Most of it is gone now.
The rain having pelted the remains
the final time.
I passed by yesterday
and felt what could have been
your hand. The scream,
I won’t let go. Today
I stopped.
I buy gas and cheap
bags of pretzels, she wants candy.
I refuse,
and contemplate
what could have been
for you
in those last moments.
Did you let go
knowing?
Pump stopped.
Ten minutes I have stood,
you are here for eternity.
Always yielding, never turning.
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«Oldest ‹Older 1201 – 1400 of 1580 Newer› Newest»Magic Pie, I know how you're feeling.
I had my melt down yesterday, felt physically awful afterwards.
But today is a brand new day.
It's always best to get things of your chest, that goes for Kapunua as well.
Yes Kapunua please do.
That would be most excellent to know that the voices in my head in fact carry a tune.
I think you made perfect sense Princess Smoke, but then again we were raised in the same family, with the same issues, with the same.....nevermind.
Sdock, I'm linking the song to you anyway. This is on Vox; you don't have to sign in. Hopefully it won't take too long to load. ^_^
Mayo, this is for you, too.
Question.
What he's basically talking about is the difference between "po" and "au", which is darkness and light. There's also a lot in there about just stuff like culture, language and things like that, but these are some of the parts that I think are pertinent:
Po is beyond the horizon.
It's the last step to Destiny.
It's a tangled web of mystery no one can escape.
It's the realm of the unconscious.
Ao means light,
and that belongs to the living.
Po and Ao are just two sides of the same coin;
a coin we all carry.
Neither exists without the other,
and that's a fact.
Question:
What does "beyond the horizon" mean?
It means the limits to one's understanding.
Many people think I push the boundaries,
which also means "horizons."
I don't think so.
Yet maybe that I'm not on the same side of the boundaries as others.
I'd rather not limit myself to others' beliefs and fears.
...
With so many cultural beliefs, the obvious is overlooked.
Hope, faith and trust
are all factors of belief,
yet it all takes consciousness.
This seems to be the idea of comfort,
thoughtful ways to accept the inevitable.
You can change your religious beliefs,
but you can't change who you are.
You are the descendant of your ancestors,
and the ancestor of your descendants....
When you sleep,
your unconscious mind is allowed to venture with your ancestors.
It's then that you are most able to connect with yourself.
Even then we sometimes become afraid of what we dream;
yet we are the creators of our dreams,
so why be afraid?
Hello GS, and thank you for the invitation. Most of my time here is spent pretending I'm not here. Unless I feel there is something important I must say.
That would be lovely GS.
Two lumps please.
Ooo, and biscuits too I see. I do love a good hobnob you know.
Ah, that comment ,Martha :)
Happy Birthday S&V20, hope you've had a good one :)
So what pressies did you get?
Not she-wolf: more of an Aquila (Some of the best fun at school happened in our Latin class).
Just wonderin-if you all agree that Gerard no longer wishes to promote any previous message or ethos the band said they believed in-why are you still willing to defend your own individual ideas of him to the extent of being vicious to people with a (slightly) different view of him?
Indeed Gnothi, it's totally true.
I know I'll feel pretty shitty about it all for the rest of the night. Hopefully all will be brighter tomorrow morning!
Now was there something about tea???
Kind of like okay, we had a message, we screwed up, now this is what we are trying to say. Not just "fuck it, nevermind".
Well, that's exactly what I think.
And honestly, sometimes I think that saying "you're acting like a child; GROW UP!" is the only thing that will reach someone. Mollycoddling doesn't work. Hand-holding doesn't work. I've been down this road before and been either sympathetic or in denial. Do you know how many people might have taken action for themselves if they'd had maybe less sympathy and more brutal honesty? Don't you think that perhaps there might have been one less overdose? I think so. And I regret that.
By the way, happy birthday.
Happy Birthday S&V20!!!
Milk and sugar Andrea?
Miss T - dip me again!
K,
Thanks, I will most definitely try to download it.
Can't wait to hear it.
Mayo,
She wants us both to listen. You wanna listen with me? It might take us 12 hours to download it, but we have much to talk about.
Anon, were you speaking Latin to me the other day? (Or was that yesterday?)
Why Aquila? Why not Cygnus? ^_^
GS,
it is the SAS of biscuits. better than those one dips ha!
Sdock, you don't have to download it, just click the link and it should start right up. It might take a bit to load, bt the file is only, hrmmm... just under 5MB. I hope you can manage 'cause you might like it. ^_^
Thank you, Anon!
We shall have a wonderful party tomorrow! Candles, cake, coconut ice cream for Dr. Nut, balloons, mirrors everywhere and of course, I shall where my most fabulous tiara!
YAY me!
Love ya'll!
Anon @ 11:39:
Just wonderin-if you all agree that Gerard no longer wishes to promote any previous message or ethos the band said they believed in-why are you still willing to defend your own individual ideas of him to the extent of being vicious to people with a (slightly) different view of him?
Anon, I think I've made it clear that I am NOT willing to be vicious towards others. I will defend my ideas, and I might even defend Gerard, but I'm not willing to hurt other people to do it.
Gerard is who he is. I am just a humble observer.
Anonymous - I think that should be re-phrased. It shouldn't be all en-compassing.
Magic Pie - milk and sugar?
No milk for me, GS, but I will take sugar. Lots of it.
Yes GS! Both would be splendid!
I just talked to L, and she would like me to post her poem. Perhaps this will calm things down.
to Mayo, a poem for you, with love:
The Mercy of St. Michael
I am weak.
I am on my knees, my blood-stained hand covering my face, my heart still in my palm, a shrunken, painful blight.
All pass by, noticing nothing.
All they see is a lost and lonely stranger looking over the bridge of lights.
The fog is early this evening, clinging to everything. Strangers seem farther apart.
But surely they can see the blood, see my still-beating heart?
I feel the rush of air behind me, a presence I've been waiting for this eve.
"I know you are here," I whisper. "I have been expecting you to come for me."
"I imagine you have," he speaks low and deep.
I turn slowly, but do not rise.
My eyes adjust to the bright glow before me.
I see the sword raised ever so high.
A shield he holds in front of him, with a permanent bloody stain.
"Saint Michael," I murmur. "Angel of Justice and Death.
"Use you blade, my lovely angel. I am done with all this pain.."
He hesitates slightly, then drops to his knees beside me.
"My friend, are you sure? What has called me to you?"
"This," I state with bewilderment, holding my bloody heart to him.
"It's broken, it's ugly, it's hurtful, full of lies and half-truths."
"There is nothing in your hand, dear one," the angel softly replies.
:It's only what you think you see, your heart is still inside.
"Your heart is beautiful," he continues. "There is no blood on your hands.
"You have looked inside yourself and seen the darkest part of Man.
"I am the Angel of Justice and Death. These things you speak are true.
"But I am also a protector, the Keeper of Mercy, and I offer this to you."
I look up into his eyes, the sword still held in wait.
My hands are no longer bloody, my chest no longer aches.
Slowly, carefully, I see the angel lay the sword at my feet
Cover it with the shield and lean into me to speak.
"I hear your answer in your heart, I know you don't want to die."
His words resound through my soul, my sobbing becomes a gutteral cry.
I allow his wings to wrap around me, to hold me, wordlessly.
And there we stay until the dawn, Saint Michael and me.
"It's a new day," he whispers as he gazes at the rising glow.
"your life is here before you, hope and love in tow.
"I will be with you." He smiles softly and vanishes from my sight.
I rise and walk away from this, my longest night.
My future awaits me on this long road.
I cross myself with faith, for Mercy has made me whole.
Love, faith, and hope to you.
L.
Kapuna,
That saying "you're acting like a child; GROW UP!" is the only thing that will reach someone. Mollycoddling doesn't work. Hand-holding doesn't work. I've been down this road before and been either sympathetic or in denial. Do you know how many people might have taken action for themselves if they'd had maybe less sympathy and more brutal honesty? Don't you think that perhaps there might have been one less overdose? I think so. And I regret that.
And more. It is about slowing chipping at their well developed defense mechanism, until the denial no longer makes sense, and their self questioning triggers change.
There you go ladies, enjoy.
Miss T - plain or chocolate coated?
Anon, I don't think Kapunua and I were being "vicious". I just think things were said and it got a little out of hand.
No one was saying "you suck" or "shut up you ____ and _____".
In the end, I never meant anything as an attack or to be vicious. I said that right from the beginning.
Unfortunately, as I said, things escalated and we both got a little not-so-nice.
As for the answer to your question...I don't know. That's a good one.
J,
You tell that L that she truly is a talent.
That's beautiful L, thank you.
S&V20 Happy birthday!!!
I'm back and I see little changed while I was gone.
My arms feel wierd from new program I started at the gym,and I must say Def Leppard is great for getting exercises done
And more. It is about slowing chipping at their well developed defense mechanism, until the denial no longer makes sense, and their self questioning triggers change.
Something along those lines.
Will it eventually get back that unguarded smile and sincerity? Well, we're coming out at all angles, something has to work, right? Maybe?
Welcome back Ergo!
What's this new gym regimen consist of?
Hello Ergoproxy :)
Is it safe to say hello to you yet Kapunua?
[Sip]
Thank you, GS, this is quite delicious.
The heart and the sword. Which is which?
gnothi seauton said...
Hello Ergoproxy :)
Is it safe to say hello to you yet Kapunua?
...Why wouldn't it be?
And hi, Ergoproxy. Good to have you back today.
I'm not vicious. I don't attack. I'm just the blog resident who is fucked in the head, but always faithful. Guess you could say I am a bit of an .......enabl...fuck it I can't say the word.
K,
I live in the boonies. I've tried to listen and I will play it at work tomorow with high speed. Thanks for sending me the link.
Anon at 11.51
Excellent points, there.
Miss T, MP, I will pass your praise on to L.
She says "hello" to all, by the way.
And Princess:
Happy Fuckin' Birthday!
love
J
It's incredible to see how one can change for the worse in such a small period of time. Gerard, I strongly desire to smack your head against a wall.
No more messages?
What the fuck happened to the man on stage last year who would babble on about how you should always be true to yourself? How you shouldn't take anyone else's bullshit?
"Don't buy into that media shit. You're beautiful the way you are".
Ring a bell? That was the kind of attitude that made me gain so much respect for you. Hearing some lame excuse that you so clearly tried to come up with on the spot disgusts me. Really. What a man you turned out to be.
It's not all about the music. There's nothing left to idolize about this man anymore. I hate how he's bringing this band down with him.
Really, really pissed off.
I agree with Andrea, this tea is wonderful! Thank you GS!
Andrea - you're welcome :)
Aquila only because the Golden Eagle used to live where I come from and is magnificant.
I don't speak Latin-anybody who has studied it does not speak it!
I studied it for 5 years and I think that class taught me more about team work than any other-try translating the Aeneid Book 1 without benefit of the Internet.
Out teacher thought it was the most important subject on the curriculum, and didn't we know it.
Amo, amas, amat.........
CTV, spot on as always.
11.57 Anon,
You'd probably have to ask L that, but she's not here.
J
Kapunua said...
...Why wouldn't it be?
I merely meant had you finished your chat to Anonymous :)
hello ep and ctv how are you today and L lovely words.
Golden eagles are magnificent, as are all raptors.
So, hey, but you didn't answer my question: Were you the one writing to me yesterday?
Amamus, amatis, amant.
Ooooo, chocolate please GS.
Hi Ergo!
Kapunua,
I suppose I should hand you that sword back now.
I would probably just cut myself with it anyways.
I merely meant had you finished your chat to Anonymous :)
I can carry on five conversations at once, serpent's tongue or not. ^_~
Magic Pie - you're welcome :)
CTV - Hello, and welcome to the home of the personal meltdown. today seems to be your day. Seriously, you okay?
I just sent a message to Tasteit TV asking them why they the woman did not ask the personal question, and if they were willing to tell me what the question was.
I think we all have a good idea of why she didn't ask, but I want to them to confirm this once and for all.
Let's hope they reply.
Hi CTV, how are you?
sdock10 said...
Kapunua,
I suppose I should hand you that sword back now.
I would probably just cut myself with it anyways.
For a while there, you were doing a really great job with it. ^_^ I had to smile.
Do you need the heart back? 'Cause I was going to make a nice dinner. ^_~
<-----Vegetarian
Is our own personal anon back?
CTV, I've been going nutbusters trying to figure out what that personal question was....
I'm still confused by where the "fuck you"'s came from when she was going to ask it.
Hello to all. Sorry, i'm just a little angered. I had to catch up on 1000 comments, and watch an interview with a pathetic, lost child.
I'm fine. I'll cool down in a bit.
I feel you, CTV.
I can do that as well Kapunua, they only problem is they are not always with real people :\
Magic Pie,
I know, right? Out of nowhere the interviewer says "Fuck you" to Gerard. I wanted to kiss her.
I do love a good hobnob you know.
Miss t I see the word hobnob and it is Rohan Atkinson saying it.
Every time!
Hey Kapunua,
How bout if I let you keep half of my heart?
That should be just enough...
And maybe I could just hold a small spear or something?
Miss T - here's your biscuit. Sorry it took so long :|
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS!!
Goodness me, I have just spent the last hour catching up on all these comments. Wow, I didn't think I would ever make it to the end. But there were several things that did stand out to me and I would like to express my opinion on them.
Firstly, the interview. Well, to be perfectly honest, I think that it's being too looked into. Everyones just a little too worried and are just constantly looking for faults. Dont get me wrong, im just as worried as the rest of you. But judging him based on one video really isn't going to help anyone.
Also, the bit about the choice of location. Yes, there are liquor bottles in the background, but who gives a damn? Why should Gerard say, 'Oh no, I cant do the interview here. It will look like im assosiated with them.' I dont think he should have to prove a point about himself anymore. Everyone seems to be gathering their own conclusions anyways so..?
Nothing else is out of the ordinary with the interview okay? I think everyone really is just trying to find a reason for Gerards un-happiness.
Im not kissing Gerards arse. That's the last thing i'd do. Im just putting myself in his position. He's human. He's. not. perfect.
Hob nob Ergo.
To me and GS, it is Peter kay all the way with that one.
Hahaha, but I didn't get it. She was going to ask the question and then Gerard complimented her questions. The she said that she wanted to swear and then when Gerard told her to just do it, she said "fuck you". The build up to it didn't make much sense!
But throughout the interview it almost sounded like she had been reading these blogs, with all the questions about the music and the personalities behind artists. Then that fuck you came out and I had to wonder...
MJ,
I can't access my email. Is there anything I need to know?
J
Hello all!
How's it going?
Taken a friggin' age to catch up, as usual!
Love the poem L, beautiful.
Happy Birthday Princess!
Am fashioning a special birthday tiara out of tin foil and will wear it in your honour.
Ergo,
HoB NoB
Oh and BoB. :)
I completely agree with you, Jade ;)
So other than that, how are you tonight?
Thanks GS,
*munches loudly*
This is good.
If someone can confirm this to me, it'd be much appreciated.
So this was not the interview the 'pasted' anon was talking about last night? Or was it?
The pasted anon was hinting at another interview that we will supposedly be hearing sometime in the near future. It has some importance, I guess.
Hello jade just because you see the more positive side it doesn't mean you are kissing his ass. We all have are reasons for defending him or calling him a child. Yes he is only human but I'm the kind of person that if I had a friend who was pulling this kind of shit I would let them know how I feel.
Good evening, everybunny!
Out of nowhere the interviewer says "Fuck you" to Gerard. I wanted to kiss her.
Yeah, how often does he get that? I was fine talking to all the other boys, except when I met Gerard, it was like.....my brain fizzled. Weird. Because I'd like to kick him in the pants some times.
Hi DG, How are you?
Hello DG :)
Miss T - I was at the seaside one day with my friend and our families and we kept going under with the waves. So we kept shouting " dip me again "
Got funny looks all day :)
Oh and excuse me for being so rude. I didn't even say hello to anyone! Apologies.
Magic Pie:
Thanks, i'm glad I made sense.
And i'm in a pretty weird mood actually. I've been thinking about wednesday when I go to Gerards signing. I'm scared that if I finally meet him and see him face to face, that I'll be disapointed. Hmm, i'll have to see. How about you hun?
magic pie
4mins x 2 on cardio (stex & climber) 30sec slow 15 sec fast
5 fast + 5 slow x 4 on weights free and machine 10 types
gah......I've been going a year and a half but everytime it changes you feel it! (The owner was Mr Universe in '84)
Oh and Sdock:
I knew that he wasn't a hero. That he was just a boy/man struggling with his own life, his own issues, his own demons, his own addictions, his own insecurities.
Do you know what though? It didn't stop me from believing that he could be.
Couldn't put it any better; this is the thing that once endeared him to me!
Ladies and gents, I am off to do some much neglected household chores. I will probably be back in several hours.
GS, thank you kindly for the lovely tea. ^_^
Hello LH :)
Gs,
That really made me laugh.
You should've fallen over and said "I can't do it, I'm only a one dip".
Hi GS!
Whoa.
Did you know we have three people here from the same city? Toronto? Dude. That is pretty damn cool.
Who knows? Maybe there are some Anons lurking from Toronto too.
Canadians are slowly taking over the world.
Good bye andrea hello dg and lh and anyone else I missed.
hehehe - BoB
boB hoB noB
hoB BoB noB
hoB noB boB
Andrea - it's been a pleasure, we should do this more often :)
Hi LH! How are you?
See you later Andrea.
Hey ergo!
Wibble.
I agree Martha. I'd most defiantly do that for a friend too. But all of a sudden I feel really strange about everything.
It's like the other day, we had to write a monologue in my Drama class. So, I was like hmm, what do I write about. And I ended up writing a big speech on how people were always judging me, looking only at what they see and not what they know. It had no assosiation with GW at the time, but when I stood up there and performed it. I was crying. Crying because I was so angry. Because now I felt like I was actually a victim of this, and it wasn't nice at all.
Ergo, so are you just doing quick weight intervals to bulk up or get super toned?
If so, I wish I was already at that point! I still have to lose about 12 pounds so I'm going to the gym 6 times a week and I'm usually there for about 2 hours each day! BLAH!
Wow, you have a pretty amazing trainer!
Hey Miss t, GS.
So here we are!
I'm off to the seaside next weekend....think i'll pass on the dipping though!
How is everyone?
CTV, I'm from hamilton so that's ALMOST toronto!!!
Miss T! *huggle*
How's my wifey doing?
Miss T - I never thought of that!
Um, Ergo, you alright love?
Hey Martha, Bye Andrea!
See you, Andrea.
I'm good DG.
I hope you have a nice day. Where are you going to?
DG,
Thanks.
Hi to everyone I have missed and bye to everyone who is has left or leaving.
I am trying to wash dishes and shit so I am missing a lot.
We're taking over the world, MP!
Want some Timbits?
Jade, yeah I'm in a pretty odd mood tonight too.
I totally understand how you feel. I'm also very worried about that every time I'm going to meet an artist I respect. I've been pretty lucky with most of the musicians I've met so far. I hope that he doesn't disappoint you.
I'm back.
I don't really have anything to add. I'm mentally exhausted.
Yeah, it's a scary thought. But, I pray for the best.
As always.
CTV, I've been craving timbits for a while now! So who else is from this area?
Hey CTV!
Wifey is good, I hope you are too.
Can't wait for the honeymoon though I'm still undecided on a location.
Mustard, you and me both!
Just the parents, Miss t. They live by the sea. Not much to do this time of year but there is an amazing ice-cream parlour that stays open all year.
I will be there in some comfy elastic waisted pants!
Hello Mib.
Hello, MIB.
I wouldn't work yourself up over this too much. The confusion is getting the best of all of us.
Hi mustard!
Here have a chair and put your feet up, you look knackered.
People, what the hell is a timbit?
Hello Jade - it must have been traumatic for you to make you cry, but at the same time therapeutic.
With regards to the signing, go with no expectations then you can only exceed them :)
CTV - I'm not sure if this is THE interview. I would suspect not as the way the message was worded indicated it was yet to be released.
I was wandering the same thing, miss.t.
AAAGH !! wibble !!!
hahahaha
oh MP I started going as I busted a disc in my lower back (hospital, valium, physio), so I started out strengthening, now I'm sort of toning and improving muscle mass ( I don't want to bulk up)and I lost 15 kg (stopped eating so much bread, and just eating so much)It's amazing what you can do when surgery is mentioned!!!
All I can say is it worked, I have no back pain now at all!
Plus people say I look really good, esp hubby, so it's worth it.
Miss T. A timbit is the small round bit that is taken from the minute of a donut.
Hello Mustard and Sdock.
Hmmm. How do you feel about Dubai? Maybe Iceland? The North pole?! We can visit Santa :D
Nah, I don't really care. Just as long as I get to be with ~*you*~ :P
Ergo, yeah I started losing weight when I realized that my BMI was pretty shitty. And I found out that my waste size may one day cause me to have heart issues.
So almost two years ago I started going to the gym. I lost 40 pounds. Unfortunately I've gained 12 back from sitting on my ass all day at my new job! And I can't stop eating bread and cheese! ;)
Glad to hear you are doing well!
Thanks for the tip GS. I will try, however I dont think i'll be able too. I worry too much.
Well, really it isn't much of a deal about the crying thing. I tend to cry an awful lot in my drama lessons. I think into the characters I play too much. I dont want to blow my own horn but, when I perform, I perform. You know how I mean? Like, I get really emotionally involved.
Magic Pie, i'm afraid we're too Canadian for our own good haha.
Thank you, gnothi seauton. I don't believe it is either.
CTV, I always go to the T.O shows.
I'm the silly girlie with the parasol.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWB2TQJAovE
Here is the link if you need it.
all the Toronto and area peeps need to go out for some coffee and timbits! lol
A donut hole?!
Tea=dinner
Timbit=donut hole.
Check.
Hello to everybody! These past two days have worn me out! Seriously!
CTV, so it's you, me, lolita and who else?
Wow, a part of a donut has a name?!
Gosh, you really do learn something new everyday.
Jade - a budding Dame Judi eh?
tea=dinner? Now I'm confused!!!!
mmmmmm, donuts.
It takes me a longtime to drive to the shows, though. We slept at the ACC last time.
Holy crap. We have like, what? 5 people in the Toronto area now? Shit, son. Srsly taking over the world.
Mustard, I just fell out of my chair laughing at 'donut hole'.
Magic Pie, word.
And then, Bob got all nervous when my camera wouldn't work, and we were all giggly about it. But he was so happy, and I always love seeing them so happy.
hahahaha I just realized that I said "minute" of the donut. Of course I meant "MIDDLE"
I really DO need new glasses...
Thanks MP.
DG,
have an ice cream for me. Go on, loosen your trousers and go mad.
Resurrected Wreck is in Toronto too.
a budding Dame Judi eh?
Pfffttt, I wish.
Mustard - I think with us all being reasonably intelligent people that we overthink and analyze everything to such a degree that we wear ourselves out physically, emotionally and mentally.
You hearing this Mayo!!
woo hoo! Honestly peeps, we should get together sometime!
I'm on a liquid fast. A vegan liquid fast.
Lolita Haze, you met Bob? Bob Bryar? The almighty? sal;kajsgaldkf
What I would give just to stroke his long, blonde hair.
...That sounded a little creepy, right?
Did you guys know that Hamilton is the donut capital of the world?!
That's why there's a Tim Hortons on every street!
Fimble and Miss T both told me that in the UK, "tea" time is like dinner in the US. So tea=dinner.
And don't make fun of a donut hole. They're little balls of sugary goodness.
What else are you gonna do with that piece? Throw it away? I think not.
OMG, this is what I come back to, people attacking Kapunua becayse she CARES about Gerard? Because you don't like the WAY she cares about him? This used to be a nice place and now it's all about "Oh you have always annoyed me".... I know I know, I missed it, it's over, whatever but now I have to say MY piece. If other people get to say theirs, I get to say mine. ANd what I think is, that is such SHIT.
You know what, I lost someone to addiction, I loved him. He killed himself. He didn't know which way to turn, he was followed by enablers and *I* was one of them. I only WISH someone, like maybe ME, had the guts to tell him to just WAKE UP. When I read Kapunua's words I see what I should have said. What I could have said.... but never had the guts.
I have really bad feelings about Gerard. People who are kissing his ass need to get their head out of their own. People who think that calling him a child is too mean, well what can I say, some one has to say it! I thank god there are people around with enough guts to do it.
And just in case one is not enough, GERARD, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, MAN UP.
Now I'm all pissed off!
Bob is great.
I just needed to say that.
DG - which seaside?
Jade - sure you are!
Okay, hi everyone.
I would like to lighten the mood by extending donut hole chat
Timbit=Munchkin (from Dunkin Donuts)
y/n
MIB, that's correct.
Tea time = dinner time.
When I think about it, it is a little bit strange...
Yes, Jade. Yes.
Bob is one man who will never disappoint. No doubt in my mind.
hey hey!
I'm kinda confused...my computer is taking ages to download the interview so I'll better make some popcorn....
Happy bday S&V20!! you know what they say...30 isn't old..for trees....
My mom just brought a 1 month old kitten! It's just the cutest furry little thing ever, but my brain is on vacation with all this interview stuf so...any name suggestions?
hey hey!
I'm kinda confused...my computer is taking ages to download the interview so I'll better make some popcorn....
Happy bday S&V20!! you know what they say...30 isn't old..for trees....
My mom just brought a 1 month old kitten! It's just the cutest furry little thing ever, but my brain is on vacation with all this interview stuff so...any name suggestions?
I'm off guys!
Enjoy yourselves!
Oh Mayo...forgive me, where I my manners. Sorry, I lost them somewhere around my 10th hour at work today!
Hello Mayo and Goodnight!
Goodnight guys!
Nonononono
A timbit is like a donut ball. Like, a ball of a donut? dlkgsjjal;ks HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE SUCH A THING >=(
Okay, I'm neutral in this so.... hello Fiona?
I didn't know they were called Munchkins there!
Mayo, my friend,
How are you? Something tells me that you have ten thousand things spinning in your already cluttered mind. Well, don't feel by yourself. I have a at least 8 thousand myself and a nagging fucking cough that is giving me a headache.
I wish I could offer you some advice on how to clear your head, but I'm afraid I haven't figured that one out yet. Maybe, one thing at a time, perhaps? Or if you are a superb multitasker, I suppose you could half-assed take care of at least half of them. OK, ok I just wanted to make you smile. I hope I at least accomplished that much.
I hope wherever this message finds you tonight it brings you some sort of peace. If only for the time it takes you to read it (do you want me to make it extra long?). May you push all the bullshit aside and exhale. May you have a day filled with clarity and focus. Hey, if you ever find where they bottle and sell that shit, could you buy some extra for me? Thanks, buddy.
I guess I just wanted to let you know that even though I'm exiting early tonight, my thoughts are still with you. And like I have told you before, there's always a reserved seat for you at my house. You have the spare key, let yourself in and make yourself at home.
May your examine, and extend, and exercise all exits and most importantly exhale.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Exactly
Teehee! CTV, I met him twice. I met the other guys once, and the second time, I didn't wanna even go near Gerard. He was sooooo moody and unshaven and I just didn't even want to bother. But Bob was so very very very happy. It's weird, because the first time I met Gerard, he was one of the sweetest, most genuine people ever. And Ray....Oh my gosh....Spooning. We talked about spooning and wetness, and he's hilarious. Funniest person ever. Mikey's spacey. Sorry Mikes, but it was true then. And Frank....Just a league of his own. Spectacular. Taller than me, but spectacular. Gerard's a breast man, though, I think.
Magic Pie, a Tim Hortons on every street? Really?
Christ. I gotta move there.
CTV, I'm pretty sure it's that middle of the donut that gets cut out! lol
To be honest, I still cant get my head around that you actually have donut shops. Like, planted everywhere. That just... well, sell donuts.
CTV - that sounded creepy didn't it?
yes..
yes it did
(not that i can talk...oh to twist just one ringlet around my finger0
CTV, hahaha Not on every street but pretty close! It gets crazy because everywhere in hamilton you see a Tim Hortons and a Shoppers Drug mart.
Some malls even have 2 Tim Hortons!
Oh, and I'd prefer to keep my opinion 'out' concerning the discussion taken place between kapuna and MP.
It's a thing off the past to me.
Au'revoir.
Yes, CTV, it is the middle bally part of the inside of a donut. We call them Munchkins.
Fiona, thank you. And I'm really so, so sorry that you lost someone.
Goodnight DG.
Sweet dreams.
Guys,
You know what? I'm gonna stick to lurking for a few days, I think. Don't feel too psyched about being here right now. What with all the Careful/Anon/list/interview/you name it shit that's taken place, I just want to curl up in a corner.
Take care, I'll talk with you sooner or later.
J ,
Hello Star and AndieB.
Goodbye DG.
Star, cannot compute Timbit = Munchkin?
Does that mean munchkin is your version of timbit?
Ok Lolita, I'm going to hang around you the next time MCR comes to town! You are a good luck charm!
Gerard's a breast man?
I always pictured Bob as a boob man. Not so much of an ass man.
Lucky you, LH. I adore that walking talent with golden blonde hair.
Hello Fiona. I'm sorry about what happened to your friend. I agree. Gerard needs someone to smack him across the head when he fucks up. He's so bloody stubborn though.
hello blogfolk, blogmaster.
Jade, Hamilton is a very weird city. I think having donuts keeps us all sane ;)
Yes, yes, GS! Exactly.
Ohh psh. And here I thought Canadians came up with this invention. Well so much for that.
OP
That's all in the past. No need to lurk, stick around.
Lolita I REALLY need the details of this spooning conversation.
You've mentioned it before and my mind is desperate....I have email...really I NEED to know..
hahaha
Thank you Kapunua. ^_^ And Capture..... thank you.
He wasn't my friend he was my fiance. I broke it off with him when he wouldn't or couldn't quit the drugs. He was going to drag me down with him, I had to. At least that's what I tell myself. We were long through when he killed himself but I still wonder every day..... what if?
This is who Gerard reminds me of so much.
good night dg and hello everyone who has returned
Lucky for some.
I dont have enough donuts to be honest. Heck, I deserve more. The UK isn't big on donuts really, I think were more 'biscuit people.'
Haha, I just realised how fun it is talking about food. :)
I always suspected Ray was the perv in the group.
Knew it.
Hello, fiona.
Sorry to hear about your fiance.
*HUGS*
Dont let Gerard haunt you.
Bye Jade.
ANd on that, I have to leave again for a while. It was nice talking to (most) of you. People keep "calling out" the only ones who make any damn sense around here, I'll just keep getting madder and madder.
GERARD, GET IT TOGETHER.
Fiona, i'm terribly sorry about everything you've had to endure in the past. I know it must have been hard for you. You did the right thing though. You too are well aware of that.
Much love to you. I'm sending a hug your way.
*waves to j. in the shadows*
but they don't cut the middle out of donuts. They extrude with a hole.
they make the round donut hoes/timbits/munchkins with leftover batter.
well they do here anyway and they are yummy!!!!
Plus if you break them open all the calories escape, I had a friend tell me that while giving me a triple chocolate, choc chip muffin !
Fiona, believe me, I am truly sorry for your loss.
YEAH! We've all gotta meet up next time.
Once again, Fiona, I am so sorry. Thank you for coming here though, and sharing all of this, as well as your concern.
See you later Fiona.
GS, did I give you the impression I was leaving?
My bad.
You will have to put up with me a little while longer me thinks. ;]
Ergo, if that was true about escaping calories, I'd be eating them all day long! lol
I'll have to tell myself that the next time I have some ;)
J darling, I know how you feel. Like I said before, this place can seriously dampen your spirit every now and then. These anons confuse me. I believe they mean well, but really. I don't think they can truly know how we feel right now.
If you think this is best, go ahead. Just please return shortly. Come back refreshed and happy.
Op's - stick around, we're all going crazy, we need as much mutual support as we can!
Fiona - so sorry for your loss. This must be deja vu for you.
CTV - oh yeah. There is video footage of his wanton breast stare-age!
Fiona, sometimes all you can do is save yourself.
Fiona, that is a sad story and all I can offer is a hug.
Good night Fiona.
Jade - you said Au Revoir :)
Oh yes! That's right, gnothi seauton. I remember that perfectly.
What the hell was up with him that day haha.
To Mayo, SS, My blogger family, and anyone else who gives their time to me and reads me:
It's something I wrote in my own house, but I wanted to share it all with you....
You know I know you...you and me. Me and you, we are so much the same. The same in so many different ways. Ways we find to speak, to write, to talk. Talk here if you would like. Like the others. Others who come and go. Go ahead and tell me what you think. Think about it and give me you honesty. Honesty does exist you know. Know that truth is harder to find. Find what you might need here if you will. Will you look and see? See this place. This place is my home. My home where I fill safe. Safe like I feel when I'm in your house. Your house is where it all started. Started me on my journey. My journey to find myself. Myself and to help you. You and and all my friends. My friends and you are so very special. Special in the most personal way. Ways to go before I find all that I am searching for.
...but at least it's a damn good start.
Wouldn't you agree?
I see you nodding...
Thank YOU.
I love you ALL!
Always,
S
Thankyou Sdock, that was beautiful.
Fiona:
I have no words. I'm not good with death, dying, and the like. I'm so sorry you had to experience that. My condolences.
GS:
Au revior to the disagreement earlier. That's what I was trying to get at anyways. It's late. 1am for that matter. I have school in the morning, and I have eaten way too much today. I blame it on that. :)
Very heartfelt, sdock10. We all love you too, sweetie. Thank you so much.
Yes sdock,
I'm nodding.
I'm on my way out.
Once again, I want to apologize to anyone who thought/thinks I was attacking Kapunua. That's not what I intended it to be. The internet can be a difficult place to express one's feelings.
I'll be lurking for the next few days but I don't know if I will be posting. I'm feeling pretty shit about everything. My blog is still available if you want to write anything to me.
Be good to each other and have a good night.
Sdock10. How are you so magnificent in everything you do?
That was really nice. Thanks so much for sharing.
Awe, Magic Pie. Leaving so soon? :(
I'll be sure to write. We need to discuss Timbits and BT and George Strombolopulous and everything else Canadian.
Much love.
GS:
I read your comment from way back and yes, it tends to take an incredible toll. One I didn't even think was possible, actually.
Sdock:
Beautiful and true as always.
To all of you who have come in:
I say Hi!
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