You startled me
In not so much your words,
But your approach.
It was fast
And filled my head
With nonsense words
And warmth
When you weren’t there.
So, I went under
And swallowed
The surge. And above
My head is swirling water.
My hand slapping at the surface,
Desperate for structure
Steep stone. Then
My fingers finding rooted edge
Holding ground,
Finally. Almost out of breath
When I pulled myself up.
Entwined in mine, fingers
Not rooted mass, but flesh.
That took the shape
Of mysteries ability
To suddenly deliver me
Upon the edge was all
That I was meant to be.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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Wait a minute. Isn't it Sunday there? They're having you come to a seminar on Sunday?
yep it is sunday
it is often a weeknight but this time this was the most convenient, it's not fully compulsory but they do like you to go
Ah. When I was still practicing as a speech pathologist, we had to do the continuing education courses every year. We needed about 150 CE hours yearly. I always tried to find ones that were out of state so I could spend a night in a hotel! heeheehee See, the facility you worked for would pay for the hotel, but you had to pay for extras. Pretty nice deal.
I wish this was!!
I went to a couple that were in other towns so you had to stay over, pretty cushy if you can!
Most definitely! As they say, nice work if you can get it! :D
Although the actual work wasn't always so good...ah well, prices to pay. ;)
What's your seminar about?
training on doing particular paperwork. It's sort of hard to explain unless you're in the field, but though it's easy it has to be done properly, so they sort of check you know it all, and it's always useful to refresh
I'm hoping they'll have afternoon tea
gotta go
love to all!!
byeeee xx
*stretches*
Okay, okay. I'm up, I'm up.
*sports her morning mullet*
Hallo amy. See you later ergo
Hallo BC, how's it going?
Bye Ergo, have a delightful time! *coughyeahrightcough*
Amy? Just now getting up?
Nothing much Amy, just downloading some songs. How about you?
Hey J!
To an extent, I did sleep really late today, and it was so frigging nice.
We had sushi too, which always knocks me out.
What's up with you?
Fresh off a fun-filled night (last night) of loading eBay shit, A! We didn't go to bed until about 5 this morning! And I think I'm getting sick again!
Sent you an email just now, BTW.
J, sick again? Christ. I'm getting you an isolation bubble for Christmas.
BC, isn't that iPod begging for mercy yet? Did you get those COF songs?
Just sinus trouble this time, Amy. But I still feel kinda *blahg*.
One of the perils of being Type I diabetic.
Have either of you heard the new U2 single, "Get On Your Boots"? It's really really good.
I haven't J, but I don't really listen to the radio anymore. I'm so stuck in the 90's it's unbelievable.
I haven't really been sick in awhile, *knock on wood paneling* but we've got Neo Citran round these parts for illnesses.
Well, I hate to hit and run, girls, but I'm getting tired, and besides, I still have to feed the cats. Be talking to you...whenever, I guess. ;)
Goodnight Mayo, you really should get that listing problem looked at. Sounds like you need to be aligned.
love, faith, hope, peace, happiness
Lol nope not yet Amy. My ipod can hold 2,000 songs, so I'm still adding more at the very minute ^_^
Goodnight J, sweet dreams
P.S. I did get some of the cof songs
Night J, I bounced you back, BTW.
BC, 2000? Yeah, I think I have like... 180 on my computer, and less than that on my MP3 player.
I still can't imagine having that much music that I'd want to carry around with me.
Is it a basic iPod, or does it have a video screen?
SS baby,
Just a note to say "I love you."
Also, "I miss you."
And adding to that, "Hope you're well, with days filled with music and nights filled with stars."
Goodnight, honey.
♥ - ♥
Amy, yep, mines has a video screen
Lucky!
Okay, I'd totally fill that bugger up then.
I am totally trying my best to fill that bastard up. Almost all of my memory is full because of the tv shows and podcasts I had downloaded on it, but so far I added at least close to 14 more songs to it
Not bad! What TV shows?
Just a few Buffy episodes, but I'll probably add some anime shows too. There's some good ones I saw on Itunes I want to check out. The only thing I don't like about shows is that they take a good chunk of your ipod memory, so you can download maybe only a few episodes
I suppose it doesn't matter if they're hourlong or half hour, does it? I mean, technically a half hour show is only 20 or so minutes long, due to commercials, and I bet you don't have the option of downloading the commercials.
Anyway, I'm gonna run. Everyone's asleep and I'm starting to get drowsy here too. I'll see you tomorrow BC! Have fun!
Goodnight amy sweet dreams
Mayo
I can't be here but I still had to tell you goodnight. Cause that's just how I roll!
Night Mayo
Elena
I'm back and it wasn't too bad
actually did learn something new that I'll need :]
goodnight everyone who's gone to bed
i'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaack. :)
i don't think anyone is here, and anyway i'm pretty damn tired, so i'm just going to write my good night and crash.
good night blog. sweet dreams. :)
mayo,
it was a fun night. it really was. we hung out, played video games, drank, talked...
not really a "party", not like the last one i went to, just a very enjoyable evening. and i did have that awkward moment, just in the door, standing there after being introduced, not knowing where to sit.
but i waited it out, and everything was fine.
and now i'm tired, the buzz is gone, i get to write my good night to you, and i'm content.
good night, mayo, even though it's really nearly morning. hope your first cup of coffee is perfect. *grin*
Mayo
I just feel this song, you know...just one of those really good moods..
Donovan - Mellow Yellow
I'm just mad about Saffron
Saffron's mad about me
I'm just mad about Saffron
She's just mad about me
{Refrain}
They call me mellow yellow
(Quite rightly)
They call me mellow yellow
(Quite rightly)
They call me mellow yellow
I'm just mad about Fortean
Fourteen's mad about me
I'm just mad about Fortean
She's just mad about me
{Refrain}
Born high forever to fly
Wind velocity nil
Wanna high forever to fly
If you want your cup o'er fill
{Refrain}
(So mellow, he's so yellow)
Electrical banana
Is gonna be a sudden craze
Electrical banana
Is bound to be the very next phase
They call it mellow yellow
(Quite rightly)
They call me mellow yellow
(Quite rightly)
They call me mellow yellow
Saffron -- yeah
I'm just mad about her
I'm just mad about Saffron
She's just mad about me
{Refrain}
(Oh so yellow, oh so mellow)
sing along
much love Ep xx
SS
this is one of my favourite songs a real up there at the top fave, I know I say that a lot but this is a great one. It always makes me happy, if you've never heard it you must listen, the lyrics are only part of it's greatness, the tune is fantastic
Albert Hammond - Free Electric Band
My father is a doctor, he's a family man
My mother works for charity whenever she can
They're both good clean Americans who abide by the law
They both stick up for liberty and they both support the war.
My happiness was paid for when they laid their money down
For summers in a summercamp and winters in the town
My future in the system was talked about and planned
But I gave it up for music and the Free Electric Band.
I went to school in handwashed shirts with neatly oiled hair
And the school was big and newly built and filled with light and air
And the teacher taught us values that we had to learn to keep
And they clipped the ear of many idle kid who went to sleep.
Till my father organised for me a college in the east
But I went to California for the sunshine and the beach
My parents and my lecturers could never understand
Why I gave it up for music and the Free electric band.
Well they used to sit and speculated upon their son's career
A lawyer or a docter or a civil engineer
Just give me bread and water, put a guitar in my hand
'Cos all I need is music and the Free Electric Band.
My father sent me money and I spent it pretty fast
On a girl I met in Berkley in a social science class
Yes and we learned about her body but her mind we did not know
Until deep routed attitudes and morals began to show
She wanted to get married even though she never said
And I knew her well enough by now to see inside her head
She'd settle for suburbia and a little patch of land
So I gave her up for music and the Free Electric Band.
Oooh the Free Electric Band.
shaladah badup dup dee dee dee with Free Electric Band.
shaladah badup dup dee dee dee with Free Electric Band.
shaladah badup dup dee dee dee with Free Electric Band.
sing along
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
hey fasc adn sdock if you call by.
enjoy the last bit of your weekends everybody!
Ergo
I love The Free Electric Band too, and Rebecca and really all of them. Discovered Albert Hammond when in university and a friend's older sister loved him.
Thanks for the reminder.
Sleep tight.
Hi Mayo! So, how are you?
Tell you what I miss. I miss going through your poems and picking them apart, telling you and others what they mean to me and reading what they mean to other folks. I wonder if you miss that, too. I would if it were my words. And I kinda want to, but you know the firestorm that will happen if I do. (And I would so be teasing you about "I swallowed." LOL, Mayo, you totally said "I went under and swallowed." Haha! I would ask you if you'd neglected to put a possessive apostrophe after "mysteries'" or if I'd misunderstood the phrase. I'd say that it was interesting how you had already saved yourself before this other hand came along. But, yeah, mostly I'd be teasing you about saying you'd swallowed the surge. ^_^ )
I'd love to tell you "Oh, it doesn't bug me," but the truth is that it's really built up to a point where it does bug me. I'm tired of it and I'm seriously seriously trying to cut down in my "useless garbage" daily quota, so to be honest, I haven't really back-read. Let's hope that I don't. But sometimes it's tempting to! You know, to see if you've been around, if S(S)S has been around, and if Calaf has been around.
Would you, Mayo? Would you back-read, or do you think it wouldn't be worth it? I guess I'll decide when I post this. Sometimes you can get a feel of the "blog climate" from the previous few comments. ;)
The point is that I miss you, I miss S(S)S, I miss Calaf, I miss Mustard, damn I miss lots of people. (But I'll be honest with ya, sometimes I just really miss Splash a lot. We were tight. Well, as "tight" as you can get with someone whom you only know by a first name. Muse's "Blackout" came on my shuffle yesterday and I was thinking how that was her song. Then I was thinking about the time we pulled "My Blue Heaven" apart note by note. Remember that, Mayo? Oh man, that was fun. I miss her.)
And Calaf. Calaf, are you still around? I don't need to know who you are (yet. ;D ) I just want to know if you're still out there in the ethers doing all right, doing your thing, reading Shakespeare, taking ridiculously spot-on guesses at the answers to people's vague questions and all that other stuff. I miss that, too.
Anyway. So Haku, my little sadee napai'aishe mukua, my tali adonvdo gili, my two-spirit dog, appears to be on the mend. He will probably be okay. Well, as okay as you can be with one kidney to get you through life. He was just born that way, like he was born with a penis and a uterus in the middle, and a testicle on one side and an ovary on the other. It remains to be seen (and probably always will) whether he's XY, XXY, XXYOMGWTF or whatever. I'm curious, but it doesn't matter. He's my two-spirit.
Mayo, I was so upset that day and all I was thinking about was how badly I would take it if I lost him. I know to some people it's just a dog, but you know (obviously) how I am with my dogs. When they were thinking he had a brain tumor I was inconsolable. But now (even though the liver biopsies aren't back yet) everyone is fairly sure that the seizure was caused by pyo (dude, uterine infection, male dog!) and that he'll be okay. (*Knock wood*)
I like to think that I'm "pre-disastered" now but I know that's not true. You know, when you're pre-disastered? When enough junk has happened that you feel you and your loved ones ought to be "safe" for a few years? I know that's irrational, because obviously there are those people who suffer so much; you know, "whom unmerciful disaster followed fast and followed faster" and all of that. I mean, it's life. There's no time-out, there's no base. But irrationally I still think that way.
Let's see, what else. So, I got an A on my anatomy and physiology mid term! I'm so happy. My score was 91. The second highest was 87 so he set the curve at 13 points, which gave me 100 and allowed most of the rest of the class to pass. The professor was so kind to the ones who didn't pass. They can take the class again and he said, "The ones who got 90 and up, they're the ones who go on to be administrators, or continue school, or go further into western or eastern medicine." (I had to laugh, because I utterly lack ambition when it comes to the business end of things. An administrator? LMFAO.) He said, "Those of you who didn't do as well as you liked, you will obviously still have a career. You're not going to fail. You're just going to get better." He's nice and everyone thinks he's so cute. It Niles Crane mated with Sting, their kid would look like this guy.
Welp, so now I am registered and enrolled for next semester. Now I'm in both schools so my next schedule includes classes on eastern medicine, western medicine and massage therapy. I figured, why not? I can handle it. ^_^;; Umm. And my trip is in the works, my taxes are done and filed, my midterms are over. I have a test Wednesday but I'm going to study for that tomorrow between classes. I promised myself I would not open a medical book--east or west--for this entire weekend. And not counting when I did in school yesterday, I'm sticking by that.
Today I'm just going to see to my dog, drink tea, do my laundry, water my plants (Mayo, oh my gosh, my grapefruit tree is blooming; citrus blossom is the BEST smell ever,) maybe a little gaming, and also work on my story. I haven't touched the thing in years but I joined this writing group, the head of which is a published author who really knows her stuff. She's given me such valuable critique and I feel really inspired to become a better writer. Well, that remains to be seen but it has made me want to write more.
Oh! Mayo, I wonder if you've had any crazy dreams lately. I've spoken to so many people who keep having these totally crazy dreams within the last few weeks. Mine have been "apocalyptic and insane" as the lyric goes. Seriously, like the sky falling, zombies, entire planets made out of lemon slices, and oh my god I just remembered the dream I had two weeks ago about the "genetic line of white dogs." Umm, wow. It was about Haku.
It's madness, how we know things before we even know them, isn't it? Has that ever happened to you? Have you ever been prescient like that? It's cool, but it makes you wonder why, right? I mean it's not like it helps. How does prescience help? It doesn't help you to avoid any bad situations usually; it just makes you feel weird in retrospect. But perhaps you're the type who knows before you know? If so, weird, isn't it?
Anyways. Hope you're having a great Sunday. S(S)S, you, too. I wonder if you're ever still around? Well either way, I hope you're doing really wonderful. Calaf, same goes. I want to say "Mustard" but I honestly don't think she even lurks. :/ I wish she'd just pop in one time and say hi or whatever. But, I get it, I really do.
Let me end this on a happy note, however. How about C? Everyone likes C, right? :)
We are the painters of unseen images. The singers of unheard songs. The caretakers of what has been lost.
We are that which you choose to ignore.
Good afternoon/evening/morning Mayo, SS, various anons, various watcher, various lurkers, everyone!!!
How are you all today? Did you all have a good night? I hope so!
Sorry I missed chatting with everyone last night. I was chatting on the phone with L!
*waves to L and J*
Then, I had some technical difficulties. All seems to be working properly now!
Ergo: An paperwork seminar with afternoon tea included sounds wonderful! Can I come?
;)
TJ: I'm glad to hear you had such a good time at the party!!!!
Sweetcheeks: 2000 songs?! I'm going to have to send you more!
A mullet, Amy? I would love to see a picture of that "morning mullet". I mean, I already saw a picture of you in the bathtub!
;)
I do believe that is all for now. I must now go shopping! Miss Bingles is out of her bunny food, the kitties need more canned kitty food, Sandy Ann and Tinker Belle require more Chicken Jerky and I need aspirin free excedrin.
Don't ya'll just love reading my shopping lists?!
;)
Ohh... and I need a new calculator!
Okay, that's it. I think!
Enjoy the day/night everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Possum, Kass, DL, FASC, RW and Miranth!
*runs back in to hug Count D*
Nice name!
That is just too funny.
blog is so much better without her garbage its not even funny.
Clearly 2:15's comment went straight over your head, 2:16.
2:21 i didnt even read that persons comment before i wrote mine.
Judge me? Who will be the one to judge me?
You are the winner.
The last one.
Just as you wished.
Count D = Kapunua.
They didn't win, they lost.
I saw Vampire Hunter D many years ago. I liked it.
I love Vampire Hunter D too. (That's the original artwork by Amano, and he's one of my favorite painters. I was a big VHD fangirl many many years ago, when the original was out. I liked it better than "Bloodlust" in fact. :)
But! Count D is from Pet Shop Of Horrors, a manga by Matsuri Akino.
It is my favorite manga; one of my favorite stories ever, in fact. I have a really strange relationship with this story that borders on spiritual. Count D is like my version of St. Francis, only darker, (prettier,) and full of wickedness. He dislikes humans as a whole, but he is kind to a few of them even if they don't "get" him. He sees animals in their true forms and will sacrifice much--even himself--to protect them.
The beginning of the manga tells stories of clients who go into his pet shop to fulfill their hopes and dreams, thinking that keeping something as a pet will complete them. And often the "pet" brings them their deepest desires. But if their desires are dark and selfish (and murderous, which most humans are in this story,) it usually ends in tragedy. Once in a while a lesson is learned, but much of it is just fully nihilistic.
D's enemy / ally is the american cop leon Orcot. (Not to be confused with RE4's american cop, Leon Kennedy. Don't ask me why so many american cops are named Leon...)
(And if anyone can tell me why a google image search of Leon Orcot turns up a picture of FRANK IERO, I'd be a little less confused.)
D and Leon by turns love and hate each other, trust and try to kill each other. It's pretty fascinating, all in all. :)
Interesting..... Two D's.
Vampire Hunter D had the hand thing.
There is actually an anime of the first four stories of Pet Shop Of Horrors. In fact that is what got me into the manga. The anime was pretty decent--nothing compared to the book, but are they ever?--but the best part of the whole thing was the song Delicious, from the story of the same name. ^_^
OH My GOD, yes, the hand.
A good friend of mine is a professional artist and she used to do porn on the side, just for kicks and commissions. It wasn't typical porn, it was sort of Amano-styled, really weird porn. Most of it was a joke, or to shock people. Anyway, she knew that VHD's sentient hand always freaked me out so one time she, well, she, yeah.
*cough*
Good times.
Hahaha OMG. Funny. :) Nice song too.....
Hi Mayo! Hi Jules! Hi SS! Hi anyone else that might be around!
Mayo,
Do not, I repeat, do not go see Last House On the Left. So not worth it and I'm disappointed. I've never seen the originial but I have a feeling it is wayyyyy better than this remake. Right now though, I can't wait for The Haunting In Connecticut. Yay!
For some strange reason, I can't get NIN out of my head today. Ya know the one from The Crow? Dead Souls or something like that? Yeah. I haven't heard it in forever either.
Hope your Sunday is going great so far. I have a nice Dune Grass candle burning, some fresh coconut to crunch on, a load of clothes washing and now LHM is playing his harmonica. O_o
*sigh*
What's everyone up to?
Oh, ha! I just thought of something that may have made me unintentionally think of NIN. Yesterday, Solly said, "Let's go home and watch Trevor Resnik." And I was like, "Oh, what's he gonna be on?" and she goes, "I'm talking about The Machinist. Not Trent Reznor."
O_O
How the hell did she know that's what I thought she meant?
Sometimes, we do share a brain. I'm totally aware of the fact that this only makes sense to me, too.
Muwahaha.
Hi Princess! I don't know the other guy, but I do loves me some Trent Reznor. :)
Ha! This girl can't park her car. She just better be glad my mother wasn't waiting behind her!
He just left! O_O
People are hilarious.
Hahaha! Yeah, that was Christian Bale's character in the movie The Machinist. That movie, by the way, is effed up on so many levels it's not even funny.
O_o
The Machinist's writer, Scott Kossar, loves "Nine Inch Nails" and his original script had a quote from their lyrics on the first page. He always wanted the soundtrack to be written by NIN, but the director didn't want the movie to go in that direction. Nine Inch Nails' only official member is Trent Reznor, thus the name of Christian Bale's Character, Trevor Reznik.
Well, whaddya know? How about them apples, Solly? :)
Remember when I wanted so badly to go see Leonard Cohen, only to find all the tickets sucked up by scalpers?
Trent Reznor explains:
As we approach on-sale dates for the upcoming tour, I've noticed lots of you are curious / concerned / outraged at the plethora of tickets that somehow appear on all these reseller sites at inflated prices - even before the pre-sale dates. I'll do my best to explain the situation as I see it, as well as clarify my organization's stance in the matter.
NIN decides to tour this summer. We arrive at the conclusion outdoor amphitheaters are the right venue for this outing, for a variety of reasons we've throughly considered*. In the past, NIN would sell the shows in each market to local promoters, who then "buy" the show from us to sell to you. Live Nation happens to own all the amphitheaters and bought most of the local promoters - so if you want to play those venues, you're being promoted by Live Nation. Live Nation has had an exclusive deal with TicketMaster that has just expired, so Live Nation launched their own ticketing service. Most of the dates on this tour are through Live Nation, some are through TicketMaster - this is determined by the promoter (Live Nation), not us.
Now we get into the issue of secondary markets for tickets, which is the hot issue here. The ticketing marketplace for rock concerts shows a real lack of sophistication, meaning this: the true market value of some tickets for some concerts is much higher than what the act wants to be perceived as charging. For example, there are some people who would be willing to pay $1,000 and up to be in the best seats for various shows, but MOST acts in the rock / pop world don't want to come off as greedy pricks asking that much, even though the market says its value is that high. The acts know this, the venue knows this, the promoters know this, the ticketing company knows this and the scalpers really know this. So...
The venue, the promoter, the ticketing agency and often the artist camp (artist, management and agent) take tickets from the pool of available seats and feed them directly to the re-seller (which from this point on will be referred to by their true name: SCALPER). I am not saying every one of the above entities all do this, nor am I saying they do it for all shows but this is a very common practice that happens more often than not. There is money to be made and they feel they should participate in it. There are a number of scams they employ to pull this off which is beyond the scope of this note.
StubHub.com is an example of a re-seller / scalper. So is TicketsNow.com.
Here's the rub: TicketMaster has essentially been a monopoly for many years - certainly up until Live Nation's exclusive deal ran out. They could have (and can right now) stop the secondary market dead in its tracks by doing the following: limit the amount of sales per customer, print names on the tickets and require ID / ticket matches at the venue. We know this works because we do it for our pre-sales. Why don't THEY do it? It's obvious - they make a lot of money fueling the secondary market. TicketMaster even bought a re-seller site and often bounces you over to that site to buy tickets (TicketsNow.com)!
NIN gets 10% of the available seats for our own pre-sale. We won a tough (and I mean TOUGH) battle to get the best seats. We require you to sign up at our site (for free) to get tickets. We limit the amount you can buy, we print your name on the tickets and we have our own person let you in a separate entrance where we check your ID to match the ticket. We charge you a surcharge that has been less than TicketMaster's or Live Nation's in all cases so far to pay for the costs of doing this - it's not a profit center for us. We have essentially stopped scalping by doing these things - because we want true fans to be able to get great seats and not get ripped off by these parasites.
I assure you nobody in the NIN camp supplies or supports the practice of supplying tickets to these re-sellers because it's not something we morally feel is the right thing to do. We are leaving money on the table here but it's not always about money.
Being completely honest, it IS something I've had to consider. If people are willing to pay a lot of money to sit up front AND ARE GOING TO ANYWAY thanks to the rigged system, why let that money go into the hands of the scalpers? I'm the one busting my ass up there every night. The conclusion really came down to it not feeling like the right thing to do - simple as that.
My guess as to what will eventually happen if / when Live Nation and TicketMaster merges is that they'll move to an auction or market-based pricing scheme - which will simply mean it will cost a lot more to get a good seat for a hot show. They will simply BECOME the scalper, eliminating them from the mix.
Nothing's going to change until the ticketing entity gets serious about stopping the problem - which of course they don't see as a problem. The ultimate way to hurt scalpers is to not support them. Leave them holding the merchandise. If this subject interests you, check out the following links. Don't buy from scalpers, and be suspect of artists singing the praises of the Live Nation / TicketMaster merger. What's in it for them?
♥
Oops, i forgot his addendum:
* I fully realize by playing those venues we are getting into bed with all these guys. I've learned to choose my fights and at this point in time it would be logistically too difficult to attempt to circumvent the venues / promoter / ticketing infrastructure already in place for this type of tour. For those of you about to snipe "it's your fault for playing there, etc... " - I know it is.
I have been here, I have just chosen to remain silent. When words are scarce they are seldom spent in vain. Men of few words are the best men, don't you agree?
For a moment, I was tempted, I came so close, but it was neither the right place or the right time.
Perhaps, another time...
P.S. Strange...but not a stranger.
Wow, Trent! Right on! That's just a shitty choice for the artist to have to make and it sucks for the fans. I hate those sites.
good morning
hi K , smoke
hi anon
have a good day wendy
Hi Anon.
When words are scarce they are seldom spent in vain.
Too right.
Hi Ergo!
anon a prudent choice of words and attention to timing makes far more impact sometimes, hope you find your time :]
take care
Men of few words are the best men, don't you agree?
If this is Mayo then there's no way he's Gerard. That guy just can't stop flapping his gums. Just sayin.
Hiya. :)
Incidentally, the words "strange but not a stranger" are lyrics for one of my favorite songs. ^_^ Nw I've probably got the song going in everyone's head, sorry.
It's nice to read ya.
Oops, one more thing.
Men of few words are the best men, don't you agree?
I dunno, I mean some of my favorite writers were very prolific. The Waste Land was superfly long. ^_^
Anonymous said...
If this is Mayo then there's no way he's Gerard. That guy just can't stop flapping his gums. Just sayin.
Anon I don't think it's Mayo. I think it's Calaf. There are two Shakespeare references in that comment. I think Calaf is someone who knows Kapu IRL, maybe that's why he used those particular song lyrics. Kapu, you have a secret admirer.
can anyone tell my why our neighbours seem incapable of keeping their mongrel miniature pony stallion in their own flipping place?????
Hello everyone
Just got home from running errands and I'm tired. At least I think I'm tired and really hoping I'm not getting sick. I've tended to too many sick people lately.
mongrel miniature pony
Now those are 3 words you don't hear every day!
Hi Guys!
Smoke, I want some coconut. Damnit!
Come getchoo some! :)
I want Mini Horse!
I doubt if "admirer" is the correct term as anyone I know IRL will tell you. ^_^
But still, I get the Warm And Fuzzy Feelings.
And I like a mystery.
Awww Ergo
Maybe he is just dropping by to say Hi.
hi elena
I hope you aren't sick!!
hi sdock
smoke I would gladly box this one up and send it,
it was in our place hassling our horses, and it screeches, and it's a horrid little thing
5:10 well we said 'Hi" .....in a way
(well in a chase it around the yard and out our gate way)
Shoo away, mongrel mini horse! Shoo away!
Have you ever seen Rob & Big? Mini Horse rules the world!
Mini Horse! Welcome to Hollywood!
Hee-hee.
Heehee, this anon knows that I am a woman, and when I think I must speak. ;D
Sorry, got distracted trying to draw a picture which is pretty crappy right now.
I got one question, Mayo...
"Are you here for the love of
Ray-J?"
Ergo, I hope he gets home safely .
I hope so anon, but I fear one day he won't, we are on a road, we ring the people and tell them, but there isn't much we can do, you can't catch him, he is completely non-friendly and they have to do something to stop him getting out, he goes to other places as well as ours.
Thanks Ergo
Has anyone ever thought that "Calaf" was Kapu herself? I always thought so but the PS "(look everyone, My "secret admirer" is Mayo"!) makes me sure of it....
Ergo
That's such a shame. They really should take better care of him considering the danger to him and others. Poor little mini horse.
I hope he does not damage your property.
5:21, look. I know it means a lot for you to think ill of me. I know many things have been said about me and most of it is out of context or straight up lies.
But you are wrong. And please do leave others out of it.
he did break a fence once before to get into our mares, and he bites and kicks them, but today he was just around the house, we will have to keep our front gate shut
it is a real shame they don't keep better care of him
Calaf:
I don't know if you're still around, but for years (oh my god, can you imagine?) I've wanted to ask you if you were the one who posted the Elizabeth Barrett Browning poem to George Sand? I've wondered.
Anyway, in the meantime:
The elements be kind to thee, and make thy spirits all of comfort: fare thee well.
I totally looked that up. :)
keep better care?
that's a cross between take better care and keep him better lol
Take care everyone.
Later
Kapu, use your head. This person quoted your favorite song. Don't you think it's someone who knows you?
thanks elena, you too xx
Men of few words are the best men, don't you agree?
I think this is a shy guy you know.
For a moment, I was tempted, I came so close, but it was neither the right place or the right time.
This makes me think you do know this person. He almost told you he was Calaf but it wasn't the right place or time.
P.S. Strange...but not a stranger.
Lyrics from your favorite song chosen to specifically let you know he is not some mystery blogger. You actually know him.
Calaf could be beautiful boy.
Oh my goodness, no. That particular friend of mine is never on the internet, and when he is, it's only to email something to me. I know his writing style and that's not it. ^_^
Also, the funny thing is this: hardly anyone I know knows I listen to Talking Heads, or that that is one of my favorite songs.
I think it's another eerie guess, to be honest.
I think? Either way, neat!
One of my friends does know his Shakespeare, but would never be here.
The truth is that I really don't know many people at all. I know a really seriously small group of folks and I can't imagine any of them reading here. So odd!
neither the right place or the right time.
This proves to me that Calaf isn't Mayo. Kapu has never met Mayo so why would Mayo say it wasn't the right place or the right time? Calaf must be someone she knows.
Maybe you should think that Calaf could be a woman.
Kapu, you did say that once before Calaf was spot on about something. I know some anons don't like Calaf but I honestly think, in fact I feel, that Calaf is a friend of yours. I don't think he means you any harm. It sounds like maybe he has a crush? I like reading Calaf, he comes across as kind of nerdy and I like that in my men, he seems really sweet.
kapunua said...
One of my friends does know his Shakespeare, but would never be here.
but he might be here for you, not for mayo.
Calaf refers to himself as a man so unless Calaf is a girl pretending to be a man I think it's safe to say Calaf is male.
Well I never really thought Calaf was Mayo, TBH. I mean in the beginning I tossed the idea around but in the end it seemed quite remote.
I don't actually know that many women, either; and hardly any that would refer to themselves as "he."
Believe me, for a while I did think it might have been this one friend of mine, but then I thought, How in the world would be even find me here? No one in my circle calls me by my professional name (and GOD how I regret using that name here now,) and even googling that name if they did know it would lead to my LJ instead of here.
It just seems so unlikely.
And Calaf's been around since early in the blog days. Since I was going out with that one guy, in fact. AFAIK Calaf showed up the day I went on that date.
Even people I used to know don't write like that.
I really feel like a dummy but I have to admit I am still boggled! ^_^
Hmmm, there's no one who would be having a crush on me, that's for sure.
Also I think that Calaf just likes to bandy Shakespeare and other stuff around, and no "crush" or anything. I also think it's very cool!
MAYBE! Maybe one time I was out and about shopping in Riverhead and unbeknownst to me, Joaquin Phoenix followed me around Target. He saw my name on my bracelet with his super-keen eyesight and he went home and said, "I won't rest until I've googled her to the ends of the internet!" He skipped over my LJ because there isn't a lot of room to comment and came straight here instead.
And NOW, this whole "huge beard / rapper / falling off the stage" thing is a great big act and his real desire is to be a Shakespearean actor, and the Benedick to my Beatrice!
Also while I'm at college, he goes into my car and looks at the playlist on my iPod, to see that there's an inordinate amount of Talking Heads songs on there and, and...!
You all know I'm just playing. ^_^
You've all made me think of this song:
I never sang my song
On the stage, on my own
I never said my words
Wishing they would be heard.
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no.
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh did you ever know?
That I have mine on you
Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down.
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
Close as I wanna be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast.
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?
Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice?
Just reach me out then
You would know that you're not dreaming
Kapu, I think there are 2 Calafs. The real Calaf seems like a sweet guy who likes to chat with you using Shakespeare and other quotes from the arts and the fake Calaf imitates Calaf by also using quotes but he is gushy and flirty and OTT. Or maybe I'm the only one to notice.
If there are two, I wonder if they're even aware of each other. Hmm. Quelle mystere!
phew!
I just got tickets to see French and Saunders in July
I have been sitting refreshing to buy them :D
Kapunua here's something else to think about.
The people here (and I think it's a small group pretending to be alot of people), have attacked everything associated with you. They called names of your mother, made fun of your doggie who you lost, teased you the day after it's death, hounded you constantly, posted your personal information, called you disgusting names, the anons who like you get "bumped" off the page and made fun of, and anons who hate you and try to "bump" you off the page are considered "fun" and anyone saying something bad about you is good to them, and anyone saying something good about you is annoying to them.
But..... no one bothers Calaf. Have you noticed that? I wonder why. Not accusing anything just wondering.
Calaf is charming but he's not THAT charming and I just wonder..... why none of them go after him too.
It wouldn't surprise me if one of them was the 'gushy' Calaf.
Have you noticed that? I wonder why.
Because he's a ninja and they can sense it!
Nah just kidding. ;)
I don't know why people would not begrudge me Calaf. OTOH I don't get why people do begrudge me my other friends, so...! It's all a big mystery. :)
Calaf is probably not worth their time bothering about. He only comments every few months. Not worth the energy in attacking him.
I also think Calaf is very charming. He seems very calm and gentlemanly. The only time I recognized him straight away was when he said exit pursued by a bear! LOL!
You guys I'm sorry to disappear, I've got to go, a thing just happened. Thank you for all being fun and helpful! be well
Bye Kapu!
I think it's somebody in her family TBH. Or one of her blog buddies who keep a close enough eye on this blog to come running whenever she calls for them.
I think it's someone with access to her iPod.
Or one of her blog buddies who keep a close enough eye on this blog to come running whenever she calls for them.
I don't think that's fair. I have seen Kapu 'call out' to Calaf on several occasions over the last few months and she has heard nothing from him. I could be wrong but I think this is the first time this year she has heard back from him.
Hallo everyone!
Happy Steak and Blowjob Day!!
LOL about the timing. As soon as she says good bye....
Hi Amy
I'm off to work so might not let people know about the "Day" >_<
bye everyone
see you smoke sdock K anons and amy
might catch you a bit later, short day today
where there's mean anons, Amy will surely follow within in a few minutes.
The only one close to mean was 7:56, that doesn't match up to Amy's usual MO when it comes to K. Don't think it was her.
She should explain the use of
neither nor and
either or
to Calaf.
Just sayin'. She does like to correct other people's grammatical errors.
That one sounds like OPJ.
I don't see any mean anons. I see speculation about who Calaf could be.
It could be GV. It could be that anon who says they read her live journal. They do seem to know about what she likes.
Hey, can I play too? Who do I sound like?
It could be somebody she's exchanged email with and told them alot about herself.
You sound like that dude who was here last year. You know the one I mean. That dude that sounded just like you.
I think he used the words "hey" and "play" too. You're that dude. I know you are.
Who do I sound like 8:19?
She probably mentioned that band on HERE. What hasn't she talked about? I think it's either one of her friends or HER, herself.
You rawk!
I think you sound like the one I spoke to last night.
I want to know what color her socks are. Think she'll tell me?
Busted. Almost. I think I'm the one you spoke to 3 nights ago. You're cheatin on me with another anon 8:19. Hell hath no fury like an anon scorned.
"I don't see any mean anons. I see speculation about who Calaf could be."
That's my point. It wasn't "mean" enough. Though now they do seem to be coming out.
But I could see them saying that she was Calaf because they can't believe anyone would like her.
Anonymous said...
I want to know what color her socks are. Think she'll tell me?
I'm sure she would. You should ask her when she comes back.
It wasn't me!
We weren't here together. I haven't been here for about a week.
Who's coming out 8:28? Anons? 'Scuse us. Aren't YOU one of us?
No, the mean-ness seems to be coming out.
Kapunua,
In case you should happen by and catch this, I have a very intimate question to ask of you.
What color are your socks?
I'm not around enough to catch her so that will have to do.
8:19
8:25
8:30
One of you is cheatin on me. I need to know whose ass to kick to the curb. Fess up. Who done it?
"Blogger Amyranth said...
Hallo everyone!
Happy Steak and Blowjob Day!!"
HALLO AMY!
LOL you are so funny, what WON'T you say?
I'm all those BUT I'm no cheater. I was not here last night. Did I email you?
No. You didn't. You did cheat on me. You emailed another anon. I'm pissed now. I'm leaving.
**slams door on the way out**
Anons emailing each other aren't really anons now are they?
*ehem*
All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
anymore...
8:44, we are anons. I have no idea who I'm singing to.
8:44 needs to develop a sense of humor and an imagination.
I forgive you! You don't have to be
all by yourself
anymore
Just because I made an observation doesn't mean I have no sense of humor or imagination. Weren't you just making observations about Calaf. ...
I'll never email another anon again, I promise! You are the only one for me and I was a fool to ever ...
That's so sweet my anon
O_O except for that last part. You were a fool to ever WHAT
finish that sentence or those will be the last words you ever speak.
>.<
But I could see them saying that she was Calaf because they can't believe anyone would like her.
But I do...
*blushes, looks down at shoes
Mayonaise;
Again, it's been proven to me how unfair life is. We all fucking take it for granted, and we all don't take time to appreciate waking up alive everyday. Just this past Thursday, I lost someone so fucking close to me, and dude, does it ever hurt. My brother was only 22, and his life was ripped from him before it was his time. You never realize how much you love someone or care about them until they are gone forever, until it's too late. Right now, I'm staying strong and thinking of all the good things. My brother wouldn't want me to sit and dwell on the past, he'd want me to go out and chase after my dreams. He lead a life that I can only hope to follow in his footsteps. Everything that my brother wanted, he worked hard for, he deserved it, and didn't leave anything till later because he knew he might never get the chance to do it. He really did live for the moment, without a care in the world. No matter how mad at me he was, or me at him, we were always there for eachother. I know he loved me, and I hope he knew that I loved him. All I want right now is for him to come home. Seeing his body in the hospital, I thought I was having some nightmare, only to realize that no, this is my reality. He's never coming home, which I now accept. I just want everyone to take the time to let everyone in your life know how much you care about them and love them.
I know this happened for a reason, and that I need to be there for my family and friends. I know that this will make me stronger in the end, it's just a test of time in my life. I'm dealing with this the best way that I can, and I can only hope that I am making my brother proud.
xo;
- 007.
Sorry, I got hungry.
Um..
I was a fool to ever risk losing you to over something so meaningless.
Yeah, that was it!
*squeeze for PH*
-A
My comment looks so appropriate. :(
I read that because I'm nosy and my heart goes out to you.
Paperheartxx
I'm so sorry.
xo
Oh Paperheart
You are so special. I am so sorry about your brother and understand the devastation you and your family are feeling. Losing one of your siblings is a very shocking thing and feels like a personal attack.
Even though I have experienced similar to you some years ago there are still no words to ease your pain right now.
I have always thought you are one of the most genuine and compassionate person here and for that I send you strength and hugs to help you through these dark times and best wishes for brightness in the future.
Take good care xxx
Sooooo I'm you were willing to risk what we have for something that meant nothing. That means I meant less than nothing! You're not in the doghouse. You're in the pigpen tonight. You can eat slop if you want a midnight snack!
I would offer to give my anon to you paperheartxx
but they cheat and you deserve much better. ;)
*squeezes Amyranth*
Thanks Anonymouses.
I just want people to realize that time is precious. Spend as much time with the ones you love that you can. I don't want anyone to go through what I did, or feel the way I did. I can't shelter that feeling from anyone, by no means, I can only try to make it better.
As you wish...
PH my dear, we all will. At different times in our lives we're all going to lose people we love dearly.
We can't be sheltered from it, you're right about that. But we can prepare ourselves to be there for the people we love when they need shelter from the storm.
And you know that's true of many of us here.
Thank you 9:11. I didn't come here looking for sympathy, I wanted to let everyone know. These ladies saw me through some of the roughest time this past year and a half...
I would offer to give my anon to you paperheartxx
but they cheat and you deserve much better. ;)
Haha, well thank you anyways. ;)
paperheartxx said...
*squeezes Amyranth*
Thanks Anonymouses.
I just want people to realize that time is precious. Spend as much time with the ones you love that you can.
Wise words and great advice paperheartxx. Thank you for thinking of others when you are going through so much. Stay strong but weep when needed.
Would you accept a squeeze from an anonymouse?
**squeeze**
"And you know that's true of many of us here."
But not all?
Amyranth I too am sorry for your loss. That is a very young age. Was it accident? I'm so sorry. don't know what I would do if I lost my sister....
Amy,
I wasn't prepared for this. It was not expected, we were all blind sided by this.
Like I said, right now, I'm thinking of the positives and remembering all of the memories of my brother that I can. It's like an endless movie in my head.
paperheartxx said...
Haha, well thank you anyways. ;)
It's probably for the best. They won't be smelling too good by morning. I'll have to give them a good soapy scrub down. ;)
*scratches her head*
9:22, what are you on about? I don't have any brothers or sisters.
At least not last time I checked.
9:21
Do you think this is an appropriate time for point scoring?
*nice*
Don't start 9:21. Your timing shows a lot.
One person should never attempt to speak for all.
I'd love a squeeze from an anonymouse. =)
*shakes her head*
PH, I can't even imagine what you're going through right now. Are you going to be okay?
Perhaps 9:21 has a personality disorder?
**more squeezes for paperheartxx **
I mean PH not Amyranth, sorry.
I think so Amy. I have my family and friends for support. It helped that I had my boyfriend with me at the hospital that day, and just everyday since.
9:25, I'd call it Total Bitch Syndrome.
"9:21
Do you think this is an appropriate time for point scoring?"
Scoring?
I just thought it was bad timing of Amyranth to start the "I'm good and some people aren't" again. Just not now. It's never nice but especially now, it's worse. Why stoop to such a level?
I never called anyone any names and I NEVER will. I just don't think this is the appropriate time to point out that there are people you hate and to USE this in order to get other people to agree with you. When there is grief around that is the worst thing you can do. Use it against another.
Yes, it was an car accident. The police are still investigating the crash, and honestly, I don't know what the fuck caused it. I've played many different scenarios in my head, and none seem to work out with the road conditions etc.
923, I can do soapy scrub downs. ;)
I am your long lost sister Amyranth. Can you do your sister a favor? Get my anon out of the pigpen for me? I miss them already.
Hi other anonymouses.
*phew*
Thanks 9:26. I almost called my mother on that one.
"Moooommm... someone on the internet says I have a sister I dunno about..."
9:28. Shut up. Thank you.
PH my condolences. I will leave now because I have a feeling more ugly things will be said. Please accept my condolences. I always thought you to be compassionate and nice to everyone.
Well honey, I meant to tell you...
PH, I'm glad to hear he's sticking with you through all this.
Have the police said anything, or are they keeping it pretty close to their chests right now?
9:28, she didn't. You just create things like that to suit your agenda. She spoke for herself and a few she knows would agree. Why create your own attention seeking drama when someone is here with a real issue?
931;
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It means a lot to me. I hope to speak to you again?
The cruelty and jokes about having a brother or sister when it was a simple error is disgusting. You can't USE someone else's pain..... I am wasting my time.
PH you deserve better. You are always a good person...... Take care of yourself.
*comes back in from the pigpen, with a dirty muddy shape*
*plops the shape into the metal washtub in the mudroom and begins to scrub*
They promised to contact my dad first thing when they found anything out.
Mom. You told me you told her Christmas morning. SURPRISE SIS!
Scoot, out to the pigpen you go.
You are welcome PH. Healing is hard from this loss.... Like I said if it was my sister, I know it would be a crushing bow. Good night....
Disgusting, joking about this. You all should be so ashamed.
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