Who would I be without that lost reality…and your face, your words, and your touch?
You sing karaoke
without knowing
the words.
Can’t read,
but can kill it
in a verse.
That sweet dance,
a remembrance.
With that in mind, I continue...
I am fascinated with the everyday condition. I watch and listen and I am prompted to return the favor with ink and fiber. I am captivated by the remote.
I am drawn to those who misguidedly assume they have little to offer. I admire those with the biggest hearts, and the quietest egos. And the vibrant, passionate, strong willed and self assured also encourage my craft.
The dark and pensive, the quiet and plotting, the spirited and confined, the naïve and unafraid…any combination a profit, all notions sublime.
The gravity of a book, a wise old woman, a tale told in three verses and a chorus repeated twice, the advice of those who know infinitely so much more, and the unexpected bit of hope that arrives when you say I love you.
p.s. paint your walls a deviceful shade of change and then you will know why.
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Hello Triston, I have missed you too. How are you? Forgive me, I'm feeling a bit pensive and tired tonight.
New page
WOOO HOO!!!
triston
*nudge nudge wink wink say no more*
Glad to hear the pork is in, Ergo!
I'm just releasing my big black and white rooster, anyone want a look?
Ep you really shouldn't say things like this on here tonight. It could be taken the wrong way.
I enjoy a bit of irony now and then
;)
really MJ?
but he's got lovely plumage !
Martha: you beat me to the rooster thing!
I want to see Ergo's rooster!!!
I just hope the pork didn't slip out of her hands!
I am not familiar with these page changes....I felt this sudden feeling of abandonment. I should have to write again to relieve this torment.
-oh boy I'm so glad I'm alone in the house i'm laughing far too much
Bleeding Chaos said...
I'm feeling a bit pensive and tired tonight.
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*more hugs and sloppy kisses for BC*
I sure miss having Elena around!
I know she would be getting a kick out of this too!
WE MISS YOU ELENA!!!!
Thanks Wendy. Mwah! Not sure if Triston will like me blowing a kiss to him.
I believe anon616 will like my new blog, to give answer to some of my more kinkier comments. I don't normally write in that fashion and it was much harder than I thought. Much easier to do, but to write about it..hmmmm
We would never abandon you, Triston!
*le sigh*
Sorry to be the cause of such torment!
What ever can we do to make it up to you???
Elena are you out there? I hope all is well with you and your family
Triston said...
it was much harder than I thought.
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REALLY?!!!
I must see this, for myself!
And why would I not BC, I require affection also. Vampires need love too.
Kisses are death flavored with a hint of vanilla so I don't think it would be safe
Make it up to me...hahaha. I will save that till you actually do something to me. Let the tension mount...the prize is so much sweeter that way! ;)
Ah yes Vanilla death...I prefer chocolate death. BTW If Anon 616 doesnt return it means she liked my blog.....very much!!
hello guys
*waves*
Well, if you insist *blows kiss to Triston* I didn't know vampires can be sensitive when it comes to needing love, but I like it
Hey fimmy fim. What are you doing up this late?
Triston Anatole said...
Ah yes Vanilla death...I prefer chocolate death. BTW If Anon 616 doesnt return it means she liked my blog.....very much!!
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Oh, I liked it! I REALLY, REALLY liked it!
*waves to Fimble*
Be right back, in need of some ice!
Hello FS how are you?
Yes and we never fall ill..cough cough.
well, i had a nice chat with a friend i havent spoke to in a while. decided to go to sleep but read a blog. now sleep and tiredness have left my body and my mind and i have all these crazy thoughts running through it like a frigging frait train going ten to the dozen
*waves to fimble*
Very good then. I know I can be a constant source of entertainment...even as mist.
*waves to 616*
thought of you tonight actually, full moon and i know how you like full moon's.
hello martha, how is your head? how is life in general, work still being a bitch?
Sorry, I was feeling a little over heated!
You okay fimmy? It's not even two here and I'm already feeling drained.
i will be as good as i can be bc, cheers for asking.
hi again fimble
triston *fans self* you have a way with words!
hey there ergo, how was lunch? did you finally make me my butties?
Fimble Star said...
*waves to 616*
thought of you tonight actually, full moon and i know how you like full moon's.
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Okay Fimble! That gave me the giggles too!!
I do love a full moon, you are correct, love!
I'm so glad you could join the party tonight.
Have you met Triston?
Doesn't he Ergo? I just read his newest blog. Oh my *blushes*
Yes...overheated, very good for the heart. Sending all of that blood to much needed places.
Life is good right now. As they say laughter is the best medicine. So right now I am feeling good.
But I wish I was chocolate death now.
ergoproxy said...
hi again fimble
triston *fans self* you have a way with words!
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He sure does!
*tosses an ice pack to Ergo*
Hello Fimble Star It is truly my pleasure.
how come it gave you the giggles 616? and no it appears i have not met triston.
hello triston
MJ at least you taste a bit interesting, I tasted like tea!
I did fimble I wrapped in in foil and put it in the fridge
Fimble: Full moon's have taken on another meaning tonight!
;-)
Ahhhh... ice...I knew I forgot something..oh well...maybe next time...or cold drinks work also...Altoids are also another interesting feature I seem to like.
well, ergo. i will ravish them when i come and live with you. by then i will be a very very hungry girl!
Martha Jones said...
Life is good right now. As they say laughter is the best medicine. So right now I am feeling good.
But I wish I was chocolate death now.
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Heck Martha, I was BREAD, remember!
Soon, someone else will "inspire " you...history repeats.
*wonders what Triston tastes like*
Anyone saved that quiz???
i should have known 616, it always turns that shade of blue around this time. what on earth was i thinking, a completely innocent fimbles venturing out into the great unknown at this time, with all the dirty birds about.
maybe will just go sit in the chair over there and watch quietly :)
Who will inspire me?
Anon, shut up.
Triston Anatole said...
Ahhhh... ice...I knew I forgot something..oh well...maybe next time...or cold drinks work also...Altoids are also another interesting feature I seem to like.
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I love Altoids! The curiously strong mint!!!
Quite refreshing, aren't they?
That nice, slow, gentle, burn......
Goodnight.
Hello anonymous!
We were missing one of you tonight.
Welcome!
Anybody else need a cold shower?
yesssssssssss, soon I shall need that fan..I am holding up well. A pillar of self control I am.
heck inspiration is fantastic, so he who shall be ispired shall be inspired!
like Xanadu
Fim you always wondered what went on didn't you!
no I didn't save it, perhaps google what do i taste like quiz?
oh triston that was too easy!
Fimble Star said...
maybe will just go sit in the chair over there and watch quietly :)
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NO!!! You musn't Fimble!
Although we know you are oh so innocent ;-)
You must join us!
BC: Are you leaving us?
found it!
what flavour am i?
Bc have you gone to bed?
If so goodnight and sweet dreams
Forgive me dear lady. From here on out it shall be Wendy. As in the Peter Pan Wendy?
Martha Jones said...
Anybody else need a cold shower?
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Oh YEAH!
*tosses yet another ice pack to Martha*
Well, I suppose I could be Peter's Wendy......
Hmmm....can I wear a costume?
fuck I did it again and I still taste like tea!
chocolate tea, or tea chocolate
ok I'll be a bit different
taste like Peanut Butter.
I am one of the most blendable flavours; I go with sweet, I go with sour, I go with bland, I go with anything. I am practical and good company, but have something of a tendency to hang around when I'm not wanted, unaware that my presence is not welcome.
(If you were not Peanut Butter you would be Tea.)
FUCKING TEA AGAIN!!!!!
then I suppose a lot of people like tea....
Oh goodnight BC
sweet dreams
I taste like peanut butter
Ergo! I got Peanut Butter this time too!
If I weren't Peanut Butter, I would (still) be Bread.
Don't worry Ergo, I want you around.
We nuts have to stick together!!!
:D
Thank you 6 this will be very handy
Martha: Are you still Death??
With a hint of vanilla??
Sweetdreams to my sweetcheeks, BC!
All of these lovely overheated women...I believe I shall turn to mist shortly. mmmmmm
thank you guys for letting me participate for that short while.
goodnight
xxxx
you're very welcome fimble!
I hope you find what's bothering you, perhaps a good sleep and it'll be clearer in the morning, If you ever want to talk email me or grab me on aim.
sweet dreams honey xx
Good night Fimble....we make our destiny Its not easy, and alls fair in Love and War and destiny.
You are very welcome, Martha!
*Psst....I have another ice pack handy, just in case*
Goodnight Fimble *big hug* and sweet dreams to you, love!
I hope you're plans to go back "home" work out for you.
I think it will help you so much to be back in the UK. I know how homesick you are.....
(I'm glad we could help you to laugh tonight!)
No I don't like this not one bit.
Hot hot! I am Curry Flavoured.
I have a spicy personality. If you can take the heat, you'll love me, if not, I'll probably make you cry. I am not for the faint-hearted.
(If you were not Curry you would be Beef.)
I hate curry. Anyway I am Vanilla Death
Triston Anatole said...
Good night Fimble....we make our destiny Its not easy, and alls fair in Love and War
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Triston: Would you be a Lillian Axe fan? "Love and War"
wow we are all peanut buttery tonight!
sticks to the roof of your mouth don't it!
I just cannot think of answering that waiter there's a with anything but - octopus on my head!
mj - i think being vanilla death is still awesome
Goodnight FS
Martha: I can take the heat!
I add Tabasco to everything I eat, LOL!!!
How about SPICY, Vanilla Death?
:D
LIL Stevie Nudemaker...I know him very well...lol... or Stevie Blaze whichever you prefer
I feel like singing
I was like, good gracious ass is bodacious
Uh, flirtatcious, tryin to show patience
Lookin for the right time to shoot my steam (you know)
Waitin for the right time to flash them keys
Then um I'm leavin, please believin
Oh, Me and the rest of my heathens
Check it, got it locked at the top of the four seasons
Penthouse, roof top, birds are feedin
No deceivin, nothin up my sleeve and, no teasin
I need you to get up up on the dance floor
Give that man what he askin for (oh)
Cuz I feel like bustin loose and I feel like touchin you (ah, ah)
And cant nobody stop the juice so baby tell me whats the use
[Chorus x2]
(I said)
Its gettin hot in here (so hot)
So take off all your clothes
[woman's voice]
I am gettin So hot, I wanna take my clothes off
Oh
Let it hang all out
Why you at the bar if you aint poppin the bottles
What good is all the fame if you aint fuckin the models
I see you drivin, sportscar, aint hittin the throttle
And I be down, and do a hundred, top down and goggles
Get off the freeway, exit 106 and parked it
Ash tray, think its time to spark it,
Gucci collar for dollar, got out and walked it
I spit game cuz baby I cant talk it
Warm, sweatin its hot up in this joint
VOKAL tanktop, on at this point
Your with a winner so baby you cant loose
I got secrets cant leave Cancun
So take it off like your home alone
You know dance in front your mirror while your on the phone
Checkin your reflection and tellin your best friend,
like "girl I think my butt gettin big"
[ChorusX2]
(nelly let it hang all out)
Mix a little bit a ah, ah
With a little bit a ah, ah
(nelly let it just fall out)
Give a little bit a ah, ah
With a little bit a ah, ah
(nelly let it hang all out)
With a little bit a ah, ah
And a sprinkle a that ah, ah
(nelly let it just fall out)
I like it when ya ah, ah
Girl, Baby make it ah, ah
Stop pacin, time wastin
I gotta a friend with a fold in the basement (What?)
I'm just kiddin like Jason (Oh)
Unless you gon' do it
Extra, extra eh, spread the news (check it)
Nelly took a trip from the Lou to Neptunes
Came back with somethin thicker than fittin in sasoons
Say she like to think about cuttin in restrooms
[Chorus x4]
(nelly let it hang all out)
Mix a little bit of ah, ah
With a little bit of ah, ah
(nelly let it just fall all out)
Give a little bit of ah, ah
With a little bit of ah, ah
(nelly let it hang all out)
With a little bit of ah, ah
And a sprinkle of that ah, ah
(nelly let it just fall allout)
I like it when ya ah, ah
Girl, Baby make it ah, ah
Oh
a vanilla death curry?
MJ you will always be Vanilla death - you own that flavour
O_O I never knew the words to that song!
How about SPICY, Vanilla Death?
Yes I like that SPICY, Vanilla Death?
It has been a lovely (and fun) night in blogbelieve; but I think it is time for me to bid you all farewell (and parting REALLY is such SWEET sorrow) !
I shall see you all, in your dreams ;-)
Goodnight Mayo and SS!
Triston, Ergo, Martha, BC: THANK YOU for an enchanting and intoxicating night!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
6 when I have a bad taste in my mouth i pour some of the green Tabasco on my tongue
Goodnight Wendy have a lovely rest of your morning!!
Steve Blaze(now)! He's grown up! ;-)
I still remember him as Stevie, though!
*blows kisses to all*
I hope to see you ALL tomorrow night!
Thank you Ep and goodnight 6 have spicy dreams tonight
Hmmm to write some more or to head out the door...very hard choice.
goodnight wendy
I'm off now too
goodnight martha and triston, thanks for the laughs!!
Goodnight Ergo..Thank you for the kind comment.
Goodnight ep. It was a blast.
Martha you have a wonderful night, morning, it was great to laugh.
Yes it was Thank you Triston Anatole.
It has been great to laugh you have a goodnight/morning.
Tea!!
But if I weren't I would be chocolate - 'sweet but a little bit naughty'.
Umm, okaaay...
I don't know about the sweet part, and about the other I'm not saying.
Good morning everyone!
It is indeed a beautiful moon once again for night owls to admire.
*chases tumbleweeds around and out of Mayo's until regular visiting time*
hey PP I'm tea too!
perhaps we could open a cafe and serve scones with jam and cream!
Good *insert time of day here* Mayo, SS, Possum (tried to grab your tail), FASC, Kass (if she shows up), watchers, lurkers and assorted nuts of blogbelieve!
How are you all today? GREAT, I hope! I certainly am (thanks to another great night in blogbelieve). Thank you, Mayo!
You are a most gracious (mostly silent) host!
I hope we didn't make too much of a mess last night. Be careful of the bubble residue on the floor! It can be quite slippery, when wet!
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ergo - a post 'n run said...
hey PP I'm tea too!
perhaps we could open a cafe and serve scones with jam and cream!
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Would that be PEARL jam, Ergo??
Wham bam thank you MAN ;-)
Sorry Mayo! I suppose we were a bit naughty last night. *blushes* You can blame it on the full moon (and Triston)! He does bring out the devil in us!! ;)
To ponder today:
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"What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories."
George Eliot
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Wishing you all a weekend filled with moments which create wonderful, unspeakable (or speakable) memories!!
Triston may remember this. When Steve was known as Stevie, "See You Someday" from the "Love And War" album
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: PIXIE! Thank you so much for the new pictures of MY HEAVEN (a PIECE of it, anyway). You are SO talented!!!!
morning mayo!
beautiful sunny yet brisk blustery day here with me. one of those days you want to walk along the cliff tops and blow all those cobwebs away!
have a lovely day mayo.
morning SS! another day and no sign of you??
maybe today though, who knows?
hope you are well and happy.
good morning family!
hope we are all good?
just finished a brief catch up. your early hours of the morning gang are a bit naughty aren't you?? you made me smile.
fim *hugs* to you honey. hope you get some rest and have some answers in the morning.
ergo i am vanilla!!!
hi to PP, ergo and anyone that may appear at this time of the day...miranth, wendy???????
love to you all!
sorry wendy you are/were infact there.
hello and goodbye!!
At last! My pooter is being a botch and I have been unable to get online. A big hello to everyone here, everyone I've missed and the people yet to turn up.
I am off out for the day but will be back tonight (if my pooter cooperates)
Later Meffers!
Goodmorning Mayo, SS, Ergo, FASC, 616, Lucy Lu
hey PP I'm tea too!
Yay!
Tea for two
and two for tea...
(Sorry for the stood-on-bagpipes vocals that went with that)
perhaps we could open a cafe and serve scones with jam and cream!
That sounds a fantastic idea!! We can have have little frilly aprons, loud music, confusing english terminology, and stereotypical accents.
With your amazing culinary skills do you mind being head baker? There mightn't be much demand for my firestarters.
Even with jam and cream on top O_o
Hi Far, if you go walking on those lovely clifftops today take care and don't get blown away!
your early hours of the morning gang are a bit naughty aren't you??
They were so dirty I had to scroll down.
Then back up again.
And then down again ^_~
Fimmy, Don't ever underestimate how much people appreciate you. When things get bad in the real world and you feel undervalued, know that there are many people who think well of you, and care for you, all around the world. That little tornado sounds like a fan too =)
Well, we have been invaded this weekend by old hair rockers.
KISS, Ozzy Osborne, Poison, Whitesnake,and Alice Cooper are hair-teasing up our capital city over two nights.
Every bogan and babyboomer in Auckland just drove their Valiant's 9 hours south for the scarily coiffured.
And The Smashing Pumpkins and Queens Of The Stoneage are wondering why their show on Saturday here didn't sell out O_o
SS,
Is there any band you would drive nine hours for, past or present? Would you need company for the drive? What would you take, and what would you eat? Would you need a map? Would you need a suitcase?
Would you need a fake note?
Would you forget your tickets?
Would I just stop being a nosey bugger?
Hope you are spending happy times this long weekend with your loved ones =)
Mayo,
Same to you big guy. Hope you are well also, and enjoying a pleasant lie in today.
deviceful
This word is synonymous with a sex shop here O_O The same shop had Academy Award winning Weta Workshops design female, uhh...elongated instruments of pleasure...for them.
You won't find elitism here ^_~
Have a great weekend.
'night all!
*waves bye*
goodmorning
*waves*
Good morning, Fimble :)
Good morning, Mayo, SS, and other BBers.
I
am
drained.
In all senses of the word.
I hope you all have a wonderful, relaxing Saturday!
Good morning Fim! I hope you got the sleep that you needed and you feel REFWESHED!
There's something I've been pondering a teensy bit on this blog, something I used to know very well but forgot a bit when I stopped hanging out at writer's blogs etc.
Mayo, from what I can tell by your writing, I think you're the same way as this:
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
Most "serious writing" annoys me. Most "writers" only know enough to speak in cliches, or if they don't have enough to say, they cover this fact up with purple-urple prose and decorate it with verdant greenery. (True story: I used that phrase to snark someone's really badly written porn once. She did not get it and in her next attempt, actually used the words "verdant greenery" to describe a forest. I facepalmed to hard my brains almost came out the back of my skull.)
I think even outside of writing I relate to people who don't see the world through established idioms. The best writers can think in abstractions, that's what I believe. One "writer" once told me that it was pointless to try to avoid cliches because everything has already been written already. Her exact words: "There is only so much originality to be had." Never mind her lameass use of the passive form, just, come on!
We all use cliche sometimes, out of habit, when we're not minding what we're saying or writing. And new cliches are being born every year or so. But some people seem to be innately aware of this and can avoid them just by intuition.
Mayo, you're one of those people. Fim, you are too, to be honest. You are able to think in abstractions. I think that's kinda cool.
I don't know why I'm babbling about this this morning. I have to get ready for Hula rehearsal.
Ooh! I just had an idea for a story. See? I have been inspired. (And never mind my use of the lameass passive voice. ;D )
Later guys. :)
Hey, Splash! I hope that you, too, will have a refreshing, mellow Saturday. ^_^ I plan to.
Before I go, the entire thing:
From Childhood's Hour
Edgar Allan Poe
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then—in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life—was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent or the fountain,
From the red cliff or the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed my flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
Thanks, Jules!
I hope your plan to have a good day works out!
MORNING ERRBODY!
SKELETON CREW!!!!!!!!
I ♥ YOU!!!!!!!!
YAY!
I'm getting me a Leathermouth t-shirt!
And the Leathermouth cd is possibly going to be released on 6/1/08!
YAY!!!!!!!!!
I'm so excited! EEEEEEEEEEEEEKKK!
Have a great day!
Mayo,
Good Saturday morning to you! I hope you are somewhere relaxing and soaking up sunshine. I am going to try and do the same.
And just in case the sun isn't shining where you are....
*hands Mayo a big yellow and orange sun cut out of construction paper*
Now you can take the sun with you wherever you go.
I bet you feel warmer already, right?
Fuck yeah, you do!! That's Georgia sunshine...it don't get much hotter than that!
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Check out the smiley face!
Hi guys, lurkers, and anyone who is here!
I am having insurmountable, it seems, technical issues. I may not be able to post for a while. Until then, I wish all of you a happy holiday and/or spring break.
kapunua - I agree that some speak differently than others, thusly avoiding cliches. Unless the cliches are used for a purpose - tongue in cheek - to use another cliche. This humor is obscure to most however. But I think speaking with clarity and individuality requires a greater truth, no matter what the context and I think that is what shines through, inevitably.
I missed triston, wendy, martha, BC, and ep last night. Hi guys! *waves*
*hugs*
Mayonaise, missed me? :P
Haha, well I've been gone since two posts back. Wow dude, two posts in a matter of 5 days? I'm impressed! ^_^ I like this post. It seems so straight forward and non-cryptic. Just between you and me, I really never understand your blogs. ;) This one, I get, this one is a winner! I honestly can't think of what to say. How about, how was your week Mayonaise?
Mayonaise, keep those magical words coming. You write beautifully, even when you don't intend to. Each post you write seems to help someone.
xoxo;
- 007
Mayo, I know we do this a lot, but I feel like I need to tell you again.
Thank you for all of this.
I never, even "in my wildest dreams" that I don't even have, would have imagined that, together, we all would have made this place what it is.
We're all growing. We're all working on things. I've been around a lot of blogs this morning, and it's really special to see. People are turning themselves inside out, taking a hard look at themselves, and trying to make sense of it all.
That may not have happened had we not had Mayonaise.
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Okay, I'm off again, but I hope to be back later, you guys. Stay safe and happy. :)
PH, it's really good to see you back here.
Kapu, I am not picking on you I really just want to know. What made you think that thing that Mayo wrote about 'dance with me and I will keep you there in the light' was to you. The one you put on your blog. Most people don't think it was to you so why do you think so? I'm just curious I am not trying to be mean. Maybe he was. I just want to know what you think.
good morning everyone. i'm here at the library again -- right as the doors opened in fact. i have a shitload of stuff to get done today -- this whole week, really -- so no ambiable ambling in during the afternoon.
i'm all business.
*serious face*
Dear Mayo,
I know you don't care but you're fucking killing me. This is ridiculous. This is just fantasy. None of this is real. Especially not you. I'm going to take a carving knife and destroy the part of the frontal cortex responsible for fantasy and obsession.
Oy vey.
(Fear not, caring ones, no real self harm am I capable of. But I still allow myself to think about it. Everyone has their coping mechanism)
it's the fantasy that makes life liveable, anon.
imagination is everything!!!
:D
Hello Mayo, SS and family!
Shit guys, I’ve missed you in these past two days!
Yesterday I had to work and I spent EIGHT hours at the Coliseum because of the Pope's prayer and it wouldn’t have been that bad, had it not been for the fucking pouring rain!
Anyway, finding out you had posted a new entry was a nice surprise, Mayo.
I like the tone in this one: it sounds calmer than your previous posts.
"So many exceptional moments could have been lost while I spent time in orbit."
So true, my friend. We can’t understand how special they were until we look back, right?
But admitting to yourself they were indeed exceptional is not a completely bad thing:this way next time you face a moment like that you’ll be able to recognize it and enjoy its exceptionality.
Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself anyway.
“I am drawn to those who misguidedly assume they have little to offer. I admire those with the biggest hearts, and the quietest egos. And the vibrant, passionate, strong willed and self assured also encourage my craft.”
Those people are the ones who can mark your life and unconsciously make you a better person. They don’t know they’re capable of such a beautiful thing: they just do it with their wisdom and love, and you’ll never thank them enough.
I used to know somebody like that. I miss his sincere laughter more than anything else in the world.
Again, your words brought back memories. Not all of them are sweet, but I would never desire to forget their meaning, so thank you.
Take care, Mayo-man.
SS, dude, you must have heard us yelling around the castle the other day. We were searching for you everywhere!
I miss your awesome giggle, but I hope you’re happy wherever you might be in this moment.
Take care of yourself, friend.
Family, wish you all a great Saturday!
Have to go now but I’ll see you later.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*
1:03 - Sometimes I answer Mayo when he's not talking to me. No big deal; I just wanted to write a poem. ^_^
1:34 - There's nothing harmful about this blog unless you're taking it way too seriously. For most, this is a decent outlet. And if people want to have a bit of fantasy here, that's probably all right as long as no one gets tricked and no one gets hurt. Right? If someone is taking this too seriously, that's not Mayo's fault, is it? Everything
is perception.
Hey TJ! Hope you're on more often pretty soon. ^_^
Well guys, I'm off again. Today has treated me nicely, with a decent Hula rehearsal, grocery shopping and then a visit with cousins and Boychild. He really enjoyed the prezzies, to the point where he was clutching them and screaming laughter. Then, he (well, my cousins actually,) gave me a gift card to Bath and Body Works. HOOTAH! :D
Now I'm off to put some lights up in my yard for Springtime. It's cold as a brass monkey's balls in winter still, but after all it is Spring, so. :)
S(S)S if you are lurking, I hope you are enjoying all the loveliness of Spring with your loved ones. I'm sure you are.
Mayo, revel. Just revel. ^_^
To anyone else nice who comes through here, I hope to catch you guys later!
IT'S THE WEEKEND! ^_____^
Oh, hi Bella! Hope to talk to ya more later! :)
hey, i've got a question for all the denizens of blogbelieve.
as you might know, i'm going to bamboozle left (in 14 days now!), and a lot of the bands on the lineup are unknown to me.
any recommendations?
hey hi, kapunua. happy spring!
I didn't know Hawthorne Heights was playing the festival. I guess this is their first date since Casey's death. I was never into their music, but I'd support them by just being there if I were going.
My ass would be in the front row for The Color Fred, 'cause I gotta support the cherry.
Jimmy Eat World, New Found Glory, The Bouncing Souls, MXPX, and Anti-Flag for old school, legendary stuffs.
The Cab is the newest Decaydance imprint signee. Expect loads of pop/punk or the equivalent of Paramore, but male-ified. Never heard them, so I can't say if they're worth your time to check out.
I'd check out Blaqk Audio, too. Davey Havoc and Jade Puget from AFI. Electronic. Synths. Completely different from AFI stuff.
All of the other ones I've only heard of. Looks like a good line-up though. I don't think you'll be disappointed.
'cause I gotta support the cherry.
I guess I could provide an explanation.
Sometimes if I start talking really fast about Fred, instead of Mascherino, I end up saying maracshino.
Anyway. It's funny when I say it.
Jules, you cursed me with your crow.
Davey Havok
thanks mustard! i had a feeling youo would be the one who would know! ;)
several of the ones you named i had already planned on seeing, so it's good to get a confirmation on that.
it's going to be great, and no doubt about it! :D
almost time for me to go -- good thing it was quiet this morning because i had beaucoup to do over on my lj and out on the internet!
talk to you all later, i hope!
ciao! :)
mayo,
i hear so many things in this entry of yours, and some of them may just be a result of my imagination. since they warm me, and make me happy, i think i'll just close my eyes and keep on pretending.
but i love how optimistic a tone your posts have had lately. it's wonderful.
yesterday on my way home, i saw a bald eagle. not just spotted it overhead -- it was dashing and diving back and forth across the road, around and over the bus, chasing away a seagull from it's nest. at times it was skimming along at eye level.
i haven't seen a bald eagle that close since i was a kid. it was extraordinary.
it was a great thing to see, because the eagle has a special meaning to me now.
back on the day i was diagnosed, i saw a bald eagle flying near to the bridge as we crossed lake washington on our way home. it was a rare sight, and felt like a message. when i got home, and poked around in my books a little, i discovered that in some native american traditions the eagle can be seen as a sign from the gods (the great spirit).
i knew then that the eagle i spotted that day was my gods' way of letting me know they were with me, and would be, through the whole process. that though my world had utterly, drastically, and suddenly changed, they were still there.
i can't see a bald eagle now without remembering that.
so, chaotic though the next few weeks might be, i know i'm not alone.
i have my support -- them, my blogbelieve friends, you.
i think it's time for another "tally-ho".
tally-ho!
see you later, mayo-sama. :)
For Mustard, Fimble, You, and I:
What Are You Looking For
I walk the line of the disappointed
I celebrate when I'm in pain
My heart and mind can be disjointed
I built a bed in this hole I made
I recognize that I'm damaged
I sympathize that you are too
But I wanna breathe without feelin' so self-conscious
But it's hard when the welt's starin' at you
Another piece of the puzzle, it doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you working for
What are you searching for
Love
You won't be thinking of causes
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love
You join the line of the getting richer
You keep your face but it's movin' slow
You are defined by all that you have hoarded
But you're surprised it doesn't fill up the hole.
Another piece of the puzzle, it doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you coping for
What are you hoping for
Love
You won't be thinking of causes
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love
I'll never be what I see on the tv screen
I just keep dreaming of what I'm never gonna be
I can't think of a better way to waste my time then try
Another piece of the puzzle, it doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you hurtin' for
What are you searching for
Love love love love
You won't be thinking of causes
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love love love love
You won't be thinkin' of causes
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what are you workin' for,
What are you waitin' for
By: Sick Puppies
I thought this pretty much summed up how we were feeling last night. I hope you enjoy.
Yeah, wow.
Thank you.
It's so stupid to have a song or a poem or a story mean so much to you, but like I mentioned yesterday, when someone else gets it, there's nothing that can compare.
Wassup people of BlogBelieve?
Bwah! I feel like screaming! Why? Just because I can.
Mayo,
Go color some Easter eggs. Make them all colorful and swirly. Make some of them sparkly, too. You know, like this fantabulous tiara on top of my fantabulous head.
SS!!!
Dude! Bunnies. That's all I'm gonna say. For the love of bunnies, SS. We miss you.
Happy Easter!
Oh and hear comes my scream so plug your ears everyone!
LEATHERMOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hello hello hello to you all!!!
off for a catch up....
This song, the one I'm about to post, has been in constant rotation on Ye Ole iPod. It's a really simple song structure with a pretty slow tempo, and it's accompanied by only a piano (for those who need to know that).
So, if you've suffered or are suffering from a breakup or a separation from anything, or you're being pulled in thirty-two directions, or you're just trying to let go, I think you'll find something in these words.
The Conversation
Do you remember how we met?
Silhouetted by the lights...
You were drunk and tried to take a mental picture with your hands
I was thinking about that
And a bunch of other things
Stop looking at the floor...
I need to pour out this expansive dose of words.
I can't explain...
I need to be alone.
I know the timing isn't great
But these things, you just can't plan.
I just need a little time
So I can find myself again
'Cause I get buried underneath
All the things they think you are
And I'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt
To be left out
I had a pocket full of dreams
But I gave them all to you
Now I think I want them back
So can you tell me if I'm crazy or confused?
Don't ever change
The way you are
I've never loved anyone more.
SS:
I come here every bloody day and still you somehow manage to be more Blogger-savvy than me! I have no idea how you managed to write that there, but I just wanted to say that you've really brightened up my day, love. I really needed this today.
You have given me so much. There's no way I can possibly repay you. All I can do is try to show you my gratitude through my words. It doesn't seem like it's enough but I try my best.
I hope you know, I truly do value your friendship.
Thank you for everything.
bellatrix said...
SS, dude, you must have heard us yelling around the castle the other day. We were searching for you everywhere!
Then you were not looking hard enough, my friend!
Just one more thing.
P.S. Be the change you want to see in the world - Gandhi.
Don't wait, make that change today. I believe in you.
That, right there.
You'll never know how much that means to me.
I'm trying. I really am.
Thank you so much.
SS!
me too, me too!
it was spotted (not by me) but thanks very much.
*hugs*
take care OK and thank you!!
cheers CTV!!
oh hi anon!
honestly didn't see you there before i typed what i typed.
hi!! you good?
Hi FASC! Hey Anon. Whatchoo guys all up to today? I'm just about to make a smoothie.
Oh, wow. Can you say incredible timing?
Hello, dear :)
Hello again, FASC!
Oh damn!
I found people!
BlogBelieve was dead.
Didn't see you there, CTV. Aloha to you too. :)
I'm working on being subtle, but it kind of backfired. I thought nobody had found the calling card I left last time I was here.
Thank you both.
absolutely CTV, you are the smarty pants though!
hi K!
You mean to tell me you've been here, dude?
Uh, the middle name fits, 'cause you pulled the wool right down!
Good to see you!
when did you leave that anon??
we have been a bit slow i think?
what a place to put it?
i never check so low, just to our christmas pressie clickable link usually.
sorry.
Hey everyone. Hi SS, how are you? We missed you very much dude. I hope you're well :)
Hiya Splash!
Oh, sometimes subtle does backfire. (Take that to mean, "I can be really obtuse." ^_^ )
Hello, Kapunua.
It was just luck for me. I wasn't expecting to see anything and there it was! You shoulda seen my face.
Thank you, love.
Wait a tick, were you talking John Lennon the other night?
Hey, Jules!
Still cold as a monkey's you know whatsies?
Hey, love, RW just went off grocery shopping a few minutes back, but I'm sure she would want me to say hi.
She misses you.
Actually Splash, I was outside putting lights up around the garden (well, what will be a garden again in about a month) and it wasn't so bad. How about by you? (Heh.)
Does anyone want some smoothies? Acai, mango, peach, strawberry, pomegranate, honey and chocolate. It's yummy, I'll hand some out.
sounds great K!! i'll have some!
i'm anxious that i have to go soon.
Well, it's not bad in the sun when it decides to peek through, but it sure as hell isn't Summer outside!
Not that I'm complaining, but anyhoo.
Um, srawberry for me, por favor.
How are you guys doing?
Hello SS, long time no see. Are you getting some rest?
I mean, srawberry or strawberry really makes no difference write? Their's no telling how mini spelling mistakes I'll make twoday.
I think they make medicine for this, I'm pretty sure.
i'm good thank you anon.
i think we were kinda holding our breaths there for a min waiting for you.
well i was anyway. cos i'm kinda sad like that!
You have nothing to be sorry for Farawaysoclose. I tried something different and it didn't quite work out as planned, but its all good.
Its my own fault for trying to live up to my middle name!
Doing pretty well, thank you!
Just hanging out for the weekend, keeping the agenda open for things that will no doubt fly my way.
I take it you're doing well?
What's going on people?
I found $10.00 today! How lucky am I?
Pretty damn lucky. ^_^
You all having a great Saturday?
Are you enjoying all your sweets? I know I am.
How I love my Cadbury Creme Eggs.
I tried something different and it didn't quite work out as planned, but its all good.
Look, at least you can make the words all pretty and colorful.
It's a no-can-do for me.
But, it could be a good thing. At least I don't have a chance at blinding people with a multi-colored blog page!
Hey there, Anon! You doing okay?
Lucky Princess! And me, I did not win mega millions. Which probably makes no difference after all. ;)
Splash, no darlin', you get the smoothie mixed all together. That's how it goes, it's delish. And acai is so good for you. You'll drink it and you'll like it.
Anon, I want you to know you have a very distinctive writing voice. I can always "hear" you smiling. I hope that Springtime is treating you to glorious joy. ^_^
I found $10.00 today! How lucky am I?
That's the best feeling in the world!
Coat pockets, pant pockets, old wallets, books! It's like someone comes up to you and says, "Here! Lemme give you ten bucks for nothing!"
And incidentally, el oh el, you are quite awesome and fun. ^_^
its weird you know anon cos i tried to add some extra text to my blog and it came up "there" by accident! i thought to myself "well no fucker is gonna see those words of wisdom there" so i managed to drag the text somewhere more noticeable.
but thank you for trying. just out of interest...how long has it been there?? just so i can groan in frustration for you??!!
I know! And what made it funny is Sdock and I were hunting a parking place. She was being her normal, lovely self with her, ahem, colorful language and BAM!
It was right by my back tire and I told her she needed to apologize because I was obviously meant to park there.
She didn't.
you get the smoothie mixed all together. That's how it goes, it's delish.
I'm picky about my smoothies, and if it's not strawberry or strawberry-banana, it isn't going down the old esophagus.
>.<
But, I take your word that all that stuff mixed together is delightful as a little bunny rabbit.
hi princess!!
and btw how to you get cadburies in the states?? tis english you know!! and damn good. my fav chocolate!
Strawberry-banana.
Yum. ^_^
Hey FASC!
It was right by my back tire and I told her she needed to apologize because I was obviously meant to park there.
FATE! I tell you, it was FATE!
She should apologize, you know? Not only because of all of that craziness, but because you're the meffin' princess.
Am I right? I am.
and btw how to you get cadburies in the states?? tis english you know!! and damn good. my fav chocolate!
Cadburies are English? Wow, never knew that.
I live in good ol' Canada, by the way.
You are correct, Mustard. She just doesn't get it. She thinks she's like immune or something just cuz she's my sister.
As if. ^_~
Splash, drink your damn acai! Don't make me go over there! FASC, we totally do. I'm kinda over them though, they're so goopy and I'm a chocolate snob. Princess, you are getting acai in your smoothie too. And so is your sister.
Anon, I'm hanging out, you know, chillaxing, waiting for some CDs to be finished and released, making smoothies, blah blah. You? ^_^
Splash, drink your damn acai! Don't make me go over there!
I'll curse you a blue streak!
I don't want any damn acai! I want the strawberry part of that whole combobulation. And if I can't have that, I don't want your damn acai!
Now, what the hell you gon' do 'bout that?!?!
Ghetto-talk my ass? ;)
What the hell is acai? O_o
Waiting on some cd's, K? You and me both.
Fo'shizzle you crazy dizzle!
you sure draw a crowd, dude.
it was just you and capturethisvoid.
you show up, they all come running!
its good to see you
Waiting for CDs, eh?
Someone get Adam and Co. on the phone and lemme put a little bit of pressure on them.
Srsly. I need it and I need it sooooon.
Somthing else is scheduled to come out pretty soon. Can't. Place. It!
Cadburies are English? Wow, never knew that.
really????
FASC, we totally do. I'm kinda over them though, they're so goopy and I'm a chocolate snob.
*sharp intake of breath!! "how very dare you?!!"
i just fuckin love cadburies. i'm excited when my kids get alot of cadburies eggs cos i know i'm gonna sneak some.
rowntree and nestle just are not as good.
but i'm kind of getting in to dark choc now which basically means i'm getting old!!
Hey Princess! I'm doing good, thanks for asking. Although I'm a little deaf in one ear, someone has been shouting real loud at me lately...
Bah!
Smoke, I told you you'd get in trouble for that one day. I told you, and you did not listen.
Oooooh snap. You frontin' on me? ^_~
Seriously though, it's really good to hear from you. ^_^
Mustard, don't make me dunk your ass again. Cuz I will!
I have an arsenal of water guns.
Do not even think about messin'.
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