Tuesday, August 12, 2008

For giving myself time.

We are all in some way the same. Any of us can be traced on parchment and placed over another and the outline will match, at some point. Keep turning the page until it fits just right. Call it coincidence, if you will.

I can hold you up against me and often the lines match up perfect.



The following is an excerpt from an old handwritten journal.

Yesterday I saw my reflection and waited for an answer. I stood there like an idiot, swaying and staring. It took a while, but what I found was strength and self-respect. The bags packed themselves and walked right out the door. My hand held tightly to all that really mattered, my own heart. All of my abandon had left the poor thing in a sad state, atrophied. But if I am patient and use it a little more each day it will regain its once youthful bounce. It will be fit for giving...forgiving. Forgiving.




(I needed the white noise as well.)


p.s. it is yours and no one can take it away.

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Anonymous said...

Goodnight solly, smokie. Anon, agreed. As long as it's delicious and fresh.

Amyranth said...

Goodnight Smoke and Solly.

I suppose butter isn't so bad, I prefer it on crackers, and besides, I can eat plain rice without a problem, and people think that's weird.

Anon, your mind can go where ever it wants. All over Italy with mine, perhaps?

BC, did you finish Breaking Dawn yet?

-A

Anonymous said...

Italy? Sure thing. That happens to be on my top 5 places I'd like to see list. The way my mind wanders, it was probably there and I missed it.

Amyranth said...

I had a top 5 list. Then it became a top 10 list. Then, I just stopped counting.

-A

Anonymous said...

Amy, yep, I finished it a couple of days ago. It was good, but there was a couple of problems with it. I don't know.

I love the series, but I don't like how there's too much hype about it. The other day, I saw some Godiva chocolate bars that had the wrapping advertising the series, and I rolled my eyes while looking at it. Sheesh.

Amyranth said...

BC, I read some of the synopsis online and I was a bit surprised. I hadn't read the series, and I was kinda thinking about it, but now I'm not so sure..

:S

-A

Nobody said...

hello. is anyone here?

Amyranth said...

Myself and BC, and an Anon.

Hallo Silence!

-A

Nobody said...

well hello, amyranth, BC, and the anon. How are you?

Anonymous said...

Amy, well, the main problem I have with the series is that with so many pages in all four novels, at the beginning it starts out slow and undulatingly boring.

Usually the drama or suspence doesn't pick up until much later. When I read Breaking Dawn, I was close to tossing it aside because it was dull to read the first pages, and it was a bit annoying when the main female character almost tried to be a martyr in melodramatic situations.

Get this: there's even an official guide being released this December. I was like "WTF?" it's an obvious attempt at getting the fans' money.

Anonymous said...

"undulatingly boring."

BC, what do you think undulating means?

Anonymous said...
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Carrie said...

Hi guys! Just sticking my head in.

Anonymous said...

Anon, I just made that word up. There's not a good enough word to describe some parts of BD besides dull so I just went with that. I think it fits.

Hey there silence, I'm doing good. How are you? I'm gonna go back and forth here because I'm also cleaning my bathroom. It's going to get remodeled starting tomorrow.

Sorry about the double comment :/

Carrie said...

Maybe ploddingly? I went with that one time on a book report about Gone With the Wind. And remodeling is always fun.

Amyranth said...

BC, ouch! Okay, I'm not so sure that I wanna read it. I heard about Bella's "labour" and Jacob's imprinting, and I really didn't think I wanted to know more than that.

But a "guide"? To what?

-A

Nobody said...

i'm good too, BC. Hey carrie.

Carrie said...

Hey Silence. Amy, I actually do have a reader's guide to The Outlander series, not sure why the heck I got it though.

Nobody said...

how are you, carrie?

Amyranth said...

Job hunting is frustrating.

-A

toujours said...

i love the outlander series, though i don't have the guide.

hi. :)

Carrie said...

Oh, I'm okay. And job hunting is of the suck, but sometimes I would rather have a job instead of being a housewife.

Carrie said...

Hey TJ, gotta love a lusty Scotsman.

toujours said...

Job hunting is frustrating.

so is house hunting. let's go get wasted on decadent baked goods amyranth.

toujours said...

carrie, i think jaimie is my ideal man. ;)

Nobody said...

hi toujours

toujours said...

did i put an extra "i" in that poor boy's name?

och, an can ye forgive me, me lad?

Amyranth said...

I'd really rather have a job. This house is freaking expensive, and'm not getting kudos as the housewife. :P

toujours said...

hey there silence. :)

how's it going tonight?

Amyranth said...

so is house hunting. let's go get wasted on decadent baked goods amyranth.

Can we saturate them in alcohol to fully expend the "wasted" aspect of it all?

Carrie said...

I so wanted them to make a miniseries or a movie out of that, but I could never get the casting right. Loved the books though, even the Lord whats his face ones. I like the way she writes.

Amyranth said...

Hey!

If I get a job at a sausage factory.. um, wait. Never mind.

I can already hear the jokes in my head. :p

Nobody said...

i'm doing good, toujours

toujours said...

Can we saturate them in alcohol to fully expend the "wasted" aspect of it all?

as if you even had to ask...


Loved the books though, even the Lord whats his face ones. I like the way she writes.

i have to admit, i haven't read those -- in fact i didn't even know she had written beyond the first one. what are they like?

toujours said...

that's good to hear, silence. :)

Anonymous said...

Hi carrie

Carrie said...

Um, they are hot gay stories. :)

Carrie said...

Hey BC!

toujours said...

lol carrie! well, i guess i knew that about lord john, so i'm not surprised. :)

Amyranth said...

I'll be back later, gonna go watch movies.

-A

toujours said...

bring back popcorn.

Carrie said...

We finally watched The Departed tonight, it was reaaally good.

Anonymous said...

Hi TJ. Amy, yeah a guide to what the series is about, character profiles, etc etc. I never head of a author's novels getting it's own official guide, but it seems Stephenie Meyer's books is, which I don't entirely understand.

It's bad enough that it got it's own candy. What next? Bookmarks, pencils, dolls? One person at the bookstore I went to said that Mrs. Meyer's idea isn't even original, and she's right, it's not, yet the book is getting made into a movie regardless. I like the books, but I'm glad the series is over.

Anonymous said...

You didn't mane a word up BC it is actually a word. You just don't know what it means.

toujours said...

well, let's see...i don't remember the movie "the departed", and i haven't read anything by stephanie meyers.

sorry. :/

Carrie said...

Oh man, bit by the proofread fairy.

Carrie said...

The Departed is kinda old, had Leo Dicaprio, Matt Damon and a babillion others. A crime drama type thing. And I haven't read any of the Meyers books either, but my daughter has and she likes them.

Nobody said...

this is actually pretty early for me i'm kind of tired so I am going to go to bed.

Good night everyone.

Carrie said...

Night, silence.

toujours said...

good night silence. sleep well.

dicaprio and damon in a crime drama thing. i just don't remember it. crazy.

did you see the movie about howard hughes starring dicaprio? that was a very good movie -- which surprised me.

Carrie said...

Yes, I did see that! I was also surprised that I enjoyed it.

Anonymous said...

Goodnight silence, sweet dreams.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
You didn't mane a word up BC it is actually a word. You just don't know what it means.

August 13, 2008 11:44 PM


Why does this comment make me laugh? Isn't it ironic, don'tcha think?

toujours said...

i used to check a lot of movies out of my library, and because they were free i would take chances on movies that maybe i wouldn't want to spend money on. i saw some really good movies that way.

"kiss kiss bang bang" was another one from the library, and it's in my top ten favorites now.

toujours said...

typo fairy's got a sense of humor, 12:14.

Carrie said...

Okay, gotta go to bed too. Goodnight all.

Anonymous said...
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Anonymous said...

Goodnight carrie, sweet dreams

toujours said...

good night carrie, good talking to you. :)

Anonymous said...

as the mane undulates in the breeze...interesting.

Anonymous said...

On Kapu's pic on her blog is the words shinra slut. Google it and tell me if you see what I see

toujours said...

it's almost poetry, isn't it? or, a line out of a conan novel.

Anonymous said...

You ahve to google it with quote marks or exact phrase

toujours said...

ew. talking to 12:52, not the stalker anon.

Anonymous said...

I haven't taken a shower in three days

Anonymous said...

I'm off to shower. Be back in a few

toujours said...

lol lol lol bc. you always make me giggle. :)

Anonymous said...

can i mane up a word tonight?
my mane up word is
splendilovatastic

meaning - splendid, lovable, fantastic

used in a sentence
Bleeding Chaos is a splendilovatastic person.

:-)

Amyranth said...

Posts are moving.

Odd.

Anyway, back to The Matrix.

Here's some popcorn for you Teej.

Goodnight Lovelies, Mayo and SS.

*peeks in the movie theatre*

-A

ergoproxy said...

'ello :]

Anonymous said...

'ello ergoproxy and amyranth.
what's new with you ergoproxy?
what posts are moving amyranth?
i've not been paying attention.
g'nite

Anonymous said...

Thanks TJ. I enjoy making people laugh sometimes :)

Aw thanks anon :)

Anonymous said...

you're welcome and g'nite bleeding chaos.
:-)

ergoproxy said...

tee hee

off again titoring! lol busy busy busy

I have withdrawals!!!

bye :]

Amyranth said...

1:26, Mayo's been deleting posts, I assume some of the ones pertaining to people's personal information.

I posted comment 201 on the first page jump, it has since moved to comment 200, and comment 200 is now 199.

Also, the top of this page WAS Solly's goodnight, now it is comment 600 on the previous page.

Good for you, Mayonaise.

-A

ergoproxy said...

oh anon hello, I have no time!

this working full time sure does limit by blog time *sheesh*

you think they'd give me time at work


but the kids are all being really good, some interesting boys, but I often end up with "naughty' boys liking me....must be my charm!!

I am off now

see y'all!!

Amyranth said...

Anyway, Goodnight, once again everyone!

-A

elena said...

Hello everyone. What's new?

Nobody said...

Hello elena.

elena said...

Hello Silence

How are you doing?

Nobody said...

i'm fine, I couldn't sleep before so i came back. How are you?

elena said...

Oh I'm okay. I spent most of the day in a Starbucks drinking coffee and writing. It was nice.

Nobody said...

that sounds quiet and peaceful, lol. Do you write for a living or do you just do i for fun? I like to write for fun sometimes but whenever I start a story I never finish it :(

Anonymous said...

Goodnight Amy, anon. Hiya Ergo

Anonymous said...

Hi Elena, silence. Enjoy titoring Ergo

Nobody said...

hello BC

Nobody said...

again.

Anonymous said...

thanks for the information, amyranth.
thanks for being a kind, sweet and caring person, mayonaise.
'ello elena and silence do good.
i bid you all g'nite again.

Nobody said...

good night anonymous

toujours said...

mayo,

it's been an...ineffectual day, and a drifting night. it's not a sharp mood i'm feeling, rather, one all dulled by inactivity.

i need to go. i'm wasting time.

i'm ready to just jump off the cliff again, i swear. i spent too many years being cautious and drawing up plans, why am i doing it again? when i've seen how well throwing caution to the wind works for me?

frustrating.

i don't want the normal world, and i don't want what people think is it's opposite, either. i want my own path. i feel like i've got a blindfold on because i can't see it.

that was today.

let's see what i can make of tomorrow.



good night, mayo. sleep well.

Anonymous said...

Goodnight anon :)

Hi again silence. I'm gonna sign off for the night and go chill for a bit. Goodnight elena, silence, sweet dreams

Anonymous said...

mayonaise must get tired of having to clean up these messes.
maybe the perps should just stop.
something to think about.

elena said...

Hey BC

Silence, I write because it's what I love to do.

Night Anon

Anonymous said...

hello again just quickly

HI elena


HI SD

goodnight TJ


hey Mayo - good thing you've done
thanks


anon good point

Anonymous said...

oops and HI BC

elena said...

Hey Ergo

What's up? What did Mayo clean up? Shit, I'm so lost.

Mayo I'm guessing you did a good thing with this cleaning?

Hey my house needs cleaning. How are you with dusting?

Night BC

Nobody said...

good night BC.

Elena, I am glad you love writing. For some reason, I always found it much easier to write something down rather than to say it in person. The great thing about it is you can control the ending.

Nobody said...

hello ergoproxy

good night toujours.

elena said...

Well about controlling the ending when you write - sometimes I can but sometimes....

My stories seem to take on a life of their own. I will sit down thinking I know exactly the direction the story is headed when suddenly...yep it just takes off. I have actually typed a line that has no place in the story and I'll look at it and say "Fuck that's a good line. Now how the hell do I make it work?"

I wonder if this happens to other writers?

JocelynHolly said...

The wiener is in the bun.


^_^



Translation : Paperheart has arrived.

elena said...

Hey Paperheart. How are you?

Nobody said...

hi paperheartxx.

I'm sure that happens to all writers, elena. My mom was a writer so growing up she'd read me her stories and in the middle she'd stop and quickly change something or add something in. I guess when you're a writer sometimes you just know when something needs to be there.

Well, I am tired so I am going to actually go to bed this time. Good night everyone.

elena said...

Night Silence

Sleep well

JocelynHolly said...

Hey Elena!

Hello and goodnight Silence!
<3

Ahhh, I am forever confused

Anonymous said...

Hi PH *hug*

(I'm sneaking on as I'm doing whale research for his assignment)

elena said...

Mayo

So yeah, nothing has improved. Same old, same old. To be honest it’s a bit worse. Am I gonna complain? Nope. Why bother? Seriously I’m tired of whining. Doesn’t do a damn bit of good. So I just keep going. Not gonna stop, not gonna look back.

As I sat in Starbucks today something happened. I read several e-mails from fellow Lovelies. These women had taken the time to send me words of encouragement. Wonderful, touching words that made me teary. Nothing like crying at a Starbucks. Perhaps I looked like the tormented poet. Ah, if only the other Starbucks patrons knew I can’t write poetry for shit. Anyway, I’m telling you this for a reason. You have an incredible group of people here. You, my friend, are damn lucky to know these people. They stand by ready to pick you up when you stumble. Over and over again we’ve seen this happen here. I am proud to be a part of this. I am so lucky to know these people. Okay, I’m done. I just wanted to say that. And at the risk of being labeled a Mayo fangirl (like I really give a shit if someone says that) – We are damn lucky to know you. And we do know you. You’ve showed us your heart.

So I’m off to read a book I got recently. “Death Makes A Holiday”. It’s about the cultural history of Halloween.

Night Mayo

Elena (even if your hope is gone – move along, move along)

JocelynHolly said...

Ergo, *hug*


Goodnight Elena, Sweet dreams! *hug*

I'm going to write a blog.

miranth said...

Is anyone here?

Anonymous said...

goodnight, my angel
now it's time to dream
and dream how wonderful your life will be
someday your child may cry
and if you sing this lullabye
then in your heart
there will always be a part of me
someday we'll all be gone
but lullabyes go on and on...
they never die
that's how you
and i
will be

Anonymous said...

aww stop.

Nighty night then. And thank you. (You can catch me elsewhere now though, just thought you should know. If you can find me all dressed up first.) ;p
loves

miranth said...

Goodnight love anons :)

Anonymous said...

Night Miranth <3

JocelynHolly said...

Hey Miranth

Anonymous said...

nite Lewis @ 4:02 & 4:17

miranth said...

Hi PH!

Excited about your birthday? Do you have plans yet?

:)

JocelynHolly said...

I'm excited as ever! Thirteen days!! Plans? Getting trashed and taking sixteen shots with my co-workers, dinner with my besties, and low-key night at home with family. ^_^

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Hey paper doll -go check ya mail. I left you a smoochie. ;p

I hope you are good Miranth!? -And I just wanted to say -I always love reading what you have to say. I think you were getting some shit a little bit back? I always like to read ya -and I personally think, it is safer if all of us here have a little so called 'crazy' in us!

Elena, I know you are off- but tormented poet? I think that suits you. ;P You drop me a line back, when you can. ...and if you need help burrying the body -you just ask loves. I know FASC is certainly good at that too. We can ask for tips...

I am not hanging. But yea -night. -loves all.

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Oh and Mayo -I just mailed someone, that you certainly know how to attract them, real life hero's that is, all these lovelies.

I am just curious, what is in your tap water?

miranth said...

You're getting trashed! At your age?!? Is the drinking age more progressive over there in Canada?

I know when I was in Britain, there was little evidence of a (legal) drinking age. (The same in Detroit ;) It didn't matter at all.

Its just that teens have to wait longer for a driver's license in Britain. That's probably a better idea than giving the right to drive first.

But they have reliable public transport...

miranth said...

Thank you lewis! :) I would rather be crazy than boring, that's for certain! I had some problems before, but I am tenacious... :) I like to see your positive energy around here. I wish you would visit more often! I saw you didn't have a public blog, so I responded at mine, before - but I was basically agreeing with you. :)

JocelynHolly said...

Lewis, as always, thank you for what you said. I replied, not as long as I usually would. Haha. I love talking to you hun. If you're off to bed, then goodnight and thanks again! <3


Haha, yes Miranth, I am planning on getting drunk. The legal age is 18 here, but that doesn't really mean much.. clearly. For that one night, I will live freely, and enjoy myself. For the first time a few weeks ago, I got to enjoy my summer. It was like I had the world in my hand that night. Sadly, I consumed alcohol and such to achieve that feeling.

miranth said...

PH - Other activities besides drinking can be enjoyable. I like country bike rides, myself. :) I think you do work too much. Maybe you could ask for some time off - or at least shorter hours?

But I do understand about celebrating your birthday - just be very, very careful... And sixteen shots would knock me out, and I am bigger than you, so you should definitely watch how much you imbibe. Getting sick is NOT fun.

I sound like your mother :) or older sister!

JocelynHolly said...

I enjoy taking long walks and playing my guitar when I have the time.

I agree-- I work too much, but next weekend I get THREE WHOLE days off to go camping! Yaaay!

Well, I made a bet with my friend. I think I can do it! He thinks I can't. My stomach is strong, so I have faith in it!

Don't worry about sounding too motherly or sisterly! Lol. I understand you want me to stay safe and in one piece!

Anonymous said...

who would have guessed that lewis & redrum were an item? looks like blog love really exists. best of luck to both of you.

miranth said...

Yes - its important to stay safe - especially around guys and alcohol. How old is the friend who dared you to drink that much? You could get alcohol poisoning from that amount, if you drank it all - unless you spread it over a period of sixteen hours or longer, depending on your size and metabolism. That would be a way to win the bet - hint, hint - if you drank it over time... unless otherwise specified. :)

People can put stuff in your drink, too - I know a LOT of women that's happened to, with increasing frequency.

Scary!

JocelynHolly said...

Haha, don't worry Miranth! He didn't really dare me to do it, I was the one who suggested doing sixteen, since I'm turning sixteen.

I doubt we'll actually try it though. ^_^

I should probably get to bed. I have a great night ahead of me tonight, so I need to rest up. Goodnight all!<3333

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Hey paper babes -two more for you! And I am really going to bed now! o.k! So no worries getting back to me straight away, we know each others minds!

Miranth -thank you for what you said to our paper jem. She has so many mommies and sissy's here! I love and appreciate that!! -And thank you, and I meant it Mir!

You guys get to bed soon o.k.?? I can't see so good now! ;p

miranth said...

Have fun, Paperheart! I am glad you're getting some time off, too. Its amazing how relaxing nature can be.

Goodnight :)

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Oh shit -and 5:08, very nice thought. Don't know what to say to that!

Really gone now! Night!

miranth said...

I am about to retire too for a bit, Lewis. And there is no need to thank me, I really feel concern for her, but it sounds like she is pretty savvy for her age. But I do want her to be careful, all the same!

Goodnight now, and it was good to 'see' you! Hopefully I'll see you soon again.

:)

JocelynHolly said...

Lewis, read and I'll reply on Thursday (today) when I'm not so tired and not so crazy-talk. Haha!

Thanks Miranth! And Lewis, for looking out for mee!

*hug*
<3

miranth said...

*hug* Sweet dreams.

:)

Anonymous said...

that's one mystery solved, we now know the identity of the love anons

miranth said...

Bye for now, bloggers!


I have to say that I came here to catch up at lunch time and saw people being harassed and in a real world context, no less. It was depressing – and literally altered my mood. I only had a moment because I had to take the children swimming, and to the library, and the fabric store – and I felt so peaceful in those settings. (Even with all of the screaming of the children at the pool!) I don’t like to be here when anyone is being harassed, in any way, and sometimes the taunting is actually scary. I don’t always respond to it, because the cruelty seems to escalate when I do.

In a sort of a similar vein, my niece left a window open on a computer today – and I noticed that she gave the name of a subdivision being built next door where a forest used to be, on a public website – a ‘neighbor’ responded saying that he frequented the area and missed the greenery. Very creepy. We have internet rules, but we had a new discussion about it. I just didn’t realize how often they need to be revisited. I think I may be more conscious of internet danger as a result of the cruelty here. We will do more snooping when it comes to the children’s internet usage. (They are aware we do this.) And I urge any parents to do the same.

People can be pretty fucked up.

Have a great day!



PS – I don’t think it matters who mayo is.

Anonymous said...

that's one mystery solved, we now know the identity of the love anons

Well one couple anyway.

miranth said...

Oops - I realize I should have 'paused' between people being fucked up and have a good day. I really do sound crazy!

Anyway to repeat in a better spot,



Have a great day, everyone!

miranth said...

5:54 - There is more than one?

Anonymous said...

no

Anonymous said...

yes

Anonymous said...

How can you be so sure?

Anonymous said...

Oh well, time will tell which one of us is right.

Anonymous said...

you just want to believe in it so badly

Anonymous said...

And you just want to be all 'Debbie Downer' about it. If you read back, you can clearly see there is more than one pair of 'love anons.'

Smoke said...

Mayo,

Do you bitch slap rap with ya cocaine tongue?

Bwah! Just messin' with ya.

Dude.

You effed with my head this morning. I was like, "Where'd Solly's comment go?"

O_O

Laterz peeps!

***SS***

***CALLING SS****

****WHERE THE EFF ARE YOU???****

Whahahahahaha!!!!

:(

Have a great day everyone!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Sorry, I don't see it

farawaysoclose said...

morning mayo man!!

you good?
hope so.

so did we get the answer to the riddle?
am I so unbelievably thick that i didn't even understand that it was an answer?? cos i kind of am that slow at times! i think you and me would be mentally incompatible mayo! i would seriously annoy the shit out of you with my simpleton brain!!

oh well, have a lovely day mayo!

SS!!!!
if i squint really hard will i be able to see you?

if i sniff really hard will i be able to smell you?

OK i'll stop there i think!

have a good one SS wherever you are and whatever you are doing!

hey family!

have great thursdays blogbelieve!

farawaysoclose said...

hi lewis!
good to see you around.

hi proncess!

hi to anyone arriving soon also!

farawaysoclose said...

sorry.....goodnight miranth also!

gotta go!

lewishasfallensloppydead said...

Hey anons? A moment?

No need to be 'Debbie Downer' or 'Foolishly Faithful' either way. There is an obscene amount of people beautifully commenting their affection here at Mayo's.

Please don't read into things that may not be there. I apologize for my comment to Anon 5:08. I seemed to have stuck my foot in it with that one. I certainly like to read Redrum, but I Never said we were an item. So please, I appreciate the nice words and all, but I would appreciate it more if you would stop. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

you may not have said you were an item, but you did say you loved him

ergoproxy said...

hello

I am tired and frustrated and think who ever designed the online stuff I am meant to use should be held down and smeared with honey, left on an anthill until all over, ants are stuck in that honey, and then set upon by rabid starving pangolins!!!!!!!



Mayo
Why oh why oh why are websites designed by people who probably never actually have to use them?
I want to just go back and start over. But they don't seem to have an option that allows that! I know that many times you don't get to go back and fix your mistakes, but I think if I visited the departments offices, armed with a few jars of honey, bags of ants and a crate of pangolins I could make pretty persuasive argument! I mean teachers aren't perfect - but shhhhhhh don't tell my students that! I totally impressed a couple of boys by being able to explain whether your eyes pop out if you happened to be stuck in the vacuum of space. Haha when developing a rapport with a 13 yo, you do what you gotta do!
So if you ever have an obscure science query - I'm your gal!
Wishing you calm, ease, rest and serenity
much love EP xx

ps. you may want to consider giving us the answer to the riddle,..
..*checks pantry* ..
I appear to have honey, sure I can find ants, you do the math.
*evil grin*



SS

Hello
*echo*
*echo*
*echo*

*leaves book "Woodland Creatures and Their Care"*

sending you love, hope and butterflies
lotsa love EP xx

goodnight blogbelieve see you, briefly, in my morning

♥xx♥

Anonymous said...

hey, lewis no need to feel ashamed of your feelings for him

Anonymous said...

7:22 did she really say that?

ergoproxy said...

hey lewis
sorry you seem to be the new object for anons
sometimes it seems people can't say anything without it being seized upon

hope you're well

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

Hi, how are you doing today? I hope you are well and for some strange reason, I am hoping you get to enjoy a really fantabulous breakfast. Go figure that one out. Hey, it just comes to me and I type it as I hear it in my head. That voice was screaming above all the rest. "Tell Mayo to go have a nice breakfast!" Ummmm, okay.

Oh, me? Yeah, I'm okay. I really can't get used to this having to leave the house 30 fucking minutes earlier though. Fucking traffic. Fucking school zones. But, I did manage to have the best night's sleep...full of a dream about a fucking tornado. Hmmmm...I wonder what that could mean.

Mayo, Thanks for the deletion and I'm sorry again for all the shit that keeps happening here. I wouldn't blame you if you decided to turn off the commenting option completely, for ALL. At least that way, we could still read you, but all the other nonsense could be taken elsewhere. I never want this blog to become more of a distraction or a burden than something helpful and creative for you. Besides, it wouldn't be like we would disappear on you or anything. Most of us have permanent residences in the land of BB. Just something to think about.

I'll probably get jumped for saying that, but oh well, oh well, oh well...

Here's something that bothers me. I can't figure out why people do the things they do some of the time. People, for the most part, can be completely transparent, but if you ever figure out why these fuckers are hellbent on destroying what you've created here, then let me know, because I just don't get it.

Aren't we all supposed to be in this together? Life, I mean, not just Blogtown. People spend all this energy fighting and clawing and sabotaging and tripping and stepping and trashing others just to get to the finish line, the fucking top. Well, what the fuck are they gonna do when they get to "the top"? Will they be happy? Nope. They will then spend what little energy they have left to stay there. They'll look around and want to say "look at me, I'm at the top!", but there will be nobody to share it with. Loneliness will set in, they might even encourage someone from below to climb on up and sit with them, but that's only so they can take from that person. And while they are busy with all that bullshit, they won't see the rifles drawn. Bullseye. Targeted. Shot. The fall. Because if there's one thing you can count on, it's that someone out there is ready to take your place. Be a little more ruthless and cutthroat than you ever thought about being and they will take your sorry ass out. And where do you end back up?

Falling, falling, falling...to the bottom. Just this time, there is nobody there to catch you.

So...
I think I'll keep my place somewhere in the middle.

How bout you?

Yeah, I'm a rambling sort this morning. I must be turning the fucking page on this new chapter of my life.

Have a great Thursday, Mayo.

Thanks again.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. The view is spectacular from here.

Anonymous said...

yep, 7:25. she was posting as an anon on his blog. don't see anything wrong with her liking him. looks like he likes her too.

Anonymous said...

ergoproxy we are not being mean to her.

miranth said...

Sorry - internet crashed on me. I was in the middle of a letter when it did. Had to rewrite when it came back. I think it went out because its a misty morning (the lines are damp) And I have that song stuck in my head. In the misty morning... *sings*


Hi ergo and good luck!

Hi smoke and sdock and FASC! :) Have a great day, guys!

And lewis, its just like I said - and you said! I'll respond to the comment later. I've gotta go... but don't let it bother you - I think that's the point sometimes. Its juvenile.

Nice to 'see' everybody!
Bye all!

miranth said...

Oops sorry, anon, maybe you didn't mean to bother her, but it 'reads' that way, I am afraid.

ergoproxy said...

Being talked about seems to be something Lewis doesn't want.
Whether it's nice or not, I think it's clear that just being a topic of speculation and conversation isn't appreciated.
perhaps saying seized gave you the impression I thought you were being mean, I didn't so sorry if that's how it appeared, I just meant it gets seen and then talked about and speculated upon.
So it would be nice if you respected Lewis's wishes.

Anonymous said...

Miranth they are the ones showing their love in front of everyone, reminds me a bit of gee & Lynz
hey, that's cool!

Anonymous said...

Wow.

You know, if my head wasn't screwed on correctly, or maybe not so correctly. Maybe it's like that bottle cap you can't ever get on, you fumble with the top, and it always goes back on sideways.

Anyway, if my head wasn't in an okay spot right now, shit might have very well just gotten interesting.

Now it's more of an "I believe in you, I hope you see your advancements" vs. "Please stop talking, because you're making my situation worse."

No one will ever understand. I don't even understand, and looking back, I didn't think it could happen to me. Looking back, it's scary to see what my thought process was. Fractured, splayed, non-sequential.

All of my thoughts aided or discouraged by words and symbolism and my truth. Our truth.

No one will ever know how frightening it was, to be caught in between not wanting to wake up and not wanting to leave. And it you were only stuck because you weren't sure if there would be music.

And they understood that when no one else did.

And now I'm okay because of it. It took a long time, and sometimes I falter. Sometimes that jagged thinking comes back, and sometimes I dwell too much, but things are in the right spot now, I think, for everyone involved.

It's kind of like the feeling you get when you do laundry and you find matches to every sock on one go around.

*high fives*

I think we'll be just fine.

I've never actually seen these words in a tangible form, they were only really old thoughts, thoughts no one knew but me, so this is kind of weird and difficult. I guess it's my hope that if and when any of you have bad days or bad weeks or months, you find something that can make it better, because there are things out there that can make your heart and mind feel okay again. I promise. :)


See you guys later! Bye, Mayo and SS and BlogBelieve!

Anonymous said...

ergoproxy, if you don't want to be talked about, you don't throw it in people's face so they can talk about it.

Anonymous said...

I just want to add that I'm really proud of myself. I really am, and I hope I can be that way several times over. :)


Have a great day, everyone!

Anonymous said...

Mayo didn't do any cleaning. All the stalker posts are still there.

Anonymous said...

we might have our first blog wedding

miranth said...

Anon,

If she were a love anon, she wouldn't deserve to be harassed. I have no problem with their poetry and whatnot.

And she said she wasn't one of the love anons, in any case.

Your conjecture at this point is insulting.



I must go to work - "hark, I hear young children giggling" - usually not a good sign...

:D

Bye

Anonymous said...

Mayo didn't do any cleaning. All the stalker posts are still there.

Anonymous said...

Mayo didn't do any cleaning. All the stalker posts are still there.

Anonymous said...

Mayo didn't do any cleaning. All the stalker posts are still there.

Anonymous said...

Mayo didn't do any cleaning. All the stalker posts are still there.

Anonymous said...

Miranth you talk like you know everything, well you DON'T. and if you are as smart as you make out you know people tell white lies. even if she doesn't post the poetry she replies like it's for her so she knows it is. you always seem to make guesses about mayo, maybe YOU are insulting him.

Anonymous said...

Mayo didn't do any cleaning. All the stalker posts are still there.

Anonymous said...

Look on the first page douche!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

have you got the hiccups anon?

Anonymous said...

Mayo is not GW. We all know that. But then why do the regs keep posting on some strangers blog??? They keep saying they know it's not him but still they stay. Isn't THIS stalking too? Not unless the regs are the ones who made this blog. It boggles the mind how pathetic you people really are. Diluted Silly Fangirls....this is an Epic Fail.

Anonymous said...

Hopefully with school starting this anon bullshit will slow down,if it doesn't then we know its probably an adult ...which is sad, because they are acting very childish.

Anonymous said...

It's because they are friends and like to talk to each other...why are you here? To cause trouble?

Anonymous said...

Look on the first page douche!!!!!!

Keep the dream alive until the very end, huh. Many people might erase a post. Mayo too. But this is not GW. Give up the fantasy, silly schoolgirl.

Anonymous said...

Than why don't you post to each other on one of your blogs. Ya, I thought so. You still think this is GW. Sad, very sad. And I thought at one time you people were smart. My bad!

Anonymous said...

8:32 give it up, I'm a regular anon, have no blogger account but I like to speak to the girls here. And I have never spoken to Mayo, don't want to, and can't even stand GW, so go figure.

Anonymous said...

you again

Anonymous said...

Hopefully with school starting this anon bullshit will slow down,if it doesn't then we know its probably an adult ...which is sad, because they are acting very childish.

Kinda like when immature women mysteriously find a blog, pretend to think it belongs to a famous rock star, and then post nonsense on it 24/7. Yes, that's very adult-like.

Anonymous said...

yep, just like you 8:39

Anonymous said...

cause famous rockstars are the most important people in the world. Can you see our lips, we're all dying to kiss his ass.

Anonymous said...

Wow 8:40, I'm going to have write down that witty response and save it for later. That was inspiring.

Anonymous said...

you just do that

Anonymous said...

8:47, I am tired of playing the whole "I'm rubber, you're glue" thing. Why don't you run along and go play in traffic or something. Your child-like posts are clogging the blog. This place needs to be flushed.

Anonymous said...

*yawns*

Anonymous said...

don't start what you cannot finish

Anonymous said...

Oh I'm not finished.....

Anonymous said...

we will see ...

Anonymous said...

9:01, FAIL!!!

Anonymous said...

ciao

Anonymous said...

Me! :)

Anonymous said...

:)

Anonymous said...

I wanna kiss rawkstar ass

Anonymous said...

Shelby Dockery
Clerk / Delinquent Mobile Home and Property Tax Specialist
Employed with Coffee County Tax Office since April 1999


Anonymous said...

Jules Argenti


Kapunua said...
Hi guys.

So here's what happened at work today.



Remember I mentioned these racist clowns (literally) and how they are clients of ours? They are filthy, smelly, offensive in every way? And the guy clown, "Waldo" of The Waldo Tribune--their other crimes aside, this paper alone shoudl be enough to get them convicted for stupidity--always uses our bathroom, pisses all over the place, doesn't flush and then touches everybody?

Well the last time I dealt with him (before the racist comment--I've made it a point not to be anywhere in the vicinity when they come in,) I helped him set up his bird cage. He went into the bathroom, pissed all over the floor and the walls (the walls, wtf?!) then came out and said to me, "I need to shake your hand." Then he wiped his hands all over me.

In the meantime, the two of them also sent a dirty greeting card to Dr. Dan, signed from their bird. O_o

So today they came in and one of the girls there had the misfortune of having to help them set up their cage. Wald, (their last name is actually Wald,) on his way out of the bathroom, did the same "let me shake your hand" thing to her, and wiped his hands all over her. Then when she turned around, he groped her.

She was totally humiliated, she didn't know how to react and she ran out of the room. She didn't want to make a report or call the police because, she said, "I don't want it to go that far."

Anyway, by now our boss knows about this. The question is, how is he going to handle it?

Looking back, the whole bathroom thing seems a little more sinister than it used to. This is some kind of perversion he has involving power. "I'm going to touch myself, not wash my hands, wipe them all over you because I can, and then you bitches are going to clean up the mess I made."

And this guy is a clown. He works with children.

WTF can we do?

May 1, 2008 7:41 PM




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Racism and the Waldo Tribune
Mar. 19th, 2007 at 10:14 PM

I was talking to my Mom today and she had this story to tell me:

Mom took Gran to get her eyeglasses today in Riverhead. While she was there, some lady came in handing out the Waldo Tribune. (http://www.waldotribune.com For some reason I am not able to hyperlink to this page.) The Waldo Tribune is a kid’s magazine made up by two clowns who push their paper on everyone. The Waldo Tribune is pretty much everywhere you look on Eastern Long Island. It’s a crap paper, actually, not even funny for kids. In fact most kids that I know hate the stupid thing. So anyway, the way she described the woman made me think it was Tulip ... Uhhh, Mrs. Wald. They are both clowns, you see. And I know this because A) I’ve seen both these, uhh, unsavory folks around town, and because after the incident (which I will describe as my Ma told it to me,) the eye doctor said, “that’s the woman who dates the editor of the paper.” Well, Mr. and Mrs. Wald (that’s their real name) are both the editors, from what I had gathered, but whatever. Details.

Anyway, so there were a few folks in the waiting room there, and one of them was, as my Ma described him, “a beautiful looking young Hispanic boy, around 15 or 16.” Tulip comes in shoving her paper at everyone. She shoves two of them at someone there and the person tells her, “One’s fine, thanks,” but Tulip insists on giving two anyway. (The guy clown, Waldo, has done that to me before, too. One time he gave me seven of his stupid papers. I don’t even have kids.) Then she turned to the Hispanic boy and tried to hand him one. He said, “No, thank you.” She turned away to leave, then on her way out she turned back and snapped at him, “You should learn English.” Then she bailed.

My Ma, goddess love her, got up to follow this clown outside, thinking--again in her words--”Who does this slut think she is?!” The eye doctor and receptionist stopped her, saying, “Let it go; the woman is just ignorant, there’s nothing you can do about it.” The Hispanic boy was all embarrassed, of course. Eventually he got his glasses and left. And then the rest of the people in the reception area spent the next few minutes talking about racism and ignorance. The receptionist said something to the effect of, “I mean really, we’re all immigrants,” to which the doctor replied, “No, not all.” And my Ma clarified, “Native Americans aren’t immigrants.” And so on.

Anyway, so my Ma told this to my Da and now they’re both thinking of writing a letter to some bigger newspaper, or at least an email to these clowns or something. If they don’t, then I might. But anyway I just wanted to document this on my blog so I don’t forget it. My Mom said to me, “I wish you’d been there. You probably would have chased her into the parking lot. I shouldn’t have let the eye doctor stop me. I wish I’d gone after her!” I’m saying, Dude, you still can. Just not in the parking lot. ;)

That’s the Waldo Tribune, local folks. Keep it in mind if you see those papers around. And I’m emailing messages to everyone I know who’s local with a link to this entry, too. So pass it on!


Mood: angry
Tags:rant, stupid people

August 13, 2008 11:30 AM

Anonymous said...

Rawkstar ass...yum

Anonymous said...

Oh dear, it's quiet in here. Hey, I rhymed. Are you impressed Mayo? Me's gots skills.

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