The catalyst of confusion
started a fire
while shopping for
a soul on a high wire.
Until now I was unaware that the remuneration for impropriety exceeded that set for dignity. How much did you get for yours? As for my dignity…I will hold onto it, thank you. I would rather starve than feed my soul from a base wage.
With my voice in repose, I hid behind my own forbearing shadow, and allowed silence to foster absolution. Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
I am not so completely unaware. Because I am certain that is common knowledge, your recent presentment was, quite frankly, out of line. Your bravado flames me.
As it happened, I had simply misplaced the why, where, and how. I can identify the sickness in that statement, and I concede fault in my volition. I understand that I can be fucking difficult. My own scathing behavior must remain in constant check.
I am not able to take back that fleeting moment or the injustice it served you. I have arrived at the place from where I must move on. I wish you the same in your departure.
p.s. a fucking doormat.
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«Oldest ‹Older 201 – 400 of 3911 Newer› Newest»Goodnight Katherine, I will still hope for the best for your friend. Night all, -L
Well goodnight Elena, Lewis and KD I hope you have sweet dreams. I wish I could have been more help to you KD.
Hello Mayo, Mya, Katherine, Lewis, Elena, MJ, SS, blog peace keepers and observers/readers/voyeurs!
I'm so sorry to hear about your friend Katherine.
It seems life can be so unfair sometimes. He sounds like a wonderful soul. Still cracking jokes to try to make his friends feel better...
This post is quite a downer, isn't it? Some of the last few comments on the prior blog weren't exactly loving or accepting either...*sigh*
Personally, I don't see any idiots here. NOPE, not a one! I see smart and strong women/men, some who are still struggling to find 'themselves' - who they really are; Some who are struggling to find their voice; Some who are hasty with words, who don't always think (about other's feelings) before they speak/type.
I also see a group of wonderful people who genuinely care about one another.....at least, I think and hope we do!
Yes, we have many different opinions here. We should respect each other ENOUGH not to resort to name calling, don't ya think???
Well, that's my opinion on the matter (even though no one asked).
"Words are powerful, choose them wisely" I said that (and YES, it is copyrighted) ;-)
I suppose all I can do is offer my usual LOVE and HUGS to ALL!
#6
Wendy
MISS T: COME BACK!!!!
Hello Mya! *big good to see ya hug*
But, MissT's blog is gone....POOF!
I sure do hope she comes back!
How are you, me love?
Blooger you are a mother fucker. Hello anon 616
Wait a minute....
Okay, I'm lost.
This place confuses me.
This Mayo person...
Sounds a bit like Mr. Way.
Is that the point?
///// Sorry if I'm dumb to this.
I am.
Fill me in?
Hello to MJ and Alice too!
LOL MJ, for a minute I thought you called me a MF......I was about to get all fiesty - I do BITE, you know ;-)
Yes Mya, I did send you an e-mail! T'is a guardian angel :)
Yes I am getting locked out.
Hello Alice just to let you know we don't know who Mayo is but we do know that Mayo posted while MCR was on stage so it can't be him.
You're welcome Mya!
MJ: would you and doctor like your own guardian angels? I'm not sure which one of you needs one most???? ;-)
Blogger eats my comments and than it will give me an error screen. That scared the shit out of me. Most of the time when I get that screen the blog has been deleted.
Yes we would. I don't what kind we should get either.
Alice,
It sounds as though you've just made the trip back through the looking glass!
Not to worry, we're all a little mad here *wink*
Alice are you still there?
Martha Jones said...
Blogger eats my comments and than it will give me an error screen. That scared the shit out of me. Most of the time when I get that screen the blog has been deleted.
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Maybe that's why I can't get to MissT's place.....
Maybe it's just blogger being mean to me!
Can you get there Martha? or Mya?
Goodnight Mya I hope you have sweet dreams and come back tomorrow
Good night to you Mya! I hope you get a few hours of sleep!!!
I can't get on to Miss t blog either.
Martha Jones said...
Alice are you still there?
===========
I think I may have frightened the poor girl away......
I have that affect on some people.
*blushes*
Sorry Alice!
Hello to anyone still here
mayonaise,
Ahh...there you are darkling.I was starting to worry.
Experience has taught me, that some people like to watch you fall off the wire into the fire below,then enjoy the added pleasure of warm flames your roasting provides.
mayonaise said...
I would rather starve than feed my soul from a base wage.
Oh yes...sizzle!
mayonaise said...
I understand that I can be fucking difficult.
(smile)What I like about you.
mayonaise said...
p.s. a fucking doormat
Sad and truthful post my friend. For what it is worth, keep shopping and please share it, so I may continue to learn from you.
`sc
Okie.
Thankyou.
I've been reading this blog alllll night.
Then I got here.
And I realized that this is something of a club.
Like, where everybody knows your name....
I hope I'm not intruding.
It's just that all of this intrigues me...
Well done with the reference.
I don't see why she would be scared. Your doggy in your picture isn't scary and you didn't say anything scary.
He needs a good hug
Hello SC
Alice it's not really a club so much as we have become a group of friends a family. It has been four months. You are welcome to join in.
Hello martha,anon616 and alice,
I tried missT blog,too.
Hopefully she just packed her pyramids and blog to show family.
or pisser blogger is to blame.
`sc
Hi SC! Martha: Check your e-mail
Alice (in wonderland): glad I didn't scare you off ;-)
That is what I hope to. That it's just blogger or something temporary. SC how have you been.
Invatation excepted.
Thankyou.
soulconnector said...
Hello martha,anon616 and alice,
I tried missT blog,too.
Hopefully she just packed her pyramids and blog to show family.
or pisser blogger is to blame.
`sc
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I'm hoping it's blogger to blame as well!
How have you been SC? We don't see much 'round these parts no more ;-)
Pull up a chair Alice! We'll have a tea party!!!!
*whispers to Martha: it's a wolf*
;-)
martha,
Im doing ok, just stark raving... (tired)
I see blogger has been giving trouble to many, you included.
`sc
beware
How the hell do you forward a message on Gmail And 6 I get the feeling that this place is a guardian angel. In a way I hope not because that means it will end.
Heh.
I see it's going to take awhile to get savvy.
I'll be a good girl and just sit and listen for a minute.
white rabbit said...
beware
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Thanks for the 'reference' compliment Alice!
But, when white rabbits with words of warning show up.....
It's time for me to hit the (timothy) hay ;-)
Goodnight SC, Martha, Alice and all rabbits!
I'm turning the tea party host(ess) duties over to the proper authority: The Mad Hatter!!!
I hope you all have a great day. That includes you MAYO and SS!
Love and Hugs to ALL!
#6
Wendy
Goodnight Anon616. Your welcome alice.
white rabbit beware of what?
girl?
So Alice how did you hear about this place?
alice,
No need to be a good girl,just savvy away. I got it, but my eyes are closing and my head fell forward and almost hit the keyboard.
Now, I am off to bed with visions of the ugly queen of hearts.(smiles)
come back anytime
goodnite friends
`sc
Alice I've been here from the beginning and I still get confused.
Goodnight SC
Where is everyone?
Ahhh!
You're all so quick!
I can hardly keep up.
Me?
Yes, I'm a girl.
I found out about this place from a friend....
Well, a former friend.
I came, and I read.
And I was hooked.
Confused,
But hooked.
Why confused?...and hooked on what?
Yes, things move fast in here. If you don't mind me asking why is it a former friend?
I was replaced.
Traded in.
No longer needed.
I'm told that it happens often with friendships at my age.
But I feel betrayed all the same.
We were friends for quite awhile.
But when I really think about it, it's probably in the best interest of my mental health that it ended.
Our only common factor was a sick (honestly) obsession with the same man.
We were just as fucked up as each other.
I think that's why it killed me so much.
Well shit that sucks. Even if it was for the best it still hurts to be tossed aside.
Yeah.
It isn't the first time, either.
I think it might be me.
Sorry about taking so long to come back got caught up in trying to do something on Gmail.
It maybe the people you pick as friends.
So this friend told you about Mayo's blog. I just find it funny that people are talking about this blog. In what seems to be a positive way. It blows my mind.
mayo!! god how can you have the ability to ruin my day??
well you have and its crazy!
this latest offering of yours has made me feel sick and i'm not totally sure why??
i don't know if i understand exactly what you are saying. in some ways i think i totally do and then it could be the opposite! how very confusing you are!
anyway love to family and you also mayo. sometimes i wonder if you even want that though. i'm very much having a 'mayo what the fuck??' day!
see you now have a day named after you. here in my tiny part of the world that has happened and thats fucking crazy!!
bye for now guys.
Hello and good bye FASC
Am I all alone again?
I guess you went to bed Alice. I will still be up for a while so check back.
MAYO, I'm not sure who you're asking, but I shall tell you who I think you are.
I think you're Mayonnaise, owner of this blog.
Erratic, changeable, but generally some one I care very much about.
I think you're a flawed and therefore all the more lovely human being.
Not a famous rock star, not a condiment.
Just Mayo, all I know is all you've shown me.
Again I wish to share something, but I can't, I was never any good at this, putting words on paper with so little time to spare.
I've never had confidence that what I said could matter anyway.
I have always made it a point in life to avoid judging anyone.
Another thing I was never the best at is trying to figure out when you're mad at us.
Often I don't think that's the case.
Either way, the anger and pain coming off the page is upsetting, but that's ok, I come here to chat with my friends, but also ofcourse to read what you have to say, whether it's painful or not.
I can take it. I've built myself to deal with it.
Perhaps your saying goodbye, I hope that's not the case. There have been times when we thought you were, but You didn't.
But ofcourse all things must end.. ALL things....
Are tired Mayo?
I am.
..... You say you trusted someone you shouldn't have.
Don't worry, I do that on a weekly basis.
Remember my gift to all of you,
I WISH YOU LOVE.
Upsetting posts or no.
Sometimes I will admit I feel a flash of anger.Or hurt, I was always bruised more easily than I would've liked.
I did when you last left a bitter post, but that was because of things going on in my own life, and I realized I can't put that on you or anyone else.
So I bite back meaningless words I'd only regret, and realize it has nothing to do with me really.
I rarely post comments as long as this, unless they're song lyrics I feel the need to share.
I often engage in banter and idle conversation, my reasons being I do any thing else and I freak everyone out.
I'm painted the attention whore.
And the phrase I used to tell myself over and over as a young girl.
No one likes a sad girl.
No one likes a sad girl.
No one likes a sad girl.
Catchy ain't it? So...sorry...
xoxo cupcake
Hey cupcake are you still here?
Yes Mj *hugs*
Hug right back at you.
So doll, tell me all about your thoughts on this post (if you have the time that is)
I have no words for this post.
When he first posted I read it and went wow upset much. I couldn't think of anything to say.
No words!
At first I had no words, then I sat and came up with a whole lot of crap... oh well....
It's hard to know who he is talking to. Does he want our input ?
I've read it a few times, this post....
Stirs some emotions...
I never know MJ.
I never know...
Well someone stired him and not in a good way
If I may be so rude Mayo, I would like to address Cupcake first.
Cupcake - I've been trying to post on your blog since the day you received all the foul comments, it would not let me post and still won't. How are you? I have seen from the odd comment here and there that you seem in a brighter frame of mind, I'm glad to see that :)
Mayo,
The catalyst of confusion
started a fire
Oh, indeed it has. It is blazing out of control now, isn't it?
You know, my mind is confused enough, I have no energy to decipher your musings.
I wish you well.
That much is evident. It's disturbing how much you can feel the bitterness...
:(
Hello Gs I must take leave for a bit she youin 45.
gnothi seauton , Thank you.
I'm a bit up and down but... I'm trying!
Hope you're well sweetie
Talk soon MJ! *hugs*
I'll see you later Martha.
Cupcake- I am well, but frustrated with it all, you know?
TO FILL IN SPACE WITH MEANING:
A song called thank god I'm pretty be Emile Autumn.
Feel the sarcasm.
******
Thank God I'm pretty
The occasional free drink I never asked for
The occasional admission to a seedy little bar
Invitation to a stranger's car
I'm blessed
With the ability to rend a grown man tongue-tied
Which only means that when it's dark outside
I have to run and hide can't look behind me
Thank God I'm pretty
Thank God I'm pretty
Every skill I ever have will be in question
Every ill that I must suffer merely brought on by myself
Though the cops would come for someone else
I'm blessed
I'm truly privileged to look this good without clothes on
Which only means that when I sing you're jerking off
And when I'm gone you won't remember
Thank God I'm pretty
Thank you God
Oh, lord
Thank you God
Oh, oh and when a gaggle of faces appears around me
It's lucky I hate to be taken seriously
I think my ego would fall right through the cracks in the floor
If I couldn't count on men to slap my ass anymore
I know my destiny's such, that I'm all stocking and curl
So everybody thinks that I'm a fucking suicide girl
Thank you God
For the occasional champagne I never asked for
The occasional admission to a seedy little bar
Invitation to a stranger's car
I'm blessed
With the ability to rend a grown man tongue-tied
Which only means that when it's dark outside
I have to run and hide can't look behind me
Thank God I'm pretty
Thank God
Thank God
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you God!
Oh GS, I thought you'd left me!
As for frustration, I have it in bucket loads!
Those words are poignant. Just the right amount of truth and venom :)
Gawd my computer is being bad today, so apologies if I leave suddenly..... I probably haven't I'm just trying to fix something!
gnothi seauton said...
Those words are poignant. Just the right amount of truth and venom :)
Just be clear, which words? lol
Sorry, I meant the poem/song :)
Mayo,
How are you? Somehow, I think you are much calmer than some think. Me? Well, this post kind of hit me in the gut, but I'll get to that in just a bit. I'm actually alright this morning. I woke up about 30 mins ago to a rainy, dreary Saturday and growling belly. What do I want for breakfast? Cereal, I suppose. I go to bed alone and I wake up alone. What else is new besides a new fucking year? Not fucking much on this end.
Again, let me apologize for not being here. Blogger has changed something and it is forever keeping me shut out of this place. Must call DishNetwork and get satellite internet. Please know, that I would be here if I could.
Now, to your post...Some have already mentioned these things so let me highlight...love the honesty, can feel the raw emotions, but don't really know the context. So you said you put your faith in someone and you hoped against hope that they would not disappoint you but they did...damn, do you live my life much? Don't you hate it like hell when people...people that you trust that you think you can call your friends, maybe even good friends turn out to be just what you fucking expected they would. It is so rare that people surprise me. It's like for fucking once could you NOT do what I fucking expect. sdock10 has a faithful heart...hell, I gave it to someone with both fucking hands. Willingly. Knowingly. And you know what? I think I was wrong too. I, like you, am so not without blame and fault. Most of the shit I end up in comes from my own hand. Sometimes I must also acknowledge that I tend to call people's bluff and then I get all pissy when they hold the winning hand. That's when the eating shit comes into to play, but their smugness about the whole shit makes me want to puke. Can you tell that I am completely talking about 2 different but entirely the same situations? I admire you, Mayo. You see that it is time to move on and seem to be ready to do that. I don't know if I am. Indecisive much? Maybe. Poor excuses? Definitely.
I know that as you walk away your heart will hurt, your stomach will turn, your mouth will be filled with that nasty taste, but what I am wondering is....will you resist the urge to turn around and try it again?
May you be completely certain.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. I'm covered in dirty footprints and shit.
Hi everyone, i can not stay, got to work, but i saw this and thought you might, understand Mayo's post.
Don't know if it relates but here it is, it was posted on the 28th, and mayo's was the 29th, so i dont know whats going on.
loveman said...
so your latest post is cryptic? or do you save that for the bullshit you give to people who ask.
where has all your lovely comments gone about your best mate gerard way. was that only short lived just like his package oh wait sorry thats only according to you.
have fun and remember you do not need to try and be cryptic. people will believe you more if you started telling the truth.
so what is the truth? love, man
December 28, 2007 9:25 AM
got to go.
luv
PJ
I've got to go, duty calls.
See you later Cupcake, Sdock and PJ.
PJ - interesting, but just more mystery to send my mind on another tangent :)
Haha I thought so GS
Hi Sdock!
Bye GS *hugs*
Hi PJ! *hugs*
My head is spinning now!
I could make a dress,
a robe fit for a prince.
I could clothe a continent,
but i can't sew a stitch.
I can paint my face,
and stand very very still.
It's not very practical,
but it still pays the bills.
I can't change my name,
but I could be your type.
I can dance and win at games
like Backgammon and Life.
I used to be the smart one,
sharp as a tack.
Funny 'bout how skipping years ahead
has held me back.
I used to be the bright one,
top in my class.
Funny what they give you when you
just learn how to ask.
I can write a song,
but I can't sing in key.
I can play piano,
but I never learned to read.
I can't trap a mouse,
but I can pet a cat.
No, I'm really serious!
I'm really very good at that.
I can't fix a car,
but I can fix a flat.
I could fix a lot of things,
but I'd rather not get into that.
I used to be the bright one,
Smart as a whip.
Funny how you slip so far when
teachers don't keep track of it.
I used to be the tight one,
the perfect fit.
Funny how those compliments can
make you feel so full of it.
I can shuffle cut and deal,
but I can't draw a hand.
I can't draw a lot of things,
I hope you understand.
I'm not exceptionally shy,
but I've never had a man
that I could look straight in the eye
and tell my secret plans.
I can take a vow,
and I can wear a ring,
and I can make you promises,but
they won't mean a thing.
Can't you just do it for me? I'll pay you well.
Fuck, I'll pay you anything if you could end this.
Can't you just fix it for me? It's gone berserk...
Oh, fuck! I'll give you anything if
you can make the damn thing work.
Can't you just fix it for me? I'll pay you well.
Oh, fuck! I'll pay you anything
if you could end this hell.
I love you will you tell me your name?
Hello, I'm good for nothing - will you love me just the same?
Just the same
-thank you Dresden Dolls.
*sits perched on Mayo's sofa, waiting for a friendly face*
Dear Mayo,
The anger and the hurt in your post disturbs me.
Your last post was so high spirited. This one alternates between firey hot and frosty cold.
Mayo said,
I put my faith in someone.
I was wrong.
It was asked of you whether it was personal or professional. You answered personal.
I thought hmmm, it's about your friend you have been having issues with.
Who do you think I am anyway...
p.s.a fucking doormat
It was then pointed out that your p.s.'s are usually directed towards the blog family.
I can only assume (making an ass out of me at the same time) that something said here has made you feel like you have been disrespected.
Looking back through the comments here I can only see comments regarding someone elses marriage as personal.
And you know why we do that. We see someone who deserves happiness, needs happiness, but rushed naively into marriage before he found himself.
He may be a 30yo man but I always compare him to the 'goodgirls' I knew. Everyone of them intelligent, articulate, modest, shy, quiet beauties unaware of their looks, worldy naive, trusting. Every damn one of them ended up pregnant within months of gaining their personal freedom of leaving home for university or jobs in another city. So yes, strange but true, I see him in a similar situation from a males perspective.
They all were charmed by sex, and with the charming ones demanding, if you love me do it now without protection. Too naive. Too infatuated. They came to realise their predicament but they were proud. They all kept their babies and loved them. But their lives were forever changed, they are none of them truely the person they wanted to be.
So I look at him, and again I see the freedom of free sex in someone starting to find themselves. But again I don't see protection for this newly free emotional foundling. Lust is a powerful driver of emotion. Common sense can fail us when in the throws of it. The marriage was the baby in this case. He still can't truely find himself while bound.
Age is irrelevant if worldly naive and charmed by someone more experienced. It makes you feel empowered.
You talk doormats, I hope it isn't denial. If you don't think you are a doormat then good for you.
If I'm up the wrong tree, fine, I'm an ass.
Just ignore this.
You know some of us realise you don't read everything posted here, but this one is covering the bases just in case.
p.s. You like cryptic mayo?
For the last 12months I have been emailing to someplace via someone elses email about some band. Coincidentally, everything I ever mentioned had some effect. Strangely weird. If you have any connection with that you will know exactly what I am referring to...
If you don't, then you are still are and will always be mayo to me.
*lurking until mayo comes out firing *
Love PP
If no one comes along I may have to start singing some Journey.....
PP!!!!!!!!!
I was just about to start singing "Don't stop believing'
Are you hanging around at all?
Gah!
Missed me missed me, now you gotta kiss me....
Hello people!
I was just catching up on the latest posts and read PJ's comment.
I went to loveman's blog and read that comment.
Surprisingly, it was written by a loveman on loveman's latest blog entry, but the funny thing is that loveman's name is in blue, but it has the grey anonymous sign, not the orange 'B' sign.
I clicked on the name and it brought me back to loveman's blog.
Their blog, not their profile site.
So, this is not loveman themselves, who wrote that comment and it has nothing to do with Mayonaise. It was aimed at loveman's latest blog entry not being cryptic anymore and not being about Gerard and his alleged 'shortcomings'.
I don't know where, but I once saw a comment by Kapunua and her name was also in blue, but she had also the grey anonymous sign. I wondered what that was all about, but then I thought she might have signed in somewhere else; LJ for example.
So, partly it is still possible to fake other blogger's identities. You just have to make sure that the orange sign is there.
The blue name is not an indicator anymore that you are talking to the right person.
Just saying.
PS: I forgot to say, if people sign in with their LJ account the sign is still orange, but it shows an 'L' and a 'J' instead of a 'B'. I remember that now.
Good morning Mayo.
Well, yesterday I did say I hoped to hear from you soon … but I definitely would rather have read few verses about a terrible gift you received for Christmas, or even your complaint that you
ate too much in these past days ….I mean, something like that!
Instead, you talk about betrayed trust, and I’m sorry.
You know, I’ve grown to be quite used to the feeling, my friend. I put my faith in somebody a couple of times, and I had to regret it. It hurts, it hurts so bad.
I’m not the right person for giving you any advice about it, but I’ve learned you have to look into yourself, try to understand if they still mean something to you and maybe be willing to forgive, if it’s worth it. I know it can be hard, but sometimes compromises are for the best…
Just don’t let this make you lose your trust in others.
Take care, my dear. Love to you
Hello family!
Hope you're all fine!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Mayonaise,
Anger, disappointment, regret, etc.
All these things I understand far too well. I'm not going to try and dissect this because I don't think you need it dissected. You know exactly what happened and how you feel about it.
See, I have a problem with forgiveness sometimes. My only hope is that you think long and hard about the situation and if it's worth being so angry. If your anger is valid then so be it. I am in no place to tell you to act any different. Pot calling the kettle black and whatnot.
I do worry about you, Mayo. I hope we didn't do anything to hurt you.
Hugs and kisses,
Princess S&V20
Woah Siobhan, quite the detective work! I'm impressed hun, but that is very disturbing.
I always hated the idea of someone pretending to be me.
Hello Bellatrix, S&V20, hope you guys are well.
*hugs*
Yeah, cupcake! Siobhan Holmes, hehe!
But do you know what's even more weird?
Loveman has to approve of the comments before they show up.
Why does Loveman approve of a fake Loveman comment?
Good Morning Mayo,
I hope today is better for you.
I will be thinking about you on and off as I always do. It will be happy thoughts cause to be honest I can't seem to get through a day if I don't make myself think good thoughts.
Be true to yourself.
Please it's important.
And you know what? It really impresses me that Loveman even seems to approve of critical comments towards his/her blog entries.
That person has balls!
I admire that!!!
Mayonaise,
Anger, disappointment, regret, etc.
All these things I understand far too well. I'm not going to try and dissect this because I don't think you need it dissected. You know exactly what happened and how you feel about it.
See, I have a problem with forgiveness sometimes. My only hope is that you think long and hard about the situation and if it's worth being so angry. If your anger is valid then so be it. I am in no place to tell you to act any different. Pot calling the kettle black and whatnot.
I do worry about you, Mayo. I hope we didn't do anything to hurt you.
Hugs and kisses,
Princess S&V20
All so wise, but what of me?...
I'm so sick of mysteries...
Siobhan said...
And you know what? It really impresses me that Loveman even seems to approve of critical comments towards his/her blog entries.
That person has balls!
I admire that!!!
Honey, if she has balls then why does she have to approve her comments? The ones she doesn't choose to publish...they are golden.
Ha! I found that comment by Kapunua or whomever else.
It is the first comment on VV's blog entry 'Open message to Gerard'.
It brings you to her LJ blog site, not a profile site. Weird!
But maybe this doesn't mean anything and 'Conspiracy Siobhan' is exaggerating again in her little head!
Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
He's been a good sport remaining silent while you all shit talk him and his wife. Someone has said something that touched a nerve. He's had enough.
Anonymous said...
Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
He's been a good sport remaining silent while you all shit talk him and his wife. Someone has said something that touched a nerve. He's had enough.
- So again we're back to this, saying Mayo is Gerard Way? I don't buy it.
Honey, if she has balls then why does she have to approve her comments? The ones she doesn't choose to publish...they are golden.
Yeah, I thought that, too! You are right. But maybe, Loveman only deletes insulting comments and approves objective criticism?
How do you know that the comments s/he doesn't approve of are golden?
KD, first of all I am very sorry. I know just where you're at, and it sucks, so badly. I'm sorry.
Also, you said:
In any group situation there will be arguments and disagreements.
You'r right. And anyone who denies this and pretends it's all happyassing around and pissing sunshine is either fooling themselves, or trying to impress somebody. There are people here I dislike. There are people here I didn't used to dislike, but do now. There are people I didn't so much care for earlier, but who have proven to be the coolest of the cool. Then, there are those I've disliked all along, and even more of those I've liked all along. I've got favorites; I think we all do. I also don't think there's anything wrong with that.
Alice: To answer your very presumptuous question, no, thi sis not Gerard Way's blog. And if I have to be the one to say it again, so be it. It's rude to walk into a room and start asking for answers.
Also, it's "accepted," not "excepted."
To get back to something I was saying last night: The issue of calling someone stupid vs. "oppressing their right to free speech." Once again, Oh please.Taking away someone's right to free speech would include, well, not allowing them to express their thought in words. Calling them stupid? Uhh, yeah. Not so much. Or is my right to free speech not important, either?
I see a lot of people calling MSI stupid. Does that somehow take away their right to write and sing stupid songs? Ahhhh, but that's different, isn't it?
The "I Might Know Gerard/Lynz/Frank" anon from yesterday: You know, it's funny. As soon as I posted that I knew who you were, and even till this morning, I've been getting emails going, "It's so and so, isn't it?" And everyone has guessed the same. Take that to heart: you're not as subtle as you think you are.
So now you must imagine me as a sadistic kitty in a dark room, swishing her tail and waiting for the juicy anonymouse to come back. If you start some crap, or hell, if you even just annoy me, how I would love to put my fangs into your soft anonymousie body. And by "put my fangs into your soft anonymousie body," I mean "tell everyone who this particular trouble maker is." You're the same one who was trying to convince people you were Jamia that time, and I don't like that kinda thing.
Mayo, I'll deal with you later, young man.
A round of applause for Kapunua, saying what has to be said.
It's not always nice, but such is life.
Thank you, Cupcake. Mayo doesn't hold back the venom. I don't, either. It's all about the love? Yeah, maybe. But what "love" works without honesty?
what if the anonymousie was speaking the truth last night? what if mayo recognized a phrase the anonymousie had used when speaking to him in person when expressing their concerns or doubts about the marriage? perhaps that is why he feels betrayed? not so smart are you now K?
I can't believe that people really think that Gerard Way has nothing better to do than writing a blog!
If he needs to vent he visits his therapist!
This person is not Gerard Way. But Mayonaise doesn't mind people thinking that it could be him.
It's so damn obvious that this person only waits for certain things to happen in Gerard's life or certain topics to be discussed here (or there) concerning Gerard's life and/or relationships to other people and then writes a blog that could easily match with it.
People here discuss Frank's and Gerard's alleged fight and POOF! suddenly Mayo publishes a blog about his/her fight with another person.
What a surprise!!!
People here discuss Gerard's relationships with women and POOF! Mayo publishes a furious and angry blog about him/her being treated like a doormat.
Although Mayonaise said that s/he is disappointed by someone s/he had faith in people still think that the blog entry is about Mayo not approving of the 'Gerard talk'.
People were discussing and writing worse things than this, why should Mayo care if s/he didn't care before?
Hey Kapunua!
Good to see you here! How are you?
Did you read my previous comments?
You are welcome Kapunua, I agree wholeheartedly.
Honesty at all times.
Ugh, anon! Spill the beans or just talk about something else. The weather, perhaps?
It's just a damn rock singer! Who gives a shit?
Hello?
Dearest Mayonaise,
How are you this fine Saturday morning? (Winnipeg time at least) I see that you have a lot of pent up frustrations? Let them out, buddy. It's not that great for your mental
different emotions.
Mayonaise said...
I put my faith in someone.
I was wrong.
December 29, 2007 1:37 AM
We all do that, don't beat yourself up over it. At one point or another, everyone is going to fuck something up, and I'm not saying that you did, but believe me, it will get better. I don't have very much life experience, and I don't know what was being said in your previous blog that may have 'triggered' this post, but I hope that you are okay. Some things are better to be left in the past. Don't dig things up that are already buried.
A lot of people thought that this post was directed at us. I thought that as well. I still in a way think that, and in a way, I don't.. This is your home, this blog is your way of setting your thoughts and feelings free. You should feel safe here. Don't let any of us get in the way.
Love always;
- 007
<3
P.S. New Year's Eve is coming up. Stay safe, Mayo. Don't party too hard, and please use protection! *winks*
( Kidding )
Take a hint siobhan.
Give me a hint, anon!
I'm still here Siobhan if you're calling for anyone....
Mayonaise said...
I put my faith in someone.
I was wrong.
December 29, 2007 1:37 AM
BREAKING NEWS!!!!!
Gerard and Lyn-Z split!
You heard it here first folks!
p.s. you can keep the sherrif badge.
Sioban first off thanks for the Christmas gift. I can always use another lightsaber.
second...
It's just a damn rock singer! Who gives a shit?
That would be me. But then I give a shit about a lot of people.
Hello lovely elena! :)
You're welcome, Elena!
We had that discussion before, right?
I think Gerard has enough people, who care about him. I don't think he would mind me giving a damn!
if everyone had your attitude the world would be even more fucked up than it already is. your such a bitch you make k look like a fucking saint!
Anon, how do you know?
Do you like Gerard Way? Isn't he a stupid guy?
And there a people who actually think that he's intelligent.
Do you think that he's intelligent?
I don't think that opportunists can be intelligent!
Hey Cupcake, Siobhan, Elena, and Anonymous'!
Morning Cupcake!!
Sioban yep, we've talked about this before. It's okay if you don't care and yeah I'm sure he has lots of people to care for him. I'm just one of the many nameless people. I was just saying that I do care. Silly me, but that's who I am.
I want to use my lightsaber right now on whoever hurt Mayo.
Anon, are you talking to me?
If yes, thank you very much!
That was one of the best compliments I ever got!
And I don't want to sound arrogant here, but I get a lot of compliments!
Hi P<3! *hugs* come to join this pleasant day we're having here at Mayo's?
Pull up a chair hun!
thank god you lost the war.
Cupcake, yet again, I can only stay a few minutes. I must work today, then I'm going skating with some friends.
*pulls up a stool*
*pours self a cup of coffee*
Anon at 11:11 am. Oh yes, the tooth fairy already told me last night that Gerard and Lyn-Z split. *rolls eyes*
Hey Cupcake, hey Siobhan. Hey Paperheart! ^_^ Hi Elena!
I read your comment and to a point I agree. OTOH I don't think that Mayo is pretending. These blogs are vague enough, and the situations common enough (fights, betrayal, disapointment,) that we all deal with them on a daily basis.
Anonymous said...
what if the anonymousie was speaking the truth last night? what if mayo recognized a phrase the anonymousie had used when speaking to him in person when expressing their concerns or doubts about the marriage?
Even if I believed for a second that Gerard Way would keep a blog and talk to uncool people like us? Even if Mayo hadn't said in so many words that he wasn't Gerard Way? Yeah, I still wouldn't buy that. You people have an agenda. yes, we all speculate and we take what he says in interviews and we get frustrated and angry (and worried that he is going to up and die, there, I said it.) But to imply that you know the dude to give yourself more credibility and then say those things is pretty low. Speculation may be presumptuous, but it is one thing. (And is one thing that could have saved someone once, but partly because a few idiots were in so much denial over the dude, no one bothered.) Playing this credibility game is another.
perhaps that is why he feels betrayed? not so smart are you now K?
Actually, I'm still pretty goddamn smart.
your such a bitch you make k look like a fucking saint!
It's "you're", you assheaded rodeo clown.
Well, off to the grocery store! ^_^ Gotta get some barley tea for The Boychild*, it is what he drank in Korea. Well, if it's out there, I will find it!
*K has been made googley-eyed... over a baby! O_o
Elena, perhaps you're like me.
Damn it if I don't care about everybody.
I just do.... I get mad at them, I yell I stomp my little foot, I express my opinions, but always, I care.
Have a good trip to the store Kapunua!
You're not silly Elena, but I care more about people I really know or have a connection with like you people here.
I can emotionally connect to those people, not to some unattainable rock singer.
At least not anymore.
I can admire their work and things they say or do, but it's not my job to care if Gerard married the right person or if he had a proper breakfast today. I'm not his babysitter. I'm not his fan (anymore). It's not that I wish him to be dead or that bad things happen to him, but I have other things to do than worry about his love life or if he feels good or bad.
If that makes me a bad person, than be it so.
Sioban I never said you were a bad person so please don't think that is what I believe. I was just explaining myself to you.
Cupcake sometimes its hard caring about people but I've tried not to and I can't. I care about people I know and I care about people I've never met. Some would say that makes me an idiot. I can accept that. I think I'm an idiot sometimes. We are what we are. I've learned to accept the way I am.
Cupcake sometimes its hard caring about people but I've tried not to and I can't. I care about people I know and I care about people I've never met. Some would say that makes me an idiot. I can accept that. I think I'm an idiot sometimes. We are what we are. I've learned to accept the way I am.
Elena, I understand what you and Siobhan are both saying. You want to care but you can't, or you don't want to care but you do. Or you just care about everyone. ( what I just said confused me a little ).
I hope that you all enjoy your day today. I'm off to get ready for work, then skating after work.
All my love;
- 007
<3
I think I'm emotionally connected to pretty much everyone...
I'm just very empathetic.
It doesn't mean I wish to get close to everyone, I don't....
But if they're in pain, i feel for them.
Of course if someone screws me over that feeling of caring decreases, though I rarely wish anyone harm.
Have fun p<3!
Have a good day Paper. Be careful!!
I do hope P<3 is careful....
Skating is tricky, I always fall on my ass.
Me too Cupcake. I like to skate but I'm not good at it at all!!
Elena I went Ice skating once and never fell! my secret? I held tight to the rail with both hands and stuck my butt out the whole time! hehe
I don't wish anyone harm, either! And I would help anyone in need if possible.
I have empathy for strangers, who were harmed or died, but it's not that I think about them for days and sit there in grief all day long.
And I don't worry about them all day long.
And I also don't think that this is healthy. Not at all!
Hey, upsetting post Mayo. I was hoping you would be happy towards the end of the new year.
But what caught my eye most is the new person Alice. I think i know who she is. I may be wrong but i think its my friend who stopped talking to me for no reason. Please get in touch "alice" i still want to be friends.
Hope everyone else is ok
Hello SIM
How are you?
Yeah, Mayo's post is upsetting to say the least.
Of course you don't wish anyone harm Siobhan honey, we know that.
So, what is it that isn't healthy? sitting for days worrying about strangers?
Well no, not healthy at all. But that's how it is for some people, I'm not quite that bad.
Hello SIM *hugs*
Hey Cupcake!!!! How are you feeling? You had a nice xmas?
Hey Elena, How are you? What a lovely picture you have there :)
Ya know its funny when ever i read mayo's posts i really take to heart what he has said and it upsets me so much, its weird, sometimes he writes what could be my life and things going on with it. Guess its just like horoscopes where they can apply to anybody and everybody, haha mayo's post feel like that to me.
I want Alice to come back, im sure its someone i had been talking to for the past 6months.... i could be wrong. Not sure whether i hope i am wrong or not....
I'm doing ok SIM, My xmas was surprisingly lovely.
And it's hard not to take it to heart when Mayo posts, it's been so long that we've been here... well it feels like forever.
And I hope you're well SIM! XD
Mayonaise said...
I put my faith in someone.
I was wrong.
December 29, 2007 1:37 AM
Hello, I just wanted to come in for a mmoment and say to Mayo- I am sorry. I did not see his comment when I came in earlier last night. I was already upset by something in regard and his unnerving blog just pushed me futher. I can only wonder if that person was worthy of his faith. Or if they were and he simply jumped ship too soon. I have no idea, and it is making me feel for lack of a better word -unnerved.
I hope everyone is doing well, Mayo too. Goodnight -still as I have yet to go to bed. If I do not come back on for a while, I wish everyone a Happy and Healthy New Year. -L
Thankyou cuppers :) You look lovely on your picture. Hey can you do me a favour? If alice is on when i am not here can you ask her if she knows me? I dont know maybe that wont work, she doesnt seem to want to answer mymessages anymore though... hmmm i dont know what to do.... I have a feeling things are gonna get very interesting
I have to go now!
Bye, girls!
Thank you SIM! And I will try that for you if I can. :)
Hi and bye Lewis XD
And Bye bye Siobhan! *hugs*
Hi all
Anonymous said...
Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
He's been a good sport remaining silent while you all shit talk him and his wife. Someone has said something that touched a nerve. He's had enough.
December 29, 2007 10:20 AM
If Mayo was GW he should have gotten mad about our earlier talk what has been said recently was nice compared to earlier things said. By us or anons.
Well beauties of blogville I must go now, it's been interesting! hugs for you ALL.
:)
MAYO, one last word to you dear, before I go.
I wish you bluebirds, in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love.
Damn, I wish you all love.
xoxo Cupcake
So Mayo did I touch a nerve with what I said last night? Truth hurts doesn't it?
You don't want to sign in?
I don't know what you are talking about. This is between me and Mayo.
Miss t I hope that you still come by and lurk. I want you to know that we all miss you and want you to come back. We are here for you all you have to do is talk. At the very least let us know you are alright.
Your leader tried to shut me up yesterday and accused me of pretending to know Mayo. Well I do know him and as you can see he didn't like what I had to say.
Don't judge me because I came over from Buzznet. Hear me out. Part one. Bert and Gerard.
As someone who was around these people, I can say without a doubt in my mind that Gerard is in fact gay. He probably by now convinced himself that he is one of those 'bisexual drunks' but Gerard has been drinking again lately and he has not returned to his 'bisexual ways' because they don't fit in with his new image. Gerard is all about the image. Bert is a true bisexual with nothing to prove. Think about the things they pulled together on AND off the stage and why Bert was in on it. Bert's band, the Used, does not have any "anti homophobe" agenda LOL. Bert was in it with Gerard because he WANTED to be. and so did Gerard at the time. Don't think for a second that Reprise wasn't behind their split. Reprise pushed the whole 'sober in 18 days' thing (even though Gerard was sober for 18 days does NOT mean he stayed like that once the 18 days were up).. And Bert was seen as being bad for Gerard's new 'sober image' so off he went. Poor Bert. I would be pissed too. Bert is really pure in that way, when he's pissed you know he's pissed, when he loves you you know he loves you, when he's drunk you know he's drunk etc etc.... Think that only one or two songs on Lies For The Liars is about Gerard? Think again. "Find a WAY"? "Hospital"? Listen to the words, listen to what they're really saying. Listen to the things said in the background. Look at "Pretty Handsome Awkward". "Hey ARE YOU OKAY? You look pretty low." Listen to "With Me Tonight". "When you are low, I am NOT OKAY." Most of the songs are about Gerard. Back to Gerard being gay, aside from the fact that what he had with Bert was something REAL, (anyone who knew them knew that as much as Gerard denied it, they weren't 'just joking), look at his high profile NOT REAL last two relationships.
Part two, Gerard and the women he uses. I say 'not real' because look at how Gerard treats women as opposed to how he treats the men in his life. He was sober and trying really hard when he was with Eliza. Eliza was sober. She didn't have a lot of class and she was frumpy and maybe she was even greedy and an attention whore, but Gerard used her. They were sober together. She talked to him, she could hold a conversation. Her head was not totally empty. She was his 'sober partner'.. But eventually Gerard started slipping. He also wanted to change his image. He wants to leave behind the teeny crowd and be more dangerous and less 'childish'. And all of a sudden Eliza was no use to him anymore. So he ditches her like he ditched Bert. Bad for his image.
So now Gerard is back to drinking and he wants his new image to be more hardcore and 'dangerous'. Along comes Lyn Z who is perfect for him at this stage. She doesn't challenge the drinking. She is in this crazyass group with a violent sexual image. She can help Gerard leave his 'old image' behind. Has anyone ever met the girl and talked to her for more than a couple of minutes? I mean about things aside from bands and the weather and other simple subjects. She's not mean but she's definitely not smart. She doesn't have two brain cells to rub together, she's just a non thinking party chick, she would never actually fight with Gerard if she thought he was making the wrong choice. She would just make the choice with him.They are perfect for each other because he wants a new image and for his bad choices to not be challenged, and she wants her band to get bigger. Perfect, but where does that fit in with Gerard being gay?
Its simple. Gerard uses women. But he falls in love with men. His relationships with men are the real thing, if he ever had any feelings at all 'in that cave he calls a chest' lol, it was for Bert. And probably for the girl most of you know as 'Kat' but that was a different story, of course he loved her in a way, he was a simpler person back then.
Part three, Frank? Sorry girls, Frerard isn't going to happen in real life any more. That's not to say that they weren't really close or that back in the simpler days they didn't really love each other. The way young, innocent people do love each other, actually fall in love with each other. I'm not outright saying they actually did it but there was love. You could see it in the way they would do caring things for each other (Frank more than Gerard though. Gerard was too much of a mess to really give too much).. The way Frank would indulge Gerard by D&Ding with him to pass the time, no matter how stupid Gerard got about it, even if it made Frank feel stupid sometimes. The way Gerard would amuse Frank anytime he got sick. The way they used to cover for each other and have each others backs. But Gerard got lost in his ever changing image and if he doesn't know who he is, then how can Frank even help him anymore? No one can, because Gerard is known for pushing people away who challenge him too much when he REALLY needs to be challenged.
Let's keep on talking about Frank, why do you think he is in the band? I'm not saying that he's not a valuable part of it because he HAS BECOME one over the years. But in the beginning, don't think for a second that Ray couldn't handle all the guitar work himself. He could. Who do you think it was that talked them into getting a second guitarist? Who do you think it was that wanted Frank? The person who actually knows the very LEAST about what it takes to build guitar parts for songs. Gerard. Frank can definitely play the guitar and he is an underrated guitar player. Most guitarists can tell you that, he doesn't get half the recognition he should for his talent. But Gerard didn't know that, at least not in the beginning, the guy hardly knew anything about music. He was just bossy and really pushy. Gerard likes to think he knows how to make incredible music and he might make some suggestions, but in the end its Ray making the decisions and sometimes letting Gerard think that they were actually Gerard's decisions LOL. Even though Frank is really great at what he does, Ray was fine in the beginning as the only guitarist, he totally could have handled it. He could have written AND played all of the important parts. But Gerard wanted Frank. Just like he wanted his baby brother in the band and basically pushed him to play bass for them, even though Mikey's definitely not the best bass player there is. Gerard knew tons of musicians when they were starting the band, he could have picked any bass player that would have blown Mikey's skills totally away. But he wanted his kid brother to go with him. Gerard gets what he wants.
You guys are right to think that Frank is a really great guy though, he honestly honestly is. And when he's out there meeting up with you all and smiling and hugging you all, don't go thinking that it's because he wants to keep his image or sell more records. He does it because he's still that music fan himself and he knows how much it means when your favorite band actually chills and talks to you like a human being. He does that because he honestly cares about how people feel. He does it when he's sick and tired and he could be off making out with his girl or having a cigarette or sleeping. Because he really cares about you guys instead of just his image. Frank actually doesn't have an image.
just something for y'all to think about.
Mayo,
I don't know what to say.
Who has made you feel like this.....tell me and I'll get out my spud-gun!
Sorry, I'm not really trying to make light of it. I always do that in difficult situatons when I'm at a loss for words....bad habit!
Is it something someone said here?
If so please don't let it cloud your view of all and don't even think about leaving us.
Please don't let this stop you putting your faith in people. It's not always wrong. I know it crushes you when it is, but without faith in the good in people where would we be? What might we miss out on?
Just let me know you're okay somehow. Please...I'm worried about you now,sweetie!
Much Love!
Oh,bloody hell.
Bloody hell is right. >_<
I'm a leader now? Wow, that's hot. I hope I get a good uniform or insignia or something.
No, idiot: A leader was Benazir Bhutto. I'm just a blogger who intimidates you into remaining anonymous. And I wasn't trying to shut you up, hell, say what you want. I'm just calling you on it.
See, this is what I hate, the "I'm an insider" thing. No you're not. You're here to stir some Gerard Way drama by pretending that you have some credibility. Also, you're doing it in the wrong place. This is not Gerard Way's blog. This dude is some guy we sorta semi know and in some weird random way, care about. Clearly, you don't.
Lemme ask you something else, anon. Are you one of the regulars who was mouthing off yesterday and you think that his post might be directed towards you, so you're trying to deflect by pretending you're someone else? Just a thought.
Me? I saw what the hell I mean. If that pisses people off, well, what can you do? I say it under my name. People know who the hell I am and where they stand with me, and I with them. I do not change my opinion or start wheedling someone when they walk into the room. If the situation is too tense I'll just let it be for a while. But to hide behind anonymity to deflect tension, that's silly.
Why are you so afraid? If you were telling the truth, you would have nothing to be afraid of.
Hello DG.
Anon a lot of the things you are saying I have heard before. As far as GW being gay that is not a concern of mine. Not that I don't care. It's not the sex of ther person he may like that concerns me it's the type of person they are.
Mayo, I'm sure there are two sides to this story, but I kinda feel bad that someone betrayed you. I hope you're looking at it from all angles, taking yourself out of the situation etc. and all that other stuff one is supposed to do when faced with a decision like walking away.
But I'm still kinda sad for you today, having been down that road.
Anyways, here's my awesome idea.
The idea is to get our host back on the ROFLcopter, back into LOLlerskates, taking a ride on the LOLlercoaster.
So post the funniest goddamn thing you have ever seen and put it under something lame like LOLlerskates for Mayo.
So it's probably not going to help, and it's definitely not going to cure the situation, but it might be a nice distraction, which we all need once in a while, right? And if nothing else, we'll probably crack each other up at some point.
Anyone wants to play?
These aren't my funny offerings, but they are kinda cute:
LOLlercoaster.
LOLlerskates
ROFLcopter.
Hi Kapu. I would join in in the funny story but all of mine are the you had to be there for it to be funny kind.
It's 11 seconds long, and completely worth it. If you're a little sadistic, I mean. ^_^
LOLlerskates for Mayo
Monty Python's tinny and woody words.
The Wii Is Gone.
I wonder what's for dinner? YOUR FACE.
THE BALLS ARE INERT.
MENERGY! (The source of many inside jokes and one-liners tossed around my Kung Fu class.) "THEY'LL BE GOOD AT SPORTS! ARRRGH!" "TURBOPUNS!" You will want to kick someone in the face with your ENERGY LEGS.
IT'S CORNY AND IT'S FOR MAYO:
Two pieces of string walk into a bar and the bartender looks at them suspiciously. He says "Sorry, boys, we don't serve your kind here." So the pieces of string walk out again.
They're sitting in the gutter outside and feeling really thirsty when one piece of string says, "Hey! I've got an idea to get me into the bar."
So he starts twisting and turning, wriggling this way and that, pulling out a few threads here and there, rakishly ruffling himself up. His friend is looking at him and thinks he's gone completely nuts.
Then the piece of string walks back into the bar. The bartender looks at him a little suspiciously again and says "Hey, you're not a piece of string, are you?"
The piece of string replies "No, I'm a frayed knot."
RAHAHAHA!
Yes that was wrong but oh so funny. Have you seen the one where the kid sticks the firecracker up his ass and lights it.
Because it's cute and funny.
Mayo:
Longmire's Romance Novel Covers.
More covers.
The naughty ones.
Okay, I gotta run to see Boychild! Back later!
Aw,give him a high five from me.
Talk to you later.
Holy crap. When the hell went on last night? O_O
Mayo, thank you for taking a moment to talk to us. I hope everything gets sorted out soon. We've all been in your shoes every once in a while, y'know? We know what it's like. It feels shitty. We're always here if you need to talk. Get it all out, love. Don't keep it in.
No, Kapunua, I don't want to play.
And I will tell you why.
Whatever is going on right now with Mayo, he is hurting, he is angry, and simply trying to throw out a few "LOLs" are not going to change that.
You write of speaking your mind, of what you believe in, and if that upsets someone, so be it.
There is a fine line between speaking your mind with emotional conviction and ramming opinions down someone's throat.
I honestly do not know what has happened in the last month, but I have seen you change from a caring decent person to someone who believes they can ridicule, mock, attack and blaze a trail through common decency all in the name of principles and integrity.
Integrity is getting your point across without making the other person feel like they have to hold up a shield to defend their own words and opinions. Because whether you know it or not, you have begun using words as weapons, sharp stinging, hurtful words that don't need to be used. This is not a battle of who is right and who is wrong.
Miss T. has left us for a while, and you have not even so much as asked about her. So many others on here have had problems, issues that they could have used your wisdom and words of comfort. But you choose to withhold those.
Because believe it or not, Kapunua, I liked you immensely. I admired that you had convictions and spoke your mind. I believe you have much to say and can be a great friend. But this past month, something has changed. You may say nothing has, that you don't change, but you have.
So as for cheering up Mayo, I am all for that, but I don't believe now is the time to be silly or flippant. I am worried about him. Many of us are. Something went down yesterday that had a great impact on him.
I too speak my mind, Kapunua, you know that by now. But I do try, most of the time to judge what impact my words will have. I misjudged them earlier this month, and I regreted that deeply.
I am only being honest. I do wish you could see that people here do like you, but you cannot keep lashing out without losing the friendships you have built.
Love. Hope. Faith.
L.
P.S. This is from J.- "I saw that you answered my comment last night, and again you missed my point. My issue was not about free speach.
My issue was with your rudeness with Mya.
But I think L. covered that nicely."
hello guys!
how are we all today?must say i've not been able to shake mayos post from my mind all day! why should it effect me so much, well us so much??it does though!
anyway i'm gonna have a catch up.
Wait, what? What's happened to Miss T? I didn't see her at all yesterday.
Someone fill me in please?
hello bloggers, i don't intend to intrude on your totally inestse commenting, but i've read it and i am most definatly intruiged.
anonymous, whoever the fuck you are that wrote that very long message, i want to thank you for it. whether or not this is gerard's blog or not, which i seriously doubt, you have put all my ideas and thoughts into words, which i am grateful for, and also a little creeped at how you seemed to read my mind. i love that feeling that you gave off in those paragraphs, like mcr is full of secrets very few feel like knowing about, and it's cool you figured out how to organize it into words because i sure as hell couldn't.
i'm from buzznet too, and i don't know if that's looked down upon here, but i garuntee i am no mcr teenie that wants to cross paths with some dude that likes to sing, because that's really all he is.
mayo, i read your blogs and like everyone here, enjoyed them very much. rockstar or not, you can write, which is great.
you guys seem very nice. i shall return!!
And Anon at 1:22 p.m.,
If you go back several blogs, you will find the EXACT same thing you just posted, word for word, from an Anon. So unless you are repeating yourself to get your point across, you have just cut and pasted something from about 2 months ago.
Just thought you would like to know.
L.
Hello FASC, OP's, dominerik, and anyone else. I hope everything is okay, yeah?
Things have been getting a bit heated.
Well, this always cheers me up, and it might help with your anger--just mimic the Zac and dance that anger out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rL37snqMJx8
CTV,
Miss T. needed a break. Her blog is gone now too. DG got an e-mail from her. We e-mailed her as well, but haven't heard back yet.
FASC,
I know. There is too much hurt coming off this post. I don't know what has happened, but I know it's not good.
Hello, Carrie. Hope you are well.
Love,
L.
hi CTV, L,carrie, dominerik.
i'm still catching up!!
Thanks, L. I'll try and email her too.
This entry's got me feeling a little down, y'know? All the stuff that's been going on here hasn't helped.
On another note, Frank played on stage with the Bouncing Souls last night. Just to lighten the atmosphere here a little.
I will be back on later. I have a few errands to run.
Please, everyone, take a moment and think about each other and the Family we have here. We may be Misfits, but we are Misfits together.
That means EVERYONE. Mayo, SS, bloggers, you too Kapunua.
I may not like what you have been doing, but that doesn't mean I don't care for you.
Love. Hope. Faith.
L.
Hey FASC. How've you been?
Take care, L.
I just have such an overwhelming feeling of sadness. It sucks feeling this way and knowing there is nothing I can do to fix the problem.
Mayo I am thinking about you and sending all the positive thoughts and feelings I can muster.
Hi guys. Only here for but a moment.
I emailed MissT and did not hear from her yet. If anybody talks to her again, please tell her I miss her and her boobies. The blogs just aren't the same without someone streaking through them.
Mayo, my friend, how are you today? Are you feeling better? I'm still holding that bucket of water to put out the match I fear you might strike. My doormat says "welcome" as in "come on in, friend." Did your doormat hide the key to your heart?
Be good to yourself. New Years is just a few days away. Try to have fun.
sorry i've been catching up on everything!
hi ctv i'm great (ish)!
elena i feel that sadness its too horrible!
Hey FASC I just e-mailed you!
I know Mayo won't give us a new post for a few days but I'm hoping things get better for him.
He's too nice of a guy to feel this bad.
Fimble Star opinion of Mayo’s
Everybody has a place at the table. There is a place setting for each and everyone of the wonderful people here. Sat at the head of the table is mayo because after all it is his house (I hope the host is happy that his house surely is the house to be in).
People are laughing with one and other about the jokes they share, the experiences they have had.
People are talking about their interests and their life stories which everyone has and treasure dear to their heart but are kind enough to share with their friends.
People are also debating their points of view, whether they are right or wrong it is what they believe in and that in its own right is powerful to have their own opinions.
At the table there are many different dishes to be eaten, from all over the world and from different cultures. The seats at the table are occupied at different times and now one is ever sat down all together but their spirits are still there, after all there is a name tag and a seat for everyone.
All of the noise at the table sometimes makes it hard to hear someone who is desperately trying to be heard, they may be feeling out of it or just a wee bit low at this time and there may be an empty space where they are sat but deep down they know that the table is not complete without them. If one person is missing from the table then we all feel a lose especially when each and every person brings that special quality that they have. Whether is be kindness, laughter, words of wisdom or just simply caring for one and other, each person is valued for being them. Emotions run wild yet are felt by everyone, if one person is down then we are all down and help pick the pieces up.
That is what is special about this house and this family. The table was set 4 months ago and it is still going strong, people enjoy visiting to speak to their friends and also people that they don’t normally speak to because of the time zones.
MAYO you should feel prod that you have helped so many people not just in life but within themselves.
SS you are in the family as well, you may not be here as often but you are always here in our hearts and ours thoughts.
To the empty spaces, we know you are full at the time being but the space will always be there for YOU. Never forget that you are a part of this as much as any of us and as much as Mayo and SS.
I will pour you a drink ready for your return!
*sorry for the long post
mayo,
i've been reading all the comments people are leaving today for you, and there's so much worry and so much concern.
however, i myself trust that you're alright. yes, this is an angry post. you have every right to every emotion, and even if this is partially directed at something that has been said here on the blogs, i'm not worried.
i can't be.
you have many facets, but you don't seem to be fickle. and so as much as i have empathy for you with this post, i also have faith in your previous ones.
"from the corner."
i will never forget it.
hey everybody. can you believe it? i got a comment box!
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