I have come to terms with the fact that eventually I am going to have to mention it. Will it be with sweeping metaphors or outright denial? Perhaps no one will understand.
For now I am listening to the little voice, and reevaluating priorities.
My lovelies, you are free to assume whatever you choose, but I will not be ignoring you. The electricity just doesn't buzz the same and I can't always find the switch.
End of the year...this shit is always out of hand.
p.s. this is how I have always imagined it for someone else.
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«Oldest ‹Older 1001 – 1200 of 3959 Newer› Newest»Pretty much the same old story, but Bob did actually talk a few times.
Ok, RW, I won't leave you hanging.
L, as you may remember, is a busty thing. And we both had on low-cut shirts and shorts since it was so blasted hot. Since we weren't prepared for an autograph session, she got out our bottle of Hawaiian Tropic sunblock for the guys to sign (she said it had saved our asses thus far and would be a fitting memorial to the trip). Ray was the first one at the table, then Frank, Bob, and Gerard. Ok, I got my notepad signed by Ray, then went over to Frank, and L was right behind me. Ray caught one look at her chest, which he was on eye-level with, and off he went. "Is that for us?" he asked as she slid the bottle across to him. She told him no, it was for him to sign. He took the bottle, looked at it, got a little grin on his face, slid the bottle closer to himself, and said, "Are you suuuuuuure?" She said yeah, smiling at him, you know kind of half-flirty. He slid that bottle like three or four times back and forth between them, grinning like a fool the whole time. He tried to "flirt" more when he asked her her name. She told him. Three times. HER NAME IS LISA. Not difficult. Then she was talking about the sunblock, and how she had such fair skin. She told Ray she was part Cherokee and part Welsh. He grinned at her, then said, "I know what you mean, I'm Puerto Rican and I'm just as WHITE as I can be!" He threw his hands up in the air when he said this.
That was the point when Frank reached over, grabbed the bottle of sunblock, stuck his hand out to her and said, "Hi, I'm Frank."
He had to save Ray from himself.
J
PS. L wants me to post a comment to Mayo, so I'm going to do that before I comment again. :)
Guys I'll be on AIM: Kapunua shortly. When I'm using that name it means I'm simultaneously chatting Pretty so I'll be slower in answering. I won't be on for too long because I have to get up early tomorrow. ^_^ Hope to see a few of you there.
Hey guys,
Just popping in for 10 minutes!
How are we?
Oh MAYO, tis the season for shit getting out of hand, it's also the season to feel alone amongst the bright lights and eggnog.
It's a time when I think a lot of us are doing some life renovations. I know I am.
It's frightening and I'm not entirely sure I'll have the inner strength to make the changes I need to.
Perhaps a pact is in order.
I do try so hard to follow through.
XX cupcake
CTV, as long as he is trying, that is all I care about. Well, besides you guys. I didn't spend three months of my time here just to give up on him easily. Giving up is not what I do. I will remain here to the end, and maybe, purposely annoy some of those pesky anons in the process ^_^
Bob talked? Someone's gotta Youtube this thing. Right now.
Thanks, Kapunua. You hit the nail on the head when you were describing Frank.
hi there tedding bear how are you?
59o589873798389909699999999999027575 hugs to you ^____^
Hey BC!
I am good yourself?!
*HUG*
"p.s. this is how I have always imagined it for someone else."
Why do I keep coming back to this? I can't shake it.
Bob actually.... *talked*?
Someone kiss me, I must be dreaming :O
I am doing okay paperheart ^__^
Ray caught one look at her chest, which he was on eye-level with, and off he went. "Is that for us?" he asked as she slid the bottle across to him.
Did he mean the bottle or L's bust? ;)
Mayo, I swear if you randomly decide to change the time zones to match the time in Australia, I will kick your ass.
Srsly.
Anima - Me too.
Failure?
-A
Thats good BC! I told you I can't stay long, I have to go now! =[
All my love!!
*HUG*
- 007
OP, that is too funny!
XOXOXO
BYE! <3
The interview was only with Gerard and Bob. I had to laugh because Bob sat there completely motionless. It was a little creepy. I kept thinking is he just going to sit there through this whole interview while Gerard just blathers away.
Not sure. When do we know the truth? It is either really obvious or it is a metaphor.
I just can't digest this one. And it is probably the obvious.
"I am a good listener, but I tend to talk over people (I am really working on that one)."
Try harder.
Bit late in saying this, but Mayo!!! You put a picture! Fun!
Continue to do so. It's a nice change.
I should be getting off now. Goodnight and take care everyone.
Much love.
I hate trying to decide on ringtones...
-A
Goodnight CTV.
Goodnight CTV *hugs*
You guys are missing some peen-grabbing chat on AIM. :(
'Night, CTV!
Oh my god, J!
That story was hil-ar-ious *Oprah voice*!
I could so picture that in my head.
*Frank grabs moving lotion bottle from betwixt Raymond "The Bull" Toro's hands, and strikes up conversation with L, and meanwhile, Raymond looks longingly at Frank wondering why he ruined such a good moment*
;)
hello again everyone.
soooo, apparently, my computer wouldn't refresh this page and reload the nme interview at the same time, so i've been watching that.
what's shakin'? :)
hi again squeak squeak. I think most of us are on AIM right now. I think we could see a tumbleweed flying through here ^_^
Hey TJ - I'm trying to pick ringtones for my phone.
Not easy. :P
-A
ugh. aim.
:(
Mayo,
I have, until now, refrained from writing as I am about to, due to not really knowing the true nature of your situation. I only have speculation, educated guesses, instinct, and observation to back up my feelings. If I am wrong, I do not apologize. It is my honest opinion.
You write of convention, what is expected, what is "normal". I suspect you have always wished for your known version of a "normal" life, from a young age. But your life has been anything but normal, if I am correct. Even as you struggled to meet society's expectations, a part of you fought against it. How confusing it is when your heart and soul tell you that both, and neither, of your feelings are acceptable.
I believe you crave society's version of life and love, that you really do want the wife, the family, the white Christmas and the picket fence. You long to be not only loved, but also liked and accepted, to no longer be the outcast who never fit in.
But somewhere along the way, you realized there were feelings you could not entirely express, and denied them even to yourself. But you did not count on the depth of love you discovered for one, and it scared the Hell out of you. It was ok while you were friends, who did love each other dearly. But it changed, for one or both, I do not know, but I suspect both.
As time went on, you became more and more entangled in your feelings, and more appalled. You knew what it would cost, how many people would be affected if you ever completely admitted how you felt. So you pushed him away.
Yes, him.
You would rather have him and everyone else believe you to be a selfish, horrible bastard than destroy that person's chance at a "normal" life. Too late for you, you suppose, so why drag anyone else down with you?
But, you can't let him go either. You love him too much to completely lose him, but you also love him too much to keep him. He is young, you may think, he doesn't know what he wants, he will hate me in the long run. But maybe you should let him decide that for himself.
Do you fear earthly, and Heavenly, rejection for your feelings? Do you cover it with whatever soothes the soul for an hour or two? I really believe it is tearing you in two, and the battle is not for good or evil, but love and fear.
I do not know your thoughtrs, dear Mayo, but I can only give you words, as someone who also struggled to fit into society. It took me a long time to understand that no matter what form love takes, it is never wrong. Not in any sense. You have to be who you are, and believe it or not, people will respect that. If they don't, it is their issue, not yours.
Don't hurt people to protect them. Truth can render us to our knees, frozen in terror. But the pain we hold inside can be even worse.
I do not envy you. I know you hurt. I offer my encouragement, my support, my love, my faith, my peace. The rest is up to you.
As I said, if I got it wrong, no apologies. For there is SOMETHING you hold inside, a thorn that you are scared to remove, too afraid you cannot stop the bleeding once it begins.
There will be bandages, love.
Don't be afraid.
love,
L
Yep, I think its just us three for now. How are you squeak squeak?
what are your choices, amyranth?
*innocent to the world of ringtones*
i'm okay, i guess, bc. today was kind of weird. :/
Yeah it was. I am not sure what I'm feeling right now as well. Maybe a little angry, but I can't explain it. Something to do with what I said earlier in the morning I guess.
TJ - I feel your pain on AIM.
Okay, ringtones...
House of Wolves (for work)
Nothing Special ( for everybody)
James Bond Theme (he picked it)
u + ur hand (why not?)
Barbie Girl ( just for fun)
Dirrty (also fun)
Lady Maramalade (I like fun)
Love at first sight (my pick for him)
So far, that's the list. But I only wanna narrow it down to three. However, I wanna hear everything before I make a solid choice.
-A
lol amyranth, the barbie one would drive me crazy! i remember a while back on lj there was a thread that ended up being just about everyone's mcr ringtones. it was fun to read what everyone had found or scrounged up. :)
Wow L....
Hi eveyone! *flying bear hug*
did you make an appointment today, bc? how did that go?
*oof*
hi cupcake. ^.^
*said from the floor*
Hello people, I've just had major freeze up and had to restart the computer. takes bloody ages.
hey there miss t. i hate it when that happens.
Squeak squeak, I guess I did. I have to check and make sure though. I had someone else make the appointment for me. I am happy to get everything out but still, I feel, I don't know how to explain it. Yucky and a little frustrated I guess.
TJ - I want a clip of Gerard singing Umbrella.
I don't know why...
-A
TJ I'd offer you a hand but I need to flying bear hug miss t... *WHAM!*
it's partially the aftermath of finally just saying it outright, i think. there's a little part of you probably that wishes you hadn't said it, because you had kept it to yourself so long and were used to doing so.
plus, all the anons and stuff today probably didn't let you rest easy either, huh?
Wow cupcake, your hugs are legendary.
I know TJ, it's soooooooo frustrating.
that's okay, cupcake, i'm almost up agian, anyway...
*ducks the overhead tackle*
amyranth, does it have to be a ringtone, or can it just be any clip of him singing that?
Squeak squeak, the odd thing in all of this was that no anon got on my nerves today. Unbelievable right? To be honest a part of me hates myself right now. When I first made that admittance so early in the morning, I was nearly in tears. I feel a bit off, but right now I'm at a point where I want to tell my problems to the whole world or something
but i don't understand, bc. why is there a part of yourself that hates yourself? you did a brave thing.
TJ - Really, any clip of him singing that. I think he did a really good job.
But it seems like I want some fairly obscure ringtones.
-A
BC, it's good to talk about it.
BC share with me darling and I'll spare you a flying bear hug!.... no that's a lie, I'll do it either way.
amyranth, have you ever checked out the media section of the immortality project? they usually have whatever download you might want when it comes to mcr. i'll bet you could find umbrella there...
This is from L, who's on the phone with me right now:
Hey guys! I hope to be back tomorrow, miss you all!
RW: Not sure, he was holding the sunblock at the time. At no point did he hold the boobs. :)
PH: RAWR!
MIB: It was not his finest moment. He still rocks, though.
Cupcake: Uh...thanks?
TJ - Good plan! I never thought of that.
BC - Sometimes if you don't talk, things eventually get worse, and everything spins out of control to the point where you get booted out of reality for awhile.
Not worth it.
-A
BTW everyone, I finally have msn, and have made my email available.
My blog is always open, so may I say if anyone ever needs to vent I make a lovely shoulder to cry on, and I make good tea/coffee/cookies.
Well squeak squeak, to be honest the most frustrating part about myself, and for others, is the fact that I believe that revealing your problems or anything else makes you seem weak. I always had a problem with that. When people try asking me if I have depression or any other problems, I immediately become defensive and I try my hardest to deny it to the point where people give up trying to ask me or help me. Even if it isn't about that, they would ask me about my wardrobe or what music I listen to or what books I read and I become defensive because it is not what you exactly call normal when it comes to my taste in stuff like that.
I think sometimes my own family thinks that I should have been a "normal" woman like everyone else. Dress in fucking skirts and dresses and wears pearls. That shit is not who I am. I get frustrated with that sometimes because sometimes I feel that they judge me because of what I listen or read to.
hello to the original punks, both online and on the phone. ^.^
loved that story about ray, btw!
good to know, cupcake. i'll just add you to my list of available shoulders to sog up. ;)
L,I meant it as a compliment ... you seem to be a very insightful person, and so stunningly well spoken. Truly. you know I admire you and J very much.
Amy, I think that's exactly what Mayo is doing. Cupcake, ol' delicious one, I am ready to spill the beans and I have. Miss T, thank you. :)
Hello L, I hope your family are OK. I hope you are too.
Hello fellow non-AIMer's (I like that word)
Sorta sad that they go and leave us here.
I feel for you BC, for a long time I was a very defensive person. I still am at times, but here I have found a place I feel safe... I can let my guard down.
Try it, feels good.
i can understand that part about the weakness very well, bc. this blog and my own are the only places i ever really let my guard down, and allow myself to show how i'm feeling.
the rest of the time, if someone asks how i'm doing, i brush them off and pretend i'm fine. it always feels like an admission of weakness to let them see my true feelings.
Hi elena! *hugs* I'd give you a flying bear hug, but I'm kinda worn out.
BC is just trying to be like Mayo, who she thinks is Gerard. Notice how she's going into therapy as a "depressive" so that she can say she's a "diagnosed clinical depressive" like a certain blogger.
hello elena. yep, all of a sudden the place just empties out.
Anon you can't pass judgments like that. It's not fair or reasonable. just hurtful.
Even though she should be going in for being in love with somone who doesn't know she exists.
Anon, that's not fair. I have depression, have had for years and BC,s description of her symptoms is just what I have. She is not faking.
anon. i think you should rethink what you say. its not nice. please be nice on here!
Hi there Elena. Well guys, I have to admit, this place is the only place where my guard is down. If I have problems, I don't talk to anyone I know about it. Seriously.
I am a very defensive person, even to this day, and my own stubborness prevents me from seeking the help that I may need, although somehow I hate admitting my weaknesses. It's always been a problem that I have.
Squeak squeak, I agree. Sometimes I feel like a bad person because I never told my family or anyone else how much I care about them. If you ever got to know me, you will barely hear me say that "I care about you" or that "I love you," or anything else.
I grew up with mostly brothers and during elementary school and throughout my life, I mostly hung out with guys. I suppose I never had time to be just a girl and do girly things.
I don't have friends either, to be honest. I'm a loner, but I supposed my depression prevented me from making any friends.
Speak to me in a language I can hear...
Thanks for the hug Cupcake. I needed that. It's been a pretty stressful day.
Hello again toujours.
Hey ANON why not just leave BC alone? Depression happens to everyone. Some more than others. I know I've been there. I was there for years.
I am not trying to be like Mayo you douche bag. You know I figure, even if I admitted my problems, I would get shit from it. This is not surprising to say the least.
I had problems way before all of this started.
You're not alone there either BC, but that doesn't really help does it?
It doesn't take away the pain, just know the burden can be shared.
BC - I got tons of problems. Wanna hear them?
Anon, STFU and GTFO.
-A
Stressful day elena? care to share? I feel helpful today... I'm having a "there's room in my heart for everyone"day.
Exactly 11.29, exactly.
bc, i think you'd make a really good friend in real life, because here on the blogs you are always very kind and welcoming to people, and are always willing to say hello and talk, and when there's a nasty anon *glares at nasty anon* you're ready to stand up and fight then, in your own defense or in the defense of another.
i think the decision you made to tackle your depression means that ultimately, you're going to be able to be yourself no matter where you are, here or out in the world. you just hang in there.
Amy, I would like to hear your problems ^_^
Cupcake, no I guess nothing that I have done does help the situation, which is why I am going to try to get help.
Squeak squeak, you know, I am getting used to getting shit from anons. People who don't have the balls to put a name for themself is not going to cause me to ride and hide from this. I stand my ground here and besides, I can't take them seriously. Anon, go eat a bologna sandwich or something, my sweet.
One good thing about being here is that I actually like hearing how the bloggers' day went and how they are doing. In real life, that is actually helping me to open up and say hi to strangers when I'm doing errands. It's helping me to open up a little bit.
Thank you for your words squeak squeak.
Cupcake I've just found a lot of what's been said here today to be stressful. That and just an overall bad feeling I have about something that's gonna happen.
you're welcome, bc. i'm glad to hear that the blog is helping you out in the rest of the world, that's cool!
elena, i honestly feel like everything's going to be ok. even this "bad news" -- it's going to be ok, in the end, i think.
this blog entry doesn't worry me anymore. i actually think it's rather positive. :)
Something finally showed up on my screen.
So, shall I continue and reveal more of my problems? The more these anons bring up the same fucking, tired, dead beat horse subjects they mentioned, the more bored I become.
Squeak squeak, sometimes I feel like I'm some kind of monster. Is it okay if I continue to bitch about my problems? ^_^
Is this in reference to the grid pic, AIP?
Hi there AIP, how are you?
BC it's a long process, it never ends, but there are good times to be had ;)
It seems that way cupcake, the only problem is, I am not sure if I'm ready to walk on this long journey. There are times where I give up too easily
BC - Just referring to your thought that revealing your problems makes you weak.
I stand 4'11", weigh about 105, and in all honesty if someone asked me what was up and then proceeded to shit all over me because if how I feel, they'd better fuckin' run.
I don't give any shit, I don't take any shit. I'm not in the shit business.
-A
Bitch away I say! I know I've done my fair share of venting, you deserve the same right! XX
It only takes 3 minutes to load tonight, impressive.
Hello there...how are you tonight?
I am afraid I have to cut this venting short. talk to you guys in a bit
Hello AIP, I have finally caught up on all the comments! Huzzah!
I feel accomplished, and exhausted!
Strength is not in size but in vocabulary. Words bring a much lesser fine and jail time. Just saying...
AIP, you are so right!
Man, sometimes I think you may be God or something.
BC It is a lonely path, I know, I'm still walking down it, tripping over all the time, but I've learned to reach out for support.
We can't take the exact same path, but we can walk beside it, and occasionally, reach out and touch hands.
hey aip. nice to see you here.
i totally agree, words can be very strong.
Hey AIP Where ya been?
And now, to bed, I think. it is way past my bedtime...
Til tomorrow, all. Have a good one :)
AIP, I bow down to your superior wisdom.
talk to you later, then, bc.
hello a.i.p. what did you make of that picture?
*hands resurrected wreck a refreshing beverage*
AIP - Oh, I'm aware of that.
Words can never express the shock that crosses someone's face when I belt them across the face though.
XD
-A isn't having a great day. Sry.
goodnight rw. till tommorrow.
sweet dreams
I too must go, but I shall return!
Love to you all
xxcupcake
Goodnight RW.
See you later BC.
wow. my comment was really out of place.
*kicks slow computer*
OMG ENTROPY WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN
i havent seen you on here for a bt. i missed you
*sighs*
Oh stop....anyone can be a thinker. It only takes time, honesty and willingness to admit no one knows all.
The picture? It is truly worth a thousand words.
(I secretly heart Entropy)
Goodnight cupcake.
Entropy darling, where have you been?
were has everyone gone?
AIP, I openly heart Entropy.
aip and miss t i physically heart entropy
*raises an eyebrow*
Well then dear, I secretly heart everyone…even anons.
Being open ruins things, don’t you think? Secrets are best these days.
yes miss t. open hey
AIP, you naughty secret keeper.
I'm off to bed people. If anyone is left.
goodnight everybody. sleep well and dream happy thoughts
I heart you guys so much.
Secrets are cool.
"A secret silenced is a secret safe"
You guys should be from over here and not leave me like that.Hoes.
You tell them Entrophy!!!!
Hey,Elena!
How are you?
Not so good actually
Yourself?
Been fighting a headache all day but okay.
Sorry to hear that. Here,have a glow stick.
Oh No glow sticks for me. Me and Gerard hate those. LOL
You know I feel really sad about what's going on here.
Were you molested my them too?
The blog? Just weird vibes?
hey everyone.
It started earlier with people suddenly telling each other to e-mail. Ok whatever. Now the whole AIM thing. Not really seeing the whole diff between this behavior and the alternate universe thing. Just cause I know they are talking somewhere else instead of being in the dark about it doesn't make me feel any better.
Then there is the whole feeling I get about Mayo's last post. IT really made the ANON's pop out. And they zeroed in on a certain person. This isn't cause I'm jealous. If she can help Mayo then that's good. IT just makes me feel like I've been wasting my time trying to help when nothing I say makes any difference. I'm tired of always being the invisible person. The unneeded person. Hell I guess I'm just tired of a lot of things.
hello. i wandered off, and then messed around with that picture again for a while, but i fear my computer just isn't capable of extracting the hidden image.
*sigh* :(
elena, i understand what you're saying. i can't say that i don't feel the same, but i also feel that i'm not in a position to really talk about it, given what happened with the other blog, and the aftermath.
you're not invisible, though.
Elena, you are never invisible *hugs*
Elena, I understand and I'm sorry.
Get AIM.
entropy, i'm sorry, but that is so not the answer! and anyway, there are those of us who can't get aim.
Well hell why have this place at all if we all are gonna just use AIM?
Because our AIM conversations have nothing to do with this blog.
We talk about gay porn and what our colors are.
i'm sorry, elena, i really am. i get what you're saying.
don't give up on this blog, though, ok? it's still important, and your voice is as much a part of it as any of ours. it truly is.
Well then I guess I'm just fine where I am. Don't want to talk about gay porn, colors or porn colored gays. Thank you very much.
Matter of fact I don't really want to talk about anything.
SO long and goodnight Mayo
You are in my thoughts. Not that it really matters.
elena, i hope to see you tomorrow.
i'll be here.
good night, and sweet dreams to you.
anyone here?
Hi everyone!!
bye elena if you're still reading.
well I can tell you MCR were not at Redcliffe of our Starbucks at Chermside but I did have a nice swim and a java choc chip frappaccino
how is everyone?
Hellooooo
hello
hello
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llo
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Hi there Ergo. How is your trip to Starbucks? :)
Hi BC I thought I was alone.
it was very yummy,
I have to have one each day (i've decided) as we have no starbucks at home
It's a pain not having my own car. But we have prawns, crab bread avocado and chips with dipping sauces ....mmmmmmmm
sorry I deleted part of a line about buying stuff for dinner by accident
it doesn't make a lot of sense without it!
That sounds delicious Ergo. Yeah, I think we're the only ones here, but I am going to sign off real soon.
Are you excited about the concert?
I killed the blog :(
I have noone to talk to.
(well except real people lol)
the blog is still alive!!
I am very excited BC.
very very very excited (especially as Frank is here too)
ooh, i just stopped in to say goodnight and there are people here!! :D
(ergo, i liked your comment with the missing line, it was very delightfully surreal)
...
were you all just a mirage...?
*rubs eyes*
no still here
I am very surreal TJ
oh, i believe that, ergo. so very much. ;)
hey, let me guess: 6:15 pm tuesday, right? (i have my clock set ahead wah-ha-ha)
ooh you clever girl!
spot on, and about 24 hrs to go.
I don't know how I'll sleep but I'll be on in the morning for a bit, then whenever I can later maybe but for sure i'll give a full report on the show.
I am still holding a teeny smidge of hope it'll be black parade show, you never know!
i am a clever girl! *preens*
that's an 18-hr. difference for me -- it's actually easier to subtract six hours and then say "except tomorrow" than to count ahead. (i'm lazy when it comes to mental math lol)
i'm so excited for you! i wish i could be there, too! >.<
but what's funny, a little, is that i'm getting all nostalgic thinking about them being back in australia. i was so excited for the world tour to start, and fresh off my first concert experience with them, that i paid super close attention to all the information coming out of australia last january. and now that they're there again, it's like "oh, i remember when they did that interview, and the pics from that one show, gerard wrote 'careful' on his arm, yep, good times, good times..."
lol am i sad or what? ;)
i can't wait to get first-hand information this time around!
You will have a great time Ergo. I can assure you that. Squeak Squeak, have you been lurking? ;)
lurking?
er...no?
;)
actually, i was taking care of other things and popping back in, you know how it is.
but i have to go to bed now. work in the morning. :(
so good night to you, bc, and (hollers into the future) good night to ergo!
and good night to you mayo. it's a little weird at your place tonight. quiet.
too quiet. ;)
hopefully, the aim fad will pass and we can all hang out here together again.
hope you're doing well, and wishing you sweet dreams whenever it is that your head hits the pillow. mine will be crashing forthwith.
good night all!
Good night squeak squeak. I am signing off as well. Goodnight Ergo, and to those who are lurking.
ok it's time for dinner, take care everyone!
TJ mental math is icky, I just don't think in numbers well
and it is like full circle isn't it!(except frank is here this time)
bye
Hello Mayo,
Looks like I'm the first one awake..or something like that.
How are you? Just so-so? Me? Well, I'm awake. That's half the battle, right? Must get ready for work now. ERrrrrrr....
Just wanted to drop a note and few words to you before I am silenced for the day. Yeah...like I can stay silent for a whole day. I fear for my co-workers and I fear for the public...not a pretty picture. sdock10 must not be told to be quiet...no, no, no. Oh well, bless her heart...she'll figure it out.
Hope this finds you totally and completely exactly where you are needed.
Ahhh, that last part tripped you up didn't it? Yeah I didn't say where you needed to be. I said where YOU ARE NEEDED. Big difference.
Your faithful one....
Signing off for now.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. And she's still silent, but I hear rumblings...could it be?
Hi Mayo & everyone! I'm loathe to leave the house today - it took me most of last night to catch up on what I missed yesterday :S
I know this place is constantly evolving and the moods change like the tides of the sea, but it appears to have changed beyond all recognition in a relatively short space of time and I am struggling to understand why.
Anonymous people circle like vultures, leaving ominous messages that serve no real purpose other than to encourage gossip and upset people. I don't pretend to understand it, but I find this sickening display of Schadenfreuden disrespectful and in poor taste. I'm not sure why it bothers me so much, I guess Im disappointed.
Elena, I know from experience that a gentle whisper or a calm, soothing voice can often be be more effective than shouting. Volume is not always the key to making yourself heard. Often, it is the love, sincerity and empathy you convey in a few, well chosen words that can have the most impact.
Over the last few months, you have established your own group dynamic, you have formed bonds and friendships that transcend the usual shallow relationships of online 'communities'. But life is not just rainbows and butterflies, and there will be times you will want to kill each other, but that just proves you are a family.
The whole is greater than the sum of its parts.
Good morning all,
Hi s10, BC how are you both today?
Anon, great post. Thanks.
Hi PJ, RW,
I'm getting ready for work..blah.
How are you all?
I just need to re-emphasize something. DiscussMayo was set up as a place where people could go and talk who could no longer get on Mayo due to computer issues. Or as a place where we could go bullshit without leaving 3000+ comments on Mayo. It is not a secret place. Everyone is welcome...bloggers, lurkers, anons, No names, mayo, ss, m., unicorns, NutBusters, family, distanty familty, no relations, Everyone is welcome. My internet sucks ass...that is the ONLY reason it was started and has continued.
Anon, well said!
Most who come here have been here from the beginning, and know how special this place is.
Only a few bad apples, and a lot of love, because some of us have a place to come and just relax from the day to day hardships.
I love to forget my problems and come here, friends with no faces, at times i know what a blind person feels like, when they learn to love and trust someone they can not see.
So thank you for your kind words, it is refreshing after so many anon trying to bring our sprite down.
luv,
hugs,
PJ
Hello my dear friend!
I am getting ready for work also, so i can not stay long.
I hope your day gos well.
LOL to anyone who thinks it's not fair for some of us to go online late at night and chat on AIM. Get the hell over it. It's not a huge secret. Get AIM if you want to chat. Email if you want to email. We're not going to stop going on AIM for godsakes just because some people don't have it. I wish that everyone did, but hey, what can you do.
This is getting frigging ridiculous, it's not like anyone with AIM is a communist or a terrorist for godsakes. Or OMG! We are secretly chatting with MAYO HIMSELF! We've learned his true, secret identity! We're not telling! And furthermore we're having WILD SEX ORGIES, all of us, and some of these involve chapstick and a toaster.
Okay so I have to go to work and I will be away for about twelve hours. I will not be able to load this page until around 7 PM. Don't any of you dare talk here without me, because my crackberry doesn't have the capabilities to load this page and that is unfair. I will rely solely on DM, where I will have to ask, "OMG, what is everyone saying?" You guys showing up here and talking when some of us aren't able to, that's just not right.
Feel me?
Hurray for me going to work in a snarky mood now. :/
I have to go now, i know Mayos clock says 7:25 and if that was right i would be late for work...lol
but mine says 6:28 and i have to leave.
luv to all
hugs
PJ
pj,
I must go now too. I left you another comment on my blog...
Oh and for the record to all reading...it's not secret either.
Just click on my name and it will take you right to it...
Must warn all that visit...my story is quite tragic...but only to me.
Later peeps.
Love ya PJ!!
Morning Mayo!
So at least it was a little more harmonious here last night and even if they are occasionally tetchy about the Anons everyone's being ever so supportive of you.
I do wonder why no-one else seems to find you quite as annoying as I do of late? Maybe it's because I remember it was my no-nonsense father who finally (figuratively speaking!) slapped me out of my comforting cocoon of self pity and frog-marched me down to my doctor's and onto the road to mental stability, and I'm beginning to feel you need a REAL human being that you're scared of to do similar.
With regards to the gay thing OriginalPunks mentioned I can't say I've noticed that particular vibe off you, but if that's the way you feel then you've got to go with that. One of my best friends dated a lot of girls he didn't even particularly like because that's 'what you do' and was miserable. Now he's out he's found the man of his dreams and they're getting hitched in a fabulous ceremony next May.
Love,
Kass xx
P.S. Is 'off the grid' a euphemism for being cranked out of your mind, 'cos occasionally you sound it?
hi
I'm not usually here this time of night (for me) but I started watching "Spirited Away" and have to see how it finishes.
hello to anyone ,I suppose , waking up.
anon, I like what you wrote, the still small voice is often the most meaningful.
Hi ergo,anon and kass.
Ergo,
About your earlier question, my show is on the 6th.
This is an excellent week you are having. =)
Kapunua, I hope it was not my comment that induced such irascibility. If your remarks were directed at me, then they were misplaced. I can assure you, I have no opinion on that subject.
I would never dream of being so presumptuous. This is not my house, I only ever pass through from time to time.
hi PP
It is a great week, and I'm seeing Elton John in Townsville on the 4th too! ( a friend asked me to go as her hubby can't )
How are you tonight?
good morning.
how are we doing this morning or night if your in oz.
Good thanks, Ergo.
Have you noticed how quiet it is around here this time of blog?
Hi FS, anon, and anyone I've missed.
hi FS I'm just watching the end of "spirited away" an anime movie, then i'm off to bed, my concert is tomorrow night (or nearly tonight, It's 11:30pm)
ANON at 7:11 -
Thank You.
Sometimes I let myself grow so disenchanted I can't help myself.
Your kind words remind me that maybe, just maybe I am doing some good. Maybe someone hears me even though I think my voice is just white noise to most.
Thank you.
Ooh Spirited Away - I love the witch with the giant head!
Hello Ergo, pp & FS!
Kass xx
hey pp, ergo and elena and anons
well pp i dont think i have ever spoke to you but i have seen you. with that i say hello. you are usually in here in the mornings for me. are you in another country?
ergo. wow that has come quickly. tommorrow is the big night i bet your looking forward to it. i cant wait to read you review. and you get to see elton to. your lucky
elena. good morning. i hope your ok today. how is your daughter doing. what you upto today?
sorry i just forgot to say hi to anon.
anon hello how are you today. i hope your having a good day or will have a good day. have you any plans?
hi elena!
hey a fellow RHPS fan is always good in my books, you are kind and fun and don't you forget it.
anyway goodnight anyone here I am off to bed now,
actually it's funny thinking somewhere not all that far away MCR are probably in bed now too, or if they aren't they should be! lol
At least they are in my time zone for once.
Talk to you all later
luv ergo
oh dirty blue you snook in there.
how are you apart from being dirty hahaha. you know i am messin hun lol good morning
goodnight ergo and have fun. you get four of them
I'm a witch with a giant head....
Hi everyone!!!!!!!!! Hi Mayo!!!!!!!!!!!
hi me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*flying bear hug tackle thingy*
Just popping in to say ello!
ha I was going off but kass, have to say I loved her too and the little soot monster things.
It's the first time I've seen it. And the sort of watercolour backgrounds were beautiful.
ok this time, goodnight
righto third time lucky
hi cupcake!
and FS If I get 4 do you think they'll notice if I keep one,....just for a little while?
Promise I'll return him unharmed.
Sweet dreams Ergo.
Hello Cuppers!
I shall not dignify the 'dirty' comment with a response, Fimble. Except this one, obviously....
Kass xx
Goodmorning guys!
Awww ergo is going.... bye ergo!
Hi Sweetie!
Hope you are doing okay today. I've missed you!
Faith, Hope and Love
XOXO,
Princess
Hi Kass, PH, how are you?
Hello Ergo
Hello Fimble - Thanks for asking about my daughter. Actually all three of them are all in good health at the moment. Always a good thing.
Hope you all have a great day.
I loved your comment earlier by the way. I totally agree. I have to tell myself that sometimes that yelling and shouting doesn't always mean your message will be heard.
I'm still working on that.
ergo. if you go take one take fank and put him in your pocket. you dont have to return him. he can be a perminent resident in mayos hahahaha. anyways hun have a fantastic time
kass *holding out hand to shake*
how are you today
hahahaha my international spy. how are you doing. havent spoke to you for ages. are you gettin ready for school.
Allo S&V <3 how are u?
good morning princess
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