I have never been careful…far too boring. Starting fires and playing with matches, perhaps. But I assure you, I will not burn down my own house. It is comfortable and my friends know where to find me.
I have opened up my rental on the other side of town...I may be there for a while. It is quiet, not that I mind a good party now and again.
It is a peaceful coalescence that I desire.
p.s. with all the finger pointing I can barely hear you anymore.
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Anon, can you tell me that?
Maybe you don't have all the answers after all.
J
Yes, but he added the word "me" in the miracle whip line. It wasn't there the first time I saw the blog.
Elena, thank you for acknowedging me. Obviously, I've picked a bad time to begin speaking, but if this doesn't all fall apart perhaps I'll speak to you again soon.
Good night (morning).
Ah. So the blog title WASN'T the same the first time. Like you told me it was.
Hmm. I call that making something up.
Tell me about all your friends on the other blog, the "just a memory" and "katharine dreier" and all those. Why does KD not have a profile?
J
J - I feel like I've just stepped into An Alternate Universe. WTF is wrong with this picture?
Elena, BC means me, I called her names. Felt good, too.
J
What's wrong? BC. She seems to think that lying is an acceptable form of communication.
J
I don't know why the hell she doesn't have a profile. Elena, I have not called you any names.
nimble soles - please come back again. I will be happy to listen to you. That is what I really am. I'm a listener. Tonight is special cause I'm pissed off and speaking my mind.
BC I never said you called me any names. But if ya wanna feel free.
Why, pray tell, would these strangers be allowed entrance to Mayo's private blog if no one is supposed to know? They weren't part of the crowd here. Seems Mayo wouldn't want just any old body talking to him. If it was so secret and all. Can you answer that?
J
I am not going to resort to calling you any names. That is not who I am.
OP, you have to ask Mayo that question. It is his blog after all, not mine
but you were put in charge of the guest list, right? he told you about it, and told you not to tell. I also remember you coming straight to the original blog and doing exactly what he told you not to do. you told us all. why would he trust you after that? discretion, he said.
J
oh yeah, as for the discretion, i guess talking about the possibility of him doing a show one night while you and TJ were talking was certainly discreet. wasn't it?
J
BC. We're all waiting for an answer.
J
Why would he trust me? How should I know? I don't have the answer for that. He was the one who asked. I didn't know about any show.
Even with all of the answers I may give you, it will not change a damn thing. Many of you do not believe me anymore. Nothing will change concerning that.
J - You are so not going to get a straight answer out of BC.
It's been nice talking with you J take care. I'll talk with you again..here
Shit this house is rocking.
MAYO DUDE - I mean it buddy, shed some light on this shit.
Yeah I'm still giggling about ROCK FUCKING HARD - SUCK ME OFF and let's not forget COCK.
Oh Mayo you do know how to show a girl a good time.
Just think at the start of this I was just the quiet girl in the corner.
Now I'm a fucking motor mouth.
Mayo your house is dirty man (no not the cock part) the house.
Clean it up for us.
Your lovelies need you.
mayo:
as i've commented elsewhere, this fiasco is our own doing. group dynamics break down all the time, even here, most unfortunately.
so don't you dare start thinking this was in any way your fault, do you hear me? in fact, you did what you could to stave it off, and a lovely post it was too, though i hadn't had a chance to say so yet.
and i add this, reposted to claim it, too cowardly to post under my own name at the time:
And it all comes down, flaming timbers falling around our heads.
You didn't light the match, Mayo, but it's burning all the same.
No one will believe this, but I will miss everyone here. This place was somedays the only thing making it a good day. I'm going to miss Mayo, too. Having this chance to come this close to him, even if it's just Internet-closeness, was extraordinary.
I'll never give up on you, Mayo.
I'll never forget the incredible kindnesses I have received here.
good night, everyone.
i truly hope you have a good day, mayo.
Yes, that is right. You are not going to get a straight answer out of me. Your trust in me has been shattered so why should I answer any questions if you cannot at least have some decency?
hi mayo and everyone here :)
thanks for the new post mayo. you have a good timing, always posting when I´m sleeping ;)
I am trying my best to show some decency but it seems that it is not working. I tried to apologize and I see that it is not working either. Not sure what else to do.
Hey wait! I've got a better one than the one about the show.
bleeding chaos said:
Good evening Mayonaise. How are you? Yes, I know, I constantly delete my comments so much don't I? Sometimes even typing those words does not entirely express what I need to say. Do not worry, I will not blatantly "attack" you or scold you. I am not quite sure if it is the right thing to reveal my feelings out in the open to you, but fuck what people may think.
It has only been about two or three months since the last time I had seen you and the band. I miss seeing you already, but I have to admit, the PR performance was a major disappointment. Worst one I have seen yet. Please do not take that as a defense, I am mainly being honest here. I am rather sad that you are not returning to Chicago this year. I was hoping to see you once again.
I suppose I have to wait until next year, right? Although I admit, I do not want to wait that long. I am worried about your current state of mind. Believe me, I am. Do you want someone to worry about you? I sure as hell am. We all are. A part of it explains my mood changes. Yes, I do have a problem with my temper, just as you do. You see, sometimes I do understand you. I am aware that you do not reply to the posts, but I wish you would take what I say into some sort of consideration.
Even when there are times where we do not mention you, you must believe that we do care. Just because we do not discuss about you sometimes, it does not mean that you are neglected. You are not. I picture you as someone that needs to be protected at all costs, but please do not allow any argument to destroy your frienships. Friends are infinitely precious, more so than gold. Do not take them for granted. You will need to hold on to them if or when someday, you would lose all that is dear to you. You hold a special place in my heart, my love. (Yes, I do call people that)
Take care and sweet dreams, my little Mayonaise.
Love, hugs, and kisses,
XOXO,
BC
November 4, 2007 5:38 AM
See that first line in the second paragraph? The one where you talk about HIM AND THE BAND
Good evening Mayonaise. How are you? Yes, I know, I constantly delete my comments so much don't I? Sometimes even typing those words does not entirely express what I need to say. Do not worry, I will not blatantly "attack" you or scold you. I am not quite sure if it is the right thing to reveal my feelings out in the open to you, but fuck what people may think.
It has only been about two or three months since the last time I had seen you and the band. I miss seeing you already, but I have to admit, the PR performance was a major disappointment. Worst one I have seen yet. Please do not take that as a defense, I am mainly being honest here. I am rather sad that you are not returning to Chicago this year. I was hoping to see you once again.
I suppose I have to wait until next year, right? Although I admit, I do not want to wait that long. I am worried about your current state of mind. Believe me, I am. Do you want someone to worry about you? I sure as hell am. We all are. A part of it explains my mood changes. Yes, I do have a problem with my temper, just as you do. You see, sometimes I do understand you. I am aware that you do not reply to the posts, but I wish you would take what I say into some sort of consideration.
Even when there are times where we do not mention you, you must believe that we do care. Just because we do not discuss about you sometimes, it does not mean that you are neglected. You are not. I picture you as someone that needs to be protected at all costs, but please do not allow any argument to destroy your frienships. Friends are infinitely precious, more so than gold. Do not take them for granted. You will need to hold on to them if or when someday, you would lose all that is dear to you. You hold a special place in my heart, my love. (Yes, I do call people that)
Take care and sweet dreams, my little Mayonaise.
Love, hugs, and kisses,
XOXO,
BC
November 4, 2007 5:38 AM
First line, second paragraph. YOU AND THE BAND, you say.
Discreet.
J
you trying to embarrass me now?
I worry about the band, that is what I meant.
How are you doing pixie?
OMG,you are going to try and deny it?!
"had seen you and the band"
You say it right there!
Oh look, I fucked up. I'm willing to admit a mistake. But I think it kinda gets the point across.
Elena, I most certainly will talk with you again. Right here. Probably later tonight. Take care.
BC, my trust in you can't be shattered because I never had any. If you won't defend yourself by telling us all what happened, then I personally have no choice but to distrust you. Seems to me like you would've asked Mayo a few of these questions I asked you, the ones he could answer, when the new blog first came up. That might have been a cautious thing to do.
Mayo, I'm really sorry to have used all your blog space to interrogate BC. If you want to tell me off yourself, feel free. I've always been straight up with you, so I ask you to do it with me. Lots of finger pointing tonight. At least mine was all in one direction.
BC, I'm done with you. I can only recommend one thing for you to do.
Leave us alone.
J
I have seen the band a few times and have met them! ^_^
hi bc *hugs* hope you´re ok. what happened to your break? well I know, so much going on last night before I left and I bet also after I left.
I would send you an email but sounds as if you had a lot of it in the last hours *laugh* ;)
and now work is calling I have to leave you...
takle good care mayoa nd all of you guys. see you in the evening *hugs*
Telling you what? I have told you everything. There is nothing else I need to say. Yes, most of those deleted comments on the other blog were mine
Take care pixie *hugs*
Sorry, I'm breaking my own promise.
I've met the band, too. Great bunch of guys. That lead singer, he's something else. The little tattooed guitarist, I'd take him home in a second. But, y'know, I don't remember any of them answering to "Mayo". Like you called him. See where you did that?
I do.
And I bet he does, too.
Hope you can sleep tonight! Oh yeah, and look yourself in the eye in the mirror tomorrow.
Kisses!
J
I suppose I should leave, but I admit, reading the words "leave us alone" did leave a big twist in my heart. You better believe it. I tried apologizing, but I guess that does not work here. I am sincerely sorry that things had to become the way they are.
I'm sorry.
damn spellingmistakes... anyway, guys don´t try to kill each other!!!! ^^
hey mayo cheers for that.
i haven't read whats been going on yet so if this is a dumb question i'm sorry, this place you're renting....are we allowed to visit at all? no doubt everyones there and i just don't know where it is. anyways not to worry i'm sure i'll find out if i'm meant to.
i'm so crap with computers, i put my email on my profile and awoke to a zillion emails, all the comments came through!! i didn't know that would happen! anyway if there were any important ones they are lost amongst the comments!
anyway hope everyones well.
I know who Mayo is and it does not have to do with my personal feelings, but alas, I have said long time that I did not expect anyone to believe me.
ok what have i walkied into here!!
what the fucks going on guys???
Faraway, this is the biggest case of divide and conquering.
I tried apologizing.
i'm trying to catch up on wtf went down. noticed that mayo signed in with his own name though, that was great. BC i haven't a clue whats going on. don't stress yourself though life is too short.
http://its-miraclewhip.blogspot.com/
What's going on here? Click the link and find out.
Geez mayonaise,
Whats up!
Looks like you didn't receive your wish or did you?
As I stand here, before you and "The Almighty"...I pray you did not intentionally start all of this.
Please straighten this out.People are hurting and suffering on your behalf.
I am in a state of shock at the level of hatred.
Looking back now,the "hints" were there,but I wasn't seeing them.
I am honestly not angry with anyone,feel alittle dumb though.
Everyone,please take care and hope to see you all here again.
my best
`sc
Lying, much - you disgust me
dei gratia said...
Yeah, she's right guys!
People are feeling weird over there!
BC:
I've made up some crap story about a bad date I need advice on....
someone with a conscience ??
'Gentle Vengeance said...
By the Gods, I should not be writing here.
I am ashamed and embarrassed at what I am doing at the moment. I have been struggling now for a while not to post here. It is not right
no matter how you dress it up,
you have betrayed your friends
simple.
P.S - and for what ??
jesus fucking christ!!!!
i'm so slow i know but eventually it all becomes crystal clear!!!
isn't it a little sad that blog life actually mirrors real life!
not to worry i was happier not knowing. i would've hated to have the secret to keep, secrets suck and they can weigh heavily on peoples' shoulders!
mayo i'm a little embarrassed at my comment earlier saying how sweet you were to comment with your real name, turns out you probably just forgot what blog you were on!!
anyway in all truth i'm not angry with anyone. whats the point!
i'd much rather be standing on this side of the fence anyway.
little repulsed by the full on blow job porn entry over there though! mayo thats just cheap! kinda funny but kinda sad.
back to work.
i'll pop back in later, the good thing is that most of the people that inspire me and make me laugh on this blog didn't know about the alternate universe either.
liar liar pants on fire BC....
Bleeding Chaos said...
And by the way, I accidentally discovered the Miracle Whip blog.
I posted a comment about something else, and then I returned to Mayo's profile
page and that was when I saw the other blog. That was before I posted the comment
about it. I took a peek at the new blog and when I clicked on the back arrow button,
the blog was erased.
Not a big deal, but I wanted to get that off my chest.
And now we need a new subject ;D
October 17, 2007 2:28 AM
Bleeding Chaos said...
Kapunua, yep I posted a comment at 10:37 but that was after the miracle whip blog was
erased. I was a little too excited I suppose. Oops.
October 17, 2007 2:32 AM
Bleeding Chaos said...
Oh, that one? Well, at the time when I saw the blog, I did not think nothing of
it because I was reading the part where he said don't tell anyone about it.
I am not sure what to think because he posted the blog as quickly as he erased it
as soon as I was done reading it.
October 17, 2007 2:56 AM
ask away but I don't have a lot of time
I found the blog I tried url's until it came up, i just thought "alternate"
i didn't get invited by anyone.
It said don't tell, so i didn't plus it was pretty inconsequential as far as anyting new being said was.
anon at 7:17, discuss Mayo was never a hidden blog. We posted it's link a zillion times. It was a place where we could go in order to get away from here when it got too hectic.
I just came back and what do I find? This is so interesting!!! Tomorrow, I have a seminar and I will tell them about this little project (social experiment) here! They all will be so intrigued!
Divide and conquer. "Friends" betraying their "friends". A blogger (Mayo) who is laughing his/her ass off right now.
I hope those two blogs will still exist, because I'm planning to write a term paper about it.
Thanks Mayo
Mayo,
How are you this morning? I'm a little...well, not sure. I left here last night and we were all laughing, sharing the love, apologizing to you, apologizing to each other and I get up this morning to see that everything has blown the fuck up here. What the fuck?
Listen, I don't know your identity, but I have a told you multiple times, I know you. The things I write, the things I give to you are things I should be giving to myself and I know that. When I talk to you, I always feel like I am talking to me. I offer up my heart, my soul, my honesty, my love to you and I have to believe that you do not take that as lightly as some might think you do.
Well, they don't call me the "faithful" one for no reason, so I am saying it right now that I have faith that you, I, and all of us here can get through this. Some are feeling hurt, played, lied to, betrayed etc., but I don't. You didn't do any of those things to me. You just gave some here the tools they needed, and those few did it all on their own. Probably, just like you knew they would. Oh well, oh well.
I'm still here and I will be until you burn the motherfucker down. I am here for ME, YOU, and my FAMILY. Let's fix this shit. I'll help you. Please, let me.
Hope you have a nice day filled with self-reflection, simplicity, solitude, and safety.
Love to YOU Alfuckingways,
s(your Faithful)
p.s. Singing to myself
You know, I find it funny that one of the anonymous decided to twist DG's words around and make it mine.
If a few of you unmarked graves have not known, please refer to the previous blog here and pay close attention to one of my anonymous comments that details all of this. I was aware for a while that others would suspect I would be lying to them regarding the "alternate universe" and I was well aware of the consequences that I possibly would have faced. And now here I am.
Nothing I will say or do will change things back to where they were once before. No amount of apologies or pleading would suffice. What can I say? If some of you believe that I was the conspirator and manipulator in all of this, you are sorely mistaken.
I am sincerely sorry that it had to come to this. I never wanted this to happen, but alas, it did. For a few of you anons, what are you trying to prove besides posting the comments that belong to me?
Enough with the stalker fetish. It is quite creepy. I am not quite sure what will happen next, but believe me, after what had transpired last night, I will not return to this place again.
It used to be my internet sanctuary, a place where I can gather and talk to individuals. But alas, it does not hold true for me no longer.
My sincerest apologies. There is nothing more I need to express here.
what words are they BC?
don't leave BC...
at least not until you tell us what you wrote in all those deleted posts in the alternate universe.
we're dying to know.
Do not worry. Those deleted posts were mostly grammar errors and spelling mistakes and stuff that I did not want to leave there. You can believe me or not. I could give
a rat's ass anymore.
To the other anon, I was mentioning the words that were originally DG's own when she mentions advice for her bad date.
Anonymous said...
don't leave BC...
at least not until you tell us what you wrote in all those deleted posts in the alternate universe.
we're dying to know.
November 14, 2007 12:41 PM
Not all of the deleted posts are gone for good ^.~ Some were more than likely saved by someone for a day like this
Bleeding Chaos said...
Do not worry. Those deleted posts were mostly grammar errors and spelling mistakes and stuff that I did not want to leave there. You can believe me or not. I could give
a rat's ass anymore.
Spelling and grammer errors? I think not...
Yes, I am aware of that, but I could give two shits anymore. People already know how I feel and there is nothing I can do to take it back.
Some of them were, anonymous, but as I said before, I could give two shits anymore.
You might have put out the welcome mat at the rental across town Mayo, but the door was slammed in peoples faces by others who they thought were their friends.
Feeling for SM, K, amyranth , elena, entropy and others missed.
You think I wanted this to happen? No, I did not. But it is too late to change it now. Apologies are not going to change anything no matter how many attempts.
I am truly sorry.
Bleeding Chaos said...
Are you willing to turn your back on Ergo and toujours and anyone else?
Are you really that stupid or are you just pretending to try to hide your lame attempt at suckin up to Mayo's ass?
They turned their backs on everyone else.
Oh, and you truly are an idiot.
Mayo,
Just wanted to give you a bit of reading before I go off to work. Usually I quote some prolific writer or poet, but today you get just me....
Took from my own blog and it still holds true.
I promise to play nice....nah fuck that, no I don't. But I won't lie to you. I think I do understand you and that's what scares the shit out me. I wasn't always like this...or was I? Now, I'm lost. Lost in myself...but who am I? Do you know who you are? What the fuck do I want from you? Do you want something from me? Give, give, give, I give it all to everyone. But, is it only what I allow them to take that I give? Of course, this is such a dangerous game to play but I feel I am worthy. Maybe I am the only one who is worthy.....Nonsense. There are others out there much better than you or I. You lie to everyone. I hate liars. But sometimes lies are necessary, aren't they? Or is that what we tell ourselves so that we won't feel bad for lying. You know what they say about liars......something about our pants catching on fire. If you believe that sort of thing, what do you believe in? It must make sense to someone....life. Death. Death, THE FUCKING END! There must, there has to be some kind of pattern, some logical, mathematical explanation for everything. Right? Bullfuckingshit.....but that doesn't stop me from trying to make it all add up. Ha! Laugh all you want..but do you have it all figured out? You might think you do...good luck with that. You will wake up tomorrow and you will fuck something up again, just like you always do. Damnit...you must stop that. Some things can't be helped, I see. I see exactly what you want me to see and everything you don't. I see things you haven't even seen yet and it's frightening. Only for me, not for you. I can't warn you, you won't let me. Do you want to die? I don't want you to die. That's selfish of me.....Yes. Selfish. See, what you made me do? Now I care and now I feel invested. Stupid Girl, stop wasting your time. Invest in your own life. My life? What the fuck......I don't want to talk about me, I want to talk about YOU. This isn't about me at all.......Or is it?
Clever......You're much smarter than I realized.
P.S. Thank you.
Love to YOU Always,
Faithful
p.s. Maybe if I can read the map correctly I will find what I have been searching for my whole life....maybe??
Il tempo viene per chi sa aspettare.
A Rose for Emily....
The door was already slammed shut when Mayo create that private blog.
Get off it, bc, you've been discovered and outed as the 'snake in the grass' and it has nothing to do with your bad spelling or grammer (funny how you always use that excuse when you get called out: "Oh these anons are just picking on me because of my bad spelling." Please. Was it fun stabbing your 'faithful readers' in the back? Was it worth it? What else are you holding back from your 'dear friends'?
Anonymous, you wise and foresightful lurker! Tell us about the "grammar errors"!
No I am not trying to kiss his ass, I just feel bad that everyone had to turn their backs on them without allowing them to explain why they did what they did.
You think I am the snake in the grass? No, I am not. I made a mistake. All of us human beings are entitled to make fucking mistakes.
Original Punks said...
Anonymous,
Question:
If Mayo doesn't like opinionated people, why does he talk to Kapunua? And SDock? And L? And if he only wants to talk to the asskissers, why does he ignore BC and her posse? For that matter, if he didn't like what we opinionated women were saying, why didn't he just delete the whole fucking blog? Much easier, less dramatic.
BECAUSE HE IS PLAYING WITH THOSE PEOPLE.
Stop trying to make him look innocent. BD is a stupid bitch but you can't pin ALL the blame on her. THis is Mayo's deal. Don't you dare turn him onto the good guy.
...and if I don't want to wait, anon?
Hey you spelled my name wrong, and I have not called anyone a bitch, nor I intend to. Why call me one?
And as predicted Sdock goes running back.
Sdock, one uestion.
Would you have been over there if you had known about it too? Would you have kept his secret? Shut the door? Be honest.
Bleeding Chaos said...
I am not sure what to say here, but I feel uncomfortable posting here Mayo. I cannot say what I want without worrying about the anonymous jerks jumping on me. Just today, someone was mocking me because of my misspelling comments that I continued to post, but I kept telling them that I misspell alot because I am a fast typer. I'm sure you don't care about this, but I wanted to let you know how I felt.
October 25, 2007 2:54 PM
Bleeding Chaos said...
I've got feelings for you,
Do you still feel the same?
From the first time I laid my eyes on you,
I felt joy of living,
I saw heaven in your eyes...
P.S. I told you that I may be nuts ^_^
October 25, 2007 4:18 PM
Why don't you leave sd10 alone?
Yeah I figured you would start posting those comments. Stalker.
Allowing trials to purify character develops patience, but I welcome a difference of opinion, if you care to make one.
Il mondo è bello perchè è vario.
A Rose for Emily...
He might have shut the door, but some people are obviously hurting that friends they thought they were close to wouldn't give out the address so they could knock at it if they wanted.
What happened to friendship and loyalty?
Was the duplicity involved in keeping the secret worth the friendships?
Well, as for the address, blame it on him. He was the one who wanted to keep the audience to a mininum.
As for the other anonymous fools, why try to embarrass me further with the comments? Last night was already the shittiest. Why add insult to injury? Why beat a dead horse?
I'm late for work.
I'll come back when its less chaotic.
Ciao.
A Rose for Emily...
The sanest days are mad
Why don't you find out for yourself ?
Then you'll see the price
Very closely
Some men here
They have a special interest
In your career
They wanna help you to grow
And then siphon all your dough
Why don't you find out for yourself ?
Then you'll see the glass
Hidden in the grass
You'll never believe me, so
Why don't you find out for yourself ?
Sick down to my heart
That's just the way it goes
Some men here
They know the full extent of
Your distress
They kneel and pray
And they say :
"Long may it last"
Why don't you find out for yourself ?
Then you'll see the glass
Hidden in the grass
Bad scenes come and go
For which you must allow
Sick down to my heart
That's just the way it goes
Don't rake up my mistakes
I know exactly what they are
And ... what do YOU do ?
Well ... you just SIT THERE
I've been stabbed in the back
So many many times
I don't have any skin
But that's just the way it goes
Bleeding Chaos said...
As for the other anonymous fools, why try to embarrass me further with the comments? Last night was already the shittiest. Why add insult to injury? Why beat a dead horse?
November 14, 2007 1:18 PM
Why? Because people are curious as to what was contained in the hundreds of posts you deleted. They already feel left out and I think it's only fair that they see what really went on over there.
I never stabbed anyone in the back before. I am not that kind of person. I make one mistake and people already turn their backs on me. Aren't I allowed to make mistakes too? Because this is not loyalty. This is the same behavior you see on buzznet or INO, only accept most here are adults.
What happened to supporting one another? I felt a stab in the heart when I saw OP's words saying that I should leave everyone alone.
Believe me, that stung more than anything I read last night.
Wise Anonymous, thanks! Please, go on posting those "grammar errors". I like to laugh!
Italian anon, the world is also beautiful for the loyal ones, don't you think?!
Well, none of those comments do not involve anyone here. Are you starting to believe that I would say shit about my own friends too? Because I would never do that.
With so many comments deleted over there, who knows what his purpose was?
Hats off to ergoproxy and toujours who had the spine to leave their comments there and face the consequences.
Where is Mayo in all this, leaving BC to defend him?
Laughing his ass off.
The claws are coming out. When good people get hurt this Leo gets angry.
Yeah that's right, curious as cat, you want to laugh at someone else's expense, but you do not consider to take the time to see if someone's feelings may get hurt.
I am not defending him. I am defending myself. People think I manipulated all of this, which I have never done.
Oh and I still remember once when on a blog over there in which your comments made up over 90% of the deleted comments, you asked who was deleting all their comments and once informed that you could see the names if you click on the blog post title you quickly shut up. I even questioned you about it once and you just got very defensive. I still wonder to this day why you felt it necessary to bring attention to the fact that you deleted all those comments of yours. And please don't start with "It was because of grammer and spelling errors" that's a crock of shit and you know it.
Curious as a cat, more coming soon xD
This whole thing started yesterday with a lurker at sd10's blog. Has anyone stopped to consider that it was the main reason things happened the way they did last night? I admitted my mistakes already and I was already ready to face the consequences.
Wait... Mayo's taking a break!?
No, there was someone else who was deleting their comments too, not just me. Sometimes they would delete their comments right after I posted mine.
Why don't you go and find another hidden place for you and your lover Mayo, bleeding chaos?
And Mayo, you are the rat. Can't you smell your own shit on your knees?
Oh, but guys, I think how bc handled this whole situation was shady but her and mayo were not in cahoots, in fact I don't think he read many of her comments to him over there because she was always so quick to delete them.
I do not understand why some of you wants to do these kinds of things. I guess you really do not give a shit about the people here. If you are trying to embarrass me, there is nothing else for me to be embarrassed for.
Yay!!! Thanks, wise Anonymous!!
You can believe all you want. No place for me to hide curious as a cat, since I will not return here anymore.
So Mayo told you you were special, asked you to keep his secret and ran to your arms when things got chaotic at home?
Makes him sound like a cheater and you are the bit on the side.
Was it worth it?
curious as a cat, go back to buzznet.
Special? What the hell are you talking about? He never said anything like that. You kids make me laugh
Bleeding Chaos said...
Good evening Mayonaise. How are you this fine evening? I did not realize that you have posted another blog until I arrived here just a few minutes ago. A couple of times this past week, I may have seemed a bit angry, but that is part of my Aries nature after all. I am glad to know that you do pay attention and is aware of what is going on, especially a few of those anons who claim that you were badmouthing us. Thank you for clearing that up dear Mayonaise.
And oh, thank you for the P.S. as well. Here is one for you:
P.S. Everything that I have said here on this alternate universe, I sincerely mean it. Truly. I am sure you understand.
November 5, 2007 9:51 PM
Bleeding Chaos said...
P.P.S. Maybe soon I will allow myself to be entirely honest with you. Will you label me as insane when that time finally comes? And oh yeah, my sincerest apologies yet again for continuing to constantly delete my comments ^_^
I already have an asshole anon bitching at me on your public blog for that, but I can hold my own.
Good night and sweet dreams my little jar of Mayonaise. Good night to steal a kiss, Ergo, and my adorable Squeak Squeak. Love you guys.
XOXO,
BC
November 5, 2007 11:38 PM
Okay um... I'm gonna leave and come back when I can understand what's going on. I don't want to get involved in a fight I know nothing about.
And the best one...
Bleeding Chaos said...
This is what I’m fearing the most:
So alive and new
But it’s gone from your eyes
Eyes without a face
Got no human grace
Such a human waste
Your eyes without a face
And now it’s getting worse…
I fear the light is slowly dimming in your eyes; that spark fading into nothingness.
“In our mutual shame, we hide our eyes”.
This is why I believe you have been covering your eyes with sunglasses.
This is what I miss the most:
Your sincerity, your honesty, your smile, your laughter
Your passion, your ability to connect with the crowd.
We all missed that. It shatters my heart to witness you appear more dead than alive
I miss seeing the sparkle in your beautiful eyes. Where has all of that faded to?
What is quite shocking is that the last and first time I had ever seen you smile was at my very first My Chem concert. You want to know when that took place? October 26th, 2006. That was the only time I had ever seen you smile after that, and it was so beautiful and genuine. Incredible, but sadly true. And yes, I do miss the old Gerard. We all do. It amazes me to see that you have changed so much, and not for the better I’m afraid. The strangest thing is that ever since that first performance, I have felt this weird connection when I look at you. When I do, my eyes become absorbed into yours and for a few minutes, I do not see anyone there but us. Sounds a bit insane correct? That is how I feel every time I see you and the guys. I cannot explain it. It just is.
This is what I hope for the most:
Please don’t be afraid
When the darkness fades away
I hope sooner or later
You will find the light once more
Keep the faith and hope alive in you
Stay strong
You’re not alone honey. Never. Never.
Light to me represents safety, love, happiness, and comfort.
I believe you will find that again
This is what I want for the most, but yet I realize that it may be impossible:
As countless others may desire to want to say this to you, yes I am in love with you. Yes, I do love you. Not the rock star you. Just the regular Gerard. I could give a flying fuck about the rock star persona as far as I’m concerned. I do realize that after admitting this to you, others may seem to believe that I have gone entirely insane. Maybe I have. I will not hold a grudge if that does happen. If I like someone, I do not hide my feelings back, although in this case, it is rather difficult. I do realize that this may be impossible, but even so, I have wanted to release my feelings out for so damn long. I have been holding them in for a year and a half now. If all of this is impossible, than I will move on, but I wanted to let you know how I truly feel before I am able to do just that. As scary and unbelievable as this may sound, you are the only man I ever fell in love with. Believe me, it takes much long for me to fall in love. I still have my present goals to accomplish and need to focus on. Finishing college, building a successful career, buying a home, possibly tying the knot(although honestly I wish it was with you) and settling down. I still have much to accomplish. I feel a bit scared because I have never been so open about this with anyone, and it scares me to be so honest and releasing all of this out in front of strangers. Will you label me insane after admitting all of this? To some of my lovely readers, I am truly sorry. I needed to get all of this out in the open before it was too late, although some of what I have admitted does sound a bit incredible. I felt that I needed to do this. Honestly, after what I have just admitted, I am not sure what is going to happen next. I think I may lay low for a while if that’s what it takes. When it comes to confessing something big, I tend to keep to myself.
What I also want is for you to be happy and healthy, as for the rest of the band, but I fear that something may happen to you. We are all worried. It is disheartening that you do not look happy. I miss seeing you smile. We all do.
So Mayonaise. Do you think I am now officially insane?
November 6, 2007 1:12 AM
BC, you really have some guts to ask me, if I'm not interested in other people's feelings being hurt!
She-rat!
You know, those comments are not going to embarrassed me kids. I can hold my own.
Well, yes, because it seems that you are trying to hurt mine for no apparent reason.
You have not considered my feelings as well. Instead, you been gloating and showing support for the anon who is posting my comments. If you want to be treated with respect, show that same respect to others. That is all I am asking.
Thanks again, wise Anonymous. And the she-rat tells me to go back to buzznet, hahahahahahhaha!
What she- rat? I was not the one who posted the link, so you cannot call me a rat. I have not ratted out to anything.
I'm not concerned about your feelings. I'm sure Gerard will take care of it!
Nah. I take care of my own feelings, little one.
Have a look at this page and tell me you didn't delete the largest ammount of comments. And as for ones right before or after -- where? There were whole long lines of delted comments with your name attached bc.
http://its-miraclewhip.blogspot.com/2007/11/harboring-boats-and-other-such.html
You still don't understand what makes you a she-rat, do you?
That's so sad!
Well, I did admit that I erased numerous comments ^_^
Why do you care anyways?
Maybe it's because you said Mayo was a rat right? D'oh!
Nah. I take care of my own feelings, little one.
Yeah, I' sure about that...
Sick to the gut with all this. It smells worse than the sheep excretions around here.
This has exposed Mayo for the player he really is.
I keep my faith in the sscorpion.
*the extra 's' is deliberate*
You are the rat bc. You lied to the people you called friends, you stabbed them in the back and sold them up the river all in the hopes that you could keep mayo all to yourself and that way he would notice you. All your little mind games and manipulations, you're paying for it now.
Oh God, you are really as stupid as some people claimed here. And ignorant as well.
Why are people so eager to give their faith, hope and love to a total stranger, (puking) pickled possum? What if SS is Mayo, or his/her friend?
They may be both sitting in front of the laptop together, wetting themselves because they have to laugh so hard!
Oh please, anonymous. I would never sell my friends short for a man. I don't give a fuck who he is. How delusional are you? Are you aware that they are anons who are trying to play divide and conquer? You really think I would hurt my friends because of how I feel about Mayo? I would never do such a thing.
You could call me stupid, ignorant, whatever. People have been calling me that for quite a while now. They are only words.
Shae, I'm going to join you.
Night all.
Slog it out.
P.S. Front up Mayo.
Well, it's off to work for me. Have a pleasant day bc.
Mayo, I'm not angry with you and I will still be around here somewhere.
SS, I hope all is well with you.
Everyone, hopefully this rift can be repaired, I really liked/like this place in spite of the ppus snakes and rats.
Ah, leave pickled possom alone already.
What pleasant day would I be having? I cannot talk to anyone that I care about anymore. For sure I will not have a pleasant day because of it.
Whoa, wait a minute, bc. YOU are calling ME delusional? Honey, if anyone here is delusional it would be you. And you did sell out your friends and 'dear readers' for a man and now everyone knows.
...and you don't deserve a pleasant day, she-rat!
And the she-rat doesn't even have a proof if it is a man! haha
Have a pleasant day bc.
Perhaps I should have made clear for you that that was sarcasm.
No I did not anonymous. Who the fuck cares what you think? My day is not going to go pleasant either way. I cannot barely talk to anyone here anymore, which makes me sad
I know who Mayo is, curious.
who's fault is that bc?
How does it feel to know that all those words you tried so desperately to hide are now out in the open and you can't delete them before they are read? Do you feel betrayed? Now you know how your 'friends' feel.
BC, looks like you are getting all the attention you crave and more this morning.
As far as I'm concerned, anonymous, I was ready to face the consequences a while ago. Anyone who knows me would know I would never sell my friends out for anything. Everyone makes mistakes, but I suppose a couple of you are trying to exploit my weaknesses, to make me seem less human in front of everyone.
No attention, anonymous. I just want to settle this so I won't feel anymore guilt. Believe it or not, I do have a conscious.
Curious as a cat,
I see where you are coming from.
I don't believe they are the same person. Their style and essence has been quite different from the start and maintained throughout.
The 'faith' comes down to the fact SS is always the voice of reason and calm amongst the bullshit. It's to do with the integrity of the individual and not what is portrayed in the media and through the spin.
You've got to have some hope there are some honest people out there.
3:04am here, sorry got to go now.
Sure you know who Mayo is. All that insider info you have from all those secret sources /sarcasm. Like anyone will believe anything you have to say now.
So, did Gerard send you a photo holding up a note "Yes, I'm Mayo"? You make me laugh so hard right now! Please stop being so funny!
WTF is going on? Seriously? What happened last night?!
Blaming others for a secret. Keeping secrets from people?! Wow. I'm disappointed in a lot of people..
Today is a very rare day. Today, Paperheart is not smiling. Paperheart will give no hugs for a huge chunk of the day. I'm sorry.
What attention anonymous? I had attention since the day I started my blogs, which was entirely accidental. I would gladly switch it to have my friends back. I never wanted any of this in the first place.
BC,
I am still your friend. Always will be until the end. Remember that. I am scared the end is near.
I should go. I have to go to school. I must try and get rid of the tears before I go.
No anonymous. I have my ways of finding it. I am truly sorry you had to be in the middle of this paperheart. I am being blamed for Mayo's secret blog.
Thank you paperheart. I really needed that. Take care and lots of hugs.
I understand pickled possum! But still, I would not leave one place full of backstabbing rats to find another place where the same thing could (will?) happen!
There is nothing to settle here. You hurt a lot of people and they saw you for what you really are. I hope you really do feel guilty, you should. What you have done to these people that trusted you sucks, she-rat.
for fucks sake guys enough is enough!
this is pathetic.
i know people are a little pissed off but this is just plain bullying and its mean so call it a fucking day will you.
it feels like i'm back at school for gods sake.
BC didn't kill any one its not the end of the fucking world.
i don't like bullying full stop ok.
BC btw don't go there on the you know who mayo is either cos it really doesn't matter.
BC, It's okay. Please email me. I will respond during my spare class at 1 pm.
Please email me.
It appears that BC has caused a fine mess here with her psychotic ways.
You think I liked what I did anonymous? No I do not. I am truly sorry faraway. Yes, I know it does not matter, which is why I am going to drop it.
Besides, I am in the mood to vent.
Psychotic ways my ass PPU.
I will paperheart. Take care.
Let me get this straight:
1. BC claimed to be in secret communication with Mayo.
2. BC claims Mayo told her to take some bloggers to a secret blog.
3. BC was discovered to be an elitest and slightly insane.
4. Mayo refutes having done anything of the sort with his current blog.
Is that correct?
The attention you've been crying for what with all the "I'm leaving for a while", "well, maybe not," "No, no I am leaving," "nobody cares" crap and the constant deleting/undeleting/deleting of your blog.
I never said anything about being an elitist. Where did you hear that? anonymous, I do not have to explain my real reasons to you or anyone else.
BC its ok. i'm not angry.
i don't think anyone deserves to be bullied.
you should get some sleep though, looking through the comments it doesn't look like you went to bed. and everything appears shittier when you're tired. although this is shit in here i must say.
the vultures must think christmas has come early mind!!
Yeah, and we are here to vent as well!
There will always be people who are able to forgive and forget that easily and some people don't! It's not your own fault bleeding chaos. There where other backstabbers as well. And Mayo is your leader. But I'm not going to give this lame ass, whoever he/she is, too much thought. Rats have a short life, and so does Mayo('s blog).
Thank you faraway. Yeah, I didn't have a good sleep last night. Battling with the flu still.
I never backstabbed anyone, and if I did, it was never intentional.
Anon @ 2:13...
This is obviously a regular. How does it feel to know your "friends" are turning on you, BC?
Aren't you tired of your own lame excuses? Why can't you be honest that you enjoyed it to be in the inner circle?
PPU, someone already asked me that question. I apologized already, that is all I needed to do. If people want to accept it, that is fine, if not, then I really do not care. I make mistakes just like everyone.
While a simple plan, it’s definitely an effective game you play Mayo. I will give you that.
Creating a "secret" blog, telling people who stumble across it not to tell. Of course, you know as well as I do secrets never stay hidden for long. Secrets, lies and backstabbing are all brought to the surface eventually.
Divide, break and conquer was that always the goal? I’ll bear my soul in cryptic messages, allude to being Gerard, draw them in and then fuck them over crash and burn style? Have lurking forums, communities and finally blogs given you so much discontent and such a jaded outlook that you felt you must strike back somehow?
The Sheppard? I think not. More like the true sheep in wolves clothing. Sad you felt compelled to do this.
To the regulars, including myself, and I don’t care if I’m anon. I’ve been lurking here since the beginning, but never felt compelled to post until now. Why does this whole thing feel like the husband who is cheating on his oblivious wife? When the wife finally figures out what’s up she directs all her hate and malice out on the mistress. The wife blames the mistress for seducing her husband and wrecking her marriage instead of focusing on the real problem with her husband. In the end, the husband is forgiven, but the mistress will always been seen as the sole bad guy . My point: People here are pointing fingers at different members for keeping secrets when all the while it was Mayo who said to do as such. Does Mayo not deserve some of the blame here too? Maybe I am missing more of the plot and if so, apologies, but if I’m correct…Why is it not more of you upset with Mayo for this.
It wasn’t a sole project, it was a joint one.
Personally I hate being played by anyone - not just my-so-called friends.
What inner circle? I do not enjoy shit like that. I enjoyed talking to many. I don't play favorites, but I suppose you will twist those words around, correct?
Dear Everyone/Anyone,
I’ve just spent the last few hours digesting the unravelling of the blog and I have some stuff I wanted to get off my chest.
I came for the insane conspiracy theories, but stayed for the people and towards the end I began to find that I actually cared about them.
OK we all got played, but you know what? I actually feel fine. Even if this place was conceived as some kind of Machiavellian scheme to prove us all to be suckers, the compassion and inspiration I’ve felt from the genuine posters gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside; we should all be pretty damn thankful that there’s still people in this crazy, cynical World ready to risk being caught for gullible fools to actually reach out to others.
I suffered from depression for all of my teens up to my mid-twenties and if it wasn’t for guys like you I possibly wouldn’t be alive today. For that I thank you (almost) all.
And to Mayo: I don’t care what your intentions were, I’m just glad I got to be around for the ride.
Love (I mean it!),
Kass xx
I am tired of apologizing and defending myself. You guys can think what you think. I admitted my mistakes, I made my apologies. Hopefully, that will be enough.
You are so right anon! Mayo is the king(queen)-rat! Infested with diseases such as betrayal and conspiracy. A typical rodent!
Apology accepted bc, now you can go away.
My apologies do not intend to you anonymous.
extend
I coulnd't sleep last night! I feel so hurt and I asn't even a part of this. GOOD JOB, mayo. These people stuck by you and you turned them away one by one.
Especially sdock and K and Sister Midnight, the OPs and SV20. If you can't see that they were TRYING to protect you you are blind.
You truly are a mean hearted, cold elitist.
I know you say you won't read this bceause you're "takinga break" but I think you will read it anyway.
Guys,
When I worked out what was going on yesterday I tried to e-mail those I thought were around to tell them to check BC's profile.
If you read the comments between 9 and 10p.m you will see this. You will also see that people letting others know they had e-mailed them was adding to the craziness.
I messaged that I had a personal issue I could do with advice on and invited people to e-mail me. Anyone who responded I told to check the profile.
YOU are the ones who say we must be careful what is said and I had been asked to be discrete.
I expected you all to be there, already! I'm as confused as everyone else and came back here 'cos I didn't people even more upset by people disappearing.
If you want to take innocent, well intentioned comments I have made and twist them to call me out, feel free!
Anyone who really knows me know this could not be true!
Mayo,
I send you all my love and best wishes, I really do.
But, I've had enough of this shit!
Am I the only one that thinks BC might be mentally unstable?
ppu,
How are you doing this wonderful Wednesday?
I'm sorting through the chaos. How are you, my lovely little girl?
Swimming deep shit in the chaos as usual.
Same shit, different day.
Feel me?
"...and it's a fucking masterpiece thanks to you."
Can you hear the rat laughing?
I can!
Wow. Would you all hear me out, once or twice more? I hope so. Because I think I can maybe bring a little light without putting down my sword.*
I think I was on the night this all went down. I think Mayo flashed a few people with the link to this blog last month. If memory serves, Bleeding Chaos actually did try to tell us where it was, but quickly deleted the comment because Mayo told her not to tell. I actually tried the "miraclewhip" url once, and I think it was that night. I did it just for a lark because I didn't think that Mayo would seriously go that far. Not having found anything at that link, I didn't give it a second thought. I don't have the time to try stupid, pointless things twice.
Mayo actually did call her out on that: Where am I? 1037BC. Either Mayo was trying to tell us where the other blog was before Chaos deleted it, or he was asking Chaos to delete it and STFU. We'll probably never know, because Mayo loves his game.
Either way, I'm fairly sure that Bleeding Chaos A) found it on accident and B) tried to tell us but got shouted down. I don't think that he meant for her to be his goddamn Fidelius Charm.
Why do I think that? Because unless I'm wildly off the mark, Mayo would not set the bar there--and the reason I think I'm right is the same exact reason that I think I can say that and get away with it. Hell, dollars to donuts there is a "thank you" around the corner in this for me. Wait for it....
But the point is, that doesn't matter. I said it last night--even while the "Wow, the 'in-crowd' really screwed us over!" feeling was still nice and fresh--and I'll still say it. Mayo, and everyone, reserves the right to keep a private site, he totally reserves the right to only tell it to people he wants to know. Shoots, I keep an LJ, and I friends-lock and filter-friends-lock many of my posts. I also completely get that you, Mayo, didn't want people like me, Sis Midnite, S&V20 and the rest of us, uhh, more vocal people and button-mashers over there. Mayo, I get that, I do. And you had to know that I would have just sat there pointing and laughing at your stupid "X rated" entry, too, and you would have been right. Because goddamn, I've read better porn by freshman college slash writers in the Final Fantasy fandom, true story.
Still, a lady never stays where she isn't welcome.
The point is that there was, and remains, a group of folks over there who came here acting like we were all cool, we had this nice little solidarity thing going. A bunch of you who stood by whistling while some of the people here got called out about "favorites" and "elitism", while you still played your game. Bleeding Chaos especially, who was the biggest with "OMG PLAYING FAVORITES ISN'T RIGHT! WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!111" Ergoproxy, Tourjours, Shame in Me, Chaos and a handful of others, you let that go on. You each wore a couple of faces, huh? And that sucks, because I really, really liked you. At least two of you, and I think you both know who you are.
Just for a second, to address the anonymous who asked me repeatedly if I knew about the other blog: I didn't. Like I just said--but it bears repeating--I tried that link once. There was nothing there at the time. That poem I wrote for Mayo and for the people here? Well, that's the reason I called it "Smart Subconscious" after tonight. I really didn't know, but I guess I felt like something was up even if I didn't realize it. The important thing is that even if I had known about it, I would not have posted over there and left the good folks standing over here with their dicks in their hands. I seriously get ME not being told. I do not get Sdock not being told. At all.
And I am so not the kind of person who would turn her back on her friends to fumble at some guy's belt-buckle. Whether or not it has a bat on it. Also true story.
There's one more thing I have to do, but I can't do it now because I have to run. Hope to later. Thanks for hearing me out again.
*I can handle both on occasion, when required of me. Sorry, I just like that one.
Let me get this right...
Even though there is NO denying that Whip Me is Mayo (as the two blogs are linked by blogger - even though Original Punks suggested it was a fake), Mayo is still not going to be deemed a guilty party? Surely you people aren't that blind?
Hi Kapunua,
See this is why it's so annoying to live on Greenwich Mean Time and not have a decent broadband connection at home - you only get round to all the 'interesting' stuff once it's already been deleted. Still I'm hopeless at all this cloak-and-dagger stuff anyways....
Kass xx
*pokes head in*
Are things settling down yet?
*shakes head sadly and goes back to bed*
K,
I just love you to death. I know I say it, and I say it pretty regularly. It's almost like trying to say it to myself, and maybe one day you and I both will believe it.
But you are one badass fearless warrior.
We're in this until...
Love,
You Faithful Other Half
I just don't understand why people still gather here? I would rather meet at Kapunua's! She rocks!!! Why give this Mayo person still this kind of attention? Can anybody explain?
On the contrary, ppu, I am trying not to place blame on anyone. We are all big boys and girls in here....well, except me that is...I remain a lost, little girl.
:)
PPU,
Sure Mayo sucks *ss, but he did create something rather beautiful, in much the same way that Caravaggio was very flawed...
Masterpiece? Yeah. You knew these people were delicate, strong, fragile, unbreakable, fucked up, smart, beautiful.
And you fucked them over.
And you're just basking in the fall out, aren't you fucker?
You're jerking off to this aren't you?
It was you who created something beautiful kass, not Mayo! Don't give that person too much credit for only providing a space to hang out!
CAAC,
Actually my last post was referring to the beauty of the whole cynical plan. I almost admire the guy....
Mayo must kick ass at Warhammer Fantasy Battle!
Mayo is still not going to be deemed a guilty party? Surely you people aren't that blind?
EXACTLY!
Also: I agree to some extent Kapunua. Everyone is entitled to a private blog and or journal. I have a friends only LJ as well. But at the same time.. I don’t have a second blog excluding and segregating certain people from it. Shhh, it’s secret. What are we in 3rd grade? Gerard (if it is him) being a former fat kid/outsider he should know how that feels. Ha!
*Ahem*
/ends Oprah moment.
But a question for you or anyone else reading..
I've never signed up for this specific blog, so I'm unclear. Is there any way of making the blog private and only have certain friends or guests view your updates? Y/N? If you have the ability to do that (like LJ) it would have made more sense for Mayo to go that route. Though, I’m sure Mayo would have received more negative comments about playing favourites etc. So I guess it was a non-win.
At any rate, privatized or not it was just a bad idea. And honestly, I’m having hard time believing a person would be so trusting and a bit childish and naive to think people are going to keep info such a second blog a secret. The cynic in me leans towards there was intent there of watching a debacle of finger pointing and in-fighting unfold.
I'm going to post this each day until SS updates his profile. SS, if and when you return, you do not need to acknowledge me. If you update, I know you will have read this and made a choice. Either way is cool. It's probably not that important.
I'm going out on my own limb here, maybe I'm being stupid and naive, but then maybe not so I have to try this. I'm going to assume that SS and Mayo are not the same person, and that SS was up front with me when I asked him/her to be. That felt right so I'm going with it.
SS, there's a question you've been asking on here since you first started posting. Maybe by now you've even forgotten what the question was. Either way, I have your answer. If what I've gleaned over the months is correct, then I think that this answer might solve a problem for you. Maybe even a few of them. I'm not saying that the answer itself is wrong--it isn't; I know it for sure. But its usefulness to you is the only thing in question. If I'm right about a few circumstances, then what I can tell you for sure might help you out a lot. It might also just blow this whole goddamn thing wide open. Remember you hinted at that once?
That's why I'd like to tell this to you and only you to begin with. Because it's your life and your people it would affect. It would also eventually effect my friends here, and if that's the case, then after I told it to you, I would absolutely tell it to everyone. But it's for you first.
SS, if you think you know where I might be going with this and you still want the answer to your question, my email is Kapunua at yahoo dot com. You can set up a temporary, fake email. If you want to email me, you can change your profile to say, like, "I emailed you" or something.
If not, that's fine, too. No pressure. I'm not trying to call you out. I don't care who you are. I won't ask you who you are; I won't even go there. It's just that I think maybe it might be important for you to know this thing. I could so easily be way off the mark--it goddamn sure woudn't be the first time. It could just as easily be a piss-hole in the snow. But I have no way of knowing if it's important or not, so I figured I had to try.
My original intent was to offer this to both of you, Mayo and SS, before going to the rest of the people here--as these are your blogs and your lives and not ours--but honestly Mayo, from here on in I'd rather open my hand to a scorpion.
THe rest of you guys--you know who you are--you're beautiful.
Sdock, I think my first comment on here was to you, because just, I've always thought you were so cool and awesome. ^_^ That won't change.
kapunua thanks for your comments. i did love this bit :
And I am so not the kind of person who would turn her back on her friends to fumble at some guy's belt-buckle. Whether or not it has a bat on it. Also true story.
anyway that was funny.
the stuff with SS i guess we'll just have to wait and see.
Sure, anonymous! Of course this was all planned! And you know what? Although they got betrayed by people who they thought of as their e-friends (who did this only to belong to the chosen ones) most of those backstabbed persons here will still come back for more! I'm only waiting for Mayo's new blog entry. If it contains an apology for the ones being left out, almost everyone of them is more than eager to come back and forgive that rat.
Wanna bet?
That's life. Some people need to be hurt and betrayed several times until they understand!
Kapunua Thank you. I was hoping after last nights fiasco that you would return. Deep down I was sure that you would. I have not always agreed with you but I would never have said anything about you behind you back. For the record I would say I've agreed with about 95% of what you have said the whole time I've been here. Once again thank's for your words. They ring of truth in a time of deception.
My Friend,
I hope this finds you well today. My thoughts, prayers and best wishes are going out to you.
...Faith, Hope, & Love
We're running a little low over here, but I'm doing my best to give it away to all.
Always (holding on),
s
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