Relative Aperture
A smashed glass cracked
in my last careless act
catching sight off guard.
Points sparkle a dappled dance
across the hardwood floor
spreading as the day grows
and peaking at midday
then rising full in the sky
for the time I hide away.
Until evening’s effulgence
slips through severed slats
catching sight by chance
announcing a worthy time
while bringing rust to rhyme.
From lyric baring branches
pick the last pack of matches
and set alight this balefire
for grieving my darkest desire.
(As we depart, we arrive.)
p.s. thoughtfully holding the line.
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I like it up here! :D
Sorry BC! I'll let you be on top tomorrow night ;)
Lol! ;)
WENDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Hiya Elena
Bleeding Chaos said...
For the first time in a while, I had an anon on my blog, who I was just talking to, not to mention another one pinched my ass earlier.
It has been an odd night. I wonder if there's a full moon tonight.
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You were getting a little mystery love tonight, were you? HOORAY!!!
The next full moon will be April 20th! It shall be the PINK MOON!
ELENAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!
*pounce tackle hug smooch*
It feels like forever since I've 'seen' you!
How was your comic adventure? I bet you had a wonderful time. Did I read something about pictures?
*hugs and smooches for BC too*
Where did J go? Did she run out for donuts ??? ;)
You were getting a little mystery love tonight, were you? HOORAY!!!
Ha ha, yeah I think so. Ergo said they were probably trying to make Triston and Siobhan jealous ^_^
Hot damn, I am loving this Apocalypica song with Lacuna Coil :)
I love ALL Apocalyptica songs, BC!
I'm so excited about seeing them next month!
*does another happy dance about that*
And....I get to see Type O Negative, next month, too!!!!!
*does yet another happy dance*
*big cheesy grin*
Hey, what happened with Angel and her anon?
WENDY! ELENA! BC! *hugs and kisses for all*
I didn't want to intrude, you know? So I did my bedtime stuff and when I came back, they were gone. Hmm...mysterious...
J
Anonymous said...
angel...just this once, can I hold you tightly and feel your heart beat with mine.
I can see a solitary star winking at me, and I really feel you tonight.
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Awwww......that is so incredibly sweet and beautiful!
My heart goes out to Angel and her love.
:(
Good to see you all. I've missed you guys.
Tonight is a strange night for me. Happy one minute, sad the next. I hate when this happens. Crap I just want to tell myself to pick an emotion and stick with it.
Sugarplum, have you listened to SOS? That's the song I'm talking about. I am absolutely in love with that song :)
Hiya J *hugs and squeezes*
J !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*big ol' hug and kiss*
How are you tonight? I thought I had missed you!
How's L feeling? I read where she was in a lot of pain today :(
pssst.....did you get the donuts?
I'm sure you could lure Triston out with them! Especially since he now GETS IT, LOL!!!
Elena, honey, what's wrong? Did something happen? Can we help?
J
We missed you too Elena. Are you okay?
Oooh Wendy, I don't think I WANT to lure Triston out with ANYthing, let alone donuts! (No offense, TA, dude, but you're, well, DEAD.)
L's feeling a little better, but not anywhere near as good as she could.
J
Elena said...
Good to see you all. I've missed you guys.
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We missed you too, Elena!
*hug*
I wish I could make the sad minutes go away.....
Anything you would like to talk about?
Oooh Wendy, I don't think I WANT to lure Triston out with ANYthing, let alone donuts! (No offense, TA, dude, but you're, well, DEAD.)
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I certainly would. With my...................Assets ^_^
Original Punks said...
L's feeling a little better, but not anywhere near as good as she could.
J
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Give my love to L, J and tell her I hope she feels much better, very soon!
How are you feeling these days?
Nothing happened. It's hard to explain how I feel. I guess if I had to choose a word it would be insignificant.
J, I hope L gets better soon. And you too *hugs*
Bleeding Chaos said...
original punks J said....
Oooh Wendy, I don't think I WANT to lure Triston out with ANYthing, let alone donuts! (No offense, TA, dude, but you're, well, DEAD.)
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I certainly would. With my...................Assets ^_^
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Hehe! Toss those DONUTS to BC, J!!!
She's in a bait and lure mood tonight!
;)
Elena said...
Nothing happened. It's hard to explain how I feel. I guess if I had to choose a word it would be insignificant.
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Elena: you are very SIGNIFICANT, to us and I'm sure to many others!
She's in a bait and lure mood tonight!
;)
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Yes I am ;)
BC, if you're baiting TA, you can HAVE the donuts, girl! :D I don't think he'll complain...
Wendy, I shall pass on your well-wishes to L. I'm not great, my sinuses are trying to start something, but with any luck I'll avoid a "snot-fu"! (I know, bad joke.)
Elena, insignificant? How?
J
"Snot-fu" = YUK!!!
*passes the puffs to J*
I was just catching up on some of what I missed today...
Waves to: Katherine D, Martha, Carrie, Paperheart, Amy and anyone I missed!
Carrie: When will get to read Entropy's "Tales from the Road"?
Tell her I'm looking forward to reading about her adventures!
Start shaking those donuts, BC!
He might COME out, if you do...
;)
Ha ha J. Snot-fu? Yuck! Get better soon!
*places trail of Krispy Kreme donuts, but having a hard time deciding whether to eat one for herself*
Maybe if BC squeezes the donuts so the creamy filling comes out all over her hands, Wendy.
J smiling sweetly in TA's direction
The good thing about BlogBelieve Krispy Kremes is that if you eat one, another one magically appears in its place. So eat away, BC!
J
Okay, I was annoying that above mentioned alpha male with this one:
Wedding Bell Blues
and now the darn song is stuck in my head!
HELP !!!!
Wendy, I've been singing that song you left for Angel the other night, "In My Heaven". I really liked that! What was the name of that band again?
J
Original Punks said...
Maybe if BC squeezes the donuts so the creamy filling comes out all over her hands, Wendy.
J smiling sweetly in TA's direction
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*Wendy wiggling eyebrows at Triston*
Did you see that, Triston?
Donuts
Squeezes (gently, of course)
Creamy Filling
*wiggles eyebrows at Triston*
J: That's NEGATIVE !!!!
Aren't they wonderful?
That will get the wedding bell blues out of my head.
Thank goodness his wedding is in two weeks so I can stop hearing all these wedding songs, LOL!
IN MY HEAVEN
In My Heaven
Negative
Lyrics:
Dreams faded
I'm frightened
Will I ever find the cure?
Mistaken, I'm waiting
When I finally hit the floor
I'm hurt and so wounded
It's gonna tear my soul apart
I'm lost in my heaven
I finally found my way to escape
Love's faded
I'm haunted
Will I finally find the cure?
Mistaken
I'm waiting
Just for you
I'm hurt and so wounded
It's gonna tear my soul apart
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/Aipk ]
I'm lost in my heaven
I finally found my way
I'm hurt and so wounded
It's gonna tear my soul apart
I'm lost in my heaven
I finally found my way to escape
My way to escape (my
way to escape)
My way to escape
I'm hurt and so wounded
It's gonna tear my soul apart
I'm lost in my heaven
I finally found my way
I'm hurt and so wounded
It's gonna tear my soul apart
I'm lost in my heaven
I finally found my way to escape
Found my way to escape
I'm lost in my heaven
My heaven
Maybe if BC squeezes the donuts so the creamy filling comes out all over her hands, Wendy.
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*snickers, then takes J's advice by squeezing the white, gooey filling out of the donuts, which are now creaming her hands with white, hot, sticky goodness*
That totally sounds wrong lol
I also LOVE this one:
Negative "The Moment Of Our Love"
The Moment Of Our Love
Negative
I've tried to
kill the pain
but it keeps me
in this circle
It's hard to get away
And I feel you again
You're with me
Love is a word
you gave it a name
Love is right now
So don't close your heart
I've been waiting
all my life for this
Moment of our Love
with you
I've tried to
feel the pain
But it keeps me
in this Circle
I don't wanna get away
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/Aiua ]
'cos you're here with me
I feel you
Love is the word
you gave it a name
Love is right now
So don't close you heart
I've been waiting
all my life for this
Moment of our Love
with you
with you
Love is right now..
right now
Our Love is right now
So don't close your heart
I've been waiting
all my Life for this
Moment of our Love
with you
Just let me Love you
and I learn to Love you
right - I lived Only for
the Moment - For this
Moment of our Love
with you
with you
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"Love it the word YOU gave it a NAME"
I love that line!!!!
We may have another "Porn Princess" in the making, BC.
For those who aren't In The Know, Elena is Porn Queen and L and I are the Porn Princesses.
And now BC is trying out for that position as well...;)
Oh, and thanks for the lyrics, Wendy! I really liked their sound. Have to maybe buy a CD.
J
Bleeding Chaos said...
*snickers, then takes J's advice by squeezing the white, gooey filling out of the donuts, which are now creaming her hands with white, hot, sticky goodness*
That totally sounds wrong lol
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BC: You are being a VERY BAD GIRL tonight!
Perhaps someone should come and spank you (or the other way around)!!!!
;) and ;p
Elena: Where did you run off to???
Hey, where do I "come in" in this land o porn???
Shucks! I never get to have ANY FUN! *pouts*
;)
dang typo fairy!
That LINE is, of course:
Love IS the word YOU gave it a NAME
Hate to run off, girls, but I need to sleep, my sinusy eyes are rebelling!
BC, watch out for cream-covered vampires!
Wendy, well, just keep in mind what Sparkle would say: "Baa baaaa babaa baababaa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" (I'm assuming you know what that means!)
Elena, we'll call you in the AM, ok? Take care, honey, we love you.
*hugs*
Night BlogBelieve!
J
And the link doesn't work either!
POOP!
The Moment Of Our Love
*is distracted tonight*
*not saying by what*
*wicked laugh*
;)
Mayo,
Hold on, ok? Things will get better; I can feel it.
Remember, as long as you believe in love, nothing can hurt you. Ever again.
J
We may have another "Porn Princess" in the making, BC.
BC: You are being a VERY BAD GIRL tonight!
Perhaps someone should come and spank you (or the other way around)!!!!
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Well, I am trying ^_^
A spanking you say? I am welcome to receive one anytime ;)
Goodnight J, sweet dreams and you and L get well soon. Love to you guys *hugs*
Cream-covered vampire sounds delicious. I could just lick him in all the right places ;)
Elena, I hope you're alright.
Original Punks said...
Wendy, well, just keep in mind what Sparkle would say: "Baa baaaa babaa baababaa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" (I'm assuming you know what that means!)
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Tell Sparkle: Baaaa Baaa Ba Abaaaa Baaa
She'll get that! ;)
(It means Aunt Wendy ALWAYS keeps that in mind) ;)
Goodnight J! Love to you and J and Sparkle!!!!
Bleeding Chaos said...
Cream-covered vampire sounds delicious. I could just lick him in all the right places ;)
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*gasps*
ELENA: Are you READING what our dear, sweet BC is saying tonight!
The girl gets bitten ONCE and she goes all wild child on us!!!!
I think I like it! ;)
SS baby,
Keep your eyes on it. Follow it. It'll lead you home.
I love you, precious.
J
ELENA: Are you READING what our dear, sweet BC is saying tonight!
The girl gets bitten ONCE and she goes all wild child on us!!!!
I think I like it! ;)
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*Insert big, naughty smile here*
;) ^__^
Goodnight and sweet dreams J !!!!
BC, I think you have gotten into the spirit of "Matin' Season" as Amy called it!!!
haha!
Lol Wendy.
But it's a lot of fun!! ;)
Bleeding Chaos said...
Lol Wendy.
But it's a lot of fun!! ;)
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Indeed it is, BC! It is INDEED!!!!
;)
**sings "I'm hurt and so wounded
It's gonna tear my soul apart
I'm lost in my heaven
I finally found my way"**
Elena: Are you okay, love?
*Places more Krispy Kreme donuts in the trail, then takes one and sucks all of the white, hot, creamy goodness*
*big smile*
For you, BC:
APO featuring Cristina SOS
It really is beautiful, isn't it!
:D
and lyrics, of course:
S.O.S. (Anything But Love)
Apocalyptica
[feat. Cristina Scabbia & Mats Leven]
Bound to your side and trapped in silence
Just a possession
Is it sex or only violence
That feeds your obsession
You send me to a broken state
Where I can take the pain
Just long enough
That I am numb
That I just disappear
So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
Tell me I asked for it
Tell me I'll never forget
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love
Does it feel good tonight
Hurt me with nothing
Some sort of sick satisfaction
You Get from mimd fucking
Oh stripped down to my naked core
The darkest corners of my mind are yours
That's where you live
That's where you breathe
So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
Dare me to leave you
Tell me I'd never forget
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love
Without any faith
Without any light
Can dare me to live
Can dare me to lie
Inside I am dead
So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
I'll be the victim
You'll be the voice in my head
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Aww thank you Sugarplum. As soon as I saw that video on Myspace, I immediately got hooked to the song and I knew I had to download it right away.
I think I listened to it about 12 times today :)
Bleeding Chaos said...
*Places more Krispy Kreme donuts in the trail, then takes one and sucks all of the white, hot, creamy goodness*
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*gasps AGAIN*
BC! I am SHOCKED!!! Just SHOCKED!
*big wink*
I must run now, sweetcheeks. I still have tons of work to do before my head even comes close to touching that pillow....
Goodnight Mayo, SS, BC, Elena, watchers, lurkers.....blogbelieve!
Sweet dreams to one and all :)
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
MissT: You are correct about that PIZZA! You may think you've had the best pizza ever; but, a much better one can come along at any time. One SO GOOD, that you truly never seek out another piece of pizza again (well, at least not one with the same toppings) ....... ;)
Elena: e-mail me, love! Please!
BC: That is a very 'hookable' song
;)
I adore those lyrics!
Goodnight again!
*big hug and kiss*
*Has another naughty smile on her face* Hehe
Goodnight and sweet dreams sugarplum *squeeze*
MissT: You are correct about that PIZZA! You may think you've had the best pizza ever; but, a much better one can come along at any time. One SO GOOD, that you truly never seek out another piece of pizza again (well, at least not one with the same toppings) ....... ;)
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One day I will find and taste such exquisite and delicious pizza :)
Mayo
So be honest – Did you miss me? No, on second thought don’t be honest. Pretty sure I know the answer and I really don’t want to hear it. Well it doesn’t matter. I missed this place and I missed talking to you. I’m thinking that makes me sound quite pathetic. Fuck, so what if it does? I may be pathetic but at least I’m honest. I’ve given up trying to hide my feelings. The feelings are mine and good or bad there is no sense keeping them hidden. Yeah, I’m in one of those moods again. Not exactly bad but definitely not “I’m gonna break into song” moods either. I think tonight I’m just questioning myself about a lot of things. Problem with doing this is that I’m really not sure I want to know the answers. So is it better just to ignore the questions? No, I’ve done that for years and the results weren’t good. One can only go through life so long pretending. Yeah, all the worlds a stage and to be honest I can be a good actress. But acting your way through life leaves you feeling hollow. It is hollow and false. I don’t want to be that way. So I question the choices I’ve made in the past and the choices I make now. Too bad that I don’t like the answers but still I face them, I make myself face them. Did any of what I just wrote make sense? Ah, another question. Not for you but for me.
Okay, so I’ll just put that whole question and answer stuff aside for the moment. Just for a moment. My emotions are such a roller coaster tonight. I want so desperately to be happy. Do you ever feel like that? Yeah, this question really is for you. Do you ever know that things are wrong but still you just want to be happy? Can we make ourselves be happy? I’m not sure but I’m trying. Maybe the key is just to think happy thoughts. I think about KU winning the championship. I’ll think about the memories I have from the comic convention. Yeah, happy thoughts. I’m gonna fucking force myself to be happy. Yeah, I’ve got happiness just oozing out of me. Believe that? Probably no more than I do. Still I gotta try. It would be too easy to slip into the darkness. I can feel it calling to me tonight and I will not surrender. I know that if I do its hold will tighten around me until I can’t breathe. Been there, done that.
Mayo, don’t let the darkness ever claim you. Okay, so now I’ve just made it sound like I assume you are fucked up like me. Lord, I hope that’s not the case. Still when I read some of your words and listen to them with my heart I think maybe you do understand. Never give in. Stay in the light and think happy thoughts until they vanquish the darkness.
Night Mayo
Elena (fighting the darkness, struggling to find the light)
Goodnight Elena, I hope you're okay.
Hello. This post is likeable, and your blog is very interesting, congratulations :-). I will add in my blogroll =). If possible gives a last there on my blog, it is about the TV de Plasma, I hope you enjoy. The address is http://tv-de-plasma.blogspot.com. A hug.
Wow, a spam comment. I had one of those once.
Morning Mayo,
The Plasma TV made me smile! Not that I was unhappy beforehand - it's one of those otherwise unremarkable days when I wake up with a warm and fuzzy feeling of contentment. I wish you all similar and offer greetings to those arriving soon!
Love and a great big breath-constricting hug,
Kass xx
I see the young ladies have been VERY naughty tonight...sorry I missed it! Never Gonna Stop Promise ;) Take me to the home kick boots.....A little Dungeon Music.
"I want this song to go out to my wife who I love with all my fucking heart"
and
" I miss you already"
Gerard - My way is home through you - Bamboozle
To all you haters who say he is divorcing XD
Good a.m./p.m. Mayo, SS, Kass, Triston, Anonymous, the usual morning crew: FASC, Possum, Miranth (if her computer is fixed) and lately RW, watchers, lurkers, beauties and beasts of blogbelieve!
I hope everyone is well and feeling the same warmth and fuzzy-ness Kass is!
Mayo: Congratulations! You're getting SPAM comments now. I suppose this means YOU HAVE ARRIVED!!!
*blows party horn in Mayo's honor*
Kass: I'm glad to hear you're feeling warm and fuzzy! I think it's a feeling induced by "matin' season" aka: Spring Fever ;)
*credit to Amy for that 'matin season' description of Spring*
Triston: Our BC was in the mood for some lovin' - touchin' - squeezin' last night. You missed it! We can hope she's still feeling it later tonight ;)
Possum: Was that you grunting in my back yard AGAIN last night???
Hmmm.....
*blows a kiss to Possum because I haven't done so in awhile*
To ponder today:
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Vasta alkaja vaikka pieni voi oppia hyvinkin tekeen.
From small beginnings could come great things.
OR
Ella Wheeler Wilcox:
The truest greatness lies in being kind, the truest wisdom in a happy mind.
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*was indecisive AGAIN*
Have a happy day, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
More DUNGEON music ;)
Your Sweet 666
*was torn between Danzig, Type O Negative and HIM*
*supposes the choice I made is NOT a big surprise to anyone*
:D
good morning mayo!! hope your tuesday is full of fun things!!
Mayo: Congratulations! You're getting SPAM comments now. I suppose this means YOU HAVE ARRIVED!!!
*blows party horn in Mayo's honor*
haha! that made me laugh wendy!!
hi there SS! hope you have a wonderful day!!
morning family!!
lovely sunny day again in england!! and guess what my s//c and leathermouth t shirts arrived today so how fucking exciting is that??!!!!!
very!! but which one to wear today??? such a tricky decision......i went with the leathermouth one, but i might change later on!! it's the little things that keep me going!!
morning kass, glad you are all warm and fuzzy!
morning wendy!!
hello mr vampire!
and hello to anyone soon arriving....miranth? PP, ergo, RW, solly, princess, K, fim....the list goes on!!
have lovely days guys!!
hey all
Mayo hope you had a great day, i was as usual just hanging about, though I had an interesting filing experience with the stupid rippy off holed edge things on invoices, But apart from that....:)
wishing no frustration, no difficulty, no despair and no disasters
to you and yours much love
EP xx
SS
how are you? Hope you're well adn working your way through life with gusto!
Sending you and those you love elation, fun and fellowship.
lotsa love
EPxx
goodnight all, BC Wendy Triston (you were late tonight) and morning to kas fasc and PP
and anon if Gerard is happily married then I hope he stays that way the rest of his life!
goodnight!
When I surfed over to Mayo's just now I read his newest post title as "Sharpie Message".
I shouldn't be alowed to blog this early in the morning.
He should just do concerts for his wife. I mean, really, why even leave their home? He's obviously got everything he needs right there. He's sick of , performing for the fans and I'm sick of listening to him.
Here's a novelty, G-Way: live up to your own words and actually keep your private live private.
Hi Anon, 616, FASC & Ergo!
Fuzziness slightly faded by stupid £12 billion government computer system being particularly obstructive today, then renewed by means of a latte and small bag of jelly babies. Why is biting the heads off still so satisfying?!
And Anon, we're all for true love here - I don't recall any of us "hating" or saying he was divorcing. Except Alie, and we've since established that she is, in fact, insane...
Kass xx
angel said...
At this moment, I want nothing more
Than to run away with you, my love
No one but us, with nothing but us,
The clothes on our backs,
And our love for each other.
I want to go somewhere where no one knows who we are,
Where we come from, why we are there.
I do not want to spare a thought for
Family or friends or money or jobs or appointments or responsibilities.
I want to hide away with you
Forever
And be nobody, no one
Except
Your angel
Safe in your arms
Forever
Is this for Lyn Z?
Mayo,
How did your Monday go? Are you thinking Tuesday is going to be even better? Are you feeling good and smiling? I hope so. Me? I'm not in the best of moods. Why? Myself is tired of me right now. We're not the best of friends. She's way tired of hearing my voice. She says it's the same song over and over. I tell her it's my favorite song and I never ever get tired of it. She says we need a new one. I tell her that I don't do change very well. She says that I'm just chicken shit. I tell her that's not true. I just don't have time to deal with this right now. She says all we got is time. Too much fucking time to think. Too many questions and not enough answers.
Maybe I should turn up the music and drown her out today....
Feel me?
Mayo, I'm wondering....if the idea of my hopes and dreams coming true is enough...just the thought...sometimes I think that's enough to keep me satisfied and going. Not really trying...just settling and believing that if I ever made the effort I could make it happen. Problem is.....part of me doesn't believe.
Hope you have a wonderful day, Mayo. Get along, move along, and sing along with yourself today. Otherwise, it's going to be a long, really loud day in your head.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. She's shaking her head.
Ummm, if I was his wife, he best be missing me...
Just sayin'. O_o
Poor GWay, he's such a hopeles romantic.
Alright peeps, play nice today.
I'll see you all after 5:00!
SS,
You know what? We miss you! I bet you already knew that. Have a great Tuesday! ^_~
Toodles!
XOXO,
S&V20/Princess/Smok Star/Attention Whore/Da Hoe dat slept wit da Rake
Hey, I'm trying to keep up with the unicorn!
sharpie memories......
Lyn Z - run away with me
Gerard - anytime you want
Hi RW, Anon, Sdock, S&V & Babs!
Technically isn't it "Barbra", though? Who'da thought a simple stationery item could be so crudely abused...
Is it fair
that I have to face today without you?
Is it fair
that we have so much space between us?
Is it fair
to play tricks on my mind?
Is it fair
to fool my heart?
Is it fair
to others that I think of no one but you?
Is it fair
to share my dreams with only you?
Is it fair
to keep wishing you with me?
Is it fair
to push the world away and pretend?
Is it fair
to cheat myself?
Yeah, I know. Life is not fair. Well, fuck it then....I don't want to play fair!!
Before you ask, it doesn't really matter now, does it?
for my love, my heart
i do feel you
this is not for lyn z or any anonymous above
Of Pearls and Stars
by Heinrich Heine
The pearly treasures of the sea,
The lights that spatter heaven above,
More precious than these wonders are
My heart-of-hearts filled with your love.
The ocean's power, the heavenly sights
Cannot outweigh a love filled heart.
And sparkling stars or glowing pearls
Pale as love flashes, beams and darts.
So, little, youthful maiden come
Into my ample, feverish heart
For heaven and earth and sea and sky
Do melt as love hath melt my heart.
For once, be honest with yourself...I was never that important.
Ignore me if I'm being particularly slow and stupid (I don't really read all the comments any more so this may have been pointed out before) but does anyone know why Mayo's deleted 6 of his posts from 2007?
There were 52 before. The first 3 - "Lies", "Copycat" & "50-50 split" are definitely missing!
anon before,
angel has stated that she is a she and posts for her love.
it's nothing to do with LynZ, not everyone is obsessed with her and Gerards relationship
off to bed, goodnight!
really kass?
curious, but too late for me to worry. I'll read up on the verdict tomorrow!
see ya
I spend time with you after I post, and then I return when I am able to give you my full attention.
Why do you lie, liar?
`Wow Kass, good catch on the deleted entries. The Sept. 9th entry "Filled to the point of bursting..." is missing in between the entries for the 8th and 11th so it must be on purpose. Why delete some and leave others?
Mayo has chastized others in the past for deleting their words so this seems odd to me.
I wonder if Mayo threw those posts into the balefire.
Anon 9:04
LOL i can do poetry tooo! XD
I Love You With All My fucking Heart!
I love you with all my fucking heart
I knew it from the very fucking start
I wish you could be fucking here with me
So you could only fucking see
See how much I fucking love you
And how much this is fucking true
But you are gone way to fucking far
Your up with the fucking sun and the stars
I will try not to fucking cry
So until I see you, this not fucking goodbye!
I miss you already!
LOL@anon 9:25. I love you.
Thanks Anon @ 9.04am, I thought for a second I'd imagined it.
Definitely not GW then, or he'd have deleted September 8, with the comments about his cheating and "itsy bitsy teenie peen"!
I wonder if anyone knows which other 2 are missing?
Kass xx
Ahh! The Texas post is missing. Maybe he is doing some "profile enhancing"
LOL 9:25! Sounds like a GeeZ love poem :D
Missing posts:
Monday Sept. 3, "In reference..."
Tuesday Sept. 4, "Identification Required..."
Wednesday Sept. 5, "Parallel illusions..."
Thursday Sept.6, "Apparently there has been..."
Friday Sept. 7, "It's all smoke and mirrors..."
Sunday Sept. 9, "Filled to the point of bursting..."
Aww, those were the best ones, you better have a darn good reason for your actions Mr Mayonaise!
I am slightly suspicious as to how you can remember the exact post titles 9:04 though, hmmm...
And 9:25 did make me giggle!
Kass xx
oh i'm sad he deleted the Friday Sept. 7, "It's all smoke and mirrors..." one. i liked that!! i picked that as one of my 3 favs.
mayo care to explain??
course you don't owe us any explanation it's your fucking blog!!!
anyway hi guys!
hi Kass!
yeh i liked how he was such a shit in the early ones!!
now i'm wishing i'd copied and pasted them cos i am a stalker like that!!! i just loved reading those early comments too when we didn't know each other! actually that's made me feel nostalgic and sad!!
anon @ 9.25am very good!!
FASC maybe Gerard could read 9:25 to Lyn Z, instead of singing the song - Like a Dead Poet society.
Anonymous said...
Why do you lie, liar?
You just answered your own question.
FASC maybe Gerard could read 9:25 to Lyn Z, instead of singing the song - Like a Dead Poet society.
haha anon!!
Well, you cannot pretend it never happened.
Goodmorning!
Goodmorning!
It's a wonderful, wonderful morning!
Well, at least it isn't Monday morning ^_~
FASC said,
and guess what my s//c and leathermouth t shirts arrived today so how fucking exciting is that??!!!!!
That's great FASC!
Now, block your ears please FASC ^_^
HEY! S//C!
Where has MY order got to? huh? huh? >_<
*contemplates sending S//C a map with a big, helpful, pointy, red arrow nudging NZ*
You can unblock them now ^_^
Kass and anons,
Very interesting about the deletions.
and set alight this balefire
for grieving my darkest desire.
It certainly puts a new light on these lines, and to the possible reason why, if the deletions are comensurate with this post.
They do seem to be the identity confusion related ones.
616,
nope I confess to knowing nothing about the grunting at your home. Perhaps your window was closed and someone vampish tried it, but couldn't get in ^_~
*blows a dark chocolate scented kiss back*
Anon@9:25,
That would have gone down well at FF2007 ^_^
Hi ya Mayo,
You've been setting things on fire haven't you O_o
Heck, it isn't even April Fools anymore.
I hope deleting them helps you get to where you need to be. I suspect the blogs were the ones that caused identity issues, so now what you have left is just you moving on with your life.
It's kind of sad in a way because that's where it started for so many people here. But on the upside, it's just truely unadulterated Mayo.
Hope you're okay.
Hi SS,
So, I had a browse around the MakeAWish site. All those lovely bright young faces...Well, being me of course I went all teary. But then I saw the smiles and read how much every wish granted brought them something positive to enjoy and their dream fulfilled.
That's when I realised it was actually a place of happiness instead.
And now I'm out of words because despite the lovely moments from MAWF I'm still a sook.
See you around.
Hi FASC,
Yes, we want evil b*st*rd Mayo back!! It always cheered me up when I was feeling down to read back through some of the earlier comments when a few of the posters were completely mental. Ah, memories...
Anon @ 10.05,
I was going to point that out but I thought it would be churlish*!
Kass xx
*Plus they might have highlighted my own inability to engage my brain before pressing "publish".
hi there PP!!
Hi Far!
Are you and the anons Sherlock Holmesing?
Whats up with Love man?
Gosh, I haven't visited over there for ages anon.
What is Loveman doing?
Sounds like love man is pissed.
Monday, April 7, 2008
It started with the burgundy
Gerard, you fucked up. I'm giving you time, if you don't wish to take it--this is starting the fuck up again.
Ciao.
Hi PP!
The above^ was so I didn't write the link, which I know Mayo doesn't like having on his blog - 'cos he deleted it off the first post, before he deleted the first post!
Kass xx
Except I pretty much did anyway. Please refer to my comment at 10.16am. D'oh!!
Thanks anon.
Kind of funny how Loveman gets all exciteable once the band is touring the States again.
Lots of video footage to get ideas from I guess ^_^
exciteable? Looks odd. Oh well =)
sorry guys i disappeared!!
Kass you are funny with the link thing!! hey you tried!!
Oh Mayo you. Are like a crazxy person!
Why
Are you
Well I hope you havee thm saved somewhere M)o 'cause they must have meant something to you. When you poste them in the first
Place.
Only plaeseple don't delete my one all rigt? Because then I will have to shank you.
Hi everyone, I am hiding. In a ward.
Hope your tuesay s are going well.deleting your words?
Hi Kass!
*Plus they might have highlighted my own inability to engage my brain before pressing "publish".
lol I know what you mean. I'm glad mine back then were anon ones =)
Hey, is it nearly new job time for you?
Wow I hope you can understand that, heh.
Sorry!
Hey Kass, who do you think love man is? Im only asking because i think you are really smart in picking up on these things. Do you think it is someone who knows him, or maybe a fangirl?
Wow I hope you can understand that, heh.
Sorry!
K, that post was almost as hard to translate as SS's Latin ones.
yes i can understand you kapunua!!
LOL!
have fun!
haha anon!! i was dreadful at SS's latin ones, absofuckinglutely hopeless!!!
i remember one suday morning UK time and i was the only person at mayos with this latin to translate!! i was sweating, dry mouthed, the lot!!!!
Hi Kapunua. Your crackberry really looked like it was on crack for a moment there.
Okay, beddie byes for me unfortunately.
Have a great day everyone.
'Night!
Anon @ 10.54am,
Don't know I'm afraid, although if you're prepared to go back to Mayo's posts from last year it's discussed somewhere between October 10th and 18th. I believe she someone who knows someone who's claiming to be both "Kat" and "dying from cancer", except at no point during their six year relationship did they have a camera pointed in their direction!
It's a revenge thing...
Kass xx
I find it very unsettling that you people keep a catalogue of his posts. I thought we were here to have fun, I didn't know you people are freaks.
Thanks Kass,
bye PP or rather goodnight!!
bye kass! i am out of here also.
not much left of the working day to go!!
bye K on crack!!
bye anons!
bye mayo!
bye SS!
well thats my little list done!
love to all!
I find it very unsettling that you people keep a catalogue of his posts. I thought we were here to have fun, I didn't know you people are freaks.
no anon we are freaks!!
i'm joking btw! sort of???!!
Anon at 11:04,if you think they are freaks, why are you here?
Hi Anon!
I did question how Anon @ 9.04am (if that is your real name, hmmm...Mayo?!) remembers the titles 'cos I sure as heck don't. The only reason I know where the Loveman discussion (vaguely) is, is because I had a brief skim over a few days ago. I may be a freak, but I'm not that much of a freak! Nice to meet you BTW.
PP,
I should soon be free but I have to do an extra coupla weeks to cover people's holidays. Honestly, I'm just too dedicated...
Kass xx
I do have a lot of fun here, but if and when it all ends, I want to have a memory of it.
I myself, like to get my freak on every once in awhile!
*pops head in*
Um, anon, no. No posts kept here.
I just kind of remember the direction those early ones went.
But yes, I'll take freak anyway.
Hmmm. I can't decide if when you say 'freak' fast and often enough do you sound more like a frog or a weird bird?
Okay, night all!
Lol PP!
hey everyone, i'm in portland now!
me and my concert buddies are getting ready to go over to the signing -- eep!
i also just want to say to everyone who read that anon comment posting gerard's words from bamboozle, that it was a great moment -- and the entire fucking concert was amazing -- they were all fabulous and gerard was exuberant -- he was clearly enjoying himself very much on stage.
i thought it was very sweet that he dedicated a song to his wife, and it actually made the song more powerful.
i was there. that's how it was.
You ladies,Have a fucking, freaking,fabulous day!
Thanks 11:21, you too.
funnaay
insanity sunshine said...
Ahh, the plot thickens...
I was wondering when all the ladies would come out of the woodwork.
So not only is he a fucked-up hypocrite, but he's a lying sack of shit, too.
Why I am I SO not surprised?
What goes around comes around. You ladies forget about him and turn to attention to someone who deserves you. Let him play with his new favorite toy when no one else will look at him, let alone fuck him.
September 10, 2007 12:15 PM
Anonymous said...
OMFG!!! Have you all gone crazy??? Most of the posters here are anonymous! What if I say he fucked me too? Would you believe me? I dont want to be rude, but its the internet, everyone can pretend being something! We will never know.
September 10, 2007 1:00 PM
sdock10 said...
This dick seems no different than any other dick. Just seems there were lots of different hands jacking this dick off.
Hope you all brought hand sanitizer. I hear the rash can be quite nasty.
September 10, 2007 1:02 PM
Anonymous said...
I don't even have words for this. This is getting ridiculous and pathetic. And I don't mean on Gerard's end...
September 10, 2007 3:17 PM
Anonymous said...
Who said I ever fucked him? This has been an entirely emotional thing. I love how you all equate this to sex. I'm not a whore. Jesus Christ.
Anon, you have a point. I know many won't believe me, but in the end, it won't matter anyway, will it? I'm not here for 15minutes of fame. I realize I sound insane. I really do. Considering the course of circumstances that have taken place over 2 years, I thought I had gone crazy quite a few times.
Screencap this all you want. Reprise knows about me. Riot Squad knows about me. The other guys know about me. Gerard wouldn't have been able to do all of this if it hadn't been on their watch. Consider that, people. His management cancelled QC for them. They scheduled the HMV signing for them. They just mysteriously booked 3 dates that were close enough to my residence that they knew I would attend. Call me crazy, I don't give a fuck. His career is what gave him all the courage. On his own, he's a total pussy. I'm convinced.
At once point, I was livid enough to consider suing, above all for emotional suffering, but especially for stuff that he's put out there. The comic book. He'll be making money off my influence. That fleur de lys design? The " she loves you"? Notice he never answered that question directly on SURS?
You can all call me crazy, but I think I have a right to be livid. And I guarantee you, there are some guys out there that are in perfect agreement.
I don't care who reads this. I know Gerard's already gotten wind of it, and that's all I care about. He knows who I am, and that's all that matters.
--T
September 10, 2007 3:42 PM
Hi TJ,
I'm glad you had a great time, but if Mikey & Frank & Ray & Bob got to dedicate stuff too I wonder which songs they'd pick? That's not a bitch at GW, I think it's both very sweet and the first time I recall he's said "love", as opposed to "crush", "BFF", etc... so probably a good sign.
I miss Tink's crazy too Anon! I swear if I ever f*** a rockstar I'm taking pictures while they sleep...
Kass xx
Anon at 11:30, are you love man? Maybe what you say is true because we dont know you.
If this is true, can i ask you who you are? Im really sorry that you where treated that way.
Anon @ 11.39am,
I don't think that series of comments has anything to do with Loveman - T is for Tink, and the comment which started that particular convo, back when a lot of people thought Mayo was GW, was thus:
Anonymous said...
"You've wanted to keep me anonymous forever. . . lol. Karma will bite you in the ass. Sound familiar? You know, i can't believe I believed you through all of the bullshit. Master of mixed signals, much? I can't believe that November 28, 2005, you ditched Quebec City to come down to see me. Now that I look back at it, why? And then you had the audacity to be pissed off at ME because I didn't stay after to hang out like you wanted. You continued to act tired, depressed, and pissed off throughout interviews, not saying WHY you were in the state of mind you were. And then the Paramour happened. Funny,how you never let on what ELSE was haunting you? Mikey told you to say something about it, and then suddenly he "left" the band for a while. He's not the one in dire need of medication. Then, later that year, when I was supposed to see you again, the injuries happened, you couldn't make it, yet you lied to me about it again. You had told me that you had broken up with her, that you were free. I was your one and only. Then the Eliza bullshit happened. you told me you were just friends with her and that she was only a stalker who wanted to be seen around you for fame. She kept appearing with you at high-profile events, yet you kept insisting it was platonic. I got increasingly pissed off and started suspecting something. Then I got bogged down with 3 days of no electricity. I had lamented how I felt I was shunned. Suddenly, out of nowhere,you were going to have a signing in Toronto,to appease me. I got there, and there were 600 people in line but you had to let them all in regardless because if you didn't get to see me it defeated the purpose,didn't it? I still couldn't shake the feeling something was off, and then I read in an interview something contrary to what you had told me personally. That you had broken up with her during tracking for FLW. You told me that song was for me. You told others it was about Mikey. And suddenly, it was the impetus for change? BULLSHIT. You had told me that you had split from her LONG before what you told Kerrang. You were stringing me along, and you lied to me. You had the nerve to be mad at me for "dissing" you before, when you had been with her the entire time! oh, and THEN, the supreme Eliza bullshit. February, she suddenly had a mysterious ring. She was suddenly spotted following you EVERYWHERE, and you complained to me that she was stalking you. The rumor mill began that she was engaged. . to you! LOL Whoulda thought? Certainly not the naive, dumbass me. You kept swearing up and down that the ring was for me as a promise for our future, and that because she was a stalker, she had bought her own to match yours. Then Worm got caught saying that you had to spend time with your fiancee, at a concert in March. I knew something was up then, especially when you guys were photographed together on days off. Then, the mysterious, my "old lady" comment. YOU WERE TOGETHER the whole time as well, and you kept saying you did it to " teach her a lesson', and that the only way "to get rid of a stalker" was to "romance her and leave her". You really are a callus, dumb shit who keeps changing his story to save his ass. poor Eliza. I really hope she cuts your hair with garden shears in your sleep. You know what's really funny? you looked miserable with her, because deep down,in that pathological lying heart of yours, you felt BAD for two timing us both. Plus you knew it would never last. You never admitted to her that you never had any intention to marry her. The June 1st " admission" was HILARIOUS, especially after the comment I made the night before to you, and the "butterflies" comment you made earlier that day before the MTV interview. You ended it with Eliza June 20th, because you figured there was no sense in prolonging an engagement that wouldn't lead to a marriage. Fast worward to PR. You, the lying bastard said you'd be single for a while and then BOOM! Lyn-Z enters the picture. At first, you told me you were just friends with similar interests, and that the infamous 'kissing" picture was just a "hug shot taken from an incriminating angle". I am a dumbass for believing that. Never mind that the writing on both of you were in fact, messages to me, that were Gerard/me code. You told me that she was helping you communicate to me while you were on tour. I loved how the percentages corresponded to our ages, and the sales percentage that my company was ranked at that particular week. Also, how "miss you" corresponded to me not being able to make the set on time that day, and how you appeared on Muchmusic that night, kept looking in my direction with ZOID written on your neck. I love how everyone thinks that's a Lyn-Z reference, when that's the name of the artwork you did featuring me as the centerpiece from 1999. I was definitely starting to soften towards you, even after the Lyn-Z unicorn shirt, because I know unicorns are an inside joke between your band and I. But then you marry her!!!! WTF!! Joke or not, even with the official license, that's too far. Have fun with Lyn-Z. She's a good one. You cheat on her, I hope she breaks you in half, because I quit my relationship with you. You are a douche, plain and simple, no matter how much I love you. Funny, how you made a reference to smoke and mirrors. Because that's what you're full of. Bullshit. Your masterful magic is not masterful at all. Stop your dumbass Houdini references, he was able to get himself out of a bind, you are not. Unless you actually plan a future with me, stop putting me and my languages into your comic. Kthxbye.
--Tink"
Bear in mind it's more for your entertainment than your education!
hey kass -- it would be neat if they played a song from one of the other guys, too, but you know what? gerard didn't do anything wrong.
my only (minor) complaint with the set-list is that it didn't include "astro zombies"! my friends and i h
have been playing that like crazy in the car on the road, and we wanted to hear it soooo bad! we were even asking other fans to shout out the title, too! :D
we've got two more chances to hear it live -- tonight and tomorrow, so keep your fingers crossed for us! if they played it, i think the three of us would have spontaneous aneurysms!
i don't know why, but that particular song has just grabbed hold of us this trip -- it's practically our theme song.
seriously though, the only drama surrounding this band right now that i can see is only here on the internet. they were great and i feel so lucky that i get to see them at least three more times!
Toujours, I understand you thinking that the dedication was sweet if you don't know much about Gerard and Lyndsey. But the fact is that Gerard would have married anyone at that point.... As long as she didn't question him too much and didn't do a lot of thinking. He gets crushes and thinks he is in love, but he is a fucked up little boy. His emotions are crazy and unreliable.
Sadly Lyndsey is not going to challenge his coke habit and his drinking and pills (still). That's because she indulges too.
I'm sorry, it's so very very VERY hard to keep this to myself. I know anonymous words carry no weight but I have to get it off my chest somehow. It pains me so very much to watch his downfall. It's not her fault. I don't even know if it's his. Gerard was doing well for a while, he had hs feet on the ground, he was a nice guy and he was getting somewhere with his problems. Not anymore.
I feel sorry for the fans who can see this, but I feel so much worse for the ones who can't.
That other anon is not me. I remember hearing rumors about "Tink" but as far as I know they are unfounded. Gerard is not a saint but as far as I know he didn't cheat on Eliza. It's not like him to cheat, he is too dependent and wouldn't risk it.
If you pray, pray for Gerard and also for Lyndsey. They are not good for each other especially in terms of sobriety.
If he is really moving to LA with her, that's bad news. He won't have his family and long term friends to keep him grounded. He'll have her.. And her bad habits.
Tink kinda sounds, well.... a little INSAIN! Oh yea. Gerard totally sang that song to me, not to his wife! That was a super secret message to me from him.Ha, ha, ha,
Did i spell insain wrong? Do you every spell something an it doesnt look right? Hell, help a girl out! How the f do you spell it!!
Does it have an e on the end? let me try it. insaine? Nope thats not it. BRAINFART!
well, gotta go...EEK
talk to you all later, i hope!
mayo,
i don't know what's going on with the deleted posts... i admit it gives me qualms and i wasn't exactly feeling very grounded today already!
but this is your blog and your writings, and i trust you. i'm not going to worry about it. i am sorry to see some of your words go, but they're your words, after all.
time for me to go. i have something scary to do, and then, if i survive, i get to spend another evening with that band i like. (you know, the one with that crazy chicken-dancing lead singer that cracks me up so much. *biggrin*)
so i'm going to be hanging onto my gods' hands very tightly this afternoon, and keep my roots sunk deep, and hope i manage to stay centered and not act like a complete and utter idiot.
slim chance of that, but hope springs eternal, right?
mayo-sama, forgive me for not being as strong as i ought to be. i am a foolish woman, but i'm always striving to be my best self. i will chase after her forever.
well, time to go, really.
*deep centering breath*
tally-ho!
Hey, i like that name. you can call me Brainfart anon!
No snark intended TJ! I've said from day one that I sincerely hoped they were both genuinely happy, because otherwise I'd be a horrible human being. I had questioned the MCR/MSI tour hook-up for 2 reasons - because I think MSI are too high on shock value and too low on musicianship (except SMU/STV which are great "treadmill music"!) to be spoonfed to the fansheep, and because I despair everytime a potentially strong female role-model in alternative music takes the, ahem, "easy" route to fame. It also gets on my nerves when possessing "hand-clappy-ass-cheeks" is held up as the very zenith of female achievement, but that's more down to the stupidity of some fans rather than the girl herself.
I did think the marriage was a little rushed but my opinion on their personal life (as long as it's not pushed down fans' throats to the detriment of the music) is that I don't think about it too deeply 'cos it doesn't affect me.
Anon,
I can easily believe your comment too - in some of the photos/videos since last Summer he's looked, frankly, miserable as hell; but then there's a moment in one of the NME interviews when he's talking about her and there's a flash of the most genuine, heartbreaking smile I've ever seen.
Who the f*** knows either way?!
Kass xx
TJ, How in the hell do you spell insain?
It's spelled insane, just for the record.
I know how annoying it is to ask a question and never have it answered.
thank you anon, I was starting to go insane!!! yea that looks better.
Hello Brainfart & Anon and "Welcome to Mayo's",etc...
I'm going home for soup and B&J's Baked Alaska.
TJ,
Enjoy the gigs (plural, dammit!); I won't comment about how much I hate you right now!
Mayo,
I'm sure you had your reasons, but it doesn't mean that I'm not going to sulk about it. I only hope it wasn't forced by individuals with nefarious intentions; cynical conspiracy theorist, moi?!
Toodles,
Kass xx
Where is that TINK blog posted??
When did Gerard say hes moving to LA?
I know my words have no weight. I don't know who else to talk to. I am not close enough to any of them to make a difference.
I see the "heartbreaking smile" , he is like a teenager in a crush. You see the same smile on children with puppy love.
When this blog first started I really thought it was Gerard! And I was relieved because there was a bunch of smart women with their eyes open. And if Gerard's friends and family couldn't get through to him, maybe the facy that a smart set of fans saw something was wrong, would make it through to him.
Gerard has reached a level of stubbornness and people close to him have given up so they don't push him away. Or they're just exasperated. Moving away is even worse for him!
And he's got fans who do nothing but enable his self destruction by saying how wonderful his new life is. Having hope and seeing the best is one thing but.... We all hope the best for Gerard but he is in bad shape and no one is hekping him. I thought this blog could be an eye opener for him. But it's not his blog after all and... The fans who used to see the truth don't see it anymore or they gave up on Gerard.
He has now pushed away everyone who saw the problem and only listens to the enablers. Moving away is the biggest example of this.
I know this doesn't mean shit to tom dick or harry but I need to say something because Gerard is again NOT OKAY.
Hi Mayo!
Hi Everyone!
Anonymous said...
When did Gerard say hes moving to LA?
April 8, 2008 1:23 PM
At Bamboozle Left. On stage. Apparently he already lives there.
anon, where did you get the idea that he is moving to la?
what did he say exactly? anyone have a vid??
someone watch this vid and tell me what he says, word for word....please????
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdL7OQlhGNg
I was on BN (yes the source is unreliable) but some started a Gerard in LA thread.
One fan said..
"Well, he did say "Because if you live in LA like I do now...." So I dunno. It's weird. (I was there and I went o.O when he said that which then turned to :D cause he started saying all these things about loving LA and Projekt Revolution and their show at the Forum where some of the best Show's he's played ever.)"
Another fan said....
"So, at Bamboozle Left today, Gerard said he's living in Los Angeles now. Am I just 'out of the loop' or is this a new thing?"
Another fan said....
"I was there too. He actually made reference to living in LA more than once. Didn't sound like he was joking."
And another...
"I was there but I hope it was a lie :(
That place is too fucking weird with a bunch of people who aren't really intrested in your well being. Soooo may things can go wrong :(
I trust Gerard to stay clean, it's the other ppl I don't trust.....
Addiction is a bitch and it's a daily struggle for some.
I wish him the best if it is true, and I'm not that bummed out cause he's only like an hour from me ;D
BE SAFE GERARD!!!!"
someone watch this vid and tell me what he says, word for word....please????
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdL7OQlhGNg
"Because if you live in LA like I do now, you're going to be sitting fucking traffic anyway."
thanks, safe...disappointing. LA is a souless place for souless people
I couldn't agree with you more Anon. I went there in Oct, what a superficial shit heap.
No offence, LAers!
he's just trying to be something hes not and that makes me feel sorry for him.
Especially after he's made a career of encouraging people to be themselves.
but before we start judging him, we have to remember he's just a normal person. being known, making alot of money, etc. doesnt mean hes without flaws.
he will go there. he will try to hobknob. he will get into the party scene because suddenly for the first time in his life, hes now accepted by "the cool kids". he will fall flat and then pick himself up and move on.
I hope he will be able to pick himself up and move on...
I know. Hopefully, he'll be able to pick himself up amd still have people giving a damn about him. I don't mean fans, I mean his family and true friends.
True friends and his family will stick by him.
He never got an opportunity to "party" as a teenager because no one accepted him. Hes getting that chance now and I wont judge him for taking advantage of it.
One of the problems is Gerard is the kind of drug user who thinks that as long as he doesn't do it a lot, he's still sober. As long as he's not "addicted" and doesn't use to survive, he is not "on drugs". He has pushed so many paople away.... The LA move gives me a bad gut feeling. If it was for DH he would have gone to Portland like he originally planned. This is his way of getting away from the people who call him on his problems which run very deep. And then hiding with people who encourage his problems or just don't care. Gerard will tell you those people "accept him for who he is".... When really they are using him.
What if when he falls he doesn't get up?
I don't blame Lindsey. I don't even blame Gerard. But I am not going to say it's all fine when it's not.
Had to get this off my chest. Believe what you want. This isn't Gerard's blog anyway so nothing will make a difference. Enable away.
I hope you're right Anon. But, you can never predict the future. I have to go now but you seem like a really nice, kind person and I hope I see you around here again, okay? Can you give yourself a name go I know that it's you? You don't have to sign up, just click Name/URL when you comment and type in the name field. Sorry if that was patronising. I just won't you to know how to do it so I now who to look for. Take care, Sweetheart.
thanks, safe. you take care as well.
Love ya!
I'm glad you feel better now. Come and vent anytime you want!
I think Gerard Way partied enough, anon!
He's a hypocrite and opportunist. A human being without personality. He only adopts the behavior and mindset of other people.
I think he doesn't even know who he really is.
hi and good afternoon/evening/morning, how´s everyone doing? :)
Anon 2:33
Well, I hope somehow he's listening, if those things are true.
Hello, my sweet Pixie!❤
Hello, my sweet BC!❤
How are you two darlings?
Siobhan, I agree with the last part. He's a self-loather.
Anon 2:33
I'll leave my email if you ever need to talk or vent.
Hi my dear pixie, how are you? *hugs*
Hello my lovely pancake zilla, how are you?
I'm doing good, thank you :)
hiya girls, I´m fine just the weather made me tired today, it´s grey, rainy, stormy.... well typical aprilweather ;)
how are you ?
Siobhan is right, Gerard did his share of partying. He also wasn't as unpopular as he retended to be. That was part of the act. Now it's cool to be cool. So that is his new role. He's not entitled to "party" anymore than anyone else. He is a depressive and an addict. He needs help.
I love this song!!!
Make my back burn, yeah!!!
getting drunk to deal with your feelings and mask your insecurities is not the same as partying with "famous, cool" people.
people seem to hold him up on a pedestal but hes just as vulnerable and insecure as the rest of us.
Pixie, I'm having the same kind of weather here as well. Pancake-zilla, are you hungry yet? You should see my comments from last night. They will make you mad ^_^
Yes, boo-hoo, anon! Poor Gerard. Do you really expect us to pity him?
First, the band was formed by him to make a difference after 9/11. Then it was 'all about the party'. (I think we've all seen that video). Then it was all about 'the message'. To save people's lives (HA-HA!!) and to fuck off homophobes and sexists. And now it's about, er...whatever!
But let's speak the truth here. He only wanted to be famous, rich, admired, adored and get laid. Why can't he be honest about it?
yay then welcome to the club bc ;)
Nah, I'm not hungry, BC!
What did you talk about last night? Pancakes? Was Triston there?
Yay pixie :)
Siobhan-san, you're free to rant about him. I don't care anymore, so spill away.
siobhan, as I am, you are basing your opinion on very little public information. i just happen to be more optimistic and less judgmental.
Pancake-zilla, well, it has something to do with you-know-who ^_^
*enjoys making siobhan jealous hehe*
Well, I saw and read many of Gerard's interviews. He changed his mind about what the band means to him and what their 'message' is every time they released a new album.
Just like Michael Jackson, who appeared with a different face with every different album, Gerard appears with a different message.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!
I knew it, you kinky minx!!!
What has he done?
Are you already lying in his casket?
Slut!!!
he, like the music, has changed and grown. its called LIFE. he was 23 when he started the band. things will change. you should not judge him so harshly, as you wouldnt want to be judged with the same scrutiny, i am sure.
Pixie? Are you still there?
Btw, I saw Angel last night and guess what? Spikey was there. I didn't know that he now belongs to the regular cast! Why didn't you tell me, BC?
yeha!
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!
BOW DOWN, BC!!!
BOW DOWN!!!
Queen of the 666th comment and mistress of the firsties!!!!!
Back, where I belong!!!
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