If you consider my intention was to assemble you here, and then rip you apart, merely to revel in your dichotomy...well then, you have not heard me at all. I will not strike the match, but you hold the bucket. Is it full of water, or shit?
p.s. allow your wisdom, wit, worry, and wonder to punch, provoke, purchase, and profess.
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may you take this;with you in spirit.
speaking is not always right
silence is not always wrong
I agree,if this is your position:
you cannot win a war with someone if you fight every battle to the death.
best to you and your wisdom;for choosing the right battles.
`sc
Dear friends
i find myself here once again,
round and round we go,
feelings of love,dissapointment,disgust,admiration,loss,determination,bitterness.
but mostly love,
here we go again.
m.
m,
We care so much about this band, we care so much about each other.
We will ALWAYS stay true. We will not renege on our word.
Dear anon
thank you for your words of comfort,
should i seek solace in you ?
m.
m,
You can seek solace with all of us.
We will be here until the end.
Hello M.
I think the majority of us feel the same way as you.
Yesterday was a ball of emotions. But in the end, we as a family, still came out strong.
So I either missed M again or he just doesn't care about anything I say.
Oh well...it's like my real life.
Anyway, for those of you still here, good morning! I'll be making my 30 mins drive out to work in just a little bit and I'll only be happy about it because I'll be drinking a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks.
SS,dont pull that inspirit" crap, come and hang out somtimes, yeah? Look, I hope you read those messages I wrote to you; both were very arrogant and intrusivebut still importnt.
Hey, my keyboard seems a little better right now. Hmm. Actually I think it's more to do with thcomputer and not so much the keyboard, because thi is the third one in about 30 days. >_>
ell, I'm off to work, so all of you have a great day, huh? All of you. I will not be able to sneak onlin at work anymore to check or to post, so 'll talk to you all later. ^_^
Dearest anon,
the end ??
m.
hi magic pie and mysterious anons :) how are you? im feeling the love here today :)
magic pie
emotions indeed
complicated things
m.
K, are you talking about SS's new location?
I'm pretty disappointed with it too. At first the little notes to us were good but it would be nice to have a conversation with him.
Magic Pie said...
So I either missed M again or he just doesn't care about anything I say.
Oh well...it's like my real life.
lmao!!!!! bless you magic pie. i know how that feels :) thanks for making me chuckle :)
M, Thank you for letting me know that my posts are not vain this morning.
hugs to you, shame in me!
magic pie
more than welcome my dear
m.
P.S CATCH YOU LATER ??
Are you ok today m? I very much hope so dear :)
Catch me later indeed, my friend.
Shame in me, I'm just dandy this morning...just not wanting to go to my evil call center job.
How are you doing today?
Crap, the clock is ticking and I must be on my way!
hahaha just realized that you wrote "M" and not "MP". Oh I'm a blind one this morning! lol
Well fuck.... my head is reeling.
I've been watching this blog for quite some time, never commenting, just observing, but now I feel the time has come to say something.
MAYO, I adore you sweetie, really I do, and have done unconditionally for quite some time now.
Smiles and tears, I've been watching with all the other people who are devoted to a man we barely know.
I want to say something to you, if you are in fact Mr Way.
GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS!
Worse things have happened, take it from me sweets, you've had it fucking easy.
Coke? Booze? Pills? Self harm? it's all bad, but it can all be fixed, and support goes a long way.
Spare a thought for those who have NO ONE.
I know it's hard, I know, but come on!
You have hundreds of people, thousands, caring and listening, wishing they could heal you.
They'd do anything, the poor bastards.
If life sucks change it.
If it rocks, then what the hell are you doing on here spending time with strangers?
Recreation? surely newlywed sex is better.
Still somehow loving, miss newbie.XX
hello newbie welcome to the wonderful world of mayo hehe please fasten your seatbelt it is sure to be a bumpy ride hahaa
Dear m,
We do not want an "end" to anything. But this may be out of our control.
So we wait.
have a nice day magic pie!!! remember least you have a job im being layed off from mine today :( boo!!!
listen to anon M, time is a virtue and also a healer please remember that
Thanks for the welcome shame in me, I'm sure this will be a trip to remember.
I must say I feel like a bit of a cow for my last post, but I'm a moody one, and have a penchant for ass kicking.
But really I'm brimming with love for Mayo, and everyone on here! XD
Mayo,
Hello today, my friend. How are you feeling today? I am finding things to be really chaotic this magnificent Thursday. Some of my best work comes when I just babble and freestyle so here goes.
If you remember, last night I was begging for sleep to find me. Well it did just that. And since dreams seem to be the going theme in here these days, please humble me and listen while I tell mine. In my dream, I was dreaming that I was throwing the biggest trantrum I had ever thrown. Out of control, screaming "GOD DAMNIT!" over and over. Breaking things. Spilling Things. Complete destruction. Did it feel good? Maybe a little. Was it frightening? Definitely. So in my 'dream', I finally wake up and when I do, I find out that it wasn't a 'dream' at all. Shit was lying around everywhere. Shattered glass and plastic pieces. One big mess. Liquids on the floor. I felt like I was about to puke and I was shaking right to the core. I had done all this? My hands did this? My words did this? How terribly sad...When I finally woke up for real, I was so relieved to find that is was just a dream. That I still had a chance to stop myself from doing all those things. Crazy, huh? Yeah, I know, I know, but dreams usually don't mess with my head like this, so I thought I would share it with you.
Now, can I go back to that back pocket reference one more time? I've decided that it might not be a bad gig. I wouldn't be seen and I could give you a big kick in the ass whenever you needed it. And as a side bonus, I could tell you when those pants aren't really so fresh anymore. Awwh come on, just a little early morning humor on my end to lighten the mood.
Also, Thank you again for compelling me to spill. I never knew that my guts could be so pretty spread out on paper. It's almost like ...art?
I leave you now with this. May your universe revolve around you at just the right speed today and may everything go according to plan. Wait, NO!! Not that plan, THE OTHER PLAN...Damn, you scared me there for a second!
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. sometimes they come true
awww thats so sweet, dont worry about being moody, just say what you have too, everyone else does.
Everyone pretty much has each others backs aswell so no need to worry its a big happy family here.
As for mayo, yeah im in love with his verse although i dont usually say that around here oops haha. i have a penchant for the mysterious whether he is gerard way or not remains to be seen but im liking mayo
Morning sdock!!! interesting dream :) hope you are well and smiling today
G'Morning Shame,
How are you?
I think it's going to be an interesting day.
Well, I'm off to at least try and get some work done.
Catch ya'll later.
Good morning fellow bloggers.
Mayo, how are you this morning? I'm fine, just burnt my hand on my hair straightener. Ouch, that hurt like a mother fucker. I think I was rushing to get it done. I learned, just by that burn, that you can never rush too quickly in life. You have to take it slowly.
"feelings of love,dissapointment,disgust,admiration,loss,determination,bitterness.
but mostly love,
here we go again."
m, I am sorry that you feel disappointed and disgusted. I love you too sweetie. I am determined as well. Determined to figure out all of these riddles and determined to get through to Mayo.
Can I just say that you made quite a few spelling errors? You have always been a good speller.. this pickles me.
Oh well, can't hold it against you.
All my love;
-007
P.S. I forgot to give everyone here a hug!! *HUG*
Hugs not drugs, remember that.
I am quite the hug whore=]
Toujours, thanks for all the hugs last night after I left! =]
It's actually a nice blog to lurk on, there's a sense of warmth and community...
Plenty of strong, wonderful women who I've come to look up to (though I'm not quite a baby myself)
Welcome Newbie! *HUG*
Morning shame in me!=]
For those with faith, no explanation is necessary. For those without, no explanation is possible. -Thomas Aquinas
Just one last thought....
...Faith, Hope, & Love
Living this way will probably send me to an early grave, but at least I will have lived. And perhaps on my journey, I will have shown someone else how to as well.
Always,
S
paperheartxx! Thanks for the hug, you're such a doll!
Welcome Newbie - Think you're gonna like it here.
Anytime Newbie! =]
When I say "Newbie", I feel like I am insulting you, even though it's the name you gave yourself!
Goodmorning Elena! =]
*hug*
LOL I watch too much scrubs, hence the name newbie!
Hi elena! XX
Any ideas what can I re- name myself?
SS,
I noticed you changed your location to
"With you in spirit - always"
Please note that Paperheartxx is with you in spirit all the time, and if you ever feel a random hug out of no where, that is me=]
If you ever need me, I will be sitting in your sweater/jacket pocket. =]
*hug*
I have nothing newbie=[
I'm bad at choosing names!
Hmmm I'm wracking my tiny brain... I like cup cakes... so, from henceforth, I shall be known as.... CUPCAKE!
:O Sounds good!
Cupcake..
I love it!
I make pretty delicious cupcakes!=]
From henceforth! oh the redundancy! *blushes*
Adsum, quod me vocavistis!
Amicus libenter venit!
Cupcakes ay?..... I could really do with a cupcake... hint hint!
Hug right back to you paper
Cupcake - excellent choice.
Ahh,
Anonymous, I am no good at Latin. Unfortunately, they don't offer the language at my school. Would you care to translate? Want to know what I got from some website, which I'm sure will make you giggle.. ?
"To assist , and me vocavistis! Male friend willingly came!"
See, I am no good at this!
Cupcake, would you like a cupcake?
*pulls one out of pocket*
You are lucky I keep a spare one with me everywhere I go! =]
Is anyone planning on helping PH?
I'll give you a cookie! Or a back rub, oooor I'll sing you a song!
To assist , and me vocavistis! Male friend willingly came!
Well hell that doesnt' seem quite right. Sorry that's the best traslation I could come up with.
Ughh I have to go do my make-up.
No one can see me without my mask on.
Must hide the hideous beast. =]
Jokes.
I'll be back in 10 minutes, and there better be a translation!
=]
All my love;
-007
anon@7:19
Thanks for the heads up.
I remember last time all hell broke loose. It wasn't held back at all. We all felt the sting even though it wasn't aimed at us.
*takes cupcake eagerly* Thank you paperheartxx! Just what I needed!
"To assist , and me vocavistis! Male friend willingly came!"
Ahahahaha, surely that's not it... although the world would be a better place if it was! XD
Haha Elena, that's what I got as well! =]
It doesn't make sense, making me think that we both have very bad Latin translation skills! =]
lol
*HUG*
BE BACK IN 10 MINUTES!=] If I'm not, then I was abducted by aliens and whisked away to school.
hey paper heart :) How are you?
im fine thanx sdock, hope you have an enjoyable day.
Neqbie i think you should be called after your favourite lyric?
Im shame in me because my favourite Alice in chains song is shame in you and well i changed it to shame in me because it is fitting for me i guess :)
My favorite lyrics.... Possibly 'The resolute urgency of now'.... I just <3 Smashing pumpkins!
But cupcake is shorter!
cupcake is cute :) i like it short and sweet and yummy :) hehe
hello elena :) how are you this morning?
mmmmmmm cupcakes!
welcome!
Damn time differences, I must sadly leave! I live in the land of OZ, and here it's 1am... usually I'm up later, believe it or not, but tonight/this morning, I'm far too tired, and my head feels like Pete Dougherty has been partying in there! O_O oh snap!
Hey Shame in Me,
I am back for a minute, but I see no translation yet?! =]
SS, you have mad Latin skills, care to translate? =]
Anyways, I have to go to school.
Love you all!=]
*HUG*
All my love;
-007
SS's new location:
"With you in spirit-always"
Thank you SS. And you will be here to provide support and understanding?
Sweet Dreams Cupcake!=]
P.S. I'll give you another cupcake later on today! *HUG*
Thanks magic pie! XX
Anonymous said...
Adsum, quod me vocavistis!
Amicus libenter venit!
November 8, 2007 1:35 PM
Translation?! =]
Please. I've been dying for the translation all morning!! =]
Adsum:
"I am present."
The other stuff, I don't know. Google's being an ass.
Bye bye paperheartxx! thank you for making me feel so welcome!
xo
sadly, Starbucks didn't have any pumpkin spice lattes. BUT I did get a gingerbread latte!
Roughly translated, isn't it: "I called for assistance and you all came"?
I did Latin GCSE but that was a while back...
I am here. Those of you who have called out to me, I gladly call you friends.
or something like that
Those five semesters of latin are finally paying off.
Roughly translated, isn't it: "I called for assistance and you all came"?
- Hmmm interesting! what a bad time for sleep to take hold!
Well, so long and goodnight!
xx
SS is that you?
Big hugs and lots of love.
Obviously I suck at translation
Good morning everyone. Hi Mustard, looks like I missed you last night. Nice to see you!
I had trouble getting to sleep last night. I was seriously worried about our Anon/SS friend. So much was going through my mind. Strange to feel worry for an almost 'virtual' friend. But nonetheless, I am refreshed and at work. I will be in and out today. Lots to do.
I see SS is still with us. I am so happy.
Oh and our Ghost BM who answered my question yesterday...., it finally dawned on me. Could it be our long lost Used friend? Hmmm...
Yeah well, I got a headache today. I’m pissed off. I don’t know what the hell is going on and my computer at home will not load all the comments much less let me post a comment. Oh well, better late than never.
Regarding Frank:
It is his right to like whomever he damn well pleases. Judge not lest you be judged, right? I’m sorry but the man did not deserve to be slammed for stating an opinion just because you don’t agree with him. That was wrong. We sit here and tell everyone their opinions are welcome and then the one person that we all have claimed to love so much was torn to pieces. Think about it.
To SS,
I am truly sorry if I offended you in any way. Regardless of who you are, you have been nothing but nice and a ray of hope every time you paid us a visit. Hypocrisy? We all go there from time to time. I probably visit more than I care to admit. Please accept my apology.
To Mayo,
Again, I don’t know you either. Don’t claim to. Doesn’t really matter. I still stand by what I said to you earlier. I believe your feelings have changed and you never expected what has taken place here. You never thought we would stick around but yet here we are. You have allowed us to come here and freely give our opinions and comments to you and to each other. You have given me a place to come and forget my real life for a while and to focus on someone that I don’t even know. This place has brought together some of the most caring and intelligent people have ever/never met. That, my friend, is priceless.
To the rest of you here,
Love you bunches and bunches. Stop and think before you speak and always remember to keep fighting the good fight.
XOXO
S&V20
Sometimes college doesn't always suck, no?
5 semesters, you say?
Do you enjoy the language?
Anima:
I wasn't on last night, but Hi!
Last nights events made me pissy. I hung it up early.
just poking my nose in.
hello all!
morning, faraway!
Mustard, you made the comment about this being all a little too "real." (I think it was you). That is exactly how I was feeling yesterday. It kind of freaked me out. When SS deleted everything off of his blog, I really felt like a friend of mine had passed away. I was really relieved to see he hasn't left us completely. I hope he is feeling much better today.
How is everyone today? Hi Magic, Smoke, our new friend Cupcake, Anon, and Faraway. Lovely to see all of you.
its afternoon here magic pie. but good anyway.
And of course, hello dear Mayo. How are you today? I hope you have not left us. We are still here for you. Always.
s&v20,
Obviously it's his right to like whoever he pleases, but it comes across like an animal rights campaigner wearing a fur coat, when you consider all the 'let's kick the bigotry out of music' stuff that's been preached by the band in the past.
That's what hurts, not what's on Frank's iPod...
hi anima and anyone else!
hello anima!
far away, it's 9:49am here. I wish it was the afternoon...I'd almost be done work!
Oh, and hellos to anima, faraway & magic pie.
Are you the Magic Pie from the Oasis song?
Hi anima :) how are you? think i am gonna be getting to bed. Nite all :)
well i know i didn't sign in for a reason cos i'm off now. gotta go pick my kids up from school. will try and pop in later.
bye for now.
Hello Faraway, MP, and Kass.
I hope all of you are doing well.
Anima:
That was me and what you felt is exactly what I was feeling. It's like this is some other reality. And whomever SS or Mayo may be, they still find this important enough to be sticking around ("this" meaning the band and everything that goes with it). That's why I feel it has become real. There's real people on the other end of my screen. You all are real, SS and Mayo are real, the multitude of Anons are real.
It's just so much to try to comprehend.
The only thing I've yet to figure out is if we're actually talking with members of the band.
And that would be entirely too real. And I'd probably shit my pants because of some of the stuff I've said on here. Wouldn't THAT be something?
Adsum, quod me vocavistis!
Amicus libenter venit!
your spirit is an inspiration, and to be considered your friend is a true honor.
you are truly one of the great gifts of this blog.
(stealing a page out of paperheartxx's book)
*hug!*
Thanks for that Toujours.
A true gift indeed.
I knew you would not leave.
..faith, hope, & love.
Always,
S
P.S. Holding on until the rope is ripped from my cold, dead hands.
So far away, yet so close.
Thanks Toujours,
I knew my Latin was crappy. Curse the Romans and their need for actual grammar....
oh!
i wasn't translating the latin -- is that what you thought? is that why the thank you's?
i was responding to it, and the translation of it from the anon @ 2:20.
mustard, it's good to see you -- are you feeling better? is the reality of this place less overwhelming now?
Curse the Romans and their need for actual grammar....
lol, kass79! i have to admit, my grasp on latin is just enough to be able to really mistranslate. it's good to have someone with actual knowledge of the language around! :)
TJ
I like what you wrote. That was beautiful.
That other Latin had already been somewhat translated.
Hi Kass79, Shame in Me, Sdock, and TJ. Goodbye Faraway.
Mustard, EXACTLY!!!
SS you are such a sweetheart. The feeling is mutual.
Ha! TJ, I thought you were re-translating it. Too funny. I was a bit confused. :)
Hello all Had to leave for a bit but I'm back now. How is everyone feeling today?
sdock, thank you. that's a lovely compliment, since i always find your comments to be so eloquent.
anima, not you, too?! oh dear! i really should have included the translation in my comment, as well, huh?
*knocks self on wooden head*
alas. it's time for me to get my ass off this chair and get it out the door. with mayo's new usual time of posting, i'll probably miss the new entry, too. *pouts*
unless...
a-ha! i'm going to try to sneak onto a computer at work. yessss. *rubs hands*
er, mayo? if you would, would you post on the hour, to lessen my chances of discovery? maybe?
well, as you will, of course. :)
cheerio, everyone! see you all later! thanks again for the compliments! i go to work all warm & fuzzy now!
*huuugs!*
hey elena,
I've got 40 minutes to go at work, I'm on a post-coffee low and people keep sending me links to the ultra-gross internet video of the moment...
Good morning/afternoon/evening to all who are here in both body and spirit.
I'm feeling a little down today, mostly because I hurt the feelings of someone I've grown to love and respect oh so much since this whole mess started.
Again, SS, Frank, Anonymous, "With You In Spirit Always", whatever you would like to go by, I'm so very sorry if I hurt you. I wouldn't have done it for the world. My temper has always been flash-fire, and it's gotten me in trouble in the past, pre-Prozac.
Your sweet nature, your tender heart, your forgiving soul are precious gifts that you willingly share with everyone. Even those who don't deserve them. Maybe yesterday I was one of those people. Hopefully today I am not.
I cried yesterday, for so many things. For so many people. You, your friend, us, myself. Didn't really make me feel any better, though. The issues still prowl through our fortress, seeking a toehold by any means possible. They're looking for the chinks in the armor, the cracks they can ooze through to get to us.
I know that you will come back when you're ready, when you feel stronger. I for one will be here, waiting for your brilliant smile, caustic wit, and sometimes-untranslatable Latin. I will also be waiting with my arms held open, in order to embrace you tightly and say, "I'm sorry for hurting you. Will you forgive me?"
Take care today and every day.
My heart to yours, always. I love you.
J.
Hey Kass, I'm sitting here drinking coffee and wondering just what the world would be like without the stuff. (That's a very bad thought)
I could survive without coffee (I'm not addicted, honest), but I'm not sure our poor boys could if you've ever seen the clip on LOTMS!
It's my Dad's English tea I couldn't live without.
Hello originalpunks. Bringing back the poetic to the blog...
anima said...
((Oh and our Ghost BM who answered my question yesterday...., it finally dawned on me. Could it be our long lost Used friend? Hmmm...))
Well Mayo himself said 'wrong ghost' when we thought the ghost he was talking about may have been Bert. Probably another anon messing with us.
J - Don't beat yourself up about this. In my heart I know he understands. That's just the kind of person he is and isn't that a wonderful thing.
Kass it's very sad but if I don't have my Starbucks coffee at least once a day I'm not a nice person at all. They know me so well at my local store they usually have it ready for me before I get to the counter. I need help!!
I live 15 miles from my nearest Starbucks and I got such bad espresso-frap cravings I cycled over last weekend, only to find them closed for refurbishment. If I felt like crying does that mean I really am addicted?
Sadly I also HAD to check out the original Starbucks when I last went to Seattle...
I have often wondered if I should pay homage to the original Starbucks with a visit. Yeah we got it bad.
Bellatrix said...
It doesn't seem so....:(
Anyway if anybody happens lurking on Mayo, would you please post there for me the translation of anon's Latin? My computer is too slow! Thank you!
"Adsum, quod me vocavistis!
Amicus libenter venit!"
“Here I am, seeing you called me!
The friend came with pleasure!"
Ps.:Hope it’s correct….Love to you SS….
Thanks again!
Bye everybody! see you later! *HUGS*
I would love to go the original Starbucks just to see how good it smells. Coffee is one of my favorite scents.
How is everybody today?
"Adsum, quod me vocavistis!
Amicus libenter venit!"
I am here. Those of you who have called out to me, I gladly call you friends.
Imagine: to never feel comfortable in your own skin, to have a heart full of love to give but to not be able to love yourself, to always be afraid of failure so much so that you don't even try, to be so untrusting that you keep everyone at a safe distance, to have hurt so many people that you loved so much that you pushed them so far away that they will never come back, to get so tired of hearing your own voice that you'll do anything to silence it, to have an emptiness, a void inside that no matter what you do to fill it, you know never be satisfied, to wonder if you are crazy all the time, to be lonely in a crowd of thousands or your own family. Now imagine you grow up to be president, a mother, a husband, a doctor, a psychiatrist, or maybe even a guitarist for a successful rock band. Those demons still have their ways of creeping in on your life no matter how hard you try and overcome.
Hi Star,
I'm a cheery soul because I'm free and I'm going home, via the accursed gym (just because I exercise doesn't mean I love it!)
Have a splendid evening everyone!
Kassanova xx
Oh my goodness!
Someone is quoting sdock10 again.
Anonymous said...
"Adsum, quod me vocavistis!
Amicus libenter venit!"
I am here. Those of you who have called out to me, I gladly call you friends.
Aside from the Latin, what does this all mean?
Why do you think we have all assembled here?
-Amyranth
Those are some VINTAGE sdock10 quotes too.
Anon at 4:53
sounds more like the singer of a band to me...
just sayin
Hey Amy and Sdock good to see you both here.
anon @ 4:53, i've felt many of those things as well. it's why we all feel so comfortable here, i suspect.
my heart goes out to you. you know you're not alone here.
G'morning to all who are here.
Hopefully you're all feeling better today?
So, yesterday.
Completely understandable, with all the emotion. Thought of a few more things last night when I couldn't sleep, because my fucking brain wouldn't shut up. Not posting them here, there's no point. Will FINALLY shut up and go back into lurk mode.
Take care, everybody.
Anonymous said...
Anon at 4:53
sounds more like the singer of a band to me...
just sayin
The anon is quoting me.
Umm, I wrote that like WAAAY back in the day.
sdock, your words are always so insightful, it's like you speak for all of us, sometimes, you know? this is just another example of that, i think.
Hey Elena and everyone else,
How are ya'll doing?
I'm good, Sdock10. How's it going by you?
fooey fooey fooey!
i really can't stay. must earn my pay. :(
maybe i can sneak on again...
Hi Elena, just popping in for a bit before I go to work.
Finally got my cellphone cancelled!!!
-Amyranth
Toujours, every blog is blocked at my job. You're lucky you can sneak on!
Hi Baroness,
I'm ok, just keep wondering why anon keeps quoting me. It's a little weird. Oh well, oh well.
Bye Bye Toujours Hello Star
sdock you have such a beautiful way with words...
Sdock10,
I think you're being quoted because you have the talent of being able to put into words sentiments and feelings that are hard to explain.
Thanks so much for all your kind thoughts and words. Half the time I just feel like I am babbling incoherently and the only one I make sense to is myself. Sometimes, I get lucky and it makes sense to everyone.
Hey elena!
How is everything going?
Well, Sdock, it always makes sense to me!
Anon,
I completely apologize. I understand now. Words have a funny way of changing meaning...
Forgive me......
always,
S
Sdock, what are you apologizing for? Your words were beautiful. Who do you think it is that is quoting you?
anima,
Sometimes I should just let the words speak and shut the fuck up. It's my own insecurity and self doubt that messes everything up. It doesn't matter who is quoting me.
I just realized it was stupid to make a big deal about it. My words mean different things to different people and I should feel proud of that and let it go.
Am I alone? SS, are you here? If so how are you doing today? I hope you are feeling better. I couldn't stop thinking about you last night.
Star things are great with me today. How about you?
Sdock, you should feel proud. I am always inspired by the things you write and you have a way of saying things that I am unable to express. You have a wonderful gift.
anima,
Thank you again. Who knew that all those voice in my head had so much to say and could somewhat make sense?
I'm slowing learing how to let it all go.....It's frightening.
A new mayo blog people.
anon,
My demons find me every single day. I'm close personal friends with all of them...self doubt, insecurity, fear, addiction.
Hi Little Demons, I see you over there!! You guys leave me the fuck alone today! You are going to cause me to fuck something up!
We all struggle...nobody is perfect. I don't we ever completely overcome or conquer. We just put those demons to bed for awhile and hope they don't wake up.
Kass 79, yes my name is from an Oasis song.
Sdock, I love you.
I LOVE You too....
Always,
S
Sorry mayo coming late to the party and gatecrashing your page again. I'm a bit of a lone ranger and have a habit of dropping and running.
I must admit I cruised your newest blog first. Keep looking at that window reflection. It's the real you, your inner core, and you know it.
But others are always attracted to the bright and sparkling alterego. As much as it kicks in the gut, and you would possibly like to be that onshow individual, the conscience of the inner person fights to say 'what about me? Do I have to be this fake bright thing for the rest of my life?Would they still value me and find me as entertaining?' Maybe not all would. But you would build up and maintain a deeper relationship with those that stayed. Then maybe you can work on a more gentle progression to a slightly more extroverted individual. Because at the moment the show no longer stops when the showman walks off the stage does it? It's a crap deal.
But there are no excuses for that bright, sparkling thing dragging others down. They don't belong in that hole that is being dug. Let's hope when the fat lady sings, and the hole is filled by her capacious butt, the victims of the bright thing have found their way out.
But why I really came over here to sling my gun...
To SS.
Not judging here. A bit surprised maybe. At least you tried. It might have been the lesser of the two evils but it still sounds like you've been compromised. There's an 'I understand' hug waiting from a smelly possum if paths are ever crossed.
Can someone tell me who this "SS" you all keep referring to is?
- Shae
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