This is overdue. Please forgive me as I have been preoccupied with family. I had meant to post this earlier, in time with all of your moments of introspection, during "this is me". I think it is in good timing, as it seems a distraction could be in order...
I am a contradiction.
I am a planner, I plan everything. But, I have also been known to make snap decisions.
I am an idealist.
I am a realist.
I research the hell out of everything, but I am always changing my mind.
I am a workaholic, but can very easily sleep in too late...I have insomnia so the appeal of my dreams can be somewhat overwhelming.
I am a good listener, but I tend to talk over people (I am really working on that one).
I fear rejection on every level, but I am always drawing attention to myself.
I fear failure, but I am not afraid to try new things, and this constant change in scenery allows me to masquerade achievement.
I think I am always right, but I acknowledge that I make mistakes.
I am very independent and a control freak…I like to do things my way, myself. Yet, I am high maintenance and a bit of a scatter brain…therefore I require someone to look after me.
I have diagnosed clinical depression, but I can be the life of the party.
I have outrageously high standards for myself, but I am generous in allowing others to fault.
I am very loyal, but I have been known to wander off towards a novel stimulus like a moth to a flame.
I am empathetic.
I am selfish.
I am stubborn.
I crave change.
I have enjoyed kissing both women and men, but prefer women.
I am shy.
I am eccentric.
I am erratic.
I work hard, and I am passionate. I love life, my friends, and my family. I am always expressing myself
...even in silence.
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«Oldest ‹Older 201 – 400 of 2693 Newer› Newest»well k and Amy that doesn't really work in the tropics we don't have that much seasonal difference !
(only kidding)
and evolutionarily , the general consensus is for men to spead their DNA in as many suitable fertile females as possible, thus extending the spread of and ensuring the survival of their DNA whereas females are "programmed " to mate with the strongest and most fertile male who will enable her to have the strongest offspring thus guaranteeing the survival of her DNA.
Human marriage is perhaps the least genetically relevant relationship in the entire animal kingdom.
Vampires? Did someone say vampires? Oh Lord, for me the best will always be Frank Langella. Lord, that man could bite my neck anytime he wanted.
Frank Langella!
YEAH YEAH!
Clare Quilty!
BC, I'll have to be ok. I can't let everyone down now, can I?
Not meaning to kiss your oh so firm ass K, but I lurk and I love reading your posts too. I like them better than Mayo. Even though I do think you sound alike sometimes..... Not trying to suggest anything just saying. Poetic.
You don't speak in cliches and you don't take bull-shit. You're just..... different.
*back to lurkdom*
amyranth, that's a very good way of looking at it. sometimes, though, you can forget who you are without even knowing that you've done so, and that can feel a lot like you've "lost" that person.
but i like very much the idea that i just need to sit down and have a good solid visit with myself. ^.^
Emily,
In regards to making a marriage last, well all relationships have an ebb and flow. You have to work at maintaining that relationship, that even holds true with friendships.
You can never really control the future or focus your whole outlook on a what if situation. However I do understand your concern when you have witnessed the demise of a previous relationship. It creates fear.
As in all things there are risks, the question is how much are you willing to risk, and if you do not risk what do you miss out on.
Human animals were also among the first to begin to spread diseases through sex, making monogamy more viable.
There are other animals that "mate for life" aside from humans. There is no romance in that, either. It's all survival urges. There's a reason for everything, you know?
That makes a lot of sense.
I'm not saying that my fears have completely abandoned me but I feel they've calmed down a bit.
I just wanted to say, thank you Ergoproxy, for your honesty and insightful response.
A Rose for Emily....
Speaking of seasonal difficulties, why is it that as soon as there's 5 centimeters of snow on the ground, Calgary drivers go crazy and start swerving?
Do they think they can drive between the flakes or something?
-A
Those are my same thoughts KD...
A Rose for Emily...
Night Mustard. Talk to ya later.
BC is't suppose to snow here too. Shit, I hate snow.
Kapunua, perhaps I shall. But what to call myself?
I'm in the middle of laundry and terribly bored.
And thank you too, anon. ^_^ Wow. Thank you very much.
I should get to bed, you kind and lovely people.
Mayo, thanks for the blog and thanks for answering my question.
Clinic regs, thanks for being regs. (Boy is Sdock gonna be pissed that she missed this conversation! ^_~ )
Anons, thanks for popping out of lurkdom.
Verita, good to have you back.
Gerard Way, wake the hell up and stop degrading women.
Frank Iero, we love you, BB.
SS, do come back if possible.
Me? I get to sleep late tomorrow night then bake (or attempt to bake) apple pie all day. At least until it's time for Kung Fu.
Oh! And I wanted to tellyou guys all how that problem I had ended up! With the exclusive weapons class and Beautiful Boy! I will tell you all tomorrow if any of you remember and still want to know.
Come, my coach! Good night, sweet ladies. Sweet ladies, good night! Good night!
you are very welcome emily!
haha Frank Langella ...mmmmmm
anyway I am off to do my hair and get dressed to head into the city for .....MUSE !!!!!
Yayay.
hope you all have a nice night and tomorrow.
I'll report in when I can and let you know how it goes.(no pics though they search !!)
"Depeche Mode has everything to do with anything."
You speak the truth. :)
Oh, anon, before I go. A name, hmm? Are you a lady anon? I give you: Eliza Day, Lotte, or Lovely Creature. A gentleman anon? I give you: Henry Lee, Professor O'Rye, or Red Right Hand.
Or you could just be Laundry Anon. ^_~
I'm just kidding, you can totally think up one yourself. ^_^
good night kapunua!
have a great time ergo! :D
K's ass is firm...
what? who? no! shhhhhhhhh
Sweet dreams everyone.
I too must vacate the premiss's.. i have some thinking to do...
goodbye Mayo, and all you lovelies... I adore you XX
My favorite vampire movie is still Bram Stoker's Dracula.
I don't know if its because of the English accents or the heart wrenching scenes between Winona Ryder and Gary Oldman, I don't know what it is.
But it will always have a place close to my cold vampire heart.... LOL
A Rose for Emily...
I should take a name from Kapunua but I already used to have one.
When you say that thing about kicking JU's ass while he holds your hair.... that's hot. Who said that thing about you ripping someone'e spine out and sing it as a sword? That's all like.... Angelina hot.
You make me want to take karate.
Gwah.
Snowing out. :)
-A
Uhhh oh, and that last pic you posted in your blog with the kick.... wow. How long does it take to get that bendy. I want to try.
Ergo don't forget you must report on your concert experience.
Night cupcake.
Night K - good luck with that pie thing.
good night cupcake. ^.^
i should be going too. i've been staying up much too late recently!
mayo, i was going to chide you again for leaving without saying good-bye, but then i realized that hey, it's your blog, if you want to wander through it unannounced in your bathrobe with a cup of coffee, who am i to say "tsk tsk"? ^.^
good night, all!
good night, mayo. thanks again for the very interesting entry tonight. :)
Sorry to say, but I cannot say much about the performance by Keanu Reeves in that movie.
Pretty face, but unable to express himself emotionally...should sick to Matrix movies, even though the last two sucked big time.
Night Toujours - it was nice talking with you. Sweet dreams.
Elena, I hate snow too, but I like to use it as a weapon so I can throw some at people's backs unsuspectingly. I am a sneak like that ^_^
Apologies for my abrupt absence.
I got a bit sick again :(
Well that's why I didn't mention Keanu Reeves, for that very reason.
The romantic element is the reason why I still love this movie.
"Mina, I love you too much, to condemn you"
I know, I know, I'm just a romantic sap....
A Rose for Emily...
laundry anon it is! :)
thanks girl.
and I agree. keanu is a good looking man, but he's more built for a character like Neo.
P.S. Whoever said that Depeche Mode is has everything to do with anything, I shall now worship the ground you walk on ;)
Goodnight cupcake. And remember, sometimes it's okay to feel down. I know I have. Alot of people do.
Oh that snow. Makes this house colder than it really is.
I'm going to curl up in my bed with two warm, kitteny bodies and spend the rest of the night relaxing.
New Cellphone T - 12:00.
Mayo, my next post is for you. Something close to me.
Good night everyone! See you all in the morning!
-A
Well ladies, Mayo, fellow Anon's:
With much regret, I must bid you adieu. I am very tired and its very late where I am presently. It has been a very insightful conversation. Hopefully, we will be able to continue tomorrow.
Goodnight all and sweet dreams. Don't let the bed bugs bite. LOL....
A Rose for Emily...
My ex told me that no one would ever love me the way I wanted to be loved. He was right. Noone loves me. Noone ever will.
Goodnight Amyranth. Possibly when this snow falls, I shall stuff it down someone's pants ^_^
Good night and sweet dreams Emily.
Anon @ 7:21 are you going to believe what your ex told you? You never know if someone loves you until you discover it. Don't listen to them.
Emily,
You are no romantic sap, that is a very endearing characteristic.
There is something mystical about the vampire...interestingly, in psychology the myth is linked to a unconscious form of repression in sexuality.
I find vampires to be quite sexy
Really KD... I have to keep that in mind.
Goodnight KD, BC, and to all those I forgot to mention.
Sweet Dreams.
A Rose for Emily...
Goodnight Emily.
Finally I'm going to bed too.
Goodnight Emily, and everybody else.
Goodnight Katherine. Sweet dreams!
And so, is anyone else on?
Aren't we all?
As anonymous, the first comment, said. But, it could be anyone. No-one has one solid trait. We just steer towards one in particular. Don't you hate it when people expect something from you, you do the other, and they get pissed off? I don't know, maybe that's just me.
I just needed something to do while my iPod charged.
See you all tomorrow. Hopefully.
-s00
Take care and sweet dreams silence.
I've been drinking again and I know it's a sin but I just can't refuse an old friend....
Kansas lyrics won't get out of my head.
Bleeding Chaos,
'Twas I who said it :)
No need to worship me. Just worship the mighty Depeche Mode and all of their awesomeness.
Hi there seasicksmiles. It is nice to meet you. Elena, you're still here? ;)
Depeche Mode is awesome. Policy of Truth is also one of my other favorite song of theirs.
Yep. I'm still here.
I am not sure what to say here dear Mayonaise. The last few posts, you have been attempting at opening up, just a little. For that I must commend you. I feel a bit proud that you are beginning to open up a bit. It means a lot to us. I am not good at inspirational speeches, such as the great sd10, or a great warrior such as Kapunua, but keeping with the honesty subject, I sincerely hope that you will continue to provide that within the next few posts.
I sincerely hope that each of us are important contributors to your blog. I completely suck at writing speeches, so I will make this direct. Yes, you may be a fucked up individual, but aren’t we all? You may be lost, confused, whichever, but there is always hope. Keep that hope and faith alive in you no matter how daunting your life may appear to be. You can battle your demons. You did it once, you can do it again. My only expectation is for you to just be your own fucking self and not live up to anyone’s expectations. Not that piece of shit Jimmy Urine, nor anyone else. Be your own damn self. Your own, nerdy, comic book- loving, shy kid from Jersey. Stop with the sharpie messages, stop with the erratic behavior and take a good look in the mirror at what you are doing to yourself and to those close to you. Do you want to shame those that are deemed important to you? Do you want to bring shame to your family, your friends? The only thing that is keeping me here is hope. Because we know that at some point, you can turn all of this around, for the better. You can change. You just don’t have the willpower to make the positive changes. You are such a strong individual. What happened that had caused that to change?
Take this “speech” as you will. I can be rather blunt. And I suck at speeches.
P.S. Not to be ashamed, but I did smile a bit when I read this post. But that video from last night still pisses me off. Anger gives me fire and passion.
How are you elena? Are we the only ones here?
Seems like it. Hey were are you and is it snowing yet?
I live by Chicago, but there is no snow yet although I hear there are thunderstorms coming my way. It was in the 60's today I guess that's why.
My speech did suck, didn't it? Oh well, I was never good at those.
It was really nice here today too. But I think winter is upon us. It's already raining. Snow possible for tomorrow.
No it didn't suck at all. You brought up some valid points. I was just over at BN and of course whatever that chicks name is (starts with a V) is defending Gerard's actions at that concert. You know no matter what anyone says you can't justify his words. If one of my daughters had been at that concert I would have wanted to smack the hell out of him.
I hate winter to be honest. The lifeless trees, grass, the lack of color. I absolutely love fall though. It was raining here too, but in the morning it was very foggy. I hear tomorrow will be windy and thursday will be flurries. This weather has been pretty crazy O_o
Oh and one more thing. If I had to chose between nerdy Gerard or Fuck you Gerard I would go with nerdy any day of the week. It's kinda sad he don't realize nerdy Gerard is a hell of a lot sexier to a lot of women.
Thanks Elena. I appreciate that.
If I had kids at that concert, I can bet my sweet ass and a cherry pie with sprinkles on top that I would have slapped him across the face as well. I prefer to flip the finger and spit at him. It adds more punch :D
Nerdy Gerard is much sexier. I admire people who can be themselves, instead of someone who is trying to be someone they are not. I disappreciate phonies. If there is such a word. MCR taught me to be proud of being who I am. I wish it did the same for Gerard. I hate arrogant Gerard. I'd like to beat the shit out of him if I could and maybe twist his balls. ^_^
I really think he just needs to take a step back and look at what's going on around him. So many people worried about him must mean something. I want him to be happy. Not the kind of happy that people convience themselves of but really happiness. The kind that makes you look in the mirror and not flinch.
Yeah exactly. I never said this to anyone, but sometimes I can't consider myself to be truly, sincerely happy as well. I can be more moody than happy to be exact.
Sometimes when I feel like I'm lacking something in my life, my happiness flushes down the toilet
I'd like to beat the shit out of him if I could and maybe twist his balls. ^_^
Shit, gotta confess that's not what I'd wanta do. I can't say what I'd wanna do cause that would make me sound like a bad bad woman. LOL.
Lol I think that's why no man wants to date me. I scare people away, but seriously, I would never do that. I would yell at him though :D
I'm sure there are many men who want to date you. You just have to find the right one. The one who enjoys the way you speak your mind. Who the hell would want one who wanted some silly mealy mouth girl? Seriously there are men out there that like to be challenged.
You know when Mayo said he needs someone to look after him I thought to myself "Bingo dude you just hit the nail on the head." No one should NEED someone to take care of them. He needs to learn to take care of himself.
Well, there was this guy that I liked. He worked at the local grocery store near where I live and in some ways, he reminded me of Gerard back in high school, but this guy was a cutie too, and he had such beautiful eyes and one time he complimented me on my converse shoes because they are a neon green. He had a lit up smile on his face when he did. I seen him one other time, and that was about it. Every time I like someone, they end up walking out of my life :(
But, next time I see him, I will try to say hi. Only problem is, I don't know how old he is.
I like to be challenged as well. Anyone who is not up to it bores me. I like for that person to just be himself and not pretend to be a fake. Someone who can be strong, but isn't afraid to be emotional.
You are absolutely right. Take care of yourself first. You can't have someone do that for you.
Don't worry about how old he is. If you make a real connection age means nothing. I'm quite a bit older than my husband. He and I are a strange couple. The only thing we have in common is our strange sense of humor. Really that's it. But you know what? If you don't have a sense of humor then life can get pretty bleak. He and I have been through a lot together. I don't think we would have made it if we couldn't laugh together. I say make sure you run into him again and see what happens.
Sense of humor is always, always important indeed. Age may be a problem when it comes to the law though, but still, if I see this guy next time I will try to say hello, but I am shy around them. I don't even know if he has a girlfriend or not O_o but I guess next time I'll find out. If I can find him again.
Thanks Elena :)
The law was a problem when I started dating my husband. He was still in high school. How wrong does that sound? Anyway we've been married 23 years so something must have been right. Hey I gotta go to bed. It's 3:38 and I get up at 6:00 It was nice talking with you. Talk to you tomorrow.
Take care Elena and thank you for the advice. Sweet dreams!
Goodnight Mayo, and anyone else who may still be lurking.
Take care
Morning Mayooooonaazzeee!!!!
So, you are married. Does your spouse hate this as much as mine? Do they yell at you "ARE YOU STILL ON THAT DAMN COMPUTER?"
Mine does. And again just for old times sake, he is a JACKASS. ^_^
Well, as far as marriage goes it's kind of like to each his own. If you agree with it and it feels right, then do it. If not, then don't. I just hate it when people make it sound like I sold my soul to the devil just because I have a piece of paper that is validation.
I had the big church wedding. I LOVED IT! (Hello? Diva-ish? Just a tad) I was married when I was seventeen and straight out of school. Yes, I live in the South and no, I was not barefoot and pregnant. Just what felt right to us. It's been twelve looooonnnnggg ass years but worth it. We have problems just like anyone else but I wouldn't have changed it for the world. Now, I have a smaller version of him that is my whole heart.
Well, anyhoooooo.......
Maybe I'll still be able to get on while I'm at work today (Damn the Man!).
Toodles ya'll!!
XOXO,
Princess
P.S. - There are very FEW people in this world who aren't a walking contradiction. Just sayin'......
Hello everyone!
Mayo!
Do you ever feel like charlies angels....and mayo is charlie.
We only hear him, never see him..and only know what he wants us to know.
I can not say I'm an angel...I can be the devil sometimes.
Why do i feel, some one has said that before?
Any way....good morning!
HELLO!!!!!!
Anyone here?????
Mayo,
Hello, my friend. How are you doing this wicked Wednesday? I only say wicked because Wednesdays have this way of lulling you to sleep and then springing something on you unexpectedly. You know? So I will one up Wednesday before it gets me. Me? I am....just so so I guess. Sleepy and trying to get ready for work. Glad I don't have to work tomorrow, but dreading the hecticness of the holidays. You ever feel that way? Like your family just can't be together. They have to make this huge deal about shit only so they can complain about making it such a huge deal. Oh hell, maybe that's just my family. What do I know? Makes me wish for a big bowl full of footballs instead of mashed potatoes. I know, I know...I should make that appointment and get myself checked out. Maybe...after the holidays. Maybe.
So I really enjoyed reading your latest. Sorry I missed you last night, but I just had to get some sleep. Now you know that's fucked up because I take shit to make me go to sleep. Yeah well, I take it when it comes. I am sitting here realizing how much alike we all are. Your list was much shorter than my 7 or 8. It's crazy dude. I always told you that talking to you was like talking to myself and now I know why. Thank you for sharing. It's also good to know that you might not think I am as fucked in the head as I really am. We absolutely understand each other. Magnificent. Seriously, I keep going back and reading that and going ...yep, yep, yep, hell that's me and I didn't even realize...yep, yep, Fuck yep.
Did it feel as good to let that shit out for you as it did for us? It really makes you look at yourself doesn't it?
Well, tick tock, the clock won't stop for the 2 of us to keep chatting so I must get ready for work now. Oh well, oh well...responsibility calls. Can I tell her to fuck off? Nah, that wouldn't be so nice and I am already on thin ice...oh that shit rhymed. Pretty good for so early in the morning.
I hope this finds you this holiday....warm, embraced, full, thankful, and aware.
Love to YOU Always,
s
p.s. Enjoy
OK Mayo.....just you and me!
You sound so much like me...except the diva part.
I never have ever cared what people thought about me or said about me.
I hear what people say...but do what i want to do.
I do not mind being alone...rather like it....i guess cause i have been with someone all my life....and being on my own...with out anyone...feels good!
Some people need someone around all the time....to the point of grabbing on to the first one that will have them......
I understand that!
But there comes a time....when you will want to try it own your own....fly with out a net!
At first it is fun.....then becomes boring....then you get use to it.....then you like it....and wonder why you needed anyone in the first place.
Over time i have learned... not to give in to the first romeo that comes along......now i can pick and choose who i want to be with....take my time.
I still believe in a soul mate....and i know he will not just walk up to my door and knock.
But for right now....i enjoy my alone time and would not give it up just yet!
Guess you are out of the question...now that we know you are married...
....waves....to wife!
Hello Peeps!
Kerrang! magazine printed my letter this week about the MCR/MSI hook-up. I'm so proud - My first published work!
In case you were interested:
Dear Kerrang!,
Re: The Interview with Frank MCR and Steve MSI.
Just a quick word to say that, whilst a few teenies may be jealous of Gerard and Lyn-Z's relationship, there is an increasing band of MCR fans who are unhappy with MSI being their support act for another reason, namely that since the Projekt Revolution hook-up Gerard Way has become a total pillock - fighting with Frank onstage, throwing vomit at the fans, writing cryptic messages on himself, tacky comments about his personal life, etc... - not to mention that the lyrical content (however supposedly 'satirical') of MSI's music is diametrically opposite to the female-friendly, no-violence & no-bigotry message that MCR always claimed to support.
I'm personally pretty much inoffendable and I'm sure I'd find MSI's live show entertaining in another context, but I don't think this kind of hypocrisy is desirable when younger fans are concerned, however thrilled G-Way may be at getting his end away.
You wont print this because you'd rather leave lip-prints on Jimmy Urine's arse, but I think it's an important thing to say,
Kass79 xx
Any comments?
Ok...now i have to go to work!
I hope you have a good thanksgiveing.
I am going to spend it with friends, its my first one with out my brother....so it is hard...but push...push...i go on.
And Sdock....maybe soon, we will need to talk.....it is hard my friend.
hugs!
PJ
pj,
Sorry I missed you this morning. I was trying to ready myself for work.
If you need to talk, find me on my blog or email me.
I would love to listen.
Love,
S
Wow Mayo. I never expected this. I came to read your daily wisdom, and instead I get a peek into who you are. Thanks. You seem like a copy of all of us, which is slightly strange. You drew us here, us people who are similar to you.
Also, you say you crave change. Is this a recent development or has it always been there?
P.S. On the subject of dreams, I had a dream about you! I dreamt I found out who you were. Of course, the light of day made me forget. But maybe it's better off this way...?
hey kass!
good on you getting your letter printed! well written too. i love:
You wont print this because you'd rather leave lip-prints on Jimmy Urine's arse, but I think it's an important thing to say.
and they printed it so good on them!
hi mayo. hows it going??
lovely post by the way. its nice to learn a little more about you.
Mayo,
Now it's time for the REAL questions:
How tall are you?
What color is your hair?
Eye color?
What do you do for a living?
What do you like to wear?
What's your favorite foods?
What's your hobbies?
Favorite movies, books, tv shows, etc?
Siblings?
Where do you live?
Any pics you want to post?
Awww, come on! Are we gonna talk about that? Probably not.
You know I'm just messing with you.
Love you MAYOOOOONAAAZZEEE!!!
Good morning Mayo.
Fabtastic (yes, fab) of you to post. It nearly induced vertigo being able to scroll down the page so quickly after the last few days.
"I am a contradiction"
Too right. Your state of being hurts my head. You forgot to add introverted and extroverted; insecure and appreciated.
It must make your significant other feel, at times, like she is married to at least two other people. Does she understand the multiple sides of you or do you supress the elements that would be less attractive to her?
Nice of you to share, and nice job of diverting away from the Belfast discussions, by the way.
p.s.I cheated and deleted my personal missive.
Hello Kass79, FASC, S&V20, SD10, PJ,Shae and lurkers.
Phew, it looked like I was writing Klingon until I reached Shae.
&**@#!
suppress*
You think I would have remembered the pp part of suppress >_<
Nice one Kass. Who would have thought Kerrang would have printed your letter after all the compliments they've been throwing MSI's way lately.
S&V20,
Mayo's size shoe, for your list?
Just messing.
My gift to Mayo and my blogger family today...just because I can feel my mood is in a downward spiral.
And I sigh....and don't really give a fuck if I get fired today or not.
When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
Old at heart but I'm only 33
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart
I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could tou ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me
Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out
Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for
Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die
I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you
I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die
Glad to be of some help Pickled Possum.
And for S&V20's list:
... I'll think of something.
"Independent endeavour"
Hmm, so it is only one person writing this blog.
Sd10,
No,really about your job? Hope you are joking.
Shae,
I sense great potential in S&V20's list for Mayo. Personal revelation...PP is psychic.
Mayo, it makes you feel like you've purged yourself afterwards doesn't it?
Exposed and vulnerable, but relieved at the same time. But still hiding a little something of yourself for yourself, right?
Anyway, later all.
Night.
pp,
I am so not joking about my job.
Mayo,
I will follow Princess Smoke and ask you some more questions. Feel free to ask me anything you wish.
What kind of car do you drive?
What's your favorite cereal?
Do you like cartoons?
Who is your favorite super hero?
If you could have any super powers what would they be?
Are you living your dreams right now?
How do you fall asleep?
Do you look in the mirror?
Fuck, I really should get back to work now, but I am unmotivated to give of myself to these cocksuckers.
I guess I am figuring out what it feels like to slowly bleed out....
Oh bugger SD10. Why do they always do things like this leading up to Christmas and the like?
Sending serious good thoughts your way today. Hang in there.
I bet he likes Cap'n Crunch!
My favorite?
Frankenberry's!!!!
Muwahahaha!
My favorite cereal?
Fruity Pebbles....of course.
'nuff said.
Haha kass i loved your letter to kerrang!!!
Im sure next week there will be a thousand letters back to kerrrang saying "ohmzgod!! ur so jelous blah blah bah bah sheep" LoL
Mayo i liked the look into yourself.
Did you find it hard to write? I found mine terribly difficult to write, it was like looking in a mirror for the first time in years.
I feel a sense of freedom in doing so though.
I love you for that, Kass. LOVE. ^_^
Good morning, dears. I'm off work today and will be attempting this whole "baking" thing or whatever you people call it.
Whaddup, homies? Hi, Sdock! Anonymous rumor has it I killed you last night. Or snogged you. Still not sure which.
Cocksuckers? Dirty mouth.
She needs some Orbit doesn't she, PPU?
You know it's Whippin' Wednesday don't you?
You like it when I talk dirty, don't you PPU?
Fuck yeah you do!
Cocksuckers...that is word of the day!
I proclaim today to be Cocksucking bloodsucking Wicked Wednesday!
Feel me?
Oh BB, what have you become?
I mean, i she being serious in that picture? What are you, Kate Moss now?
Oh dear. He needs some turkey, dressing, pumpkin pie, biscuits and gravy, chocolate cake, and a little invervention......
What happened to my pretty Gerard? Inside and out?
inTervention
Damn, maybe I need some typing intervention. Ya think?
Stop princess, don't do it. Pull your hands away from the keyboard!
Nuh uh That boy needs a blood transfusion.
I have plenty to offer...come suck me dry!
Damn, that still sounded perverted again!
Blink, blink at me Rita, don't you know I'm a bleeder? *_*
Sdock, you need to stay away from words like...
suck
ride
whip
cock
howl
scream
Are we the only two here? Cause if that's the case just pick up the damn phone and call me.
Duh.
smoke&venom20 said...
Oh dear. He needs some turkey, dressing, pumpkin pie, biscuits and gravy, chocolate cake, and a little invervention......
What happened to my pretty Gerard? Inside and out?
Seriously. And it's not even how he looks--though it is kind of scary--it's the look that he's making. Oh my god. God, I miss that boy.
I'm off to the store for about an hour (damn it!) but will be back soon and I'll come to chat you guys and love you all up while taking breaks from my baking adventure. ^_^
On second thought, my blood is probably tainted with filth and vulgarity and occasional self loathing.
Might not be the best idea to suck from me....ehhh, there might be a few good qualities left in there somewhere.
I bet I taste good though...still sweet and not too bitter. Not yet.
Hang around, I don't have to make this one so heavy
Stick around, could I challenge or dare you to stay
I just don't know what it is that makes me this wonderer
All I know is I was put here to be in love and I want to remain that way.
I am tired of this bile that fills up my belly
Even more, of this fire that smokes in my eyes
All I want is a moment of peace, peace without boredom
And to forever remain breathless
Could you for once say it even if you aren't sure you have the balls to stick it out?
Could you stop sticking to this plan when you never have a day in your life
If for nothing else to grant me this moment to breathe, expand and let go
You say. "trust me, trust me I'll know when the time is best"
And I try my damnedest to make my voice sound like a smile, I swallow hard and I lie to you yes
'Cause my heart is so full that it's pushing it's way through these two ribs in my chest
But for now I'll force it to remain with my hand clutching my breast
Could you for once say it even if you aren't sure you have the balls to stick it out
Could you stop sticking to this plan when you never have a day in your life
If for nothing else to grant me this moment to breathe, expand and let go
Random song lyrics again...again I am bored. Bored and feeling self destructive. Self destructive but calm. Calm...
Oh, pretty purple unicorn, darling.
I see I missed you.
Pity.
I will wait.
Hello sdock...
Cheer up lovely girl!!!!
I didn't see the pic, the link doesn't work.
im bored :/
Mayo, thank you very much for posting this.
Firstly, because NOW I can post a comment again;secondly, because this means you’re opening up with us. And that’s exactly what we want.
Does it mean you like and trust this wonderful family?...
Yeah, I had no doubts about it.
Again, your honesty in writing this is really appreciated. Thanks.Love to you.
Hi everyone who happens to be here or lurk. Unfortunately I cannot stay any longer but hope to talk to you later. Take care and enjoy the rest of your morning/evening!
*HUGS*
Ps: and Mayo, just so you know, I am a contradiction too…
I don't want to fucking work anymore.
Anyone want to trade places?
Anyone?
Anyon?
Any?
Fuck, I didn't think so.
Come on, 5 O'clock!
Mayo,
What do you want Santa Claus to bring you for Christmas???
Good morning! How is everybody?
Love,
L.
MAYO
After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music
Lovely girls, what is he going to do with you?
Mr. Mayo Man, can you even begin to realize what you have here?
Hello everyone!
How are you? I hope you're doing well!
I see Gerard...er, Mayo posted again, huh?
Very interesting to read.
I don't believe a single word, but that's okay!
Mayonaise, don't feel insulted. I just need time to figure out if I can consider you trustworthy.
PS: And I'm also in a bitchy mood, because I had a teeth cleaning today.
so lyke, what colour is your hair sdock10
Sure he realizes anon. We remind him every day!!
Hey Mayo!
I am your faithful heart!
Don't you forget it.
Other anon,
My hair is brown.
Good morning/afternoon everyone.
I am feeling a little down today. WTF? I hate feeling like this. Must just be one of those days.
So how is everyone else doing?
Anima,
I am feeling down and out and used and abused and slipping and touched in the head.
"Mr. Mayo Man, can you even begin to realize what you have here?"
I think he does. I hope he does.
so lyke what colour are your eyez
Sdock, I am having a severe "touched in the head" kind of day. What the hell is wrong with us? Aren't those pills supposed to work? :(
You know I love it when you talk that way, Sdock.
Hi anima,
I'm not feeling so well. My gum hurts and I'm hungry, but I have to wait until I can eat again, meh!
anima i am having one of those days too. i feel completely deflated. I dont even want to be at mayos today but i dont have the motivation to move away from the computer ...im stuck :/
Oh, hell. Here we go.
Creepy questions for Sdock and PPU, the S&M Pony Express.
Anima,
I don't have any pills...my condition has never been diagnosed. It really should be...
Anon,
My eyes are lyke blue...okay.
PPU,
I thought you had left me. I was so lonely and depressed. I thought I was going to have to walk through this ugly world all by myself.
Fuck that shit....Wanna say it with me? FUCK THAT SHIT!
We all need someone...someone who understands our needs. A longing, an insatiable hunger...
Feel me?
Siobhan, bummer you had to get your teethcleaned and your gums are sore.
SIM, I feel ya. I am void of all things creative right now, I can barely write a sentence. Just feeling really blah.
Well, I'm off! It's quite depressing here.
Bye everyone
See you... sometime.
Lovely girls? Please get the fuck over yourselves. How much you want to bet that is a regular poster just tyring to make you all feel better about this whole charade.
The REAL Gerard Way would not waste his precious time on a bunch of whiney cows like you all. That goes for Verita Venom more than anyone, he would think she was such a bitch. He would never waste his time listening to a bunch of stupid morons trying to "save" him. If you don't like the show he puts on any more simple. Don't watch it. You put him on this pedestel and you get angry when he changes his mind about who he wants to be.
The truth is most fans LOVE the way Gerard is growing up, the rest of you are stuck in the past.
VBut if you want to convince yourselfs that this is the blog of GERARD ARTHUR WAY and that SS is FRANK IERO and he CARES SO MUCH ABOUT YOU and you keep telling yourself that your voices are being heard, oh well. Keep living that diluded world.
You guys are sad. Gerard Way would roll his eyes and ignore your fat asses.
Anon, thanks for that. Just what I needed to hear.
The way he is GROWING UP?
That man was grown before he ever started a band. Uhhh, he was like twenty-four or something like that. Last time I checked, you are legally an adult at 18.
Ooh, I'm sorry. You meant mentally. I gotcha now.
He's still not there yet.
Maybe you can help him out with that since you know so much about what he likes and what he thinks.
Just don't get fat. Then he'll drop your sorry fat-ass, too.
Princess S&M20, you would know all about that shit now wouldn't you?
I am feeling quite like rambling off at the mouth today. I shall write quite the interesting blog this evening when I get to my hacienda. I can't do it at work. Too many distractions...like work.
anon @ 1:30, Go away. You are fucking up my land of BlogBelieve. I am about to embark on a journey with my unicorn and take imaginary happy pills. And maybe get some satisfaction.
haha laugh at siobhans remark about it bein depressing here.
Yeah im feeling really blah too :/
Everything is pissing me off even if theres no reason behind it haha.
Do you know why you are blah anima?
Im sick of waiting for people. Im currently in the process of waiting for someone who is 3 and a half hours late... grrrrr i dont know why i bother. I went without sleep for them too!!! the cheek!!!
and now i am bloated from eating too much, trying to fill the emptyness inside. Funny how no amount of biscuits ever fill that hole
blah blah blah
screw you anon why do you even waste your time here?
Did you just call me S&M 20?
Oh, no you didn't.
I would be the quite the dominatrix though I can tell you.
Mayo? Any thoughts?
Oh, nevermind. We're both married, sorry.
Not sure SIM. It just happens. I'll be over it soon.
Okay, now I need something to cheer me up. MUSIC! *hooks up the headphones* That's much better.
haha S&M 20 hehe thats so funny :)
thats the first thing to make me laugh all day :) Thankyou
To the anon at 1:30 the only person here who needs to get over themselves is you. No one here claims to speak for Gerard Way except you. If you know so much about Gerard what the hell are you doing here? Go write a tell all. And if people want to believe this is Gerard Way who the hell are you to tell them they are sad and delusional.
Freudian slip, Sdock?
Hi to all my family here at Mayo's
Hello MJ!
Of course it was.....
I most certainly meant S&V20.
*sheepishly looks away from PPU*
Dirty mind, gutter mouth...I am bound to slip every now and then.
Slippery things aren't always bad though...ya know?
Unless it's a slippery slope...those can be quite dangerous if you don't have hand rails.
Hello my two favorite sisters in the world. How are you. I see we have an anon attack again. Is this the lovely marks of love anon are some new one?
Should I just change my name?
I guess I could have dueling personalities.
Princess Smoke&Venom20
Dominatrix Smoke&Whip20
Whaddya think?
No Leave it S&V20 and if someone calls you s&m again just whip them. No need to change your name Maybe you an go by mistress sometimes.
Hello MarthaJones,
I'm feeling fucked up as usual. How are you?
I dunno which anon is which anymore.
Dominatrix SmokeWhips&Chains20
I want a new name!
Hello everyone. I keep popping in and out here at work. Hey Anon I'm really in too good of a mood for the likes of you but what the hell I'll make an exception - Go the Fuck Away.
I'm alright SD10 you have a new name its sock. Well if you felling fucked up yell at an anon. Cause you know they will be back.
Hi elena how are you today?
Guess they kind of go hand in hand anyway. Not like I ever tried to come off as a sweet princess.
So, that settles it.
Sdock, you call me S&M20 again and I will leave stipes across your back with my whip.
Feel me, sister?
MUWAHAHAH!
Martha I think I'll ask my husband if he wants to leave some "marks of love" on my neck tonight. That would freak the fuck out of my kids. LOL
Sock?
Can I be SexySock10?
Sock is just boring....and it's just a single sock with no match. It's destined to walk the world without a soul mate. That's depressing as hell.
Or SelfloathingSock10?
Or SlipintotheSock10?
muahahah
Fuck yeaH!
Marks of love, that has got to be the silliest thing I have ever heard. But it is coming from a teenager. If that is our future I'm scared.
I weep for the future somedays!
Don't be alarmed or assume the worst if Frank is unable to join the guys in Australia next week.
He has no intention of quitting the band.
SlipintotheSock10 I like that one. Hey you could be horriblysmellysock10 to the anons.
Thanks anon.
We are here holding on to the faith, hope, and love.
always
We just pray everything is okay with him and want him to know he is missed.
I'm just hoping that Franck is okay. If he an rejoin the band its fine he needs to care of himself and his family first.
Thank you anon
Mayo;
It is about time for a new post, and for you to tell us about yourself.
Rawr. You are quite the character I see. =] That's alright though. We are all different.
Anyways, Hey guys!
How are we today?
=]
*hug*
Frank is always in our thoughts and prayers. Love that guy!
Hi ph,
*hugz* to you
1 million kazilliontrillion
Can't is the missing word from my last post. I need to stop reading the attack anon post the bad spelling is rubbing off on me.
Hey Sdock10!
three thousand trimegazillion *hugs*!
Hello Ph here is a great big bear hug for you. how are you today?
Hey Martha!! *HUG*
I am very cold! How are you today? =]
Hey Paper - Good to see you.
&& Hey Elena! *HUG*
Cold I am cold too
Thanks for the hug Paper. It's cold and rainy and hugs are in order. Here's one right back at ya.
Thanks Elena for the hug back! =]
It sure is cold and snowy today.
Funny visual - Gerard making his first Thanksgiving dinner in his new home. So he's wearing an apron. What would it say?
Hmm..
I'd have to think about that for a while.
Anon, how do u know he has no intentions of quitting the band? why does he look so sad lately?
kiss the fucking chef bitch.
new gee's apron of course
Thank you anon @ 2:22!!!
We be loving some Frank in here!
Who wouldn't?
Plus, it's Frankenday today!
From now on, Monday's can be Mayoday. Wednesday's are Frankenday.
See, Mayo. I can be a good PROTOCTOR for you! You have your own day now!
Yay, go Princess Smoke!
Martha, good one.
I can't think of anything. I'm not clever enough in that department.
PH -
*hugz* for infinity!!!!
Now, top that SmellySock10!
What I want to know is, who the fuck is this little cunt anon (posted at 1:30 PM) who keeps posting everywhere. Who the fuck are you to make any fucking comments unless your fucking Gerard yourself.
I wonder what kind of fucking fat virgin you must be, making comments about Lyn-Z. What do you want do honey, lick her or something? I mean the way you keep making comments about how beautiful she is, it sounds like your in love with her yourself. I bet you give anything to push Gerard out of the way just to get a chance to lick her twat just once, huh?...
P.S. I apologize to the other blog users for my language (I'm truly sorry) but this needed to be said. Oh, by the way don't you think you'll ever get old you little shit, I'd love to see this little cunt rag with the droopiest skin and call your stupid ass a fucking horse/cow.
And by way, what's with the farm animal references? Your into that too huh? I knew it, that's what you do right, fucking beasts all the time, that's your specialty. Huh? BITCH!!!!
Hey Smoke! *HUG*
How are you today?
Frakenday? I love it!
Mayoday is very clever as well! ;)
Oooh good one S&V!
How about
hugs for infinity plus a million? =]
*HUG*
it would say that pumpkin pie quote of his or I had a quickie wedding back stage and all I got was this stupid apron.
Whoah-willie.
Martha, again good one!! =]
Anonymous, I just read that comment at 1:30..
I am speechless actually..
What would Gee's apron say?
I'm the Queen of this fucking kitchen!
Anon @ 2:46 I don't mind your language. In fact you made my day. By the way Friday is now Fuckday or Fuckfestday.
I'm sorry, I hate to get this vulgar, but this little teeny has had it coming for days now...
One word Mayo. or queen of FF07
Martha you are on a roll. I like the wedding one myself.
Anonymous, I don't mind your language either.
It helps to swear.
=]
Need a football, anon @ 2:52?
Cause Dr. Nut's got a whole bowl full.
Doesn't it.
My computer is acting up so I will be back in 20
Martha, I will be leaving in about 5 minutes, so heres a hug!! *HUG*
Bye!
Bye Bye Paper. Have a great fuckin' day
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