Saturday, August 30, 2008

Manifestation Monster

Wax and wane, spit out the profane
He found it fit to sit and complain.
And in the shit still, remain
Spirit coursing diligent, but in vain.

He is unraveling spools for the core.
He is unknown: “The Word Whore”
Has every opportunity for more,
But now at last he has become the boar.

p.s. not even (a lex icon) the sharpest ink will get you out of that paper bag.


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toujours said...

hi mya. :) happy anniversary to you, too!

Anonymous said...

Hi mya!

Amyranth said...

*just checked CNN*

Apparently some places in Louisiana could be without power for 4 weeks.

:S

Anonymous said...

4 weeks? That's too long :(

Amyranth said...

I agree BC. In her email she mentioned that she was fine, and she's got her dogs for company, so I don't think she'll go stir crazy. I guess as long as it doesn't get really cold she'll be alright.

elena said...

Okay we have rum, pringles, baked chips and shrimp.

Amyranth said...

Shrimp, eh?

*rumbles around in the trolley and pulls out a bottle of tequila and some lime*

I'll be right back!

Anonymous said...

I hope Amy.

That sounds delicious Elena.

I'm gonna call it a early night. Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams.

Amyranth said...

*rumbles back out with a hot plate of Tequila-Lime Shrimp*

And Voila!

toujours said...

good night, bc.

hopefully, wendy won't have to wait four weeks for power. :/

i'll take some pringles with my rum, please.

elena said...

yep Shrimp from the bar. It's good.

Hey Mayo the shrimp is very succulent. Would you like some?

elena said...

Here TJ have some Pringles. Would you like the rum in coke or pepsi?

Amyranth said...

*noshes on shrimp*

Can I have my rum with a rum chaser?

Amyranth said...

*finishes her small dish of shrimp.*

Well, Wayne and Garth, I think I need to head to bed tomorrow. It's another day, and I need to sleep through it!

Goodnight Lovelies and SS!

-A

toujours said...

coke, please, and thank you.

you know how i like it. :)

elena said...

Of course you can, Amy.

Anyone want some salsa and chips?

toujours said...

good night amyranth. sweet dreams!

toujours said...

did you bring the salsa from home, elena?

ergoproxy said...

hello!!!


elena! got there safe an dsound obviously!

HI TJ BC Amy

elena said...

Yes TJ it's from home. How did you know? LOL


Hey Ergo. Want some shrimp?


Oh J and L and Flighty Child are all waving hello.

toujours said...

hi ergo. :)

*waves at j. and l. and flighty child*

elena, i just had a sneaking suspicion that if there was salsa about...

it would be special salsa!

ergoproxy said...

oh yes please elena!


*scoffs into shrimp*

Amyranth said...

Mayonaise,

You know, if it hadn't been for an earlier mention, I might have forgotten this anniversary. Sorry. I'm really bad for this. Tomorrow I'll bring you flowers and a card.

And maybe the blueprints for your house.

Mayonaise, I really don't say it enough. Thank you for a lot of things.

Thank you for allowing us to have a wild imagination on your blog. This house was as much your creation as mine. I wouldn't have even thought of it until we were being referred to as The Lovelies, and thought of as family. What does Family need? We need a house, and you let us make it a home.

Thank you for taking time out of your busy nights and days to let us know that you're still there.

Thank you for thinking of us, either individually, or as a group.

And thank you, for blessing me with all the friends I have here, for drawing all these little lights to this place.

We all shine differently, but we cluster beautifully, thanks to you Mayonaise.

Enjoy this anniversary, and enjoy everything beautiful that you and your words have created here.

-Amyranth

Amyranth said...

Hallo and Goodnight J and L and Ergo and Flighty Child!

J and L, glad to know you're there safe and sound! Enjoy the shrimp!

Ergo, hope you had a great day today! It's first day back at school for all the kids here!

Flighty Child! Wait until your Mom's asleep to tuck into that rum!!

Goodnight!!

-A

ergoproxy said...

goodnight amy! sweet dreams


is flighty child a certain car sharing daughter?

hello!! *waves*


and seeing as it's obviously ticked over to the 3rd over there
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MAYO!!!
who'd a thunk it?
thanks a million matey, couldn't exist without you!

ergoproxy said...

and hello Mya!

(missed you in my quick skim)

I need coffee

*goes in search of coffee*

*well actually knows where it is*

*it is my house and all*

*goes to make coffee*....

Anonymous said...

Mayo,

Happy Anniversary! Thank you for the past year; it's been one hell of a ride. The friends we have found are amazing.

Speaking of which, Mayo, you should have seen the scene just a few minutes ago. Seems Flighty Girl decided the luggage cart would be, first, a bed, and then, a riding toy. Now, keep in mind this was in the ROOM.

But then, Elena pushes her out the door, and sends her ROLLING DOWN THE HALL. Elena goes after her, door shutting behind her.

I asked J. "How long before she realizes she doesn't have her key?" Followed by a pounding on the door. J. said "Right about now!"

Elena is wondering if they throw people out of a Hilton for just such incidents. What do you think, Mayo?

BlogBelieve, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! Have a great day!

Love,
L. (From Elena's laptop, who is currently shutting Flighty Girl in the closet)

anima said...

Holy Shit! It's an anniversary!!!



Believers of the Blog, just wanted you to know that I ♥ all of you. For real!

anima said...

Mr. Naise, what do you think?!


Amyranth, beautiful post. :)

toujours said...

for realz right back atcha, anima! ♥

:)

elena said...

Mayo, little info about Hilton Hotels please...

Do I have to let Flighty back in the room?

If I do is it okay if she sleeps in the closet? Cause that's where she is right now.

ergoproxy said...

hey J and L glad you're there safely

I don't know if Hilton does have such rules, but better keep shenanigans in the room just in case

ergoproxy said...

hi anima ♥ u 2!

anima said...

TJ, for REALZ! ♥

Hiya Elena (hehe!) and Ergo!

anima said...

Oh man Ergo, you have no idea. I have super ♥ for you. :) Feels so nice to feel it in return!

elena said...

Hey Anima Long time no hear. LOL

How's it going?

ergoproxy said...

elena please answer the following questions

a) does closet have sufficient air?

b) can you make it look like she WANTS to be in the closet?

c)did she use bathroom before entering closet?

d) can she be bribed off reporting said closet incident to the authorities?

e)is she sufficiently hydrated and fed to last time in closet?

if the answers to all the above are "yes" then I can't see a problem ;)

elena said...

Oh I have a pic of Flighty on the cart. I'll have to share it when we get home.

You know they shouldn't leave a cart out in the hall if they don't want someone to make sure it works.

ergoproxy said...

thanks anima, how are you? haven't heard from you for ages.
I've been super busy lately with working, severely inhibitsmy blog time
(and discovered blogger is a blocked site at work :[ )

elena said...

Ergo the answers to all the questions is "yes"

So - in the closet she stays.

anima said...

Shall I go back and catch up? Fuck, there are 2,000 comments.

I should.

Mayo, I like this post btw. But what else is new, right? You always leaves me wondering and wandering. It's all good though. Thank you.

Thought you should know that I really want to be hanging with Elena right now. I am really sad about it. Funny how I mentioned to my husband that I really should have gone to Chicago, and his response: "those days are gone."

0_0

What the fuck?! He didn't mean it. Well, kind of. But it still broke my heart. I really wanted to see Reggie. I could go on and on, but I won't bore you. Why did I even bring it up in the first place? OH! That's right I want to be in Chicago! I want to see Reggie! Leathermouth would be amazing too, don't get me wrong. Fuck, it would be such an amazing show. I know it. Okay, I am rambling and I cannot quite articulate my thoughts. I should just stop. So I will. :)

anima said...

Elena! LOL! *misses you*

Ergo, I'm doing okay. Thank you so much for asking. I'm in the same boat, still trying to find my new 'normal' blog schedule. So the blog is blocked at work? That sucks! If you need, I know a way around the blockage. Sneaky!

ergoproxy said...

lol anima

no better not
it's a school so it all gets on a central log, plus I have little time.
I can get to my emails though, if anyone ever wants to get me for some reason



elena, I think that is fair


I just posted a new poem at my blog too, if anyone wants a look
It's something I just did, lol

elena said...

Anima I really wish you were here. But me and Flighty are gonna stop and see you on the way home.

Can't wait to see you again.

toujours said...

ergo, that's adorable! i want to pet my cat...

ergoproxy said...

oh how cool elena! can you swing by me?

thanks Tj he is sitting where I can see him doing it again, and I know how it'll end, again

toujours said...

there's always a teeny tiny chance he'll like it this time ergo.

an itty bitty teeny tiny chance...

go for it!

anima said...

Ergo, I totally understand. You are so good! Lemme go check your poem....

Elena, absolutely! I can't wait to see you and your baby girl. Oh I know she is not a 'baby' but she's still yours, and she is cute as can be! Um, my nephew is 20...and well. Nah, I'll shut up. ;)

elena said...

Mayo

Well we made it to Chicago. Had a tire blow out in Grain Valley Mo but if it was gonna happen it happened at a good time. Right by the exit ramp and there was a gas station right at the bottom of the exit. No it wasn't a flat tire it was a total blow out. Nothing left of the tire. So anyway we got out, looked at the tire and I was wondering what to do. Of course the daughter took over. She spotted a guy sitting in his car and the next thing I knew he was removing the dead tire and putting on the spare for us. He was very nice and even had us follow him to Wal-Mart to get a new tire. But here it the thing. He was talking to my daughter and I was pretty much just standing there. Pretty normal for me. So he told us he was a card dealer at a casino. Then suddenly he said to my daughter, "You know what I do for a living. What does your mom do?" It was hard not to roll my eyes. Yeah, like he couldn't just ask me. Anyway the cool thing was how my daughter answered. She said I was a writer and a book store owner. Oh shit, that was the first time any of my kids acknowledged I was a writer. I was pretty pleased.

Other than that incident we pretty much drove and drove and drove. I listened to her iPod. Interesting mix let me say. I heard the soundtrack to "Rent". The opera Carmen. AC/DC, Bach, Bouncing Souls, Charlotte Church, ect ect ect. I was okay with most of it until we got to Avenue Q "The Internet is for Porn". Then my eye started twitching.

So Mayo a whole year. And they said we'd never make it. But we did. Keep talking we're still listening. Are you?

Night Mayo

Elena (go ahead and whisper, I can still hear you)

ergoproxy said...

goodnight elena

flighty girl *knocks on closet door and yells "goodnight"*

J and L goodnight

sweet dreams the lot of you, don't stay up tooo late?


night Tj and anima
I am off titoring again for the night, so sweet dreams

call in again anima I always like to see you :)


bye

♥xx♥

anima said...

Elena, I love your post. And so cool to hear your daughter refer to you as a writer.

I have a million car mishaps in my life....my exhaust pipe decided to detach in the middle of Missouri before...your story sounds a bit familar! Somehow, someway it always works out. Those Midwest folk are super kind. Well most anyway.

I am so happy you made it to Chi-Town safely!

toujours said...

good night ergo.

and good night elena and elena's crew. :)

i think it's time for me to run off, too. good night anima. sweet dreams. *hugs*

anima said...

Goodnight Ergo! Lovely to be here with you tonight.

I must go as well.




Mayo, hoping all is good with you. Sending you so a super amount of ♥, laughter, and hope. Oh and thanks! You are way cool my friend. I hope some day I can meet you in person.

Nite BBer's.

anima said...

Goodnight TJ. ♥ to you.

Anonymous said...

so Kapunua was - once again - the drunk chick who thinks she's hi-larious telling the same 'joke' over and over again?

toujours said...

mayo,

every time i read your current poem, i get the feeling that you're chastising someone. and because i'm not sure who the poem references, i always end up with a vague free-form guilty conscience from it. lol

i'll do better, i promise! *grin*


earlier, i was starting to think about what i might be writing to you tonight, and i found myself remembering the other good nights i've written, all these months now, silly ones and rambling ones and very, very few short ones. *oops*

i don't even remember exactly how i fell into this habit, but habit it is. each night, i automatically start gathering up my day and sorting through it to see if there is anything to share with you.

it's so easy to forget how extraordinary this experience is.

and because i say "thank you" all the time, i made you a little something to mark the day. (i was going to give this to you in the morning, but i can't wait. *grin*)

happy anniversary, mayo.

and sweet dreams.

Anonymous said...

Morning Mayo,

Happy First Birthday!

Make sure you don't burn yourself on the candles and cut yourself the biggest slice of cake.

Lots of love to everyone but the boss is lurking so I'll be off...

Kass xx

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

O.k., so everyone has gone to bed (or is just getting up! HIYAZ KASS!! We missed you're smarty pants around here- Hope you are doing good!! <3 ) and I never have anything profound or grand to say. And I certainly can't sum up what meeting people from here -and especially summing up what the person who brought me here, means to me -so I am gonna just leave something. I can't explain what the passage means to me either. But I love it. -Oh I think that might be my point.. ;p

----------
"There was a silly damn bird called a Phoenix back before Christ, every few hundred years he built a pyre and burned himself up. He must have been first cousin to Man. But every time he burnt himself up he sprang out of the ashes, he got himself born all over again. And it looks like we're doing the same thing over and over, but we've got one damn thing the Phoenix never had. We know the damn silly thing we just did. We know all the damn silly things we've done for a thousand years and as long as we know that and always have it around where we can see it, some day we'll stop making the goddamn funeral pyres and jumping in the middle of them. We pick up a few more people that remember, every generation...

We're going to meet a lot of lonely people in the next week and the next month and the next year. And when they ask us what we're doing, you can say, We're Remembering. That's where we'll win out in the long run."
-------

O.k., so there ya go. I love this author because he writes so beautifully and he doesn't give a shit about silly little things like run-on sentences. Maybe someday I'll actually read the book all the way through -the proper way. So, to all the little things (that aren't silly) nighty night -loves

farawaysoclose said...

hey mayo!

well we made the year! kind of amazing. very special. thank you so much for everything. however this started and for whatever reasons really don't matter now, what is here now is what matters. thank you so much.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MAYO!

or if we are going on the birthday theme, which is kinda more appropriate maybe? this is a little freaky and you aren't my precious i swear! but anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAYONAISE!

and a happy anniversary/birthday to blogbelieve!

farawaysoclose said...

hey kass, lovely to see you!

lewis *hugs* to you my friend and i'll ask you where that passage came from when we next chat.

elena i am so glad you made it there safe and sound and are with the OPs. all of you have a brilliant time! i am sure you will.

nice to see you pop in anima!

i know i have missed loads! i always miss loads, sorry guys!

god i feel a little tearful! isn't that silly!

it has been a real and genuine pleasure meeting and becoming friends with all of you. i mean that from the bottom of my heart i really really do!

have a great wednesday everyone!

oh and mustard, that mikey/frankie oz interview was just so good! thanks for that. i haven't heard that one since it actually happened!

later folks!

sdock10 said...

BlogBelieve,

Happy 1 Year Anniversary! That's 365 days. A whole lot of hours, a whole lot more minutes...and so on and so forth. Do you ever wonder how much blog time you've logged? If you could stack all your blog time consecutively, would you have spent days on here? A whole week? A couple months?

Something to think about.

Thanks to ALL of you for Everything...the friendships, the laughter, the tears, the OMG's, the WTF's, the made up words, the heartfelt comments, the understanding, the listening. Thank you. It's been a hella good time!

Mwah! Mwah!

Smoke said...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MAYO AND ALL OF BLOGBELIEVE!!!!

A whole damn year? A whole damn year.

Damn.

Where has the year gone? Too early for me to get all mushy. Well, yeah, it's never a good time for me to get all mushy. Yuck. I don't like it. Just wanted to say thank you though for sticking around with us. Or, maybe for just allowing us to stick around with you. I'll have more later, I'm sure. ♥

WHANK YOU VERY MUCH MAYO! ^_^

Smoke said...

I just read that Frank broke his hand!?!? WTH, Frank? O_o

sdock10 said...

WTF? WTMFF?

ergoproxy said...

ok just got home but...
say what??????

Smoke said...

Yeah, some girl that went to the Denver show said his hand was broke. :(

She also said he was funnier than hell, too.

Some girl yelled from the crowd, "I love you, Frankie!" and he said something like, "Baby, you don't even fucking know me."

Bwah!

They was some people throwing gifts onstage for them and he told them how much he appreciated it but he asked them to please do them a favor and not bring gifts. He asked that everyone donate a can of food to charity or do something like that instead.
And right after he said that somebody give him a bracelet. She said he was like, "Uh, someone didn't get the memo."

Gah! I miss LEATHERMOUTH AND REGGIE!

Smoke said...

*they = there

Duh.

sdock10 said...

*beats the Blog with rhythm sticks*

*starts singing*

"Hit me with your rhythm stick
Go on and hit me with your rhythm stick!
Hit me with your rhythm stick
Fire awaaaaaaaaaay!"

*waves to Fimmy*

*waves to James Dewees*

*blows kisses to Anima*

ergoproxy said...

MAYO

♥HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY!!♥


and thank you everyone for being part of it, it's been a privilege and a delight to meet and get to know everyone

sdock10 said...

Oh, so he's still stage diving and rolling around on the floor with a brokeded hand! Go Frank! Go Frank!

The show must go onnnnnnnn! Leathermouth Lives bayyybaayyy!

Gah, I miss The Social.

sdock10 said...

Oh yeah, and FASC corrected me on my days count...Leap year, we've been doin' it together for 366 freaky deaky days!

366!!

ergoproxy said...
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sdock10 said...

Mayo,

Happy Anniversay, dude! 367 days ago, did you ever imagine it? Would you ever have thought that words that you hadn't even thought up yet, would turn into all this?

It still boggles the mind. Blows it even.

Thanks for everything...the words, the space, the comments, the time, the friendship.

Thanks for making me better, Mayo. A better writer, a better friend, and hopefully a better listener.

Dude, I have even learned to listen to myself. (Sometimes.)

Crazy shit.



Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. Still learning.

sdock10 said...

SS,

Miss you, my friend. Hope all is well in your world. Hope you are somewhere spreading your sunshine, your smiles, your strength, your love, and your super duper brand of humor.

Always,
S

sdock10 said...

For ALL of BlogBelieve:

mmmBop


Oh oh oh oh oh
Yeah

You have so many relationships in this life
Only one or two will last
You go through all the pain and strife
Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
Oh yeah
And they're gone so fast, yeah
Oh
So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
And when you get old and start losing your hair
Tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care?
Oh care

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du
Yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du
Yeah

Oh yeah
In an Mmmbop they're gone
Yeah yeah

Plant a seed, plant a flower, plant a rose
You can plant any one of those
Keep planting to find out which one grows
It's a secret no one knows
It's a secret no one knows
Oh, no one knows

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, yeah

Oh
Yeah oh

In an mmm bop they're gone
Oh yeah oh
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmm bop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmm bop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmmbop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmmbop they're not there
Until you lose your hair
Oh
But you don't care

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, yeah

Yeah
Oh yeah oh oh
So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
And hen you get old and start losing your hair
Tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care?
Oh care

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, care

Can you tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(Which flower's going to grow?)
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(If it's going to be a daisy or a rose?)
You say you can but you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(which flower's going to grow?)
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Oh yeah
You say you can but you don't know
You dont know
You dont know, oh

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, care

Oh
Can u tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can u tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Can u tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can u tell me?
You say you can but you don't know



Love you Guys! Sing it and smile!

ergoproxy said...

hiya sdock have a great Wednesday

you know I nerver knew what the words to that was before now ('cept for the "mmmbop" bit
It's quite lovely words

Smoke said...

LITTLE RIVER BAND! OMG, Ergo!

I've ♥'d them since I was little! Lonesome Loser was my favoritist song in the whole wide world.

O_o

I shit you not!

YAYNESS!

Okay, later peeps!

Have a good one!

JocelynHolly said...

Happy One Year Guys!

I honestly didn't think this would still be around after a year. I guess some of the 'magic' is still alive. =]

Anywaaaaaaays... I have nothing to say right now. I'll try again after school.

xoxox

ergoproxy said...

hi smoke!

I like that song too, my brother worked with Glen Shorrock last year and got me an autographed copy of the "Best of"
I was a teeny bit fangirly when I got it.


hello PH *hug* have a good day at school

ergoproxy said...

Mayo
well I'm off to bed, still amazes me that I retire as others start the day, I suppose you are getting ready for your Wednesday. Hope it's a good one.
So thanks for having us all this time, I hope you get some enjoyment and other things worthwhile from hosting us.It's been really interesting, worrying but over all wonderful being able to share this past year with you. You certainly make us think (and perhaps you'll answer the riddle? you know, seeing as it's a special day?) sometimes too much, but always fascinating to see how people look at your words. I don't know why you keep us around, are we like a comfortable group of friends you like to know are there, though you may not always be able to be with us? I always think of you as a silent member of our friendships, not always vocal, but always there. You spring to mind in the most unusual ways during the day (as do the others here)I bet we do for you to, and I hope it's always a fond thought, making you smile though you can't really explain why.
Wishing you a fabulous year ahead, beautiful days, restful fulfilling nights and so much that is wonderful for you and yours
much love
EP xx


SS
it's a time to remember how far we've come and you have been part of that, reminding us that we should always care and always be mindful of the impression we leave on others.
sending you happiness, joy and delight, lotsa love EP xx


goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥



wendy - missing you and thinking of you ♥

farawaysoclose said...

just popping in whilst eating my lunch!

SS for some reason i forgot to say good morning to you today!! i think it was the one year anniversary that took over my thoughts! anyway a year on blogger ey SS! a whole year! i never knew what blogger even was?! that doesn't surprise many people i am sure!

anyway so have a good one SS!


continue enjoying your days blogbelieve! you have my permission!

hi PJ (its been a while sorry)

oh and wendy i hope to god you are ok?!

looking forward to seeing your name in blue and you all safe and sound!

Anonymous said...

Just dropped by to say HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MAYO!!! Thanks for keeping this place going.

Have a great day everybody.

Anonymous said...

Happy Anniversary, Mayo, SS, and BlogBelieve Citizens and Visitors and Anonymi alike!

I was thinking last night, amidst all of the laughter, about my very first post and how it felt like it had been twenty years since I made it.

I thought about a stick figure of Adam and how I'm a slacker and still haven't really perfected the stick-like figure of it.

I thought about how you guys have seen me struggle, and how I've seen you guys struggle, but somehow when we all did it together, it was easier.

Even though it's an every day thing, it was made special last night when I remembered how I almost gave up, and each time, I got the kick in the ass I needed or words in the shape of a hand.

I remembered a friend lost.

And all of the stories, and the encouragement, and the band, and our differences of opinion, and how all of the posts made me want to be a better writer, a better thinker, the countless times I believed in something so much it hurt. All of the "I hopes" and "I have no ideas." And then there's how all of the bad days made the good days more golden.


Thank you, Mayo. Thank you for having provided a place for all of this to happen. I'm sorry that some days weren't as sparkly as others, but in the end, it all works out. Thank you for listening to us yammer and spill guts, because it was all done out of trying to learn about ourselves or share with someone else.

I'm not even really sure if you know just how helpful you've been, how helpful this place has been, and how proud I am to have been a part of it for this long.

Thanks for the memories.


SS, dude! Thank you for the friendship and, I guess most importantly, the lessons? We always felt we had something to learn from you and your spirit, and I can say with 100% assurance, when the time comes, people will walk away from here better people because of it.

Thank you for the times you hung out and we caused mass laughter-fests. I would always catch myself bursting with a quick "BWAH!," like, three days after the fact.

I guess I just want to thank you for sharing this with us. See you around, buddy.


BlogBelieve, one year and about a million memories. I sometimes catch myself wondering how it all happened to begin with. And the best answer I could muster was that the stars aligned more perfectly than they ever have or they ever will. It blows my mind. Thank you for this.


Later, guys. :)

Anonymous said...

Again, Mayo, happy one-year thingie thing. (Anniversary, or birthday of BlogBelieve, or whichever?) Thank you again for the poetry, the pictures, and for all the friends I met, including you.

One year later and I know exactly as much about you as I did in the beginning, which is to say: absolutely dick. Yet I still count you as a friend. And I hope that you still count us among your friends as well.

S(S)S, I feel like we should have said "Happy Anniversary" to you a week or more ago, because after all, you were there first. ^_^

Miss you, S(S)S, hope you are doing well.

Anonymous said...

OMG, the stick figure! I was just thinking about that!

Splash, you and I used to dissect songs all night, remember that? ^_^

elena said...

It is truly amazing how much can change in a year. This time last year I was in Denver for PR. Hell guess you could say I was at Gerard's wedding. LOL

A year later, and many, many wonderful friends added, I'm in Chicago.

What a wild year this had been. I've gone all over to concerts, met up with some of my new friends and of course found this place. A place that scared me at first, (yeah I was afraid to talk so I just lurked)but now is home.

And Mayo, I found you. You offer me a place to be myself. A place where I can free all the things I keep bottled up inside. A place where I think what I say matters. Wait, I take that back. What I say does matter.

Thank you, Mayo.

Anonymous said...

I do remember. Some of the best times I had. :)

Anonymous said...

Hey Mayo, check this out. usually years go by and I find it remarkable and disconcerting how little had changed in one year.

This year I looked back and saw how much had changed.

And guess what. The biggest changed? Stemmed directly from this place. I am no longer stuck at a place that was stagnant. I can see only in retrospect how unhappy I was there and how desperate just to have something.

Sure and the change was brought about by someone with a hate-on for me, but I find irony so delicious that it's a good thing it actually doesn't have calories. That is exactly the way it goes. Someone on here hated me enough to write emails to get me fired, thinking it would ruin me. And instead, I am going back to school, (I've narrowed it down to two fields and two schools; OMG it's so close, I still have no idea!) I sent out my manuscript, and change has finally come.

Even though you weren't the hateful person who totally saved me from a crappy situation, I thank you for the field where this played out.

Mayo, without you, who knows but that I would have been trudging along doing blood tests, sweeping, cleaning kennels, grooming, and just dealing with other people's drama all the while hating the sight of my boss going through the day.

Mahalo nui loa for this.

Anonymous said...

Also, Mayo, you've made me into a better reader, and more: a better writer. (Yeah, I think I proved to you and everyone last night how much I've grown. ;D )

Anonymous said...

Oops, one more thing!

Mayo, I'm all about these seemingly random and yet utterly portentous trajectories.

Therefore I wish that there was some way in which you could tell us the things that have changed in your life over this past year while still keeping your wickedmadd defenses up, you know? I'd say "or let them down" but I know when to step off. Well, usually. ;D

Anonymous said...

Kapunua

Your erotica was unsurpassed :)

Smoke said...

Hi errbody!

Mayo,

I iz writing you a long ol'letter today.

You have been warned.

^_~



I agree about SS, Jules! We should have told him last week! ^_^

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SS!!!!

I'z gonna write you one, too. OMG, shut up. Don't laugh.

toujours said...

good morning everyone.

i was just over catching up on my lj, and for a whim, took a look at the last entry i made, pre-mayonaise. what's weird is that i remember the day i wrote that, and somehow, i thought it was after the blog...

mayo, you are retroactively infecting my memories. if i'm not careful, i'm going to remember writing good nights to you in crayon. lol

Anonymous said...

Thank you, anon! Let me tell you it was soooo hard to bare my feelings like that but OTOH hand its so freeing to tell the whole world about your astral lover and your goddess tunnel!

Anonymous said...

The thought of "ocular libraries" has made me roll.

Smoke said...

Okay, I tried. :(

I'm not good at this kind of stuff!

Mayo, thank you again. You know why and what for and all that stuff. Like Kapunua said, I do consider you as one of my friends. I hope you can say the same. I was reading back over some of the first posts and OMG, not much has changed here. Back then I was going, "Damn you, Mayo! WTF are you talking about?!?!?!"

I still do that. ^_^

Anyhoo, just thanks again. It's been one hell of a year.


SS!!!!

Just like I told Mayo, you know the why's and the what for's. You've always encouraged us and supported us and made us laugh. I hope we have done the same for you. And I also hope you know how much you are missed. ^_^


Alright, I gotta actually do some mothereffin work! So not fair! Grrr!

elena said...

Yeah we are at starbucks i love chicago

Anonymous said...


Spiiiinnnnn


spiiiiiinnnnnnnn


suuuuuuuuu

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Anonymous said...

You know I had to. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Also, to all the nice anons, thank you. Thanks for the messages on my blog, thank you for always being interesting, intriguing and compelling. Thank you She Wolf anon and Calaf.

This place is still so much fun. ^_^

toujours said...

i am vicariously at starbucks, thanks to you elena.

*breathes in the imaginary scent of coffee beans*

:)

Amyranth said...

*is being nommed*

toujours said...

ouchie?

Amyranth said...

Sorta. Cat has decided she likes to chew on my thumb. She's not nice about it either. :P

How's you?

toujours said...

i'm's okay. :)

i hope you survive being perforated.

toujours said...

oh hey! did you know that richard the lion-heart was crowned the king of england on this day in 1189?

i did not know that. he never learned to speak engliah, and over is reign only spent a total of six months in the country he ruled.

*tcha*

i much prefer king john. he was slandered by the monks so everyone thinks he was awful, but he cared more his country than his brother!




*oops*
tmi, maybe?

toujours said...

um, i've never learned to speak "engliah" either, so maybe i ought not fault king richard for that lapse.

however! he also did not know english, and that's just wrong.

Amyranth said...

I've heard Engliah is hard to learn, so I don't really blame him.

I thought Richard the Lion-Heart was off fighting the Crusades?

Jennicula said...

The Riddler

I read another's words carefully written from the heart. Meticulous care is taken and each word chosen has a specific meaning. Even the tense has a purpose.

I am so bold to take those words to heart and apply them to my own world, knowing that they truly have nothing to do with me or my own reality.

Because those words are not my own, I am just an outsider getting a glimpse inside another person. The application of those words to my life is probably very different than how the words were meant.

Either way, I am forced to look inside myself. Sometimes there's a connection - an understanding. Sometimes I like what I see. And still other times it is dark and dreary - hoping for a spot of sunshine to burst on through the dark side.

I kick those words around in my head and try to figure out the meaning of it all.

Most of the time I'm still puzzled and lost.

Cultivated by Jennicula

Mayonaise - thank you for keeping this place open. I've met some truly wonderful people here. Your words make me think and spark conversations elsewhere in my world.

Amyranth said...

Jenni, I like it!

toujours said...

amyranth, that's why he was never in england. he just squeezed the country for taxes to pay for his crusades -- supposedly he had said that if he could sell london, he would have.

*grr*


okay, i have to share the computer, so must go. i hope to be able to be back off and on though.

good to read you elena, kapunua, jennicula! good to talk with you amyranth!

happy anniversary, blogbelieve! *pinches cheeks* aren't you just sooo cute!

bye, mayo. thank you, always.

Jennicula said...

Thanks Amyranth. Nice reading you too, TJ.

I like reading those weird factoids about random stuff.

Bellatrix said...

Hello Mayo,SS and Family!

Well,HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BLOGBELIEVE!

I was thinking about all that happened in the past year,the ups and downs we faced together,the countless times we stood up for one another,the laughs we shared and the fun we had,and I’ve realized that,no matter what,I’ll always look back on this place and the people I’ve met here with a smile on my lips.

I’ve learned so much from each and every one of you and even if I’m afraid my words will never be accurate enough to explain just how grateful I am,I want you to know I’m honoured to be part of something so special with all of you.


Mayo and SS,thank you for all you’ve done for us.I’ll never forget it.

Thank you BlogBelievers,from the bottom of my heart.

And Nice Anons,thank you as well. ;)




Wendy,hope you’re okay.Let us know as soon as possible.


Amy,Mya,Lewis,Kass,Jen and DA,glad to see you!


Elena,L and J,have a great time!


Jules,I loved your story.So touching... :D



See you later,Family.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*




PS:Alby,I miss you!!

Shame in me said...

Happy anniversary everyone :) Had to come by and say it. Love to everyone. Hope everyone is well. Happy anniversary Mayo. I cant stay but i'll be back ♥

Smoke said...

JULESSSSSSS!!!!!

I have a present for you. This little guy is living outside of my house. Thank God! Otherwise, you guys would never hear from me ever again because I'd have died of a heart attack.

Anyhoo,

My camera has a very nice zoom feature which let me get extra close to him without actually getting close to him.

I gotta say though when I pulled the pic up and looked at it, I almost fainted.

*falls out in the floor*

Mr. Creepy Creeperson Spider

Anonymous said...

Princess, he is beautiful! He is a typical yellow and black garden spider. So lovely! Think of all the nasties he is stopping from getting into your hizzy. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Happy anniversary everyone. I hope you guys have a wonderful day.

It's cool, cloudy, and windy, but I managed to come out of the job interview alive, and the store is really cool. I'll be expecting a call, and if I get hired and do a great job, I might be hired on a regular, full-time basis. Here's to hoping.

SIM, it's good to see you. I miss you bunches ♥

Elena, J, L, I hope you guys are having a great time. Stay safe and have fun!

Sugarplum: I hope we'll hear from you soon. We're worried :(

Alright, that's it for now. I'm off to finish my lunch, then it's off to walk to the bookstore(I'm not at home)

Later everyone!

Anonymous said...

So you guys, check this out. I just got off the phone with NY College of health professionals.

Apparently I can whiz through a medical program there in three years, a few days a week (it is hellaciously far away, but manageable if it's only a few days a week,) in courses designed to let you work and study at the same time, or study and, goddamn it, have kids at the same time. Because I already have a minor background in medical biology I could possibly get through it even quicker, double up on some courses or lighten the work load.

Even better, then are starting a program that after you do your residency, if you so choose, you can do a sixth month course (in what they don't yet know, probably some sort of research,) and you will get your doctorate.

This means that if I went ahead and did this, then in less than four years I could be Dr. Jules.

WTF.

Anonymous said...

Dr. Jules! Yes! Go for it!

^_^

Anonymous said...

If anybody can do it, you can K. I think you should go for it. :D

elena said...

oh just had a "Chicago" hotdog. Okay that was interesting. Never had tomatoes, pickles and hot peppers on a reg hotdog. It was pretty darn good.

This place is huge. I love it.

toujours said...

hello again. :)

This means that if I went ahead and did this, then in less than four years I could be Dr. Jules.

if that's what you want, kapunua, then you should go for it! it'd be pretty damn cool, imo.

and glad to hear that you're having a great time, elena. :)

elena said...

how cool is it the Harley store is right by the hotel. Got a neat Harley shirt with the Chicago skyline on the back.

toujours said...

uwaaah, that is cool! so how long will you let him wear it before it's in your wardrobe again? *heehee*

Amyranth said...

Elena, I love H-D clothing, so comfortable.

And it looks really good on me while I'm perched on the back of Dad's hog. ;D

elena said...

What kind of Hog, Amy?

farawaysoclose said...

hi guys!

elena lovely to read you from chicago!

hi Teej and amy!

Princess you still at work?

Dr Jules sounds great K!

Amyranth said...

FLTSC Softail

I think. I could be wrong. He used to have an 883 Sportster, then sold it and used some of the money to buy this one.

Anonymous said...

Hi everyone.

Elena, you sound like you're having a great time. I'm glad. You can't have a perfect Chicago experience without having some famous deep dish pizza. You should try some when you can :)

JocelynHolly said...

*runs around Blogbelieve spreading the love*

Ahem, I had to do that.

I would like to thank you all for being amazing friends this past year. You've all seen me through my highs and lows. Good or bad, thanks for all the memories, all the laughs, hell, even all the tears. No word was ever wasted here in Mayo's Castle. (well maybe a few, but those don't matter)

Brought together by a spur of the moment marriage and an amazing white substance.. err.. condiment.. I'm thankful for 'meeting' each and every one of you guys. I grew to love and trust you all like you were family.

We pushed each other along and held each other up when times got rough. 'Conquer and divide' we were told. I say after all the shit that has been thrown BlogBelieve's way, this place is doing pretty fucking good!

Mayonaise, thank you for keeping this place open, not for me, but for those who still come around. I still find it funny reading over old posts and comments. Half of your blogs, I still can't decipher them. Dude, you're an awesome person, never let any shit bring you down. Those memories from when you were a kid, the ones you try to keep buried away.. yeah, the ones that hurt to think about.. those made you who you are today. Good or bad, never forget those dude.

SS, thanks for pushing people along and picking us all up when we needed it. When all hope was lost, you came in and reminded us what this place really is about.

Citizens of Blogbelieve, a huge thank you, again, for just being amazing. For all the advice, all the love.. just for everything. You don't know how much it all means to me. You may laugh when I say this, but I would not be who I am today, if it weren't for meeting the people I've met here. Kind of sad, but understandable. I've spent hours sitting in front of my screen typing with you all. It means a lot.

Everyone, keep the faith. Never let anyone take the things you want away from you. You all deserve to be happy, so chase after those dreams and never let them get away from you. Sometimes it's worth aiming for the stars.

xoxox;
- 007
<3

farawaysoclose said...

wow i know nothing about bikes amy, but it looks very smart!!

BC hi and i meant to say i'm glad the interview went well and hope you get the job!!

farawaysoclose said...

PH!!

the bigest hugs to you my sweet 16 yr old friend!!

you are way wiser than your words! way wiser! it is a pleasure to know you.

farawaysoclose said...
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toujours said...

*massive hug for paperheart*

that was beautiful! :)

hello faraway, hello amyranth -- that's a pretty sweet-looking bike there. i have to say though, when it comes to bikes, nothing does it for me like those sportsbikes.... vroooom!

but that's just me. *grin*

elena said...

nice bike Amy

We've got a Softail.

Notice how I say "we"? What's mime is mine. What's his is mine.

Amyranth said...

Teej, Mister's brother has a crotch rocket. Looks pretty good, but it's kinda scary... it sounds like an overgrown weedwhacker.

farawaysoclose said...

the deletion was me!!

i double posted like the c*** i am!! yes i am! you all so know it! marvels that i didn't fill in the missing letters cos i am normally that nasty!! maybe i am getting more civilised?!

nah probably not!!

Amyranth said...

It's not bad is it Elena? They wanted to get a sidecar at one point, but Mom's more comfortable riding on the back now than she used to be.

Anonymous said...

Thanks Faraway. I hope you're well?

Hi grasshopper *hugs*

JocelynHolly said...

*hug* for Farwaysoclose
*hug* for Toujours
*hug* for Elena
*hug* for Bleeding Chaos
*hug* for Amyranth!

(just cause y'all are special and around) ^_-

JocelynHolly said...

AHH

FarAWAYsoclose.

Forgot the 'a'.

>,<

farawaysoclose said...

i'm fine BC!

just chillin.


mayo you gonna post something fantabulous?!

i bet i am in bed asleep when/if you do!!

erm did i ever say.....time zones suck!

farawaysoclose said...

PH!! no worries sweetie!

i think anyone would have got the gist. (is that even spelt right?)

you Ok PH?!

school, home, being 16yrs old!!

toujours said...

faraway, double posting is a blogger plague, and nothing to do with your character, so reast easy. :)

amyranth, what can i say? when i hear the whine of a sportsbike, i get a little shivery. they're scary, but in a goooood way. *heh*

hi there bc. :)

toujours said...

and typos are the first blogger plague. "reast"?

oh dear oh dear.

*hugs paperheart back, for good measure*

:D

JocelynHolly said...

LOL.

FASC (easier that way)

School might be a doozy this year. This semester goes as follows:

Art
History
English
Lunch
Pre-Calculus

The workload for history and math might be alot, since they're both the advanced classes.

Next semester, I'm taking some grade 12 courses, so that may be a little heavy too, but I enjoy the pressure. ^_^

Home is good. My niece is now crawling and has some teeth, she's growing up too much!

Being 16 is amaaazing. I celebrated it with a BANG!

Work is awesome actually, less hours and my co-workers are as amazing as ever. =]

elena said...

Love you paperheart.

Anonymous said...

Alright Mayo, I know I posted a Happy Anniversary last night, but I wanted to say a bit more today.

First off, thanks for the place, the people you brought together, the putting up with us for this long. (Course, that works both ways you know. We put up with your ass too!)

Really, it has been an amazing year, and Bubbles and so many of the others have said a lot of the things that I am thinking as well.

So, today, we celebrate for all of us. (Betcha didn't think you would still be putting up with all these women, did ya?)

Love to you, Mayo, and to SS, the friends I have made here, one of which is sitting 3 floors above me on her laptop (HEY ELENA!) and the residents of Mayo's Castle.

L.

JocelynHolly said...

Elena, love you too :)

Opal, I hope you are feeling good! I miss you and I've been meaning to get back to people but I've been super busy with school!

*hugs*

farawaysoclose said...

hi L!!

and typos are the first blogger plague. "reast"?

haha Teej!! i bloody know!!

PH your niece is crawling and has teeth!! how old is she now? she sounda a little advanced!!

So these are your A levels? we call them A levels in england. The exams you do between 16-18yrs old. I did Biology, Economics and Maths!! Biology was my fav! You are an arty girl i see!

toujours said...

hi l. -- i like the idea of you yelling up to elena. :)

elena said...

get back to the room opl. I can't decide what to wear to the concert

farawaysoclose said...

she sounda??

where the fuck am i from?!!

Anonymous said...

Hugs back to you as well, Bubbles! Don't worry about it, sweetie, I know you have a lot going on. I'm doing pretty good, enjoying being with my friends and heading out in a bit to HOB.

What you wrote was beautiful. I like seeing your name around here.

Love,
L.

Anonymous said...

Be right there, Elena! I thought you were wearing the ribbon one. It's pretty!

Oh, is J. out of the shower?

L.

farawaysoclose said...

elena are you all better now babe?

toujours said...

when's the show start, elena, l.?

Anonymous said...

You know the feeling you get on Christmas morning when you plow head-first into your presents?

Welcome to my world right now.

Anonymous said...

Hey, TJ, BC, FASC, Bubbles, anyone I missed. Gotta go, I'm being called!

Love you guys,
L.

Anonymous said...

Doors open at 5, TJ, but we are going at 4 to have early dinner.

L.

farawaysoclose said...

have fun OPL!! and elena and OPJ and elena's daughter!
guys we want confirmation on Frankie's broken wrist OK? and if so who played bass for Reggie?!

hiya mustard! you OK then? you sound happy!

toujours said...

thanks, l. have a ton of fun!

Anonymous said...

For Reggie Fans!:

Fluxuation

toujours said...

hey there, mustard. are you telling us you have plowed face-first into something good?

JocelynHolly said...

FASC, she's six months! I told you, she's trying to be a 'big' girl!

Elena, J, and Opal, have a great time at the show tonight!


Mustaaaard! *hug* I got your comment on my blog, and Princess Smokes. And everyone else's. lol. I just need to find time to get back to them.

Darn, I just missed my bus. (saw it drive by) OH well I can spare a few minutes before trying to catch the next one!

Ohh and Far Away, I'm taking:

Geography
Baking
English (grade 12)
Lunch
Biology
Psychology

That's for second semester. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Hi L, TJ, Amy :)

Anonymous said...

Totally, FASC. And it's just one of those things that you can't explain, you know? It's this inside-feeling where you can feel your nerves firing, your synapses are giving you twenty "WTF?!"s per second, and you pretty much wouldn't have it any other way.

gnothi seauton said...

Mayonaise.

Happy Anniversary and thank you.


Six - I hope you are well.
SS - Keep on swimming my friend.


Love and best wishes to all.

TTFN

Anonymous said...

No, bwuahah! Plowing face-first into something good would mean me eating Chocolate Chip cookie dough right now, but alas, I have none!

JocelynHolly said...

GNOTHI!!

^_^

I'm watching you
<,< >,>
(GS) (PH)

Anonymous said...

PH, don't worry about it! I just wanted to see what you were up to! I hope school goes well for you!



GS!!! Great to see you here!

JocelynHolly said...

(those are supposed to be two faces, watching each other. So that's us GS!)

JocelynHolly said...

K, Well I better go catch my bus to work before a certain co-worker gets angry that I am showing up late with his redbull!


Happy Anniversary guys!

xoxoxox;
- 007
<3
*hug*

Anonymous said...

Hi mustard. Bye GS, grasshopper.

I'm off as well. Later everyone.

toujours said...

bye paperheart. :)

hello gnothi! good to see you!

man, it's been soooo long since i had real choc. chip cookie dough, mustard. "alas" is too true!

toujours said...

bye, bc. see you later. :)

farawaysoclose said...

FASC, she's six months! I told you, she's trying to be a 'big' girl!

PH. pretty young to crawl!! must be an into everything little one!
they can be tiring those ones!

oh wow you are doing lots of subjects PH! study hard my friend it is worth it in the long run trust me!!

take care PH, love to you!


nice reading you happy mustard! i am jealous!


GS!!!! hello my english chum! take care, be good! my girls went back to school today! it was much more restful than the last 6 weeks!!

farawaysoclose said...

seeya BC!

Anonymous said...

You know you've been here a while when a Blog Aunt is aunt to a now six month old.

I remember when PH broke the news to us! Time flies!




Are you okay, FASC?

Anonymous said...

Dolphy

I miss you to the moon and back, and I can still hear you singing from up there.

I replied to your email.
*listens*

farawaysoclose said...

hiya mustard! yep i am absolutely fine thank you very much!

can't stop much longer though. already 21.58 here! and i need to keep the bloke happy or else!! hah not so bad as that, but i do.

man a whole year of pissing mr bloke off! well that's an achievement!

gotta go then!

nighty night blogbelieve!

seeya mayo. take care, be good, have fun and all that! look forward to reading anything new from you in my morning!

SS you are a special part of this place you know. always trying to make it all better.

thank you.

love to you all!

farawaysoclose said...

hi alby and hi dolphy!!

*hugs*

farawaysoclose said...

ooh

farawaysoclose said...

i

farawaysoclose said...

am

farawaysoclose said...

so

farawaysoclose said...

very

farawaysoclose said...

fucking

farawaysoclose said...

tempted

farawaysoclose said...

to

farawaysoclose said...

do

Anonymous said...

bugshit

farawaysoclose said...

FUCK

farawaysoclose said...

fuck you bugshit!!!! fuck you seriously! ruined my moment!!

jus kidding but man how to ruin a moment!!

not my place i do not own!!

night blogbelieve!

toujours said...

man a whole year of pissing mr bloke off! well that's an achievement!

lol faraway, you are priceless. :)

toujours said...

good night faraway!

farawaysoclose said...

ooh i sound pissed off! i am not i promise. i am a sweet girl i don't get pissed off that often!

farawaysoclose said...

oh night Teej! take care!

i know it is a year!! he knows it too!

*hugs*

Anonymous said...

FASC

Does Mr Bloke understand if he is a nice boy he may get special favors?

ergoproxy said...

good morning!!

hi TJ fasc bugshit?
anon

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