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Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,780 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 3201 – 3400 of 4780 Newer› Newest»it feels like it's been so long, anima. i'm sorry i'm not better about staying in touch. i'm awful at it.
so glad you are here now though! :)
anon not as far as I know!
lol
brb
You are welcome Anima. Thank you.
*giggles*
That's what I thought!
Ergo, I'm doing it all. Yes we have an accountant for the end of year (and I have consulted her about a few things); I am the one reporting throughout. Hoping I can handle it! Scary shit, I know! But I think I can do it.
hi honey.
:)
Hi nice anons. Good luck and best wishes with the business and everything Anima.
TJ, I suck at staying in touch too. No worries. :)
Thank you BC! *hugs*
How is everything going for you?
You're welcome Anon. :)
I'm still catching up...well, hell I will never catch up. I'm a liar.
hello sweet.
when i read you, my heart always jumps.
♥♥
:)
Hey BC :)
Don't worry Anima, just some playful times here. Nice to read you again.
Anon, 1:42 who might you be speaking to? It might help if you identify.
Speaking of anons, I was looking at some older posts 'back in the day' hahahaha! and it was most interesting to see. I miss the way it was. Such as life.
Thank you 1:45. You are very sweet. :)
anima, it sounds like we're on the same wavelength. :)
and if i'm bad at staying in touch, and you're bad at staying in touch, then it's like we're staying in touch by not staying in touch!
lol
:)
♥(still in synchronicity)♥
Not to me Anima.
I think 1:42 is speaking to 1:39.
Anima, it's been okay. I spent most of the time recovering from an illness I had for almost two weeks. I'm doing okay now though.
You are also very sweet anima ^_^
I'm back!
I've got about 15 mins 'till a student comes
Anima we have quarterly tax to do for the business then end of financial year personal and business
I have the quarterly stuff down pat now, this is financial year so it's big. (ours is June to June)
Aww, it's a Warm Fuzzy!
Its all about the love.
I like the Love.
♥synchronicity♥
i like that
:)
*wanting to address mayo's 'flammable fingers' aka 'combustable cock' but I have nothing.* (Regardless, the fingerpainting you did, is well, so sweet....you listened to Elena and for that you rule. She's awesome.)
Mr. Naise, just know that I have not forgotten that this is your place. Always left wondering what the fuck you are writing about...
well at least he didn't fingerpaint with mayonnaise
:)
♥♥
lol ergo! but, how do we know he didn't? i mean, maybe he needed a quick emulsifier for the paint...
:)
I think Mayo only understands Mayo, anima ;)
like egg tempera
mayo-tempera
J, I love the love!
Thank you anon at 1:47. And thank you Anon at 1:49. So much sweetness, I can hardly stand it! Yay! I love it.
BC, you were sick? That blows. I'm happy that you are okay now. Take care of yourself. I'm all about the 'warm salt water'... seriously it will cure any cold. Not sure if that was what you were going through. Just happy that you are okay now.
Ergo, as usual I love that I can talk to you about business. My fiscal year is the calendar year...quite different from my nonprofit days. So it's jan-dec instead of july - june. Basically I'm in my third quarter. All taxes are due at the end of October.
I was body painted once. With the chocolate sort :)
Anon at 2:02, me too. Only I did it to myself. A studio project. I wish it was with chocolate! I could have had a party instead of school project!
i saw heart-shaped clouds today.
you are affecting my mind.
♥♥
:)
Thanks anima
Anima hope it all goes smoothly, but a good accountant makes it so much easier,I'm glad they understand all the ins and outs
as I don't!
I have my student now so I'll be back in an hour but for all who'll be gone sweet dreams
so good to see you again anima
bye J BC TJ and anon(s)
♥xx♥
To tell the truth anima, I did it to someone else, but it ended up on both of us ;)
bye ergo, have fun. :)
Martha, if you stop by next time I have some great J-rock bands to show you :)
Goodnight Ergo! I'll see you tomorrow.
Anima, it was really good to see you. I hope you can make it back this way again soon. Hugs to Mr Anima and Daddy and all the rest. Oh, and you too, of course! *hugs for Anima*
Goodnight Anima, BC, TJ, Nice Anon/s, Lovey Anons, and all the lurkers far and near.
Goodnight Mayo--have you started getting ready for Halloween? Got your Great Pumpkin outfit ready to wear? I'm thinking you could do a great Dracula, with the cape and all. Give it some thought.
love, faith, hope, kitty faces, guinea pigs
Enjoy titoring ergo. Take care.
Sorry that deleted comment was me. Double post.
Speaking of Martha...I miss you so fucking much. Just thought you should know. ;)
I should be going...
♥ to all of you.
mmmmm...it was hot ^_^
Goodnight J sweet dreams to you and L.
Hi everyone
Goodnight anima...come visit soon :)
good night j., sweet dreams.
good night anima, it was lovely to see you. :)
Anon at 2:21, I can only imagine.... ;)
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Blogbelieve, I love you all so fucking much. Don't forget it.
Nighty nite BC, J, Ergo, TJ, and Anon. Lovely to hang out with all of you.
Take care!!!!!!
whoo! hi elena!
i have some pics to show you. :)
anima!
*BIG SQUEEZY GOOD NIGHT HUGS*
:D
:)
is it wrong for that to make me smile
(you are affecting mine)
♥♥
Kisses Elena before I go.
*Call me!*
Goodnight J sweet dreams to you and L. Goodnight anima *hugs*
*kisses Anima back*
I will I promise!!!!!
What pics TJ?
Okay, one more hug....
*tight hugs* TJ, love you sweetie!
*squeezes*
Night sweetheart!
Hi elena, good to see you!
A tip anima, if you have very long hair like me, tie it up before the body paint. It tends to get kinda icky and sticky ;)
Hey BC
How are you?
Hi Precious,
So are YOU ready for Halloween? I'm not quite yet. We decorate some (not nearly as much as Elena, she puts Martha Stewart to shame), but when you live in an apt complex there's a limit to what you can do. I DO have the prerequisite black cat, so maybe he'll make up for the lack of other things.
One Halloween several years ago, when I lived in ATL and only had Dumplin, I'd decided to pass out candy that year. Every time I opened the door at first, Dumplin would run and hide under the bed. After about the fifth or sixth time he just stayed there. The whole thing just freaked him out.
Made me wonder if he knew that black cats are more likely to be stolen at Halloween.
Whatever the reason, that was the last year I handed out candy. I get a little extra worried this time of year, on account of that catnapping thing.
Well, thanks for listening to my completely nonsensical ramble. Hope you're doing well and taking care of yourself.
Goodnight, baby. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
i like that i can make you smile.
♥♥
:)
I'm ok elena, but I have a headache. I hope you're well?
I'm gonna lay down for a bit. Bye guys.
goodnight♥♥honey
:)
(you make me smile like no other)
elena, i have a couple more of my tree pictures that i thought you'd like to see.
branches and leaves
the woods between here and the neighbors
and this is just cool. yesterday, we went out for lunch and a drive, and went through this little town, and their cemetery. of course, i had to stop, and in the back, up against the slope of the hill, i saw that grave. it's for the anderson's, a couple who had been married 60 years, and died within five years of each other, in the early part of the 20th century.
there are little purple wildflowers still blooming inside.
isn't that neat? so lovely.
Sorry you're not feeling well BC
Take care of yourself, okay?
Hope you feel better soon.
Seriously anons, you need to pick up that phone and arrange a meeting or somethin'.
Day in, day out of this must drive you crazy.
I would find it next to impossible to be away from someone I feel with such intensity.
Said in the nicest possible way.
Nice pics TJ. I really like the cemetery pic.
There is a small cemetery not far from my house that is very old and very neglected. I really want to take some shots there. Maybe tomorrow....
I have a pic of the porch outside my study if you want to see it.
Toujours, lovely pictures. I like the grave too.
Hello elena.
♥goodnight my sweet♥
(i'll see you in my dreams)
:)
Hi anon
How are you?
i'd love to see your porch, elena! and you should definitely take some pics at that cemetery. old cemeteries are the best places.
thank you, 2:48. :)
I'm as well as can be elena. Thank you for asking.
Okay TJ just for you I shall attemp the clicky link. Might take me a few minutes.
Anon, did you have a good day?
Yes elena. Having trouble sleeping tonight because I'm so excited.
Okay hope this works
halloween porch
What are you excited about anon? If you don't mind me asking.
Hi elena, anon and TJ!
I have a not of catching up to do, but I will check back.
How are you doing?
PS - I see the anon had a good day! :)
elena, i can't make it go clicky. :(
Sorry elena the link doesn't work.
The man I love returns from overseas tomorrow, and the anticipation is building. I really miss him.
hello miranth. :)
Holy crap the clicky is making me it's bitch again. Okay I'm gonna try one more time...
halloween porch
oh, 3:11, how wonderful! i hope your reunion is everything you hope for. :)
oh anon that's exciting. I'm so happy for you.
Yeah the clicky wins. I fail
still no clicky, elena.
you're doing this, right?
< a href = "pic link" > clicky link phrase < /a >
(all skooshed up of course)
Thank you.
hello again
Hello elena!
Tj love the leaves and cemeteries are fascinating
anon oh how lovely your man is returning, I bet you are so excited!
elena make sure the pic has the http bit too
Halloween Porch
Oh yeah, Elena ain't the clicky's bitch no more.
You all can see it, right?
Very nice elena.
Thank you ergo. He was meant to stay longer, but he wanted to come back too :)
Thanks anon
So do you have something special planned for his return? Or is it just gonna be a huge hugfest?
Hi ergo! I you one saw that you won an award yesterday! And were very gracious in accepting it too :)
elena - I like your decorations. It also reminds me that I have to work on a costume! (Procrastinating.)
it looks very good, elena! i like the way you used that hanger, and i especially like the ghostie in the back. so cool. :)
i haven't decorated for halloween in quite a few years -- your pictures are giving me nostalgia. maybe i'll decorate next year, if i'm in a place...
i'd better start making kleenex ghosties now. *hee*
YAY!!!!
that looks great elena!
have you got my little pumpkin out somewhere special?
Congratulations on his return anon!
PS - I missed anima :(
hi again ergo. thanks, i'm glad you liked the pics. :)
something special planned for his return
yes
gonna be a huge hugfest
yes, that too...and more :)
have a good time, anon. ;)
i'm for bed, now, so i'll see you all later. good night elena, ergo, miranth, and anon.
sweet dreams all.
Night TJ
Anon "and more"..LOL yep, I hope so!
Ergo your pumpkin is sitting on my desk.
Thank you toujours ;) Sleep well.
Thank you Miranth as well.
I'm heading off too. Thank you for the company and sweet dreams to all.
Goodnight.
Good night anon :) I am sure you will have pleasant dreams!
TJ - Goodnight! I didn't see if you replied to my question, but I kind of figured it out. The answer related to my tarot question was in a dream - I just didn't interpret things correctly.
I usually don't remember dreams, so I don't have to!
Sweet dreams :)
Thank you?
Whom are you thanking 3:17?
HI Miranth!
Hi ergo! I am reading back - did you get your taxes figured out?
I get nervous about them, too. :)
0_o
Have you guys heard of Dark Side of the Rainbow?
it's an urban legend based on the fact that if you start Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon on the 3rd lions roar the music synchs with Wizard of Oz
it's all on youtube done for you if you want a look, search Dark Side of the Rainbow
Mayo
So I spent the day headache- free and feeling much better about things. Okay to be honest last night wasn’t good. Nights like that I tend to call “fall down” times. They are times when I just can’t pretend that everything is okay. I’m just too tired to wear the mask. Wait this is sounding wrong. I’m not saying that I’m truly unhappy all the time and that I just pretend that I am. What I am saying is that often I’m upset or depressed but I don’t let it take over. I don’t let it rule my world. But last night, the “fall down” night, I let the sadness win. Sometimes I think it’s important to give in. Yeah, it’s the whole ‘I need a good cry’ mentality. The tears wash away some of the negative feelings. Make sense? Don’t worry if it doesn’t. It’s just how I deal with things.
So anyway I’ve got a few more horror movies to tell you about. Not sure why I think you need to hear about them other than the fact I just like to share things with you.
The first is “Bloodthirst: Legend of the Chupacabras” Oh my, goodness. This is definitely a good/bad movie. Poor filming and acting of course. Never mind that the director obviously doesn’t know the difference between goats and sheep. That’s minor really. The plot is all over the map. Oh and the “White Witch” seems to lose her wig for some of her shots. I really did try not to MST3K this one but it was impossible. At the end when the old vampire hunter (yeah human vampires are involved) and the Head Chupacabra are standing looking down into the fiery pit I screamed “Throw the damn ring in and end this thing.” Never hurts to include a little LOTR’s in callbacks.
The second movie is “The Ghosts of Edendale.” Not sure what to really say about this one. I mean it’s not a good/bad movie it’s just an okay movie. There was a sorta interesting plot but it was riddled with holes. But there were a few ‘gotta ya’ moments. I just never really thought of Tom Mix as horror material.
The last movie is “The Hollow.” Yep yet another take on “The Legend of Sleepy Hollow.” It stars Nick Carter and several other well know actors. Once again, just an okay movie. For some reason this is rated R but I have no idea why. It’s not all that violent and the sex is pretty damn tame. It’s full of typical horny teens just waiting to be decapitated. I did like one line delivered by a girl (you knew she was gonna die cause sex was involved and face it in these movies if you have sex it’s all over) She said “Let me show you how to put the fun back in funeral.” Oh and she said, “Show me the true meaning of bone yard.” Yeah, well she and the guy went for it and there was new meaning to ‘giving head’. After all this is the headless horseman we’re talking about. No real ending and I’m just hoping they really didn’t think a sequel was a possibility.
Okay, I’m done now. Oh but I did order a copy of “Rock n’ Roll Frankenstein” today. Hopefully it will arrive soon. The movie blurb for that one sounds truly bad but in a good way.
So, was your day good? Anything exciting happen? I hope it did. I hope you’re feeling great and living your life on your terms. No “fall down’ day for you, okay? But if you do have one you know where you can come for understanding and support. Yeah, you know.
Night Mayo
Elena (horror movies are rotting my brain)
I am going to finish off a 'goodnight' and get going. I want to finish watching an agatha christie movie.
ergo - I did hear that before, but I hadn't checked it out.
Youtube is pretty amazing!
Oh ergo I've done the "Dark Side of the Rainbow"
It's really pretty cool but let me tell you if alcohol is involved it really works much better. LOL
mayo,
i really do like cemeteries. i didn't have much experience with them when i was younger, but at college, the old town cemetery and the nun's cemetery were side-by- side on the edge of campus. it was a more direct route back to my dorm to walk through the grounds of both.
i loved them, and still do love cemeteries. there's nothing frightening there, just a wistful sadness at all those partings, and the comforting weight of time.
i don't like modern ones, however. all those markers, flat to the ground? it's like there's no one there, it's like looking at a golf course. and it's done to make it easier for the grounds-keepers. for convenience. *pah*
taking care of our beloved dead shouldn't be something that is convenient. reverent, yes. easy, sure, but convenient?
that's awful.
and you can't feel them there, in those places. there are no stories waiting to be wondered at in modern cemeteries.
i could spend all day wandering through the old cemeteries. i stop and read the inscriptions, take pictures of the stones that are particularly beautiful (and thank the inhabitant with a kissed hand laid on the stone), tidy the graves that have twigs and leaves strewn across them.
they went before us, and we will follow them. it's one of the great mysteries. for me, as a pagan, it's the mystery that i will honor at the end of this month. but it touches everyone. being respectful of the dead and their places (regardless of religion) seems only natural to me, not out of fear, but in honor of their lives, most of which are beyond memory. in honor of that which i will someday experience myself.
well, i didn't mean to get on a soapbox! in my family, my views on the dead are given wary space. i usually keep them mostly to myself. it's just easier that way.
mayo, my friend (for you are, because if i can feel friendly toward the unseen dead, why can i not feel friendly toward you, very much living though just as unseen? and after all, you communicate with us without the benefit of a planchette -- that's encouragement enough, i should think! *grin*), if you are able, if you are inclined, near halloween this year go to a cemetery near you. find a grave that is unkempt, that seems lonely. sit with them. wonder about them, and what they did when they breathed. bring them a few flowers, or an apple, or just your attention, for a short while.
i don't know why, but it always balances me. maybe it balances something on the other side, as well.
good night. be well.
I did thanks it's in the accountants hands now
Good ergo - Let the accountant have the headache!
:)
I am sure you did well, but I understand the worry over it. I always have trouble with documents.
well so far elena 2 beers are involved and it's pretty nifty!
but who suddenly tries these things?
lol
and try to find Rogue, for a nice little good/bad crocodiles eat everyone type movie
have fun with Agatha tonight miranth!
SS
Yeah I know I don’t address you all that often. Know why? Cause I just think of you as an old friend who I don’t need to tell all that often how much you mean to me. This really is sorta wrong and I’m sorry. I don’t mean to neglect you at all. Shit, I do take you for granted. Once again, that’s wrong. SS, your words and actions speak of the person you truly are. A very wonderful person with a heart of gold. Okay, that sounds all schmaltzy. Maybe that’s why I don’t speak to you that often. I just know I’ll get all touchy feely. Oh well, too bad. It’s how I feel about you. Take care, my friend. Know that I am always keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Elena
Ergo that sounds like a wonderful Good/Bad movie. I will try to find a copy.
Keep drinking. Believe me it will really start to work.
Okay I really gotta try to get some sleep.
Night everyone out there. Take care of yourselves.
MAYO
YOU'RE A STUPID FUCK
*screamed at you with best wishes*
goodnight elena and TJ and Miranth and anyone else I missed BC MJ J
sweet dreams
hey anon, interesting thing to scream with best wishes but there you go! Hope Mayo likes it, he's an odd fellow :)
To quote myself and respond to anon comments:
Amazing :) You guys have the mind games part right, at least! :)) I remember back when someone here was toying with me, but I won't allow her to do so anymore, so I think I'll let all that pass.
Nor do I think Mayo and SS are responsible for any behavior, except their own.
Anons - It was a long, long time ago, even in this place.
It was someone who was hurtful toward me because she was afraid that mayo would be upset by my words. There may have been another reason too, but that's speculation. Mayo is most important, in her opinion.
[I treat people equally. You could be shot where I am from for not being fair - and that's no exaggeration!]
4:30 PM - I did not imagine it, unfortunately. The person posted the SAME comment over and over to cover my words. Would that it were my imagination! And I am nothing if not honest, perhaps too much so. It gets me in a LOT of trouble in real life! :)
Unfortunately that wasn't the only incident, as others were not immune either. The reference to Animal Farm brought it to mind. As the incident implied that a hierarchy (and an artificial one, too) exists here - though I think person who made that comment intended something completely different. But, you can't control people's perception - or their memory of events.
I will admit, that while I am not stupid, I am incapable of using such a gift - and intelligence IS a gift, whatever arrogant people might think - to hurt others intentionally, or to elevate individuals at others' expense. That's why it took me so very long to drag myself out of the mind-game loop. I couldn't wrap my mind around the problem.
I learned something very important, though, and I am much stronger, and for that I am very, very grateful. She gave me a gift, all unwittingly.
I won't mention any names because its unimportant, and people change - - and heal. Also, it might upset her to know the favor she did me.
I wouldn't wish to hurt her, as I am not so cruel.
If anyone wishes to respond, please do so at MY blog. I don't often make it over there, but I shan't ignore your words.
Mayo - You really should read the reply above. Its my testimony. I believe the lesson therein is very important, especially for those who've been hurt, which is why I placed it here. I hope you don't mind.
PS - I do realize that we have a 'messenger' that connects us.
RE:coincidence - the parallels are beyond those in nature, I suspect.
:)
OK - Now I am wiped out.
Wendy - I'll try again at some point! I fell asleep this evening, but I left you a message. :)
♥ Have a good one everybody!
:)
Goodnight elena! Bye ergo
PPS - I shan't even apologize for the length of that comment, no I shan't.
:)
"It's changed it in very numerous and positive ways, but I think that has more to do with the fact that I am married to the most perfect match I could have ever met," answers Gerard. "I create more now, I'm inspired constantly by my wife. I write more songs, start more comics, just create more in general."
I AM MARRIED TO THE MOST PERFECT MATCH I COULD HAVE EVER MET.
I'M INSPIRED CONSTANTLY BY MY WIFE.
LOL LIE LOL LIE LOL LIE LOL LIE LOL LIE
ELIZA AND KIT GONNA BE MADD
October 13, 2008 10:21 PM
I don't think "KIT" give two shits about him. Just sayin'
you don't want to annoy KIT
you don't want to annoy this KIT ^_^
Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Miranth, Ergo, Elena, TJ, Anima, everyone I chatted with a few (or more) hours ago; various anons, watchers (if they are still watching), and lurkers; all decorators extraordinaire (such as Elena) in the land o'blogbelieve!
I hope everyone I chatted with last night is sleeping soundly and dreaming wonderful dreams! I hope those of you just waking up had a restful night and woke up happy and refreshed!
Miranth: We seem to be playing phone tag! I should be home after 8:00 tonight and I'll be up until I pass out. ;)
I'll be sure to be charged too!
BC: The reply has been sent. I hope you get it, sweetcheeks! Feel better today! Yes, that IS an order. ;) and *hugs*
D A: You're welcome and thank you for your kind words regarding these comments of mine! I appreciate your taking the time to stop in and 'say' them very much!
*big hug for you*
Anima: I'm so happy to hear things are going so well for you. It's great to 'see' you again!
Submitted for your reading pleasure and pondering consideration today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Good People
A Yiddish Folk Tale
An old man sat outside the walls of a great city. When travelers approached, they would ask the old man, "What kind of people live in this city?" The old man would answer, "What kind of people live in the place where you came from?" If the travelers answered, "Only bad people live in the place where we came from," the old man would reply, "Continue on; you will find only bad people here."
But if the travelers answered, "Good people live in the place where we came from," then the old man would say, "Enter, for here too, you will find only good people."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wishing you all a beautiful day!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Fruit Punch, AIP, Mya, Andie, Jade and Cupcake!
Ergo!!!!! Goodnight and sweet dreams to you!
*smooooooch*
6:12 O_O
*smooooooooooch* wendy, have a lovely Tuesday
Mayo
“It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realise just how much you love them.”
I think the times when you are able to laugh with someone are some of the most precious. I am blessed to have known and currently know people who are able to look completely ridiculous and laugh joyously at the absurdity of the situation, and to share with me when I do the same. I love to do things just for fun, skipping around a shopping mall, staring up at something to see how many people you can gather to stare with you, then walk away, step into an elevator and stay facing the back wall, regardless of who comes in, dress up, dance, sing, take an action figure on holidays....
I have been asked at times if I'm drunk - no, embarrassed - no, ashamed even, and again - no, it's fun and seeing the fun in life is one of the most satisfying things we can do. Keeps us young at heart, and balanced in mind,
Wishing you light-heartedness, joy, humour and those to share it with
much love EP xx
SS
“I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely
miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite
certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.”
The alternative is nowhere near as attractive! I have a friend, somewhat older than me who when asked how he is, even after heart and health problems, will reply "Well, it's better than a pat on the head with a shovel!"
We sometimes worry so much about life that we can forget to live it. Trials and tribulations make the better times feel all the more sweet. Enjoying the good times should be embraced enthusiastically, they are the times that sustain us through the dark.
Sending you appreciation, curiosity and empowerment
lotsa love EP xx
*both Agatha Christie (inspired by Miranth)
HI PP
*waves to PJ*
and all those wendy mentions each night too, I remember you all
goodnight blogbelieve, see you in my morning
♥xx♥
oh and mayo , your cock is my screensaver at the moment too, thought I'd give it a showing Down Under
ooo-errr
I am married to the most perfect match I could have ever met,"
"I create more now, I'm inspired constantly by my wife.
Since when have men ever been attracted to intelligent women? For the most part, they find them intimidating and too much work.
Why sleep with someone who's going to challenge you mentally when you can have a woman who thinks you're the most intelligent man on earth?
Martha Jones, good to see you here again.
I just had a look at your blog. Haha! He would make a GREAT Pussy Cat Doll.
Maybe when he's done being "hardcore" he can audition.
That's right 9:26. Just think of all the things you can do behind her back. And she's so dumb she wouldn't have a clue.
God, men are so fucking stupid!
9:30. I've seen dumb chicks screw up smart men. I wanna know how can you be with someone you don't feel mentally matched with? After the hot sex dies off, what is there? I suppose with some anything will do.
Hey, I won't stay long. Mouth almost got me in trouble at work. What else is new? So sorry for my blah attitude.
Anon 7:59, you're probably not still around.
Can anyone point me to what interview that quote is from? I'm trying to find it and failing.
I found it. Thank you and I hope the day here is a kind one.
Frank, Mikey and Ray seem to have made smart choices.
Katherine,
are you going to make Mayo's next post about how inspiring his wife is?
Katherine did you want to read that interview to get into Gerard's mindset for when you type up a new Mayo post?
Katherine! Aloha! ^___^ ANIMA! Thank you for the visit. :) I agree, politics can get wicked ugly, but goodness knows I understand the passion. Wish you'd come back on chat sometime. It's getting close! O_o
FIMBLE STAR, WELCOME HOME! I know you'll be happy. Remember when you asked me to write that poem about Manchester? I know it's where you belong. :D And Manchester is lucky to have you back.
Good morning, Mayo and S(S)S. I have the same thing for both of you today. It's the spinning naked girl visual brain test. Is she spinning clockwise, or anti-cockwise? How you see her spinning apparently determines which side of your brain is more dominant.
Here's the odd thing. When I look at her the first time, she is clearly spinning in one direction. But if I blink, she switches. If I blink again, she switches again! And the mad part is that when she's spinning clockwise, my brain can't even fathom how she could ever be perceived as going anti-clockwise. Then when I blink and she goes anti-clockwise, I can't begin to fathom how she could possibly be going clockwise. It's so confusing!
The mind is a terrible thing, and it must be stopped in this generation, before it destroys more lives.
Anyway, I am on my way this morning to send out my application to that alternative medicine school. It's a little daunting, I have to admit, but it is still wildly exciting. I keep mentally going into the future and seeing me in grad school, then mentally going farther and seeing me taking the board tests, and mentally going farther and seeing me as a doctor. And a mother. This whole "future" thing has always freaked me out as much as it has excited me.
It's a beautiful day. Have you seen the trees? I hope both of you are either on or have a chance to visit the north east coast. It's nothing but red, gold, orange, yellow and amber. The sun is to the south and it adds this crystalline glow that you only see in October.
Sei Shonagon, writer of The Pillow Book, said this:
The wind mixed with the rain that blows in the eight month and ninth month is a very moving thing. When the wind is howling and blowing the rain gusts sideways, it's delightful to take down summer's padded robe from the stand where it's been airing, and lay it over a gossamer silk-like shift to sleep under--delightful, too, to find yourself wondering at the fact that it's suddenly so cool, when it had earlier been so stiflingly hot that you longed to throw off even this gossamer shift.
And I love it when you open the lattice shutters or the double doors at daybreak, and a sudden gust of stormy wind stings your face.
Around the end of the ninth month or in the tenth month, the sky darkens and a howling wind blows up, which spills yellow leaves from the trees in flurries - a forlorn and touching sight. The leaves of cherry trees and elms are particularly quick to blow off.
Places that have a garden full of trees are marvelous around the tenth month.
The lady knew whereof she spoke. :)
You guys are both my friends and I miss you. ^_^ Hope you are well.
More Of This Anon and RDJ anon: Thank you for coming by and can't wait to have fun with you again! THE WASTELANDS ANON! You came back to the porch! I backread and saw you there! You quoted the lines that go before some of my favorite lines. I'll meet you over there. :D Calaf, other quotey and poetry and nice anons, please come and say hello. You are missed. :D
Back to the porch! :)
I am totally left-brained.
♥good morning♥
(still dreaming of you)
:)
Kapunua doesn't stop. The porch was never a secret. If they wanted to go there they would have. Beg for more attention though cos it's funny.
Funnier still is how they knew she wanted them. I don't think they're real.
Is she spinning clockwise, or anti-cockwise?
HAHAHAHAHAA!
what did Krapu do now?
Mayo where you be at you cock loving bitch
i think both mayo and ss visit the porch
SS loves Krapu and the porkies.
not as much as he loves OPJ
Mayo is making fun of the porkies. He won't sign in though
OPJ must be pissed the fuck off over SS's love for the porkies.
I ♥ the porchies!
i thought Mayo loved the porkies.
Only a cock stood on the rooftree
Co co rico co co rico
"In a flash of lightning, then a damp gust bringing rain."
Sorry. :)
:)
For Kapunua
:)
i don't know why Kapu is so smug,from what i can see SS changed his profile for Gnothi,someone who actually deserves to be noticed,someone who isn't an attention whore always trying to get Mayo and SS to notice her.
4:08 can it.
Mayo's got like 40 blog bitches in his stable.
Does anyone have any duct tape?
SS pimps blog ho's all day and night.
How about a muzzle?
it's always Krapu Krapu Krapu
How about a valium?
i heard that Mayo and SS have cock fights.
How about a tranquilizer gun?
Amy was right. This is so much better than poetry, quotes and games.
i have to go take a massive dump.
be back later!
-The Porch
Amy was right. This is so much better than poetry, quotes and games.
erm nope it isn't!
Forget what i said get
an .....excorsist!
for the brain-dead, yes
hey mayo!
you OK?
i forgot to wipe my ass.
be back later!
-The Porch
erm yes it is!
If somone would just get me a tote sack and some rope......
Anonymous said...
♥good morning♥
(still dreaming of you)
:)
good♥♥day
:)
(always dreaming of you)
i heard that Mayo and SS have cock fights.
my money is on SS to win. just sayin'...
i gotta go cut my toenails.
be back later!
-The Porch
Anonymous said...
erm yes it is!
really anon?
well i don't think so!
If i could just catch her...If someone sees the little mean anon, grab her for me will ya?
COCKFIGHT
Mayo 8===> <=======8 SS
Anonymous said...
i gotta go cut my toenails.
be back later!
-The Porch
October 14, 2008 4:30 PM
Anonymous said...
i forgot to wipe my ass.
be back later!
-The Porch
October 14, 2008 4:27 PM
Anonymous said...
i have to go take a massive dump.
be back later!
-The Porch
October 14, 2008 4:26 PM
lol
oh?
I put my money on ss
ok fucking slow on my part!!
i just realised we were on a new page!
I think i like the poems and games better than this.
so you guys home from school and waiting on you mum to cook your dinner yeah?
me too anon 4.35
Mayo 8====>
SS 8=========>
SS is the cockfight winner!
it's been a while...
Mayo, your painting is intriguing yet predictable.
It doesn't surprise me that you'll paint chaos on a canvas.
guten tag everyone.
hello/goodbye cookiebelle.
oh and K i am right side of brain.
she was anti clockwise for me anyway on first viewing!!
To add to my previous statement,
why are you watching from the corner?
Why not put it in the middle?
Don't think i didn't spy your eye.
Kapunua said...
That is such a huge part of poetry for me, too. Sometimes it's like the writer cut a piece out of you, made it beautiful, and put it back in. You know?
4:33 PM, October 14, 2008
I thought that was beautiful. Better than insults. I miss that over here.
so anyway hi mayo how are you doing?
has it been a whole week since you painted your cock for us?
i'm sorry i quite literally can't help myself!
where the motherfuck has that week gone to?! it is crazy!!
anyway hope you are good, well happy and all that?!
oops missed my comma! you never miss your commas mayo!
you iz a comma whore! ^_~
SS!!
hope you are doing just fine?
something tells me you are always doing fine!!
take care of yourself!
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