A secret? Sometimes I can be so full of myself that I am able to pretend that nothing else matters, when I know that it does. “I need to hear it back.” Can you consider what type of person would challenge irrational fear, to face inevitable embarrassment, because of that need? What drives someone to stand as a target, exposed and almost transparent? Fuel.
The question is this…what do I really have to say? I shout off, in part, to bolster my ego. We can safely assume that you are aware of my requiring a little extra fluffing. But most importantly, I self examine past and present. And yes, sometimes I am so ridiculous that I laugh at myself.
(I mean really, am I that much of a _______________ (insert derogatory explicative)? Perhaps, I am. But lately, I have been ending the day with a “yes, I was”. So again, contradiction is my burden. What you do with that knowledge is your own business.)
A truth? We all will die. For some, there is a need to find every little piece of evidence to the contrary. I admit that I have been guilty of this myself. I have been so turned inside out with the need for truth that I challenged every bit of logic I encountered. I do not know exactly what truth is, but I know my perception of it might differ from yours. My truth may be painted in a different hue. Slightly off color, but still my truth just the same. And I will stand by it, fiercely.
The question is this…what do we believe? We gather what information we can and draw our own conclusions. We each have our own experience from which we base our assumptions. As long as I have been alive I have registered every moment and from that registry I claim truth. This is obvious and I am ridiculous, really.
I would like to return to the original idea of secrets. I keep most of mine safe from prying eyes. Embarrassing little fuckers, aren’t they? But, by allowing one, two, three, and now four of the darkest their freedom, I have learned something about truth…how important it is to face our own.
What matters to me is this…I hope you read truth here. And by here, I do not mean exclusively my capricious chatter. From my corner, I attempt exercises in poetic candor. Some of it is written for me, some for you, some for them, some for him, and some for her (in no particular order of importance), but never with expectation. I use the freedom I have here to sort out some of my more dangerous secrets and truths.
I have this last little bit for you to use in order to paint me in your own hue of truth (and it is no secret)…
I am porcelain and black as night. I can be as subtle as a 747 and as fragile as double reinforced steel. But nevertheless, I can be poked all the way through and then the light will shine through me. With that light, I am able to produce a force greater than I deserve.
p.s. that place, it is cold and crowded, rough and smooth, and filled with impossible demands directed by my own hands. It is closer to the bottom than I would ever chance to be. It calls, but doesn’t give warning. It immediately holds secret and truth. It is where the unraveling begins and ends.
For those of you that have recently (or even not so recently) lost a family member or a friend, I am deeply sorry.
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Self-help. I like that. We do lots of that here. I hate speaking for others, but I find that we do lots of that.
What made you decide to come here? Like, what was the final straw?
oh so i must be invisable. ok i know i cant be seen now
i will go back to sit down and lurk for a bit then. it was nice talking at you then
Fimble, get your ass out here.
O_O
I can see you.
cheers, slash.
Oh, fimble love, please don't go back to lurking. You know we love you ;)
I'm on my craputer right now charging my Ipod :)
seriously dudes dont mind me, just wondering around these empty halls with nothing of use to say. who gives a fuck anyway.
so when you was younger did you have an imaginary friend?
For the record, I told him about this place. Here is what mentioned it:
"What have you gotten yourself into while I was away?"
I found another blog to hang around. It's mostly women but I like it there. Very random conversation and fun until anonymous people ruin it. All anons should be like yours.
I thank you for proving my point.
A friend,
that sure was a fast response. Are you sitting right there with BS or are you BS?
Fim,
My 4 year old cousin had an imaginary friend of sorts. She had a piece of fried calamari (squid), named Mario, that she hid under her bed. My cousin found it and threw it out, and her daughter freaked and said she killed Mario.
Yeah, it happens.
We try our best to work around it though.
Don't let that scare you away. The good outweighs the bad.
hahahaha star, thats funny. didny it smell? how long did she have it?
My imaginary friend was a rabbit named Frank.
(No kidding.)
Yeah, I had an imaginary friend.
I didn't name it or anything. It was just there.
Fim, it was there for a week. My cousin found it cleaning.
Redrum, that is great!
Hi BS and A Friend
Hey there Redrum and Star! BC didn't say hello a page back, so hello!
hey redrum, nice to see you. i went to your blog before to leave you a comment but my mind was blocked and i dint know what to say but i will get round to it.
a rabbit named frank. interesting. what did you do with you rabbit?
slash, how can you have a imaginary friend with no name?
i didnt have an imaginary friend. i was to bizzy running away from my brothers and to bizzy cutting the hair off of my barbies.
We are on the same blogs and in a chat. Eight minutes is hardly fast.
Wonder Woman was my imaginary friend. She was going to pick me up in her invisible jet someday.
I had the costume, and I wore it all the time.
I still have the Lariat of Truth.
slash, how can you have a imaginary friend with no name?
I don't know.
Why didn't the horse have a name?
Hi again Mustard. Hello redrum. Hi star
do you dress up as wonder woman now?
Hi there everyone,
I just stopped by to say hello and I am glad to see that it is pretty nice around here tonight.
Had a crazy weekend and now I am sitting on the sofa with a nice little glass of pinot noir.
I hope everyone is doing ok.
-VM
Fim,
I outgrew the costume, but maybe for next Halloween!
Hello, BC
VM, how are you? How is school going?
Hello.
Fimble, memories of 'Frank' are fuzzy, but he sat in his own place at the dinner table at least twice. It was not a very long-lasting imaginary friendship.
Don't worry about commenting.
And I wish Wonder Woman was my imaginary friend right now. That would be pretty great.
oh shame star, you could of posted a pic of you i it hehehehe
hey there vm, how are you tonight. chillaxin with wine, sounds like my kinda night
VM!
Great to see you again! I wanted to drop by your blog a few weeks ago when you and Elena were sharing with each other.
I hope everything is okay. I hope everything works out.
hello BC Mustard Star Redrum
hi new anon
FIMBLE!!! i missed you!
I had an imaginary friend called Bazooba, but that piece of calamari called Mario is classic!!
Back from Tai Chi, all showered and cozy. ^_^ Hi everyone!
Indiana Jones was my imaginary (boy)friend. I was obsessed with him and used to talk to him in my head in school where he would give me advice. Then instead of keeping a journal, I would write daily letters to Indiana Jones and tell him about all the adventures I'd had and the ones I wanted to have.
But look, I turned out okay!
*twitch*
redrum, i will comment if thats ok with you. i need to comment, i feel rude if i dont. just implanted in my head. crazy like that. was you an only child?
And another thing.
Anonymous said...
You will know, Mustard.
When they no longer feel anything for you, when they no longer trust you, you will know. And there is nothing you can say or do after that.
Until then, don't give up. If there is anything left, hold to that, and keep trying.
Disagree, like, so hard. Walk away when you first get the notion that the other person doesn't love you, or is a screw up, or is abusive, or is going to drag you down. Why waste your time if you get the intuition that it's not going to work? Then you have to be logical. Use logic in the face of "but what if, what if, it can still change!" No, it won't change. And if you don't get out as soon as you get that red flag, you will A) have wasted so many years and B) be stuck in a situation.
The sooner the better.
mustardisbetter said...
Until then, don't give up. If there is anything left, hold to that, and keep trying.
Yeah, but.
I got the boot. I was the one that got kicked off the proverbial island, and it wasn't my fault.
Then move on. No sense dwelling on it, right?
Let's go on AIM, guys! ^_^
hello VM! sounds like a nice thing to be doing, I have a can of passionfruit soft drink
hahaha jules, just lol.
hey ergo, you missed me. what was you throwing at me? how are the parents and i hope it is not raining
Redrum,
She can be anyone's imaginary friend, at any age, because she is a magical Amazon!
When was younger, I wanted to change my name to Diana Prince. It was easier to spell than Diana of Themyscira.
Then move on. No sense dwelling on it, right?
Yhus, thinking that may be the next step.
I don't know them anymore, and I'm definitely not going to try and relearn this person.
Too much has changed, and I have to make something of myself.
Mustard thanks for your concern. Things are currently at a stand still. There are some health issues in my husbands family (a parent) that have taken precedence over our relationship issues.
Damn you Solly, wake up and get back on. ;)
Hello ERGO!!! Didja see that picture on the last page?
What are we, at a tie on Smitery? ;)
VM:
I hope things can start to move. It's a weird position to be in when you don't really know what's going to happen.
Fimble, you need not feel obligated. Do as you like.
And no, I have a brother.
Kapunua, that Indiana Jones bit is probably the best thing I've heard all day.
Hi vm, ergo, k.
We have been together for 11 years. Although we are oceans apart at this point, I still have a concern for his and his family's well being.
With what has been going on I don't think it would be a good idea to seperate.
But, things have gotten somewhat better. This may be attributed to the fact that we have come to terms with the demise of our marriage.
-VM
But on a lighter note, my daughter has an imaginary friend. It is the greatest thing to hear her talk about her.
Thanks, Redrum. ^_^ Well, I was an extremely lonely kid at school and Indy was, to me, the perfect man. The perfect friend, teacher, confidant, and future husband.
You know, I never quite got over the fascination? I few years ago I bought an Indiana Jones adventure vest with lots of pockets. In the pockets I have a toothbrush, extra underwear, a bottle of water, deodorant, a rope (in case I have to climb something,) and a little knife. I keep it in the trunk of my car in case of, you know, adventures.
Redrum, I also wanted to say that I love your drawings.
sorry redrum, i would like to. it wont be anything fancy, but i will just make myself known. it was what was drilled into me when i was younger.
and you have a brother, did you get on with him? i have 2 brothers and i was their punch bag/wrestling buddy that they could throw around lol. fun times of running as fast as i could lol.
VM that's a shame but it happens, stay strong.
Mustard - Oh we are being smited (smote ?) big time!
But it's sooo worth it!
and mustard on a serious note, sometimes you have to move on for your own well being, it's really hard but if they've changed that much you probably have too, which only makes the chasm wider
Ergo, I know this. Mostly I see the change in me, which is weird because it should be the other way around I think.
But, yeah, it's just kind of weird. It doesn't really hurt because I'm used to not having them there, but to just finally say, "This is it."
It will be weird.
VM a lot of people seem to find that, it becomes less stressful and the relationship changes into something else.
Fimble I didn't throw anything!
It isn't raining, little showers come over and it's actually gotten a lot cooler.
Parents are good, they go back tomorrow afternoon, and my cousin is here now for 6 weeks.
Thanks very much, K.
I like the vest idea. Have you ever used it? And are you looking forward to the upcoming Indy film?
Fimble, you are a sweetheart. Yes, my brother and I get along very well, despite the inevitable rocky patches. No one can make me laugh like he can.
When this girl at the art museum asked me whom I liked better, Monet or Manet, I said, "I like mayonnaise." She just stared at me, so I said it again, louder. Then she left. I guess she went to try to find some mayonnaise for me.
ergo, i was trying to make a joke :) didnt work did it. lol sorry. so your cousin is staying for 6 weeks, wow i bet that will be nice. is there any reaon like schooling or such?
redrum, a sweetheart you say, well would you like to throw in a innocent as well. just to make it clear to everyone that i am innocent ;)
thats good that you get on with each other. are you quite close in age? did you ever want or wonder what it would be like to have a sister. i get on with both my brothers now but they are WAY to protective. i surpose thats a good thing but it can be bloody annoying at times. we are also all 18months apart from the next one.
I wore the vest once when I went walking through the woods, by my house, I kid you not. ^_^ And I haven't heard anything about a new movie! But I'm always wary. I like movies the way they are. ;)
Jack Handy, you cracked me up for years.
Mayo,
How are you tonight? I hope you are well and happy and you had a great Sunday. Mine was so nice. It was an absolutely spectacular pre-springy time day. I just sat on my back porch and watched it all. Soaking up sunshine and warmth. It was totally good for the soul.
Well, I know what you're thinking. Okay, no I really don't, but I bet you are wondering why am I up so late on a Sunday night. Yay me! I actually took a day off work. How cool is that? Pretty damned. I'm not entirely sure what I will use this day for. It's almost too much power to have. I hope I don't guilt myself into having a bad day. Like oh I should be at work blah blah blah....surely I won't do that.
I feel I owe you a really long rambling typical sdock10 comment. I don't know why that is. Maybe you need it...maybe you don't, but when my gut tells me to do something. I have a hard time NOT doing it. So here it goes....Well actually I've been talking for 3 paragraphs now. Should've totally warned you way earlier.
It's your fault really. You wrote such an inspiring post. I love the first part about fuel and what drives us to do the things we do and say the things we say. I have this...I guess I will call it an idea about the reason why I do some of the things I do is my way of feeling alive. Like somehow by standing close enough to edge or dancing on the broken glass...I'll get it. But I never do. I have moments where I almost get it. I come close. But then I am out there again, searching for the next thing. An insatiable unsatisfied fire in my gut. Always on the verge of burning itself out, until I throw more gasoline on it.
The "what do I really have to say?" part. Relate much? Fuck yes, I do. Mustard and I were just having this conversation about how we sometimes feel we have nothing useful to give. I feel that I am an unstoppable broken record at times...repeat and repeat and replay and repeat. But I can't let that stop me, I must keep listening to myself. Some of the things I say or write shocks the hell out of me. I had no idea that all of that was trapped inside. And other times, I read my stuff and I actually smile. Damn, that was kind of good and it made sense. I feel extremely blessed when my words find the person out there who needs them most. It's funny as hell when it ends up being me. Who would have thought?
In some circles, I am known as the biggest bitch in the room, but I am also the one who will go above and beyond to help someone. Contradiction much? Can I really be both of those things? Can I be the girl who hates people but wants no one to feel alone? I think so.
But here we go with the balance and clarity and truth and honesty and logic and secrets and who we really are and who we aren't and living just to die. This can't be all there is, right? I battle this every day. Finding reasons within reasons and logic behind the unexplained and the what ifs and perception and the theories and the conspiracy and the but.....yeah, I know exactly what you mean. I'll argue about anything to anyone just to prove someone wrong. Just to make them go....oh, I never looked at it like that.
Mayo, thanks to you and this place I have been facing some of my deepest, darkest fears and secrets. It feels good to let all that shit go and find comfort in knowing that no matter how alone we all feel, we're not. All we have to do is make the effort to reach out and connect with others. That's the hard part. Sometimes it doesn't work out. Sometimes you put yourself out there and you open yourself up and people take it and use it against you, but other times...the times when it works out, those are some of the most rewarding times you will ever find.
Mayo, I have found more here than I feel I will ever be able to give back. And for that I will always be grateful to you. Thank you for the most enlightening 6 months of my life.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Just thanks.
ergo thanks. Yes the stress seems to have decreased and I feel alot better. I can breathe.
I lived on my own for a long time and don't mind at all being single again. Being a single mother will be a change. But nothing I can't handle.
I look forward to it.
Now I have that nice warm wine feeling so I think I will drift off to sleep.
I hope everyone has pleasant dreams!
-VM
goodnight vm, sweet dreams and take care hun
it is my bed time to. i have to be up at 6. i hope you all have sweet dreams and i hope that you smiled today, even just one smile.
i smile everytime i see the amazing friendships formed in this very place.
sweet dreams
xx
I'm glad you're having a day off, Solly! ANd honestly, I can NOT imagine anyone thinking of you as "the biggest bitch in the room." Or even as the littlest bitch.
BITCH, PLEASE! You are too sweet for that. ;D
Pretty damn amazing, right?
fimble I was grinning when I typed that!!
damn it would be easier if you could convey emotions on here.
I did get your joke, my response obviously didn't come over right either!
hang on
"I didn't throw anything!
*hides small bucket of water filled balloons*"
It's true, I swear. I am a contradiction.
I feel that way about the Indy series, K, but am trying to be optimistic.
Fimble, we are a few years apart. Be glad that you have protective siblings; not everyone is so lucky.
(Innocent, of course. I think I can see those batting lashes from here...)
*smiling happily when going to bed just by ergo's awesomeness*
goodnight VM have a good sleep, night fimble sweet dreams
jack handy, I would like, totally reverse my tubal ligation for you. That so ruled beyond the telling of it.
Is that even possible, Carrie?
*batting lashes just for redrum ;)*
now i am going to bed.
sweet dreams
nighty night
xx
i hope you all have sweet dreams and i hope that you smiled today, even just one smile.
have a big smile right now!!
see you tomorrow hunny
Good night, most innocuous Fimble. And to VM too.
Hi carrie how are you going?
Goodnight and sweet dreams fimble, Hi carrie
has everyone gone?
Hello in here?
Anyone home?
Mayo:
A huge thanks for dropping in today. It's always nice to talk and listen to you one on one. It makes it feel not so mysterious.
Thank you again. Pretty much for everything. It's been a damn good six months, and I wouldn't trade any of it. I've learned so much from you and everyone here that I would have never had the opportunity to learn elsewhere.
More than that, I think I've learned some things about myself. Some things I didn't really want to face, but in this situation, you really have no choice.
I can only hope that you're thinking, or have thought, the same things. I hope you see yourself in a new light. It's amazing to see the transformation in you and in all of us.
You wanna do this shoulder to shoulder?
Goodnight, Mayo.
SS:
How about you? Did you think it would last this long? I was backreading last night, and I happened upon some old things of yours.
Some made me think. One made me laugh my ass off (You really need to go re-read that. It's like watching a bunch of headless chickens). And all made me reevaluate at some point.
I'm glad to see that you've stuck this out. I hope that we've done something for you at some point.
After all, that's all we really wanted.
Hang in there, buddy. It comes in waves, and the next one will wash over soon enough.
Goodnight, SS.
BB Family:
Happy Six Months, everyone. Half a year. Most relationships don't last this long, so to make 50 work, we're pretty awesome.
I hope you all have a great night, and I'll see you guys in the A.M.
hi cupcake how are you?
how's Tassie?
Goodnight Mustard sweet dreams!
Hello Ergo, Tasmania is being moody as hell.
How are you doing? really? I want to know.
Goodnight mustard, sweet dreams. Hello cupcake, ol' delicious one. How are you?
Hi BC, I'm fine. How are you sweetie?
I'm good thanks its a bit showery and cool , my leg is healing up well I think and I'm about to head to the busstop
I'm glad to hear you're feeling better Ergo, have a lovely.... walk to the bus stop.
Is that possible? hehe
I'm alright cupcake, thanks for asking.
It's no problem BC, I really do care. :)
Aww thank you Cupcake *hugs*
I just bought the new CD by The Used, hootah! That is my first iTunes purchase. ^_^
*hugs* for BC
Hello Kapunua, wanna know a secret? I've never bought anything on iTunes!
ooh I hope my friend has it
cupcake I haven't either. I ddin't want to download it and my friend has limewire etc and I ask her to get me stuff, she knows how to do it much better than me!
I like buying cds.... I like to touch them.
Ok that sounded a little... ahh well, you know what I mean!
Though I do have an mp3 player, but I buy cds a lot too.
Long live album artwork!
I'm the same way. I'm not on board with this digital buying thing but I really wanted the CD and so far it is awesome. But I like to buy actual CDs, with lyrics and artwork and stuff. Things I can leave lying on the seat of my car, you know? Now I have an account at iTunes and I kinda didn't want one.
Good songs, though! Great songs actually!
I'm the same way. I'm not on board with this digital buying thing but I really wanted the CD and so far it is awesome. But I like to buy actual CDs, with lyrics and artwork and stuff. Things I can leave lying on the seat of my car, you know? ,
Exactamundo!
For TBS fans:
For the first time, Taking Back Sunday aren't in any rush to finish an album. Which gives them more time to soak up unexpected influences. "I love how Roger Miller and Johnny Cash would write a song and the chorus was a weird noise," says frontman Adam Lazzara. "I want to do songs where the hook is me making a motorboat noise with my mouth." Though lyrical ideas are still forming for the record, due in the fall, Lazzara already has a title in mind. "Look at Yourself. Damn, You Look Really Good Right Now," he says. "Can you tell we've been listening to Sly and the Family Stone?"
I love this band. I love that boy.
BUT I THOUGHT THE ALBUM WAS COMING OUT THIS SUMMER!
Damn, man. How long do I have to wait before they're doing a show in NY that I can take my cousin to see? >_<
Still, dude. New music. ^_____^
Good night everyone!
Well I must go, my head hurts like a bitch.
Take care darlings, GO TO BED! :)
xoxo cupcake
goodnight cupcake, sorry I was reading some Kerrang magazines, they come about 2 months late , but it's nice to get them.
I like CD's too, I downloaded In Rainbows, Radiohead and I add all mine to my mp3 but having them feels nice
goodnight kapunua from the sound of that quote and album could be a long time! Fall my even be optimistic! lol
motorboat? haha
Hello Ergo, Cupcake, BC.....everyone!
How are you all tonight?
I see Mayo paid a little visit, to his own place. I suppose he does have to stop by now and then to see how much damage we've done
*blushes*
Ummm.....he didn't say anything about The Bride painting or the Ming Vase, did he?
I tried to crazy glue that thing back together! Oh well....see what happens when you don't have all the pieces ;-)
Has anyone had anymore news from Jade regarding her sister?
God, she's been through so much lately.......
SIM: I keep forgetting to tell you that those words (regarding your poem) would have made me MELT too! That was so incredibly sweet of him to say!!!
Awww.......can I hug him??? I certainly HOPE you did! :D
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi Wendy, how are you? *Runs and smothers with really sloppy kisses and hugs*
6 MONTHS???
It's been SIX months???
Well, no wonder I am feeling restless....
Yep, the six month mark usually does that to me. Go figure....
HAPPY SIX MONTHS EVERYBODY!!!!
Hi BC!!!!
*hugs and smooches back*
I thought I was all alone in Casa De Mayo again. It's great to see you ;-)
How are you tonight? Good, I hope!
BC: I know you're into metal; but you have to check out this band.
http://www.myspace.com/thejadenet
I LOVE everything about them!!!!
And, for a Gothic/Rock/Metal sound; check out (Elusive):
http://www.myspace.com/elusiveno
I adore everything about them too!
How can you not love gothic cowboys??? :P
Hi Wendy!! Yes it has been six months. Can you believe it? It's incredible. Won't be here tomorrow to celebrate it.
I was here earlier, but I left because I was bored. After seeing you here, I wanted to stop by and say hi.
I'm doing alright, a bit tired too. I'm gonna go sleep in a bit.
How are you sugarplum?
I'm better BC! Thanks for asking
:)
You go get a good night's sleep and have sweet dreams.
Have fun tomorrow!!!!
*hugs, kisses and love to you*
Gothic cowboys? Are you for real? ;p
Thank you for the recommendations Wendy. I'll check out those bands as soon as I get up tomorrow :)
Wendy, you don't mind being left alone here? I shall sign off and go to sleep then.
And then, tomorrow, I'll go check out those bands and maybe check out Exodus while I'm at it, and maybe some Led Zeppelin.
Mayonaise, despite it being the six months since all of this started, I'm not really feeling the spark of this place anymore.
Take care of yourself.
Goodnight and sweet dreams Wendy, and more sloppy, wet kisses to you. Mwah!
And a kiss for my little jar of Mayonaise as well. *Blows kiss*
Goodnight and pleasant dreams to you, SS, family, lurkers, blah blah blah.
Ooops....sorry BC. I was roaming.....
I don't mind being left alone at all. I enjoy spending quality time with myself, lol!!!
I hope the sandman doesn't take to long to show up (for you) tonight, love!
Did you mention Zep?? Hell yeah for Led Zep!!!
Wendy, ha ha! Yep, I mentioned Zep. Take care of yourself okay? Goodnight and sweet dreams and I shall see you on myspace sometime.
Night BC!!! See you 'around' ;-)
*looks around*
Martha??? Ergo??? Miranth??? Elena???
I suppose it's a bit to early for FASC, Possum and Kass.....
Hmmmm.....
*light bulb appears over head*
TJ is gone for a few days. I shall go raid her closet!!! *wicked laugh* She'll never know!
Sorry, Wendy! And Hi if you're still here!
It takes me so long to catch up :( so I don't get on till late. I get confused about some of the references made here also, as I only used to check in like once a month or so before now.
I'll do some cleaning while no one's about...
God morgen/kveld! Mayo, SS, Miranth, the soon to arrive regulars, Watchers, morning cleaning crew and lawn maintenance folks.....
How is everyone today? Safe, happy and loved, I hope!
Miranth: don't worry about getting confused with the references. It happens to ALL of us. We used to shout VINEGAR when we were confused; but, I think we stopped that because some of us felt the need to shout VINEGAR every 10 minutes (not ME, of course *wink*)
pssst....while you're cleaning, would you please try to wipe that mustache off The Bride ;-)
FASC: I know this is a few days late (but you know me) -- I really enjoyed your Manic Street Preachers! Thank you for introducing me to them :D
In honor of our 6 month anniversary here, I leave you all, this a.m., with these quotes to ponder (or just 'aww' over):
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
An anniversary is a time to celebrate the joys of today, the memories of yesterday, and the hopes of tomorrow. ~Author Unknown
Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end. ~Author Unknown
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*has declared this day AUTHOR UNKNOWN DAY*
Have a great Monday everybody!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
I'm throwing these two in just because I like them and I wanna! :P
"Be patient wild eyes,
soon will come a storm to tame you.
Match her fury and let fires reign,
There's no escape.
Nature means what she does!"
"The soul that can speak through the eyes can also kiss with a gaze."
:D
Hi Miranth and Wendy
you still about?
I've just had dinner and am really looking forward to a sleep!
lol
I am sooo not a night owl
VINEGAR!
just kidding :) Wendy, I managed to remove most of the mustache, but the bride's upper lip is still quite fuzzy...perhaps a veil would be in order? I could add one...
ergoproxy! I am a night owl...but I understand the need for sleep :) About my confusion earlier - I only recently realized that you and ergo are different people :D I sometimes 'spoke' to ergo thinking he or she was you :) ooops!
Gotta go - bye all :)
no miranth you were right I have 2 accounts one as ergoproxy and one as ergo
it is because I have a couple of gmail accounts so it depends which I'm signed in as,so ergo and ergoproxy are both me!
goodnight miranth talk to you next time
so goodnight everyone, looks like noone else is about now
Mayo hope you had a good day, it was right that you deleted the comment and adding redrums comment was a lovely thing to do
I don't really have anything to say, life is treating me pretty well, I wish perhaps I had something to offer, but then it's probably pretty good that I don't.
So wishing love peace friendship and pleasure to you and yours
much love EP xx
SS
hope you're well ad your loved ones also
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight everybody
hello to fasc pp and kass when you call in.
Take care all
SC I have hoped to catch you and offer my condolences to your friend but I have been on a lot less than normal, I hope you see this, if I get a chance I'll get to your blog
Jade I really hope you have some sort of breakthrough with your sister. Hope your family can stay strong and get the help they need.
night!
Good morning Mayo!
HAPPY 6 MONTHS!!
can you believe it's been that long?!
I just wanted to say thank you:
1. for creating this place.
2. for maintaining it.
3. for letting us use this space.
4. for your words. i don't always understand you but sometimes i do and besides i like reading you.
whatever your intention for creating this place in the beginning doesn't matter anymore. the fact that it drew us here is good enough.
I also wanted to say that these last 6 months have been very special to me. they have really helped me address alot of things that perhaps i should have addressed much sooner. it has been wonderful doing that within our little family. i am sad that there have been some hard times and harsh words also though.
Morning family!
hope we are all coping/coped/about to cope with our mondays!!
wendy it was my pleasure introducing you to the manic street preachers!!
hello to wendy, miranth and ergo if you are still here.
hello to kass and PP if you are about to arrive.
hello SS. love to you!
ok guys will pop in later!
good morning everybody.
jappy 6 months in blog believe
have a lovely monday
xxx
Good morning to the morning crew!
No wallpaper today. I promise.
Mayo,
Nice to see you out and about today. Thank you for letting us enjoy the ride.
*blows Mayo a thank you kiss*
Sickly little princess,
Hope you get better soon .
Jade,
I really hope your sister is okay. Thank goodness you have her home. *hug*
SS,
Catch!
*thows a rug and a thermos of morroccan chickpea soup*
It could be a long wait.
MCR Fans of BlogBelieve,
Let's spare a thought for this guy and his family. This photo was taken in Brazil just before he left the tour. Not a good vibe going on here. Let's hope he is finding comfort with the ones he loves.
Love to you all.
Goodnight.
Mayo, SS, Blog-family, happy 6 month anniversary.
Mayo,
How are you today? I hope you are happy and well. Me? I'm totally great. I think I'm going to do my best to let this day off do me some good.
Happy 6 Month Anniversary!
That looks funny just typing it. I can't believe it's been 1/2 a year already. What an amazing gift you have given us all!! Thank you for sharing your words, your ryhmes, your thoughts, your stories, your time, and your friendship with all of us. The transformation for me has been nothing short of amazing. I'm a writer (I use that term loosely) now. I have been able to come here, talk to you, talk to my friends and sort through my chaotic mess. I have built relationships with what has to be some of the best people in th world. People that I never would have met had it not been for you. But I guess most of all, BlogBelieve has made me see that there is a light above me. It's daylight and I can get out of my dark hole. And on days when I feel like sitting in my hole, I have friends that will jump in and sit with me. That is something real and very special.
Mayo, I hope you continue to share your life with us. I hope our little place here continues to grow and thrive.
Remember when you asked us if our buckets held shit or water? Well, I think you have your answer. We took the shit and water, threw in some seeds, and planted that garden. Now, our trees and flowers are just starting to bloom.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Beautiful, special, amazing, and real.
SS,
My friend, how are you today? I hope you are well, loved, and full of smiles and happiness.
6 months? What do you make of it? Pretty crazy, right? Pretty special, right? Yes.
Thank you for all that you have done for us. Your love, kindness, and caring never ceases to amaze me. You are someone who cares about everyone. This might be BlogBelieve, but you are one of the most genuine souls I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. My life is so much better because of you.
You have taught me that we can do better, that we can do the right thing, that we can reach out and help others even when we feel we can't help ourselves.
Thank you....I'm still learning and I hope you will continue teaching.
Happy 6 Months!
Let's spend the next 6 spreading extra faith, hope, and love.
Always,
S
Happy Anniversary Mayo!
Life has been crazy bizzy lately, and I hate that I have not been around. Just know that I'm always thinking about you and everyone here.
Thank you Mayo for this place. Thank you for being you.
Sending you lots of love on this special day.
♥
♥
♥
Good morning BB!!! Happy 6 months!
I'm still sick and it sucks. >_<
PP,
That was a sad picture. He looks so tired. I do hope he is doing better now.
Mayo,
Did you ever think it would last this long? Did you? Yeah, me neither. Crazy isn't it? ^_^
SS,
I hope you are okay today dude. Sdock said exactly what the rest of us are feeling. You have done so much for us and made us all believers in ourselves and each other. Thank you for everything. From the bottom of my icy little heart. ^_~
HUGS AND KISSES FOR ERRBODY!
*you might want to spray yourself down with lysol afterward though. O_O
I'll be back later.
Mwah!
XOXO,
S&V20
Hello everyone
Happy Anniversary to us!
What gift do you give for 6 months?
I must ponder this.
hello?
well it is around 72*F outside, and i will be going to the brach later, just thought i would say hello to you all if anyone is here.
Oh Fimble
The beach? Warm weather?
Damn I hate winter. It's cold and we have a chance for snow again.
Have fun!
snow, wow seriously elena, i would swap with you anyday. i love the snow but is it below freezing in kansas?
are you in work? how about goign to the airport and hiding in the back of the plane to come to daytona. then we could get princess and sd10 and just get drunk on the beach. sound like a plan?
Hey guys!
Wow, an anniversary. That's pretty hardcore.
Mayo, there's something I have to tell you. (No, it's not about Matt Damon. ;D ) Ummm, well we've been together for six months and I think that's really great, I mean all of us, you know, really... just great. And the relationship we have is also great! Yeah, so... but umm...
Okay, I'll just say it.
Mayo, I've been seeing other blogs. And sometimes I've commented on them. Now don't freak out! It was just words, it didn't mean anything. And it's not you, it's me! The whole "exclusivity" thing, I felt suffocated. I'm sorry! I don't know a good thing when I have it! Can we work this out?
I'm just playin' wityoo son.
Six months, wow, that's like...nearly half a year, just about, right? And nigh on 24 weeks, even, if you think about it.*
Mayo, thank you for your patience. We all of us know that you don't have to do this. You could have up and left at any time without a word and there'd be totally no way for us to stalk you.
Also, you have made me more patient (not in an "OMG I need so much patience to deal with this!" kind of way, but in terms of waiting for something nice, and I realize that you're often too busy to talk, so conversations can be one-sided for weeks;) I think in a way you've made me more clever; a better reader; and a better writer. Thanks for that, too.
Most of all thank you for basically introducing me to my friends here.
This blog also introduced us to S(S)S, who is so lovely to know. How fascinating that you were around BlogBelieve before Mayo, like Sdock and I, and some others were, you clever thing. Only back then we didn't know it was you. That's so neat. ^_^ I'm not going to get all mushy on you or anything, but just, thanks for coming around when you can. S(S)S, my subtle friend, allow me to to my hat to you today.
Hey, everybody! My ass!
*(The first person who comes along and says, "It is half a year silly!" gets the hardest vunch. Recognize sarcasm, earn a point!)
it is half a year silly.
hehehe sorry couldnt resist ;)
do i get my vunch now?
Good morning to you all, Mayo, SS, and Castle Dwellers!
All of you said such good, truthful things. Makes me love this even more.
Jules:
Thanks for the, uh, note at the bottom. Had you not emphasized it, I would be receiving a vunch right now. I was thinking, "WTH? Where's she going with this?" ;)
Fimble the idea of going to Daytona and sitting on the beach made me smile. I've actually been there once and loved it. It is about 20 here right now and very windy. I'm not working today at the store. I'm working at home in my office. Well I'm trying to work but my heads just not in it.
Hello Kapunua and Mustard.
i know how that is elena, i have to do a case study for class tomorrow but my heart and head is not in it so i am putting it off. better to go to the beach instead hehehe.
did you like it down here when you came?
right, i was back tracking in the blogs to find a certain post from a anon commenter but i cant find it. i just dont know where to start looking. can anyone help. i am looking for the song 'the real mayonaise, please stand up' does anyone know roughly about when that was made?
hey slash
As high as the moon
So high were my spirits
When you sang out my name
And coming from you
It was enough just to hear it
Oh, it rang like the bells did today
But even the sturdiest ground
Can shift and can tremble and let us fall down
Kindly unspoken
You show your emotion
And silence speaks louder than words
It's lucky I'm clever
Cause if I didn't know better
I'd believe only that which I'd heard
In the days of my folly
I followed your rules
Did what Simon Says to do
But I won't let melancholy
Play me for a fool
Oh, no I'm on my way somewhere new
And as far as your lack of something to say
Well, to tell me goodbye there was no better way
Kindly unspoken
You show your emotion
And silence speaks louder than words
It's lucky I'm clever
Cause if I didn't know better
I'd believe only that which I'd heard
So don't keep me up till the dawn
With words that'll keep leading me on
I know much better than to wait for an answer from you
Kindly unspoken
You show your emotion
And silence speaks louder than words
It's lucky I'm clever
'Cause if I didn't know better
I'd believe only that which I'd heard
Hey Fimble, Elena, and Anonymous!
Fimble:
I remember what you're talking about, but I have no idea when it was.
I would say some time in October, late October maybe?
cheers, off to try find it again.
Fimble I LOVED Daytona. I stayed in a hotel right on the beach. Good times, good times.
Hey Mustard I'm gonna send you an e-mail cause I'm dense. (seriously I am)
Mayo, I've been seeing other blogs. And sometimes I've commented on them. Now don't freak out! It was just words, it didn't mean anything. And it's not you, it's me! The whole "exclusivity" thing, I felt suffocated. I'm sorry! I don't know a good thing when I have it! Can we work this out?
this made me giggle kapunua!
hi guys just a quick pop in!
i am out tonight so won't be around til tomorrow morning UK time.
love to all and enjoy any celebrations you might have!
bye for now mayo and SS!!!!
hi/bye elena, fimble, MIB, K and anyone else!!
Question:
Since they both started on the same day, which do you think will last longer - Mayo's blog or Gerard's marriage?
I'm such a bitch.
Goodbye, FASC! See you later!
Fimble:
Dudette, if you find it, post that shit here so we can laugh again. Good luck!
SAB:
I can only hope they both last as long as they're meant to.
And that everyone involved remains happy.
FASC
We always seen to pass each other!
Talk to you later.
SAB - see Mustard's answer. It is perfect.
Thanks Mustard
kapunua said...
This blog also introduced us to S(S)S, who is so lovely to know. How fascinating that you were around BlogBelieve before Mayo, like Sdock and I, and some others were, you clever thing. Only back then we didn't know it was you. That's so neat. ^_^
What do you mean? How could SS have been around BEFORE Mayo, I thought he came here BECAUSE of Mayo. Care to elaborate?
Kapunua said...
Indiana Jones was my imaginary (boy)friend. I was obsessed with him and used to talk to him in my head in school where he would give me advice. Then instead of keeping a journal, I would write daily letters to Indiana Jones and tell him about all the adventures I'd had and the ones I wanted to have.
But look, I turned out okay!
*twitch*
You know, I never quite got over the fascination? I few years ago I bought an Indiana Jones adventure vest with lots of pockets. In the pockets I have a toothbrush, extra underwear, a bottle of water, deodorant, a rope (in case I have to climb something,) and a little knife. I keep it in the trunk of my car in case of, you know, adventures.
I wore the vest once when I went walking through the woods, by my house, I kid you not. ^_^
Thanks K for making me laugh. I now have images of you with a black smeared face, dressed in camo and crawling through the woods with your stick gun. ^_^
Hi mayo, hi everyone, happy aninnversary.
Well, it seems that I will be spending less time here from now on. Real life is calling.
I have been told that I should be able to get funding to do a teaching course. This will take some sorting out so I will be busy. I have a meeting next week regarding it.
As I already have a degree, the course I will be taking lasts 4 weeks full time. It will enable me to teach english to foreign students.
I am really looking forward to it. I am hoping to do the course in London (nowhere in the north of england does it) then I can stay with my uncle and it will save me some pennies.
The course is accredited from Cambridge university and is a worldwide recognised course so I will be able to work anywhere. They are especially crying out for people to fill these posts in Japan.
Maybe this will be the start of an adventure and the start of a fulfilling career. I hope so.
I am still working part time st my sis's place too. Things are finally starting to happen. Please wish me luck.
Jade, I hope your sis is OK now.
See you as and when. Have fun everyone.
You're welcome, Elena.
MissT:
That is above and beyond fantastic. I couldn't be happier for you! I think it's a wonderful thing to do, to teach someone, and watch them learn. As I said, I'm sure it will be such a rewarding occupation. Please keep us updated on how things go. I can't wait to hear!
Hi mustard sweetie.
Thanks so much. I am really excited. I will keep everyone updated with my progress.
I will try to be around as much as I can.
I am off now to look up some more info about it cos they want to see literature about it before they hand over the cash.
I hope to catch you all later tonight.
see you later.
MissT
Congrats!!
What has happened sound so exciting. Like starting a new chapter in your life. (see always book references with me)
GOOD LUCK
Good evening Mayo.
Miss T!! - that is fantastic news! I'm so happy for you :)
SC - My sympathies are with you at this awful time.
Jade - so sorry to hear about your sister. I hope you all manage to sit down and sort things out soon.
BS - hello, who you? Your friend is a guy? That narrows it down somewhat. Nice to meet you.
PP - thanks for the good wishes yesterday and I'm glad I could make you smile * hugs * You're a sweetheart.
P.S Nice to see VM in the neighbourhood again.
Catch you later Mayonaise.
TTFN
GS
I saw you fly through.
Nice to see you. Have a good day.
If you were a bird for the day,where would you fly too?
Alone
by: Edgar Allen Poe
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
Because I'm just in a Poe mood!
ANON
I would fly somewhere warm. To a place where I could turn my face to the sun and feel its warmth.
If I were a bird, I would fly up on the telephone wire and gather will all the other birds and watch all the crazy shit that goes down in the world. I've always wondered what those birds talk about. Surely they must get a kick out of watching us silly humans.
i bet they are plotting their next victim. seagulls are the worst, they will seek you out and then just let one ripp on your head. the shame.
i dont know where i would go if i was a bird, i will have to get back to that one
When I was little my grandma told me this..
We would see a big flock of birds in the trees and she would say that they were all gathered for a wedding. I have no idea where she came up with that but even to this day when I see a big flock of birds I think to myself "Oh a bird wedding."
a bird wedding, that is so sweet. i have never heard of that before. i always the birds gathered their for the daily mothers meeting. gossiping and stupid things liek that.
i dont cant remember much about my grandma except that she told me that little girls should never whistle, and that i should have short hair, not long hair. only thing i can remember about her.
I don't know where I'd go exactly, but I would be out of here.
i thought where i would go.
i would just fly, i would fly in the sky, doing loops and twirling. i would like to feel the wind in my face and through my feathers. flying through the clouds and diving everywhere. i associate flying with being free, so i would like to feel free.
The Observations Of A Crow Written by Marty Stuart
Newspaper boy making his rounds
Spreading the word all over town
Driving his car just as fast as it will go
There's papers in the driveway, papers in the yard
Paper broke a window, he didn't throw it that hard
But it shattered like a dream, down in the valley below
Hey quarter moon, well how was your night
Yeah well, any minute now God's gonna hit them brights
So if you stick around don't say that you weren't told
Well, take it from me, you better grab your shades
And if he looks at you, well try not to look so afraid
Just do the best that you can, but don't think that he won't know
Creosote's dripping from the high line poles
Fast as you can count 'em, 12 in a row
Blessed accommodations, for the daily observations of a crow
Well, that cat down there, yeah, well he's Louie the Flea
He's married to a waitress by the name of Lora Lee
When they scream and they holler, man they put on a show
He's a protected witness from a Detroit job
Turned his best friend in, his name is Bob
I know who got the time, but who do you think got the dough
Take a look at that pilgrim, passing by
He's looking for love, I can see it in his eyes
He's running 'round in circles, you can take it from me
His shadow begs for mercy of every lost and found
In city after city, town after town
Tortured by the memory of a love he thought was supposed to be
Creosote's dripping from the high line poles
Fast as you can count 'em, 12 in a row
Blessed accommodations, for the daily observations of a crow
I'm a genuine scoopologist, the name is Crow
Sitting up here, watching the show
In this one horse, drive-thru, forsaken, dried up piece of the world
Well, it ain't much but it's my kingdom, it's my home
Even had a queen till that parakeet came along
Fast talking, loud squawking, green feathered scrak took my girl.....
Later
This is kind of the way I see it in my head...
Fimble that's funny about whistling. My grandma told me never to sit with my legs crossed swinging one leg. If I did she said I was giving the devil a ride.
Hi Everyone!
hey safe *waves*.
Hi Fim! *waves back* Fancy seeing you here! How's the studying?
bllody aweful, seriously i have gotten side tracked and just surfing at the moment. not even looking for anything, just do not want to do it.
i havnt spoke to you for ages and ages ;)
;)
Yes, I'm rather upset by your lack of contact ;)
Did Tornado like the beach, apart from the waves?
meow!
Seems calm in here today!!
LL, please don't jinx the calmness! LOL!
How are you today?
hey there loli, how is me girraffe. hope your feeding him well.
safe, i have been to the beach yet and i dont think i will. she hasnt return home with her grandpaents and i have this bloody case to write up so i dont think it will happen. i will just have to look out the window instead lol.
Teehee...Sorry about jinxing it!
I'm swell, thanks. And you?
Teehee! The giraffe's a-okay. Tall, though. And muddy!
LL - I'm great. Thanks for asking.
Fim - at least you're saving your eardrums!
iye, but my ears and head are bloody annoying. i am gonna go and attempt to do the case. wish me luck because i really dont wanna do it.
catch you girlies later
xx
Hiya SS, you little pixie, just wanted to wish you a fantastic, magical day.
Luck!!!!!!
hey everybody. :)
down at the library, catching up on blogbelieve.
wendy:
i hope you found something interesting in my closet, you sneak!
miss t:
that is such exciting news! i hope it really is the start of an adventure for you. how marvellous!
elena:
go ahead and post that next chapter. i'll catch up as i can. it might be a little bit before i can post the following chapter after that, but i'll do my best.
and a happy anniversary, blogbelieve! gosh. six months. that's kind of crazy, isn't it? :)
Happy six months, everyone. Pretty amazing stuff.
Miss T, I'm so happy for you, love. I knew you could do it ^_^
You didn't have to delete the other blog Martha. The 'other' blog others were talking about was the one you have with the OPS, Ergoproxy, Toujour and Anon616 that no one is allowed to read unless they are invited. The 'Third' blog was actually safe. But if you want to recreate Miracle Whip go ahead.
Don't start.
This is the beginning of the end.
Congratulations, you have given them exactly what they wanted.
It's only fair that everyone knows about it.
Hi everyone.
Thank you Elena, GS, TJ and CTV for congratulating me on the course. I'm really excited.
How is everyone?
good morning everyone
Happy 6 months!!
fimble I'd just fly about too, I wouldn't need to go anywhere just the flying would be awesome
missT that is great news and what a fab career it could lead into
This space isn't what it used to be.
I am growing tired of the incessant bickering.
Thank you ergo sweetie. I can but hope.
miss t. well done on everything hun. you deseve so much and i hope that you find a place where your happy to be. i am so happy for you
ergo, you can fly around withme anyday you like.
Anon at 4:31 PM,
I'm with you there.
Hola folks!
Happy anniversary BlogBelieve!
Six months...WOW...
That’s pretty incredible, isn’t it?
Thank you Mayo, SS and all of you guys. Just thank you.
MissT, that’s a great news, sweetie! I’m so happy for you. You deserve it.
So, how have you guys been?
Good to see you Fimble, Ergo, and Miss T.
I'm so proud of you, love. Really.
anon, if they want a secret blog just for them, then let them. there is no rules stating that they cant have their own blogs and blogs that they dont want any of us to see.
if they want it then they can have it.
no rules in blog believe.
so how are you doing, along with ctv, miss t and ergo
Hey Bella!
that would be lovely fimble!
Perhaps we could detour and have a swwop over Summer Bay just for you
oh and belle, you snook in there. how are you
belle = bella. god my typos
if we go to summer bay then i would have to go and sit on the fence around the beach. you have to sit there and ponder into the sea. everyone seems to do it
Anon I was planning on staying away from here but I will address the things you have said.
The ops created that other blog because they can not set foot in here without someone attacking them.
I have no idea who the ops invited or didn't invite. It is their blog so they can talk to the people who still want to talk to them.
No this place is no longer the same it hasn't been for a long time.
But that is not because of something the Ops recently did.
Goodbye
hey you guys! i'm still here! are you? :)
hi bella ctv
I'm good thanks too fim and bella
Back to relative (lol) normal tomorrow when my parents head off this afternoon.
i smell trouble and fudge.
TJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
choose the fudge, anon.
That's funny Marthat because it is listed under YOUR profile. And they CAN 'set foot in here' but obviously not without trying to bring the whole place down. Good let them stay away and on their own blog where they're begging SS to email them and talking about how 'CLOSE' they got with him in six months (because you know they think he is their best friend and he loves them or something), but don't pretend like you all don't have this blog where you go to talk about every one else here, because you do.
ERGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D
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