The catalyst of confusion
started a fire
while shopping for
a soul on a high wire.
Until now I was unaware that the remuneration for impropriety exceeded that set for dignity. How much did you get for yours? As for my dignity…I will hold onto it, thank you. I would rather starve than feed my soul from a base wage.
With my voice in repose, I hid behind my own forbearing shadow, and allowed silence to foster absolution. Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
I am not so completely unaware. Because I am certain that is common knowledge, your recent presentment was, quite frankly, out of line. Your bravado flames me.
As it happened, I had simply misplaced the why, where, and how. I can identify the sickness in that statement, and I concede fault in my volition. I understand that I can be fucking difficult. My own scathing behavior must remain in constant check.
I am not able to take back that fleeting moment or the injustice it served you. I have arrived at the place from where I must move on. I wish you the same in your departure.
p.s. a fucking doormat.
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No plans KD. I just started watching L&O CI miss t
Hi Kapunua, how are you?
Thanks KD, a big hug for you too.
Mayo
My friend 2007 is almost over. Are you looking back? Are you thinking about all the changes that happened during the year? Were they good changes? Was the year everything you hoped for?
Gotta tell you I hate New Years. The whole lets look back and think. Shit I don’t wanna look back I wanna look ahead. Notice how I said that’s what I want to do? Yep you guessed it; it’s not what I do. I’m always peeking back over my shoulder. Looking at everything that has happened and wondering it I could have or should have done things differently. Why do that? Can’t go back and change anything. So why spend time thinking about it?
I guess people do it with the whole “I will do better this year” thought in mind. Once again I roll my eyes. I do that a lot. Been around a lot of New Years and so far that doesn’t really work. I’m not a quitter but maybe I’m just facing the truth. Just because it’s a New Year starting doesn’t magically mean I’m gonna change. Wait something about teaching an old dog new tricks comes to mind. Well hell I do believe I just compared myself to an old dog. First I call you a turtle now I call myself a dog. What’s with me and the animals? Rambling again aren’t I? Yep, and I haven’t even hit the liquor yet. This is not a good sign.
Mayo, I think the whole point of this is to tell you I don’t think you should look back. Look ahead, always look ahead. The past is past. Let it go. Move ahead. Move along. No middle of the road for you my turtle friend. You know your path; you know what deep down makes you happy. I believe you are a good person. No wait, let me change that. I know you are a good person. Be that person. Be happy. Much love to you.
Elena
hello everyone
I'm good, MissT. And you know what? I don't usually observe New Years, but I would really like to say goodbye to '07 and punch it in the vagina on its way out.
Guys, we're having a party on Mayo's porch tonight. I'm going to bring them some tea.
Mayo is in his tower, but Mustard has an inkling that he might come downstairs sometime tonight. What do you guys think? I don't think so. I think he will stay in his tower with a glass of champagne and maybe toast us silently as he watches from the window or something.
What do you think?
Hello BC and Elena and Happy NYE. I hope you have fun KD.
Hi KD MJ MissT Elena CTV DG Andrea nice anon
and anyone else !!
Happy New Year !!! to the UK er's and Happy Nearly new Year to the US ers
Hi BC, how are you?
Anonymous said...
Your going to hate me for this Kapu so I'm sorry. Because I dont want to sign in and make more trouble but I HAVE to say this. Who knows maybe you won't be mad. Who knows.
HOW COME..... you called someone an idiot and the OPS said that you were bad mean and angry and saying godawful things..... but when Gerard does it its all 'oh he is still such a good person and we love him and want to help him so much......'
Plus they were the one's slagging off his wife the worst in the last post. It seems wrong.
I AM SORRY. I know you're supposed to be brave and post things with your real name but I don't want ot start any more shit I just had to say it.
OK you can forget it all now and let it go but I HAD to say it because it's been bothering me.
December 31, 2007 6:03 PM
Just wanted to answer this comment to clear things up a bit. We are fairly sure we know who wrote it, and it's perfectly fine to write this, we don't mind at all. You are entiltled to your opinions, and you brought up a good point.
First of all, I never said I didn't like Kapunua, as a matter of fact, I stated the opposite. I just didn't agree with some of the things she stated and the way it was stated.
As for G., I don't like many of the things he is saying on stage right now or the way he is acting. But I do like the man.
And J. does concede that she should not have said the things she did about his wife. She does not know her, nor do I, and that was uncalled for. She does apologize for any hurtful words. So that will not happpen again.
Hopefully we can all begin 2008 with a fresh start.
Love,
L.
and FS and BC
Happy aussie new year!!
Hello Ep and Happy New Year to you
Good evening, everyone,
and Happy New Year and Bob's Birthday!
Hope everyone is doing well tonight. Me, piece of cake, classical music in the background, pjs, yeah, not too exciting, but hey, it's comfy!
Love,
L.
Hi there Katherine, K, Miss T(Where have you been? I missed you!) Ergo, MJ, anons, OP, everyone else. Happy New year guys.
Miss T, I am doing great, just stuffing my face with food at the moment. I'm about to go get some ice cream. How are you? I missed you :)
Hello L & J Happy NYE
Elena, and Miss T.,
J. said to tell you she owes you both e-mails, and that she will send them tomorrow.
Love,
L.
Over on the porch people are complaining about bugs. BUGS, I tell you. But it's freezing. Well all right, maybe it's warm now, but it will snow at midnight, how about that?
I kinda almost a little bit like the idea of Mayo in some creepy tower while we are at his castle--which has a porch--and he peeks out once in a while; sometimes you can see the curtains part. Or not, and just a silhouette. Also I think Mayo's got dogs up there with him. Wolves. And bats.
Riaa sucks ass. I hope someone brings them down down. Greedy as pigs.
L tell J - Okay I'll be looking for an e-mail.
Hope you both have a great New Years eve.
Happy new year J and L
Hello, BC, KD (J says HI!, too) and NYE too, Martha!
L.
I know, KD. And what really blows is that most of the bands I like have albums that are released by RIAA companies.
So now they're basically telling you that you can't listen to music at all on your computer or your iPod. That even after you buy it, it's not yours listen to in the format of your choice.
What's next? Not being allowed to play CDs when your friends come over? Because you know, then your friends would be getting free music.
They're idiots.
Hi Elena, ergo, L, how are you?
I missed you too BC. I had to have a break.
L, say Hi to J for me. I'll look out for the email.
MJ, the RIAA does suck ass. All they hope to achieve is embezzle money from us regular folks. It's just sickening.
Hi there L. Hi L.
Elena, Ergo, New Year's Eve too. Actually, it's already New Years for you isn't it Ergo?
Love,
L.
Kapunua how pray tell would they police that?
Miss T, I'm happy to have you back. As for your break, I completely understand. It's good to have you back though :)
K, that sucks. It sucks that these people worry about losing profits through whatever means they deem necessary. I hate corporate america.
sure is us aussies and NZ celebrated 12+ hours ago!
and the UK nearly an hour ago so europe was earlier still.
Whats the time there L?
Hey MissT
Wonder what good old Mayo is doing for New Years Eve.
I have no idea, Ergo. Did you read that article though? It's insane.
Ergo,
We are on Easten Standard Time here in the States, and it matches the time on the blog, so it's 8:09 p.m. on New Year's Eve.
Love,
L.
Hi there Ergo, Elena. Happy new year's
I'm off to do some cooking (mini sausage rolls)for a NYday thing this afternoon
back later
and Thank you KASS for my kiss!!
Hey Miss T, BC.
I can't believe the deal with loading CDs on the computer. I figure after you buy it, that puppy is yours to do with as you wish as long as you don't make 100 copies and sell 'em on the sidewalk.
Love,
L.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Mayo, SS and all my friends in BlogBelieve:
I hope 2008 brings you all you wish for and more. Here's hoping it's a better one for all of us!
Right back at you BC....Happy New Year.
Hey Ergo....
Thank you BC, I missed you too sweetie.
Elena, I hope he's working on a new blog. This one's getting a bit slow to load.
Kapunua has already said something simliar but I'd also like to apologise for my long winded comment yesterday. I realise that reading it took three days of your life that you'll never get back
But thanks for reading it.
Mya, I applaud you for speaking your mind.
Always and forever anonymous
At least I know who some of my angry anons are now, Mya. Thanks for the info. ^_^
I've come in from the porch to look for some food for the porch-partiers. I'm going to check in the fridge. Hell, in the food storage room.*
Do we have any nice finger food in here? What the hell is this... Kool Aid? To hell with that.
Chips and dip. Perfecto.
*Kapunua does not know where food is kept in castles.
Thanks Elena. Miss T, you are welcome :)
Yes I agree Mya. Count me in. Ugly too.
Hello Dg and mya Happy NYE
Happy New Year to you too, DG.
How goes it?
Love,
L.
Oh, DG, J. said for me to tell you she owes you an e-mail as well tomorrow.
(L. is now playing the part of J.'s secretary tonight for the early New Year's Eve production...)
^_~
Love,
L.
And all of her stupid followers did you notice that? Fucking STUPID followers who follow her around like sheep, fucking SHEEP. It makes me ill
wpt-rnpt nfr !!!!!!
Happy New Year DG.
Miss T.,
Any luck getting the neighbor to calm down tonight? Or are they still blasting the music?
Love,
L.
happy new year mya. dg, where are you?
Anon really. You know agreeing with someone while hiding behind ANON is kinda a bitch ass move.
It's like watching someone do something and standing in the shadows egging them on.
Just stop already. Fuck you people run things into the ground.
Anon shut the hell up. That comment from may wasn't for you it was to Kapu. What is going on is between the two of them. So shut up.
Did someone call?
*looks sheepish*
We AIMing it tonight, guys?
L, he is quiet at the moment but when he staggers home from the pub, the music will be on full blast.
Proving my point!!!!
Anonymous said...
Yes I agree Mya. Count me in. Ugly too.
So you agree that Kapunua is being a bitch, yet you lower yourself far below her level in the very next sentence!!
*licks Katherine's hand* yummy...
Fighting on NYE is baaaaaaaad!
Baaaaaad!
Guys, please don't worry about it or let it upset you. I've got it figured out; it's cool. ^_^ I know the score, so it doesn't mean anything to me. :)
Hi there party sheep. Nice to meet you. Baaaaa ^__^
I agree too.
Words of wisdom, KD, as always.
Miss T.
Can't you be watching for him to come in and using a well placed rock, chuck it at him to knock him out for the better part of the night BEFORE he gets to the stereo? :) Or chuck it at the stereo while he's gone?
What kind of music does he play? J. was about run nuts one night by her upstairs neighbor in Atlanta who came home at midnight or so and played the Whitney Houston song 'Waiting to Exhale' for 6 straight hours.
The mere mention of that song now causes J.'s eye to twitch...
L.
Parteeee Sheep!
Any one know where Shaunette is with all her glittery?
Baa.
L.
L, me my mum and my sis actually sat down Christmas Eve while he had his music on and planned how we would wait for it to get really cold, the pour water on his doorstep so it would turn to ice and he would break his neck.
Damn global warming though. My mum said, when we end up in prison, we'll remember this conversation.
He plays shitty pop music for kids. S club 7, it makes me cringe.
COurt jester's is true. They dance for her it makes me sick.
Hey guys!
I'll look out for it L (tell J!)
BC: I'm here, loading slow tonight. Apparently my virtual memory is low.....cheeky beggars I hope they mean the laptop!
Everyone okay?
Thanks for the new year wishes!
*ears prick up*
Shaunette? My beloved pool sheep?
I love her, I want her to have my baby lambies!
L, if I had to listen to Whitney, I would suffer a total breakdown. J is a stronger woman than I am.
Miss T, he actually plays that kind of crap music? Ha!
Well, Miss T., I don't want you to go to jail, but it looks like playing shitty pop music alone should get this guy arrested.
Man, kept up all night and not even good music to listen too...
Do earplugs help at all?
L.
Aha!So that's where you been hiding Dg. How are you? I'm okay. I missed you *hugs*
Party sheep, how are you? Baaa!
wtf is mayo's new post below this one. i just read it at the top now it's below this one.
Miss t maybe you can report him to the RIAA. I'm sure he stole most of the music.
I agree BC ha!
L, I've tried earplugs of every shape and size. You can feel it as much as hear it when he has the bass turned up loud.
Miss T.,
J. actually went outside at 3 a.m., stood out in the parking lot and yelled "TURN THAT FUCKING SHIT OFF!!" at her neighbor's window.
Didn't help, but she felt a little better.
I say you fight fire with fire. Turn your stereo toward his house, and full blast some Gallows, Sex Pistols, AC/DC, any hardcore stuff.
L.
There is a new one, guys!
KD, nice idea.
MJ, I'm sure he stole most of the things in his house.
L, I know how J feels. There have been times when my mum has had to chase me and physically drag me back to stop me putting a brick through his window.
Blasting him back would do no good cos it's keep mum up all night, also he puts his music on then falls into a drunken sleep so he wouldn;t hear it anyway.
mj, lol.
Wait. Miss T, does this guy turn the volume up when he's playing s club 7? XD
Yes he does BC, he is that retarded.
Getting this in early...
HAPPY NEW YEAR BLOGBELIEVE!
I wish nothing but the best for all of you, even Mayo and SS.
-Amyranth will be around all night!
Hello and HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
Oh, in case anyone missed it:
NEW MAYO POST
The Smoking Gun (which is mysteriously BEFORE this one)
That sneaky Mayo is a time traveler now!
I shall go there to post my TOAST!
Don't forget the champagne glasses OPs, MissT, Amy, BC, Ergo, MJ, KD....anyone else who is still in this room......
Love & Hugs to ALL!
#6
Wendy
I hope everyone is having an awesome night so far! I am a bit sloshed, but just a bit. I'm still good enough to make sure my spelling is correct! It's almost 3am here so I'm off to bed in a bit...still upset that I haven't even opened up my bottle of gin yet, but there's just no point in drinking it now while I'm in my spongebob square pants pj's and all ready for bed. lol
Mayonaise,
Well, I was in an alright mood until just recently. That's another story for another time. Mayo, I heard this song today and it made me think of you. Funny, cause it made me think of myself as well. We are our own worst enemies, right?
I posted this on the other as well, I don't know why. I just felt like if no one else understood this, you would. Hope you are okay, Mayo.
"Same Mistake"
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.
i will always be in love, nothing will ever change that.
...and I will always love too...always
Keep hope in your heart, and love who you are with *tearfully kisses you*
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