You startled me
In not so much your words,
But your approach.
It was fast
And filled my head
With nonsense words
And warmth
When you weren’t there.
So, I went under
And swallowed
The surge. And above
My head is swirling water.
My hand slapping at the surface,
Desperate for structure
Steep stone. Then
My fingers finding rooted edge
Holding ground,
Finally. Almost out of breath
When I pulled myself up.
Entwined in mine, fingers
Not rooted mass, but flesh.
That took the shape
Of mysteries ability
To suddenly deliver me
Upon the edge was all
That I was meant to be.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,847 comments:
1 – 200 of 4847 Newer› Newest»Hello Mayo. How was that vacation? I trust you are well.
I'm glad to see you have come back from your vacation. :)
No P.S. today?
When I pulled myself up.
Entwined in mine, fingers
Not rooted mass, but flesh
I'm glad someone was there for you.
How do you feel about crows, Mayo?
It's not about the crows anon. It's about the crows inability to share. Until they get into trouble themselves and learn about sharing, forgiveness and reaching out to help others.
And filled my head
With nonsense words
And warmth
When you weren’t there.
I like this part best.
Thanks for the new post. It is nice to hear from you Mayo. :)
Anonymous said...
It's not about the crows anon. It's about the crows inability to share. Until they get into trouble themselves and learn about sharing, forgiveness and reaching out to help others.
I could imagine this comment being written by a member of either 'crew.'
Make of that what you will...
Keep your head above water Mayo.
It is difficult to forgive crows that never said "i'm sorry".
Not impossible
just difficult
Thanks for discriminating Carrie. :)
Who saved you from drowning Mayo? Was it this place? Was it all of us collectively? Are you sad that this place can no longer provide the bouyancy you so desperately need?
not
Just because my name is black does not mean my words are worthless.
A rainbow of colors would be beautiful.
I agree. There are lots of nice anons...like us, for example. None of us here are calling names, being unpleasant or offending anyone. In fact, we are being very well behaved anons.
It's a shame you couldn't stay and chat Mayo.
It's a shame you couldn't stay and chat Mayo.
We are. It just goes to show you what can happen when people are respectful towards each other and other opinions.
Mayo, I really like your poem. Nice to have you back. :)
It has been quiet. It was good to see so many here yesterday afternoon.
Yes it sounds like he ventured into the water while on vacation and made quite a splash!
~insert menacing Jaws theme music here~
Bye all.
Bye Anon!
Hey mayo just saw watchmen and checked blog hard to comment on phone but had to say good to see you
For carrie and used fans
if they didn't know about it
http://bertquinnjephdan.blogspot.com/2008/10/its-joke-people.html
Then young Daniel put his hand in the air and said "My next door neighbor was painting the outside of her house with a 2 inch paintbrush and my dad said that it will take the contagious!"
The Used said...
cont agious
cunt ages
October 28, 2008 1:45 PM
Wonder if VV is going to blog about how sexist and offensive The Used members are? How the people there were wrong to laugh at his "cunt ages" joke and other people should have let him know how offensive to feminists it was. Strange how they're allowed to say it but members of MCR and other people they don't like can't use it.
It's the stench. The end.
hello Mayo
that's a lovely piece Mayo, powerful images again.
Curious as to if it is about 2 people or one.
Are the surge and the saviour one and the same? To me it sounds as though one has engulfed faster ad more completely than you ever expected, then when grasping you find another, that you didn't expect was there.
Whichever it is, and if this is reflecting yourself, I'm glad you feel on a solid footing again
mayonaise
it is a listing to keep in sight
to yearn for in life
the feel of stone or flesh
i have yet to grasp
good save and good life friend
`sc
hello sc, good to see you
hope you're well!
mayo
or was it like a child being told about swimming, how exciting it is, how much fun and is then taken into water by a parent and in their excitement being so sure they are brave enough and experienced enough that they let go to launch into this new domain, only to find it is harder and scarier than they expected. In panic they flail about feeling like it is suddenly only them, alone against the suffocating water. Then feel their hand hit the body of the parent who knew better, and has been standing by them all along, watching and waiting to lift them up into their arms.
Wonder if VV is going to blog about how sexist and offensive The Used members are?
The Used never pretended to be anything but what they are.
you had it within you all the time. all you had to do was to believe...
ergoproxy
My time is limited right now, but i been wanting to say for some time, how much I admire you and your abilities.
You are a constant source of calm, reason and good friendship here on mayo's public blog.
I enjoy reading and also learning so many interesting things that you kindly share with us all from your private life.
I will strive to be like you when I grow up, even though I am older. (smile)
Glad you are safe from mother nature and my best to you and your family.
talk with you later, im off
`sc
The Used never pretended to be anything but what they are.
March 10, 2009 5:30 PM
LOL
figures
If we are truly free to speak our mind here:
Why can't you stop messing with them? You know my secret identity and who I refer to. I say this directly to you, out of respect for them. They have earned that, even if you refuse to notice. I may be a thorn in the side of many (most, all?) here but I've never been a coward when it comes to drawing lines. You may not be obligated to discourage the behavior morally or otherwise but to encourage it is... how do they say... "beyond pathetic."
Have a fabulous fucking day!
thank you so much Sc, you are too kind :]
I think you always read as very calm also with well chosen, wise words. I always enjoy seeing you too
I hope to add some new blogs soon, I have been a bit pressed for time most of this year, but ideas continue to pop into my head
thanks for the wishes and I extend the same to you and yours, take care
Batman?
titoring time, back later
xx
Have a fabulous fucking day!
March 10, 2009 5:42 PM
the same to you
5:42!
hey Mayo
thanks for the new post.
fucking lovely, is all i can say. obviously i'm not entirely sure what you are getting at cos you are Mayo, i am me, me no get you!! well sometimes i think i do, but who knows?!
hope you are doing good anyway Mayo?it's been pretty shitty here for a while now. clinging on by fingertips springs to mind.
hey Mayo, nothing to do with your post, but sparked a memory!
when i was 16 yrs old, after our exams, big exams, we got a post exam week of activities, paid for i think by the education commity. anyway ours was a week of water activities, cos i was living by the sea. so it is sailing, canoeing, rafting, swimming, various stuff. anyway on our canoeing day we were all out on the water and we had been shown how to escape from the cock pit (have no idea if it was called that) of the canoe if you go under, ie, turn under like an eskimo roll but maybe by accident. you pull your spray deck off and lean forward. and you should just come out. so anyway we were in the water in the harbour, pissing around. my best mate (who i still love to fuckin bits even after all these years) was sat on the back of my canoe, we were in depth but i was in the canoe. so it was unstable, i went completely under, rolled. and fuck me i could not get my spraydeck off i could not get out and i was fucking panicking! it seemed forever i was not turning back round, i was trapped and i wanted to breath.suddendly my friend grabbed my hand, pulled at me and got me the fuck out and up to the suface. i must have been under for 30 secs. it was so scary. i love her and at that point she did save my life. anyway just a menory there mr mayo man!!
SC so very lovely to see you here, and you are spot on about ergo.
i get so jealous at how she balances her home life, work life, and blog life so fanatastically,and i fail at it so hard!
i will blame time zones but it isn't always time zones!
meant to say a big hello to miranth &just bloody forgot! there ya go how fucking great am i?!
fuck me for some reason in this comment cs i am "overwriting" myself so every letter deletes another! oh how effing annoying. don't know how to correct that but no fuckin worries.
serious overwriting status here!! i apologise for any lack of punctuation or spacing OK?!
hope everyone is good?!
SS you too, i have not forgotten you!
"BEYOND PATHETIC" was what the porchis made this place.
Could it be possible that Mayo finally sees this?
If Mayo was truely "NOT A COWARD" he would speak out against them SIGNED IN instead of hinting with things like 'you know who I am'.
Mayo, why are you afraid of the porchies? They already did all the damage and left (most of them). What are you afraid it? Sign in and say it.
I don't think Mayo was speaking out against them anon. I suggest you re-read the comment.
6.34 for fucks sake just quit while you are ahead. i fucking hate the shit stirring by anons.
the porchies, as you call them, are actually a great bunch of people who just want to have fun and chat and play some games. stop making it so fucking dramatic. stop twisting shit and making it so fucking important.
it just fucking bugs me.
hmmm, do i overuse the word FUCK?
gotta go guys.
play nice people.
love to you all.
mayo and SS!
♥
Because Mayo said "beyond pathetic" tells you that he is talking about the Porchies. That was Amy's word for them.
Who ELSE would he be talking about?
Was anyone else called that? I don't think so.
Think about it.
I want to know WHY Kapunua was OK with Mayo writing Cunt btu when Wendy said it to her all of a sudden she was "hurt" by it?
THAT is what I'd call hypocritical.
If you don't see that, then you are just as much of a hypocrite.
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mother fuck typo tastic!! it was cos my computer was overwritng everything and not cos i am a complete twat!
well maybe not but that is a biggy!!
The comment was made to Mayonaise. Some do still visit for the owner. It was not made for you to debate or mutilate according to your personal agenda.
... Batman?
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i could go on and on!
FASC
You should show some respect or at least some consideration for those who have remained here and have been pretty damn entertaining over the last few days, (deftly side stepping people bring up the same old shit) before describing their efforts as "pretty shitty".
I think there have been sparks of the old days recently and I hope it continues.
People make their choices and this is only a blog on the internet for fucks sake...
You may not be obligated to discourage the behavior morally or otherwise but to encourage it is... how do they say... "beyond pathetic."
Who could the comment possibly be directed at?
Anonymous said...
That was Amy's word for them.
Bingo.
6.37 While you ARE free to have you own opinion, I don't think 5.42 was Mayo.
He would have known to use whom instead of who and probably would not have ended a sentence with a preposition.
I don't think he is afraid of the porchies as you say. I don't he's afraid to say what he wants, when he wants, how he wants and to whom he wants.
Anonymous said...
You may not be obligated to discourage the behavior morally or otherwise but to encourage it is... how do they say... "beyond pathetic."
Who could the comment possibly be directed at?
Anonymous said...
That was Amy's word for them.
Bingo.
IAWTC. It was directed at THEM, the people that used the phrase beyond pathetic.
People make their choices and this is only a blog on the internet for fucks sake...
March 10, 2009 6:48 PM
I like your way of thinking 6.48.
IAWTC. It was directed at THEM, the people that used the phrase beyond pathetic.
March 10, 2009 6:51 PM
Because Mayo HATES them. They don't mean nearly as much as the people you like and they're evil. You have to believe that was Mayo and he was taking up for the porchies doncha. I think it will kill you to believe otherwise.
FASC
You should show some respect or at least some consideration for those who have remained here and have been pretty damn entertaining over the last few days
Why don't you show respect for other and don't bring anymore of you negative comment's over here and let people have a good time.
Anonymous said...
The comment was made to Mayonaise. Some do still visit for the owner. It was not made for you to debate or mutilate according to your personal agenda.
... Batman?
March 10, 2009 6:45 PM
I think you just killed them 6.45.
They were probably planning to run with the "it was Mayo taking the porchies side" for days. The "he was trashing Amy... etc" all night.
Some of us did realize that you were not Mayo. We did realize you were talking to him.
Thanks for coming back and clarifying.
Batman i believe was a guess at your secret identity.
Because Mayo HATES them. They don't mean nearly as much as the people you like and they're evil. You have to believe that was Mayo and he was taking up for the porchies doncha. I think it will kill you to believe otherwise.
No, it just annoyed me that the first anon was unable to comprehend to whom the comment was directed, and, as a result, jumped to completely the wrong conclusion by writing an antagonistic response.
You should show some respect or at least some consideration for those who have remained here and have been pretty damn entertaining over the last few days
But those people don't deserve respect wise anon with eyes open. Only certain people do. The people that have been here aren't entertaining at all. They're all dull, boring, dumb, can't make words and don't contribute a thing to this place. They never have.
You are not entitled to have an opinion either. You're a nameless nothing.
I know that's not what faraway said. But damn. It feels that way sometimes.
He was NOT 'trashing Amy" MOST of these veiled comments, in my opinion, have been taking Amy's side. I really think that Mayo agrees with her Fix, and her Guidelines. I also think that the post that everyone thinks was against her, was actually AGREEING with her.
Think about it. The others SAID that this blog was not that important to them. It must not be important because they are the ones who trashed it.
You want to talk antagonistic? Posting poetry just BECAUSE they knew Amy didn't want it here.
"Orange Little Bees", PROFIE.
I'm sure by now Mayo can see who ran his blog into the ground. They are truly beyond pathetic.
Why apologize just for telling the truth? All Amy did was that. She told the truth. There is no need for her to apoligize. it was her opinion of who ruined the blog.
I didn't see anyone apoligizing to her, extending an olive branch to HER, after they did all of the antagonistic things they did. The endless poetry after she asked it to stop. The endless quotes. The poem that is STILL up at the porch, mocking The Fix.
Were there apologies from those people?
of course not.
Perhaps FASC owes an apology as well.
I know that's not what faraway said. But damn. It feels that way sometimes
What are you trying to do? Make Faraway look bad? You do have a way with doing that.
7.14 I know he's never trashed Amy. They just think he did.
7.17 I can't make anybody look bad. Only they can do that.
You expressed you opinion. Faraway expressed hers. Other anons expressed theirs. I expressed mine.
I don't see a problem there.
Perhaps FASC owes an apology as well.
March 10, 2009 7:14 PM
Faraway don't owe anything to anybody! You just got mad at her because she does like the porchies. Faraway like eveyone but you just have to put your spin on things.
Faraway has enough balls to say what she feels signed in. You evil anons do not.
Well that's ironic, another anon sayign "evil anons" not having the courage to sign in.
Especially when we all know that you are TS, a porchie ass kisser.
7.17 I can't make anybody look bad. Only they can do that.
You are making yourself look bad.
Well that's ironic, another anon sayign "evil anons" not having the courage to sign in.
You are evil. I don't come here to talk shit about others.
Mya?
*ding ding ding*
That's what i thought.
Hi Blog Hi Mayo
Finally got home. Went to see Watchmen today and all I can say is “wow” I loved it. I saw it on an IMAX screen and it was so awesome and very loud. Just as it should be. Loved the guy who played Rorschack. He really fit the part. And you know it’s kinda nice in a way to go to a movie and see more guy uh…dangly parts and butts then women’s nudity. Seems kinda fair for a change. Oh and I loved all the little things that are in the movie that if you’re not watching closely you’ll miss. And man oh man was Desolation Row loud during the credits. It was perfect. Poor Fred sat there rolling her eyes but she did have to admit she really had a good time and loved the movie.
Great to see you post, Mayo. Loved your words but I’m still thinking on them.
Well gotta get some work done.
Is it ok if Mayo posts his poems here? Just wondering. I know how much it upsets Amy. Maybe he is just posting poetry to piss her off.
Mya the one who goes to church?
Is it ok if Mayo posts his poems here?
I guess he needs to ask himself if he can post poems on his blog.O_O
Anonymous said...
I don't think Mayo was speaking out against them anon. I suggest you re-read the comment.
March 10, 2009 6:37 PM
You were right 6.37. Mayo wasn't speaking at all. Guess you just don't know his voice.
rolls eyes
MANY of us go to church anon. What does our religion have to do with anything?
Are you going to get the (b)witches to fly in on their brooms and put a curse on us?
Our God is an awesome God and He can fry a witch to a crisp - with a thought.
7.26 No worse than you.
Amy says she is hurt by the poetry Kapu posts.
Amy calls Kapu scum, bitch and c*nt. THAT is hurtful.
Remember; poetry will never hurt you.
7:40, I am fully aware the comment was not made by Mayo. I never said it was.
Here, you may need these...
*rolls eyes back to you*
MANY of us go to church anon. What does our religion have to do with anything?
I believe in God too. I was just wondering if they taught you to judge people and call people names in church?
Here, you may need these...
*rolls eyes back to you*
LMAO.
Are you going to get the (b)witches to fly in on their brooms and put a curse on us?
Yes, it is Mya.
I think there have been sparks of the old days recently and I hope it continues.
People make their choices and this is only a blog on the internet for fucks sake...
March 10, 2009 6:48 PM
That's the problme 6.48. Don't you see that.
Some of them really thought this blog would fall apart without Kapunua and the crew they like. They really believed Mayo went on a "permanent vacation" because she and they weren't here.
They hoped this place would fall apart and Mayo would walk away.
The blog does still have it's spark, there is still light and Mayo didn't walk away. They can believe it. They can't believe they were wrong. They can't believe Mayo would come back to the ones who are left.
They don't understand how this could happen. They are shell shocked and doing what shell shocked people do.
Anonymous said...
I don't think Mayo was speaking out against them anon. I suggest you re-read the comment.
March 10, 2009 6:37 PM
6:37 said...
7:40, I am fully aware the comment was not made by Mayo. I never said it was.
Would you like to reword your comment at 6.37 6.37?
More like YOU were worried it would fall apart without Kapu and her crew. They never said they were leaving either. Look at the comments. Would you be interested in reading this garbage on YOUR blog? I know I wouldn't.
No thanks, 7:56. It's just fine as it is.
I don't think Mayo was speaking out against them anon. I suggest you re-read the comment.
March 10, 2009 6:37 PM
I believe in God too. I was just wondering if they taught you to judge people and call people names in church?
March 10, 2009 7:49 PM
No anon. They did that here. Go back and read the first 6 months worth of blogs.
Then we agree. Mayo wasn't speaking out against anybody. Mayo wasn't speaking at all.
Bingo!
Some of them really thought this blog would fall apart without Kapunua and the crew they like. They really believed Mayo went on a "permanent vacation" because she and they weren't here.
They hoped this place would fall apart and Mayo would walk away.
The blog does still have it's spark, there is still light and Mayo didn't walk away. They can believe it. They can't believe they were wrong. They can't believe Mayo would come back to the ones who are left.
There are alot of good people here.I don't think that the other's would think this blog would fall apart without them. Nobody is saying this blog is no good without them. However people like you bring them up constantly. They have not posted here much at all. YOU bring them up even when they are not here. I do like them as much as i like alot of the bloggers here. If this place falls apart it will be because of all the bullshit you bring in here eveyday. People get tired of hearing all of the name calling back and forth.
Anonymous said...
More like YOU were worried it would fall apart without Kapu and her crew.
Nope. I can't say that I was worried about that. This blog was made up of more than 4 or 5 people. You only see the value in those 4 or 5. I see value in many of the people here and ones who've left. Not just one group.
8.01 Will you ever realize that not all anons are ONE. WE are not a YOU. Do you even know how many were here today? It wasn't just me you were talking to. Stop with the YOU. Will YOU.
8.01 Will you ever realize that not all anons are ONE. WE are not a YOU. Do you even know how many were here today? It wasn't just me you were talking to. Stop with the YOU. Will YOU.
March 10, 2009 8:08 PM
I think i reposted the comment to whom i was addressing.
8:08
Its just ignorance I'm afraid. They probably cannot grasp the concept of a number of people in conversation.
I guess we should pity more than scorn.....
So many pronouns, too little time.
I guess we should pity more than scorn.....
You can scorn me all you want. I pity you.
Anonymous said...
let's wait and see how long mayo keeps this blog going now kapu and her friends have left... something tells me this place no longer holds his interest. just sayin.
March 5, 2009 6:20 PM
Anonymous said...
I don't think that the other's would think this blog would fall apart without them. Nobody is saying this blog is no good without them.
ORLY? Somebody did say it on March 5, 3009 6:20 PM.
That was YOU wasn't it anon? YOU are all one.
Can I join the pity party?
*is already wearing her party hat*
No? Okay. I shouldn't be on for long anyway.
Mayonaise, your post reminds me of Rise Against's song "The good left undone", especially the chorus where it says:
"I haven't slept in so long,
When I do I dream,
Of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore,
Where I can lay my head down.
I'll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out."
Sometimes, being saved is as simple as that.
8.14 I think you're right. Pity it is.
rolls eyes and a bingo ball at 6.37
g'nite
G'nite Amyranth
ORLY? Somebody did say it on March 5, 3009 6:20 PM.
That was YOU wasn't it anon? YOU are all one
Nope. The second one was me. I wouldn't say what was in the first one.
Goodnight Anon.
Amy
They are beautiful lyrics. I must check out the song.
Thanks!
Glad Mayo is hearing you Amy.
8:33, it's a very good CD. It's from The Sufferer and The Witness, Rise Against second most recent CD.
8:34, seems more to me like he's hearing the ocean. :)
Also, it's a good thing to keep in mind that Mayo has said before that he writes for himself, and nobody else. I try to remember that as much as possible.
Hi Amy
AMy I have to say this.
I believe in you.
I believe that the can of whop ass you opened up on them was for the good of the blog.
I think that you were just saying your opinion. If you don't like them.... if you think they are pathetic, cunts, scum, whatever, you have a RIGHT to say that and NO ONE an take away your right to say that.
I see where you got angry at them but I don't think there is anything wrong with that. Your anger came from your care, caring about Mayo and his blog.
I know alot of feelings were hurt but I don't think you are to blame. Where is the olive branch extended to you? Where are the apologies for goading you on, with poetry and quotes when they knew you hated it? That is WHY they were doing it. We all know it's true.
And no apology in sight over those insults to YOU.
But... yet people still get on YOUR case for getting mad about the goading. The quotes. The poetry.
I believe that the things you said were because you cared. I think Mayo DOES see that even if he's not saying it, signed in sealed and delivered.
But even if he doesn't see it, the rest of us do.
Thanks Anon. :)
Hallo Elena! How's it going?
You are welcome Amyranth. I stand by what I said and what YOU said about THEM. You have the right to express your opinion. Just because they are "close friends" does not mean that they can't get called out by you.
You keep doing what you are doing. You make the rest of us proud!!
Don't hold back either. Don't be ashamed. You are strong and you care deeply about this blog...!
If you don't like them.... if you think they are pathetic, cunts, scum, whatever, you have a RIGHT to say that and NO ONE an take away your right to say that.
Amyranth, is that how you feel about them?
Going okay, Amy
How's it going with you?
8:56, it is unfortunate that I can't really reply to that. People continually put words in my mouth, and regardless of the vowels and consonants I spit back on the floor, there is always someone who claims they came out whole.
Not bad Elena. Just surfing around. I had to put the Wii down for a bit, I was getting frustrated.
How was work? Any new comics?
Those WERE her words anon. No one put them there. You know how she feels.
Apparently some people agree with her. Oh well.
8:56, see 9:12.
"8:56, it is unfortunate that I can't really reply to that. "
That IS the reply.
If she didn't, she would just say "no I don't feel like that".
But I do support Amy's right to think that about them.
I STILL want to know why it was so LOL when Mayo said Cunt, but so terrible when Wendy and Amy called Kapu a cunt.
That is what I call, hypocritical.
8:56
I can't say that's how Amy feels about anyone. I can say Mayo feels she has the right to call whoever she wants whatever she wants. He apparently understands that maybe The integrity of his emotions and his true feelings could not be completely or properly expressed without such words and phrases.
He make a blog post about encouraging a friend to do just that. Kapunua agreed. Proof provided.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Have you been inspired?
A few weeks ago I was talking to a friend of mine who told me that he was feeling pressured to modify is behavior. In particular, his use of profanity was called into question. He went on to tell me that his superiors consider particular words and phrases to be offensive.
So, he was asked, and then ordered, to suppress his usage of the following words: fuck, motherfucker, cocksucker, cunt, prick, bastard, jackass, asshole, shit, damn, fuck-head, and ass-fuck, and phrases such as: shut the fuck up fuck-wit, fuck you, motherfucking ass licking jerk off, ass wipe fuck puppet, shit for brains, no good motherfucking son-of-a-bitch cocksucker.
He tried to plead his case to his superiors. My friend expressed his concern to them that without such words and phrases his intentions would be misinterpreted. He explained that he would be hard pressed to find alternative ways to express himself. The integrity of his emotions and his true feelings could not be completely or properly expressed without such words and phrases.
He refused restraint.
His superiors told him “Tough shit.” And that is why he called me. So I gave him this piece of advice, I told him “Why the fuck do you care what they fucking think? If they find what you say to be offensive tell them to fucking ignore you.”
My friend quietly contemplated my advice and then said “Fuck yeah, that’s what I’m gonna do.”
He has since lost his job, but he sure is a happy little motherfucker!
p.s. I agree repetition may be in order.
Posted by Mayonaise at Monday, February 25, 2008
kapunua said...
Your friend should come work with me. We encourage that kind of talk at my job.
How are you, Mayo?
February 25, 2008 9:33 PM
kapunua said...
FIRST! SNAP!
February 25, 2008 9:33 PM
mustardisbetter said...
fuck, motherfucker, cocksucker, cunt, prick, bastard, jackass, asshole, shit, damn, fuck-head, and ass-fuck, and phrases such as: shut the fuck up fuck-wit, fuck you, mother fucking ass licking jerk off, ass wipe fuck puppet, shit for brains, no good motherfucking son-of-a-bitch cocksucker.
2nd laugh of the day, Mayo. :)
February 25, 2008 9:35 PM
sdock10 said...
Fuck yes, I can relate to that.
February 25, 2008 9:35 PM
kapunua said...
He refused restraint.
Sissy.
Anyways Mayo, you know what my favorite one is? "Assheaded rodeo clown." My other best ones are "pelvis-climbing whorebag," "cum-guzzling guttersnipe," and "lech-hearted hose-hound."
Sorry Mom. But you know you think that's funny, too.
I know she didn't agree with it just because it was Mayo who said it. She wouldn't do that. She did encourage that kind of "talk" at her workplace.
EN GARDE
Stand back everybody. This sword is huge.
hits self on head and knocks self out
zzzzzzzzzzz
Right so her and her friends can call each other a whorebag but when Wendy or Amy calls her a cunt somehow that is wrong.
OK, HYPOCRITE.
Also if you read her journal she has NO problem calling the man she used to work for who fired her, DR DICKWEED.
First she blames her dog's illness on him and then when she finds out that it is NOT his fault and the dog is a freak, she does not take back what she said about him.
HYPOCRITE.
Mayo
Good to see you today. I’m still thinking on your words. Don’t know why but something in them is really making me think. Wow, making me think, that’s a good sign - I think. For a long time now I’ve sorta had my brain turned off. Too much to deal with truthfully. I think it’s kind of a self preservation thing with me. I can only deal with so much at a time.
Anyway, I see you’re still on vacation. That’s good I think. Hope you enjoyed the ball of twine. Fred is going to do an artists rendition as soon as she gets time. So are you wondering about your next destination? Sure you are. How about visiting Big Dick’s Halfway Inn? It is in Gravois Mills, Mo. I figured since you’re in Kansas that traveling to Missouri won’t tire you out too much. It’s at the Lake of the Ozarks, which is really a beautiful place. Getting to Big Dick’s is half the fun. Along the way a fence is decorated with hundreds of old tennis shoes, some of which even match. No one knows how this really started but it is still growing. Maybe you’d like to add a shoe to the fence? Seriously this is a real place and notice how I haven’t even made one little comment about the name? I’ve very proud of myself. Of course you’ll want to pick up some souvenirs. Really how could you pass up a tee that says “I love Big Dick’s” Once again Elena is refraining herself from making a comment.
So head on down to Big Dick’s. (snicker) Kick back and take in the sights. Maybe do a bit more fishing. But whatever you do just enjoy yourself. It is a vacation after all
Well I gotta go. I watched the first “Riddick” movie. I really liked it and so tonight I’m gonna watch the next one. Not sure why I’d never watched these before but I’m glad I’m doing it now. Only thing is it means I won’t be here to talk with my friends tonight. That always makes me sad. You know my heart is here, Mayo. Has been for a long time. Guess I had to park it somewhere for safe keeping. And I’m glad I did.
Take care
Night Mayo
Elena ("To suddenly deliver me
Upon the edge was all
That I was meant to be." – Very moving words)
Still talking about Kapunua. You want her to leave but you talk about her all the time. I think you ♥ her.
Thank you anon. It's like she is right here with us. Thanks for keeping her memory alive. BTW can i call you Kapunua since you know everything about her?
No, that would be an insult to me. I do not like her but I hate hypocrisy. Why is it OK for other people to use those words and her friends to call each other whorebag but when someone else calls her a cunt or any other name all of a sudden that is a bad thing? And she is STILL going after the old boss.
If you don't like her i wouldn't worry about it.
I think some of you are lusting after Amy. She's driving you mad with desire. That's why you keep bringing up "The Fix" and her using the "c" word and saying bitch.
You want her. You want her to fix YOU and fix you good. Doncha anon. You're sweating right now just thinking about Amy's Fix.
Get over it. Not gonna happen. Move on. If you do I will.
I didn't say that i didn't like Amy. What, can people not like Kapunua and Amy?
There is no LUST just respect. I respect Amy for speaking her mind. So what if she used "bad" words. So what!
10:00 and 10:01 you have every right to like Amy. I like her too.
It's 8:56 and 9:16 that concern me. I think they're obsessed with having Amy "Fix" them. They talk about her and that fix so much. They're obsessed. Obsessed i tell ya.
Can we talk about Entropy now? I want to be obsessed with her. How can we get her to come back so I can begin my obsession?
Anonymous said...
Anonymous said...
More like YOU were worried it would fall apart without Kapu and her crew.
Nope. I can't say that I was worried about that. This blog was made up of more than 4 or 5 people. You only see the value in those 4 or 5. I see value in many of the people here and ones who've left. Not just one group.
March 10, 2009 8:05 PM
QFT
goodnight
back from titoring and I have groceries!
who'd like a nice salad of cos lettuce, oven roasted herbed tomatoes, grilled haloumi cheese, avocado, smoked salmon, grilled prawns and a nice sour cream dressing served with toasted garlic turkish bread?
Once again Elena is refraining herself from making a comment.
oh you have far more restraint than me!! What is pushing it's way to te forefront of my mind is..
"do u find it wessiball wen I mension my friend Biggus Dickus? ...
hey mayo,
for some reason i really thought you were going to wait until friday the 13th. huh. gotta adjust my radar. *grin*
it's very good to have a new poem from you. i'm glad you took the plunge. that's what life is about.
hello ergo. :)
what's turkish bread?
hi fasc and thanks, but I do have the benefit of it being daytime while I am here on the blog, I am not a night person, so it really is time zones
but I love catching you when you do make it to buzz by.
and the stirring is the most disappointing and annyoying thing regardless of who it is directed at, I still wonder about it's purpose, but no one ever speaks to that question so we may never know
it's like a flattish bread with quite distict air pockets, called Pide
hello!
how are you?
and hey Mayo, just wondering too, if the hand you grasped was with yourself all along
ooh, sounds like an interesting bread, ergo. yum!
i'm doing okay. how are you?
good thanks, got the day off apart from titoring and he's lovely so all in all a good day, and I am planning the next 3 nights meals
planning meals can be lots of fun...i used to go on new recipe kicks every once in a while.
I always get it walking in the supermarket, I see something and think...ooh I can do that!
today the smoked salmon was on clearance as it's near it's use by and the prawns were on sale and I don't need many, it's kind of a dish I had at a restaurant, I made it at home once already, but today I'm adding the cheese and prawns too
the oven-roasted herbed tomatoes sound particularly delish, but i don't think i've ever heard of that cheese.
Hey girls! What's the scoop?
hello J!!
Tj haloumi is an odd cheese you don't eat it raw, it's kind of a salty plasticy texture, sort of, like it squeaks on your teeth kind of, and you slice it and fry it to golden on each side. It doesn't melt it goes crispy on the outside and soft on the inside.
it is very very nice in salads with olives and tomato and such
mint chocolate chip?
butter brickle?
pistachio?
forgot to say it's from Cyprus
i'll google a pic foryou
squeaky, huh? like the way cottage cheese does? sounds like a little adventure!
uncooked
MMM, ice cream. That would be good right now, it was 80 degrees today!
L requests soycream, butter pecan, and I'd like some...peach, I think.
Yummy.
Is the haloumi in the same category as parmesan?
And does the squeak mean it comes with its own mouse?
Hey guys
cooked
it's sheep milk I think, but they mix it with cows milk, it's cheaper to buy than pure milk ones
what have you been up to J?
I got a silver jump ring so I can wear Albert on my chain
TJ J and L found a glass charm which is blue like Albert the butterfly, I got it in the mail yesterday :]
*quick changes into a white uniform and white cap*
presto!
your ice cream, milady j., and a scoop for milady l., as well.
*sets out a cardboard tray, two gourmet honey waffle cones laden with ice cream snugged inside*
hi BC how was school?
it'd be an annoyed wet mouse J, they keep haloumi in brine, perhaps a Jacques Cousteau of mice?
hi there bc. :)
that was very thoughtful of them, ergo. blue charms are good luck, as well.
excuse me Miss Ice Cream Lady?
Can I have some butterscotch flavour please?
Oh, I'm so glad you're able to wear it, Ergo! L looked especially for a butterfly charm, so when she found the blue one with the little crystals, she thought that would be perfect for you.
Thank you very much, Ice Cream Lady TJ. Yum yum yum!
i once did a research project on bronze age greece (including meal plans), ergo -- that cheese sounds like it's a very traditional one.
BC! I missed you there! Sorry, hon. *hugs* You had school today?
Ergo, L wanted me to ask if you've ever grilled tofu to put in salads? TJ, I guess you could answer this one, too, since you're into tofu and such.
Hiya TJ, ergo, J. Ergo, school was okay. It was a wet morning and afternoon. I have a test on Thursday, and I start vacation next week. Woo.
I'm getting my hair dyed as well.
*does wonder woman spin into uniform*
*has a waffle cone brimming with butterscotch in hand*
and there you are, milady ergo.
10:08, you were a long way back but you made me LOL.
i've only had fried tofu a few times, j. -- always in a vegetarian general tso's chicken. it was good.
bc, what color are you dying your hair?
I think it is Tj if you ever get the chance try it, I suppose it tastes like feta but the texture is really unique and being able to have it hot makes a great addition to a salad
I shall wear it with pride J, might even wear it tomorrow.
Tj thanks for the blue charm info, that makes it triple special now!
(btw TJ can you email me an address for you now? I had something to send over and want to check I'm up to date)
it sounds like it would be, ergo. i'm going to keep my eye out for it -- but have little hope of finding an exotic cheese anywhere near me for now. *sigh*
:)
blue charms are also considered to be protective, ergo.
and now i'll go email you my address!
Ok, TJ, thanks! And the info about blue charms is really cool, I didn't know that.
Wet mouse, Ergo. HA! Good visual.
What's your test in, BC?
tell L I haven't cooked with tofu at all. J. It's never grabbed me, though I have had it eating out. I like the marinated stuff, or with a strong sauce, I think it's taste and texture alone doesn't really appeal to me.
(the hard stuff, not silken)
I should try it though, I ahve recipes that look nice
*makes mental note to try cooking tofu*
hello carrie!
how are you? no more icescapades?
phew, that took a long time. my email is glacially slow tonight.
hello carrie. :)
Hey carrie. J, it's going to be on the Middle East.
TJ, I'll probably dye it a chestnut brown or something. A color that can compliment my light olive skin. I'm tired of black already.
LOl carrie, so no cover shots just at the moment?
glad you didn't suffer too much
Hey Carrie!
Ergo, I read L what you wrote about the tofu. She says since she still owes you some recipes, she'll send some tofu ones too. There's apparently a really good tofu and ginger sauce one that she likes.
the Used did carrie? wow
I really love Tom Jones version of that
thanks Tj thought it might be the same but better to check
oh awesome J. let L know I'll look forward to them :]
that will look pretty, bc. :)
BC, maybe a honey-brown would look good, or even a dark auburn? Whatever you choose, please post a picture when it's done. Or email one. I'm anxious to see it!
Ladies, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to head out. Enjoy your day/night/whatever, and sleep well! Goodnight.
Mayo, from your poem, it seems that you found inner strength that you didn't know you had--until you remembered what someone had told you. See, you CAN trust in yourself to face things head-on. Goodnight.
love, faith, hope, peace, happiness
Glad you found it, Mayo. I hope it continues, you deserve it.
time for me to get ready for bed, but i finally got caught up on the comments from the last post, and i hope your hubby liked the jokes, ergo! :)
good night, all.
Dear SS,
Have you sent those "holiday snaps" yet? You know, I realized yesterday that you probably wouldn't have the camera ON you at the time. Maybe one of the guards could take the pics for you. ;)
Hope you're well! Take care.
Goodnight, Precious. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
goodnight J sweet dreams
goodnight Tj sweet dreams too
(and I got a "look" for the jokes, I do like the Fsh, I have been telling that to everyone)
mayo,
reading your poem, i was reminded of the way i think about doing new things. for me, it's always like jumping off a cliff. you don't know where or how you will land, but jumping is necessary. a leap of faith, you know?
but this line:
So, I went under
And swallowed
The surge.
it tells me that it was more than just a jump that you took. there was no protective holding of your breath, you not only jumped but also opened yourself up to being engulfed.
very bravely done, mayo, and clearly, the reward was great.
i'm alone right now. the only friends i have are here. there is no one reaching out to hold my hand, and that's alright. maybe someday i'll take the plunge again, too.
but reading this poem reminds me what it felt like when i first met my ex, those days in college when we became each other's world. such a good feeling.
i'm so glad you have that feeling, mayo.
this poem truly makes me smile.
good night, mayo. sweet dreams.
Goodnight TJ, J, Carrie, sweet dreams guys.
Oh fantastic!!!
I saw you mention a snocone exp on FB and was wondering if Annie had done hers, I'll go look!
tell her huge congrats!!
J, I definitely will. I'll post pics as soon as that happens. Sweet dreams, and thanks to you too tj :)
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