Drill Bit
Tuesday I hear it’s going around;
I’m off...again, knuckled white.
Wednesday I will talk myself into
Round about routes to denial.
If I say it, then it won’t come true.
And, I find comfortable restraint; bound to
Repeating it over and over and over. And again,
It feels better that way, medicated meditation.
Then Thursday everything is white. I eat
From a bland full service spectrum buffet,
Plated and nothing touches.
I won’t even sip from her cup.
By Friday I am unable to tolerate human contact.
And, I count back to the last
In order to find spared time. I’ll be free-
On Saturday what is in the air will kill me.
So, I hold my breath between rooms. Suffocated,
Sunday I become completely restricted.
I will not accept from anyone, anything
That has been anywhere other than here.
Those days, they wear me hard
And to the end, so I have become
Exhausted from the fight. I finally sleep.
Then Monday brings me back, slightly.
With a negligent handshake,
So that again Tuesday I am found,
Wringing dry, anticeptic hands.
I will not allow myself to open a door
I stay; refusal and restraint, withholding.
p.s. its got quite a grip.
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«Oldest ‹Older 2401 – 2600 of 4924 Newer› Newest»They are clearly stuck in 2007.
I agree. People who can't let go of one word said to someone two years ago on the internet need to find something else to do.
People can not let things go.
March 2, 2009 6:41 PM
People do not want to let things go. Get over it people. Yes i would like to be 2 yrs younger but in 2007 i had a really bad haircut. I Do not want to go back. LOL!
Oh hi TS!! How could we tell it was you.
Two years is really along time to be mad. If you frown to long it causes those wrinkles you get in between you eyes.
Do you have those wrinkles between your eyes anon at 6:51 ?
Oh hi TS!! How could we tell it was you.
March 2, 2009 6:51 PM
By my big beautiful eyes?
By your big ass kissing ways.
It's funny. I think that Kapu is one of the most forgiving people on. She forgave Mya right away once Mya told her it was her who sent the emails about her. Yet she says "idiot" to Mya once and we hear about it for two years.
By your big ass kissing ways.
March 2, 2009 6:57 PM
I read that as saying by your big ass. LOL!
Are you saying i have a big ass or big lips?
I read Mya's blog that day and thought Kap was beautiful for what she said. She forgave her. THANKED her. And most of all told her that she hoped that Mya would find as much good luck as she had found.
And you people are still holdign a grudge against Kap for calling Mya idiot. Once. Two years ago.
Crazy.
I want to publicly thank my fellow anons for leaving me out of things for a change. It's nice to be considered innocent for once!
By your big ass kissing ways.
March 2, 2009 6:57 PM
Shit i gotta go. Oh, by the way....i missed you too.
Is this the eye of the anon hurricane?
Hiya carrie dude.
Miss T! a blue person!
A blue person indeed.
And this blue person is off to bed cos the blooming comments page isn't playing nicely and I can't see half the comments.
Oh well, catch you all another day.
Nighty night everyone.
Miss T, you don't wanna see half of these comments.
Hallo everyone, just on for a moment.
What do you care Amy? If you didn't write them you proberly agree with anyway.
Happy endings
The sincerest form of flattery
Illusory perfection
At any given moment
Do not surrender your ears
All of January 2008
Anonymous said...
What do you care Amy? If you didn't write them you proberly agree with anyway.
March 2, 2009 9:09 PM
Yeah, proberly.
Thanks for putting misspelled words in my mouth.
Goodnight everyone!
It's just one way of spelling it, that's how most people spell it where I come from like you saying "gonna" instead of going to. And after all the damage you caused and all the negative things you said do you have any right saying how bad it is when anons do it, I don't think so.
goodnite amy
goodnite mayo
Still pointing fingers 9:44? Have fun with that. Dont poke your eye out when you look in the mirror.
Umm Amy is the biggest finger pointer here. How often she accused different people of doing and saying things.
24 was excellent tonight.
Hello everyone.
Elena, gotta admit I never watched that show. I got way into Alias though, and I think it's kind of a similar vein. Maybe I should put them on my netflix queue. I've been watching a lot of old shows recently. I loved Early Edition.
Hey Carrie
I think you should give 24 a try. I liked Early Edition too.
Oh have you watched Burn Notice? It's very good. I love Bruce Campbell.
Bruce Campbell is da bomb!!! My brother and I had the longest convo we've had in probably 10 years about that guy, talking about movies and stuff.
Have any of you guys watched Time Warp on the Discovery channel? These guys use mega high speed cameras to slow things down, and the results are amazing.
i went to a convention once where bruce campbell was one of the guests. he totally stole the entire day -- he was autographing socks (any socks) while the other guests were trying to hold the stage, and then completely took over the auction. came up onstage to sell one item and never left -- he sold an autographed and framed picture of david hasselhoff simply by going into a riff about how he could kick david's "skinny white ass".
:)
Hey TJ
yep Bruce is pretty cool. I loved him in the Evil Dead movies
Did you see his Old Spice commercials? Funny!!!
The dude is priceless, for real. I have to admit though, when I first started watching Burn Notice, I was all, I know that guy from somewhere! Took me awhile to look him up. Your bone pics were cool, TJ. Annie and you are aligned, she is the finder of dead things come Spring around here.
Gotta go to bed, guess it was mostly a drive-by from me.
hi elena, hi and good night carrie. :)
i'm glad you liked the pics, carrie!
i heard that they're making a film version of his autobiography. i can't wait. :)
Night Carrie
TJ the movie is already out and it is really funny. It's called "My Name Is Bruce."
It was actually filmed on his property and he used a lot of town locals.
well, i'm slow, aren't i? it sounds fantastic!
So what are you up to TJ?
i've been reorganizing files, now that i have my old hard drive and new files from mom's computer all on one flash drive.
sounds exciting, doesn't it? lol
but there's ton's of stuff i hadn't seen since i left for the road trip.
and now i need to be getting to bed.
nice talking with you elena.
good night!
Sweet dreams TJ
mayo,
today i just wasn't in a chatty mood. i wanted to get to work and i wanted to focus on it. i wasn't in a bad mood, it's just that sometimes i'm really tired of fucking around. if we're there to work, then let's actually work, how about that for a revolutionary idea?
of course i chatted anyway. i laughed and made appropriate comments at baby pictures. when we started cleaning, i did my work and made jokes as i did so. it was automatic.
it's camoflage. it's my public persona.
the weird, happy, friendly girl.
what gets me is how i need to be my true self, regardless what anyone may think of me, and yet i also have a default self. it's like a mask of my own face.
i'm not sure there's any way around the fact that being in human society means sometimes wearing that mask. i suppose the best thing is to try to make that mask using as much of who you really are as possible.
i also think it helps if you can find at least one person with whom you never have to wear that mask at all, and never even have to think of doing so.
clearly, once my good night to you is made up largely of philosophical navel-gazing ramble, it's time for me to be asleep.
good night mayo. sweet dreams.
HI I'm home survived my long day but have tutoring now too lol
hi I think elena
goodnight TJ Carrie sweetd reams
Hi FASC!!! from this morning, I had very little time
Hi Ergo
Elena I think? LOL
Ergo has left the building to tutor....
I'm all alone.
Elena, you still here?
I'm gonna go smoke; I'll brb. I hope you are here when I return. :)
Anima??????
Damn long smoke.
Had to say goodnight to the hubby. :)
Hey good to see you. How are you?
Mayo?
Anyone?
sigh.
^_~
HELLO
Right here
O_O
Hey Elena. I wish I could say, I'm a-okay, but not so much right now.
How are you?
BTW, My mom is totally down with a drive to KC....I'll keep you posted. I am so looking forward to seeing you!
What's wrong? Can you talk about it? Do you want to call?
Oh about the KC trip. Really I can get free rooms at the casino.
We could totally have a whole girls night and not worry about driving.
A call will be good for sure, just because I love talking in person. :) But for now, I'm okay. I think?
Fuck. I cannot even type the words. Even as I say that, please know that I will be okay...it is just really raw right now. I'm witnessing things that I never thought I'd have to see...
heartbreaking.
I'm so fuckin' sorry, Anima. I understand, you know I do.
When you are ready to talk I'll be waiting.
My mom's sister loves the casinos, so that would be amazing. But seriously, don't waste your rooms on us. Regardless, I'll pay you for them! It would still work out!
You are so sweet. I cannot wait to see you. I'm thinking late April, early May. Oh and the weather would be truly beautiful so there will be a lot of places to go. :) or not! Sitting outside at your house (if possible) drinkin', smokin', eatin', would be so much fun.
"When you are ready to talk I'll be waiting."
*hugs*
Thank you. In person for sure!
Oh no you don't...I will get the rooms and that's that.
We will have a blast. I really want to see you again too!
I keep thinking about the good times we've shared. I know more will follow.
I think I'm gonna head to bed.
Sending so much love to all of you. Wherever you are.
M. Naise, love to you and yours. Hold them tight...I'm sure you will.
♥
'nite everyone. SS you too, it's been a while; you are never far from my mind.
Night Anima
Take care.
elena said...
Oh no you don't...I will get the rooms and that's that.
We will have a blast. I really want to see you again too!
I keep thinking about the good times we've shared. I know more will follow.
March 3, 2009 2:00 AM
I know not to argue with you!!!! We will figure it out and yes a blast will be had! Always!
We are wild Mid-west girls...Don't you forget it! I cannot wait!
I'll talk to you soon okay. Take care of you.
♥
anyone?
Hey Ergo, Elena, Anima, whoever's here. Just popping in for a moment. All I can say is, WOW.
hello J!!
I know good day to have a full day of work, wish they'd just leave it alone, it's very unpleasant
Yes, yes it is. And just so fucking boring...I'm thinking somebody needs a hobby.
How was Day 2 of Ergo's Return to Work With Ungrateful Little Buggers?
they were pretty good
the boy who was trouble yesterday ahd a talking to and I will see what he's like on Thurs, his mum has been called and she is not impressed
how are you?
I'm teaching my mum to gmail chat, lol 2 phone calls later....
Late hello to everyone
hi BC! how are you? school today?
Oh, well if his mum's involved then he should do better. I hope. Boys at that age are so weird.
Hell, they're weird at all ages. :P
Some, though, are fun-weird. Not so much the teenagery kind, but whatever.
Is your mum technology-wise? Mine isn't. Oh, she'll ask me questions about the computer, or the eBay stuff, but beyond that, no go.
Hi BC, good to see you. Did you survive your brother's house?
And congrats on your grades, you're doing really well, sounds like! Great job!
Hi ergo. Nope, not until tomorrow. Today I spent it at my brother's yet again. It was okay, but I felt stressed. My nephews were too busy fighting. They never listened.
At that moment I was thankful that I didn't have kids. Aye aye aye. How was tutoring?
Hi there J *hugs*
Mayo
What I’m gonna talk about probably isn’t gonna make much sense. Yes, I know. I could pretty much use that disclaimer on most of my goodnights. See the thing is I’m very sad tonight. Not for myself but for others. I have several friends who are really going through some rough shit in their lives. And it makes me feel really bad. Now here is the part that won’t make sense. I feel bad that I feel bad. Not that I feel bad for caring about these friends and how they feel. It’s almost like I feel bad because I feel like I don’t own their pain. It’s not mine. It’s like I’m taking something that doesn’t belong to me. See, I told you this would sound fucked up and it does. It’s their hurt and pain, they own it, and yet I’m feeling it too.
Tonight I just am feeling it hard. I know from experience what it’s like. I remember. Sometimes I wish I didn’t. But that’s not how life works.
So tonight I hurt with my friends. I guess that’s the bottom line.
Night Mayo
Elena
it was good thanks, BC I like my student she is nice
J I am hoping he'll settle, or he's out again!
my mum is ..kinda..with help, lol she managed so I think she knows how to now. It always takes a while.
J, I had to babysit my nephews for an hour, but as soon as the hour was up, I was so fucking tired.
And thank you for the congrats. I hope I can keep those grades up. I got midterms and spring break coming in less than three weeks.
How are you doing?
elena take care *big hug* I know what you mean, but empathy is a wonderful though difficult trait, you are fortunate to have it *another bigger hug*
Elena, you're feeling others' pain because you've been through it yourself, and because you want everyone to be ok. You're what I call a "fixer"--I'm one also. You feel like if you can't fix someone's problems, you should share their problems. It's ok to feel that way.
Personally, I find it's the mark of a truly good friend. :)
*more big hugs and kissies*
You'll be alright. You're strong, caring, loving, loyal, and just plain old wonderful.
BC, I'm doing well. Holding down Punk Central while L's visiting her parents. She'll be back Thursday, so *heeheehee* I get to be in charge! WHEEEE!
That's good to hear J. Are you feeling any better from the illness?
now now now J don't get carried away!! ;]
I think I'm mostly over it, BC. I'm not feeling as congested or achy as I was. But I was out in the cold wind Saturday, so I may end up with something else.
Ergo, I make no promises. ;D
Glad you're feeling better now, did you get all the cold weather there?
We've had very low temps, some rain, a few snow flurries, but nothing like the Northeast has. Even up where L's parents live, near the NC border, there's a good 4-6 inches of snow. We're in a valley here so most of the really bad weather passes over us.
You still have rain?
I hope you get well really soon then J. I'm gonna have to call it a night. Class for me tomorrow, and I'm actually gonna try to make something decent for dinner for the first time in years since I'm tired of frozen pizzas and sandwiches, so it's a trip to the store for me after school. Goodnight Ergo, J sweet dreams guys.
Sugarplum: I guess now I do have a update about yahoo guy. At last. I found out that he's been going out.. So I guess dating him is not gonna happen, but that's okay because I mostly lost interest in him anyways, so there's your answer, lol.
Thank you so much for the song recommendations. I'm really liking the 'new' Charon songs! Sweet dreams *blows kisses*
So this is it. Earlier today, I mustered up the courage, and had requested an appointment to see a professional counselor in order to deal and move on from all of the BS that has happened in my life. How do I feel about it? A part of me feels relieved, but a part of me also feels scared in wondering if I will ever get over my unhappiness and various issues. I developed some major trust issues after my childhood because of a couple of things that had happened(but won't get into) so I wonder if I will have a chance to open myself up to others at last.
Frankly, that scares me. I don't like to be vulnerable to others. I really don't. So here's to a new outlook on life, and a way for me to perhaps take those baby steps in order to reach that happiness. Here's to hoping, because I think it's such an important thing to have in this shitty world. It's something that can help you hold on to whatever it is that you're hoping for: happiness, peace, faith, whatever.
Frankly, I am tired of being unhappy. I have to try to make this right. For my own sake. And because of this, I now have inspiration for my first tattoo. I know what I will add to my skin to remind me not to fall or give up.
So with this, I bid goodnight to all. See you tomorrow.
no thank goodness it has stopped, now it's hot though, but I prefer it to constant mud.
Our nights are getting slowly cooler into autumn though so that is nice
I saw the US on the news, there is a lot of snow, looks like Punksatawny Phil was right!
I'm off to have a beer with hubby before dinner, catch you tomorrow?
I am not working YAY!!
night J
night BC sweet dreams
Goodnight BC, and good for you on your decision to improve yourself for your own happiness. You won't regret it, I know it in my heart. Best of luck to you with that endeavor. *big hugs*
Ergo, glad to know you're not living in the mud, at least for a while! Yum, cool nights and autumn, that's wonderful. Every season has its personal, spectacular beauty, doesn't it?
Guess I'll head out too since no one else is here.
Goodnight BC, Ergo, Elena, whoever and whatever is lurking out there.
Goodnight Mayo, catch you around.
love, faith, hope, peace, happiness
Dear SS,
Don't you Love it when the noise finally dies down and the quiet seeps in? I've learned, over the years, to appreciate the silence wherever it springs up.
(Why does "springs up" remind me of the saying "Hope springs eternal"? Don't know, maybe for the same reason I've changed "Tongue-tied and oh so squeamish" to "Tongue-tied and oh so Swedish" lately. Yeah, it goes, but still.) (Apparently I have several Unknown, untapped "talents" in my repertoire. O_o)
(Sure.)
Gaah, I'm just babbling now. I'm tired, and I've been sick. My only excuses.
Take care of yourself, Precious. The winter weather is being unkind to some parts of the country. Hope wherever you are, it's not so bad.
Goodnight, baby. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
Mayo
hello!!! Hope everything is going swimmingly for you. Tonight I offer a song which was probably less well known for it's lyrics than for the attire of one of it's vocalists (can anyone say white shirt and braces? And not forgetting the shirtless braces with tie look!!)I have always really liked this guys voice, who knows where he is now, they were a one hit wonder, but they were a damn good one!
By the Promises
Baby It's You
You're here with me now but you're saying
you don't want me any more
you're holding me now but you're saying
you can't see me no no more
you whisper good-bye then cling tighter to me
I can't take no more.
Baby it's you
who makes me feel the way that you do
you know I can't forget you so soon
baby it's you.
Runing your fingers through my hair
but saying you care no more
you're kissing my ear with a heart chilling
breath that you can't no more
laying beside me with legs all around me
I care no more oh no.
Baby it's you
who makes me do the things that I do
you know I can't cast aside you so soon
baby it's you.
Changing the show
adding dramatics to help love grow
your heart is your life
cut it carefully with your knife
don't leave the world
stay right here
don't make don't make anything rough.
Baby it's you
who makes me feel the way that you do
you know I can't forget you so soon
baby it's you.
Baby it's you
who makes me do the things that I do
you know I can't cast aside you so soon
baby it's you.
watching the pretty flowers grow
never again no summer
sing along
much love EP xx
SS
howdy doody! Hope you and yours are all well. Here is a song for you that has been mentioned befoer, and I do know where the keyboardist of this band is now, playing brilliant jazz piano as well as hosting a really great music show on British TV, yes, by the short lived but very memorable band UK Squeeze
Cool for Cats
The indians send signals
From the rocks above the pass
The cowboys take positions
In the bushes and the grass
The squaw is with the corporal
She is tied against the tree
She doesnt mind the language
Its the beating she dont need
She lets loose all the horses
When the corporal is asleep
And he wakes to find the fires dead
And arrows in his hats
And davy crockett rides around
And says its cool for cats
The sweeneys doing ninety
cos theyve got the word to go
They get a gang of villains
In a shed up at heathrow
Theyre counting out the fivers
When the handcuffs lock again
In and out of wandsworth
With the numbers on their names
Its funny how their missus
Always look the bleeding same
And meanwhile at the station
Theres a couple of likely lads
Who swear like hows your father
And theyre very cool for cats
Theyre cool for cats
To change the mood a little
Ive been posing down the pub
On seeing my reflection
Im looking slightly rough
I fancy this, I fancy that
I wanna be so flash
I give a little muscle
And I spend a little cash
But all I get is bitter and a nasty little rash
And by the time Im sober
Ive forgotten what Ive had
And evrybody tells me that its cool to be a cat
Cool for cats
Shake up at the disco
And I think Ive got a pull
I ask her lots of questions
And she hangs on to the wall
I kiss her for the first time
And then I take her home
Im invited in for coffee
And I give the dog a bone
She likes to go to discos
But shes never on her own
I said Ill see you later
And I give her some old chat
But its not like that on the tv
When its cool for cats
Its cool for cats
sing along (and at 12 I so wanted to be one of those girls!)
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
hi to fasc and sdock have great tuesdays, I am happy mine is over, had to get going far too early!!
take care all who pass through
*aaaachoooo*
Excuse me!
Good morning/night Mayo, SS, Ergo, Amy, Sweetcheeks, J, Elena, Anima, TJ, Carrie, MissT, various anons and lurkers!
How are you all today? Did you all have a good night? I hope you did! I think I caught Martha's flu!
Well, that's okay. Both my mother and I have doctor's appointments today so I'll ask him for some flu stuff.
Anima: *huge hugs*
J: I am glad to hear you're holding down the fort (nice and properly punk like)! Tell L I hope she has a nice visit with her parents! My love to the both of you and the fur babies!
Sweetcheeks: More good grades and more wise decisions? I'm even more proud of you now!
Thank you for answering my Roadrunner list question! Yes, I think they may have been a bit too fair and unbiased with excluding their own artists. I still need to get my paws on the full Metal Edge list! I hope they, at least, included some of those Roadrunner artist!
I would also like to add that I think Ville Valo should be on both those lists! Hell yeah, I do! It's metal. It's love metal! I certainly love it!
;)
Amy: Whatcha doing? Are you going to cook something om nom nom for me tonight? How's the mister?
Elena: I hope you've recooperated from your ice dancing incident! Remember, the key is staying on your feet! I did deliver Jake's lick to Sandy Ann and she said to send one right back to him! (As you told me, use your own descretion!)
MissT: Great to see a snippet of you here! I'll catch up with you soon, I hope!
*huge snogs*
I know I'm missing something...
I'll probably think of it while waiting at the doctor's office.
Enjoy the day, everyone!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Martha, Kass, SIM and DG!
*edit*
J: I meant tell L I hope she has a nice visit with her mother/family.
:(
watching Tremors, ah it's a fun movie!!
night!
Morning Blog
Hope it's a good day for everyone.
Remember to take time for all that is important in your life. Don't waste a single moment. No one wants to live with regret.
Mayonaise,
I understand your reasoning.
Happy lunch everybody.
Mayo, have you ever had a snow day?
If you did, do you remember when the last one was for you?
I had one yesterday. It was wonderful. I cooked good food and read bad books by a fire.
My childhood was spent at the beach, so I never had snow days. I don't have memories of sledding or snowball fights. Now I get these magical days as an adult and I really love them.
I hope you're doing well.
Catch ya on the flip side. :)
I believe I understand too, Mayo, though I could be wrong.
I am very, very sorry for what this became.
As ever, your friend in poetry/science/light/philosophy,
Jules ♥
Hey Jen and Jules
Good to see you both
I understand as well Mayo and I am very, very, very, very sorry for what's become of this place. Through no fault of my own. I know that's understood. ^_~
Mayo
Just wanted to say goodnight. Yeah, it's pretty damn early for that but I won't be home tonight. Don't laugh but it's like I have this list of things in my head that need to be done each night - Feed the dogs, tend to the furnace, tell Mayo goodnight...
Yep, you're on my list (in a good way)
Take care. Please
Elena
good morning, hope everyone is well, I just have tutoring this morning, a rest day :]
boi oh boi
jason changes his mind and changes it again
men!
I also think I understand. I ws wondering what Kapunua was talking about then I checked the profile. I remember in the beginning people talking about her and him getting each others "language" or "moon talk" or something. If what Kapunua seems to think is right and what I'm starting to think is right, then I'm also very sorry. Though be it known that I have never said anything to hurt anyone and I have never EVER been one of the ones to copy and repeat any of the negative stuff, or personal information. I was just a witness to that atrocity.
kapu should apologize, none of this would have happened if it wasnt for her
hi anon
could you please tell me who Jason is and what he's done? I don't think we get the show you're talking about (and I couldn't load the video clip)
permanent vacation=no more blogs
Well that's Mayo's prerogative and I wouldn't blame him, he isn't beholden to any of us.
It has been good of him to enable us to be here, but it isn't what it was for anyone anymore
I hope he has gained something good from the blogs if he does decide to no longer contribute.
I'm off tutoring, back in a couple of hours
xx
permanent vacation has been there since last week.
ergoproxy said...
Well that's Mayo's prerogative and I wouldn't blame him, he isn't beholden to any of us.
It has been good of him to enable us to be here, but it isn't what it was for anyone anymore
That's true ep. It hasn't been that way for a long, long time. Anybody who thought things were honky dorey was just fooling themselves. There have been too many insults, too many hurt feelings, too much thinking I'm better and more important than you, not enough respect and not enough apologies.
I do hope Mayo is in a good place IF he was telling us last week that he was taking a permanent vacation.
Anonymous said...
I also think I understand. I ws wondering what Kapunua was talking about then I checked the profile. I remember in the beginning people talking about her and him getting each others "language" or "moon talk" or something. If what Kapunua seems to think is right and what I'm starting to think is right, then I'm also very sorry.
You're also both very late in getting the "moon talk".
It is my understanding that she hadn't been around to "get" it.
5:03 I disagree. Kapunua has done nothing that everyone else hasn't done.... and she hasn't done it as much. If anyone is to be "blamed" it is those like you. Those who have made this a place of constant venting of frustrations with her as the most usual target. For no other reason than that of you don't like her.
She said "idiot" to someone two years ago. That person went out of her way to make sure she got fired. I would say Kapunua paid in spades for using that word. Much harsher words than that have been used by other people here and no one else is asked to "pay" for them at such a price.
Anons like you harassed her for two straight years. If anyone else had to face the same amount (or KIND) of harassment such as emails getting sent around to people off - blog, losing of jobs, personal information being posted, and the sheer amount of ugly words tossed at her, I suspect no one else would have been as good of a sport about any of that as she was.
Yes she lashed out a few times. But NEVER to the extent that others have and yet for two solid years you called HER on that and no one else.
She gave the least amount of trouble and she took the most.
If there is any blame it is yours.
I also wonder if Mayo's "permanent vacation" since you said it was up there last week, magically coincided with Kapunua not posting here anymore.
Was it last week he changed it or 2 weeks ago? Gnothi commented on the change at the time.
For Mayo
I got a letter from a friend the other morning
He say it's hot down by Montego Bay
I got the point and now I think it's finally dawning
Yeah, yeah, I got to get away
I got to take myself a Permanent Vacation
The sky's the limit, but my plane won't fly
My nose is clean and lordie don't need no sedation
Yeah, yeah, and that's the reason why
(Chorus)
I really need it, really, really need St Tropez
I want a tan where the sun it never shines
I really need it, really, really need St Tropez
You best believe it that I got to get away
I got a sister, man she really got a pin head
She think she kinky but she can't get straight
She say she livin', but I kinda think she's brain dead
Just excess baggage on a late night freight
(Chorus)
I gotta take me on a Permanent Vacation
The girl's be cummin' down in Cayman Brack
I gotta hand it to a firm situation
Yeah, yeah, got to cut me some slack
I really need it, really, really need St Tropez
I want a tan where the sun it never shines
I really need it, really, really need St Tropez
I really need it, really need it, really really....
6:07
She's never apologized to anyone other than Mayo, SS and her clique for anything she's said and done. That's what she's never done. Don't the feelings of the people she's hurt matter to you?
She gave the least amount of trouble and she took the most.
LMFAO Funniest thing I've ever read here. Who are you trying to fool anon?
It was put up Saturday before last, about a week and a half ago, same day he put up TJ's words.
If there is any blame it is yours.
Yes. It's always somebody else's fault. She bears none of the responsibility. She's done nothing wrong. Ever. She's the real saint here. Not Elena. Yup.
Thank you 6:13. So, she was around then. The moon must not have been in the right phase for her to understand his language at the time.
rolls eyes
Maybe Mayo prefers REM
Gotta get away..gotta get away
I'm on a permanent vacation
Nothing left to move
I want a revelation
Nothing left to prove
I could take it with me
Leave you all behind
Got some kind of feeling
Burnin' on my mind
Sleeping late in the morning
Stay out all night long
Every day is like the one before
I'm going wrong
I'm on a permanent vacation
Nothing left to lose
I want a revelation
Nothing left to prove
I can take it with me
Leave you all behind
Got some kind of feeling
Burnin on my mind
There's only one thing you can do
This I gotta do
I got nothing to win...nothing to lose
Nothing left to prove
One thing to do
Well, I'm on a permanent vacation
Permanent vacation
kapu was so slow wtf he put that shit up 2 weeks ago and she only understood it now lololololo
How did his favorites
the "exclusive club" that are the only ones who understand him
miss that change?
The mind
it boggles.
6:24
Put up your aim screen name. I will too. We are the only ones who can help Mayo now. They missed it. It's up to us to save him.
let's go check ss's profile. maybe he sent us a seeekret message too. one only we can understand. we can come here and tell ss
and let everybody else know
that we hear him loud and clear ^_~
everybody else can wonder wtf we're talking about but it will be our seeeeekret. us and ss. ^_~
it is lol worthy.
it always has been when they do that.
they=the exclusive clique of mayo and ss's favorites
we all know who they are. they've told us enough times.
Perhaps some people don't obsessively check his profile page the way you do anons.
Haha, maybe KAPU left because she saw that Mayo left. That would figure. THink about it. She see's that he's gone. Well now there is no one to suck up to, Nothing left for her here. So she leaves too. It would definitely show that she was here for HIM the entire time.
Mayo
what's your sign. i'll do your horoscope.
Permanent Vacation has been up since he posted this most recent blog.
I wish I was on a permanent vacation. This job hunting thing stuffs big time.
6:34
Scuse me. I saw Gnothi's comment then I checked to see what she was talking about. Perhaps some of us aren't as obsessed with Mayo as you are with pimping Kapu to god knows who. What's her dowry? A dowry could help.
Hallo Amy. Take me with you.
SHe needs a dowry or SOMTHING to make her worth anything.
First you all hate her because you think she didn't "get it" fast enough and was too slow. Now you hate her because she "got it" last week and that's why she left? Make up your minds at least.
To K,
A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left.
Marylin Monroe
6:39
This week
last week
the week before
it doesn't matter.
I don't hate her. I just wonder why the hell you people try pushing her off on other people. Most people don't need their family & "friends" to tell people how wonderful, smart, special, classy and gracious they are. You either are or you aren't. People either see it or they don't.
Having some of your "friends" say it on the net doesn't convince anybody. You can try to sell it but nobody's buying it. None of us are.
BTW
It's annoying as hell and just makes her look desperate.
6:39
OMGZzzzz
you iz so awesome and AMAZzzING and fimmtastic. do you have a picture and pome link for mayo or ss. i will repost it a hundred gazillion times to make sure they see how awwzome and AMAZzzing you are.
6:39
get over this persecution complex. that's annoying to. is she really that paranoid or is it just you?
You mean like how the OPS always complain about being "hunted"?
'HUNTED' LMFAO. I don't recall anyone every posting their real names (like they did to sdock) or where they live (like they did do Kapu).
7:01
Yes, the OPS are the most horrible people on earth. Yes they are. They are villians who tied poor, poor innocent Kapu to the rack. Watch out. They're coming with whips. She'll be beheaded at sunrise. You can worship your hero martyr more then.
For Mayo
to listen to on vacation
I'm the kid that no one knows,
I live a life I never chose,
But these thoughts in my mind,
Are my own, my own
I'm face to face with the unknown,
My scary movie will be shown,
I've got one evil mind,
My own, my own
[Chorus:]
We take from one another,
And never stop to wonder how it feels from the other side,
But nothing lasts forever,
When stupid turnes to cleaver,
Why are you surprised,
Little know it all (litle know it all)
Ten bucks in my hand,
Little know it all (little know it all)
Don't cry, I understand
So...
I'm a target although smart,
They got amunition I got heart,
I'm analyized and tagged,
Before I start
So tell me who can I respect,
I feel the leash around my neck,
As I find out the shame,
In the game (in the game)
[Chorus:]
We take from one another,
And never stop to wonder how it feels from the other side,
But nothing lasts forever,
When stupid turnes to cleaver,
Why are you surprised,
And I feel like I've crawled outside the box
And I feel like I'm sleeping when I'm not
[Chorus:]
We take from one another,
And never stop to wonder how it feels from the other side,
But nothing lasts forever,
When stupid turnes to cleaver,
Why are you surprised,
Little know it all (litle know it all)
Ten bucks in my hand,
Little know it all (little know it all)
Don't cry, I understand
You little know it all (litle know it all)
Ten bucks in my hand,
Little know it all (little know it all)
Don't cry I understand,
You'll never know it all
Iggy Pop
Little know it all
for ss
i think he likes geese
My heart knows what the wild goose knows
And I must go where the wild goose goes
Wild goose, brother goose, which is best
A wanderin' foot or a heart at rest
Tonight I heard the wild goose cry
Wingin' north in the lonely sky
Tried to sleep, it warn't no use
'Cause I am a brother to the old wild goose
Oh, my heart knows what the wild goose knows
And I must go where the wild goose goes
Wild goose, brother goose, which is best
A wanderin' foot or a heart at rest
Woman was kind and true to me
She thinks she loves me, more fool she
She's got a learn that ain't no use
To love a brother of the old wild goose
[Chorus]
The cabin is warm and the snow is deep
I got a woman who lies asleep
She'll wake up tomorrow's dawn
She'll find, poor critter, that her man is gone
Oh, my heart knows what the wild goose knows
And I must go where the wild goose goes
Wild goose, brother goose, which is best
A wanderin' foot or a heart at rest
Let me fly, let me fly, let me fly away
Spring is comin' and the ice will break
And I can't linger for a woman's sake
She'll see a shadow pass overhead
She'll find a feather 'side my bed
They are the ones who always complain about being "hunted" and "crucified" yet they are also the ones who got involved in peoples' lives outside of the blog. Real names, email addresses and home towns and ISPs. (ISP, NOT IP NUMBER). How often have they talked about being hunted and crucified?
As YOU would say, Mother please.
As YOU would say
EPIC FAIL you PSYCHO idiot
I've never said Mother please.
Do you ever get tired of being WRONG?
Sorry, never called anyone a psycho or an idiot on this blog.
So..... how about that "hunted" and "crucified"??
Hey Mayooooo
This 7:32 is funnnay as hell don't you think. You feel me? I feel you son.
Really. I'm sorry Mayo. You have to get embarassed with all that crap. Sorry.
I don't know 7:39. I've never been hunted or crucified. Ask kap u how that feels. She and you seem to believe she has.
I don't care what anybody says. This place is still great Mayo. Thank you for it.
Ho, ho, ho
It's magic, you know
Never believe it's not so
It's magic, you know
Never believe, it's not so
Never been awake
Never seen a day break
Leaning on my pillow in the morning
Lazy day in bed
Music in my head
Crazy music playing in the morning light
Ho, ho, ho
It's magic, you know
Never believe it's not so
It's magic, you know
Never believe, it's not so
I love my sunny day
Dream of far away
Dreaming on my pillow in the morning
Never been awake
Never seen a day break
Leaning on my pillow in the morning light
Ho, ho, ho
It's magic, you know
Never believe it's not so
It's magic, you know
Never believe, it's not so
Ho, ho, ho
It's magic, you know
Never believe it's not so
It's magic, you know
Never believe, it's not so
THe funny thing is I've never heard that girl talk about being "hunted" or "crucified", what I found cool about her (and still do) was that after all of that stuff she was forgiving and happy.
But you hAVE heard the OP's talk about being hunted and crucified haven't you? When honestly..... nothing bad has really happened to them. Some people call them on their shitty behaviour. Oh baawwww they are so HUNTED and CRUCIFIED.
Deny it. Deny that they said those things.
What? You've never heard her mention the "mean" anons. The "nasty" anons who are always attacking her? You never read her poor, poor me comments. You never saw her thank the "nice" anons that tore apart the OPS, Amy and Mya?
Fuck anon. You got me. She is so forgiving, happy and wonderful. I'll buy her. I got $269.69. Is it enough? I heard she gets sexcited about the number 69.
Selling anybody else tonight? I got a friend who might be interested in buying somebody approx 5 foot, blonde and doesn't have the sense they were born with. Easy to manipulate those.
I knew you couldn't deny it. What else did anyone expect. Thank you for not lying for once.
As of Kap, I saw her get frustrated sometimes and lash out. I saw EVERYBODY do that.
But I've never heard her do the oh poor me and woe is me that the OPs did and I never ONCE saw her do any of the spiteful things to change someone else's REAL LIFE that I saw the OPs and Mya do.
Honestly I see more oh poor me from the OPs and Elena and Sdock10.
"Selling anybody else tonight? I got a friend who might be interested in buying somebody approx 5 foot, blonde and doesn't have the sense they were born with. Easy to manipulate those."
I don't even know what you're talking about.
Stop anon. I said I would buy her. The price I'm offering won't go up. It will go down with every comment you make.
It's $269.00 now.
I challenge you to find ONE time where I have lied. I can find plenty where she has. Pathological liars don't fetch nearly as much money as regular liars.
8:30
YOU wouldn't.
I dont understand half of the things said right now.
What would you like to talk about anon? Besides kapu and the ops.
Anon who likes Kapu. Let me give you a hint.
Give it up.
I like her too. But you are not going to convince these people. You know why?
"doesn't have the sense they were born with. ..."
"Mother please"....
Because the "anons" tonight are OPJ.
Yesterday it was Wizbef (OK that was creepy about her keeping the pictures of Kap).
OPJ keeps giving herself away. She's not even trying to hide it anymore.
She will keep lying through her yellow teeth.
Don't keep arguing. She likes it.
How about Obama? He's doing a hell of job fixin the economy dont you think. Getting that cabinet together effectively too.
8:41
Do YOU ever get tired of being wrong? You are using hidemyass right. I would hate to see you keep embarassing yourself infront of Mayo like this.
*sighs*
Three days now guys. Probably longer. I lost track.
Anyway, we're not in Heaven, so could everyone put down their harps and try to have a civil conversation instead of this mess?
Please?
You do know that anybody who has internet experience can get around hidemyass too right?
I just hope we're all providing some entertainment and pleasure for Mayo. He deserves some pleasure.
I'm willing Amy. I don't think they are.
"Anyway, we're not in Heaven, so could everyone put down their harps and try to have a civil conversation instead of this mess?
Please?"
You should talk.
"Anonymous Anonymous said...
I'm willing Amy. I don't think they are.
March 3, 2009 8:49 PM"
Of course you are willing to do what Amy says. You are always willing to be "guided" by Amy, OPJ.
LOL 8:50
You don't get tired of being wrong do you?
What can we do to help get this one over their obsession with OPJ?
I think they are beyond help.
8:49, you have to concur that this whole mess has been drawn out a lot longer than it should have been.
Mayo and SS
Any suggestions for getting over OPJ obsession? This one really needs help.
It has been drawn out for two years Amyranth and your attempts to shut people up and tell them what not to say in the past only made it worse.
They won't stop Amy. If they won't
i will.
They are starting to bore me. They say the same things over and over again.
8:54, how are you helping?
Dredging up the past doesn't heal it. It hurts everyone here. What are you gaining from it except the mess that's here right now?
8:54
Who are you selling tonight? I found some change in the sofa.
I don't think they're trying to help. I don't they're willing to move past a damn thing.
Mayo
are you for sale? you have to get a better pimp if you are. they're not doing a damn thing for you.
Amyranth, what did YOUR mess help? But you love blaming "problems" on others.
9:08, you're quite good at sorting blame and pointing fingers as well.
Again, what are you getting from this?
9:08
That's the second funniest thing I've ever read here. Amy likes blaming things on others? lolololol
What did YOU get from everything YOU started?
"That's the second funniest thing I've ever read here. Amy likes blaming things on others? lolololol"
Oh of course she NEVER said that it was poetry and quotes that were ruining the blog. She never singled out four people and blamed them. No never.
Well? Are you going to answer my question 9:13?
helo again
Hi amy
any luck on the job hunting?
Hey Ergo.
Yes and no. Mostly no.
How was titoring?
What did Amy start 9:13? I don't think she STARTED a damn thing.
I'll tell you what she got. She got me kissin' her ass. Something you'll never get. I don't like the places your lips and ass have been. Disinfect and fumigate. There might still be time for you.
I did answer your question. You never answered though.
It was good, we were doing trigonometry problems and one was quite difficult so while I figured that out he went on with others , and after a few mess ups I got it out!
I was pretty proud of myself :] then I explained it to him and we did some more challenging ones
Actually, it wasn't Amy who started it. She wrote something on her blog and an anon copied and pasted it here. If saying something on your blog and having it copied and pasted here means you are starting shit. Than you could say Kapu has started shit as well. People are always doing it to her. But I don't see you holding it against her.
A lot of the shit you are going after one person for the other has done. You just have selective memory about it.
You can't answer my question with a question dear. This isn't an episode of Seinfeld.
What are you getting from dredging up the past? Using it to piss people off? Harping on and on and on about things that have happened, that you clearly know nothing about?
Why do you keep pointing fingers? What are you getting out of this?
Ergo, I never was any good at trig. I was more concerned with how my protractor could help me cure my lack-of-round-roundeyes drawing problem.
It never did. Practice made perfect, eventually.
lol Amy
trig is actually one part of maths I really enjoy, and we did need a protractor to get the diagram drawn correctly, but I think you should have tried a compass, or was that what you meant? lol
MJ, you just have your favorites and it is impossible to reason with you. You see bad in the porchies and only good in these people.
Amyranth I don't owe you any answers but I see you don't actually HAVE any for us.
MJ is back and making alot of sense as always. Hi MJ!
Anonymous said...
MJ, you just have your favorites and it is impossible to reason with you
POT meet KETTLE! You iz funnay anon.
Amyranth I don't owe you any answers but I see you don't actually HAVE any for us.
March 3, 2009 9:37 PM
You don't owe her any answers but she owes YOU an answer? This just keep getting funnier and funnier!
Who is US anon?
9:37, welcome to the bank. If you don't make a deposit, you can't withdraw anything either.
Get it?
9:37
Tell US who "ruined" this blog. Come on. Tell US. Who are the evil bad guys? WE really want to know what YOU think. Who do YOU blame? It couldn't have had anything to do with the hypocrisy of you and YOUR FAVORITES
could it? No. It couldn't.
me!
(may as well try)
I don't think they will get it Amy. I really dont.
me!
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