It is everything built to borrow
made of a moment or two of sorrow
with a roof pitched of tar and nicotine
and everything good that is in between
that has taken three hundred days
sometimes filtered through a painted haze
while holding breath without suffocation
there is love and hate, anguish and elation
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Your mama dropped by.
Happy Anniversary, Mayo!
How are you?
Awww, yeah. That's what it is.
Thanks for all of this.
Hiya Mayo! Happy Anniversary!
YAY!
Thank you again. For everything. :)
Yeah, dude, thanks just doesn't seem like enough, but thank you.
Perfect, Mayo.
Yep.
^_^
And no, thank you isn't enough. I'd totally pinch you if I could.
ramshackle, but sturdy all the same. :)
did you have a good day, mayo?
Don't tell me he did a post & run on his own blog anniversary >_<
Mayooooo!!!! :)
This is sort of related, but maybe not, and I may have posed the thought a while ago. I can't remember.
I sometimes wonder if other people out there had found what we all found, if other people besides us, you know? If they had found what we did, how their own lives would be different. And it sometimes makes me sad to know that those same people didn't find this place or may not have found another place like it.
That was a really bad explanation, but maybe you all get me.
Damn, I need a tissue.
Anyone else?
yep, i think he did!
men. lol
I get you, Mustard. ^_^
Hmf! 0_0
Okay, good. :)
Is the word 'special' or 'fate?'
Mustard,
I get you. I never realized how lonely and isolated I had made myself until I found you guys. And I hate to think of anyone out there feeling like nobody gets them, nobody understands.
Amazing
Divine
Fantabulous
Jappiness
Fucktastic
Priceless?
i understand what you're saying, mustard. maybe the others who didn't find this place, or didn't find in it what we did have other places that give them what we get here.
um, see? now i'm not making sense!
Mayonaise!
Mayo, the poem is nice, but surely you know that we would like to hear a few words from you on this momentous day. I, personally would like to know how this blog has affected your life and if you still enjoy coming here.
Happy anniversary!
Ummm, hello?
Cool post Mayo. Happy, like, anniversary, or something ^_^
RW, guess what? Yellow!
And my blog renovations are now done, but I'll change the text color later tonight.
*cackles evilly*
well.
*looks into empty coffee cup*
i need more.
brb
Want to get crunk? Kick out some jams?
Dude, I am so trying to fit the word fuck into the word for that because I just love saying it so much.
Want to get crunk?
0_0
And to think Mayo, they said we wouldn't last.
Mayo,
Did I ever tell you about the time that my husband decided to stop by the local pool hall to shoot the shit instead of coming home on our anniversary?
Did I tell you what happened to him?
Lots of shrill screaming and flying objects. >_<
crunk as a skunk
Oooo, Smoke!
Shawty got low-low-low-low-low-low.
OMG, Smoke! Let Mustard sing for you! She knows all the words to "Get Low"!
Anon,
Crunk as a drunk!
What year anniversary was that, S&V?
Hiiiiii! I just got back from training and then my cousins visited. The rest of the day I was with my other cousins. Busy day and all.
Mayo, what, no PS?
^_^
Guys, I'm so not caught up, but thank you all for the votes of confidence re: the med school thing. I'm like, oh, say 90% sure. :D
*siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiip*
Smoke, I might have said "boots wit da spurs" instead of "boots wit da fur."
I might have.
Might.
Hi, K :)
Dr. Simple Jules!
10 years, RW. 10 meffin' years.
Jackass. >_<
Hiya Jules!!!
crunk as a drunk with junk in my trunk
On your tenth anniversary??
He shoulda been strung up!
Dr. Simple Jules! Awwwww!
Crunk Funk
I got some pretty blingage the next day. ^_^
Hee-hee.
with all dem classes that im gonna flunk
showing nothing faboulousness and a whole lotta spunkity spunk
Nice, S&V :)
*still waiting on the bling...*
hi kapunua. :)
okay, thinking about it, i realize that in fact i don not drink my coffee thus: *siiiiiiiiip*
i in truth drink it thus: *sip* *sip* *sip* *sip* *sip* *siiiip*
i just thought you should know.
(he saved. your son.
he saved. us. all.
i thought. you should. know.)
um. sorry about that last part. it was automatic.
9:03=Sept.3rd
Cute.
LOL!
Well I'll be.
Hellos all around!
Dr. Simple Jules, I love it. ^_^
Mayo don't know if you're lurking or if you did the lame thing of setting this to post at this time, but I wanted you to get the full picture, here.
There could possibly, very probably be another doctor in the world because one day YOU sat down and decided to write your words down, and then decided to let us stay.
That's kinda momentous, I think. Mayo, thank you.
More, thank you for my friends here.
Okay, I have to go in the shower. Back later!
Too clever.
Mayo was thunking
While he was crunking
9:03 lol, cute but lame! Be around or something!
Mayo was thinking
While he was crunking?
Can you think and crunk at the same time? O_o
Hey, Jules! Have fun splashing in the water!
*bounce*
*bounce*
*sigh*
*bounce*
*bounce*
Smoke, *bounce bounce* leads to the R. Kelly song.
Oh shit!
It's the remix to Ignition
Hot n'fresh out da kitchen
Mama rollin' that body
Got err man in here wishin'
Sippin' on Coke & Rum
I'm like so what I'm drunk
Ummm.....
Ummm.....
I forgot the rest.
Well, time for old women like me to turn in.
Have fun! :)
Sweet dreams, RW!!! ♥
G'nite, RW. Sweet dreams!
whoops! good night resurrected wreck!
Well, shit.
Happy Anniversary Mayo!
Happy Anniversary SS!
Happy Anniversary BlogBelieve!
Crazy right? I know. ^_~
♥'s and X's and O's.
Sweet dreams!
Check out the last post, SS, if you happen to stop by. Lots of people left you some very nice words over there. Miss you!
Mayo,
This song made me think of you when I heard it the other day, I dunno why or maybe I do. Maybe it's because it reminds me of me.
I do my damndest to stay miserable and I do a fine job at it!
If It Makes You Happy
I've been long, a long way from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos,
And drank til I was thirsty again
We went searching through thrift store jungles
Found Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampoo
And Benny Goodman's corset and pen
Well, o.k. I made this up
I promised you I'd never give up
If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad
You get down, real low down
You listen to Coltrane, derail your own train
Well who hasn't been there before?
I come round, around the hard way
Bring you comics in bed, scrape the mold off the bread
And serve you french toast again
Well, o.k. I still get stoned
I'm not the kind of girl you'd take home
We've been far, far away from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos
And everywhere in between
Well, o.k. we get along
So what if right now everything's wrong?
I'm learning, Mayo. Learing what it means to truly be happy, to let myself be happy and not just think I am or pretend like I'm not.
I haven't asked you this in a long time, but do you...
Feel me?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Maybe the word is..love?
Goodnight smokie and RW
BlogBelieve,
I'm gonna say it again. Thank you guys for an amazing year. Your friendship, your words, your encouragement and support.
LOVE you GUYS!
SS,
Like SMOKE said, check out the last post if you have time. Miss you bunches and thanks for being such a great teacher to me. Remind me to tell you a crazy funny story when you have some spare time.
Faith, Hope, LOVE
Always,
S
Goodnight those going to bed.
Nicee poem Mayonaise, all that I have to say. That, and rawr.
xoxox;
- 007
<3
Goodnight solly
I'm gonna tell you guys the story of how it happened. It's really interesting. Because I'm all into trajectories and stuff, and when my story starts becoming more plot driven than character driven, I perk up and pay attention.
Here's how it went. I'll try to keep it as short and to the point as possible.
A few years ago, I was really bored on the internet and I was looking around journalfen community Fandom_wank. Truly bored, I clicked on a link to a bunch of wank that occurred when some actor I used to watch on TV, Jared Leto, had said that he was "Gay as a goose." I LOLed and then some commenter said, "Isn't his band the one that had that video where the guitarist goes down on a bear? Yeah, like it was a take-off on The Shining or something!"
The Shining is one of my favorite movies and I was intrigued. I searched out the video for The Kill and was amazed. Not only at the video, but that American music past 1996 could be so damn delicious. I fell in love with The Kill. I sang it all day at work the next day. It was my Song Obsession.
Consequently I became a huge 30STM fan and saw a bunch of their shows over the next year and a half.
One day, looking at an interview with Jared, he pointed out a poster of MCR and said, "MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! Oh man, great band, super nice guys."
I said, "Jared Leto loves this band? They must be really good." And I googled them.
Before hearing any music, I read Gerard Way's "Girls, you are beautiful" quote and it brought a literal tear to my feminist's eye. I read more of his quotes. "This guy," I said, "has got it. He's carrying Cobain's flame. Someone has to. Someone has to stand up and speak out against all of this misogyny."
Then, I checked them out on Youtube and found I'm Not Okay. This brought a tear to my jaded eye, but for different reasons. And, I loved the song so damn hard. It became my new Song Obsession.
On April 14th of 2007, I realized that this band totally owned and I had to have every single piece of music they had ever done.
I got so damn into Revenge that one day while I was at work at the wildlife clinic, sweeping up the pigeon room after my rounds, the story started to come into my head and I realized--right on the line "That girl's not right in the brain"--that I could, really, honestly, with balls of steel, really could do a movie with this music, if given permission.
I started hanging out on INO to see if anyone was willing to help me. To be a part of it, to film, to act, anything. That's where I met Verita.
At last year's PR, at Jones Beach, my goddaughter and I met Frank and he actually gave us that written permission to go ahead.
Meanwhile, I was not blind to what seemed to be going on with Gerard. During this time, Love Man started babbling her craziness. And even though the writing was bad and she was clearly insane (and some friends of mine had told me who she was--yes, I knew from the beginning that she was the kid from INO,) it was a place for us to pretty much agree that Gerard was Not Right.
Then one day Mayo came to Love Man's and not-so-anonymously posted the link to his own blog.
You were all there with me, some of you from Day One. Back when I lurked, but didn't comment (not for long,) or if I did, it was anonymously but you can totally look back and see it was me. ;D
You all know how it goes down from there. Evil clowns, my "safe place" not safe, anons, emails to clowns, calls to my ex boss, the whole thing.
Then, today, on 9/3, I spoke to the people at that med school and learned all about the doctorate program.
Tonight I was driving and I was like, "I still wish to teach. I just don't know. I need a sign. Something huge. I'm stupid like that."
Then, In Kung Fu, I randomly decided to look out of the window to see how early the sun was setting these days. I looked to the east and there was a huge, vivid rainbow in the sky.
And, don't think that the 9's and the 3's are lost on me, either.
And that's how my life changed! From the very start.
Night, guys.
Goodnight, Mayo.
Goodnight, SS. See: Everyone else. :)
Everything I wanted to say has been said, maybe more than once. Talk to all of you later!
Oh, and here's another funny thing. On the last day I was working at The Bad Place, the last song I heard in the morning was the first half of "Butterflies and Hurricanes" by Muse.
I would not have been listening to Muse if not for an AIM chat with Splash one night in which she linked me to one of their songs.
I had to turn it off right before the piano solo, but the words where planted in my head and I knew that something needed to change and it wasn't changing enough. It wasn't happening. I wanted a butterfly to start my hurricane. I needed something huge.
LOL, be careful what you ask for, for certain. But ask for it anyway! :D
"Blackout" is still my death song. :)
I'm glad you're happy, Jules. That's a really good thing to be.
Goodnight, again!
Jules,
You and I go waaaaaaaaaay back, back to the very beginning. I don't know what that means or doesn't mean, maybe everything, maybe nothing. But I am so thankful to have met you. You've been there for me when I thought nobody was listening. You make me laugh, you make me question, you make me want to stand for something. You inspire me.
Thank you.
Solly, I've always wished that I could be more like you; that we could meet in the middle. That I could be more open, more romantic, more willing to believe in people.
You make me question, too, and you have always been my friend, from day one. Even back when Verita was telling me, "LOL, Love Man thinks that Sdock10 is Gerard. She is convinced. You can't talk her out of it."
And now, we are going to meet! OMG, could you even have imagined it back then?
Splash, I am happy, but terrified and scared and pissing in my pants and hoping that this one will be the right thing. ^_^
Thank you again, so much! You are part of the trajectory. :D
Oh and Mustard,
Don't think I don't remember all our late night chats, the walk we are going to take, the oh so deep discussions, the thing that you get about me that nobody else gets, and the freakin' rope.
*yanks*
It's still secure.
Thank you so much!
great story, kapunua. it's neat when you can sit back and see how it all fits together. :)
sorry i disappeared there -- i was window shopping gorgeous sca gear. *drool drool drool*
good night sdock and smoke and mustard...
:)
Also, happiness is a weird thing for me. Happiness is my default, that's why I'm so retarded sometimes. That's why I got stuck in that job for so long. I'm wired for happiness, so I let a lot of things go, and I tend to not move on when things get bad because, well, I get content really easily. Unless things go totally sour, I'm usually happyassing around with a stupid smile on my face, babbling about how green the grass is and how blue the sky.
A little discomfort does me some good sometimes.
Yes, isn't it so neat, TJ? Witches, we have to be aware of these things so that we can look for future patterns and feel them out. ^_^
No, thank you guys.
I took away a lot of good things from here.
Jules, I really just want to thank you for my poem. It's, to date, one of the best tangible gifts I've ever received. And I will never forget what it meant to me.
Sdock, I never thought anyone would understand, you know? But, you get it. You get it, others get it, but you get it.
I wish I could do this for everyone right now, but I have to sleep. Just know that I will eternally be thankful for all of you.
precisely, kapunua. ;)
Splash, I still mean every word. :D
BlogBelieve,
We've all joked around that Mayo might pull the plug on our 1 year anniversary, but we live to blog another day! Whoop! Whoop!
PH, Anima, Star, Lucy, Jennicula, GS, MissT, Sister Midnite, Katherine
*hugs* I am always missing you guys!
Fimble,
My crazy sweaty Betty lobster botch! If there's one thing Mayo did right, it was that he brought me to you. You are the sweetest, craziest, most hottest, most amazingest friend ever and I can't wait to see you again!
PPU,
You make me smile every damn day. I think back to something you said and I catch myself laughing out loud. Remember how you called me a slutty male? Remember how you told me to watch how much I say "fuck"? Remember how you accused me of "drinking again"? I do. In your own crazy way, you were looking out for me. Thank you for being friend. Thank you for yanking my choke chain. Thank you for keeping me on my toes.
Solly + PPU = 4 evah
Mayo,
Sometimes we do the best we can. And this place is pretty damn close to the best place evah!
Thanks!
I'll STFU now!
I am going to watch mah Files, dudes.
TA WATH! :D
Everyone, thanks for being a part of my trajectories. :)
♥
Duh, the word isn't love because love is in the poem.
Special Solly
I'll stick with fucktastic.
You guys are making me have a glad and a sad all at the same time.
Sorry, just saw something.
Because you were there?
And now I'm off.
*hands PPU some fresh, loving Solly ♥s*
Mayo,
is the word Marijuana
i'm craving woven woolen stockings, cut on the bias. :/
well Mayo you didn't hold your pants on until I got back to the hotel to post but it's okay. I had a fucking wonderful time tonight.
I shall write more later but right now I totally need some water. Can we say Elena has a bit to drink?
Go ahead say it....
Oh and while some people met Frank tonight I did not because I'm never destined to talk to Frank.
hi elena. you didn't meet him, again? :(
it must be because when you do meet frank, it will be under an extraordinary and memorable experience. like, you'll save his life or something.
the universe has got to be saving up something big for you.
Wow. I'm sitting here watching home videos from when I was like, effing two. My clothes didn't match and I was running around with a huge ass smile. Those were the days were everything was a pocket of sunshine and the biggest problem that I ever had was a bottle running low on milk. I'd fall down in these videos, and get back up without shedding a tear, knowing that my mommy and daddy would make it all better.
Just thought I'd share the tidbit with you, because watching those videos brought back memories and I was flooding with the feeling of happy.
K, I really loved reading your story. I can really relate to the way you got ahold of My Chem. For me, it was through The Used. I was attracted to the 'message' they once stood for and the powerful lyrics that had meaning. I figured I might as well give them a shot if they had lyrics that totally captured everything that I was feeling. I still love those dudes. I really look up to Ray and Frank most for their guitar skills (since you know, I'm trying to learn how to play the guitar and all). No matter what though, I think that I will have to at least give that band a little bit of credit.. Okay, I don't know where I'm going with this so I'm just going to stop. =]
I'm off to bed, but just thought I'd say hello and goodnight. I thought that I'd leave a few notes to let y'all know that I'm still alive and around. AND to let you guys know that I was thinking of you guys on this special day, all day long. ^_^
Goodnight all;
- 007
<3
Hi Elena. I'm glad you guys had a great time.
Maybe next time you'll meet Frank.
Elena!
I'm glad you had a good time! ^_^
*huggles*
Hey TJ
Yeah someday I'm totally gonna save the world and Frank all at the same time.
Aw I bet you were cute when you were cute when you were a baby, grasshopper ^_^
Goodnight and sweet dreams.
Well you are a saint, Elena :)
Shit, my last comment didn't make any sense, did it? :/
Hey Paperheart and BC
and anon
Yep I'm a saint. Okay back in a minute. I've got to go .....uh get something. Yep me and Flighty will be right back.
Oh I have concert tales to tell.....
good night paperheart!
hello bc. :)
elena, damn straight you are going to save the world, and frank iero, and whoever happens to be standing around because that's just how it's gonna be.
my magic 8 ball said so.
Hi TJ :)
oops, and an anon -- hello. (i ran back in here kinda fast, hope i didn't knock you over)
whatcha doin', bc?
No toujours, I'm still in one piece :)
Hi there anon. TJ, right now I'm watching some South Park. How about you?
Hey Guys, it's L. and J. hijacking Elena's laptop while she's out for a bit. :) Man, we had a great time! I wish Elena had met Frank! We tried to call her on the cell and there were no bars on the signal! He was so sweet, but sick. He told us all onstage that he had a broke wrist and a chest infection. I asked him how he was doing, and he said better, but he's still on antibiotics.
Has anyone heard from Wendy?
Love,
L.
i am very much relieved to hear that, anon. *whew*
bc, i'm just trying to stay focussed on one website at a time. it's not easy tonight!
hey there, l. nope, we haven't heard from wendy yet. it's probably just taking awhile for elec. to come back. *fingers crossed*
Hiya L. I'm glad you guys had a great time.
No one's heard from Wendy yet. It might take a few days :/
Paperheaaarrrt! ^_^ I've missed you. Yeah, crazy stories, right? I got into The Used actually through MCR. Now, they are among my favorites.
Okay, Mayo, I give. I am Simple Jules after all. I don't get why 300 and not 365.
I'm not very mathy.
Good night!
l, are you still hijacking the laptop? tell us more -- did you have a good spot in the crowd? best bit from the show? etc etc. :)
That's good TJ. I might take a little nap for a bit in case I don't respond to comments.
I hope someone hears from Wendy soon. She did say that if we didn't hear from her for a while, that the electic would be out.
I did wonder about the 300, Mayo.
L.
it's because this isn't blogbelieve, it's spaaaarta!
TJ, we were up front at the barrier (and yes, I got hit with spit :)) because we ate at the HOB and they let you go in first when you have tickets to a show.
David Costa and his band opened, and they were great! We also saw Warship, Leathermouth, MC Chris and Reggie. Oh, I got a drumstick from David's drummer. Warship has one of the BEST drummers I have ever seen.
Best bit, well, so many. I will give it back to Elena now, she is back and she has brought some wine!
L.
it truly sounds like fun, l.! :D
I was just about to say that toujours. Maybe what was being watched at the time.
maybe! *grin*
maybe mayo's calendar is ~different~ from ours.
hello
hello ergo! :D
Could be toujours, but I'm sticking to him having a thing for Gerard Butler.
Happy belated anniversary guys.
I love you all, and hope you're well.
Sorry I can't stick around! *hugs*
xoxo cupcake
okay I'm back with pretzels, and strawberry wine. Oh and we have oreos. Yep these thing all go just great together.
oh goodness anon I have a TOTAL thing for Gerard Butler!!
if I'd been Christine I would have totally ditched Raoul for the Phantom
RRRRROWRRRR
hi TJ
hello cupcake!
*hugz*
hi elena gald you had a good time (and J L and FG)
do tell!
At least that Gerard is actually cute Ergo!
cupcake! *hughughughug*
a thing for gerard butler?? lol! but you know...pretty much any movie that has men wearing kilts -- highland or mediterranean, it don't matter -- you know it's gotta be a winner. :)
hey elena! it sounds like a portion of a 60's folk song, for some reason.
and i brought you pretzels, and strawberry wine, and oreos...
Toujours, are you having fantasies of hairy muscular legs? ;)
ooooh and the accent!!!!!!!
...
*dies*
and cute??? nah he's gorgeous, manly, sexy, phworrrrrrrrrrr
any movie with Gerard Butler and no shirt will be fine with me!
and come on...Gerard Way is cute...he's no Gerard Butler, but he's better than many.
Goodnight everyone.
generally do, anon. ;)
good night bc. sweet dreams!
Goodnight BC :)
Ergo...it's all coming out now! I can almost hear you purrring !
he's no Gerard Butler
QFT
actually, did either of you guys ever watch a tv show called "dr. quinn, medicine woman"? i confess i got addicted to it in reruns, and man oh man, that sully! he was my ideal of a perfect pagan man. yup. :)
goodnight BC sweet dreams
Ergo, you speak my mind.
Fuck Christine. Ungrateful bitch. And Raul? Sissy. And not even a cute sissy. He has no power over me. Never, never, never. (not even with His shirt off.)
Anyway, I am in and out -like uh, Flash. But not so like a man... I hope everyone is doing good tonight. Happy Aniversary Mayo, Lovelies, anon-ers -the whole lot.
Congrats -and where the hell are the pictures Sainty, Op's -and uh, poor closet bound Flighty?? You are taking your time with the sharing!! GREEDY FINGERS! I knew it! ;p
I hope we hear from Wendy soon. She is scaring the crap out of me.
Oh, and I think the word Mayo was looking for (or leaving out to be, well -himself yea?) is LIFE. Or rather -Blog Life. ;p Nice. Be well guys! Love to you!
Nighty night-l/d
he was pretty buff,TJ and my other main man is Richard Armitage, esp in Robin Hood
I like that dark haird, manly but perhaps a bit brooding type.
Unless it involves great hair and mad finger skillz!
HI Lewis!
I know a swooshy cape, tight black pants, boots and a big.....sword, I could live with a half scarred face furr shurrrr
goodnight love!
dark haird
Much more preferable than jalapeño hair, but each to their own.
I was thinking of getting BLOG LIFE tattooed on my belly.
Yes? No?
um...they do say that if you want a tattoo, you should think about your design for a year. have you been thinking about "blog life" as a tattoo for the whole year?
haha anon, I could always hold him down and re-dye it, but yeah red head guys aren't really my thing, not THAT red anyway
tattoo anon, ummmmmmmmm, if you want, or
"Blogbeliever"
If by "a year" you mean the past ten minutes, then... yes
...must be the "Scottish" genes Ergo ^_^
why yes! that is what i meant. lol
what font are you going to have it tattooed in?
perhaps it is, I'm half a Scott too (other half is Irish) could also explain my thing for David Tennant too
perhaps I should stop now.
*blush*
*drags self back to reality*
but hubby is half Scott and half Italian , so it's a nice mix
Holy crap I wandered off. What's going on?
No I'm sure it had nothing to do with the strawberry wine
No Ergo, please proceed. We need more "manly" men talk here.
It doesn't hurt, does it? :)
Oh Elena. I believe we were discussing REAL males.
I have some shiraz I can share too :)
"Real" males?
Not fake males?
*giggles*
oh oh I just remembered.....
Bob was at the concert. James said so.
chicago! of course bob would be there. neat. :)
manly men....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
they are a pretty good topic aren't they!
Elena! how much stawberry wine?
I do like capable men but I like a sensitive caring side too
not fussy at all am I!
now Bob is a real man, bet he could chop wood n stuff
I thought we lost you Ergo. I had assumed you were scoping the net for hawt de-shirted men ^_~
Sensitive is nice, however I consider loyalty and sincerity very valuable.
definitely anon, they are very important.
I had to go meet the school bus and I'm starting tutoring in about 5 mins
oh my 2 MUSE shirts arrived today!
(I have one on now!)
Bob is a manly man. He can chop wood, he can fight a bear. He can..........
oh shit the bottle was 1.5 liter
It's not now
...I hear fighting bears comes in handy...
anon I love you man....
Oh and Flightly is back in the closet.
Elena, you are very sweet!
Well thank you anon...
I think you're sweet too.
And the cool thing is, now that she is an 'ADULT' -It is no longer considered child abuse to lock you're daughter in a closet. Just thought that was pertinent to share with you Elena.
:)
And uh, in case ya run into that Bear huntin,' wood choppin,' drum stickin' Bob-o any time soon. Kiss him for me will ya??
(And wait ---does he wear women's undergarments?? ...cuz that is hot. So totally.)
Love you Elena!! You guys have fun and be safe! Just remember to save bail money. I always forget. What a pain. -loves!
oh Lewis I love ya...
So does this mean you won't bail me out?
I was so counting on you.
well, it's time for me to go to bed. good night elena, ergo, and anon (good night lewis!).
sweet dreams.
I was thinking of getting BLOG LIFE tattooed on my belly.
maybe you should try BIG LIE
Mayo
Holy crap did I have fun tonight. I loved the House of Blues. We were first in line to go in because we ate at the restaurant. Flighty child had decided she was going to go in with us but she didn't think she would stay for the concert. By the time they let us in she was being teased by several employees of HOB. They told her she was not allowed to leave early because her mom had brought her and she was expected to rock out with her mom. Holy crap it was funny to watch her with the HOB employees laughing and kidding like they'd known each other for years. Yep that's my girl.
Anyway I loved the concert. Good Lord James was so fucking funny. I love that dude. Hell the whole damn thing was wonderful. MC Chris is hilarious. I just love the shit he's done on Adult Swim. Warship was really great for a new band. I think they have a bright future. Loved David Costa. Great way to start the show. Oh there was someone else...Oh yeah Leathermouth with that guy who sings. Oh yeah I remember the guy I never really meet. LOLO. Of course they were excellent too.
So Mayo there I was enjoying the concert but ever now and then I would catch myself wondering if you'd posted. At first I was kinda angry about that. But then I realized it was okay. Shit, if it wasn't for this blog I wouldn't have been at that concert. I would never have gone all the way to Chicago for a concert. Hell no I wouldn't have. I wouldn't have had these wonderful friends to go with if not for you.
Okay, Elena ain't gonna lie here. Yeah, I've drank a lot. Hell, I'm still drinking. So yeah I'm totally gonna get mushy here. Well shit it's been a year I'm entitled. Mayo, being part of this blog has changed my life. It really has. I have so many friends now. I have more confidence then I've ever had before. Words have taken on new meanings, colors are brighter, holy shit the next line isn't the birds sing louder. Wait, it could be but that's just too over the top. Hey what I'm trying to say with my mind that is wandering is this. Damn it man, thank you. Each day I feel that I grow a little stronger. So thank you. Shit, that was just touchy feely. Okay I could say it's the wine talking but it's really not. You are a good man Mayo. Yeah, you really are.
Night Mayo
Elena (oreos and strawberry wine. No sir, can't recommend that)
mayo,
you know i am always happy to read a new poem of yours, but i have to say -- this one reads a bit like it was written on a napkin.
makes me smile.
anyway, straight on into a new year, and all bets are off. it's the future after all. anything can happen. thus far, it's been wonderful, and chaotic, and exhausting, and uplifting, so i have all hopes for the road ahead.
i find myself hesitating now, because what i want to say i feel like i've said already too often, but mayo -- being a part of this world you created and allowed us to imagine into full existence has fueled changes in my life that even at my most optimistic i could not, did not imagine.
and it's all of a piece, what gave me the courage to step right off the edge of the cliff and into the air -- the connection to people all over the world who liked me just for the things i said, the feeling of having a place where i could say at last i belonged, and every word you wrote for us and for yourself, that inspired me and invigorated me and held up a mirror to my own inner life while we were holding up one to yours.
i don't know who i would be now if i hadn't found my way here last year. i'm very selfish about the way i feel about this place and everyone i've met here, whether face-to-face or just text-to-text. i think i probably make quite a nuisance of myself here in blogbelieve, and tromp all over things without meaning to.
but if i didn't believe in magic before, i do now. and if i didn't believe you could become friends with someone without ever sitting down with them, i definitely believe that you can now. that was proved to me when i discovered that every lovely i met out in the world for the first time was already a friend.
mayo, you and your blog have taken me onto a path i didn't know was there, into lands that are unfamiliar. i will always be grateful.
i hope your day was wonderful, and tomorrow, too. *grin*
good night, my friend.
Oh shit, you two are making me cry. Alright -so quick. I promise last time, it has been quite a year.
And uhh, with that -just wanted it clear -the Big Lie Anon. So not me. Just in case! I thought the "Blog Life" tattoo Anon, was cute. (But only deep and meaningful if you get in it script, with you're first time posting here -and you show it off for a few years to the point of near nakedness- like Kirk Hamment did..) Ha, again. Been a year ladies, gentlemen. Hope it continues. <333
-Nighty night
goodnight TJ elena sweet dreams
anyone about?
anon? lewis?
I had to zot of to titor, sorry I didn't say, he had a "mood" - you know that things that hit 15yo boys with no warning, so we had to work through it a bit
oh and Mayo I like the little poem, it's really nice, thanks
Happy anniversary everyone!
A little late, but nonetheless heartfelt :)
I hope everyone is well and I realize how lucky I am to have stumbled upon this place and its residents/visitors. Thanks you guys for all of your support and your encouragement of one another over this year. *group hug* :)
Has anyone spoken to Wendy? If it weren't so early, I would call her now. I'll try in an hour or so if I am still up.
Mayo - That group hug includes you and thank you! I have lots of changes in my life coming up, so I may be unable to visit as frequently - and even now, that is so. I have a friend (met recently) who is able to accurately predict events in others' lives and she warned me about several changes - and illnesses, etc. - I refuted her predictions, thinking that no way could these things come true, but all of them have so far. Anyway, don't think I am unappreciative if I am unavailable to visit. Its not by choice, trust me. Hopefully things will work out for the best... I sound like Candide, again :) but, yes, I do worry.
PS - Guys, I hope no one spits on me today. :)
Gross!
Have a great day, everybody!
♥
And missT - thanks for the party! The cake was delicious... Mmmm.
PPS - I called Wendy and left a message. Hopefully she'll respond soon.
BlogBelieve,
Brand new year for us! Grr, I woke ill as fuck and I don't mean in a sickly sick way. I mean in one of those bite the heads of babies kind of way. What? Yeah, even Ozzy would be shocked.
Have a great Thursday.
Elena, OP's
Glad you guys had a mahhhvelous time, but I knew you would. It's an awesome show filled with awesome dudes!
Wendy,
Like everyone else has already said, I hope we hear from you soon. Sending you lots of positive thoughts!
Later, Peeps!
Ummm, yeah!!! How could you not have a good time at that show? Gah!
HYPOALLERGENIC SPIT, FTW!
Awww, even if he is all sickly and stuffs. Dude's a superhero. And superheros have hypoallergenic spit. :)
Okay, laterz!!!!
Have a great day all!
morning mayo!
thanks for your words. i feel all i do is say thanks! must sound like a broken record. but really thanks! and the time/date thing, that's cute! only works if you are from the USA though. but that's all good!
i wanted a p.s though. i like them alot!
*pokes tongue out* ^_~
(4th wink.....still special!)
have a good one ma YO (still not boring for me!)
SS! you too mate!
hello everyone!
solly leave the baby alone! step away from the baby!!
seriously hope you get through your day Ok?!
hi there proncess!
HYPOALLERGENIC SPIT, FTW!
have been meaning to say how meffing funny is that!! just kept forgetting!
elena and the OPs so glad you had an absolute blast! look forward to hearing more about it!
wendy! hope we hear something from you today.
gotta go! have a good one everybody!
sorry hi/bye to miranth,lewis and ergo!
and hello to anyone else arriving soon!
Superheroes do have hypoallergenic spit, Smoke!
And now I am wishing I had caught some of James' spit, because his spit is full of superpowers and quick wit!
Gah, I miss da Social. I miss Fimmy. I miss Warship, Leathermouth, MC Chris, and Reggie.
Oh well, oh well, oh well....
I have a lifetime of memories in my head, photos on my blog and in my hand, videos that will live forever on youtube! Booyow!
For your singing pleasure because I refuse to sing alone!
The Hard Way
Show a little inspiration, show a little spark
And show that things that drew me to you and stole my heart
And tell me something I don't know instead of everything I do
And look at me as if I mean something to you
Our hearts are beating while we sleep, but while we're wide awake
You know the world won't stop, and actions speak louder
Listen to your heart, and what your heart might say
Everything we got, we got the hard way
Show a little passion, baby, show a little style
And show the knack for knowing when and the gift for knowing how
And have a little trust in us when fear obscures the path
You know we got this far, darling, not by luck, but by never turning back
Some will call on destiny, but I just call on faith
That the world won't stop, and actions speak louder
Listen to your heart, to what your heart might say
Everything we got, we got the hard way
Caught up in our little lives, there's not a lot left over
I see what's missing in your eyes; you're searching for that field of clover
So show a little inspiration, show a little spark
Show the world a little light when you show it your heart
We've got two lives, one we're given and the other one we make
And the world won't stop, and actions speak louder
Listen to your heart, and your heart might say
Everything we got, we got the hard (everything we got, we got the hard way)
Everything we got, we got the hard way
(Because the world won't stop) hang on, baby...
Well, imagine that, the one song that I have stuck in my head and I find the lyrics to has some Smaw Poese stuff in it. Just go listen to it. Fuck it. Sounds better when you just sing it.
Yep, I'm feeling it. It's going to be one of those drownding kind of days.
Mayo,
Well, here we go, day one of a new year at Casa de Mayo. It feels just like all the other days and I guess that means it's pretty comfortable and familiar.
while holding breath without suffocation
there is love and hate, anguish and elation
Mayo, that's my favorite part, especially the holding breath without suffocation part.
Don't you wish you could exhale though?
Just once?
But I know how it is to be used to the feeling, the feeling of holding it all in, the tightness in your chest, the knot in your stomach, and the lump in your throat.
It's all yours as long as you keep it inside.
Once you let it out, it no longer belongs to you. The world will shove it back down your throat in the form of something that is foreign and strange.
Rejection.
And so it remains. Locked inside. The world is not ready for it anyway.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Forever in a supsended state.
hi sdock fasc smoke miranth
sdock - breathe...........
and try not to actually bite anyone (unless they really want you too)
Mayo I can't really give a proper goodnight, but thanks again, hope you're well and wishing you so much good stuff you won't know what to do with it all
(just a suggestion, pass it on)
much love EP xx
SS
take care and always keep smiling lotsa love
EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
goodmorning guys.
Solly - :) thank you, you make me smile ;)
have a wonderful day everybody and remember to shake ya thang.
Ger-Z
damn, LynZ should leave MSI and join the NFL.
Or a roller derby girl.
she's got some thick ass arms and shoulders.
09:03:07
Too bad Blogger doesn't have millimillimillivanilliseconds, huh, Mayo? ;)
Hi and bye, everyone! It's almost Friiiiiiiday, Whoop Whoop!
*tackles Fim*
Okay, this is my song of the day, Mayo. Have a good one!
YOU'VE GOT HER IN YOUR POCKET
You've got her in your pocket
And there's no way out now
Put it in the safe and lock it
Cause its home sweet home
Nobody ever told you that it was the wrong way
To trick a woman, make her feel she did it her way
And you'll be there if she ever feels blue
And you'll be there when she finds someone new
What to do
Well you know
You keep her in your pocket
Where there's no way out now
Put it in the safe and lock it
Cause its home sweet home
The smile on your face made her think she had the right one
Then she thought she was sure by the way you two could have fun
But now she might leave like she's threatened before
Grab hold of her fast before her feet leave the floor
And she's out the door
Cause you want
To keep her in your pocket
Where theres no way out now
Put it in the safe and lock it
Cause its home sweet home
And in your own mind you know you're lucky just to know her
And in the beginning all you wanted was to show her
But now you're scared
You think she's running away
You search in your hand for something clever to say
Don't go away
Cause I want
To keep you in my pocket
Where there's no way out now
Put it in the safe and lock it
Cause its home sweet home
Home sweet home
Do you even have to ask who sings it? ^_~
They're white and stripey.
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Damn it. If I knew the lyrics to Leviathan, I'd have posted it. Damn you, Leathermouth! I can't get that song outta my head! >_<
Hi guuuuuys!
Guess what? I got the rejection letter from the publisher's today. It's a good letter! It's not a form letter, it's a real one, and the guy tells me that it is too difficult to break a new author into their company without it being a sure-fire commercial success.
I'm glad it came so quickly; I wasn't expecting it till like December or something. Now I can start again with a different company.
The only thing is, it's such a pain because the next company wants three chapters, a cover letter, a synopsis chapter by chapter, blah blah blah, all this annoying stuff. >_< It was easier to just send the whole damn thing out without having to talk too much.
And so I work my way across the list! ^_^
It's funny that this letter came today, right? The day after I decided what I'm doing?
Something's up!
Hi and bye! Can't type on this damned laptop!!! It's terrible.
WENDY left me a message!
YAY!
She's ok, the animals are ok, but the yard is messed up and she won't have power for a week or two. She thanked everyone for their concern about her and asked me to leave this message.
I was very happy to hear from her!
Hi FASC! *waves* :)
Thanks for the lyrics solly :)
PS - It looks like Ike is moving towards Florida. I wasn't sure which direction it was moving, but I did read its a category 4.
Take care, everybody!
So glad to hear Wendy is okay!!!
K - shit that sucks about the rejection letter but just don't let it get you down.
Well we're getting ready to take off for home. Hope to stop and see Anima. Take care everyone.
How the hell did Ike turn into a category 4 already?
O_o
Hey guys!
Hey Elena! Thanks so much. I'm cool with it because this same company had already rejected this story once before, so I couldn't imagine them accepting it now. But for some reason I sent it anyway. Now I just have to move on across the line until someone picks it up.
Hey, maybe I was meant to get into this school and that's why I had to choose to have the manuscript rejected at this exact time. Maybe if it had been accepted right away I would not be going back to school, and maybe I'm supposed to. Who knows? But I am square with it. I'm going to try TOR next, I think.
Or maybe I will look into publishing short stories, or both. I don't know, and it's kind of exciting. ^___^
Sorry smoke, category 3A - I must've read that it may become a 4.
I 'read' very quickly - if you can call it that!
bye again!
No, you were right, Miranth. That's what I read on CNN, too.
Gah! I just hope they all stay out there in the middle of the ocean.
Jeez.
Hi Jules! Just sent you an email. :)
I got it; very neat! See, everything is a sign. Of what, I just don't know. ;)
Smoke, I hear you! But it looks like it may hit florida. :(
If you met a friend of mine, Kapunua, she'd tell you what it means - and accurately too! (Spooky!)
Good luck!
Bye again, again.
:D
Thanks, Miranth!
ooooh
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