I was thinking that perhaps I should take some time to adjust my rear view mirror. You are all gaining on me, and I need to clear some space. If you catch me, will you tear me apart, bit by bit?
All I ask is that you please leave something for which the authorities can use to identify me. I don’t give a fuck how they dispose of me when they are done.
Be truthful, do I look pretty held up for the light to shine through?
p.s. taking refuge in the palms and familiar faces of those I love.
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I'm sure you can stay one step ahead.
No one has really caught you yet have they?
But the fun is in the chase.
All I ask is that you please leave something for which the authorities can use to identify me.
Your paranoia, persecution complex and astounding lack of class have all been easily recognizable lately. Do you think that will be enough to identify you?
Quit adjusting your rear view mirror, Pretty Boy. You're gonna crash up ahead.
Caution:
Things in this mirror may be closer than they appear
Good grief, where is all this venom coming from? He's a rock star people. He sings on stage and makes a show of himself. That's how it works. If you are that upset with him, how about you get your own life and leave the poor guy alone?
So you promise to "astound and amaze", do you?
How about bore and repel?
Sometimes pretty isn't good enough, O Master of Bullshit. Your hypocrisy shows how ugly you're becoming on the inside.
Surely the authorities will be able to identify you via the tacky Sharpie markings on your skin. You can keep your dick, too, since you seem to enjoy playing with it so much lately.
Take a walk with me down the long and winding road,Mayonaise.May you linger and hear the bells toll for thee.
http://forwhomthebellstoll.blogspot.com
What would happen if your car broke down?
Not everyone is against you, please remember that. Look how this all came to be; "loveman" made a blog that was clearly horrible and those that wanted to hear about your supposed distruction jumped in right along. Now that you and your beautiful wife came out to defend against it. Those that wanted to believe in it came against you here and again decided to rip you a new one.
I and many others stick by you as the lovely person I know you are and always will be.
Do not let the words these people write crush you.... you are right, seeking refuge with those that you love is exactly where you need to be. I believe that when others take time to blast someone that they are probably pointing the finger at themself and something lacking in their own lives.
Thank you for coming here to fight against "loveman" in the first place. I'm sad that you have had to defend yourself against the masses. Please come back and share with us; share with those who do care about you. You will always have me and many others on your side.
Regardless, take care. Enjoy the beauty that is your marriage and your family.
P.S. I do think you are pretty when the light is shown through. You are one of the few.
To the person above me,
You have right to you're opinion, but please, don't boast his fucking ego even more. He's a big headed little shit as it is, he doesn't need to be called pretty.
^I believe in the soul of the person he is. That is what pretty is, not looks. He is refering to his inner self in that question. Yes, I do believe he is "pretty" on the inside. Always have. Just because someone makes a few mistakes or misjudgements does not make him or her a horrible person as all you are making him out to be.
Take a look at yourself. How do you think you look on the inside? Are you proud?
If you are reffereing to his soul or his face, you are still complementing him nad fanning his ego. I used to think he had a beuatiful soul, but with his recent actions (drinking again, using drugs again, fighting on stage with Frank, using and treting women like disposible knapkins) has make me think that everything that his manipulative man has ever said or done was nothing but a fucking lie for propaganda. Now, I think that neither his soul or face is pretty. As for mistakes - well everyone can do thoses, nobody is perfect but instead of rubbing it in his fan's faces the way he has he should try redemtion. Fans can make you or break you Mr Way, don't you know that?
Add for the record, no, I don't like what I see when I look at myself. Does anybody?
I agree. Gerard doesn't appeal to me anymore. I used to think he was very beautiful, but I realize now that it was his message I thought was beautiful. Now that he's abandoned that sweet and honest and sincere message, all I can see is the mess he has become. His disrespect towards women, the tacky way he conducts himself lately, and his hypocrisy have taken away his beauty.
That doesn't just happen with rock stars or people you put on a pedestal, it happens with people you can meet in your own circle as well.
That's the way it goes.
Maybe those faces in the rear view mirror are those of your own demons hunting you down. Afterall, you can't run from yourself.
Be careful, I just passed you on the freeway and you had quite a crowd of nasty monsters behind you! Please pay attention to all those road signs.
By the way, how is sleep these days? Do you still feel someone gripping your throat? Do you still need a night light? Do you still check under the bed? Don't forget the closet!
Night, night! Sleep tight!
Those familiar faces, would that be Mr. Dickle and Mr. Daniels????
Are you ready to Tanqueray?
For those of you that don't know, LEARN.
***FUCK! I forgot to get hand sanitizer!!!!******
Gerard, I'm going to assume that these words will fall on deaf ears for now. But I hope that some part of your subconscious will store them away, so that they will one day be helpful to you - if for no other reason than you will know that no matter what happens you will always have someone out in the world who unselfishly, wants only the best for you and prays for well being every night.
Please just hear me out before you decide if you want to listen to what I have to say or delete these heartfelt words and advice.
I understand that you having a rough year. A lot of things have happened that freaked you out; your younger brother Mikey getting married then leaving you alone on tour, the guys are paired off while you are alone. I don't know what Eliza did, but I can see that she hurt you deeply. Then of course you turned 30 and believe me; I know how scary that can be.
I've watched you from a distance, begin to spiral down into depression. I've seen you try to hide behind a mask of fake happiness over the course of Projekt Revolution. I've seen you reach out in desperation for anything that will dull the inner pain and quiet the voices that beat you down daily inside your head.
I see all of this because I went through in 2005 and 2006. I turned 30, my mother who was also my best friend passed away suddenly at the age of 51 (21 years older than me, how scary is that?). The bills piled up, the money fell short. My senile grandmother could not be left alone, which meant I couldn't work and had to drop out of school. The house was in danger of foreclosure. Everything piled up on me at once, causing a deep, deep, deep depression.
I made stupid choices. I was out of control, suicidal and harming myself. I also entered into a relationship that quite frankly was very destructive and stupid. At the time I thought that it would solve all my problems. I wore the 'I'm okay' mask and constantly defended my decisions against my friends who saw more of the pain I was in than I realized. I wore myself out, trying to convince them and myself that I was happy.
But as you know, no matter how hard you try to pretend, that pain doesn't go away and neither does that voice telling you that what you are doing is wrong. Alcohol won't silence it, drugs won't numb it and denial won't kill it.
What helped me was getting some distance and quiet, away from everything. At that time, I looked over the past 11 months and really saw how ridiculous I was acting. I ended that destructive relationship and here's a bit of irony for you; I kept your words, which you had written, in my mind as I began to heal.
I'm not afraid to keep on living
I'm not afraid to walk this world alone.
I took those words to heart and they became a daily mantra to me, as I learned to like myself again. You also became my inspiration for my sobriety
I shared that with you, for two reasons; one, so maybe in some way it helps you and two, I want you to understand why I will stick by you and not 'tear you apart', at this time, I think you need all the support you can get. When I needed it, you were there, indirectly of course, inspiring me and encouraging me. But let me clarify, I do not see you as a hero, you are just a man. I don't think you are perfect because no one is. I see you as flawed human being, who has overcome many obstacles and has a beautiful heart and great strength. You might feel kind of defeated, but I have faith in you, that you will once again, pick yourself up and dust yourself off and move forward.
I just want you to know that, being 30 and single is not the end of the world. I promise. You will find love, but it won't be under the first rock you look under. It takes time. Most importantly, I've learned that you have to love yourself first. Because if you don't love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to love you? I'm pretty sure that deep in your heart, you know your recent 'marriage' was just a band-aid for a wound that needs a hell of lot more than a teeny tiny band-aid. It is not a cure all, and in the long run it will only add to the pain you are already feeling.
I will stop here and leave you with one last piece of advice. Listen. Listen to your friends and loved ones. Not the brand new ones, but the ones that have been there with you all along. The ones that know you best. I know it's hard to hear the truth you are trying so desperately to ignore, but keep in mind that these people love you and want only the best for you. They see more than you think they do. They see through your charade. And remember, when everything falls apart, they will be there for you.
Be safe, Gerard. I pray that you find yourself again and find joy in life again. Take some time to breathe and relax. And remember, 30 is not old. I promise.
Anonymous, I agree with you so hard on all of those sentiments.
I'm not convinced that this blog is written by Gerard. Could be some stupid fan who just wants us to think we're talking to him. Nonetheless, it's become kind of an outlet, a way for I think pretty much everyone on here to say things that they really want to say. I've said from the beginning, even on other people's blogs, that if nothing else this entire debacle has created a way for different people to relate to the situation, or to other people. So if this is not Gerard Way's blog (and I really don't think it is, seriously what are the chances?) then whoever is letting people think it is is acting like a dickweed, but at least some of us are talking. Right?
I'm really so sorry that you lost your Mom. My Mom is my best friend, too and I don't even know what I would do without her. But I know how you were feeling, going through that thing with turning 30, watching younger friends and relatives get married and start to breed, while you are all alone. I went down that same road when I was 30 and dated some pretty seriously messed up boys for a while. Then at 32, I just let go of all of that stuff, stepped back, and decided to be alone for however long that took.
I am still single but I find that I am kind of in love with being single at the moment. It's such a nice feeling to not depend on someone else to define me, to make me feel happy or complete. That was why those same lyrics "I am not afraid to walk this world alone" meant so much to me when I heard them.
Even though the man who wrote them doesn't live by them and the song is sort of ruined for me in a way, the lyrics were there when I needed them.
30 really isn't old, not at all. Age isn't numbers, it is about how much you've lived, how you feel, where you are. And even if 30 was old, so what? Why is there such a stigma attached to being unmarried at any age?
Anyway, I tend to write novels instead of notes. Point is, you're pretty cool and I agree with the things you said.
Kapunua, I'm not 100% convinced it's Gerard either, but I thought I would say what I had to say in case it is.
I'm still single too and I agree with you on how nice it is.
I think your pretty cool too.
For all of you who say you have lost faith in Gerard because of his recent behavior, did it ever occur to you that he might be doing it on purpose? How long did he keep saying he is just a regular guy and not a hero? No one would listen and just continued to worship him. What better way to get people to stop than to act like a total dick? Just a thought!
By the way, there is no way in hell this is his blog!
To Anonymous at 9/9/07 1:44pm
I love you! My heart goes out to you and everything you said is so sincere you made me care for you and still care about Gerard. You made me connect to the good person he still is just by you pointing out, quite eloquently, that he is troubled and flawed. Seeing that you have went through similar things even worse, I respect you very much. I hope life brings you tons of happiness from now on.
I guess I am angry at Gerard because I identify so much with him. Like him, I turned 30 this year and it has been the hardest year of my life! Plus we are both from New Jersey (everything they said about NJ in LOTMS is TRUE!)
I was diagnosed with depression and was in and out of the hospital for suicidal attempts. I relate to Gerard just for the fact we were both taking the same medication for a period of time (Wellbutrin) and having the sickness take hold of you and never letting go... never allowing you to breathe! It makes you feel like you are nothing!
You cling for any little glimpse of happiness and any sensation you can still feel, you relish it like a kid on Christmas morning. I went through a horrible breakup, which was partly responsible for my depression, so I can also understand Gerard's erratic behavior over the debacle of his engagement. However, I decided to not jump into another relationship because I know I'm not mentally healthy enough to handle that at this time, I also know that you can't take antidepressants and drink alcohol because you will only increase the feelings of anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Basically what I'm saying is that Gerard doesn't seem to be taking very good care of himself and is looking for someone else to take over the job. That's bullshit! Life just doesn't work that "WAY."
You have to do the work on yourself in order to be the best person for yourself, not just as a performer. It just doesn't seem like he is that concerned with his behavior as of late,if anything he seems to be amazed with himself like Narcissus looking at his reflection in the river. You know what happened to him- he drowned! That's what I feel like Gerard is doing:
DROWNING IN HIS SELF PITY.
DROWNING IN THE APPLAUSE OF HIS ADMIRERS,TAKING THEIR ADORING WORDS AS VERIFICATION OF HIS IDENTITY INSTEAD OF LOOKING INWARD.
DROWNING IN SENSATIONS OF DRUGS, ALCOHOL AND SEX TRYING TO ESCAPE HIIMSELF INSTEAD OF EMBRACING THE GOOD INSIDE.
DROWNING OUT ALL THE VOICES OF THOSE WHO REALLY KNOW HIM AND WANT TO HELP HIM THROUGH HIS PROBLEMS LIKE THEY DID BEFORE.
AND...
DROWNING OUT THE MESSAGE THE BAND ACTUALLY STARTED PLAYING FOR...
SAVING PEOPLE'S LIVES
BEING AGAINST RACISM, SEXISM AND HOMOPHOBIA
AND BELIEVING IN SELF EXPRESSION!
Where is that Gerard? I would like for him to come back so I can see someone who is just like me be a model of success.
I don't like this GEE WAY:
The guy who draws attention to himself by simulating masturbation on stage
The guy who instead of talking about being responsible for other fans and getting help for your problems before taking your frustrations out on others, is filled with sexual innuendo.
Where is the MESSAGE now!
There is no message.
Just a lonely man trying to gain self acceptance in the glory of
RockNRoll stardom.
Just a man who once wanted to keep his personal and professional life seperate now goes through the whole production budget of Projekt Revolution in Sharpies so he can write cryptic messages on his neck for his high profile girlfriend!
I ask you Gerard. Do you even remember the message?
Do you even remember who you are?
^Wow, last poster. Well said and sadly very true.
I really have no words to express the sadness in my heart for him, the rest of the band, his family, and everyone else that interacts with him on a daily basis. If, and I reiterate, if this is all true and we as fans are not "seeing things", this will be a huge pill to swallow. If everything these words ever stood for was just a falsehood and everything this man, not this band, ever said he believed in is false, I, on a personal level, will not know whom I should trust. That's my problem, I know. But everything stated in blackheart13's entry is mindbogglingly believable. And for that, I am so disheartened. I can only hope that Gerard seeks out what makes him happy and what makes him feel fulfilled. If it isn't this band anymore, that's okay by me. He needs to look after himself first, get healthy if he is in fact experiencing a "bump in the road", and start over. I don't know who he seems to be anymore.
Before taking that speck of dust out of his eye,
make sure to take that plank out of yours.
Remember this.
-s00
I am glad this blog exists because of the conversation that has ensued.
I'm sure there are many who read these comments and do not post their own.
To those who have bared their lives, I applaud you recovering from your hardships,
to those who read and may be in the depths of their own difficulties, know there is light at the end.
30 isn't old, been there, done that.
It is the age you feel inside that is important and how you have learnt to accept yourself,
whether that be single, married, gay, straight, male , female, coloured any shade of the rainbow.
Kapunua and anon (9/9 1.44pm) as you alluded, time to heal and find yourself is the important thing and filling your life with anything or anyone else that prevents that self actualization will only prolong the pain as it will mask it but it will remain.
I am disappointed in the man Gerard appears to have become but I will never give up on the soul that is with in him, that is the one that needs to shine, not the tacky sharpie scrawling facade we have been shown.
I don't think this is Gerard, I think I would know if he was doing this but maybe not. MAYBE. I doubt it though.
If it is though or if it is someone who knows him I have to tell you hon.... the fans are onto you even the fic writeing fangirlies.
When the fic writing fans are hitting th nail on the head then you know something is WRONG. Holy fuck.
IF this is someone remotely connected to Gerard I would have to say it is probably Lyn Z. Only because the first post said this:
"In reference to your so-called real scene - http://lifeontherealscene.blogspot.com/
I shake hands daily with the falsehood you describe. Late at night I hear the same hum that plays upon deaf ears, and my body lies on the same hard straits. Mid afternoon I stretch my legs along the same path, although mine turns to smaller stages."
Otherwise, I don't think this is anyone.
I am full of mixed emotions. As we all are, but why do some of you choose to point at circumstances that have only taken place this summer (if in fact it is all true)?
Go back to your own life; examine your past; examine your mistakes; take pride in your accomplishments, but do not judge others for mere human experiences.
I am not sad by anything other than those of you that post of your own struggles yet negating the struggles of this one individual. I am not writing this to be hateful (I too have experienced the things you describe), but I post this only for all you to recognize that you followed a band/a person only when it seemed "good" and now you have difficulty during this emotional downpour. It's understandable, but embrace those around you; not those you do not know.
Ask yourself (the readers/commenters) Do you do this to those you love? Do you choose to belittle only 2 months out of a person's entire life and make them pay for it over and over and over again by your hateful words? I hope all of you are better than that. I believe in the beauty of humanity, but when you can neglect someone for a few instances in time - I fear for you. I fear for those in your life that will not receive a second chance of redemption.
Sit back quietly and hear the beating of your heart. As I asked someone here before, "How do you look on the inside?" ... and with a reply, I received the answer I expected (much to my sadness).
Have you had a chance to search within yourself? If you are perfect then please come forward and cast all the stones you want. It will only hurt you in the end.
Do not be hateful. Please do not continue to pour salt into wounds that you know nothing about. Love each other, support and up lift each other. Why continue with being so horrible?
Go back to your life. Live it, let this alone. Mikey left for reasons unknown, but yet all of you stood by him while Gerard and the rest carried through. You didn't point fingers because you knew there was something more going on in his personal life. Why is this different?
Gerard and the rest, thank you for continuing on and allowing us to see your faults. I know you will all come through just as you always have throughout the years in your life. This is no exception. I applaud your work and always will. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for understanding what it is like to be bullied and ridiculed throughout highschool for being different. I am sorry that those that cared about you are now bullying you just the same. I guess that is life. I wish it did not have to be this way. I will continue assuming the best in everyone; just as I trust in the core that is you and in all you reading this.
Lynz wrote the first few blogs; then she notified the "proper authorities ... 50/50 split." This is now Gerard writing these last couple of blogs. At least that is what I think.
To Anonymous @ 8:39 pm
Do you choose to belittle only 2 months out of a person's entire life and make them pay for it over and over and over again by your hateful words? I hope all of you are better than that. I believe in the beauty of humanity, but when you can neglect someone for a few instances in time - I fear for you. I fear for those in your life that will not receive a second chance of redemption.
2 months? This erratic behavior has been going on since he broke up with his longtime girlfriend,that was last year!
This split personality thing is nothing new my friend. I'm sorry if you feel people are coming down on Gerard but it is just clear observations made by fans for fans. This blog is for the fans... not Gerard. I know Gerard is not even writing this blog but I will voice my opinion regardless. I am not upset by what you said but when you come with the holier than thou, examine your own life thing... no,no. I don't need someone who post anonymous to tell me to do that. Let people speak their minds like you have spoken yours without condenscencion.
You've wanted to keep me anonymous forever. . . lol. Karma will bite you in the ass. Sound familiar? You know, i can't believe I believed you through all of the bullshit. Master of mixed signals, much? I can't believe that November 28, 2005, you ditched Quebec City to come down to see me. Now that I look back at it, why? And then you had the audacity to be pissed off at ME because I didn't stay after to hang out like you wanted. You continued to act tired, depressed, and pissed off throughout interviews, not saying WHY you were in the state of mind you were. And then the Paramour happened. Funny,how you never let on what ELSE was haunting you? Mikey told you to say something about it, and then suddenly he "left" the band for a while. He's not the one in dire need of medication. Then, later that year, when I was supposed to see you again, the injuries happened, you couldn't make it, yet you lied to me about it again. You had told me that you had broken up with her, that you were free. I was your one and only. Then the Eliza bullshit happened. you told me you were just friends with her and that she was only a stalker who wanted to be seen around you for fame. She kept appearing with you at high-profile events, yet you kept insisting it was platonic. I got increasingly pissed off and started suspecting something. Then I got bogged down with 3 days of no electricity. I had lamented how I felt I was shunned. Suddenly, out of nowhere,you were going to have a signing in Toronto,to appease me. I got there, and there were 600 people in line but you had to let them all in regardless because if you didn't get to see me it defeated the purpose,didn't it? I still couldn't shake the feeling something was off, and then I read in an interview something contrary to what you had told me personally. That you had broken up with her during tracking for FLW. You told me that song was for me. You told others it was about Mikey. And suddenly, it was the impetus for change? BULLSHIT. You had told me that you had split from her LONG before what you told Kerrang. You were stringing me along, and you lied to me. You had the nerve to be mad at me for "dissing" you before, when you had been with her the entire time! oh, and THEN, the supreme Eliza bullshit. February, she suddenly had a mysterious ring. She was suddenly spotted following you EVERYWHERE, and you complained to me that she was stalking you. The rumor mill began that she was engaged. . to you! LOL Whoulda thought? Certainly not the naive, dumbass me. You kept swearing up and down that the ring was for me as a promise for our future, and that because she was a stalker, she had bought her own to match yours. Then Worm got caught saying that you had to spend time with your fiancee, at a concert in March. I knew something was up then, especially when you guys were photographed together on days off. Then, the mysterious, my "old lady" comment. YOU WERE TOGETHER the whole time as well, and you kept saying you did it to " teach her a lesson', and that the only way "to get rid of a stalker" was to "romance her and leave her". You really are a callus, dumb shit who keeps changing his story to save his ass. poor Eliza. I really hope she cuts your hair with garden shears in your sleep. You know what's really funny? you looked miserable with her, because deep down,in that pathological lying heart of yours, you felt BAD for two timing us both. Plus you knew it would never last. You never admitted to her that you never had any intention to marry her. The June 1st " admission" was HILARIOUS, especially after the comment I made the night before to you, and the "butterflies" comment you made earlier that day before the MTV interview. You ended it with Eliza June 20th, because you figured there was no sense in prolonging an engagement that wouldn't lead to a marriage. Fast worward to PR. You, the lying bastard said you'd be single for a while and then BOOM! Lyn-Z enters the picture. At first, you told me you were just friends with similar interests, and that the infamous 'kissing" picture was just a "hug shot taken from an incriminating angle". I am a dumbass for believing that. Never mind that the writing on both of you were in fact, messages to me, that were Gerard/me code. You told me that she was helping you communicate to me while you were on tour. I loved how the percentages corresponded to our ages, and the sales percentage that my company was ranked at that particular week. Also, how "miss you" corresponded to me not being able to make the set on time that day, and how you appeared on Muchmusic that night, kept looking in my direction with ZOID written on your neck. I love how everyone thinks that's a Lyn-Z reference, when that's the name of the artwork you did featuring me as the centerpiece from 1999. I was definitely starting to soften towards you, even after the Lyn-Z unicorn shirt, because I know unicorns are an inside joke between your band and I. But then you marry her!!!! WTF!! Joke or not, even with the official license, that's too far. Have fun with Lyn-Z. She's a good one. You cheat on her, I hope she breaks you in half, because I quit my relationship with you. You are a douche, plain and simple, no matter how much I love you. Funny, how you made a reference to smoke and mirrors. Because that's what you're full of. Bullshit. Your masterful magic is not masterful at all. Stop your dumbass Houdini references, he was able to get himself out of a bind, you are not. Unless you actually plan a future with me, stop putting me and my languages into your comic. Kthxbye.
--Tink
...and so the body count keeps rising and pile of lies keeps mounting! Wonder how many more will come out of hiding? What's next? Otter? Care to share your side of the story?
Anonymous above (5:58 am), can you clarify this one thing? So while he was with "Kat," he was also with you? Then he broke up with her and two timed again with you and Eliza? Is that correct?
Sorry to pry. I just want all this to be clear. I think all of us are up in arms and just want some truth to the matter. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm sorry for what you had to go through. Lying, two-timing assholes will always get what they deserve.
Take care of yourself.
Poster at 5.58 a.m. I noted your signoff. Are you Kathmandu? Have you Known him since 1999? During art college?
To the other anons:
No, I am not Katmandu, but my first name does begin with a K. I never went to art school. I speak French.
We started our relationship officially while he was with Kat, but I didn't know he was with Kat at that time at all. We had started out as friends. I still consider him a friend, just one I want to beat with a shovel.
--Tink
Never mind that the writing on both of you were in fact, messages to me, that were Gerard/me code. You told me that she was helping you communicate to me while you were on tour.
Fucking Christ sweetie, it's not just you. I can't even fucking begin to tell you how familiar it is because I got the same fucking lines from him.
I was heartbroken but I've moved on to plain angry.
Hey Gerard, I hope Lyn Z takes half, you lech.
Anon at 5.58 a.m. Are you a teacher? Do you play D & D ? Do you live in Canada? Thanks
Damn!!!!!!
OMG! Tink-Tink, Katmandu, Eli-zuh, Lyn-Z. What happened to Mary, Sue and Dorothy? Or maybe that was Brit-Brit, LiLo and Paris. Oh, well.
I think Smoke&Venom20 would fit nicely in that list of misfit names, don't you? We'll always have Tampa won't we, Sweetie?
Man, you are like the puppeteer aren't you? You got everybody dancing around at your command. Oh, the power. Stringing people along here and there and everywhere. Better watch out though, Hell hath no fury and such. Thin line between love and hate, don't you know?
***Still, I just have to say and only because I haven't said it in awhile. Not really relevant here but, I still think Frank is awesome.
P.S. - I really, really do.
Oh, please. Every single one of you anonymous tools claiming to be one of Gerard Way's jilted lovers needs to come out from behind your cloak of anonymity and actually fess the fuck up.
Why don't you actually post some real PROOF? All you're doing right now is throwing out the same shit crazed fans make up on the rumor communities.
Go back to writing shitty fan fiction, ladies.
Anon at 7.22 a.m. Who are you and what's your story?
To all the anon ex-lovers? How the hell do you believe his bullshit. To the anon who started while with Kat. He was with that long, and you didn't share anything but quick fucks . Even if you didn't know in the beginning that he was with her, once you knew, you should have stopped. Boy, the jokes on you, to allow yourself to be treated that way. If true, which I sincerely doubt, he likes an escape hatch. Very typical of most emotional weak men.
I seriously hope someone is screen capping these pages. Because when Reprise catches wind of this and it all gets deleted, this shit is going to be legendary and everyone on the internet is gonna wanna see it. Start capping!
I was thinking the same thing about the screen capping. Oh the age of the internet. Haha!
And yes, please ladies, if Gerard was stringing you along, come forward share your story and your proof. It just doesn't hold unless you can point at something solid.
Tink,
So how were you part of his artwork "Zoid" in 1999? If you have known him that long and were only friends, then how could you not know about Kat?
Magdalene, lol, it's your choice to not believe me. To you and the others who don't believe, that's fine. I don't give a shit if you believe me or not. My whole purpose here was to let off some steam, not to cater to any of you, or to prove the "validity" of anything.
If you actually look shit up, the proof is there. Look up his artwork, and his comics, especially the online preview and free comic book day versions. Trust me. I'm not posting pictures and crap like that, because I made an effort to be the opposite of Eliza in that regard. He wants to fess up, he can. From the looks of it, he won't. And yes, the joke was on me.
About Kat-- I knew about their relationship, but he had told me it wasn't current. I don't live in Jersey, so I didn't see them together, everyday. She seems like an awesome lady.
I think Frank is awesome too.
--T
I'm calling bluff on all of you saying you dated him, etc. As someone mentioned before, step away from your fanfics... it's making you delusional.
And IF indeed you did date him, that's your fault for not leaving him after the first time you found out he was lying. Way to represent the ladies. Admit it, just because he is who he is, you allowed yourself to be fooled and taken advantage of. It's sad but true.
Ahh, the plot thickens...
I was wondering when all the ladies would come out of the woodwork.
So not only is he a fucked-up hypocrite, but he's a lying sack of shit, too.
Why I am I SO not surprised?
What goes around comes around. You ladies forget about him and turn to attention to someone who deserves you. Let him play with his new favorite toy when no one else will look at him, let alone fuck him.
OMFG!!! Have you all gone crazy??? Most of the posters here are anonymous! What if I say he fucked me too? Would you believe me? I dont want to be rude, but its the internet, everyone can pretend being something! We will never know.
This dick seems no different than any other dick. Just seems there were lots of different hands jacking this dick off.
Hope you all brought hand sanitizer. I hear the rash can be quite nasty.
I don't even have words for this. This is getting ridiculous and pathetic. And I don't mean on Gerard's end...
Who said I ever fucked him? This has been an entirely emotional thing. I love how you all equate this to sex. I'm not a whore. Jesus Christ.
Anon, you have a point. I know many won't believe me, but in the end, it won't matter anyway, will it? I'm not here for 15minutes of fame. I realize I sound insane. I really do. Considering the course of circumstances that have taken place over 2 years, I thought I had gone crazy quite a few times.
Screencap this all you want. Reprise knows about me. Riot Squad knows about me. The other guys know about me. Gerard wouldn't have been able to do all of this if it hadn't been on their watch. Consider that, people. His management cancelled QC for them. They scheduled the HMV signing for them. They just mysteriously booked 3 dates that were close enough to my residence that they knew I would attend. Call me crazy, I don't give a fuck. His career is what gave him all the courage. On his own, he's a total pussy. I'm convinced.
At once point, I was livid enough to consider suing, above all for emotional suffering, but especially for stuff that he's put out there. The comic book. He'll be making money off my influence. That fleur de lys design? The " she loves you"? Notice he never answered that question directly on SURS?
You can all call me crazy, but I think I have a right to be livid. And I guarantee you, there are some guys out there that are in perfect agreement.
I don't care who reads this. I know Gerard's already gotten wind of it, and that's all I care about. He knows who I am, and that's all that matters.
--T
Tink,
I understand where you are coming from and I'm sorry for what you went through. I really am.
But I still do not understand your point about Zoid and 1999. That is not adding up. I do believe you dated him, but I'm just not sure about some of the facts you spoke of, particularly that one, so it kind of discredits the other points.
Again, not meaning to pry, but could you just explain that one point? Because if he did in fact blantly write Zoid on his neck for you then, that is pretty fucked up. Well the whole thing is fucked up; but that particular point would change my mind about a lot of things because I'm not totally convinced.
Do you think there is a chance that he knocked up Lynz which is why he got married so quickly and is bringing them on tour with them?
Anon 12:17 p.m. - I do agree 100%.
Being fucked by someone doesn't have to mean you had sex with them. I've been fucked by lots of people in my life.
Didn't even get a sweet kiss or cuddle afterwards.
How about all you?
sdock10 hat gesagt...
Being fucked by someone doesn't have to mean you had sex with them. I've been fucked by lots of people in my life.
Didn't even get a sweet kiss or cuddle afterwards.
How about all you?
I totally agree with you!!!
Let me say: I don't need sex! Life fucks me whenever it can...
I need sex!! ;)
These blogs don't sound like the Gerard I know. Then again I have known him to use different voices at different times. If it is you, will you recognize me? Because I sure don't recognize you. Things change so fast.
I need sex!! ;)
I was wondering when someone would go there!
So do we all. But most of us are able to do it without a marriage ceremony.
PARTY IN GERARD'S BLOG!
PARTY sounds good!!! lol
But why does anyone think its Gerard's blog??? I'm just curious...!
Party in Gerard's Blog (pants) FTW!
(Sorry you get a little dirty in your thirties)
It's him.
Anonymous hat gesagt...
Party in Gerard's Blog (pants) FTW!
(Sorry you get a little dirty in your thirties)
HAHAHAHAHA that made my day =]
Anon see your lawyer. What are you so fearful of? Are you scared that reprise is going to counter attack you with a legal shovel? Contrary to what you say, you have been outed on live journal in the past, only as usual it was shot down in flames because of lack of proof. Your comments have not really shocked, many were starting to think he likes to wet his pee pee in lots of places. And now you say it was a deep emotional connection,and still see him as a friend. Does this mean you will continue a relationship? If so I consider you to have equally dubious morality. And to all the other readers, Loveman intimated his dishonestly, if choose to believe this poster then we can equally assume with confidence the drinking allegations and the speculation about the content of the tbp to have substance. Out of all this I believe the other four members of the band do not deserve this connection. Two in particular, have shown us how real men behave. And for Kat, no wonder they broke up. To have emotionally and physically invested in such a fake must have had some repercussions. I hope that she finds someone who truly cherishes her now.
Amen to that! (the real men part)
Frank is a REAL man!!! All 5 feet of him. Ray and Bob as well. Can't really say a whole lot about Milkey Way seeing as how he never really said a whole lot either.
Ever.
He was quiet one, that Mikey. On camera anyway.
(yes, i meant to call him Milkey Way. it was just too obvious, sorry)
Come on Mayo Man! Give us somthing else today!!!
Thanks Anon 3:03 pm. I laughed when I wrote it :) Glad you enjoyed it too.
As for Anon 3:06, excellent post. I thought many of the same things hearing from Tink. Especially at the end of her post when she wrote: "Unless you actually plan a future with me, stop putting me and my languages into your comic." That shows willingness to go back out with him.
Sorry Tink, but I heard about you a while ago (the french thing, name starting K, the french refrences on Bob's drum kit, etc.) I'm still not convinced you had what you say you had with Gerard. And what do you mean by the Zoid and 1999? What do you mean about the percentages referencing your aga? Gerard wrote 100%. Lynz had 27% or something to that effect.
Also, I've seen some ladies on myspace thinking that they are talking to Gerard when if fact they are not. Even to the point when they are supposed to meet a show, but alas, Gerard just missed her. Again, I'm not saying you are lying, but your facts do not add up. For the sake of your credibility, give us some links, something for us to go on. Otherwise you look like you imagined this all in your head.
My name starts with B, I speak German. And when Gerard wrote "You Win" on his neck that was for me. He told me that the night before. And when he wrote 867, that's because it is our favorite number. And those bandana's, he wore them because he knows that it is a joke between me and the other members of the band. And when he did the backbend it was to show that him and Lynz were both sending me messages when I couldn't be there for the show.
*Sorry Anon girlfriend, that's how silly your post sounds.
Dang, Tink-Tink. Better come back with a good rebuttal cause these folks is ready to rip you to shreds. After all the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead, right?
Wow, I sure hope that they are reading this at MCR headquarters. But, you know I have a question. Why are there no blogs relating to the other members of the band. Me thinks that Mr Way is the great illusionist. All people lie, part of human nature, but his must be compulsive, with far reaching impact.
That's cause they don't cause a stir like Uncle Jiggy.
Frank should have his own blog.
I think I'll make one. :D
Love him to pieces.
I loves me some Frank too. I do adore Gee (I do; just don't want to date him; maybe just some lovin' on the side; our spouses don't need to know, do they?)
As yes, Tink you betta come back with something. Anything. We really want to know the truth. Here's your chance.
Come back Gerard! We are waiting to tango with you. Are you ready?
Bring Frank!
It's official -- the comments are more fun than the blogs. If this ever reached Reprise eyes, the shit would well & truly hit the fan, wouldn't it?
Maybe Mr. Way should have been a sailor; he seems to have a girl in every port. Has anybody claimed Western Canada yet? //insert sarcasm here//
All kidding aside, things have become *very* interesting. Even the ficcie-girls are discussing these posts, which of course will end up on the boards (if they haven't already). There's proof for and against who Mr. Mayo really is, but I'd bet my Bullets that Mr. Way is tickled pinkish that there's so much discussion about him.
So, Mr. Mayo... when will you again thrill us with your repartee?
Can I just pop in and say something funny? When my young cousin and I recently went on a trip to Florida together, Disneyworld in fact, we had this inside joke where we likened all of our favorite band members to female Disney characters. It was just a joke between the kid and myself. I remember that Gerard was Snow White and Jared Leto was Jasmine etc... But what I remember most was that Bert McCracken, because he's so wee and tempermental and jealous and pissy, was Tinkerbell. And for the duration of the trip we referred to Bert McCracken as "Tink" so you can see how that just adds a whole 'nother level of hilarity for me.
"Party in Gerard's blog" was me, BTW, forgetting to sign in. ^_^ Even though I really don't think this is Gerard's blog, it just struck me as funny.
Sorry, carry on.
Bert McCracken, Bless his drunk, drugged out soul, might have been right all along. Ha Ha!!!
Have you seen MCR secrets lately? You're not the only one who thinks that Bert was right about Gerard. Sad.
My dears, you can rip me to shreds all you want. It's your prerogative. I'm not lying, and I'm not going to explain myself any more. Gerard's a douche. I realize it sounds like bullshit, and in the end you're going to call it as you see it. I understand. Once you love someone, you always love someone, no matter what crap they pull. It's called unconditional love. That doesn't mean I'm seeking a relationship. Judge me all you like. I could give two shits.
No, I'm not Krista. I saw some of you thinking I was. Leave her out of it please.
I do hope that he and Lyn-Z work out. I like her, I don't get any bad vibes off her like I did with Eliza. But I still can't wait to see karma bite him in the ass.
Some of you are funny, LOL.
Laissez-moi tranquille...je n'essaie pas de vous deranger. Io sono amata. . sfortunamente i miei occhi no me danno l'avventura in citta. . il faut que je vive en espoir et quelquefois en douleur, mais je sais que, enfin, je survivrai, malgre les difficultes, avec lui ou sans lui. Shinjite iru no. . .
--Tink
P.S> you can laugh at this all you want, but my name is a fraternity nickname
Hey! Signing off mysteriously in a different language is MY style. Stop biting it! ;D
You know what doesn't make sense all of this zoid shit which supposedly happened in 99... um didn't she say she was from canada or something? I'm not going to even go back and read.. none of it adds up, sorry honey try again. Don't you have homework or something to do?
To Tink, some of can read your french/italian text. Most of us are beginning to believe that he is a douche, however if you are being attacked it's because you may be complicit in his douchie behaviour. I hope the best for you, ma suo occhi sono corpeto, conservare tuo amore per un altro , he is not worth it.
We are a feisty bunch aren't we? :)
:/ where are the smilies when you need them? They hold so much emotion.
I know the ladies (the ex-loves) are strong. They will move on. It's all good.
And someone keeps forgetting that she said "two years [together]", "1999 [as a centerpiece in Zoid]," but you are not "Kat, who you knew [kind of]. I am really not trying to be mean. We (I) really want to think that you are telling the truth. But in today's world, you can't trust shit...therefore more is required.
"Douche behavior"... that cracks me up.
Thanks for the kind words, guys. Sorry, kapuana,lol. I speak 5 languages, sometimes they're dying to come out. Yes, thank you anon, I will save my heart for another.
Oh, and to anon, if you'd rather have me be doing homework than wasting your precious "internetz" time, don't come here, don't read it. I don't do homework since I got my third degree in June-- a Masters. If anyone wants to assign me HW, they can randomly fall off a cliff.
LOL, 8:27 pm anon, good point, nowadays you need more "proof', I understand, but I am not at liberty to share it. I gave you all that I'm willing to give. you either believe me, or you don't. A good majority of you don't, lol.
I am really craving chocolate. . sorry, that was random.
-Tink
So, he s quite the man-whore, or is it mind whore? There are other bands that might have a vacancy- try Hinder, a skankier bunch but much more suitable for the new "WAY".
Can I join the blog party?
Oh how fun if we all got together with a few bottles of wine and had a good laugh.
Here's cheers to all of you !
It's like an online pajama party.
Cheers and goodnight my wonderful lovelies. I drank my wine; now I am tired.
Thanks Tink for explaining [not explaining]. It's all good. I think I need some chocolate too.
Hey, Gerard at 12.14 am. Do you honestly think this is the last of Tink? Ascolta, tu sei malato.
If she is telling the truth, then I hope that you cop it in your itsy bitsy teenie peen.
Damn it! I hate I missed out on all this last night. Damn you L.C, Heidi and Spencer!
Hey Tink -
You said your name is a fraternity nickname. What fraternity was that? Not that I even know any of them, just curious.
So what if the guy has a girl in every city? He's a rock star for god's sake! He isn't doing anything hundreds have not done before him. For that matter, he isn't doing anything ANY man would do given half the chance.
Who says it's a 'GIRL' in every city? Don't BOYS get to have fun too? Willing to bet that his penis hasn't touched a vagina unless it's because he missed and hit it from behind.
Uh, hate to break it to you anonymous but he is not doing what other rock stars have always done. Vince, Tommy, Bret, Gene, and Paul always flaunted their women everywhere and with pride. He never has until now. Every girl he has supposedly had a relationship with has always been kept secret. Funny how LynZ is like the first girl he has ever been open about and she was rumored to be a lesbian.
Silly boy.
Vince, Tommy, Bret, Gene, and Paul always flaunted their women everywhere and with pride.
Smoke&Venom20, you're so right.
The only similarities worthy for comparison here are the 'rock star' and 'male' parts. Anon @ 8:32 probably isn't old enough to understand the difference.
Sorry for the confusion:
This was me (Anon-30), not Gerard, just wanted to clarify:
Cheers and goodnight my wonderful lovelies. I drank my wine; now I am tired.
Thanks Tink for explaining [not explaining]. It's all good. I think I need some chocolate too.
September 11, 2007 12:14 AM
Anonymous said...
Hey, Gerard at 12.14 am. Do you honestly think this is the last of Tink? Ascolta, tu sei malato.
If she is telling the truth, then I hope that you cop it in your itsy bitsy teenie peen.
September 11, 2007 3:08 AM
On the contrary, sister midnite, perhaps I am too OLD to understand! Judging from the way his eyes were in my cleavage the last time I saw him, he seems like a red-blooded American male to me...
Anon @ 1:24, you crack me up. :)
No guy can resist cleavage, it's just the WAY they're made.
Sorry, m'girl ... I'm not trying to be mean, really. Thanks for sharing your comments on rockstars, here's a link you might want to check out:
http://www.metalsludge.tv/home/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=40&Itemid=54
Sounds like you might get a kick out of it.
Peen = cleavage staring. Fact :)
Anon-30
Well said, Anon-30. :)
Guys who don't drool over cleavage are like Ex-Lax - they might look okay on the outside, but you just *know* something is wrong under the surface.
(The funniest boob compliment I've ever heard? "You could make a million dollars with those." Uh hunh...)
...What were we talking about?
Oh yeah, now I remember.
Cleavage is very powerful. It is the source of my inner strength LMAO!
I'm kind of getting pissed at Mayo for not playing anymore. Come on Mayo, show us what you got.
Anon-30
I wholeheartedly agree.
Mr. or Mrs. Mayo, it's your party.
Where are you, off puking from too many party favors???
Oops, someone's already done that.
It's a beautiful night and they are spending it in the club. That would bum me out. Maybe Mr. Mayo will need some fresh air; in the privacy of the tour bus and decide to write a little tale.
Anon30
And one more thing before I go.
Soul Connector - your intentions seem good, but I've done the inspirational/psychological route; I'm bored of it. I live by it in many ways, but you are not enlightening me. You seem sweet, do not get me wrong - it is just that well, it doesn't evoke anything in me. So it may be just me. But thank you anyway.
Anon30
^I suck at life. Wrote this comment in the wrong blog.
I support you.
And im not trying you make your ego bigger.
Im just confirming how the few people that are left feel.
We do believe in you; and we are waiting for you to realise.
I feel sorry for the poor people that come here to crush you, dis-respect you, and say horrible things. They claim you are worthless but still constantly find the time to come to hear what you have to say. If there are more important things, then why dont they leave?
Life isn't fair and everybody has to deal with it. Your not the only one.
But dont let these people be the ones to change you, and break you down into something that they all wish you were.
30 isn't old you know. You have so much time to do everything that you have always wanted to achieve. I know your scared, but just let sleeping dogs lie. It will happen, just let it.
This is a 15 year old girl giving advice to a 30 year old man. Let this be a lesson learned.
Your a good man and I know it. Just have a little faith in yourself too.
I'll get a lot of stick for being on your side. But shit happens.
I'll always stay true to myself.
Booty sweat... oh how apt!
This is the stuff I miss..
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