Fake away the day
and you fail miserably
who you wish to be
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Yes, I am aware.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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«Oldest ‹Older 2401 – 2600 of 2664 Newer› Newest»Well elena, I have made some shitty decisions, this time I hope I'm thinking things through.
There's no love at my crossroads, which should make me think with my head.
Always feel free to be nosy!
Cupcake - love can make decisions hard. Yeah, it's easier sometimes to make decisions when that emotion isn't involved. Don't feel bad about makeing shitty decisions in the past. We've all done that. That's how we grow as people, by learing from our mistakes. I'm famous for making the same ones over and over.
Really elena? me too! lol
But I'm getting better.
Romance makes things hard, in a way I'm glad my life is suddenly lacking it. Mind you, it's been my choice to make it that way.
Mayo, you are T-shit-disturber aren't you?
Well it's late, and I'm bored. So it's time for a round of sex-themed gifts over at Loli's!
-A
Anima did I miss something?
Hey Amyranth, Elena, RW, TJ, Cupcake. I'm missing some.
Sex themed gifts? I'll bring the aprons with tits on the front ;p
Mayo, you are T-shit-disturber aren't you?
I'm loving todays new word!'
Hi anima!
Buggeration! I must go!
love to all my dearies!
xoxo
anonymous says hello
Bye Cupcake
Talk to ya later.
Hey Rw How's it going?
Hello anon
Anonymous said...
anonymous says hello
Elena said....
Elena says hello
Bye cupcake
Anonymous are you still here and Elena are you still here?
Anon - Were you going anywhere with this?
Not to say a simple greeting isn't nice and all...
Paperheart says hello=]
BUUUT she can't stay long.
Hi Elena :)
Hello Anon.
Hello Paper who can't stay long. How are you?
elena, that's the second laugh you've given me tonight! :D
see you cupcake, and hello, anon?
Hey maybe Anon just wants to see how many people will show up.
Am I right or am I right?
Hey Toujours..
What's shakin'?
Hey Elena! *HUG*
I am sooo tired. I've barely slept lately, and I almost blacked out a little while ago. We shall not go into details.
How are you? =]
The more fear one has of anything, the more a vibrational match to the thing that they fear they are. Help your child discover that if he makes things that are potentially frightening a non-issue to him, then they don't bother.
Replace "your child" with "Gerard Way", and this is my wish for him & my sign off for tonight.
Have a good one, everyone :)
Hi ph sorry you cant stay long.
Sdock rocks for be the founder of the 'word of the day.' All by accident. It's perfect.
Paper I'm just ducky tonight.
No blacking out girl. Your head will hit the keyboard then heaven knows what you'll type.
Hey Martha! And Anima and Toujours, and Resurrected Wreck! ^_^
*HUG*
Paperheartxx!! :D How is work going??
Haha exactly Elena! =]
That wouldn't be too great now would it?
Like this?
gb
wow, that's all I hit?
Try again:
*beep*
Okay, never mind.
-A
Goodnight RW may you have sweet dreams. Hello once again tj
RW, it is good.
I've only gone in once! I posted a comment earlier this morning (probably around 8:44ish)
I work tomorrow night though. =]
I was just listening to HOW - my ringtone for work, by the way - and somebody just said "Did he say 'Tell your sister I'm her mother?'".
ouch.
-A
Earth to Anon...
Come in Anon....
Are you there????
Sdock10 said:
Mayo,
How are you? I feel you are slightly agitated about something. Dude, I wish I could tell you how to feel better about it. I really do. It's way childish I know, but sometimes it feels good as hell to throw the biggest possible tantrum. (Not physical violence against others) Just throwing some shit or breaking something. It doesn't help anything at the moment, but it does help you get out some of the bad energy and once you clean up the mess you made..you can look at your problem with fresh eyes. Feel me?
So, I had a talk with myself earlier. It was entertaining but not very enlightening I'm sorry to say. Why? Because I wasn't talking to the sweet voice...I was talking to the other me. Uh-huh...she's quite cocky, that other me. I do love her zest for life though. You know?
I find myself shut out of your house again. Not entirely my fault this time. I've tried not to spew so much. I suppose we miss you and are trying to fill the empty space.
I hope you are in exactly the right place at the right time today. For what? I have no fucking clue, but it's bound to be interesting.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. It's a South Georgia sunset.
Mon Dec 03, 10:29:00 PM EST
HEY AMYRANTH!=]
HAY PAPERHEART!
Go to LOLI'S blog, I left you a present. Don't worry, it's g-rated.
-A
What's shakin'?
my fist at the slow-loading comment box, elena! *grr*
hey there paperheartxx *hug*
hey there martha ^.^
good night resurrected wreck!
Anon said: I want to do the right thing, but at what cost? Perhaps it would be better if I just walked away.
Kapunua said: Mayo, that's not you, is it?
and
Mayo, we need you like a bad habit. One that leaves us defenseless, dependent and alone. ^_~
And here we thought we were done with the name hijacking thing. Unless that really was you, Mayo?
I'm thinking not.
Dude, methinks it's time to do a little damage control. Again.
Okay Amy! =]
*HUG*
Hey TJ! *HUG*
Sorry AIM pals; I got ghosted. It was weird how you could all see me typing. O_O
Maybe the anon said hello because s/he want to run naked through the blog and was checking to see if anyone was here.
Good luck with the job, PH :D
'Night MJ :)
'Night, all!
RW, not sure what you're getting at with that one. Do you think that anon was trying to take advantage of something I said? Or am I misreading you wildly?
Thanks RW!
Guys, thank you for the gifts!! I really need to think LONG and HARD about what I want to give to you guys!! =]
*HUG*
I'm thinking we're still having a problem with anons pretending to be Mayo, K. I could be wrong about that. Maybe it was an anon with info or just a concerned lurker. But it was confusing & it would clear things up no end if Mayo were to let us know if it was him or not.
Agreed.
It sucks, we used to be able to pick Mayo out of a crowd, SS, too. Now there are so many.
Mayo and SS, I miss being able to spot both you a mile away without even squinting.
*RW is getting very tired of playing Spot the Vultures*
And now, I'm heading to bed...
No really, I mean it this time!
Ta-ta! :)
Martha Jones said...
Maybe the anon said hello because s/he want to run naked through the blog and was checking to see if anyone was here.
Hey if Anon is male then I'm all for it. Nothing like a quick glimpse of a swinging ding dong to get the blood flowing.
Hi all.
Sdock10 said:
p.s. It's a South Georgia sunset
Sdock may be confused sometimes but she's not nuts.
Sdock had a beautiful photo of a sunset to go with her post but I couldn't transfer it over.
i think that we have a h it is better than time knowing when an anon is SS. We have people who thnk he is Frank and if they could spot him they would descended upon like vultures on a carcase
You guys are amazing, you have the gift of making others laugh! =]
I am going to bed, sweet dreams my friends, and I hope will talk to you all on Wednesday? Maybe tomorrow.. but that is highly doubtful, work till 9:30.. RAWR. =]
xoxox.
- 007
*HUG*
Hey if Anon is male then I'm all for it. Nothing like a quick glimpse of a swinging ding dong to get the blood flowing.
I did mention that I chase things with axes, did I not?
*RW is shutting down the computer now - yes, she really is!*
PP I emailed you. Are ya still on?
Goodnight ph have sweet dreams
RW that's just not nice. You shouldn't chop off run by ding dongs.
rw and elena Hahaha
Where the hell is everyone?!
I'm still here. I'm chaineed to the computer filling book orders and writing about ding dongs.
Guys, I think PH wants to give us something long and hard for christmas.
Wood?
GTG, HEROES!!
-A
Really where is everybody?
Kapunua,
L sent you an email back, look for it.
I just wanted to leave a quick note to everyone to say, thank you all so much for a great birthday weekend. The party was loads of fun, the wishes were great to have, and the friends were full of love. I really appreciate each of you, and want you all to know that I have come to love you very dearly. Including the Party Sheep. :)
Thanks again, and I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow. Take care of yourselves!
Faith, Lope, Hope, Blowsticks, Party Pavors, and Soft-Pore Corn
J
Goodnight ops J&l
Thanks J and L. I emailed L back, too. ^_^
Mayo,
Where are you, man? We haven't seen you in a blue moon, as we say in the South. I don't know how long it takes for a blue moon to show up, but you're giving it a run for its money.
You wound me, Mayo, you didn't show up for my party. Or even for my birthday. Unless you were masquerading as a Party Sheep, well, I didn't see you.
You know we're gonna pester you until you show up. So come on, brother, we've built a fire to ward off the cold, and we've got hot chocolate. You've even got some gifts under the Mayo Family tree at Lolita's. It won't be Christmas without you!
Hope your tomorrow is better than your today. You deserve some more good ones.
love to you, my brother
J
PP, you got filtered as spam in my inbox, what the hell? BAD inbox!
I got your email, but I have to tell you, I'm 120% clueless as to everything you're referring to in there. O_O
Hi everyone how are you guys?
Guys? I have just looked in my STUPIDASS SPAM FOLDER and found a few of you in there.
I'm sorry. I wasn't ignoring you.
Martha what's new?
IF nothings new just make up something.
Need something to chat about.
Oh I know - What's your favorite Christmas movie?
I'm off to bed guys, as confused as ever.
O_O
Pickled Possum, maybe you should just drop that reference here and see if there's any fallout. What's the worst thing that could happen? Right? It just seems so random.
Well, goodnight all!
Oh, I won't see you guys till I'm on DM tomorrow on Crackberry.
My favorite Christmas movie. I don't know
One more thing you guys, to keep in mind:
Fake away the day
and you fail miserably
who you wish to be
Mayo understands:
this goes for everyone here,
even the author.
We all know this. Just bear it in mind.
Goodnight Kapu sweet dreams
The word of the day,
of which we should all take heed:
"Sensibility"
OkPP what is going on if you want email it to me. Its on my profile.
hey I just realized why I feel sorta lost here sometimes.
I didn't take INTO TO CRYPTIC 101
Well damn.
I know I'll get me a book
CRYPTIC FOR DUMMIES
That might help
You and me both elena.
SS,
Last, but certainly not least.
One more "thank you" for my birthday present. THAT is the gift that keeps on giving.
Your cake is still at Discuss Mayo, on the counter, wrapped in cling wrap. Better come get it soon, even the cling wrap can't keep it fresh much longer!
Remember that you're not alone in this, either. I hear you, too. You're that quiet little voice that soothes me when I need it the most.
You could never let me down. My faith in you is unwavering. As I hope yours is in me. I will be here when you need me.
Please take care of yourself. I worry about you.
love you, babydoll
J
Get me a copy while you are at it elena
Sure thing Martha.
Where is everyone PP what is thename you have
hey you guys, here's how you handle the cryptic shit: rest your forefingers lightly on your chin, nod your head, and say "mmm, is that how it is..."
and then you wait.
because the secret to people spouting off all cryptic is that it's either smoke up your ass, in which case, it's nothing, or they really, really want you to know, and sooner or later they'll end up telling you.
that's my game plan! :D
Here I am sitting in the corner of Mayo's house again. You know I've grown quite fond of this corner. It's nice and warm and well welcoming. Wonder when the next big drama will hit?
Good advice tj
In the morning most likely or in about 11 minutes.
Well said Toujours.
Think you're right.
Well I'm off to bed you guys If anything happens email me. Night
Okay obviously I don't want to work so I'm here. Left to my own devices I start to come up with a conspiracy theory.
Mayo is Gerard Way. But Gerard Way isn't really Gerard Way. See the real Gerard was abducted by space aliens right before PR (yeah some of you can see where this is going) Anyway; he was taken to another planet for observation. (I truly hope no anal probes) So the Gerard Way here now is a pod person. That's why he's so different.
of course, mayo is a whole 'nother level of cryptic, you understand. the usual rules don't apply. ;)
No he is a clone. You see the real got hurt so they made a clone and gave it his memories. But the clones personality is slightly different so now we have new Gw
No wait I've got it. The Gerard we have now is really Gerard's evil twin Gerald. He tucked away the real Gerard and took his place. Yep, that explains it.
No he fell and hit his head and it turned him from a caring good person into an oversexed dickhead
I really should be in bed
i think you guys have been watching too many reruns of the x-files.
Oversexed dickhead - I like that.
How about this one...
Gerard is really an undercover CIA agent. He's infiltrating a porn ring. Of course he has to walk the walk and talk the talk so they'll believe his cover.
Lol that may be true squeak squeak, but it is funny to read about the conspiracy theories ^__^
Hi everyone
Hey BC
Got any thoughts on this?
i have to admit -- i like the undercover cia agent idea. it's like elvis being a dea agent.
hey there bc -- how are you doing tonight?
hey there Elena, squeak squeak. how are you guys? As for theories, I am coming up blank. I'm too busy laughing right now although I like the CIA agent scenario :D
Yea, Gerard Way a man like Jack Bauer. No telling how many times he's actually saved the world.
All in a 24 hour time span.
Or...(way too much time on my hands)
Gerard is the new MacGyver. It is truly amazing what the guy can make with a simple sharpie, a glow stick and candy.
^^Lol :D
you guys are so silly. i like it. ^.^
i'm going to scoot on out of here. i've a few things to do before bed tonight. i don't know if i'll be able to post tomorrow -- it was starting to be difficult getting a comment box -- so if you don't hear from me, wave into the dark corners, 'cause that's where i'll be lurking! :)
mayo,
no middle-of-the-night couch camp-out tonight, so i'll just say this to you now.
are you remembering to feed your spirit? are you giving it regular little snacks to nurture it and keep it healthy? maybe you're seeing new sights, and that's keeping it stuffed full. or maybe the end-of-the-year rush has you inadvertently on a fast.
if it's the latter, do this for me. tomorrow (or today if you have enough of it left), stop for a moment, just come to a standstill, and taste the air. not a nibble, mind you, but one of those full-on wine-tasting roll-it-around-in-your-mouth tastes.
it's air, after all. the stuff of life.
will you? i hope so.
good night elena, bc, martha, and whoever still remains behind the curtains.
good night, mayo.
Goodnight squeak squeak.
Goodnight elena, and anyone else who is lurking. Goodnight mayo.
Okay then guess everyone has gone so I'll come out of my corner.
Mayo I don't speak directly all that often. Not sure why maybe it's because I don't have anything to say to you. Maybe it's because I have way too much I'd like to say to you and I just don't wanna let that whole rant out.
So here's the thing. I like being here. I like the people, and hey, I like you. I feel a weird common bond. Like me I don't think you like to be alone. Oh I pretend that I like it but deep down, not so much. Being a part of this group of wonderful people makes me feel in some small way wonderful too.
How about you? Do you feel special to be a part of this? You should.
So enough already. I'll stop rambling and head off to bed. Of course my husband will be snoring loud enough to wake the dead. On second thought I think I'll just sleep over there in my corner. Like I said before, it's feels and smells like home.
Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, BC and all others enjoying the view!
*looks in dark corners and waves to Elena and TJ*
Has everyone recovered from J's birthday bash? I hope everyone made it home safely!
I'm saying hello and goodnight all in one shot/comment this morning. I must get some sleep. I'll have a busy afternoon and evening filled with sreaming teenagers....
*note to self: remember the earplugs*
I hope everyone has a great (or at least decent) day/night.
Love & Hugs to all!!!
#6
Hello Mayo,
With regards to the earlier anon I hope this place goes on for a while - you seem a righteous bunch and I like lurking, especially as I've deleted my Buzznet account because it's so frustrating trying to express your own opinion over there. Deliberatly annoying some of Gerard's more ardent ass-kissers notwithstanding....
#A drunken ant will always fall over onto its right-hand side#
Mars
Anon @ 5.02pm,
I'd rather not know who Mayo is, unless he nixed his blog, in which case a fabulous Scooby-Doo style unveiling at the end would be fantastic, if probably disappointing...
Mars
Kapunua said;
maybe you should just drop that reference here and see if there's any fallout. What's the worst thing that could happen? Right? It just seems so random.
Martha jones said;
Where is everyone PP what is the name you have
Sorry for getting back so late.Old blokes don't like blogs.
Just dropping in belablack-super evillain defender of the pure evil truth. Curiously grid associated.
Any ideas anyone?
Morning Mayo,
Morning All,
I'm about to start my day at work. Wish me luck so that I don't kill anyone!
Hope you have everything you need today and it all fits into a nice ziploc bag so you can find it easily.
Love to All,
S
Morning everyone :)
Hey Mayonaise. Do you know how wonderful it would be if you decided to show up here today?
"I guess you guys must miss your host. He hasn't been around much lately, has he?"
And we do, and he does. We need to you to be alright, Mayo, my man. We don't need you to be perfect, or right, or super okay, because lord knows none of us are. Just be alright, okay? Let us know how you're doing.
SS, same goes for you. In this together until the end.
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I hope you all have a splendid Tuesday. Feels like it's gonna be one of those days. I hope I'm wrong! I'll see you all around :)
Gerard telling audience in Melbourne to go fuck themselves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?
v=cXd23IlCTwo
It's so quiet here.
*desert winds blowing through mayo*
Okay Mayo, talk time.
At first most of us were suspicious this blog could be Gerard Way himself and you played along beautifully.
We arrived here via loveman because we were annoyed at the Projekt Revolution behaviour and the treatment on stage of Frank, a man who has never been anything but giving of his time to the fans.
It gave us a place to vent our frustrations that someone so talented seemed to be going off the rails in his personal and professional life and was causing pain in others.
We saw tension on stage. Gerard's performance alternated between manic and immature, with accusations of returned drug habits causing weight loss and increased sharpie sales at PR show cities; Frank stayed to his side of the stage and his exuberance died; Ray seemed to be trying to overcompensate like nothing was wrong; Bob had accusations of playing drunk levelled against him; Matt hung back on stage, not allowed any spotlight; Mikey was/wasn't/was coming back. The rest of the band seemed to be struggling to keep it together.
We hung around because you seemed to have characteristics that fueled our accusations and fulfilled our expectations of how Gerard would respond. Your blogs correlated so well to his life. We thought this was a direct place to vent and get answers.
But time passed.
Gradually we started to waver in our conviction. Over time you seemed to become more mellow, more progressive, even a little apologetic. While it was what we had once hoped to hear it wasn't being mirrored in Gerard's life.
Was this when the real mayo started standing up?
The alternate universe caused an upheaval but the people returned. Why?
Because your blog family had formed a community, bonded by love of a band that they didn't want to see self destruct; friendships mature enough to survive the initial disappointment; the feeling that some of our concerns were about the band were being heard by people in the industry and that some of them visited by occassionally,and...yourself...like the invisible Charlie, never seen but directing our actions occasionally. And no, we are not all angels (PH excepted).
Regardless of the deception I like to think the community you created has grown on you, that maybe you would like to play sometimes with some of the funny, caring, witty, provoking, provocative people that you gathered here.
We are forever greatful that through you we found each other, SS, anons, lurkers, and even a mythological unicorn for socky to play with.
It gave us a place to vent our frustrations that someone so talented seemed to be going off the rails in his personal and professional life and was causing pain in others, that no other MCR fansites agreed with. Our concerns are still there with Frank and Gerard. We'll still discuss them regardless of who you may be. And party, and celebrate and embrace.
But the concerns are also there with you Mayo. You are the master of this universe. We thank you for indulging us, but come out and play.
Will the real Mayo stand up?
*most possibly longest blurb ever*
Thank you, PP, for reminding me of the reasons I am here.
Morning Mayo
Thanks for letting me stay over. Really need to get some floor pillows. Gonna have a damn crick in my neck all day now.
Afternoon PP,
Very neat précis of what's being going on here. I agree (with my admittedly limited knowledge) with everything you wrote except the last question - would a magic trick be as magical if you knew how it was done?
Reality is often mundane, but the land of BlogBelieve can be anything you want it to be.
Mars.
Hi mustard and elena.
Thanks, mustard.
I was just beginning to think I'd turned into an axe wielding RW clone and scared everyone away.
* pulls out floor cushion for elena and applies nice gentle rotational thumb pressure to elena's lower rear neck*
PP, well said sweetie! =]
Sorry to burst your bubble, but PH is not an angel! *blushes*
hello MIB, elena, marsattacks & PP!
I see we're trying to coax Mayo out of his hidey-hole. For me, I'm afraid, it would be the same as when Lois & Clark finally married in the New Adventures of Superman - you badly wanted it to happen, but once they got together it just wasn't the same.
Probably a bad example - now I'm showing my age!
Love,
Kass xx
Mars said;
would a magic trick be as magical if you knew how it was done?
I understand exactly what you are saying mars. After my waitressing experiences it took the pleasure of eating at restaurants away after seeing what went on behind the scenes to get the food on the table. The mystery and glamour of marvellous food was gone.
Just hoping mayo doesn't feel obliged to hide so much really.
*pp still feeling a bit like the person who said you know-what about santa*
thanks PP couldn't have put it better myself!!
hi to anyone still here!
Hey Kass! =]
Maybe Mayo is just preoccupied with stuff in his life? I'm really hoping that he is alright!!
Mayo, are you okay? Your long absence has been worrying people!
Hello Paperheart and kass79.
Kass have you seen the FA Cup draw? You get QPR at home, I get Luton or Forest away, Fimble Star has Villa away and MissTottenham gets Reading at home.
I'm thinking we'll cruise ours!
Mars
Hey FASC! =]
Hey Marsattack! =]
See you people later - my baby godson's screaming his head off and I have to be babysitter.
*Reminds self to book sterilisation*
Mars
Hi PH, hi everyone else.
Kass did you say you're chelsea, mars liverpool? i'm man utd, sorry bout that but such is life!!
BYEE MA! <3
=]
You all enjoy your days!
I have to go!
All my love;
and a few zillion *hugs*!!
- 007
PP thanks for the neck rub. Now I really don't wanna go to work. I just wanna stay here. Damn, cold cruel world. But alas I have to go sell books.
Bye Mars!
I've been to The Bridge and seen Chelsea struggle painfully against lower-ranked teams than QPR, but it's a pretty good draw. Spurs are going down....
(Kidding, MissT!)
Love,
Kass xx
Bye mars.
Hi farawaysoclose, paperheartxx, kass79!
*pp getting football glazed eyes. Comes from a country of overpaid field thumping, rugby players*
Blush away PH. See, I told you you were.
Blush away PH. See, I told you you were.
Ohh shush Pickled Possum! =]
*blushes*
BYEE!<3
bye PH, bye mars, hello PP, kass elena.
PP what were you saying re belablack??
FASC,
That name came up when I was fooling around with the grid picture. I was shifting it to a file and the line 'belablackfckingaria' came up.
I did a spot of googling and ended up at super evillain dude.
Mayo,
I hope you're paying attention - once your last post got 3000+ replies the site practically froze and we'll be getting there soon....
Kass xx
Have a good day PH!
*hug goodbye*
oh PP i see. i googled belablack and he's a 28yr old single male from texas??
i don't want to know any more i don't think. i don't want it all to end.
*not mentioning old texas buckle blog to FASC*
Who knows really, FASC?
It gave me a bit of a surprise when I saw that too. I could be completely barking up the wrong tree.
Yep FASC, so did I out of curiousity. There's a Bela Black site - www.belablack.com
Scroll down to the post dated 27th May and that could almost be our Mayo's personal ad.
Spooky...
Love,
Kass xx
P.S. Sorry Mayo!
Kass, you're starting to hit the other spots I did. There's another to go yet.
oh god! lloyd!
liked the orgasm post!what do you mean by theres one more to go yet PP?
Sorry mayo for all the speculation.
I actually only explored further because I wasn't seeing the hand others did in the grid.
Regardless, hot or cold assumption, blogbelieve here has outgrown any results of whom your identity may be.
Are you feeling it?
Too lazy to hunt any further, but the personal ad was funny so I'll stick it in here:
Hi there,
I’m seeking a like-minded woman to share a disastrous 3-9 month relationship with, ending in acrimony, emotional chaos, and possibly legal proceedings.
My name is Lloyd, I live in Chicago , I’m 27 years old, fairly well educated, I hold down a good job and am pretty stable. I’m told I’m fairly good looking, but I’ll let you be the judge of that - I’m generally caring and very honest.
I am looking for an attractive female who will at first give me obsessive love, praise and devotion - but whose paranoia, self-loathing and fear of rejection and abandonment will eventually lead her to alternately push me away and pull me closer in a love/hate cycle that will lead to infidelity, consensual sexual violence, and the eventual emotional breakdown of one or other party - or if we’re lucky - both!
You should:
* be 20 to 35 years old;
* have a history of short, intense, drama-driven relationships;
* enjoy degrading and dehumanizing sex;
* have undergone negative psychiatric evaluations in the past; and
* be willing to threaten self-harm and/or annihilation as a weapon to control your partner and make them stay with you and care for you.
Although not completely necessary, I would prefer women:
* with nice smiles;
* that have larger than average breasts;
* who are married or already in unstable relationships;
* that drink to forget; and
* who have had a previous established diagnosis of Borderline or Dependent Personality Disorder or Bi-Polar Affective Disorder - or who are currently taking Lithium Carbonate, SSRIs, or Tri-cyclic antidepressants
If you think you meet these requirements (and wow, I’m getting excited just writing them!), please don’t hesitate to get back to me as soon as possible. In the meantime, thank you for reading my advert, and do take care.
All the best,
Lloyd
I'm practically his perfect woman - get me to Chicago!
Love,
Kass xx
its fucking freaky isn't it!! alot of us could be perfect for lloyd!! jesus!
Lloyd. Yes, that was a rather special moment.
*covers chest protectively*
oh and belablack says he likes holandaise?? holandaise/mayonaise?
ok i'm clutching!! i actually don't want to know!! i just like to punish myself!!
actually my tits aren't up to it, i think lloyd would want them slightly larger!!
LOL I thought that about us and Lloyd too. Remember the 'grooming' comments ages ago.
Apologies to Lloyd for it being posted here, but you never know, he might get lucky XD
Goodmorning everyone!
Hi Mayo. Care to join us today? I would really love it very much.
yep! sorry lloyd!
*giggling stupidly*
hi anima!
FASC, you're doing what I did lol.
I started finding all sorts of similarities. It's like looking at an accident about to happen. You just can't look away.
Who.
The.
Fuck.
Is
Lloyd?
Don't answer that. I don't think I wanna know.
Yikes, the comment box is at the bottom.
So what about Mayo saying he was 'married'?
Lloyd's personal ad is pretty funny.
Hi anima!
The radio here has just said the MCR concert for the 6th has completely sold out.
Bum, it's going to be crowded in the mosh.
Hi MIB, FASC, PP, and Kass!
Hiya Anima! Hi PP!
PP:
Could you please explain what you saw in the grid picture that made you go on this hunt?
LOL at mustard.
Lloyd is lovely and looking for people like us.
Must vamoose like a goose.
Have to be up in four hours for the Foo Fighters general ticket sale.
*missed out on FF presale - grumpy scowl*
Have fun.
Night all.
Pickled Possum said...
FASC,
That name came up when I was fooling around with the grid picture. I was shifting it to a file and the line 'belablackfckingaria' came up.
I did a spot of googling and ended up at super evillain dude.
December 4, 2007 9:00 AM
Here MIB.
Bye PP!
night PP.
hi and bye MIB
gotta dash out!
So......
What the fuck does that mean?
*isn't gonna lie...Lloyd's little description kinda weirds me out*
Lloyd's description was on belablack.com - it sounded interesting, so Kass posted it. I don't think 'Lloyd' has anything to do with this.
I don't think 'belablack' does either. But whatever, what do I know.
Mayo, please come by and say hi.
SS, it would be great to hear from you too!
Okay, I gotta jaunt...
This keeps getting weirder and weirder.
Hi Anima!
Spookily I once stalked a 'Lloyd' and he'd be 27 now. It was a Summer job working in a transport office and he was a cute, blonde truck driver surrounded by fat middle-aged men - my 'overattention' got so bad he actually moved to the night shift.
*still feels burning shame*
Kass xx
P.S. Please be assured I no longer have any bunny-boiling tendancies.
Guys, belablackfckingaria is where I put the picture that I decoded. It's my photobucket! There's nothin' there!
Boo, Hiss, Lolita Haze! Spoiling all our mad conspiracy theories.
And there we were getting all excited that we'd cracked the code and Mayo was actually a random guy from Texas with a penchant for internet oddities....
Kass xx
Awww Kass, I can't believe he moved to the night shift. And I am sure your bunny-boiling days are over. ;)
Lolita, that is too funny. Thank you for clearing that up.
Well Mayo, I asked you from almost the beginning what your plans were for "the Lovelies." Now one of them has lit a match in your house, and you might have to come in and rescue them before the house burns around them.
Will you? The faithful Heart, the Wolf-Sword, the Mothers, the psycho, the Nurses, the Victims...... The villianous strangers even?
If you do that, they might see your face. But will you do it anyway or..... will you let them burn?
I started to feel as if you had become fond of the Lovelies and maybe, you loved them a little.
Have you lied to all of them in order to love them better? To make them love you better?
Or is your love, like most love, a lie and you're laughing at the stupid "Lovelies" as you watch them try to find the door?
Are you Bela Black - Lloyd? Are you and SS one in the same?
Or will the beloved SS come in through the window and pull you all out?
I wait with bated breath. Because in my own way I care about the Lovelies too Mayo and I hate what you've been doing to them.
Are you Bela Black - Lloyd? Are you and SS one in the same?
There's no Bela Black, golly gee! That's my photobucket. It's got nothin' to do with Mayo, nothin' to do with Lloyd, whoever he may be.
oh lolita you ruined our detective work, i was having quite a giggle in my own strange tormenting way!! lol! we are all crazy really aren't we!
sorry lloyd! ha ha!
Mayo, you wrote this in one of your posts "I need you." I hope it is still true.
Well timed post Anon!
Are we getting too close to the truth? Is Lolita Haze really Mayo's alter-ego despatched to dampen the investigative fires? Is Lloyd Mayo and Mayo Bela Black? Is SS another red herring?
The mind boggles...
Love,
Kass xx
:) :)
Anyone seen Adrian Lyne's 9 1/2 Weeks?
I think that's what Lloyd's looking for! Teeheehee!
So who's the psycho?
fuck knows S&V!
mayo where are you??
We all go a little crazy sometime......
MUWAHAHAH!
Mayo,
Pumpkin, where are you?
Hello FASC, seems I keep missing you! How are you today?
Don't you just love all this confusion?
Anonymous, I guess Lolita took the wind out of your sails, hunh?
J
Sorry! Yeah....I'm Mythbusters.
hi J. i know we never seem to meet of late!! are you still floating on air re the whole SS pressie??! i would be! you lucky thing!
K is irrsascible said...
LOL guys, can you post a message to Mayo for me?
MAYO KILLED SIRIUS! DAMN YOU MAYO!
Tue Dec 04, 11:18:00 AM EST
don't understand this but erm anyway here it is!
Kapunua sends a message from her Crackberry:
MAYO KILLED SIRIUS! DAMN YOU MAYO!
FASC, I'm glad to finally catch up to you. Yeah, I'm really psyched about my gift! I had no fucking clue that he would do something so cool. Isn't he the sweetest?
J
FASC,
It's a Harry Potter reference. Sirius is Harry's godfather. It's ok, don't worry.
J
J - well that was the only sirius i could think of. i love gary oldman!
We need some clarification from Mayo and SS, I think.
A visit or something.
Just to set records straight, to tell us that there will always be "vultures" among us, and that we are still doing good by being here.
A little faith-restoration. For me anyway. I entirely incapable of creating my own.
yes J, he is the sweetest!
MIB it would be nice to hear something. anything??
FASC,
I love Gary Oldman, no-one does subdued evil quite so well:
"I like these calm little moments before the storm. It reminds me of Beethoven. Can you hear it? It's like when you put your head to the grass and you can hear the growin' and you can hear the insects."
He definitely should have had a bigger role in Harry Potter, but then even Alan Rickman's been wasted of late.
Kass xx
i love gary oldman!
Nummy.....
He played Dracula, too!
I agree Mustard.
MAYO - CAN YOU HEAR US????? WE NEED YOU!!!!
SS - I KNOW YOU HEAR US!!!! COME BACK!!!!!
Okay, you think they heard me?
And for all you vultures -
Be aware that in the great state of Georgia, there has been quite a debate regarding the laws and regulations of our Department of Natural Resources. While some claim there is a state law prohibiting anyone from killing a 'vulture', that said law has yet to be found printed anywhere in any kind of documentation.
Until then, you guys are fair game.
Let it be known, my best friend is sitting in a gun rack.
Lock and Load.
^_~
yes indeed kass and lolita! gary is hot!!
i like alan rickman too!
right i've gotta go and crack on with my kids tea which i am burning as i speak. poor little buggers!!
bye for now!
Alan Rickman, too.
Aghrjheskhdf
I love European men who are 263476246 years older than me. It's an obsession. I wonder what they call it.
Aww FASC, don't go!
I forgot to mock you over Ronaldo's very amusing yellow card for 'diving'. Perish the thought!
Kass xx
Hello FASC, smoke, Lolita, Kass, MIB, OP, lurkers, anons and anyone else I may have missed.
I feel sick. That chicken curry really did me no good.
Howdy, ladies! ^_^
Lloyd, huh? Thinkin' maybe we should name the most cuddly party sheep Lloyd in honor of that post.
SO what's up today? I'm so far in the dark that I couldn't find my ass (or Kapunua's, for the matter) with both hands and a flashlight. Anyone care to fills me in on what I missed?
Hi, J! Happy Belated real Birthday! *hugz* I've been having some email problems, did you get the e-card?
- Sis "Fuck, It's Tuesday" Midnite
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