A secret? Sometimes I can be so full of myself that I am able to pretend that nothing else matters, when I know that it does. “I need to hear it back.” Can you consider what type of person would challenge irrational fear, to face inevitable embarrassment, because of that need? What drives someone to stand as a target, exposed and almost transparent? Fuel.
The question is this…what do I really have to say? I shout off, in part, to bolster my ego. We can safely assume that you are aware of my requiring a little extra fluffing. But most importantly, I self examine past and present. And yes, sometimes I am so ridiculous that I laugh at myself.
(I mean really, am I that much of a _______________ (insert derogatory explicative)? Perhaps, I am. But lately, I have been ending the day with a “yes, I was”. So again, contradiction is my burden. What you do with that knowledge is your own business.)
A truth? We all will die. For some, there is a need to find every little piece of evidence to the contrary. I admit that I have been guilty of this myself. I have been so turned inside out with the need for truth that I challenged every bit of logic I encountered. I do not know exactly what truth is, but I know my perception of it might differ from yours. My truth may be painted in a different hue. Slightly off color, but still my truth just the same. And I will stand by it, fiercely.
The question is this…what do we believe? We gather what information we can and draw our own conclusions. We each have our own experience from which we base our assumptions. As long as I have been alive I have registered every moment and from that registry I claim truth. This is obvious and I am ridiculous, really.
I would like to return to the original idea of secrets. I keep most of mine safe from prying eyes. Embarrassing little fuckers, aren’t they? But, by allowing one, two, three, and now four of the darkest their freedom, I have learned something about truth…how important it is to face our own.
What matters to me is this…I hope you read truth here. And by here, I do not mean exclusively my capricious chatter. From my corner, I attempt exercises in poetic candor. Some of it is written for me, some for you, some for them, some for him, and some for her (in no particular order of importance), but never with expectation. I use the freedom I have here to sort out some of my more dangerous secrets and truths.
I have this last little bit for you to use in order to paint me in your own hue of truth (and it is no secret)…
I am porcelain and black as night. I can be as subtle as a 747 and as fragile as double reinforced steel. But nevertheless, I can be poked all the way through and then the light will shine through me. With that light, I am able to produce a force greater than I deserve.
p.s. that place, it is cold and crowded, rough and smooth, and filled with impossible demands directed by my own hands. It is closer to the bottom than I would ever chance to be. It calls, but doesn’t give warning. It immediately holds secret and truth. It is where the unraveling begins and ends.
For those of you that have recently (or even not so recently) lost a family member or a friend, I am deeply sorry.
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«Oldest ‹Older 1401 – 1600 of 1670 Newer› Newest»"Creepy Anon", you know what's REALLY creepy?! That you are so fixated on the OPS that you are stalking them and anyone they speak to. You seem to have some deep-rooted problem that therapy, medication or perhaps both can fix, if you are lucky.
Find some help. You are sounding more and more unhinged.
Fimble, where did you go? Are you off doing something naughty??
Isn't she always RW.
Fim, there is an LJ community called MCR macros. I used to read it daily and LOL really hard back when I could stand looking at Gerard. There are still some funny ones of the other guys on there. There's also a Used Macros community that's pretty LOLworthy.
Does anyone want to see pics of Boychild's birthday party? He is so lovely! Pics are here if you want to see them. He was wearing his Korean Hanbok which was really beautiful. ^_^
MissT Marvin is great.
As is
DUCK DODGERS of the 24 1/2 Thentury!!!
He looks like a handsome little prince in his Hanbok!
I love that the dog wouldn't eat the rice cake ;)
Aw kapunua he is adorable and the Korean outfit is gorgeous.
He looks like he really enjoyed himself, especially the food on his face!, he is so fortunate to be part of such aloving family
K, the one of him feeding the dog is cute beyond words.
"creepy" anon...the other anon doesnt speak for us...we have deep dislike of punks too...we just dont want to make waves by saying so...thanks for having the courage
hey guys, sorry i went to have a butty. i was hungry. and rw, you was 1 too slow and 2 i would never go and do anythign naughty hehehehe
I totally PWNT the First Aid exam today.
Anyone need medical attention??
-A
and rw, you was 1 too slow and 2 i would never go and do anythign naughty hehehehe
A likely story, missus!
I totally PWNT the First Aid exam today.
Anyone need medical attention??
Fim does!
FIMN! What did you do to yourself now?!?!
-A
amy, i need my mind seeing to. APPARENTLY i have a dirty mnd. can you help me out please
jules, those were beautiful pictures. he is beautiful, your whole family are. SB totally looks like you.
needed more pics of you tho ;)
Oh Amyranth congrats!
If I decide to brave feral cats again I'll give you a call!
Guys, thank you! man, I can't get enough pictures of this kid, he's so much fun.
Fim, you think that SB looks like me? The older boy? That's definitely a first. The girl looks a lot like me, people get us mixed up. I'm flattered. :D
And going on AIM pretty soon too, 'kay?
hahahaha, well shoot me then.
who is the girl i thought sb was the girl. oh well i fucked that up sorry. you know what i mean
Going for a shower (FS thinks I'm whiffy, don't you, FS?), back in a bit...
ohhh smelly. hehehe have a nice time and dont have to muc fun ;)
Well Fimn, I looked and looked and apparently, there's no cure for a dirty mind.
Which is good, my instructor was tall, dark, handsome, and comfortably accented so I spent the whole class well absorbed. ;)
Ergo, call me and invite me to Australia ANYTIME.
Really.
-A
thanks for looking amy, thats it. i must not have a dirty mind. you clarrified that for me.
slash, rw see what amy said. hahahahahaha
Does it bother you all that it is the 6 month anniversary of Gerard and Lynz and Mayo probably won't post because of it. Or if he does it will be to rub it in to everyone who likes him that his wife is a beautiful young women who he loves more then you. Does that hurt you? I'm not being mean I'm really just curious.
ok i will answer.
it doesnt hurt me. i am very happy for them both. they are two like minded adults that have found that someone special. i wish them all the best.
as far as mayo, i dont know if he will post because the comment count. or he may just have nothing to say.
now you? does it bother you?
oh and i will just add to that as well.
i would hope mayo would love his wife more than us. but depends what kind of love you are talking about. there are different types of love that you can have.
Anon, HELL no on all accounts.
-A
I'm honestly more upset about the grammar in that post, tbh. How many women does Gerard have? And I'm not sure if you're talking about Gerard or Mayo, or whatall, here.
Actually, I hope Mayo really loves his wife.
And more than that, I hope he's spending his time tonight with her or someone he loves.
Let's AIM chat, you effing meffers!
gerard better be fucking the brakes off her tonight then lovely teenie that didnt want to be mean but was just curious
My landlady's grey kitty is in my apartment was we speak, rubbing up against my leg & asking for treats.
bet she is w ;) bet she is
Doesn't matter what day Gerard and Lyn-Z Anniversary is, Mayo only posted on Saturday so we probably won't hear from him until Wednesday at the earliest.
And if Mayo loves his wife more than us, I'm not sad. I'd be furious if he loved us more than his wife.
Also, Gerard Way could care less about what happens on a blog that he has nothing to do with.
Durr.
-A
I'm actually sort of nauseated. O_o
lol,
if you want to talk about any kind of geread then add an extra R in there and we can talk about gerrard. stevie gerrard that is.
would you liek to talk bout him?
TO MAKE IT NICER.
Mmmmmm. ^_____________^
Have you been saying dirty things while I was away getting all clean, FS??
By the way, I booted my landlady's cat out, but he's back!
they always come back for more, dont they. you must be hot stuff hehehehe
and i was talking about stevie g.
*from the bushes*
Anon, you are really silly.
I really hope the two of them are together this evening, and if not oh well...non of our business.
It's pretty awesome that the band has a little time off; its good for all of them to be with their loved ones.
Mayo? I have no idea. It's just the anniversary of his blog. And when good things happen, we like to celebrate. If Mayo can't be around, again, none of our business.
P.S. MissT, I'm so proud of you; DG, I'm at a loss. ... Oh there is so much more...(I read about that earlier...I'm still catching up...)
anima yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*runs and jump's on her*
Hi anima sweetie, thank you.
How are you?
Hi, Anima! :D
its quite in here?
is there anybody out there?
No!
We're all in AIM with you Fim, talking about lip balm.
*shouts acroos the empty expanses*
I am here fim (echo echo echo)
Can you see me?
oh rw, go pet your cat
jules, i know i was just asking. maybe mayonaise could of spoken to me. or even ss could have visited and talked to me.
heck i just want people to talk to
Lip balm and cucumbers.
is the cheese out and about again?
i thought he bloody melted. he is just high on life and cucumbers
LOL K!!!!
T'is not my cat, FS, t'is my landlady's!
Hi Anima
I'm off to watch Bones and have lunch
Amyranth - anytime you like!
anon, why would it bother me? I wish them all the best, and I hope they enjoy each other physically too, after all, it's pretty good!
yeh right, thats your mission. you want to kidnapp the cat and make it your own. then you want to put bows in its hair. i know wat you are doing.
Hello lovely ladies.
I just spent two hours talking on the phone to dear friend of mine. She is the only person that I can talk about EVERYTHING in such a short amount of time...but it's all the good stuff. Not the normal, 'so how have you been? what's new? how is your job?'.... It rules.
Anyhoo, I've been anxious to talk to everyone, but I can't stay long. :(
ohhh noooo. are you going to have fun ;)
what have you been up to. i recieved your mail, i need to reply. i should et on that but i will do it tomorrow for ya hun
Last night I had an asthma attack after visiting my friend house, who has a cat.
Ergo, I agree. ;)
K, cucumbers and wha?
Hi Fimblina. :)
fimblina, love it.
wow, are you ok. are you allergic to cats? rw loves cats and is trying to kidnapp one.
have you gone back to work yet?
No worries Fim.
I guess everyone is on AIM.
I'm gonna visit around blogbelieve.....
ok hun, gie me a shot if you need owt. i am just onna wait here till someone streaks through
Do I have to streak, or can I just talk to you?
Fim, I spelt it wrong. I think it should be Fimblelina? I can't decide. I was driving around over my lunch hour (yup, I'm back to work), and I just thought of it.
And yes, I'm terribly allergic to cats. I had one for awhile and I suffered a ton, but totally worth it. (as long as I have an inhaler near by.)
*for real I'm off. Be back in a bit.
♥
entropy, you can just speak.
oldzzz miackzzzz are you here, my pimp has arrived.
anima, i love that name. i thin its awesome. love it
Fimblelina is really cute, Anima.
bye bye anima, catch you later hun
entropy, can a ho be called fimblelina?
Stop, instigator! Ho.
throw down your pimp stick and get cracking. we want a pimp fight
You are so not getting any days off. Seriously. Nuttin, son.
And Fimblelina is a cute name so I'd give you that. At least off hours.
cool. well i was promised benifis pimp. a tooth brush, tooth paste and for my holidays, i could work on a different corner.
does that beat your benifits?
See you later Anima.
Yo pimpmaster E, how you doin?
yeh right, thats your mission. you want to kidnapp the cat and make it your own. then you want to put bows in its hair. i know wat you are doing.
I do not want to put bows in his hair!
I want to make him a little kilt!
Get it right! 0_0
a kilt? are you on something there
why a kilt?
Only ginger cats look good in kilts ha ha ha
well, is the cat scottish?
It needs little kitty bagpipes too.
lol and eat haggis
He's a grey cat.
Perhaps a quilted codpiece?
So, I talked to one of my friends today, one of them that I feel "seperated" from.
It wasn't the same. I was talking to a complete stranger.
Not so sure how I feel about that.
Oh yeah RW. the codpiece is the way to go. match it with a biker jacket.
sounds great rw, maybe make him a hat too?
slash, was there alot of silence? maybe its just because its your first time. will you speak again?
I never have anything to say to them.
They talk to me, and I listen.
That is so sad mustard. How do you feel about that. Are you OK?
but do you have owt to say to them tho. is there anything you want to tell them
Hey TiTi! I'm good, you?
Fim, like I said, if you want another pimp, be like that. Betray me all you want. Break my heart, psh.
i would never break your heart, i would never have anouther pimp. but you need to protoct your ho's. there is only one pimp in this house and someone is trying to take it off you.
So, I talked to one of my friends today, one of them that I feel "seperated" from.
It wasn't the same. I was talking to a complete stranger.
Not so sure how I feel about that.
I feel that way about one of my male friends. I've known him for 18 years. I practically considered him my brother. But since turning 32 or so he's changed so much internally i don't even know who he is any more.
Yeah, I'm fine. It's just the realization part of it.
It's totally just me now. Like, it used to be me "and the gang." Now it's just me.
It'll take some getting used to, but it's just weird.
No, Fim. I didn't and don't have anything to say. It would require a massive explanation, anything I would say would. So, it's easier left unsaid, you know?
Hi E sweetie, you know my services will always be loyal to you.
No one will lure me away.
Well, if I see him, yeah, ass kicking would commence.
yeh i know hun.
i had a group of friends beofre i moved here. did everything together. in the sumer we spent practicy everyday togther but when i moved here, only one of them bothers to speak to me and thats rare. i have just given up talking to the others cos they showed that they cant be bothered with me. they will be shocked when i come home in may and when i do they will learn a few home truths about each and everyone of them. i am not the person i was when i left and if they dont like it then sod them. dont need them if thats the case. i want friends who like me for me and not just for the convience.
pimp is gonna get brutal on the oldzzz miackkzzzzz
h2o, you 'ass' kisser. seriosuly, what happened to the union.
That's so true, Fim.
M, You always have people here so please don't feel like it is just you sweetie.
sometimes you need that friend tho in real life. someone you can relate to that you have there when you need them. it really crap when you dont have that.
I know, MissT. Thank you :)
Yeah, Fim. But, I'm kind of getting used to it. Doesn't make it any easier, I don't think. But, maybe one day I'll just get used to it completely.
I know that feeling, Splash.
It wasn't until I hit about 30 that I found my truest, most beloved and lifelong friends. There are only two or three of them, but it's all good. ^_^
So hang on. :)
but you shouldnt mustard. you should have to get used to it. there is a whole world out there and a whole bunch of people just waiting to meet you.
you just remember that you are an amazing person and that anybody that talks to you would be truly blessed. you deserve friendship that you can trust. i believe you will find it. you just need to go and grab it with both hands.
Fim, they don't deserve you.
Will do, Jules.
cheers miss t.
Fim?
You mind if I keep that and save it for a rainy day?
(See how your words do mean something?)
yes you can if you wish but just correct the spelling errors and grammar.
yo knwo that i am here hun
Mustard Iw as always pretty shy and never really made the decisions in my friendships then one day in uni I told my best friend I didn't want to do something with her, like a clash with something I was doing, and she tried to convince me and I stuck to my guns and that was the end of our friendship, she couldn't deal with a new me,(and it was barely that new) whereas other friends I can not see for years and pick up where we left off.
I think some relationships just pass, it's sad but there isn't a lot you can do but be open to perhaps a repalcement you haven't noticed yet
does that make sense?
Fim, when did you become so wise. Those were wonderful words.
Listen to them mustard.
Mayo,
How are you tonight? Did you have a good Monday? My day off was just what I needed. Must make note to self to do this more often.
Just wanted to say Happy 6 Months one more time! I figure if you've been nice enough to let me hang here and wear your ears and eyes out then the least I could do is give you a night off....
So....with that, I'm off to sleep and back to work tomorrow.
Mayo, I wish you a fabulous night. A night that you will talk about for years to come. A night that is unforgettable for all the right reasons. A night so special that you are left wondering...how the hell did I get to be this lucky and this deserving? A night that makes you realize how great your life really is. A night where everything is crystal clear and you can count the stars.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Make a wish.
Ergo:
Perfect sense. Thank you. :)
Goodnight, Sdock. See you tomorrow sometime!
Time for me to head to bed, lovelies! Have a good night :)
ergo, i understtod that and i think your right. things are just right if they are right.
people are meant to gel together. did i get that right from your comment. like if it is meant to be then it is meant to be?
Son of a bitch!!
Someone tried to hack my myspace!
What a cunt....
*sighs*
Hello everyone. How are we?
"Or if he does it will be to rub it in to everyone who likes him that his wife is a beautiful young women who he loves more then you."
I think this perfectly illustrates the incapacity of some young people to understand adult behavior.
nighty ngiht sd10 and rw. sweet dreams
OK skip this if forensic shows disturb you
Oh boy I just watched an episode of New Detectives with the dumbest criminal ever,
He murdered his roomate, removed and burnt her fingers but left them in a dumpster with the bolt cutters and a handwritten shedule of things to do re the murder etc, bought the cutters and hired a carpet cleaner from the same store with his credit card, and left his address and hired a truck in his own name - sheesh he may as well have printed a t shirt and stood outside a police station!
cupacke, hey hun. how does one do that?
anon, i agree
We can't win them all, Anon. :)
Cupcake! Hello! Great to see you!
oh cupcake - assholes!!
a friend of mine got hacked last week
fim they often redirect to another sign in site which looks legit, if you get locked out of myspace and asked to log in again shut down the window and reopen it from scratch, that's one way it gets done.
FIm is it, sometimes it just has a limited life.
You are a wise little chookie you know fim
hahaha ergo, thats funny. is the show over? have they got him yet?
mustardisbetter said...
Yeah, I'm fine. It's just the realization part of it.
It's totally just me now. Like, it used to be me "and the gang." Now it's just me.
You're a bull right? Bulls don't run in packs.
Although you'd be stupid to piss off a pack of bulls.
I love bulls.
-A
Goodnight RW.
Goodnight Sdock.
Hi CC, sorry to hear about your myspace. That is a bummer.
Goodnight everyone, have fun and I shall see you soon.
Well, good night you guys. Happy landmark day.
S(S)S, you busy little beaver, I hope you are well and I also hope and trust that your "busy" is a GOOD "busy" these days. ^_^ You are missed, but take care of your own first. Be happy and jappy.
Mayo, again, thank you for everything. For the poetry, the mystery, the metaphor, and for the people on here. Long days and pleasant nights to you.
Hi Fimble Star!... I have no idea.. not being a hacker and all.
What a complete loser though... I mean why would anyone do that?
If they had a life clearly they wouldn't.
And now I'm doubly paranoid!
Just great! *grumbles*
well ergo, if i am a wise little cookie, does that mean your going to eat me?
Hi Mustard! Ergo! Miss T! Others!.... you're all so damn quick! :)
Hey everybody.
Ergo what show are you watching???
nighty night jules, miss t
sweet dreams
hey there amy
cupcake, it is a pain n the arse. have you spoke to tom?
hey there elena.
Hello Elena :)
Tom has already fixed it for me, Fimble Star, and my password is reset, and so on. I love Tom now. XP
Night MissT
Hi elena it's The New Detectives it's a forensic show on Discovery.
Fim they just went to his house and arrested him. They said "do you know why we're here?" and he said "Yes"
(reenacted of course)
Hello Fimble and Cupcake.
How are both of you?
So hold your head up high and know it's not the end of the road
Walk down this beaten path before you pack your things and head home
At the end of the road you'll find what you've been longing for
I know 'cause my feet have scars to show
I was lost with vague direction and no place to call home
It's time for you to press on
This is not your war
Set your sights to North and press on
This is not your escape
Wash away what they thought of you
Because in this place, we're all as good as dead
...end cycle...
Behind the mask you'll find yourself alone
It's not the end of the road for you
Good thanks Elena.. apart from *shakes fist* the whole myspace thing... I hate the whole idea of identity theft, no matter how small scale, so that pissed me off a lot.
How are you doing hun?
fim - chookie not cookie, so you area all feathery and cuddly
(chook = chicken)
:)
I'm okay, I guess. Thanks for asking Cupcake.
How do you know they tried to hack your myspace?
Mayo:
I don't think I have anything to say tonight. My words are gone. I think they left me some time ago.
I just want to say thank you for all of this that you've given us. I think about how much my life would be different (or the same) had I not found Mayonaise. I don't think I would have liked it very much.
And none of it was necessary, but you did it anyway. Those are the greatest gifts.
Mayo, I hope you have people out there who love you and care about you know matter what. And above that, I hope that you know they do. I don't want you having to guess. I hope that you're comforted, needed, and most of all, I hope that you are truly happy.
And with that, I thank you for the memories.
Goodnight, Mayo.
You're welcome Elena, I got notice saying something about hacking and needing to change my password.
So I did.
Goodnight Mustard.. you have such a lovely way with words. :)
Sleep well.
Goodnight, everyone :)
Thank you for listening to me. I appreciate your insight. I hope you all are well and taken care of.
Thank you for this ride. I guess here's to six more months. :)
I'll see you all in the morning.
re myspace hacking
they often redirect to another sign in site which looks legit, if you get locked out of myspace and asked to log in again shut down the window and reopen it from scratch, that's one way it gets done.
usually they use your account to send porn comments or other spam stuff to your friends
Damn homonyms, Mayo. Every freakin' time.
*NO matter what. Sorry, dude. :)
Cupcake did you follow a link from the e-mail?
goodnight Mustard sweet dreams (with an awesome backing track)
Night Mustard
The words are still there, you just have to let them come in their own time.
No link email, I am very careful about clicking links, it's something I don't do. Apparently they weren't successful in getting into my profile and actually doing anything.
That's good to hear Cupcake.
And MUSTARD, I meant what I said, you do have a way with words! even if you don't feel that way.
You just wrote a lovely goodnight for instance... so.. yes...
Now I am not good with words! hehe
Ergo, I got an e-mail from TJ. I think she's really in need of her computer. She thinks I should post the gothic chapter without her but I'm still not sure. What do you think?
Ahh yes Elena... I'm as careful as I can be.
You see the guy who set me up with my computer scared the crap out of me with all these horror stories.
Mayo talks a lot about needing this place and the people in this place but did any of you ever think to ask him WHY he needs it like he says he does? Why does he need you? Why does he talk to some of you more than others?
Mayo has stretched this out this long for a reason, he is afraid to lose some of you. Not all of you because people come and go all the time and he doesn't blink. Look at all the people who leave, say they're leaving, some come back all the time and some don't. Mayo doesn't blink. Some people when they leave, he doesn't care.
ONCE he begged you to stay. Because a few people were mad at him or because they felt hurt by him or rejected.
Ask yourself, WHY Mayo needs you, not IF he does, he already says he does. Ask Mayo. WHY does he need. WHO does he need. Ask yourself. Ask Mayo. You are asking the wrong questions. You are all too close to the situation to see it. Look from the outside. He's keeping certain people here specifically. WHO.
ANON at 10:44
Beautiful words. What are they from?
Well Mayo, you're celebrating six months with some of these girls, but not me yet. Ten more days, my dear.
I'll leave you a basket of chocolates on your bedside table on the 13th.
Goodnight everyone! My coloring book demands my attention!
-A
anon no idea who or why.
elena she said to me that you should post it too.
Email it to her and then she can enjoy writing her next bit.
I'm absolutely sure she wouldn't mind
she said she'd be off until prob wednesday
He's keeping certain people here specifically. WHO.
Sorry but this just sounds like a question that is asked to hurt people's feelings. I don't think anyone here is more important than anyone else. I truly believe Mayo cares about all of us. Really this isn't a popularity contest.
Anon at 11:06, I don't feel the need to know, my ego is to fragile. XP
Look from the outside. He's keeping certain people here specifically. WHO.
I was on the outside once. Then the door was graciously opened and I've met nothing but good friends since.
I don't care WHOM Mayo wants to stay, or WHOM he could care less to see leave.
I treasure every single one of you, come and gone. I don't care what anyone else thinks of this place, of Mayo, of us. I love THIS and what we've become.
The rest of it can go to hell in a bloody handbasket, for all I care.
-A
Bye Amyranth :)
How long have I been here posting?... oh! it was the naughty post! I remember now...
But when did I find this place? I'm not even sure. Ahh well.
Ergo I guess I'll post it later then. I've got to check it again for mistakes. I alwasy make them and it drives me crazy!
Why does anyone NEED anyone?
goodnight amyranth sweet dreams and happy colouring!
I am not a mean anonymous, I am actually trying to help certain people.
Mayo has given hints, he gives them late at night. And in so many posts, so very many. No one has the confidence to grasp them if they are int he situation like you all are.
It would be nice.....
There is no need for jealousy because Mayo belongs to no one. There is no need for hurt feelings. Things progress naturally. This is not high school. Don't come in the way of it. Don't hide from it or deny it. Things progress that way. You can have favrites without favoritism. Without hurt feelings.
Just look closely. Look at the hints and open your eyes.
It would be so nice.
oh amyranth that was so lovely for you to say!
thank you. and I'm really glad Ive met everyone here too
Amy good answer.
So what are you coloring?
It would be so nice.
Would it?
I am not a mean anonymous, I am actually trying to help certain people.
Why? If we're happy the way we are, why stir the pot?
-A
You are misunderstanding me. It is about happiness and the potential of friendship and connecting. Deeply.
You could all witness something so beautiful if it could happen. If it wasn't for blog politics and peoples hurt feelings getting in the way. if it could happen...... If.
Tell her. Tell her. Tell her tell her tell her tell her tell her tell her.
I treasure every single one of you, come and gone. I don't care what anyone else thinks of this place, of Mayo, of us. I love THIS and what we've become.
The rest of it can go to hell in a bloody handbasket, for all I care.
-A
That is so lovely...
I want to keep Amyranth in my pocket.
Or all of you... you're precious.
Ergo, I mean it!
Elena, um.... Believe it or not, a Disney Princess floor size coloring book.
Why not eh? I don't have kids, but it's still fun!
-A
Amyranth you can't speak for everyone. And the happiness could continue, if only...... Sometimes the pot has to be stirred if you want things to progress. Eggs have to be broken to make an omelette.
Look at the hints, see what is happening. What COULD happen.
TELL HER!!!
You could all witness something so beautiful if it could happen. If it wasn't for blog politics and peoples hurt feelings getting in the way. if it could happen...... If.
Take out Blog and put in World.
I'd be much happier. Chill out, Anon. Have some Bernard Callebaut with us and just sit on the couch.
-A
It is maybe a little mean to say that the rest could go to hell for all you care. What if "THE REST" is something so beautiful?
Amy that does sound fun. Too bad for me I still can't color in the lines.
Amyranth you can't speak for everyone.
You're right. I can't. I can only speak for myself. But maybe some agree with me, and are afraid to talk for themselves.
Sometimes, you need to be a mouthpiece in order to have peace.
-A
It is maybe a little mean to say that the rest could go to hell for all you care. What if "THE REST" is something so beautiful?
Ah, misunderstandings again.
The Rest, are those who are here for nothing more than harassment and mind games. The ones who come to torture us.
The Anonslaught.
I could care less about what happens to them.
-A
I wish I could stay up all night and read this conversation, but I can't. My eyes are too tired and my head hurts.
Anon, you are right. People come and go within a person's lifetime. I hope that I've connected with some on a deeper level. I would love to keep those friendships even after all this ends. Because, reality is, this will end at some point.
It's been a good ride for me. Sometimes bumpy, but nonetheless good.
I haven't been around much lately, and after I post this I will retire for the night. But your posts intrigued me. Thanks for the food for thought.
Elena, I miss quite a bit too, especially with the crayons.
Since I started using markers, I've gotten much better.
I love it though, so soothing. It makes it some frigging hard to go to work though!
-A would be happy if she could just finish this corner before she went to work.
Jenni, I didn't even see you there! Goodnight!
-A
ANON
Sorry but you are confusing the hell out of me. I think this blog is full of wonderful, unique people. We are all special. I believe Mayo sees that.
anon I must really be missing what you are seeing
And if the Anon keeps saying TELL HER TELL HER TELL HER like that, I'm going to show it my best Owl impression.
-A
Night Jenn
Sorry we didn't get to talk. I've missed you.
hey Jen have a good night, hope to see you for longer next time
I personally care a little bit about everyone everywhere, but anyone who is here to stir up trouble or problems... well, I care about them a fraction of a bit less.
Because they come on here telling us what we should and shouldn't do/feel, without giving any of themselves.
We're all on here sharing ourselves, our vulnerabilities.
Some of these anons... they share nothing of who they are,just spout advice or abuse so how can I really care?
Take care jenn, sweetie, we miss you!
Thanks for hitting the nail on the head Cup.
-A
Someone sounds like they need a good sleep.
Amyranth said...
Thanks for hitting the nail on the head Cup.
-A
I just lost my 'hitting the nail on the head' virginity, I believe! ;)
I am trying to help something good happen here. But the people it could happen to are being chickenshit and playing games. One of them is not confident enough to TAKE THE HINTS. One of them is afraid of ruining something. So that one makes the hints really quiet.
They are easy to see if you go out of the situation and stop being emotional about it. Late night hints. And in so many posts.
Its SO BEAUTIFUL and it is being overlooked.
ok I'm off to the airport wont be back till much later so I'll say goodnight to everyone now
take care
anon I don't know but process of elimination, pretty certain "her" is not me.
So that's one down
bye all!
:)
Friendship and trust.
TRUST in her and..... if you believe in what you created here then TRUST in that too. Trust that you won't destroy it. That jealousy won't destroy it. That people are good and would be happy. And let FRIENDSHIP happen. Something beautiful could go on.
I think I know what you're talking about. I want to give a hint too but I don't know how without embarrassing certain entities here.
Tell her? He never will. It's too scary. Then she will know. It won't be what she thinks. Or worse it will be what she suspects and then all will be lost. So even if it a romantic thought you have, chances are it's not likely.
Well Anons, I'll eliminate myself as well.
Coloring books!! Color!!
Anyway, goodnight everyone, again.
Goodnight Mayo. Again.
-A
Not me either Ergo, that's two down! ... though in my opinion it could be you, because you are fabulous! *hugs*
Have a safe drive sweetie.
You see it too!
Goodnight Amy,three down, we're dropping like flies!...
So who is here now? me and anons?
I can't think of a hint but I think I know what you mean. Is it under a veil? But not a wedding veil?
thank you cupcake!!
I think you're a special little taswegian too!
*kiss*
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