I think the hubby is actually getting me a laptop for Christmas, and you guys are the impetus! He gets tired of me wandering off all the time. Who says blogs can't change the world?
Thanks squeak squeak. I hope so too and my mom has told me before that if anything should happen to her, to not give up on my dreams and don't stop pursuing them, and right now I am taking steps to pursuing them because I want to be able to take care of them in case something happens. But enough about me.
martha, I seen the dvd sets of super gals but never purchased them. Is the show any good?
Op thank you. I'm not sure if this illness thing is weather related. My mom was born in Texas and she's used to the heat and we live in the midwest and sometimes it's like placing a polar bear and making it live in Arizona or florida or something lol
Miss T thank you and I will let you know what will happen at the doctor's. Unfortunately my mom is getting old and she's becoming more susceptible to illnesses, but she is one strong woman I will tell you. Six kids and so much stress and she barely complains. She's tough. I inherited my stubbornness directly from her ^__^
Well you guys, I am off to bed for now. Thank you for getting me through the last half of this very long day. Thank you for the words, the thoughts, and the candles. For everything.
Mayo, thank you also, for your thoughtful tribute. I really treasure it.
I have something nice on the back burner for you, Mayo, nau wale no. We all do. It got set back during this crazy and awful week, but I'll get back on it for you. I think we all will, in fact. I have a feeling we will. So hang with us a while yet ku'u hoapili, all right Ihekoa?
SS, we miss you, dear. Come back soon BB, okeee? Hope everything's all right. Pomaika'i, malihini makamae Kane Noa.
Goodnight, K. I hope Trisky joins you in your dreams tonight. She's running through the skies, exploring her new universe. I've just said her name aloud, too.
Safe journies, Trisky. I know you will enjoy your adventures. Stay free.
My apologies, Trisky, I spelled "journeys" completely wrong. Maybe you didn't catch it, hmm? Nah, probably not.
I think that I, too, will hit the hay. I have a couple notes to write to our boys, and then I'm outta here.
Goodnight to all the rest of you who're here, EP, BC, TJ, anyone else I've missed. Talk to you tomorrow. Hopefully without any shit-fan-hitting in the meantime.
You big ol' lovebug, you! I'm still so impressed with your outpouring of sympathy. Well, this is an "outpouring" for you, I guess, but it's still touching.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be here reading and writing. Count on that. I give you my full support--unless the "shit" is something colossally stupid, that is. Somehow, though, I don't think it is.
Be jappy if you can, and thanks for the sweetness tonight. Your protoctive side is showing, you little dickens!
yeah, it's such a relief, ergo! after he told me that on the phone today, i just sat here, not able to say anything. i was so stunned. he's not a bad guy.
TJ I was praying for something to come to you to give you some help, and some hope to see you through so i was so excited to see your post Got your email too - thanks :) great minds think alike!
For once in our relationship, I'm afraid I've almost run out of words.
Put simply: I'M WORRIED ABOUT YOU. I miss you. We all miss you. I can only go on what I feel, that you're all right, only tucked away somewhere with your thoughts and emotions.
As far as what I feel, well, for some reason these ideas came to me tonight.
I don't know what's going through your head right now. But, if you're trying to make up your mind about something, even something that on the surface looks promising to you but not to anyone else, you owe it to yourself to pursue that thing. If you do not, you may wake up one day and realize you regret not going after it.
Life is too short to do what others expect of you. You must be true to yourself and your instincts. What I call "gut feelings". Too many times I relied on my head instead of my heart, or my "gut", and each time I did so, I now regret those logical decisions.
Granted, not everything can be given over to emotion solely. Logic plays a part in just about every decision we make. It's human nature. But we can also overthink ourselves, and that can sometimes lead to regret if not outright disaster.
Honey, whatever's troubling you, don't give up a chance at happiness just because the "method" seems impossible, crazy, or even unconventional.
I hope some of this babble of words can help you. Hell, I hope you get to SEE this babble of words. I don't even know if you're listening.
But if you are, give yourself a chance at happiness. You deserve it more than anyone else I've ever known.
Please take care of yourself. I would love to hear from you soon.
to be honest, it was all the great comments -- like the one you wrote to me, ergo, which made me smile and cry all at once, i'll have you know! -- that made it possible for me to not lose my mind.
when i mentioned that to my ex today, he said it was a great relief to him, to know i had so many good people on my side. :)
Mayo, thank you for this post. It's honest, and it's beautiful. As much as I like to kid* you, you have a beautiful heart. Don't ever let that change.
Whatever tomorrow brings, we'll deal. Because we're a family now -- we're strong like that. The world can throw all the shit it wants to; love really does conquer all.
And that's what we've found here: love for each other, for SS, and for you. (You know by now I'm not exactly the sappy hearts-'n'-flowers type of gal, but I'm making an exception tonight in Trisky's honor.
Come what may (oh yeah!), we're here if you need us. As much as we like to kid* around, we've still got your back, babe.
G'night, everybody. And good night, Trisky. Give a nod to Minky for me.
ergo, i really like that idea, of having an abundance of comfort. (but in my head it translates into an image of a cornucopia filled with fluffy pillows. hmm.)
bed time for me now, so i'll say good night, and make my good nights to mayo, and actually turn off the computer. *gasp*
I though I would post something that this has remeinded me of for a long time. re the identity of Mayo
it's a theorum of Physics, Quantum Physics in fact, called Schrodinger's Cat
here is an explaination:
Here's Schrödinger's (theoretical) experiment: We place a living cat into a steel chamber, along with a device containing a vial of hydrocyanic acid. There is, in the chamber, a very small amount of a radioactive substance. If even a single atom of the substance decays during the test period, a relay mechanism will trip a hammer, which will, in turn, break the vial and kill the cat. The observer cannot know whether or not an atom of the substance has decayed, and consequently, cannot know whether the vial has been broken, the hydrocyanic acid released, and the cat killed.
Since we cannot know, the cat is both dead and alive according to quantum law, in a superposition of states.
It is only when we break open the box and learn the condition of the cat that the superposition is lost, and the cat becomes one or the other (dead or alive).
This situation is sometimes called quantum indeterminacy or the observer's paradox: the observation or measurement itself affects an outcome, so that the outcome as such does not exist unless the measurement is made.
(That is, there is no single outcome unless it is observed.)
In short, not knowing who mayo is allows him to exist in a state of unknown, able to be anything/ anyone.
only in observing, will his state be fixed, and the outcome becomes unchangeable.
I quite like the opportunity for mayo to be anyone, But that is our paradox.
i was re-reading tonight's title, trying to figure out the missing word. "loss"? "grief"? whatever it was, that you stepped aside is so telling about the true state of your heart. i hope that, whatever it is you have for us tomorrow, whatever it is that you put on hold, you are as kind with yourself as you were tonight.
sometimes, it's easy to wonder what kind of help a bunch of people typing words on a website can really truly be, but i can assure you, the help that comes in that fashion can be just as strengthening as a hug from a loved one.
they helped me. and if there's anything you need help with, we can help you, too. we can shore up the timbers of your spirit.
do you have something difficult to say? tell us. it will be alright. we might dither (*grin*), but we're strong, too.
if only you could know how much you've come to mean to us.
to me.
that will never be lost, no matter what happens with this blog. there's a place in my heart for you now, and a place for everyone i've met here.
i didn't know my name would be so apt when i chose it.
good night, mayo. sleep well, sleep long, sleep restfully.
MAYO, That's lovely. Really, such a beautiful gesture. But what's going to hit the fan hmmm? Be careful it's not your head, I'd miss you so. Really, we all would. XXcupcake
hello guys and mayo. that was a lovely thing to do mayo. i hope you aren't going to finish all this. i know we can continue at DM and we will. just promise us one thing mayo, if you end this please pop in to DM for a chat now and then that would be so special.
busy busy busy off to do a zillion things! hope everyone has a productive day! love to all.
All kidding/sarcasm aside: That was indeed a beautiful gesture, Mayo.
Kapunua: I'm so, so sorry for your loss. You gave Trisky the greatest gift of all..... You loved her enough to let her go.... *humongous hugs*
This one is for you and Trisky:
"I'M HERE" I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep. I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear, "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea, You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore. I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care. I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key. I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair. I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday. To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew ... in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning and say "goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see. Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me. *********
Hello to Ergo, Kass, TJ, Cupcake, SIM, SS (if he/she is lurking) and all other readers and loves!
hi it's late for me for a change (though I'm not really a night owl- or a morning person- lol- I say i'm a midday person)
hello fasc, kass anon 616 and cupcake
hoping you are well. please visit my blog and add yourself to the mayo world tour itinerary http://noneventmass.blogspot.com/2007/12/mayos-world-tour.html
and anyone else who comes along, anonymouses are welcome to, as long as you're friendly lol. and any other transient visitors
Kapunua, I’m sorry to hear about your Trisky. Please, take care and stay strong sweetie.
Mayo, what you’ve done for Kapunua was really sweet. Thank you very much.
"p.s. it can hit the fan tomorrow"
I have to admit I’m a bit worried about this, but I guess that’s what you need to do… Anyway, today is “tomorrow”. I’ll wait for your decision. Love to you as always
SS, hope you’re okay. We miss you. Love to you too
Everybody,have a great day! See you later! *HUGS & KISSES*
You have no idea how how cool this is. I woke up this morning and pulled this up and I just about freaked. I never expected that and I know K. didn't. You must like hugs and kisses from the princess.
^_^
Yes, you are that sweet.
Hugs and Kisses all day! Princess S&V20
P.S. - Please don't let the shit hit my tiara, okay?
How are you? Hmm, your title and you p.s. is a teensy weensy bit troubling for me, but I'm a worrier like that so pay me little mind if all is well. Me? I'm alright aside from my usual sinus problems and early morning grogginess. I should do my best today to buckle down and work hard. Why? I don't know. Maybe...just to keep folks guessing about me.
What an amazing gesture, this post..thank you. That was possibly the most thoughtful thing you could have done. Sorry, I wasn't around, but blogger was kicking my ass around a lot and I was doing a whole lot of sitting and not much posting.
Setting aside your own what? Loss, problems? I don't want you to ever feel like you have to do that here, Mayo. Hey, if this place can handle mine, hers, and theirs, it can also handle yours. Let us be here for you too. Okay?
Now, the p.s....It can hit the fan tomorrow? Dude, in the blink of a fucking eye it can. Only thing you can hope for is a good heads up before it does. Gives you a chance to run for cover.
Or....you stand there, you let the shit fly, you probably get soaked with shit, you wait for it to settle, and you grab a mop, some good cleaning supplies maybe a shovel or two, and you start to clean up the beautiful mess that was made. I'm guessing here that your messes are a lot like mine and you probably helped create this fantastic fan-hitting frenzy. Feel me?
You know which option I hope you'll choose. It can't smell all that bad or be all that deep.
You might have a few people who are little pissed off that they ended up with some shit on them, but if you help them get off, I'm sure they'll even help you clean up.
...I'm pretty handy dandy with a shovel, ya know?
Love to YOU Always, S
p.s. Are you sure it will be tomorrow? I also get the literal definition of the obvious. I just like playing with metaphors. Relate much?
From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a dog," or, "that's a lot of money for just a dog."
They don't understand the distance traveled,the time spent, or the costs involved for "just a dog."
Some of my proudest moments have come about with "just a dog."
Many hours have passed and my only company was "just a dog," but I did not once feel slighted.
Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by "just a dog," and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of "just a dog" gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.
If you, too, think it's "just a dog," then you will probably understand phases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise."
"Just a dog" brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy.
"Just a dog" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person.
Because of "just a dog" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.
So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a dog" but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past and the pure joy of the moment.
"Just a dog" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day.
I hope that someday they can understand thatit's not "just a dog" but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a man."
So the next time you hear the phrase "just a dog." just smile, because .. they "just don't understand."
I am so not looking for the Wickerman or The Descent ever. I'm still getting over vampire stories and the Amityville Horror from years ago. Heck even Rocky Horror messes with me.
Morning Paperheart. You have an amazing day too, sweetie.
While I remember, don't forget to visit Ergoproxy at http://noneventmass.blogspot.com.
Ergo is making a global world tour of people who visit here. She's inviting all, including mayo, SS, bloggers and anons to name the closest town or region to where you live and list somewhere essential to visit in your area.
Prime example as to why one shouldn't turn in for the night at an early hour.
I don't know what to say, honestly. Mayo, you're kinda like a super-dude. You're becoming less about you and more about us. I think we're on our way to finding "balance."
Of course it could hit the fan tomorrow (today). Anything could happen. Elena's story is the perfect example. You can't be scared to live and to go on about your daily routine. If shit happens, shit happens.
There are forces greater than ourselves.
Just make sure you've said the things you need to say to the people you need to say them to.
But, just a question.
Will we be going do too when said shit hits said fan?
Sh(it) doesn't scare me...I'm so used to it...living it, making it up, throwing it, cleaning it up, being chin deep in it, saying it, fucking it up...I could go on and on and on.
Morning Mayo No late night stupid rambling from me last night. I'm sure you didn't miss it. Today? Well it's as shitty as last night. Ice everywhere. Internet at home is hit and miss. I made it to the book store against my husbands wishes. He said "are in insane?" I wanted to answer "what you just noticed?" but I didn't. It wouldn't have mattered anyway. There is no on out today. I'm glad I don't want to deal with people. I don't want to deal with anything. I'm here warm and dry and surrounded by books. I'm content. I figured out why I cried last night. People kept saying that I was brave about my decision concerning the girls. I'm not brave. I never have been. Hiding is what I do best. I sent them to school for one reason. I don't want them to ever be like me. I'm a coward who simply gets by each day. Nothings ever gonna change. I want so much more for them. So I'll set here alone and wait. Somethings coming I can feel it. How will I handle it? Same way I always handle things. I'll hide my true feeling. People around me will think it's all good. Shit, I should have been an actress.
Ha, did Sdock tell ya'll that our mother went behind our backs and bought The Black Parade? I just about fainted. It was the funniest thing. She said she wanted to know what all the hoop-lah was about.
mustardisbetter said... I don't think this means anything at all, but why's there such a large void of nothing between Trisky's picture and the P.S.?
He's not done that before, and it's unusually large.
Outside of my mind again...going back in.
December 11, 2007 11:47 AM
MIB i just commented on DM that when i saw the latest post this morning i only saw the pic i didn't think there was anything else cos of the large gap and i panicked that it was already all over and he had suspended comments. and then when i scrolled down and saw the comments i then saw the ps and panicked again!! a lose lose situation!!! i think the reason he left such a big gap is because i don't think he wanted to ruin the impact of the pic by having his words interrupting it if you know what i mean, so the pic and the memory wasn't tainted in anyway. don't know about the size of the print though??
Amyranth, the Mayo Mansion is awesome! I'll be lurking in the library, or waiting in the staircases to catch some poor unsuspecting wanderer with the beauty that is...
... mah bootz. ^_^
No shit yet, but I brought my umbrella just in case...
There is sorrow enough in the natural way From men and women to fill our day; And when we are certain of sorrow in store, Why do we always arrange for more? Brothers and sisters, I bid you beware Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.
Buy a pup and your money will buy Love unflinching that cannot lie-- Perfect passion and worship fed By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head. Nevertheless it is hardly fair To risk your heart to a dog to tear.
When the fourteen years which Nature permits Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits, And the vet's unspoken prescription runs To lethal chambers or loaded guns, Then you will find--it's your own affair-- But ... you've given your heart to a dog to tear.
When the body that lived at your single will, With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!) When the spirit that answered your every mood Is gone--wherever it goes--for good, You will discover how much you care, And will give your heart to a dog to tear.
We've sorrow enough in the natural way, When it comes to burying Christian clay. Our loves are not given, but only lent, At compound interest of cent per cent. Though it is not always the case, I believe, That the longer we've kept 'em, the more do we grieve: For, when debts are payable, right or wrong, A short-term loan is as bad as a long-- So why in--Heaven (before we are there) Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?
From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a dog," or, "that's a lot of money for just a dog."
They don't understand the distance traveled,the time spent, or the costs involved for "just a dog."
Some of my proudest moments have come about with "just a dog."
Many hours have passed and my only company was "just a dog," but I did not once feel slighted.
Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by "just a dog," and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of "just a dog" gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.
If you, too, think it's "just a dog," then you will probably understand phases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise."
"Just a dog" brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy.
"Just a dog" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person.
Because of "just a dog" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.
So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a dog" but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past and the pure joy of the moment.
"Just a dog" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day.
I hope that someday they can understand thatit's not "just a dog" but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a man."
So the next time you hear the phrase "just a dog." just smile, because .. they "just don't understand."
I was like, "This isn't the way I learned it in math." ;)
*ignores mustard anyway*
If you only knew what that song does to me...
I see you thar AIP. I. Seeeeee. Youuuuu.
Hey, does that song make you want to kill yourself, or go jump in front of a train, or maybe make you want to take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find?
yeh i thought that at the time amyranth. i'm really enjoying them as well, little genius that he is. i've just been trying to focus on that these days rather than anything else, if my brain lets me!!
"I see you thar AIP. I. Seeeeee. Youuuuu." Perhaps but I am observing you while you do. Entertaining, no?
"Hey, does that song make you want to kill yourself, or go jump in front of a train, or maybe make you want to take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find?" Yes. As well as many, many other things I need not mention here.
"*often wonders why Gerard chose that song*" Shock value? Either that or just to see if he can start a celebrity fued with Rihanna.
Some visit here for Mayo, others for you. (There is your happy thought for the day.) Why do you make me come back?
fimble woof woof star were the fuckz are you. are you hidin, i would hide if i had a face like youz. hey peeps has anyone seen it. i not seen it for two days. maybe yall should whistle and it could find its way back.
can not call yall dogs not seen yall pictures. but she or it was a woof woof jep mutherfucking dog. bet shez got a bag on her head. wouldn't blame it teehee werez is she anyway. does it come here anymorez not seen for 2 dayz
Ok, so let me get this straight. You come here to insult someone but you admit having looked for her for the past two days. So what's up with that?
Oh wait, I'm sorry. I meant to type it like this.
so yall come here cuz yall were lookin fer someone but yall didnt see her and you were sad and now yer mad and stuff and throwin a hissy fit. jelluzzzz much?!?!?!
[clears throat and makes too many adjustments to mention]
I had the pleasure of meeting Fimble Star a few nights ago. You must not know her or you would be aware of the fact that she is truly beautiful. This is not an effort to educate you, as much that seems to be needed. This is merely a comment, from a man, who would gladly defend and befriend her any day. (Even while at work.)
"Who won Best Band of 2007? Will it be My Chemical Romance or will it be Lostprophets? Who won Best Unsigned Band? Who was voted Sexiest Male of 2007? You voted in your hundreds of thousands, and the long-awaited results of the Kerrang! Readers' Poll 2007 hits selves tomorrow.
However, there's one slightly odd result that the judges had to put their collective foot down on. It seems that the majority of you out there in K! Land nominated My Chemical Romance frontman Gerard Way and 30 Seconds To Mars vocalist Jared Leto for the much coveted Sexiest Female Of 2007 gong!
As pretty as Mr Way and Mr Leto may be, and as much as they're not adverse to a bit of make-up, unfortunately, we had to disqualify them.
So who actually did you vote as your Sexiest Female Of 2007 then?
All of these questions and more will be answered in tomorrow's magazine"
yall are to crazi. i saw the picturez on her blog. shez a dog. wonder y she took themz down 2 fucking fugly. y yall got youz head stuck up youz ass. lookz like it got da message anywayz. i made surez of dat. we wont needz to read her shit anymorz. so putz youz pictures up and we can kick the next dog outz. woof woof
Hey Evil ANON How about you put your picture up? I would just love to see the beautiful person who spouts such shit. Come on...lets see it. I'm ready to fall in love.
What the fuck? Where did you come from? Do you not speak English? Seriously. You're jealous aren't you? Obviously. Why else would you waste your time? I have seen FS's pictures and she is beautiful.
dei gratia, Then you understand why I’m here. M’Lady reached for her whip and I couldn’t simply stand by. I haven’t left gifts for the Ladies lately. I will have to rectify that.
Shame in me, Are you one of the observer’s lurkers? I don't remember you.
Elena, My schedule is pretty full with the stalking I do but I do visit here from time to time.
Yeah TMA, you were more polite than I would have been. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing though. I can’t wait to use the whip! I like you even more now that you raised your light saber for Nimble. Well, “EIP” appreciates it anyway.
You are a chivalrous gent, Masked Anon. Ladies do love gifts and I must thank you again for mine, though it was some time ago. I hope all is well under your mysterious cape!
Masked Anon - Thanks for talking the time to be with us. It means a lot to us. I'm giving you a huge hug and believe me I'm not in a hugging mood today. You are special.
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun like locusts, samaras swarm the sky and skitter to an earthly end, dry like clever words. I want to make them fly up, flip heaven upside down and dance across the top of hell and sing your thoughts to the sound of thunder that you love so well, rip open the littered sky and bathe in the light or draw across the firmament the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have covered the ground, their brief flight yielding nothing permanent on infertile land, a fleeting moment of swarming glory that calls to mind our own short story: Diamonds and petals, the loom and the light, the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh, an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds of childhood reminiscent-- and like the idiot grown-up heart, as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed all our friends playing Some had never tried before and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner from the left and right We did our best to keep them flowing Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished I hope we made someone see How truly beautiful and amazing a poem can be.
Sdock10 March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
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K said,
And seeing as how he's a masseuse, he can rub off on Mayo?
YES. YOU MUST NOT KID ABOUT THESE THINGS. It's against the law.
Say, do you think Mayo COULD hire Frank to be our masseur? (see the tattooed comment below)
Although, SS might get jealous. So...
J
Thanks squeak squeak. I hope so too and my mom has told me before that if anything should happen to her, to not give up on my dreams and don't stop pursuing them, and right now I am taking steps to pursuing them because I want to be able to take care of them in case something happens.
But enough about me.
martha, I seen the dvd sets of super gals but never purchased them. Is the show any good?
Rahaha, toujours! Sure! Who doesn't love hanging out in the basement?
BC, I hope everything goes well at the doctors, keep me informed.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mum, I hope she gets better soon. I know it's easy to say and hard to do but try not to worry yourself too much.
Star said...
Kapunua, yes, and I think the massage should take place on the magnificent marble island in the kitchen. That would be pretty, no?
It sure would. I came.
I just like saying that for shock value. SORRY MOM.
Original Punks said...
K, tell your mom she's got a great daughter. And she's got to be pretty cool, too. :)
My folks are really cool. ^_^ And my Mom is used to my vulgar jokes, too.
I hate the news the story was about caffeine on pregnant woman. Those bastards made it sound like they were taking the caffeine away from everyone .
ASSHOLES
Star said...
Rahaha, toujours! Sure! Who doesn't love hanging out in the basement?
*kicks hostages* STFU, you lot.
EVERYONE LOVES THE BASEMENT.
I meant "above". Not "below". Tattooed comment "above".
Ah, whatever. You know what I mean.
Now I'm all flustered.
J
Op thank you. I'm not sure if this illness thing is weather related. My mom was born in Texas and she's used to the heat and we live in the midwest and sometimes it's like placing a polar bear and making it live in Arizona or florida or something lol
As above, so below.
BC I loved it. If you can rent it.
I hope your mom gets better
BTW, I sent you an email. It's like O_o
Well, YEAH, the basement is where the action's at.
After all, GW used to live in one.
Nuff said.
J
Mistress J,
You're all flustered because you are thinking of the sheer beauty of the tatooed masseur sprawled on the grren marble island.
Amirite?
The image of a bottle of Bertolli Extra Virgin Olive Oil just popped into my head.
TJ - If I re-do the basement.... well it'll be hardcore.
Literally.
-A
P.S - Can someone else help find a masseuse, I'm not having any luck.
Soft pore corn well its about time.
Miss T thank you and I will let you know what will happen at the doctor's. Unfortunately my mom is getting old and she's becoming more susceptible to illnesses, but she is one strong woman I will tell you. Six kids and so much stress and she barely complains.
She's tough. I inherited my stubbornness directly from her ^__^
Star - We will be rubbing down a lot of meat with oil in that kitchen, so I suppose we could set up a massage table in there too.
-A
I just got a pang of guilt and remorse about blathering on about Olive Oil if Mayo's not happy.
I will restrain myself.
can't wait to see the new basement!
mwah-hah-hah. ;)
Aw thanks mj :)
Amy, I forgot to mention, the house is so damn beautiful. I love it
Star said...
Mistress J,
You're all flustered because you are thinking of the sheer beauty of the tatooed masseur sprawled on the grren marble island.
Amirite?
The image of a bottle of Bertolli Extra Virgin Olive Oil just popped into my head.
Oh my sweet Lord, Star, you're gonna kill me, that's for sure.
But are you sure about the olive oil? I mean, VIRGIN, come on. And EXTRA virgin at that.
I'm thinking more along the lines of syrup. Sticky, yeah, but you can always lick that problem away. :D
YUM!
K, I have replied.
J
Amy,
You said "rubbing down a lot of meat". Heeheeheehee.
J
massages ??
I just had to go meet the school bus, can I get a shoulder rub?
So much for restraining myself...
Mistress J,
Tattooed Syrupy Hot Waffle Masseur Boy on the green marble island FTW!
Avenger - Why thank you! There was one particular house I wanted, but unfortunately, there was no interior pictures.
-A has an idea.
I'm off to bed people, have fun.
I'll say the name Trisky tonight K. My thoughts are with you.
Goodnight everyone.
Goodnight, Miss T!
Well you guys, I am off to bed for now. Thank you for getting me through the last half of this very long day. Thank you for the words, the thoughts, and the candles. For everything.
Mayo, thank you also, for your thoughtful tribute. I really treasure it.
I have something nice on the back burner for you, Mayo, nau wale no. We all do. It got set back during this crazy and awful week, but I'll get back on it for you. I think we all will, in fact. I have a feeling we will. So hang with us a while yet ku'u hoapili, all right Ihekoa?
SS, we miss you, dear. Come back soon BB, okeee? Hope everything's all right. Pomaika'i, malihini makamae Kane Noa.
Mahalo nui loa kakou, aloha ahiahi. Me ke aloha.
Good Miss T-and thank you. Sweet dreams
Amy, you're welcome. I love the kitchen. It is quite exquisite :)
Goodnight, Kapunua
Goodnight Miss t have sweet dreams I'm about to head off myself.
Mayonaise! Darling!
You'd better get some input for this house and soon!
>The builders just finished part of the basement and this is what they came up with!
-A
Goodnight Miss T, sleep well.
Star said,
Tattooed Syrupy Hot Waffle Masseur Boy on the green marble island FTW!
YAY! *loud cheering crowd noises* SY-RUP! SY-RUP! SY-RUP!
Butter flavor syrup, also FTW. *slurp*
J
night K, missT
MJ
Goodnight kapu I hope you sleep well and have wonderful dreams
Good night and sweet dreams K. My thoughts are with you. Hang in there *hugs*
Goodnight Kapu. Sleep well. Trisky is going to be fine now. Forever.
-A
I've got to hit it too.
Goodnight, all.
Mayo,
We love you.
Amy I love the basement I can just see the clones coming up out of the water.
Sweet dreams star. Amy, that pool and masseuse room is simply gorgeous O_o
Goodnight, K. I hope Trisky joins you in your dreams tonight. She's running through the skies, exploring her new universe. I've just said her name aloud, too.
Safe journies, Trisky. I know you will enjoy your adventures. Stay free.
J
oooh nice basement!!
and clones nice idea, wet clones, even nicer idea
Yeah, time for me to toddle off.
Mayo! Leave some suggestions, would ya! The builders are getting lazy!
See everyone in the morning!
Trisky! Look for Harley! He needs a friend for awhile yet!
-A
Goodnight Everybody.
Goodnight Mayo thank you for doing that tribute for Kapu. It was Great.
Goodnight SS see you around.
goodnight star
Goodnight and sweet dreams mj, Amy. Take care guys
night amy.mj
this is the time I end up pretty much alone
oops.
i really suck at this multiple-windows thing. i always get caught up in one and forget to check back with the other. *fooey*
so, anyway, a belated good night to all who went to bed! sweet dreams to you all. ^.^
do dee doo do do
dum dee dee
doo doo doo
Goodnight Star, MJ, Amy, sweet dreams to you all.
My apologies, Trisky, I spelled "journeys" completely wrong. Maybe you didn't catch it, hmm? Nah, probably not.
I think that I, too, will hit the hay. I have a couple notes to write to our boys, and then I'm outta here.
Goodnight to all the rest of you who're here, EP, BC, TJ, anyone else I've missed. Talk to you tomorrow. Hopefully without any shit-fan-hitting in the meantime.
Peace/Love/Happiness
J
hey TJ!
good to hear your news
J we can all wear raincoats
night night
Mayo,
You big ol' lovebug, you! I'm still so impressed with your outpouring of sympathy. Well, this is an "outpouring" for you, I guess, but it's still touching.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be here reading and writing. Count on that. I give you my full support--unless the "shit" is something colossally stupid, that is. Somehow, though, I don't think it is.
Be jappy if you can, and thanks for the sweetness tonight. Your protoctive side is showing, you little dickens!
Love to you, brother.
J
good night j. sweet dreams. ^.^
yeah, it's such a relief, ergo! after he told me that on the phone today, i just sat here, not able to say anything. i was so stunned. he's not a bad guy.
jerk (obligatory ex-wife remark. *grin*)
Good night and sweet dreams J
I'm sure he has his moments
*all men are jerks at times conspiratory grin*
I'm going to go read for a bit before I go to sleep. Goodnight Ergo, squeak squeak. Pleasant dreams.
well, he certainly pulled my ass out of the fire this time, so i'll cut him some slack. ;)
good night bc, pleasant dreams to you. ^.^
night BC
TJ I was praying for something to come to you to give you some help,
and some hope to see you through so i was so excited to see your post
Got your email too - thanks :)
great minds think alike!
SS,
For once in our relationship, I'm afraid I've almost run out of words.
Put simply: I'M WORRIED ABOUT YOU. I miss you. We all miss you. I can only go on what I feel, that you're all right, only tucked away somewhere with your thoughts and emotions.
As far as what I feel, well, for some reason these ideas came to me tonight.
I don't know what's going through your head right now. But, if you're trying to make up your mind about something, even something that on the surface looks promising to you but not to anyone else, you owe it to yourself to pursue that thing. If you do not, you may wake up one day and realize you regret not going after it.
Life is too short to do what others expect of you. You must be true to yourself and your instincts. What I call "gut feelings". Too many times I relied on my head instead of my heart, or my "gut", and each time I did so, I now regret those logical decisions.
Granted, not everything can be given over to emotion solely. Logic plays a part in just about every decision we make. It's human nature. But we can also overthink ourselves, and that can sometimes lead to regret if not outright disaster.
Honey, whatever's troubling you, don't give up a chance at happiness just because the "method" seems impossible, crazy, or even unconventional.
I hope some of this babble of words can help you. Hell, I hope you get to SEE this babble of words. I don't even know if you're listening.
But if you are, give yourself a chance at happiness. You deserve it more than anyone else I've ever known.
Please take care of yourself. I would love to hear from you soon.
All my love--you are my babydoll.
J
to be honest, it was all the great comments -- like the one you wrote to me, ergo, which made me smile and cry all at once, i'll have you know! -- that made it possible for me to not lose my mind.
when i mentioned that to my ex today, he said it was a great relief to him, to know i had so many good people on my side. :)
TJ I glad I could help.
I must admit my life is pretty good at the moment so I can spare a lot of comfort
Mayo, thank you for this post.
It's honest, and it's beautiful.
As much as I like to kid* you, you have a beautiful heart. Don't ever let that change.
Whatever tomorrow brings, we'll deal. Because we're a family now -- we're strong like that. The world can throw all the shit it wants to; love really does conquer all.
And that's what we've found here: love for each other, for SS, and for you. (You know by now I'm not exactly the sappy hearts-'n'-flowers type of gal, but I'm making an exception tonight in Trisky's honor.
Come what may (oh yeah!), we're here if you need us. As much as we like to kid* around, we've still got your back, babe.
G'night, everybody.
And good night, Trisky.
Give a nod to Minky for me.
* - kick
ergo, i really like that idea, of having an abundance of comfort. (but in my head it translates into an image of a cornucopia filled with fluffy pillows. hmm.)
bed time for me now, so i'll say good night, and make my good nights to mayo, and actually turn off the computer. *gasp*
talk to you later, ergo!
I though I would post something that this has remeinded me of for a long time.
re the identity of Mayo
it's a theorum of Physics, Quantum Physics in fact, called Schrodinger's Cat
here is an explaination:
Here's Schrödinger's (theoretical) experiment: We place a living cat into a steel chamber, along with a device containing a vial of hydrocyanic acid. There is, in the chamber, a very small amount of a radioactive substance. If even a single atom of the substance decays during the test period, a relay mechanism will trip a hammer, which will, in turn, break the vial and kill the cat. The observer cannot know whether or not an atom of the substance has decayed, and consequently, cannot know whether the vial has been broken, the hydrocyanic acid released, and the cat killed.
Since we cannot know, the cat is both dead and alive according to quantum law, in a superposition of states.
It is only when we break open the box and learn the condition of the cat that the superposition is lost, and the cat becomes one or the other (dead or alive).
This situation is sometimes called quantum indeterminacy or the observer's paradox:
the observation or measurement itself affects an outcome, so that the outcome as such does not exist unless the measurement is made.
(That is, there is no single outcome unless it is observed.)
In short, not knowing who mayo is allows him to exist in a state of unknown, able to be anything/ anyone.
only in observing, will his state be fixed, and the outcome becomes unchangeable.
I quite like the opportunity for mayo to be anyone,
But that is our paradox.
(sorry if I confused anyone)
goodnight TJ
a plethora of fluffy pillow is heading virtually your way.
:)
mayo,
i was re-reading tonight's title, trying to figure out the missing word. "loss"? "grief"? whatever it was, that you stepped aside is so telling about the true state of your heart. i hope that, whatever it is you have for us tomorrow, whatever it is that you put on hold, you are as kind with yourself as you were tonight.
sometimes, it's easy to wonder what kind of help a bunch of people typing words on a website can really truly be, but i can assure you, the help that comes in that fashion can be just as strengthening as a hug from a loved one.
they helped me. and if there's anything you need help with, we can help you, too. we can shore up the timbers of your spirit.
do you have something difficult to say? tell us. it will be alright. we might dither (*grin*), but we're strong, too.
if only you could know how much you've come to mean to us.
to me.
that will never be lost, no matter what happens with this blog. there's a place in my heart for you now, and a place for everyone i've met here.
i didn't know my name would be so apt when i chose it.
good night, mayo. sleep well, sleep long, sleep restfully.
In short, not knowing who mayo is allows him to exist in a state of unknown, able to be anything/ anyone.
only in observing, will his state be fixed, and the outcome becomes unchangeable.
I quite like the opportunity for mayo to be anyone,
But that is our paradox.
beautiful.
quantum physics is poetry. thank you, ergo.
(and i'm taking that fluffy pillow!)
g'nite!
Morning Mayo,
Nice dog!
Anon@11.46pm - we're all big girls here, I'm sure we'll survive whatever Mayo dishes out.
And now I'm off Christmas shopping...
Love,
Kass xx
P.S. Are you going to throw the dog at the fan? I'd have to call the RSPCA....
Kass xx
Mayo that was a lovely gesture for kapunua.
Kapunua my thoughts are with you.
Hows everyone?
MAYO, That's lovely. Really, such a beautiful gesture.
But what's going to hit the fan hmmm?
Be careful it's not your head, I'd miss you so. Really, we all would.
XXcupcake
Hey cupcake, how are you?
lets hope it isnt mayos head, probably some kind of shit from his head will though.
hello guys and mayo. that was a lovely thing to do mayo.
i hope you aren't going to finish all this. i know we can continue at DM and we will. just promise us one thing mayo, if you end this please pop in to DM for a chat now and then that would be so special.
busy busy busy off to do a zillion things!
hope everyone has a productive day!
love to all.
The Tin Man has found his heart!
All kidding/sarcasm aside:
That was indeed a beautiful gesture, Mayo.
Kapunua: I'm so, so sorry for your loss. You gave Trisky the greatest gift of all.....
You loved her enough to let her go.... *humongous hugs*
This one is for you and Trisky:
"I'M HERE"
I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew ...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.
*********
Hello to Ergo, Kass, TJ, Cupcake, SIM, SS (if he/she is lurking) and all other readers and loves!
Love and hugs to all!!!!
#6
hi it's late for me for a change (though I'm not really a night owl- or a morning person- lol- I say i'm a midday person)
hello fasc, kass anon 616 and cupcake
hoping you are well.
please visit my blog and add yourself to the mayo world tour itinerary
http://noneventmass.blogspot.com/2007/12/mayos-world-tour.html
and anyone else who comes along, anonymouses are welcome to, as long as you're friendly lol. and any other transient visitors
have a good day! :)
Good morning guys!
Kapunua, I’m sorry to hear about your Trisky. Please, take care and stay strong sweetie.
Mayo, what you’ve done for Kapunua was really sweet. Thank you very much.
"p.s. it can hit the fan tomorrow"
I have to admit I’m a bit worried about this, but I guess that’s what you need to do…
Anyway, today is “tomorrow”. I’ll wait for your decision.
Love to you as always
SS, hope you’re okay. We miss you. Love to you too
Everybody,have a great day!
See you later!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Mayo,
You have no idea how how cool this is. I woke up this morning and pulled this up and I just about freaked. I never expected that and I know K. didn't. You must like hugs and kisses from the princess.
^_^
Yes, you are that sweet.
Hugs and Kisses all day!
Princess S&V20
P.S. - Please don't let the shit hit my tiara, okay?
Good moning everyone, Mayo!
Kapunua,
It was so sad to read about your dog, my heart is with you.
Mayo,
You get a brownie point, and a big hug.
You do surprise me at every turn, but you know, if you do not turn the fan on, the shit will be just on the fan, not everyone else.
Are you sure you want to hit that button?
If you do, we are all ears, or eyes that is!
Mayo,
How are you? Hmm, your title and you p.s. is a teensy weensy bit troubling for me, but I'm a worrier like that so pay me little mind if all is well. Me? I'm alright aside from my usual sinus problems and early morning grogginess. I should do my best today to buckle down and work hard. Why? I don't know. Maybe...just to keep folks guessing about me.
What an amazing gesture, this post..thank you. That was possibly the most thoughtful thing you could have done. Sorry, I wasn't around, but blogger was kicking my ass around a lot and I was doing a whole lot of sitting and not much posting.
Setting aside your own what? Loss, problems? I don't want you to ever feel like you have to do that here, Mayo. Hey, if this place can handle mine, hers, and theirs, it can also handle yours. Let us be here for you too. Okay?
Now, the p.s....It can hit the fan tomorrow? Dude, in the blink of a fucking eye it can. Only thing you can hope for is a good heads up before it does. Gives you a chance to run for cover.
Or....you stand there, you let the shit fly, you probably get soaked with shit, you wait for it to settle, and you grab a mop, some good cleaning supplies maybe a shovel or two, and you start to clean up the beautiful mess that was made. I'm guessing here that your messes are a lot like mine and you probably helped create this fantastic fan-hitting frenzy. Feel me?
You know which option I hope you'll choose. It can't smell all that bad or be all that deep.
You might have a few people who are little pissed off that they ended up with some shit on them, but if you help them get off, I'm sure they'll even help you clean up.
...I'm pretty handy dandy with a shovel, ya know?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Are you sure it will be tomorrow? I also get the literal definition of the obvious. I just like playing with metaphors. Relate much?
Damn! S,
Great minds must think alike, we must have been typing at the same time, to post after each other.
I was just thinking about you, when i was typing that post.
I can not stay, work ya know!
Have a good day!
And S, If i hear someone yell...
GET YOUR ASS OFF THE COMPUTER AND GET TO WORK!!!!!
I will know you are peeking in on Mayo!
Hugs to all.
PJ
pj,
I love ya babe! Will you let me come live with when I'm homeless on on the streets?
Of course you will!
Sorry i just dropped out, I was talking with a friend.
How are we all?
just here for a quick hallo ´cause I´m at work...
wish all of you a great tuesday *hugs*
wow thanks for what you did fo´r kapunua mayo, it caught me by surprise, well positiv surprises are always welcome ;)
kapunua I´m sorry to hear about triskie, I know how hard it is. hope you´re well soon *hugs*
so back to work, see you all later :)
Hi and bye pixie dear! xoxo
Kapunua
So sorry to hear your news,
for you....
From time to time, people tell me,
"lighten up, it's just a dog,"
or, "that's a lot of money for just a dog."
They don't understand the distance traveled,the time spent, or the costs involved for
"just a dog."
Some of my proudest moments have come about with
"just a dog."
Many hours have passed and my only company was
"just a dog,"
but I did not once feel slighted.
Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by
"just a dog,"
and in those days of darkness,
the gentle touch of "just a dog"
gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.
If you, too, think it's "just a dog,"
then you will probably understand phases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise."
"Just a dog" brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy.
"Just a dog" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person.
Because of "just a dog" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.
So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a dog" but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past and the pure joy of the moment.
"Just a dog" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day.
I hope that someday they can understand thatit's not
"just a dog"
but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a man."
So the next time you hear the phrase "just a dog."
just smile, because ..
they "just don't understand."
love
m.
P.S rest in peace.
Aw, so cute! The PS though... Should I be worried?
I've been lurking as always...very sweet Mayo.
Awww that's lovely. Kapanua is lucky to have so many who care for her... like me!
*flying bear hug tackle for K when she returns*
Dude, can you be more specific with me? Cause sometimes I just don't get the literal definition of the obvious.
Tomorrow.
Is that like today? Or tomorrow, tomorrow?
Or tomorrow meaning just some other today?
Damn, see now I'm all confused.
And just what exactly is 'it'?
SH....IT?
Or just _______?
Fill it in for me, okay?
Ohhh, and be very careful with those fans and don't get your fingers caught or your head. Cause I've done that a time or two. It hurts like hell. ^_^
Anyone seen 'the wicker man?'
People disgust me.
ooOOOH, one more........
Beware of those cliffs cause Sdock and Mustard have already used up all the rope....
And don't forget to give yourself a thumbs up in the mirror for good measure. ^_^
Of course, I'm sure you've already done that. I did. We love our mirrors, don't we?
Snaps for Mayo and Princess!!!
Good morning, Mayo.
Apologies for not greeting you much earlier. I'm sure you'll understand the circumstances.
That was a lovely tribute you posted for Kapunua and Trisky.
But what of you?
Is this the p.s. we have been sensing is coming? It is certainly ominous enough in colour and size.
If whatever hits the fan affects you, you know we will offer you our support.
If it hits the fan and affects us you know we will cope and still offer you our hand.
Waiting.
*bored now*
Morning cupcake and S&V20.
Princess,
Did your mother forget to tell you to not play with fans?
CC,
What is the wicker man?
Is it scary?. It's dark here o_O
SS I see your location is gone. Please come by and share a thought with us here. We miss you.
Hi m, shae, freddycharles, anon and anyone lurking in mayo's renovated library.
Hi PP! Hi Cupcake!
My Mama probably did tell me but I was probably too busy not listening. O_O
Well, gotta go work for a bit. Yuck.
Hope ya'll have a wonderful day!!!!
XOXO,
S&V20
Hmmm, funny how this time of day is always the drop post-and-run- part of Mayo's blog.
*drops post and runs off*
sorry if this is late
but SS' subline is 'Dominic'
PP, the wicker man is very scary.... sad too, but not as bad as the descent, it actually made me scream!
Hi s&v *hugs*
*skitters to a stop*
S&Vsaid;
My Mama probably did tell me but I was probably too busy not listening.
No, you weren't not listening. It was just Parental Safety Talk Static.
Hope your day isn't as long as the other day, S&V20. Have a good one.
*resumes running off*
Good morning all;
Just popping in before heading off to school.
First, m, those are great lyrics, and I am very sure that Kapunua, will appreciate them. I've missed you dear.
Second, Mayo, you didn't show up last night after posting this. You didn't post your comments like you normally did. Why is that?
Anyways, I don't have much to say right now. I hope everyone has an amazing day.
All my love;
- 007
Hi anon.
Thanks for coming by.
SS posted Dominic in memory of MissT's dearly loved and departed cousin when MissT was going through a bad patch the other day.
The location was removed at least over an hour ago.
*waves at SS if still lingering, but most likely to be found back reading*
Come back PP! *runs after*
*oof*
Where did you come from Cupcake?
I am so not looking for the Wickerman or The Descent ever. I'm still getting over vampire stories and the Amityville Horror from years ago. Heck even Rocky Horror messes with me.
Morning Paperheart.
You have an amazing day too, sweetie.
Not a horror fan PP? I am! I'm never scared really.... except for the descent, I actually screamed!.... IT WAS AWESOME! *sighs*
*tentatively dips toe in horror genre*
Horror + Vivid Imagination = Freaked Possum.
*PP pushing her luck as horror fan CC screamed watching*
So... what is The Descent about?
Girls. cave, trapped, mutant creatures, blood and guts....death....
But it's rather well done. Not just cheap gore.
Oh.
Nice.
I asked o_O
I'm a cheap thrill. Badly faked gore even gets me, let alone it looking realistic.
Why does it always have to be somewhere dark?
*quietly thinks about The History Boys instead*
Oh the history boys, i haven't seen that yet, how is it?
While I remember, don't forget to visit Ergoproxy at http://noneventmass.blogspot.com.
Ergo is making a global world tour of people who visit here. She's inviting all, including mayo, SS, bloggers and anons to name the closest town or region to where you live and list somewhere essential to visit in your area.
Prime example as to why one shouldn't turn in for the night at an early hour.
I don't know what to say, honestly.
Mayo, you're kinda like a super-dude. You're becoming less about you and more about us. I think we're on our way to finding "balance."
Of course it could hit the fan tomorrow (today). Anything could happen. Elena's story is the perfect example. You can't be scared to live and to go on about your daily routine. If shit happens, shit happens.
There are forces greater than ourselves.
Just make sure you've said the things you need to say to the people you need to say them to.
But, just a question.
Will we be going do too when said shit hits said fan?
The History Boys is great CC.
It's a reminder that Richard Griffiths has an acting life outside of Uncle Vernon. They used the original theatre actors for the film cast.
Not scary though.
Morning mustard.
*checks Sdock isn't still tied up to MIB*
Mayo has changed hasn't he.
It feels a bit like tick, tick, boom here today.
Sounds cool....
I'm watching sleepless in Seattle now! XD
hi mustard!
Mayo,
Shit hitting fans.....red for danger.....what the feck?
(Whose fans?)
You are such a sweetie with a good heart, so I'll implore you again 'Please don't do anything shitty!'
Catch you later, guys!
*must not get caught on t'internet in works time....an alarm has started ringing somewhere in the head offices*
Sleepless in Seattle?
That is scary.
What fan?
Fan?
Maybe not the spinner, but the eyes. The glazed over eyes. And the lighters.
Surely not.
*semaphoring with big red flags matching mayo's 'ps', DG's location to head office*
*Head Office alarms increase in volume*
Mustard said;
Maybe not the spinner, but the eyes. The glazed over eyes. And the lighters.
o_O
It's early/late here.
*sniffs* well I like it!
Just pulling your toes CC.You are a gothgirl with many surprising facets to you.
Meg Ryan was on a roll with all those feel good movies back then.
Kate and Leopold, more recently. *soppy sigh*
Well.... it's late here...
Kap, *hugs* take care lovely, my sympathies.
Mayo, Don't get all cryptic again, it would make me kamikaze!
xoxoxo goodnight all
Sh(it) doesn't scare me...I'm so used to it...living it, making it up, throwing it, cleaning it up, being chin deep in it, saying it, fucking it up...I could go on and on and on.
Night CC. I'm off too.
*not thinking of caves or mutant creatures or girls or blood or gore - bother, I'm done for*
Morning Mayo
No late night stupid rambling from me last night. I'm sure you didn't miss it.
Today? Well it's as shitty as last night. Ice everywhere. Internet at home is hit and miss. I made it to the book store against my husbands wishes. He said "are in insane?" I wanted to answer "what you just noticed?" but I didn't. It wouldn't have mattered anyway. There is no on out today. I'm glad I don't want to deal with people. I don't want to deal with anything. I'm here warm and dry and surrounded by books. I'm content.
I figured out why I cried last night. People kept saying that I was brave about my decision concerning the girls. I'm not brave. I never have been. Hiding is what I do best. I sent them to school for one reason. I don't want them to ever be like me. I'm a coward who simply gets by each day. Nothings ever gonna change. I want so much more for them.
So I'll set here alone and wait. Somethings coming I can feel it. How will I handle it? Same way I always handle things. I'll hide my true feeling. People around me will think it's all good. Shit, I should have been an actress.
hi girls!
Yesterday my friends dragged me to this horror vampire movie and I was totally terrified.
Then I saw Mayo's tribute, and got all teary.
Kapu, I'm so sorry. I know you are going thru some deep shit. Just hang in there, sister. We all are with you!
sweet dreams PP and cupcake!
Mayo, you are truly unique, man.
pd. PH, I'm so jealous you got to see Alexisonfire live! nevermind your friend's hug....
Thanks, Andie.
My Mom came by with the rug cleaner and I decided to vacuum the rug before going out. Now we are going Xmas shopping.
Guys, mom says "hey." ^_^
I don't think this means anything at all, but why's there such a large void of nothing between Trisky's picture and the P.S.?
He's not done that before, and it's unusually large.
Outside of my mind again...going back in.
Hi Kapunua's MOM!
Hi Elena!
You're not alone, you got us!
Hi Andie!
Mustard, probably just to separate the two thoughts. That's pretty cool.
Mom left but we are just meeting up to go out shopping. i'll tell her you said hi Sdock! My Mom likes you.
See you guys later, hang in there, okay?
Oh yeah, Hi Kapunua's Mom!!!!
Ha, did Sdock tell ya'll that our mother went behind our backs and bought The Black Parade? I just about fainted. It was the funniest thing. She said she wanted to know what all the hoop-lah was about.
^_^
hi mustard!
bye K! have a nice shopping :D
hi S&V! your mom sounds pretty cool!
btw, don't you love our new library?
Amy, you totally rock my powerpuff girl socks!
Good morning everyone.
I see the house is still standing.
-A
Good evening everyone!
Did I miss much? I've had my best friend visiting last week and I've spent the last two days in bed (bloody flu!)
Kapunua, I'm so sorry. Trisky was really beautiful... Mayo, thank you for this blog entry. You're sweet.
I'm leaving now. See you later, darlings!
*hugs*
mustardisbetter said...
I don't think this means anything at all, but why's there such a large void of nothing between Trisky's picture and the P.S.?
He's not done that before, and it's unusually large.
Outside of my mind again...going back in.
December 11, 2007 11:47 AM
MIB i just commented on DM that when i saw the latest post this morning i only saw the pic i didn't think there was anything else cos of the large gap and i panicked that it was already all over and he had suspended comments. and then when i scrolled down and saw the comments i then saw the ps and panicked again!! a lose lose situation!!!
i think the reason he left such a big gap is because i don't think he wanted to ruin the impact of the pic by having his words interrupting it if you know what i mean, so the pic and the memory wasn't tainted in anyway.
don't know about the size of the print though??
hello everyone !
Hi evveybody!
Amyranth, the Mayo Mansion is awesome! I'll be lurking in the library, or waiting in the staircases to catch some poor unsuspecting wanderer with the beauty that is...
... mah bootz. ^_^
No shit yet, but I brought my umbrella just in case...
'Cuz I'm conscientious like that! ^_~
The Power of the Dog
There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and sisters, I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.
Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie--
Perfect passion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart to a dog to tear.
When the fourteen years which Nature permits
Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
And the vet's unspoken prescription runs
To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
Then you will find--it's your own affair--
But ... you've given your heart to a dog to tear.
When the body that lived at your single will,
With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!)
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone--wherever it goes--for good,
You will discover how much you care,
And will give your heart to a dog to tear.
We've sorrow enough in the natural way,
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we've kept 'em, the more do we grieve:
For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short-term loan is as bad as a long--
So why in--Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?
Rudyard Kipling
Dear Kapunua,
my sincerest condolescence!
Umbrella
ella
ella
eh
eh
eh
ehhehehhh
Amyranth,
I love the Mayo Mansion!!!!! Especially the big mirrors in the Great Room and the Master Bath.^_^
Looks like there is the perfect spot for a mirror right above the bed in the Master Bedroom. What do you think????
Mayo? Any thoughts on that?
Mustard = Rihanna = Funny
Mustard + Rihanna = Funny
There, that makes more sense.
I am too lazy to sign in but:
*ignores mustard anyway*
If you only knew what that song does to me...
- you know who
K - Did you see this from earlier
'Kapunua
So sorry to hear your news,
for you....
From time to time, people tell me,
"lighten up, it's just a dog,"
or, "that's a lot of money for just a dog."
They don't understand the distance traveled,the time spent, or the costs involved for
"just a dog."
Some of my proudest moments have come about with
"just a dog."
Many hours have passed and my only company was
"just a dog,"
but I did not once feel slighted.
Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by
"just a dog,"
and in those days of darkness,
the gentle touch of "just a dog"
gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.
If you, too, think it's "just a dog,"
then you will probably understand phases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise."
"Just a dog" brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy.
"Just a dog" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person.
Because of "just a dog" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.
So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a dog" but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past and the pure joy of the moment.
"Just a dog" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day.
I hope that someday they can understand thatit's not
"just a dog"
but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a man."
So the next time you hear the phrase "just a dog."
just smile, because ..
they "just don't understand."
love
m.
P.S rest in peace.
Mustard = Rihanna = Funny
I was like, "This isn't the way I learned it in math." ;)
*ignores mustard anyway*
If you only knew what that song does to me...
I see you thar AIP. I. Seeeeee. Youuuuu.
Hey, does that song make you want to kill yourself, or go jump in front of a train, or maybe make you want to take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find?
*often wonders why Gerard chose that song*
SV and SisM, I love it, but I really do think it needs more....
HEY MAYO? How about 20 extra guest bedrooms?
Also, you'll notice there's no fans in the house. No fans = no shit to bring home.
-A
Hello Amy!
I love your "no fan" idea.
Shit can't hit it if there's no fan.
MIB, Umbrella + G.Way = Umbrella Academy.
-A
Looks like there is the perfect spot for a mirror right above the bed in the Master Bedroom. What do you think????
oh god now i'm having bad thoughts (again!)
Nothing wrong with a mirror over the bed.
Nothing at all....
-A is... amuahahahahahaha!!!
Amyranth said...
MIB, Umbrella + G.Way = Umbrella Academy.
-A
December 11, 2007 12:56 PM
yeh i thought that at the time amyranth. i'm really enjoying them as well, little genius that he is. i've just been trying to focus on that these days rather than anything else, if my brain lets me!!
Amyranth, while you're asking Mayo if additions can be made...
Can I borrow one of the closets?
Just for my boots, and a badger or two, nothin' fancy.
I promise to make the closet smell all perfumey-girly. ^_^
<--- likes Gerard's version of 'Umbrella', even though I don't like the song!
"I see you thar AIP. I. Seeeeee. Youuuuu."
Perhaps but I am observing you while you do. Entertaining, no?
"Hey, does that song make you want to kill yourself, or go jump in front of a train, or maybe make you want to take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find?"
Yes. As well as many, many other things I need not mention here.
"*often wonders why Gerard chose that song*"
Shock value? Either that or just to see if he can start a celebrity fued with Rihanna.
Some visit here for Mayo, others for you. (There is your happy thought for the day.)
Why do you make me come back?
- You still know who I am, I haven't changed.
That's so true, Amy.
I know for sure GW wouldn't mind if I stole his thunder.
Either that or just to see if he can start a celebrity fued with Rihanna.
This. This I would love to see.
Gerard would totally beat her ass with killer dance moves....
And his tambourine skillz.
"<--- likes Gerard's version of 'Umbrella', even though I don't like the song!"
Yet another evil addiction? Curses! The damn song even made my head move involuntarily.
- AIP
i'm off to bath my kids and get them to bed. i'll pop back in later for a bit.
take it easy guys.
And his tambourine skillz.
Ooooh, snap!
oh yeh and my 2 girls were very impressed with GWays umbrella performance although they wanted him to do the whole song!
its 18.10 here just incase you think i'm crazy putting my kids to bed sooo early!
Sometimes I think if MCR ever ends, and Gerard's comics fail miserably, he'll produce his own Sounds Of The Tambourine.
I often like to imagine what it would sound like on record, and how the concerts would play out.
Hello again Mayo.
Thanks for the gorgeous picture.That really was a lovely and thoughtful thing to do.
Why no chat, were you not in the mood?
So, it's tomorrow!
Let me see...
Shit repellent cape with hood....check
Wellies.....check
Spade.....check
Hip flask of JD....check
Marlboro lights.....check
Chocolate....check
Well then, it seems I'm ready, Mayo!
What's the deal, sweetie?
I'll just get comfy then, shall I?
*explores Mayo's now really quite splendid pad*
It's 1pm here but I have a teenager. I often feel all children should be put to bed as early as possible.
- AIP
were did the woof woof go
fimble woof woof star were the fuckz are you. are you hidin, i would hide if i had a face like youz.
hey peeps has anyone seen it. i not seen it for two days. maybe yall should whistle and it could find its way back.
who let the dogs out. woof woof woof woof
Evil ANON
Stop the shit. I'm in no mood for you. GO the fuck away. Leave Fimble alone.
You have gaul, do you realize that?
Stop it there. I gave you the same spill about a month back.
If you don't have anything to contribute or anything nice to say about ANYONE here, you aren't wanted. Come back when you're nicer.
You again!
What the feck have you got against Fimble....actually don't tell me, I'm not interested.
Don't make me repel you with my cape!
ya know, Anon I really really hope you aren't someone I know, because that would disappoint the shit out of me.
Hey Anon? Who let you in?
SECURITY SYSTEM WAT!
Work time for me girls, be back later.
With a shovel.
-A
can not call yall dogs not seen yall pictures. but she or it was a woof woof jep mutherfucking dog.
bet shez got a bag on her head. wouldn't blame it teehee
werez is she anyway. does it come here anymorez not seen for 2 dayz
I cannot understand a fucking word of what you're typing.
Just stop.
You aren't wanted here with that type of attitude and certainly with the type of insults you've got flying about.
so doez that meanz youz are da blog owner mustardisbetter. NOT.
i can comez here if i wantz to. who the fucks are youz anywayz. we all nowz yall don't like it so yall are fucking brown nosin. yall nowz it rite
Ok, so let me get this straight. You come here to insult someone but you admit having looked for her for the past two days. So what's up with that?
Oh wait, I'm sorry. I meant to type it like this.
so yall come here cuz yall were lookin fer someone but yall didnt see her and you were sad and now yer mad and stuff and throwin a hissy fit. jelluzzzz much?!?!?!
Whoa what a lovely grasp of the English language, ANON.
Really, just go away.
See I can be nice.
What I really wanted to say involved you and the horse you rode in on.
MUMBLER!!!!
Amy, I was thinking the same thing...
can we add an electric fence to la casa de Mayo?
[clears throat and makes too many adjustments to mention]
I had the pleasure of meeting Fimble Star a few nights ago. You must not know her or you would be aware of the fact that she is truly beautiful. This is not an effort to educate you, as much that seems to be needed. This is merely a comment, from a man, who would gladly defend and befriend her any day. (Even while at work.)
The Masked Anon, who shall kicketh that ass too.
Well hello there Masked Anon!
Are you the same gentlemen who treats ladies with water fountains, flowers, chocolates.....Hmmmmm!
Anonswers, do you not have anything better to do than come in here to bitch about Fimble Star?
On second thought, I take that question back. I KNOW you have nothing else to do.
Here are the same words you've heard before, in plain English:
SHUT THE FUCK UP, or GET THE FUCK OUT.
Haha this made me laugh :)
"Who won Best Band of 2007? Will it be My Chemical Romance or will it be Lostprophets? Who won Best Unsigned Band? Who was voted Sexiest Male of 2007? You voted in your hundreds of thousands, and the long-awaited results of the Kerrang! Readers' Poll 2007 hits selves tomorrow.
However, there's one slightly odd result that the judges had to put their collective foot down on. It seems that the majority of you out there in K! Land nominated My Chemical Romance frontman Gerard Way and 30 Seconds To Mars vocalist Jared Leto for the much coveted Sexiest Female Of 2007 gong!
As pretty as Mr Way and Mr Leto may be, and as much as they're not adverse to a bit of make-up, unfortunately, we had to disqualify them.
So who actually did you vote as your Sexiest Female Of 2007 then?
All of these questions and more will be answered in tomorrow's magazine"
hahahayhahahaha
Hi masked anon!!! I am a fan of your work :) and your mask haha
Masked Anon - I like your style. Stop by anytime.
oh fuckz
yall are to crazi. i saw the picturez on her blog. shez a dog. wonder y she took themz down 2 fucking fugly. y yall got youz head stuck up youz ass. lookz like it got da message anywayz. i made surez of dat. we wont needz to read her shit anymorz. so putz youz pictures up and we can kick the next dog outz. woof woof
teehee yall make me happi.
Hey Evil ANON
How about you put your picture up?
I would just love to see the beautiful person who spouts such shit.
Come on...lets see it.
I'm ready to fall in love.
What the fuck? Where did you come from? Do you not speak English?
Seriously. You're jealous aren't you? Obviously. Why else would you waste your time? I have seen FS's pictures and she is beautiful.
Jealousy is a very ugly thing. Think about it.
dei gratia,
Then you understand why I’m here. M’Lady reached for her whip and I couldn’t simply stand by. I haven’t left gifts for the Ladies lately. I will have to rectify that.
Shame in me,
Are you one of the observer’s lurkers? I don't remember you.
Elena,
My schedule is pretty full with the stalking I do but I do visit here from time to time.
The Masked Anon
Yeah TMA, you were more polite than I would have been. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing though. I can’t wait to use the whip! I like you even more now that you raised your light saber for Nimble. Well, “EIP” appreciates it anyway.
-AIP… avoiding pretty much everything.
You are a chivalrous gent, Masked Anon.
Ladies do love gifts and I must thank you again for mine, though it was some time ago.
I hope all is well under your mysterious cape!
Masked Anon - Thanks for talking the time to be with us. It means a lot to us. I'm giving you a huge hug and believe me I'm not in a hugging mood today. You are special.
masked anon i am a lurker i feel bad for saying that like lurking is a disease but sometimes i fear to involve myself.
Hello i am shame in me nice to meet you :)
That should have been TAKING the time.
Why the fuck doesn't this have spell check?
Lord, knows I need one.
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