voice that comes from the heart. A voice that pierces through your inner core.
A voice that makes you take notice.
A voice that makes you cry.
A voice that makes you spin round inside your head haha.
Music and Art
Music and Art are beautiful.
Any deep expression that doesnt involve speaking is truly amazing. To move someone through random notes or lines put together is truly wonderous.
When a picture or a piece of music say what words could never say that is a truly beautiful gift.
God i love this world at times. Its astoundingly amazing.
Thankyou Kapunua for bringing this up it made me feel happy speaking of such beauty :)
And if anyone knows of a man or woman with the qualities above hehe tell them im already organising our wedding hehe ♥
yay makes me happy that does yoda :) you should have your own blog Yoda :)
hi BC!
that was lovely SIM! oh and glad the gig was brilliant!! sorry bit late on that one!!
i don't know if i have the energy to use my brain at the moment!! i just came back from entertaining 6 kids at a fun fort then food and all that!! i'm knackered!
P.s.
I need to add that a certain man in a suit, wearing eyeliner and screaming passion is beautiful to me too hehe :)
Hey shame in me
Thanks Fasc :) and the gig was amazing!!!!! I need to stop gushing about it haha my friends are already telling me to shut up hahaha.
how are you dear?
Hey there beautiful BC :) how are you today? im delirious today :)
Faraway, you have my sympathies, you poor thing lol. I slept crooked so I have some pain in the left side of my neck. It sucks, but I'll deal. Right now I'm deleting some friends from my myspace. Muhaha
fun fort? that sounds like a place i need to visit :) they should have adult versions of them, like big adult jungle jims, that would be a faboulous excursion for everyone at Mayos. One day i hope we all do that :)
Helloo shame in me! You feeling quite delirious you say? How come? I'm okay, just have some pain in my neck, but otherwise I'm okay. I sent you an email earlier today. I hope you got it :)
emailed back my lovely :)
toujours said...
good morning, blogsibs!
it seems like my new limit is 1800 comments, because i couldn't haul open mayo's front door this morning, and i really wanted to answer kapunua's question. :/
would someone take my note over to mayo's if i pin it up here?
kapunua, i really had to think about your question, and that surprised me a little. i would have thought that the answer to what i find beautiful in someone else would be more obvious, but nooooo. a real subject to ponder.
you didn't specify whether it was beauty in general, or beauty that causes us to fall in love. there's lots of things i find beautiful about people in general, and i could wax poetic for...well...forever, because i'm long-winded like that. :)
but it was the second idea that caused me to really think, probably because i've only been in love a few times, and am still learning what it is that attracts me (beyond the physical).
this is what i figured out:
the first thing that grabs me about a person, and draws me in has always been individuality.
it's when a person knows something about themselves and aren't afraid to allow that knowledge to shine through in their actions and speech and style, even though it sets them apart from the crowd -- that attracts me immediately, like to like. kindred. even if their style isn't the same as mine, i recognize the basic similarity in attitude, and that makes them irresistably shiny to me.
i also love the sense of humor. i think i fell in love with my ex because of this really out-of-nowhere bizarre joke he made one day. i won't even repeat it here because it won't mean anything, but it surprised me and made me burst out laughing, and i think that's the moment he won my heart. so that's definitely necessary.
and intelligence is important, too. i don't mean so much that the person is mensa material, but smart so that conversation with them makes my mind feel fizzy and alive, and makes me want the conversation to never end, even while it makes time seem to disappear. that kind of smart.
as for the physical attributes -- i could make a whole list of favorites, but in thinking about this question i realized that once i'm hooked on a person through those first three qualities, i usually end up finding everything else about them beautiful, too. once they're shiny to me because of their personality, physical beauty just follows.
*whew*
now i have to copy this down in my personal journal, so i won't forget what i figured out!
see you all again on the next post!
love,
ecto-tj, from the porch
2:39 PM, January 30, 2008
sorry guys i was on a meander (is that how its spelt??)
i'm fine thank you.
sorry to hear about your aches and pains BC.
SIM i know after a great experience like that i tend to go on and on and my friends get fed up!!
kass is going to see them soon i think. tomorrow??
RB: Do you think you've found meaning through this?
GW: I think we created something special together. I think it means something. It meant something when it started, it said what it kind of had to say, and so that's an interesting position to be in because I don't necessarily think that the next album we make, I don't necessarily think that it needs to mean something. I think we're kind of finished in that regard. So it's gonna be interesting to see what we do next because, quote unquote "the mission" or "the goal," I feel very complete about that.
RB: What do you see on the horizon after this tour?
GW: I see our first kind of lengthy break. We're gonna commit to trying to have at least six months off before we even talk about making something else. And then at that point, hopefully, we will have done enough living to make something.
Article here
yeah she is, shes only going to perve on the delectable Mr Leto though haha.
I nearly went to another of their shows tonight i was seriously considering it but the prospect of sleeping rough put me off it, it wouldnt have been the best idea really no matter how much i love the band. I really wanna see them again soon though, im addicted to them, i cant wait till May its too far away :/ LOL
Thank you Faraway. As for that article, what a contradiction!
well that thank god was a much better interview.
what did you think BC, SIM,anon??
I think he's human and makes mistakes and is full of contradictions and we should realize we aren't perfect and neither is he so maybe we shouldn't judge him so harshly and also maybe we should not do really long, run-on sentences.
i cant be bothered reading it at moment, im trying to learn my fruit and veg codes for my exam at work tomorrow :/ if i dont pass with 80% or higher i get sacked :'/ arghhh i should probably just leave mayos and learn in quietness but i dont wanna :/
hahaha i am guilty of long run on sentences haha not regarding Gerard tho, just generally. i apologise anon :)
yes anon you make a good point.
i hated that interview we saw yesterday. this one is good. i'm so glad as well cos i still believe in him i still think he's a good guy but you know things have been so different its been hard you know.
more than anything i still love the band and their music.
I cannot even consider the interview now. I have enough of a neck ache as it is already, and the one thing that is pissing me off is that according to the interview, he's STILL wearing the fucking shades and the fact that he says that he wants to go back to being just a rock band.
I think Kapunua is going to have a problem with that. Basically he's saying that he wants to be just another typical rock band.
wait a minute anon your sentence was a long run on sentence haha your so funny!! I see the contradiction!!! LOL :)
SIM that sounds horrible!!
yeh kass said she's only going cos she fancies JL!!
yeh the shades!!
one thing for sure is they need a break. they all need a good long break. but i'd put money on them not lasting the 6 months without itching to make the new record!!
Shame in me, ha ha. I was going to say that. Anon's sentence was a run-on sentence. I was going to tell them that. Ha! :D
Faraway, I agree. Damn, he needs to lose those shades. I hate them with a passion. Anyways, this may disappoint you, but yesterday, I read some article that said that there's a possibility that the new record is going to be released at the end of this year instead of next year.
So much for the break huh?
If anyones interested this is my best video from the 30stm concert, its beautiful
For fans of The Used:
New EP to be digitally release! Get all the hobo you want right here!
And this one of Jared in the crowd i was so close to him, swoon LOL
I'll stop being obsessive Spammy McSpamson now hehe sorry :)
*released ;)
Hahaha Mustard!!! get all the hobo you want right here thats funny as!!!!
I just discovered some of the most horrible news that I heard all day:
Michael Bay's(The man behind the Transformers movie)production company are planning on remaking the Nightmare on Elm Street series. How fucked up is that? And apparently, Robert Englund is not going to play Freddy Krueger!
This is just so fucked up and wrong on so many levels.
Pantera said...
Shame in me, ha ha. I was going to say that. Anon's sentence was a run-on sentence. I was going to tell them that. Ha! :D
Really? Ya think?
Anon I really do try not to judge him harshly. It is however hard to see someone you have a deep respect for appearing to have lost their way. He seems to have lost a part of himself that made him such a beautiful person. He is so gifted and has so much to offer the world. He needs to believe that about himself. Others see it in him. I see it in him.
Haha thats the funniest thing ever!!! Fuck me that made me laugh :) I like you anon :) hahahahahahaha
Elena:
I believe that, too. I still think it's in there. It's just been buried by something or for something.
I still have faith in him.
I still have faith in this band.
"Anything worth having is worth working for."
This band is worth having, and damn it, I will not give up on it.
im off to bathe, ill be back :) Bye!!!
SIM you were really close!!
BC i sorry thats shit news for you. i confess i am not a partaker of said movies.....sorry!
elena hello to you!
MIB great news re the used. thank you!
Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with them being a typical rock band of with Gerard being a typical rock dude. See, this is what people keep misunderstanding or not hearing. Gerard can be whatever the hell he wants.
What bothers me is that he's still calling himself a feminist when he treats the women in his audience like trash. That's pretty much the worst of it for me, and I can't respect anyone who says one thing, pretends to believe in something, then does the exact opposite.
I really liked everyone's lists. I agree with all of them, too. Thank you to those of you who answered.
I'm in a really good mood now so I'm going to skip that interview.
MUSTARD!!!!!!!
Ha! I yelled again.
I'm not giving up either. I gots faith in my old GW. Not only him but the other four dudes that play a huge role. I wanted to punch him for a while but lately I just have the urge to tell him it will all be okay. Don't ask me why or how.
I just want to give the dude a hug today.
And of course, I can't give him a hug and not hug the rest of them. Double for Frank. ^_^
YAY! Princess is in a hugging mood today. WTF? PH! You put a spell on me!
sorry i didn't answer your question K. i love those things you do but my brain can't go there at the mo.
and i get where you are with g way. that interview is more old gerard but i get that the stuff he has done/said recently can't be ignored!
anyway guys i'm going to have to love and leave you all! off to watch torchwood. martha will be so jealous!
Mustard we just gotta keep on believing!
I have faith in all of the band members. Frank I have to say is very easy to believe in. The guy has never given me a bit of doubt about his sincerity. Just listen to him speak. He's always concerned about "the kids". He cares about the fans and the music. He's the "real deal".
SMOOOOOOOOKE!!!!!!!
Hey!
Hey FASC, SIM, Kapunua, BC, other various BlogBelieve beings ;)
*about to break into really corny Journey*
Don't make me do it, 'cause you know damn well that I will ;)
MUSSSTTTAARRRDD!!!!!!!!! :)
I know I've said a thousand times, Frank is one of those guys that you can just tell, there was no other thing in this life that he was meant for. He was born to play that guitar. He talks the talk and walks the walk. You can see and feel his passion for music and what he does.
He is the real deal.
I'm not trying to take away from any of the rest of them by saying that. They are all talented guys. Frank is the fan that became famous and yet he's still that same fan standing in the front row right beside you.
^_^
So much with the Frank love. The dude is, as you said Splash and S&V, The Real Deal. ^_^ Yeah, and I think he knows exactly what it's like to be that music fan in the front row, taking it all in. I don't think he'll ever lose that. Some people just never do.
Gerard, well, I would like to believe that one day he'll go, "What the hell was I doing, treating people like that?!" But in my experience, when people change like that, they don't change back. I've seen three people go down that path; each one of them broke my heart and never looked back.
Sorry, but that's just the way it is in most cases.
Hi everyone!
Elena,
Sorry i missed your birthday!
>>>grabs Elena, leans her back...gives her big kiss!
Happy Birthday sweety!!
Hugs to everyone else....
Hay! it's not your birthday....lol
good morning everyone I'm not sure who's here I'm waking up have no coffee yet and haven't read back but thought I'd jump in and say Hi staight away!
Hey PJ!
Hey Ergo!
Back!! My bath was amazing :)
kapunua how are you? Was there any particular reason for the beauty question? just wondered if its for something?
hey ergo and everyone else :)
Hello all.
I read most of that other interview I'm still disappointed.
If I had known that this band would become some typical rock band I wouldn't have given them the time of day.
I don't get into bands to much. I have to really like you and there has to be something about you that draws me in.
And makes me stay.
MCR had that but now they just want to be some typical rock band. We really do have enough of those right now.
And on GW being perfect I never said I wanted him to be perfect. I know people change but most people try to evolve into something better. Not into something average.
TBP may have been the last album were i called myself an MCR fan.
Ron Brownlow: On this tour until really recently you would come out and say you were the Black Parade, at least for the first hour. And then you stopped last month.
Gerard Way: We were filming a show in Mexico, and maybe 10 minutes before we went on we just decided that it was going to be the last one. We felt like we'd done all we could as the Black Parade and we really wanted to go back to simply being My Chemical Romance. And that's just really being a great rock band.
Hhmmmm???
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Let's mothball this shit baby...with one hour to spare.
Is it true that we value in others what we want to see in ourselves, the missing piece...pieces, or peace? Who surrounds you? Why are they near? I hold dear to my heart those whose passion can find no limit, those with righteous hearts, and calloused fingers. Because I aspire to be more than I have brought to the table so far.
What is missing? I can not watch myself from a distance...it is far too painful. The awkwardness, the shuffle, gives rise to self doubt and sour bile. I rely on second hand tales and the perceptions of others to deliver me from evil. Introspection has never been my finest skill...so I challenge myself to look.
p.s. here we go, one last time...it's in the blood.
Posted by Mayonaise at Sunday, October 07, 2007
hey Martha :) hope today finds you happy regardless of the Gerard/Mcr shit that everyones discussing
Hi Mustard PJ Kapunua S&V Elena Fasc SIM BC Kass Fimble
and just because I really can't coordinate my thoughts enough at this hour
beauty is is actions and physically I love hands also and arms (in guys) -and hands are a funny thing, they must show strength and character (hubby is missing most of 2 fingers and I love his hands)
Plus things that make a face less classically perfect somehow, I can't really say what it can change but I don't like "model" looks
and a persons eyes, I think you can see so much in someones eyes.
And in personality humour, caring and curiosity.
Plus pretty much what everyone said.
I can't abide vanity and trying to control or put others down
Hello Sim. I'm alright. GW can only disappoint and piss me off. As far as my happiness goes I make my own.
Alright peeps!
Mayo's kicking my ass out now. How dare he kick a princess out!
I'll be out on the porch later on.
Until then....
Love ya!
XOXO,
S&V20
hello Martha!
Anon
sorry what were you pointing out? We saw that back then.
And I disagree with Mayo's thought of what we look for, I don't think for what is missing in us,as if it's missing completely a person can't relpace it and a totally different view will eventually cause friction (though it may or may not be bearable)
But a person who is comfortablle perhaps with things in our own personality which may lie more dormant, but who complements you and that you bring the best out in and who brings out the best in you.
Who wishes yuo to be the best person you can be and you wish the same for them.
That you travel life's journey as 2 individuals who are proud to be together, not as part of some melded entity which doesn't allow you to feel fulfilled as a person.
gah does that make any sense?
I guess i just don't get it, when it comes to how he has changed.
Its a band that we all love, but we know none of them enough to judge them.
So we read things about them, and we see pictures, can that give us enough imformation to say someone dose not care or is doing drugs or is lying about things.
I think not!
We love this band, sure we have feelings for them, but no one knows anything real about them, only what we are fed in news or pictures and is that enough...no.
Lets bring the love back, say something good about them, can we do that?
Shame in me, i feel ya.....lol
pj :) you feel me? In what sense? hahahaha
Sorry Pj right now I am not feeling the love for them.
And yes i think you can figure out what kind of a person they are from what we do get about them.
I think there are something like six personality types that people fit into. Not only that but most people who get this kind of fame have the same personalities.
There is also personal experience with people who have had the same problems in life.
Shame in me said...
pj :) you feel me? In what sense? hahahaha
I like that....you know me too well...lol
Blows kiss!
Pj I agree we can only go by the bit of what we see, which is an image.
We can put together info we have but it's always seen through our own eyes and filtered by our perceptions, which we have seen differ a lot.
But we don't know the real people, none of them and they all may be quite different from how we view them.
Unless you walk a mile in someones shoes....
I can comment on an incident but I couldn't judge a person
Hello Ep and Pj
Oh, I think you know what I'm pointing out.
Timing, Coincidence?
Me, I'm not is hot
Guys you judge daily. And you have judged him. You take the little things you see about him and decide based on that whether he is a good person are not. So this stuff about not judging people.... you already do it in small amounts.
oh anon yeah that's what I meant but we noticed that at the time, it's not new news.
And it's one tick for the hypothesis but there are other ticks against.
A lot of people could have overheard conversations and it could be coincidence.
Just add it to the appropriate column.
Mayo, shut up.
Nah, I'm just playing. ^____^
MJ, I feel the same way you do. I get the sense, an intuition I guess, that the rest of the band does not want to be average, or at least does not want to act like the typical lame rock star.
I wonder where this will go.
Well, I'm off to find my zen. Later dudettes and dudes!
*train my stupid face off.
Thank you Kapu have fun finding your zen. It's nice to know I'm not crazy in the way i think. I just can't feel the love for the band the way i used to. And I hate that.
Hi Martha!
I guess i have been around musicians too long and can not see the difference.
I know they change and grow with time, age can change everything, depending on the person and the band.
That maybe what everyone is seeing in this band, that i can not, the change that comes with time, it was bound to happen.
Hey everyone. How's it going?
MJ I just mean judge as in decide firmly about a persons worth. I have to take peices and fit them into a picture which isn't going to be complete unless I really know a person and with someone I'll never meet I can't really do that.
I can disagree/agree with their actions or like/dislike things they say but I couldn't form a complete picture.
I mean I know alot about people here but I couldn't say what I think of them as I don't know them, just what I read here, so I have a very small picture which I can go by and it may or may not be what I'd see if I was face to face.
I don't show all of my personality and I doubt anyone else does either, partly by choice and partly because it's impossible.
anyway I must away to the gym I'll be back in an hour or so!
take care
xx
Yes, people change with time but GW is changing over night. And most of it seems to be into all the things he used to be against.
He and everyone in that band has talent and i had to see them waste it. Not only that but they are good people who could help some many other people.
But it is hard to hide your personality. You think you maybe hiding it but it comes out.
And I have never made finally judgement on GW or the band. I still have hope that they won't be a typical band. If I had placed finally judgment on them I would have left here a long time ago.
I have hope but it's just right now what I see doesn't make me hopeful for the future.
I have to go for now!
Catch you all later!
Please keep an open mind!
love ya
pj
Oh and Mayo,
hope you are typing a new post, just want to know if you are still keeping up with us, and what your take on this is.
Hey everyone. Shame in me, faraway, sorry to leave you hanging. I had to make a pit stop at the store
Hello CTV!!!
Goodbye, PJ!
Later PJ and Hello BC.
Shit sorry CTV I got caught up in my rant. Hello CTV. And Hello MIB
Hello CTV, Mustard! Bye Ergo!
Helllooo MJ. Faraway, concerning the Freddy Krueger news, it's just terrible. The fact that they are planning on remakes is horrible enough., I just can't believe it. I imagine Michael Bay is going to have alot of cars and houses blow up in the movie ha! >:(
BC, Mustard, MJ. I hope you're all doing well.
I'm not giving up either. I gots faith in my old GW. Not only him but the other four dudes that play a huge role.
Me too. I will never give up on them.
.............
Blogbelieve Family, I won't be around tonight. Have a wonderful evening. I will miss all of you.
Mayo, I hope you are staying strong, smiling, and surrounded by love. I miss you silly. And if you come by tonight, well I just I hope I run into you another day.
SS, I haven't seen you in a while either. I'm sure you are really busy, but just know I'm thinking about you.
P.S. I don't think you should be in the rear anymore. Honk your way to the front! :)
Well BC I can understand why Robert England won't be in the movies. He is almost 60. It is sad but what can you do.
I don't think there will be cars and house blowing up. But I think they may either copy movies like the ring or saw. So it looks like we are in trouble anyway.
Take care Anima. I miss you too. come back soon now ya hear? CTV, I am well, just eating some spaghetti at the moment. Thanks for asking.
Bon appetito!
Later anima CTV I'm well and you?
Good to hear, BC.
MJ, I'm fine thanks.
What do I find beautiful in a person? I'll keep it short and sweet - just like me :)
Sincerity
Smiles that light up a face and make the eyes twinkle
Laughter. The kind that comes from the whole body
Hello Jen
MJ, yeah he is getting old isn't he? But the idea of remakes just sickens me. Usually when some stupid director makes a remake of some movie, they tend to fuck it up and make the movie appear bad
Hi Jen
Well we will just have to wait and see BC. For me it will be one night on cable when I'm really bored and than I'll see the movie.
Yep, I guess so. It's still a long way to go before the remake is released, but until then, I am not gonna worry about it.
Good fucking evening all! =]
How is everyone? Good, I hope? =]
<3
Ahhh, I see how things work. It's totally hide on Paperheart day today! =]
lol. I'm off to Wal-Mart! =] That is really the best store ever! It honestly is!
Mayonaise, want me to pick something up for you? Maybe some gum? Gum is always good! Okay, I'll grab you some gum Mayonaise! =]
SS, anything for you? =]
(please note, ph is bored, and tired, yet really hyper. =] i think this amaaaaaaaaaazing -50 C weather is doing something to her brain. )
Paperheart really is off to Wal-Mart now. no more babbling, and no more.. talking in third person!
Byee!<3
Hello paperheart. Bye paperheart!
Sorry Ph I was away. Have fun at walmart.
I must go But i hope to be back later.
I'M BACK!
And I have missed too much.
SILENCE!?
What the hell?! So glad to have you back!
Oh, it's like a reunion today! First GV, now you!
HEY EVERYONE!!!
Yes, a fantastic day. :D
Take care MJ. Silence, where have you been? How are you? Hey again Mustard.
P.S. No Shit Sherlock anon:
You suck at life.
BC
silence!!
how are you I just mentioned you yesterday!
Hello again everyone
I have been busy and tired.
I'm well though. You?
Hey BC! Pay no attention to them. They'll finally give up. :)
Silence:
What's been up?! It's been months. Anything exciting going on? Anything you want to talk about or say?
Hello ergoproxy!
Hey Ergo!
No problem Mustard. I just wanted to throw that out to them for the fun of it. Hehe. Helllo Ergo!
I'm doing pretty good Silence. Thank you for asking. It is great to see you here again.
Hello mustardisbetter!
Uhm, it's finals week here at my school, so time is just being consumed by test after test and loads of microwaveable meals and little to no sleep while cramming for tests.
It's like Christmas haha [:
But we all know what finals stand for.
Fuck. I Never Actually Learned Shit.
^^^Haha, well it was funny at the time, I mean anything is after doing math for three solid hours. [:
How is everyone?
hey mustard- fellow hand lover!
Hi BC - I am still jealous of your anons, none of them wuv me :(
lol
so silence did you have a good christmas ?, you said you were working
School going ok?
I'm good silence.
We've had heaps of rain but it makes it all lovely and green.
I hadn't heard that "finals" thing. Must save it for the kids I tutor at the end of the year.
They all started back for the year here Tuesday.
Fuck. I Never Actually Learned Shit.
No, I'm using this forever. That's great!
Ergo:
Dude. I said NO Ray Toro jokes ;)
Christmas was good. My friends give fab presents.
My parents? ...Not so much. But I guess an M.C. Escher calendar is perfect for everyone, among many other things I was given.
I am working my butt off to get straight A's, which I have (!!!) now due to heaps of effort and lack of sleep.
I have a difficult next few weeks though, as I am adding harder classes and all my favorite classes currently are ending as they are one semester long. So I have the joy of shitty ass classes for the next six months. YAY!
Ergo, that's horrible! We need to conjure up an anon just for you. I'm sure they'll be one popping up soon :)
Oh congratulations of the A's !
fantastic you should be very proud of yourself!!
and Mustard - it could NEVER be joked about. ;)
(but seriously I always look at guys hands, I can't help it)
I guess my stay was short but I felt I needed to come back.
I have my babysitting job to go do. [:
Oh, the fun times I will have.
Bye everyone!
well BC at least I now have Wendy as an obsessed stalker so it's all good :)
Fuck. I Never Actually Learned Shit.
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Ha ha that is simply classic!
See you around, Silence! Thanks for coming by. It's really awesome to hear from you again :)
Good luck with school and I hope you do well!
Mayo?
Hey, dude? Did you know this?
--The True, Untold History of Mayonnaise--
Mrs. Karen Creamo was the original creator of mayonnaise. On Monday, 16 May 1927, Mrs. C. was trying to create a special treat for her family. She decided to create a sauce to put on the roast beef that she was roasting in the oven, and her creation, mayonnaise, has become loved by millions.
You're loved by millions!!!
And us.
Mostly just us, 'cause we're pretty tight, you and us :)
bye silence - hope you have an uneventful and pleasant babysitting!
You all suck
Hello impostor fimble. I know I suck. And well, you suck too!
gosh an impostor fimble?
WTF???
please ... rack off!
Ok, Blooger is being a bith! I post and then get launched into cyber-space.
Hi everybody, BC, Mustard, Ergo, welcome back Silence, Paperheartxx, CTV, Jonesin for Martha, Kapunua, and PJ.
Whew! I hope I got everybody.
What's shakin'?
FUCK!
Hi Fimble!!!
Jen, that's an impostor. That's not the real fimble. Hello Jen!
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